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She's Back and Higher Than Ever
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Break the tolerance break with Kels and enjoy this chaotic and hilarious trip of an episode...she forgot to plug in the mic, we're talking THAT chatoic...
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Solo Hosting and Jealousy
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Welcome to awake and bake and educational high vibrational mystical spiritual pot. I'm sorry. Podcast from one girl, one joint and a journey to awaken. What's inside all of us as well as one baby, the joint and the baby. We're not together. Full disclosure. We don't want anyone coming at me. Um, what's up guys. Uh, it's just me Kelsey today. Danny is having a big weekend. Emily Glott, who you all know and love, uh, is in town and San Luis is a biz bow.
00:00:30
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the place in California where Danny lives. Slow. I never know how to say the actual name, so I should just call it slow.
Life Changes After Baby
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And they are going to fucking LA to see Queen Irby, and I am so incredibly jealous, but it turns out it's not recommended to leave your one month old baby. So hey, also, I probably shouldn't spend that money on
00:00:56
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a plane ticket and concert tickets right now because I'm a responsible parent. Um, my life is so different, guys. Everything is, everything's flipped turned upside down. Um, okay, yeah, if you guys couldn't tell, my tolerance break has been broken. This has been like a minute of me just like bloop bloop bloop bloop bloop. Um, and that's okay. Cause you know what? It's good to be back.
00:01:21
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and I wanted to start you guys off on the right foot of just seeing exactly where I am. Stoney Bologna. Yeah, so after, I think it was just about nine months, yeah, because I found out I was pregnant probably like, I think it was at five weeks, and I'm not gonna do the math right now. I had a tolerance break for about nine months while I grew this little June bug, and this weekend I was able to
Cannabis Use Post-Pregnancy
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uh, make my grand return to cannabis. My father-in-law, Gary, uh, I think we've talked about him on the show. Uh, he is an incredible farmer, cannabis farmer. And he, I think he has, he just finished a crop and he got, I believe it was 32 ounces, two full pounds. Um, what? Two pounds of weed. And so he came out this weekend to meet Phoebe.
00:02:17
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Along with Cole's mom and they brought us a little little gift bag that guys honestly I knew I was gonna be a lightweight compared to what I was before But wow literally one hit like that's what I did before this was a single hit and I'm where I am So it's it's great stuff. But I also have my tolerance is just like zero I kind of feel like I'm back in like high school again when I first smoked and like
00:02:47
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Which is kind of cool. I like, I like getting like, this is the feeling that's fun. Um, when your tolerance, or at least for me, when my tolerance is like super high, it generally isn't like, I feel like I'm smoking and not feeling anything. So this is like a gift along with getting my sweet little baby. I get to be Anubia on, on the sweet again. Um, but yeah, so this weekend I get to, I get to do it. I get to, I get to do pot.
00:03:16
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And, uh, it felt so good. I giggled a lot.
Resuming Intimacy After Childbirth
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Honestly, though, the best part, I was, I've been sticking to more like indica, indica-y feeling, uh, strains. And it has felt so good to feel my body relax. Like since birth, like I've just been very tense. I mean, even before birth, even like those last couple of weeks of pregnancy, last couple of months, honestly, my whole pregnancy, I had fucking hyperemesis. Like I was sick.
00:03:44
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my body took a beating. And so, yeah, like feeling that relaxation in my muscles has been so good. So good, like orgasmic. Speaking of orgasmic, I'm gonna, this might be like TMI, but who cares? You guys are like, this is my safe space. This is our safe space. This is, I'm just gonna say it. So yeah, I haven't obviously done anything sexual since giving birth because
00:04:13
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Kinda takes a toll on your JJ. But I think tonight we're gonna try like some external play. And I am so excited guys. I have been horny as hell. But like if I do anything, I'm not gonna put pressure on it. Like if I don't, it doesn't feel good. Like whatever, I'll stop obviously. But I'm really, really excited to get sexy again. Like really, really excited.
Postpartum Life and Cannabis Balance
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Sex was fine pregnant. I thought it was going to be like magical and I think it can be sometimes like I think it all depends on like the pregnancy, the hormones, all that stuff. Um, and yeah, like I said, I was really sick. So like sex wasn't like super in my mind at the beginning. It was more so until like six months and then it was just kind of uncomfortable. You can't, you're kind of limited on positions. And we kept doing what we call the sideways way where you're both laying on your side. And, um, I don't know, like it was usually fine, but it wasn't like,
00:05:10
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Great. I spend most of the time just being like, wow, I'm ready to be done. I'm huge. And this is crazy. And I want to throw up because I always was throwing up. But yeah, so I'm super excited and nervous. So I'm just telling you guys that I'm returning to sex tonight, maybe hopefully. Sexual acts, I should say. We're not going to have sex yet because I haven't had my follow-up appointment. And I'm a good little patient.
