Introduction to Spirituality and Personal Growth
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Welcome to Awaken Fake, an educational, high vibrational, mystical, spiritual pot, I'm sorry, podcast, from one girl, one joint, and a journey to awaken what's inside all of us. And the words of the very wise was Khalifa, let's roll something and get the day started. Phoebe's sitting here looking at me with the cutest face. She has the most beautiful eyes in the fucking world. If you haven't seen my baby, I am sorry. She is...
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Just lovely. And while I could sit here and talk to you about how amazing my baby is, that is not what I'm going to do. I am
Critique of Capitalism and Marketing Strategies
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here to talk to you about how we need to take capitalism the fuck down. Half kidding. Because we do. I am over capitalism. But I think what I'm more so over is marketing. Do you realize that we are constantly being marketed to? Like every single thing that we do
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companies, corporations bank on, they plan for, they hope that we will do so that we will then spend money to buy their things. Like all of it is so crazy. My sister-in-law used to work for a company who, I don't know like how much I can say now that I'm saying it, but I'm just going to say a company that helped a big fast food company work through like their marketing.
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And I remember, I think it was, and I might just be like, I think it was like Women's Month, International Women's Month, you know, March Women's History Month, whatever the name of it, I think it's International Women's Day is in March and then
Impact of Ads on Consumer Behavior
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the month of March is women's history month, whatever. Um, anyways, they were trying to come up, the fast food restaurant was trying to come up with like a thing, a special burger, a special promotion for like that month. And like they, she was talking about like the conversations that they had about
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how they decided which burger or like what to do or like onion, like everything that they do down to like every single thing that is put on a billboard or a bus or a fucking park bench, like all of it has been designed. I know I'm sure you guys have heard about like casinos, how casinos pump oxygen and there's no windows so that you spend more money so that you stay there.
Ethics of Consumption and Minimalism
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Our generations, fucking it, what is it, thorn in the side is Instagram. It's TikTok. TikTok especially for me. I get a lot of Instagram ads too for whatever reason. And I think it's just because I've been on, I'm more active on Instagram. I've like gone to my settings, you know, and like put in things that I feel like I get less ads on Instagram.
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But TikTok man, they fucking, they're constantly trying to sell you. Like it's impressive how much work that they put into things. And it's funny because it's all like the same stuff. Like I've lately been seeing like this viral bodysuit that's on and like, it's like $9 and I'm, unfortunately guys, I'm pretty fucking positive it comes from like,
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child factories like all these things that like these these things that were getting advertised like Teemu that's what I've been seeing and I think that's a sight and it's like wish and like these things are great guys I get it I get it it's so nice to be able to buy cheap things
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Yes, it is. She and we've talked about that endlessly. It is so cool to be able to spend money, little bits of money and get like all this stuff. But remember that the stuff's probably fucking cheap. And I think that it might have some kind of negative energy if it's coming from like a child labor factory. And also, did you need it? Did you need it?
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Because that's a question I've been asking myself a lot. I've been getting rid of things. I have been just kind of cleansing my space myself, like just trying to I'm on a real journey of like discovering the truths of the world and finding my truths and figuring out how to honor myself and like what serves me, what doesn't serve me. And I'm finding that a lot of like material possessions are just silly.
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I guess, I think silly is a good word. Like they're just so unnecessary that we get talked into thinking that we need to buy them. Like you don't, you don't need all these things. I think one for me, especially since, you know, this is Awakenment, we're talking about spirituality and stuff and I feel like this is extremely prevalent.
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the spiritual world is this belief
Mindful Practices: Meditation and Journaling
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that you need money to be able to be spiritual that somehow having these things. I mean I myself meditation is something I've always wanted to do. I've always loved meditating. I have for years done it.
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But like sporadically, I didn't have a real practice. I would feel called and then I'd sit and I'd do, you know, whatever. I'd listen to a guided meditation, whatever called to me and it was fine because it did help me lay down that groundwork. I am not denying that. That was great and that was meditation and that was valuable.
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But it's not. It wasn't a practice, I will say, of mine. And I always wanted it to be a practice of mine. But I had these beliefs, these limiting beliefs in my head that because I don't have like fucking 50 sound bowls that I can sit around or a waterfall behind me that I can always do it in front of that I can't do that, that I don't have the ability to be a meditator.
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That's fucking bullshit. It's such bullshit. And there are tools if you need, if you want like assistance or if you need guidance or direction. I use Insight. It's a meditation app and it's incredible. And there is a paid option but I just use the free version because I know that's all I need. I know.
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that having access to what I like on it is it's got like a timer so that I can play that that doesn't do anything in the background so it's just quiet if I want a quiet meditation there's thousands of guided meditation options and it tracks it so that I know that I've been meditating every day but it's not like
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Notifying me things. It's not like doing you know, it's not there's no interaction from it to me It is simply a tool that I use for free to help me to keep track of what it is that I have done or how much meditation I have done because it is something that I'm trying to grow and get better at and now that I'm fucking Medicated my ADHD allows me to sit and meditate and it's fucking awesome. It's changed my life I feel like another one that a lot of us really struggle with or we get in our head about and it's so silly is journaling and
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Two journal, you need something you can write on and something you can write with. You do not need a fucking $40 leatherback notebook spiral bound with fucking pages of silk and a fountain pen that bleeds fucking Phoenix blood into your paper. Like, no, no.
