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Redefining Spirituality in a Messy, Real World with Courtney Aragon (The truth on spiritual growth, healing & being human without losing yourself)
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Whether you are new to spirituality or been in your spiritual journey for a while, in this episode my dear friend Courtney & I talk about ALL of the nuances in the spiritual matrix, topics around sex, alcohol, judgement, comparison, pedestalizing, the inner work, along with our personal experiences to help you navigate the REAL WORLD from an empowering, aligned place.
Courtney is a nurse, who is also an intuitive, healer, and total BADASS. She's been in the spiritual world for years as have I, and our intention with this episode is to help you make aligned decisions, share the SOURCE TRUTH around manifestation and stepping into your highest purpose, while enjoying being human.
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Transcript
Introduction and Misconceptions about Spirituality
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hello Hello, Welcome back to the She's Next Level podcast. It's your girl Darsh and today, honey, today is the day. So today's episode is really, really juicy.
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I'm super excited to share this collaboration that I did with my girl Courtney and this conversation was inspired when we were doing like an intuitive read with each other.
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and we were just talking about spirituality and I honestly had no plan on how the conversation was going to go, what we were going to talk about, but it's just really funny because we ended up talking about a lot of juicy things. I walked away just feeling more empowered and more in love and in tune with myself. So some of the things that we talked about in our conversation around sex, around religion, around what it actually means to be spiritual, especially in this modern day and age,
00:00:52
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There's just so much bullshit and nuance out there in the world around spirituality. And I just feel like this was very much needed for the world. And especially like now, ah more than ever, like everyone's just waking up more
Courtney's Spiritual Awakening Journey
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and more every day. and there's just so much misinformation on the internet around spirituality. So Courtney and I are really going to break it down with you and you know, take what resonates and leave what doesn't. But I guarantee this is 100% source truth information, meaning AKA God, whoever you want to call it, the universe. But this is information that we have learned and we have also validated in our own experiences in our life. I mean, we've been together. We've been in this journey for a long time. And especially like speaking for me personally, i have been
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in and out and all around and I can attest to my own experience how I was when I first started in my journey of like self growth, self development, spirituality and how I am now and really help you break free from those limiting ideas on the internet because If there's one thing that we're not doing here is limiting ourselves, we are always leveling up and elevating. So anyways, let's get into this episode because it's really juicy and I hope that you're able to take away something from
Spirituality and Evolving Friendships
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it. And if you do, then definitely let me know and DMs, on Instagram, what you took away, what resonated,
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um and guys, so I'm so excited to have my friend Courtney here. um She's also a subconscious, I don't even know what to call it nowadays, like the work that we do, because it's just like a little bit of everything.
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I...
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obviously trained my intuition and she's in the training program that I'm in. And we've been practicing with each other for a while now with like giving reads for each other. And this topic was inspired by a conversation that we were having last time we practiced.
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And don't remember how it came up, but it was around like spirituality and like friendships.
Authenticity and Personal Alignment in Spirituality
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Honestly, I was just really fascinated by the fact and how you're able to like magnetize yourself.
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people to you and like, in a way, and it's not because you're pretty, because you are but like your energy. And it's like, I that's something that I've, you know, kind of struggled with for a while. It's like, I can meet people easily, but like, having to manage and like hold relationships and like infuse myself in communities, it's just kind of like a self thing too. But I really admire how you do that. And then like, I don't remember how the conversation led to spirituality. But I really wanted to do this with you. Because I feel like you and I have very similar mindsets around spirituality and what it actually looks like in the world and then how we see it. Cause it's just so different from like everything that we've learned with our mentor and like from the journey that we've had from like our self image to training our intuition and like all this stuff.
Debunking Spirituality Misconceptions
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But I want to know before we like get into that, when was your spiritual awakening and how has that journey been for you? thus far up until now, just like a little bit of a tidbit.
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Sure. Yeah, that's a roller coaster. We all know the quote unquote spiritual journey is a freaking roller coaster. But yeah, my awakening probably happened. It was about four years ago on my 27th birthday, like typical Saturn return, you know,
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And, you know, long story short, I was living a completely different life. I was like living in Vegas. I was a party girl. I was travel nursing and i was just kind of going down the wrong path, I think. And it was necessary because I'm the type of person that has to like fuck around and find out with everything.
00:04:40
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But i I think my soul came knocking on the door and was like, what are you doing? Like you are so meant to be helping people and doing something so much bigger than what you're doing. So Hence, the spiritual journey began like a few days later. I like met my first life coach. and She was like an IV client of mine. And then i started my business with no experience. It was like a life coaching business back then. And it just was like I kept going for a few years. I was like just.
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reading the Joe Dispenza books and, you know, getting, I feel like Joe Dispenza is like the, the, the gateway drug spirituality.
Embracing Imperfections and True Spiritual Living
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And then like, it got deeper. I was like sitting in ayahuasca ceremonies in the jungle and like puking my brains out in a bucket. And like, and it's just crazy how I began, began at like crystal girly all the way up until my entire freaking life falling apart a year and a half ago and then like rebuilding it from ground up so that's been the journey for me it has been such a roller coaster but here we are I gotta say I cannot imagine you as a crystal girl at all because the way I see spirituality now like I haven't really been into crystals like that and like
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I have dived into spirituality with like, Abraham Hicks was actually my first introduction to spirituality and then his stuff as well. But, and I just like the fact that she brings in a little bit like relatable woo woo is what I call it. It's like actual examples. It's not just like the brain and the science and all of that. I remember like, for me, I was like that mean bitch where I was just like,
00:06:22
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I'm too good. Like now I know like what life is about and like I can't be like freaking twerking like that anymore or like I can't be cursing like I do curse and even that it's like it's okay like it's not like it doesn't make you a bad person or anything and I was like super judgy as well because people weren't thinking the way that I was thinking. And that was a really big one for me. You wouldn't be able to tell that I was spiritual, but internally I was just like also feeling a sense of weirdness. Like I do feel like the world displays spirituality in such a weird manner. It's weird to be spiritual because you see people like drummer, like drumming and like doing all these weird dances or like, like light length. Wearing their hats.