00:05:40
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we're going to do something because mommy needs to, uh, needs to get off if you know what I'm saying. Um, and yeah, so I got really high this weekend. Oh God. Um, and it's just been, yeah, it's just been fun. I've enjoyed it. I've, I've missed cannabis. I've kind of gone crazy this weekend because well now it's not this weekend, now it's Thursday. Um,
00:06:07
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that I went crazy over the weekend with it because I had my mother-in-law in town to help. Obviously Gary, my father-in-law, wasn't much help. He was the one who was supplying. And so I had my mother-in-law who was able to help me with BB. And just so I didn't know how it was going to be my first time smoking. I didn't know how I was going to react. My body's changed and stuff, so I didn't know if I was going to get really paranoid or even just really tired. I just had no idea.
00:06:36
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Um, turns out I handled it like a champ still, of course. Stoner queen. Um, but yeah, so just have those extra, that extra help. Um, as I like eased back into this and, um, but I'm thinking that I'm going to be using it much more sparingly. Um, just because, well, yeah, I mean, it's fun being high obviously. Um, and it's honestly really fun to hang out with a baby when you're a little high. Um, I will say I really have.
00:07:07
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I really just want to be like as hyper present for every moment of her Phoebe's life because it's every moment is perfect. Um, and so honestly, like I, I've been smoking more because I miss the feeling and like the nostalgia of it than like it really being a super, I don't want to say super medicinal. I guess I've been, yeah, but doing it more for fun as opposed to.
00:07:36
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out of necessity. Because it does help me a lot with my mental health, like staying honestly, one of the biggest things energizing me and like helping me focus. But I felt focused when I haven't been smoking is what I'm saying and I felt good. And so because I want to like, you know, kind of keep my tolerance up and not I don't want to be I don't want to be like being a mom and being
00:08:07
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It's like smoking a bomb all the time, if that makes sense. Like, I guess I'm kind of thinking about it and I'm not comparing weed and cigarettes at all. I just mean I, like, because my parents smoked cigarettes. Like I hated having to be like, oh, where's mommy? And then like have to, having to go like be around the smoke and stuff, like just when they're really young. And so I'm thinking like, I mean, I
Motherhood Challenges and Mental Health
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don't know. I'm going to obviously talk to them about weed and
00:08:34
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Yeah, it's not as bad as cigarettes. As I started, I was just going to say, like, I would want her to like need me and like have to come find me. And I'm like outside smoking. But I guess that's really not that big a deal. It would be worse deal to say we're cigarettes. Can you guys tell that I'm high? Obviously, I am just kind of rambling. So thank you for being here and listening to this. Yeah, I've been a mom for a month, guys. Isn't it insane?
00:09:04
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It's insane to me. I'm sure it's insane to you too, because how could it not be? Because it's fucking insane. It's been awesome though. I mean, it's hard. Don't get me wrong. There's been a lot of hard moments. It's an incredibly hard moments. But even just like I said, like during my birth, I've just been very much on the route of trusting. I just like when things are hard, I'm just like,
00:09:30
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I trust what's happening. I trust that this is a lesson I need to learn. And I trust that it will end. I will get through this. It has to come to completion. There has to be an end of this. I will push through. And I'm always right. So it works. And obviously, I struggle with depression and anxiety. So I've been really stressed about getting some type of postpartum depression, postpartum anxiety.
00:09:58
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And I've been feeling very, I've been feeling very good. I did up my antidepressant a little bit just because my doctor and I decided that it was probably time. But other than that, I've been feeling very like energetically aligned, very high vibrational, but also just very at peace. Like that is the only, because I'm not like
00:10:21
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you know, like jittery happy. I'm just like at peace and blissful, I think is what I would describe mom life right now. Even in its hardest moments, I can look at her and just like feel that love. And it just brings me back to peace and bliss. Um, okay. Not at 2 AM when she's screaming and I want to go back to sleep. Those are maybe the only moments that I can't return to peace and bliss, but instead, instead I returned to it will end. She will fall asleep. Um,
00:10:51
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Yeah. So I'm going to stop talking now because I don't even know how much of this has made sense, but I hope you've enjoyed it. I've enjoyed recording it. It's nice talking to humans again, adult humans, not just little babies. I mean, Cole's here too, but he pretty much just talks about like.
00:11:07
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his chickens that he just got which I don't like chickens so I'm not stoked about that but he talks about his chickens and he talks about his crows because he's trying to befriend crows outside and he's giving them offerings of shiny things and peanuts and I just um my partner is quirky as fuck and I love him don't get me wrong but like
00:11:31
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He's insane. He's just truly insane. I literally watched him stand outside today by the chicken coop with a little crow call trying to talk to crows Bring them in he watched a video about how to make crow noises with his mouth like how he can speak crow Apparently if you befriend them they'll like follow you and if you drop something they'll like bring it to you
00:11:53
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I told him that if he gets a car to do that, I will give him a blowjob whenever he wants. And so jury's still on that one. All right, stay high. Bye.