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Honestly, honestly, honestly, and we're talking starting like like right. It's the beginning of the year So like we're talking like resolution type shit people like you're you're wanting to do something new you want a journal I can pretty much promise that buying an extremely expensive journal and a nice pen and
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is not going to be what's going to help you get into a consistent practice that is your own true practice. And I'll get more into that in a second. Sorry if you're here in Phoebe. She's just like doing little purrs over here.
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But to start off journaling, you simply need something to write on, something to write with. You do not need to save it. It does not need to be sentences. It can just be words. You can art journal. Our friend Ally, you know authentically Ally, she art journals. Journaling is not something with rules. And that's how it is in all of spirituality. None of it has rules and it's all you.
Personal Fitness and Self-Sufficiency
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someone to give you a journal that has questions written out for you. While that can be a great tool, especially further on down your evolution, because you might need you might want to try something new. I suggest trying it your way first, just trying what works for you. I have literally journaled scribbles like I have literally just scribbled on a sheet. I once took a Sharpie and colored a whole page black like
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full black just black out no white spots because that's what I felt like that's what I needed to get out like these things that you can do for yourself you don't need to pay someone else for you have it and if you're able to pay someone else for it that's that's great but
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I urge you to try it without. Try it your way first. And I know that sounds silly because you don't want to do it the wrong way, but there are no wrong ways. And that's something I need to get out of my head is like that there's a right and a wrong way for everything. There's not. And you're not going to find your spiritual practice or hell, even your healthy practice. Like if we are just talking about if you don't give a fuck about the universe, any of that, but you just want to be a happier, healthier,
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a more positive version of yourself coming into this new year and you're trying to make changes to do that, try it yourself. Look inward. See what you want. What is it that your body is asking for? Not what some trainer is telling you.
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It's an extremely exciting and exhilarating experience to allow yourself to explore learning and to explore how you want to learn to do something and how you want to practice something and to help yourself create and kind of cultivate your own
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energy and your own rituals around these things, because it's yours. These are your practices. And I just get like so I think maybe my eye personally was triggered. I just I cannot open TikTok without it telling me about that goddamn fucking bodysuit and how it'll make me look snatched and all this stuff like. And then it makes me think about like, OK, going to the gym and then I'm like, I need a gym membership. No, you don't. I don't need a gym membership. I can go to the gym if I want to move my body.
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I am not someone who moves that body like...
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an athlete anymore. I was an athlete in high school, but now I cannot work out. It's very triggering for me with my eating disorders and my experiences. Going to the gym is something that's not possible for me. I hate it. It does not serve me. I can do everything that I need to do here. Now that I'm not putting $10 a month into Planet Fitness and then feeling guilty because I'm wasting that money or having all of these thoughts in my head, instead I wake up in the morning and I ask my body,
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What do we need? Oh, we need to move a little bit. Okay, so then I go and we'll do some stretching and we'll start to feel it. Oh, you feel like you need to move a little more. Let's do some dancing or you need to move outside. We'll go walk, but I'm listening to myself because I'm at the beginning of this journey. The beginnings are about yourself. I think a lot of times we think the beginning means I need guidance. The beginning means I need all of these things, all of this stuff, all of these people to help me so that I can be successful.
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The beginning is for yourself. Hell, I urge you not even to share with other people when you're starting things. I mean, share with your partner, like share with people who will be helpful and be excited and stuff like that. But do it for you. Hold on on the sharing. Do it for yourself for a little bit and then see what you want to share.
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And like it's just so crazy the more I look around the world and look at these truths in the fucking face like man all they want is for us to spend money money money money on these things that we don't need these things that we are able to do ourselves like
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What the fuck? Bread. Obviously, guys, I'm not lying. I'm going to buy some sandwich bread. Don't get me wrong there. However, I'm just saying, bread can be made. Isn't that cool that we can do that? I've been seeing a lot more people sewing their own clothes and doing things, and I think that's so fucking beautiful. Or growing your own vegetables. You can do anything for yourself, and I think it's really, really
Societal Structures: Socialism and Universal Healthcare
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to be able to buy things from each other as well. I think that's very important being able to share goods and share stories through that. Like I think you're sharing energy and you're sharing abundance that way. But I feel like we really need to take it back to more of
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that mindset that we had in the earlier years of humanity of what am I contributing, though? You know, what am I what can I do? Or if this person is going to do this for me, I can help out by doing this. And then we'll all have, you know, that community aspect of coming together so that everyone has a chance, you know, kind of like socialism. Guys, I'm not saying you should be a commie. All right. I'm not saying let's all move to Russia, obviously.
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Um, I'm just saying, hey, maybe a little social doesn't hurt. Sprinkle in a little healthcare for everyone. Ooh, get spicy. I wish. Oh God, I wish we should all have universal healthcare. It's so, so fucking ridiculous
Capitalism's Impact on Society
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that we don't, but I digress.