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Wearing all these like crazy things looking like witches and like, like all these. And it's just like, that's not really it. Especially now in the point where I'm at in my journey, like that's not what it looks like. When did you have that
Lessons in Self-Worth and Authenticity
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aha moment for you? Like, like, do you remember ah special moment in time where you were like, so like, this is not what I think it is.
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When it meet when it comes to being spiritual, what that means for you? Oh my god, yeah. Like, and again, it literally took me like my entire life falling apart for me to realize this. But like, I think my perception of what there was like so much time for a couple of years where I just like thought I had to be a certain way. Like, I just like you like, oh my god, I can't twerk anymore. Like I can't enjoy myself at a music festival. I can't you know, curse like a Detroit truck driver, like I always do. Like, I have to like show up a certain way. And like, I was on my spiritual high horse, like really deeply, just like judging myself in the way that I was and then like projecting that judgment onto others. Right.
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And I fully admit that, like I had my spiritual high horse days. I still like, I'm very conscious of watching myself on that, but it was like, i was building my business, um,
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my coaching business from a place that was not super authentic to me and like I had a relationship that was beautiful but it wasn't in alignment and just like so many things that I thought like my life needed to like look a certain way or I had to make a certain amount of money or like portray myself a certain way and then my higher self was like nah bitch and my entire life fell apart a year and a half ago and that was the moment that I realized I was like I'm putting my sense of self-worth and my validation into what I think that I should be.
00:08:58
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And when I was stripped of everything, like I literally had almost no money left. Like I had to walk away from my business, like go back to a full-time nursing job for a little while. And like my relationship ended and I lost my brother. there's just like a lot of stuff happening at one time.
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Like I had to find my sense of self-worth and what true truly like being quote unquote spiritual and true alignment felt like to me from that place of like nothing.
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It felt like the void, but it was actually like a portal into deeper alignment into like me recovering all the pieces of myself that I had exiled before. And then I realized I was like, you know what?
Alcohol, Societal Norms, and Spiritual Practices
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What the hell? Like, I think you said this, Darsh, and I don't want to take this quote away from you, but spirituality is truly the art of being yourself. And that needs to be the Bible
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Bible, new version. Let's go.
00:09:57
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The source truth. That is the source truth. It really is Like all of yourself, all the parts, all encompassing, the parts that twerk, the parts that cuss, the part that sometimes drinks a margarita, the part that sometimes is crying on the bathroom floor, the part that celebrates life, the part that does everything and oh my god speaking of fucking alcohol like i have to hear i have to share the biggest spiritual bullshit at least for me on my end of like and this was a big one for me and i know it's a very touchy subject as well but i really want people to expand their minds around it because yes i you know i live a healthy lifestyle so like of course i don't really drink in general
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um only socially whenever I feel like it now. Because before I was actually restricting myself, which I learned anytime restricting yourself, you are not being spiritual because you're not allowing yourself to be yourself.
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But with alcohol, I remember going out to dinner with a friend and ah you know we catched up and everything and I was like letting her know like what I'm up to nowadays and I was like I was just like super excited to share all these like things that I'm learning around like spirituality energy work the universal laws that I'm learning about like I mean half the things that you don't even hear online that we're learning about. she wanted to hang out another day. And then she was just like, Hey, like I wanted to go and, you know, go out for a drink and like hang out night out. But like, are you still allowed to drink now that you're spiritual? And I like, wait, was like, hold up girl.
00:11:35
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I was like, just because I'm spiritual, it doesn't mean that I'm not allowed to drink or I'm not allowed to do like the human things that aren't deemed to be like good for you. Alcohol to some extent is not the best for you. But like, it doesn't mean that I'm going to stop doing that forever.
Judgment in Spiritual Communities
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It's a personal choice.
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But I just thought that was so interesting because I do know for a fact that there's a lot of programming out there and a lot of shitty weird advice around like alcohol and spirituality and it's like yes I get it but it's like i'm not gonna also like stop living my life and I do have the tools to like obviously protect myself and do what I need to do energetically to ah stay in alignment to the best of my ability of um if I do to to decide to do that. But I just thought it was really funny. um And because I hit her up the other day and I was just like, yeah, girl, let's go out to Napa. Like, let's go wine tasting. And then she's like, what happened? And I'm like, nothing happened.
00:12:32
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Nothing ever happened. dude i like totally i love this subject i mean we could talk forever on this but like i used to do the same shit like i would like shame myself and blah blah blah but i'm just like honestly here's my like what i've come to learn especially on the intuitive journey it's like i enjoy going out and then you know occasionally having a glass of wine or two or enjoying a craft cocktail like we're fucking human we're supposed to do this stuff like you don't have to if you don't want to i can go i've gone like a year without drinking there's some times where i'm like yeah i don't feel like i need to do that and when i'm doing intuitive reads and working on my business i tend to like avoid it around those times so i could be a you know clearer channel but at the end of the day it's like if i'm sitting on a beach in mexico like a mocktail is just not gonna hit the same and in my opinion like it
00:13:25
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And what I know to be, you know, sort of the deeper truth, like there's people in the spiritual world that will shame you for like having a drink or two here and there, yet they're like taking like two grams of mushrooms in a night.
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And like, how is my drink or two that's not even like making me intoxicated at all, like more safe than you like blasting your energy open with like mushrooms, you know, and I'm not shaming people who do plant medicines or anything like that, because I've been on that journey too. But no, like,
00:13:53
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Just like let people live. Like if I want to go have a drink, it's fine. Yeah. Also, like another thing I wanted to add on to that, too, is like the judgment and the judgment specifically around like at least I know for me was around like people that just didn't do the inner work.
00:14:09
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Oh, my God. That was a big one for me. People that just were not into the inner work or doing the inner work and doing things that I know were like not the best for you, but like honoring their journey and not like seeing them just as like equal.
00:14:25
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And when I say equal, it's equal in a way where you're not better than them and they're not better than you. Like you are special and so are they. about like oh I'm doing all this inner work and I'm like so up here so much better and like you you you should know these things like kind of pushing that like because like oh like religions do this often and they push that spirituality they try to they say that they don't but they really try to you know, push that onto people and like judge them if they're not, they're not being a certain way based on the rules of religion.
00:15:01
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And to me, like, unconditional love, I mean, that's what source is, aka God, whatever you want to call it. And so if there is only unconditional love, in that and then all that there is, then why are there rules?
00:15:14
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Maybe there won't be any rules. Because then that means that setting rules on something means that it's wrong. Get it? On a human level, there are certain like killing a person is not like, you know, it's not.
00:15:27
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But God still loves that person just as much as he loves you. and so that's like what I also see in the spirituality. Like matrix is like the right and the wrong and like the component and the judgment if you're not in this work.
00:15:42
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why I don't think everyone's meant to be in this work doing this work. Maybe they can be doing it in a way that they're like, it's different and like helping people feel good and like,
00:15:54
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raising the consciousness of the planet. But it's like, it doesn't have to be spirituality, reprogramming, like all these things that we're into. It's just going to be different for everybody. And that was a big thing for me to learn.
00:16:07
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Cause like I was judging my family so hard. i mean, being such a black sheep and
Living Authentically Beyond Stereotypes
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being so different from like the way they think and like other people that are not into this work. And like, I felt like I couldn't relate with other people too. That was a big one of like,
00:16:22
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i' not I don't think like you, so I can't relate with you. Yeah. Oh my gosh, 100%. I feel like everybody who like, for one, the spiritual journey doesn't like it's whatever you want it to be. And it's like different for everybody. And for two, I feel like when you get deep into like the inner work and, you know, learning about yourself and unraveling layers of yourself and like, you know, in a sense, like ascending and expanding your consciousness, like everybody goes through the phase of like being on the spiritual high horse and like,
00:16:55
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judging people and I can't hang out with those people or relate to that people in my family. Like, ah you know, I've done all of that too. I, I so went through that journey. I'm so going to call myself out.
00:17:07
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And now like ever since like, again, like a year and a half of my life, like fell apart. And then like, I started to just like grow from a more authentic place and love myself more unconditionally, right? Because unconditional love is just truly seeing the good and bad in everything and loving it all the same. Because everything has positive and negative, good and bad. That's the universal law of polarity, balance.
00:17:28
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And so when I started to like live my life from that place, like before I would like always want to hang out with like the spiritual conscious community. And I would like put these guys on a pedestal and like only see like the good. And then I started to see like some of this stuff that I was like, oh, my God, this is like giving me the ick a little bit. And I would just like go back to like old aspects of my life and like hang out with my friends and my family. And I would like appreciate them so much more. I'm like, I just need to be near you guys like you guys are like,
00:17:57
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more grounded, more normal. Like I need to get away from like all of this spiritual consciousness, like stuff for a minute and just like live all, like appreciate all aspects of my life. You know, it reminds me of the thing that you said the other day that really hit me was like a true master that's fully in their power. That's fully confident and embodied is able to be amongst the chaos amongst all the contrast without fucking being faced by it. And that really resonated with me because I was like, yeah, like I, if I can stand in the fire and just be super still and super present and just see the beauty in all of it, then that makes me super powerful. Like that's what makes me actually spiritual is because I'm able to see it all for what it is and not put labels on things and not like and on myself more than that.
Balancing Energies and Societal Pressures
00:18:49
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The self-image stuff. It's like how you see yourself is how other people see you. It's not what you do to others. People are going to do to you. yeah and I feel like a lot of people are still so like stuck in that paradigm for the most part of like that give and take versus like it's all it's your world and everyone's living in it it's always your world and ever that's how I see it allowing yourself to not fuck around but fuck around like that's what i always say you're the one who's creating the world. The world is not creating you.
00:19:22
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So, you know, no matter where you go, you can like go to the like, quote unquote, lowest frequency places. Like I went to like Las Vegas or something. And, you know, there's a lot of like riffraff happening there. But when I went there, I was like, you know what?
00:19:35
Speaker
No, I bring the vibe. Like, I make the experience wherever I go. I create my life wherever I go. Like I could choose to believe that things are bad and like, you know, this situation or going to this place or doing this is going to like fuck me up. But it's like, no, like you have the power, like you, the person with the highest frequency, like always wins in a sense, like you like maintaining your frequency and like maintaining your beliefs and your sense of self-love and authenticity. That is so fucking powerful. It's potent. Like people feel that. And that's literally what like shape shifts the reality around you. And it creates any situation that you want to create. Kind of like the feeling of like, I'm so happy here that I don't need any of this. Like I'm so good and chill and like,
00:20:23
Speaker
neutral that I don't really like everything's just like bonus energy cherry on top which also like actually makes me think about like and I am like so guilty of this I've actually realized and had awareness of this like a few days ago of like wanting to keep doing the inner work and like keep going at it and like not knowing when to pump the brakes sometimes the grace and feeling like you've done enough because of that not about like improving and like growing and elevating because you're always doing that and that's part of the work but it's like feeling like you need to to get this like you need to you need to keep going to keep up with it in a way like
00:21:03
Speaker
It becomes this thing of like, it's like never ending, but it's never coming from a place of like desire. It's coming from like, okay, i need to heal this thing now. but need to heal this thing now. I'm not enough Because I don't feel that.