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So yeah, capitalism is just basically fucking evil. And I feel like we're constantly, constantly, constantly being told that we don't have it. Like, you don't have it. You don't have whatever it is you need. You don't have it. And you got it, babe. I got it. I know the fuck I got it. I had someone try and tell me that I should go to church to try and find
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Because I was looking, I had made a post about like how I'm in search for these truths and I'm so excited about this journey and like it's so exciting. It's about, it's not about answers, it's about asking questions. And this person responded on Facebook and said that I know where you can find the answers that you're looking for. Like it's you turn to God.
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And I just had to respond like respectfully. No, I don't need to turn to God for my fucking answers. I don't want answers. I don't want like, no, I want to enjoy this journey. I want to be a person who makes an impact, who has an experience.
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who then dies and who knows what the fuck happens from there. But like my experience was fulfilled. I have done all the things that I can possibly do to exist and feel and participate in this world and this reality. And I think we can do that.
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Much more valuably than just being someone who is spending money in this world, you know be someone who is Starting things not just buying from others be someone who cultivates their own abundance their own wealth their own knowledge their own everything like just be fucking self-sufficient because you can be a
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You can be. I can be. I had no idea I could be this self-sufficient. And yes, I am medicated. I'm on antidepressants. I got shit helping me. I am not perfect. And yes, I spend money. I just bought clothes from Yeti because fucking Lizzo is my idol and I love her. Yes, I'm not trying to sit here on, you know,
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in my ivory tower and look down and be like, oh, my God, all you fucking capitalists knock it off. No, I'm saying that together. It's kind of like the whole idea of like meat, right? People are saying, and they are right, that the amount of beef consumption in the United States, especially, is a huge contributing factor to climate change because of actually the cow waste and just like the land that we need for like all of that stuff.
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there the answer doesn't need to be stop eating beef what if we just cooled it you know like how about instead of having steak for dinner every night someone who does that looks and is like oh i could sacrifice and have chicken three nights and it would make a difference like that's the thing is that it doesn't need these
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These changes that I know we all want really don't require everyone to sacrifice everything. It requires everyone to sacrifice a little bit so that we can all have it all. You know, like, if we just stop being so obsessed with this fucking greed, then we can see that there is enough for everybody. There is enough to go around. Like, we don't need to be fucking doing it the way that we're doing it.
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and yet we are like we are choosing to have children in this world that live in poverty and especially in this country because there is so much wealth here it is absolutely asinine that this is the case but it is there are so many children that live here in poverty that don't have access to food i remember being in san diego because i grew up
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very privileged in upstate New York. I'm from a small town like in, you know, a very farmy area. When I moved to San Diego and we saw the homeless people, it was an extremely, extremely trying lesson for myself about the reality of the world. And one of the shattering moments for that was when I saw children in a tent. I had never
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I have been fortunate enough to never consider the possibility of a child in the United States needing to live in a tent on the side of the road. I hadn't, I had been privileged enough to not have to think of that as a true experience for children here. It is. There are a lot of children living in tents, eating out of garbage cans. I have witnessed it surviving
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And it doesn't need to be like that. We could stop that. We could help that. We could. We could. And mostly, yes,
Empowerment and Self-Reliance
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big companies and politicians are the ones who have the ability to change it right now. But that's why we need to fucking stop and remember who the fuck we are and that we have this power and that all of those people work for us.
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I don't think we need to give him our money because, honestly, we don't need them. We have each other. We have ourselves. All I need is myself. I don't need fucking Bill Gates. I don't need fucking Apple person, whoever runs that. Jim Bezos, fuck you. Like, if we're going to stick it to the fucking man, then we have to be able to
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survive ourselves. And so to do that, we need to be able to live without Amazon. So like, let's boycott it all. Fuck it. I'm done. I'm done with it. I'm done. You know what? I just said I've spent money. I know I'm not perfect. Fuck that. I am perfect. Just kidding. Please. I'm just kidding. I'm just kidding. I'm not perfect. I'm simply doing this to hype myself up.
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I am not going to be spending any more money. Fuck Amazon. Fuck it. No. Not fuck Yeti. Lizzo is a goddess among us. Goddessed. She is the goddess goddess. I love that woman. I love women. I love humans. And I love you guys. And I love my baby. And I just want this world to be better. I just want this world to be happy, Phoebe. Is that what we're going to do? Are we going to make it a happy world?
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Well, at least happier. If I can make if we can make some people smile, that's all that matters to me these days. I don't know. It's a little bit disheartening to be existing right now, but that just means that like, fuck it, we got to fight back. And unfortunately, the only way to fight these people is with money. They are the world runs on money and we need to watch it burn. All right, Phoebe's getting
Conclusion: A Vision for a Better World
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upset. I think we should call it. Ah, Phoebe. Can you say I love you, everybody?
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Alright bitches. And bitchers, if you're a male bitch. Bitchy. Whatever. Fuck y'all. Love y'all. Stay high. Bye.