00:21:17
Speaker
Yeah. Or for me, like, oh my God, I'm so, but I'm guilty, guilty. Raise my hand guilty. myself out in this in this i Literally like with the amount of programs and coaches and healers and everything I've done over the last four years, I could like have a freaking PhD right now. Like I kid Literally.
00:21:37
Speaker
And I'm just like, i really like, I know a lot of it comes from desire because I really am the type of person that loves to like learn and expand on things. That's just me. But also like i have to catch myself in those times when I'm like, I'm doing this from a place of like, I feel like I'm still not enough.
00:21:52
Speaker
Like I feel like I have to learn more to be enough to like, Be worthy to be skilled enough to be whatever and it's like I've really recently had to retrain my brain to be like well if I never did a single freaking thing ever again like accomplished anything took another program made any more money like how would I still be worthy just because I'm me.
00:22:13
Speaker
like and that's one man that's a cookie one because i we're not we're not programmed to think that I mean even that I'm especially being an ambitious woman and woman that has big dreams and wants to live her best life I mean that one's that will trip people up I know it did for me I'm just still like what still tripping me up I'm like oh okay Aries boon where I'm just like always like zero to a hundred real quick I don't know what in my astrological chart makes me like that it's probably just some childhood trauma
00:22:53
Speaker
I can add that to mine too so that with that and that But hey, there's good and bad to everything. And I like that you said like you're ambitious, like, you know, you're you're a go getter, right? Like, at least these qualities make us ambitious and like have a great work ethic and everything like that.
00:23:10
Speaker
I just need to know to pump the brakes like that's my problem. Like, why is it so hard for me to just relax? Like, Yeah. Well, also, like spirituality is such a big subject that go into so many different um categories of like your your relationship with money, which is like a big one, your relationship with yourself, but also your relationship with others like masculine and feminine energies. There's such a big just like a mind fuck around like stuff.
00:23:36
Speaker
your masculine energy and your feminine energy and what that should look like. And just what you just said of like me being ambitious and all of that, like that's me, like that's never going to be taken away from me, that part of me.
00:23:47
Speaker
But it doesn't mean that I don't have like, I'm not feminine or I'm not like in touch with it or like even around a a masculine female, like feminine dynamic where I'm not able to move and shift around it. It's about being able to balance the both. And it's not about like,
00:24:05
Speaker
being like ambitious woman, just being one specific way. um i mean, I can go even on a rabbit hole about like relationships with the masculine and feminine ah energies and dynamic and what people talk
Prioritizing Self in Spiritual Growth
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about.
00:24:18
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But one thing that i i feel like, and we've learned so far with our mentor is that, and I and i want people to know is because I was in shock when I heard it. It's like, we're literally meant to be here for ourselves, fending for ourselves but and fending for ourselves, indirectly helping other people while we're fending for.
00:24:40
Speaker
That's what it feels like, because even in relationships and what we what I've learned is like, like relationships are just there to help you grow. And that's the purpose of relationships. And like nobody has a piece of your heart, but your own, you have your own heart. It's with you all at all times.
00:24:58
Speaker
It's never, never separated. And so I feel like every, the the more I learn about spirituality and even in particular with relationships, it's like, I'm always responsible for me.
00:25:10
Speaker
i always got to prioritize myself. Like that's always going to be the foundation of like spirituality because that's self-love. We all came down here to obviously help each other, but there's no one more that you need to help but yourself.
00:25:25
Speaker
I think yeah that that one is like a big one in in the spiritual world of like, the helping people versus helping yourself first. And that's the way actually meant to go and meant to be. And not feeling bad about that.
00:25:40
Speaker
Because we're made of about that. Amen. That was like, really. the biggest thing that broke my brain. And like, as we know, there's a spiritual matrix that you like have to get out of too. There's a regular matrix and then there's a spiritual matrix.
00:25:54
Speaker
But it's like, no, the the true source aligned way of living is putting yourself first. And it's like, You know, that is a big part of expanding your consciousness as a soul that goes through many different lifetimes. That's what I believe anyway.
00:26:08
Speaker
And it's like that is one of the first lessons we have to learn to be able to expand our consciousness is how to put ourselves first, especially for people like in the spiritual world or the conscious community or anybody who's in a.
00:26:22
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a position of like really wanting to help people and like is wanting to raise the frequency of the planet. Like you have to put yourself first. Like you have to pour into your own cup. And that was like the biggest lesson I learned when my whole freaking world fell apart like a year and a half ago to fall back together, of course.
00:26:41
Speaker
But it was like, I wasn't putting myself first. I was putting everybody else's needs or doing what I thought I should do and blah, blah, blah. And it was like, when everything fell apart, I had no choice but to put myself first. And that was like the biggest lesson I learned. I was like, I got to fill up my cup. And then when the cup is overflowing, you're actually able to give so much to people. You're able to like show up and so much better for people. And so yeah, It's still a lesson I'm learning. Like whenever I'm overflowing, I'm like giving a lot more and I actually feel like abundant in giving. Like I don't feel like, oh, I gave too much or like I i need something. I'm in that energy of like just completeness and wholeness and giving from that place also creates the results I want too, right? Because like you're just, the way that you're doing something is the way that it's going to manifest. So it's like win-win, you know?
00:27:37
Speaker
that Again, still a lesson that I am mastering as we know, like the last month I decided like pick up shifts at work and I was like, yeah, tons of money. Like they were offering me tons of money.
00:27:49
Speaker
um And then like that was a decision that was not putting myself first because I was like, I'm spending all my time at work and then it's like taking me away from being able to like do things on my days off and work out and, you know, I'm building my business too. It's like all this stuff is happening.
00:28:05
Speaker
And then like, I'm like having a mental breakdown by the end of a couple of weeks of doing this. And I'm like, Oh my God, have I learned this lesson yet? Like I have to put myself first. That's so funny.
00:28:16
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Cause I've only, the only thing I've ever done in my businesses that I've had is obviously for safety, security, and the money, but also like not putting myself first. Cause I put the business first and then put that.
00:28:27
Speaker
into my everything and then now like making the decision to like put myself first and like literally like zero out my income and like you know it's scary but it honestly feels so liberating because like now I'm everything I do I'm putting myself first it's trickling into like everything I do.
00:28:46
Speaker
So, and I know I'm like conscious of it to not go in the deep end of it too. Cause I can do that. of just being like not doing anything and just being like miss lazy. and we love that, but I can't be lazy forever. Like that's boring too. You know, it's like, you got to have that balance.
00:29:01
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Um, so I feel like it's funny cause I'm on the other end ah that. We're balancing each other out. so often like
00:29:10
Speaker
I'm too heavily in my masculine energy right now. It's how I know how to survive. But i you were reading my higher my higher self, you were communicating with my higher self the other day. and she's like, bitch, you like need to like build your business from, no you know, different place.
00:29:28
Speaker
So I'm learning my lessons now, but I love seeing this journey for you because like, you're such an inspiration and, That's definitely like, I'm about to be where you are very soon, you know, um walking away and just saying, screw it.
Self-Trust as a Spiritual Foundation
00:29:42
Speaker
Like it's time for me to take the leap of faith and not be between two worlds anymore and just go fully into the soul pole.
00:29:48
Speaker
And that's the place I want to do it from like putting myself first, not like scarcity and like feeling like I have to like do all these things and like chase after things to make results happen. Again, it goes back to just being the frequency of what you want.
00:30:04
Speaker
For me, the biggest, biggest, biggest lesson and besides self-love has really been something that a lot of people, even in this work struggle with and like people in general struggle with and something that i struggle with my entire life was just self-trust, like that inner freaking trust because I'm not gonna lie, like I'm doing this, yes, but I have moments in my day where I'm like,
00:30:30
Speaker
time is time is ticking, girl. And you haven't really like, what are you going to do? Like you you don't really, you haven't really fully unraveled what your soul pull, soul purpose looks like. you know, yes, I'm podcasting, but like, how am I monetizing it eventually? What am I going to be helping people with offering all these things? And it's like, just trust the journey. And I'm literally taking it day by day and checking in with my higher self and just seeing like, oh, hey what what can we do today that is going to move the needle? What can we do today that's just going to add up each and every day? But self-trust has been the biggest thing for me. And I think a lot of people when it comes to spirituality, I feel like self-trust is the foundation, man.
00:31:09
Speaker
A lot of people in the industry or in spirituality and even people that are not like that just don't really fully trust themselves and like trust everything that they receive.
00:31:24
Speaker
you know, from yourself. And then they just got lost in the sauce and distracted, which was me. and what And everyone else is doing, what everyone else is saying. And also like, yeah, there is no truth.
00:31:42
Speaker
There's a little bit of truth in everything, right? There is a little bit of truth in everything, but ultimately it's still the truth that you decided to be because we all create our reality, right?
00:31:53
Speaker
so like sometimes we're literally taking things so personal or like so literal, what people are saying that we're like, we're forgetting to like discern what actually resonates and empowers you versus like what doesn't. And I feel like this is not being talked about in the spiritual world of like, um,
00:32:11
Speaker
obviously not putting people on a pedestal, but also like seeing the information and and actually having the awareness to discern what's like for you and what empowers you and supports you on your purpose and your journey versus what doesn't.
00:32:25
Speaker
Cause like for me, what would empower me may not be the same for you. Cause you have a different path. You have different like ways of being than I do, but it doesn't mean that Like that's like, there is no truth, true or wrong thing. Like there is no, none of that. It's everything that we get to create and make up.
00:32:42
Speaker
So I'm now more than ever doing that, you know, and it doesn't mean that person's wrong or I'm right. And I think if people understood this, they would literally have so much grace and they would actually learn so much more than like trying to be like, oh, this is right. This is wrong. Like having this whole debate in the TikTok comments, like,
00:33:03
Speaker
but I'm going out in there. i mean, like I said, it just goes back. Like, again, part of what it means to be like spiritual is truly like trusting yourself and trusting what's right for yourself. And like, ah you're right. Like checking in. There's so like we live in an era of like,
00:33:20
Speaker
so much information overload. Like we have devices in our hands constantly where like there's just an overload of information. So why? It makes it even like more of a challenge to like truly trust yourself these days because it's like,
00:33:35
Speaker
it's like information coming at you from all freaking directions. So you really, really do have to be discerning. And like, even these people that we, you know, I've been guilty of this, like putting certain leaders and people on pedestals and being like, oh my God, they're we doing it this way. I have to do it this way when it's like truly not even the right way for me. And like, I'm shaming myself if I'm not doing things a certain way. It's like, no, being spiritual, like, yeah,
00:34:02
Speaker
quote unquote spiritual and being on your own conscious
Intuition and Inner Guidance
00:34:05
Speaker
spiritual journey is about learning to trust yourself, discern what's right for yourself and take the path that your higher self has intended for you and trusting that.
00:34:15
Speaker
And believe me, like. I'm in that journey. I like going to be never ending. And I'm a Sagittarius rising. So like that's are my life destiny is to like, blaze the trail and take my own path. And then I have like the Aquarius moon that's very unique. And I'm just like, Oh my god, like this. Oh my god, you're double air girl. I can totally like a quick ready fire here airs Air with fire.
00:34:40
Speaker
That is just like a crazy combo, especially like we, signs in general have to be very cautious of like the data that we're taking in. yeah but We're just like so connected with people that we have to really decipher like what's truly our ideas and what's ours versus what's other people's.
00:35:00
Speaker
And thank God, honestly, for energy work to help me with this because I would sometimes feel like the ideas now I can use intuition to see like which one's mine and what is it my idea, but it would, it would feel like other people's idea would feel so much like mine.
00:35:15
Speaker
and like, this is the way or like, this is true. And then it's like, then I would learn the hard way of like, oh yeah, no, that wasn't it Yeah. Yeah. I totally get it. i I'm right there with you. And honestly, this has probably been the biggest bane of my existence yeah existence yet. like The thing I'm here to master the most is like truly discerning like my path and where you know where I need to go. And one of my sole gifts is leadership. So in order to do that, like I have to trust myself.
00:35:46
Speaker
I have to have my own ideas. And like, I think, you know, we talked about this in like a session we were doing together. But again, like you can take little pieces from everybody or everything and find out like what really matches with you, I guess, and like what you want to take on.
00:36:03
Speaker
but yeah, you just have to be so discerning on like things that, you know, beliefs and ways of being and everything that isn't for you, because that can really like deter you off your path. So that's why intuition is so beautiful. isn't to lie like I even know I could like use it.
00:36:19
Speaker
i mean, I'll use it obviously, like whether we are aware of it or not, it's like that little voice or like that little nudge, that guidance and like But I just never knew what it felt like or what it looked like until I started training it. And I was like, wow, this has been here. This has been with me my entire life, even as like a child. It was always with me.
00:36:38
Speaker
But I just never knew what it looked like, what it was. And it's not so it's not about like someone being so gifted and in it or not. It's just about you just practicing it, using it, developing a relationship with your higher self through intuition.
00:36:53
Speaker
And we all have it. That's all in essence, our link, our connection to our spiritual selves. Right. So it's just really funny. Cause like, I, I'm out here fortune telling without even like, I never really thought that I would ever be doing that. And I'm like, sometimes I feel like, am I making stuff up in my head?
00:37:14
Speaker
But then I'm like, no, I'm not. Cause like what they're telling me is accurate. And like what I'm telling them is accurate. So I'm like, oh, okay. Yeah. There's not a day in my life where I'm not using intuition. Like even when I'm shit, I'm using intuition. so Every, all the freaking time. I'm like, what the heck?
00:37:33
Speaker
a little unhinged to talk about this, but I want to bring up sex because i feel like it's so taboo. I love it Bring it up. Let's go.
00:37:50
Speaker
Just because... like especially i feel like religion and spirituality and sex impact the way that people see spirituality there's so many opinions on sex honestly but I do feel like for me growing up it was like you cannot have sex until you get married and like sex is not a good thing it's like this thing that's like shameful that we don't talk about but honestly from a spiritual perspective I feel like sex is our creative expression It's like our way of expressing love in a creative way, but then also like being in a human body, like enjoying the thing that we're in and like the vessel that we're in and also creation, right? If you want to have kids, like that's also a way that we create. Like I know my soul chose to be in the human experience to experience sex. So let's go.
00:38:39
Speaker
that is so weird.
00:38:43
Speaker
But and no, I've honestly like been on both ends of the spectrum when it comes to sex. So like I grew up Catholic. My parents didn't really like enforce the whole sex before marriage thing, but I almost married into an incredibly Catholic family like the My like his mom, my ex fiance's mom got me like a chastity book when we were engaged. Like it was crazy. Like she didn't like was like, why? Like, you know, she didn't know that like clearly we were having sexual relations like but it's like, why are you so concerned about what I'm doing? So it was like really like it was shamed so much in that relationship.
00:39:20
Speaker
But then like after that ended, like I went on to the other end of the spectrum where I was like, I'm going experience everything. And, you know, like I entered some years that were a little more promiscuous and I'll admit that.
00:39:32
Speaker
And that's fine. Like, I'm glad I went through all of that. And now the way I think of it is like sex is such a beautiful thing. Like we shouldn't shame. I don't feel like it should be shamed at all. However, just knowing what I know about energy and all of that, like i feel like
00:39:50
Speaker
Like I have a lot of discretion about who I let in because it is such fucking powerful energy. I mean, it's creation energy. Like I think of the energy of an orgasm is like the biggest like manifestation creation, opening up energy there is. And so I do think it's a very sacred thing that.
Sexuality and Spiritual Expression
00:40:08
Speaker
you know, like, no matter how you want to do it, or who you want to do it with, that's your choice. Like, you know, no one should be shamed about that. But like, for me, personally, i'm like, very, very, I have a lot of discretion about who I allow into that space for me, especially because of what I do with intuition and everything. And the types of energies that can get stuck on you and all that.
00:40:29
Speaker
um But, you know, I'm very open about it. Like I've dabbled in the BDSM world. I've dabbled in, you know, all kinds of weird shit. And like, what that I love that for you. I think like experience has always been my greatest teacher.
00:40:45
Speaker
Like you can know everything, but if you haven't fully experienced it and gone through it, it's just like, it's just knowledge. What happened to me is like, Basically, I've been celibate for like over four years or now, like it's been a while.
00:40:59
Speaker
can't even count. much kids
00:41:04
Speaker
And no one would think that like no one would like they would see me, they'll look at me and they'll be like, oh, she be know, people always like assuming based on what they see. And it's not because like whenever I would tell someone that's spiritual or like anybody in general,
00:41:19
Speaker
they they they would assume that it's like, oh, because I'm spiritual now or like I'm holding myself back because of that. And it's like, no, like that's not the reason why. Like for me, I'm also like very intentional with like who I'm, you know, gonna engage with in that way. And like also like,
00:41:37
Speaker
I'm very like high maintenance, like ah the looks matter to me, the vibe matters to me like have it all. And I just haven't like attracted someone that, you know, is like that. But if I did, of course, like, i would just go just like that at it.
00:41:52
Speaker
And it wouldn't make me any different. Like I wouldn't make me not as spiritual anymore, because I haven't been it's not because I was like, I feel like a lot of people that are celibate in general, they repress themselves, they were, they they think that it's like, I've gone too far in the deep end of like having much sex or, or now I'm super spiritual now. And I'm trying to redeem myself where it's like, I can't do that anymore.
00:42:16
Speaker
And it's like, no, like, it's just about balance. The ultimate law of universal law law of balance that I think everyone needs to know it's like that's what it is with sex too it's just like not it's not a good thing or it's not a bad thing it's just having that balance now I've definitely been on the deep end with the celibacy I'm not gonna lie because I'm i'm just like well but it's okay like okay but so okay Four years, girl. I went 10 months once. It's been a while. I know. But you know, I'm also like, I don't think about it as much. I'm also the type of person where I don't really like need to be like creative or be happy for me, like amazing. I go buck wild when I when I'm having sexual experiences with anybody or like even like orally sexual.
00:43:08
Speaker
But it's not also something that I feel like I need to feel like creative or feel like good about myself or like to feel feminine or whatever, whatever, get this feeling of sex gives you um that glow.
00:43:24
Speaker
Yeah, I mean, real quick, like on that topic, like, honestly, i will say I fucking love sex. I'm not gonna lie. But I do notice like I'm in a season of celibacy myself, just because like, I'm focused on other things.
00:43:38
Speaker
But like when I am like in, you know, having sexual relations with someone or like, you know, using my sexual energy a lot in that way, it like it takes a lot of my energy. Like I'm like distracted and like, not you know, and I don't think it'll be like that with every person. But I think like the era of my life I'm in now, I'm just like, I think sexual energy can go both ways. Like I just, you know, it's going to get real here, but it's like I just focus my sexual energy on me and my own self.
00:44:05
Speaker
pleasure practices. And then I channel the rest of that, like creative flow energy into what I'm creating in my business or just like all my own little creative projects that I do for pleasure. And it's like, that feels really good for me right now. I used to be the person that was like balls to the walls. Oh my God, I love sex. I like need it all the time, but I feel like I'm in a season in my life where I'm just like, no, I'm cool without it. Like myself, pleasure practices and me keeping my energy in my own field is so much better. yeah,
00:44:34
Speaker
I respect the celibacy girl. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, who knows? Like maybe I'll meet somebody tomorrow and then bam, like it's it. That's it. No, it's like, i great I'm not like restricting myself in any way, but I do know that in the spirituality world, like sex is also like a very, and especially in religion too.
Experiencing Life Fully for Spiritual Growth
00:44:53
Speaker
It's very, um it's very like right or wrong. and um besides like even you, like if you had mentioned to somebody that's spiritual that you've done that, they would probably judge you for that, right? Like someone that's not really aware, but it's like, yeah, like no, like that's just an experience that you've had. It doesn't, the experiences that you've had does not define you. It's just an experience.
00:45:16
Speaker
So it doesn't make you like less spiritual. It's actually makes you more spiritual because you're allowing yourself to experience things. You're allowing yourself to like, be curious about life and be curious about yourself and like actually live life versus like just restricting yourself or like feeling like this is right this is wrong when it's both it's not like one or the either and that's this is a full circle moment right because like that's what spirituality is about it's about experiencing what you want to experience and being who you are and like i said i'm a around and find out type of person like i like i'm not the type of person i like folks about you
00:45:56
Speaker
I can't just like watch people like do things like I'm like no I have to do that like I've lived like fucking like 30 different lives in my one lifetime like being so many different versions of myself and like now I'm hitting a point where like I'm going to continue to be different versions of myself but I'm like integrating all the different versions of myself because of all the experiences I've had I'm like none of those were shameful like even though there were periods of my life where I'm like I would shame myself for doing certain things or whatever.
00:46:26
Speaker
But I'm like, no, it's just life. Like, this is just what I wanted to do. It's what I chose to do. And there's good and bad and everything. And I took a lot of good out of a lot of experiences. And I saw things that I didn't like out of certain experiences or ways I didn't want to be. But I would have never learned had I not gone through, right? Like I'd be sitting here like, what if, you know, like I'm not the what if girl, I'm the dive right in and do shit girl. yeah Yeah.
00:46:52
Speaker
I think the biggest thing for me too is like, you know, me showing up online in this way for me was like, I had this like belief and I had this like way of thinking where it's like showing up and talking about spirituality is weird because not a lot of people are like talking about energy work and like,
00:47:10
Speaker
your soul and like contracts and all these things. It's not like normalized. It's like always like kind of portrayed as weird or like the taboo things. But it's like, it's been the most truth that I've ever heard in my life. And it's been the most life-changing things that I've learned and implemented in my life where it's like, it's not this thing outside of me or separate from you or that thing, it's actually me.
00:47:33
Speaker
It's kind of like like the the playbook to life, literally. you know And some people are either aware of it or some people are not, like you know especially someone that looks like me.
00:47:44
Speaker
wouldn't you wouldn't really normally think that I would be talking about like this kind of stuff. But it's like, it doesn't have to be that it has to have to look one way. And I think it's good that it doesn't because then we're able to help the people that were meant to help and connect with that in in every way, you know, like people that relate with you might not relate with me, and vice versa, like not self love in the way that people think it is or unconditional self love. It's like,
00:48:12
Speaker
the spiritual like deep source truth self-love that people are going to be like triggered by because that's not the truth that they've been hearing this whole time and they're going to get mad but they're going to love me later you know what when you're triggering people bless up like I'm so glad like I've reached a point in my life now where I'm like fuck yeah let me trigger people like I don't care because that means I'm being authentic you know when I used to like tiptoe around or be afraid to say things I'm like well then I just wanted people to like me but were they really liking the real me no like I'm gonna say what's truthful to me and it's funny like your journey you're like I feel weird speaking about all this stuff and I'm like sometimes I feel like I talk about it too much and like then I'll start like overthinking I'm like should I just be more normal
00:49:01
Speaker
Oh, I've been there too. I've been there too, because I can go again, 0200 real quick. And, uh, you know, I do it like offline with my friends, my close friends. And then sometimes I'm like, but Darsh, there's more to you than just that. And I think that's another like big thing in the spiritual industry. Like I would love for people to start showing more or more of themselves.
00:49:21
Speaker
you know, like versus just talking about spirituality, just showing that side of them, because there's a lot more to you than just that. There's a lot more things that you're interested in that you do that make you who you are.
00:49:34
Speaker
Yes. And that's what like draws people towards you. Like, is it like very quickly, like I remember I used to have like a separate business account for like, you know, my business and spirituality and stuff.
00:49:46
Speaker
And I like battled with that for days because I had like a coach that told me to do that. But I'm like, I feel like I'm showing up as two different people. and like what I really want to do in my life is like connect people to who they really are and make them comfortable with being themselves. But I'm not actually being that way.
00:50:03
Speaker
So now like I shut that account down. And now like, you know how I show up online and everything. It's like, I try my best to do a little bit of everything. Like I show myself hiking up a mountain, one wheeling, like going to Burning Man and then like, you know, sharing my journey and the tidbits that I'm learning and intuition and people are probably like, what the hell this bitch does?
00:50:22
Speaker
I can't keep up. Who is she? But I'm like, I'm just all of these things. want people to see like everything that I am, not just like this spiritual person or this person that does this or that. Like you can just be fucking everything.
00:50:35
Speaker
Like you can be multidimensional, all encompassing. And that's the type of person that I am, you know, like even though I'm up in the ethers doing intuition, like I'm also very grounded and down to earth and like, you can catch me twerking, you know, at a club. I don't go to clubs too much anymore, but I'll be twerking somewhere, you know, like doing that kind of thing. And like, and when, you know, I'm working at the hospital, saving lives one day and the next day I'm talking to people's souls and climbing up a mountain, you know, you never know. so Like, yeah, I think the point is like knowing that you have access to all these options.
00:51:08
Speaker
but you're always making a choice to which options that you want to work with and like enjoy and I think like that's what really fully allowing yourself to be yourself is I'm at a point now I'm not gonna lie when I've been through like so many businesses that I've had I've changed so many identities of myself that I've been and i had this thing of like oh wow people are not gonna take me seriously because I'm I'm not even like, I'm not even creating anything for myself.
00:51:35
Speaker
I've had that for so long, but it's like, now I'm finally like building a personal brand, like building, like I am literally the thing now. It's not what I'm doing. It's me now.
00:51:46
Speaker
So that's been next level for me. I'm at a point now where I, in my spiritual journey, where like truly, truly, if I was to like say one sentence that describes spirituality is actually,
00:51:59
Speaker
Caring, but not caring. Because the moment you start caring, you lose pieces of yourself. You start listening to other people when you're you're literally meant to trust yourself more than you trust other people. You're meant to listen to yourself more than you listen to other people. And you're meant to care about yourself more than you actually care about other people.
00:52:18
Speaker
And it sounds like weird and crazy and like effed up in a way, but it's like, it it's all comes back to you. It's your world and everyone's living in it.
Facing Fears and Overcoming Limitations
00:52:29
Speaker
I used to have a friend that would say that to me. Courtney, it's just your world and everyone's living in it. Really? I thought I always the only one saying that. like no I say that all the time. I'm like, and I think that all the time. So that's why i'm like, wow, you're saying this. That's the main character energy. You know what mean? Like every girl wants to be that and become that. But like...
00:52:50
Speaker
Through spirituality, you're actually able to understand it and embody it and become it. Because like you finally understand yourself, you understand how life actually works. And at the end of the day, it's like all this manifesting talk, all this spirituality talk, all of that.
00:53:08
Speaker
It comes down to like reprogramming your brain. it it None of it means anything about you besides the art of reprogramming your brain to allow your human self to like merge with your spirit self to be who you are. It takes different levels of awareness to understand that.
00:53:26
Speaker
I remember the complex things that I was learning in the community that we're a part of and like in spirituality and certain things people would say for the first time. And I'm like, I get that. I don't get that, but I get that. It's that resonance.
00:53:39
Speaker
um That's just what it is, you know? And everyone's just on a different journey to understanding that. And maybe it's not this lifetime. Maybe it'll be the next one. But I've made, i made a vow to myself that like, if I'm here right now and i have access to this information, like I'm going to go balls to the wall with it.
00:53:57
Speaker
Cause like, I want to make it the best and I want to learn as many lessons as I need to, to not repeat that shit. and the next he went to the i'm like sick And to be honest, like I, you, it is a very complex subject, but at the end of the day, i think people really overcomplicate spirituality and everything. Like if we're really like summarizing this, like at the end of the day, if someone told me 10 years ago, like just love yourself, just see how unique you are and how powerful that is.
00:54:31
Speaker
And like all the attributes that your soul chose for you, just for you to be able to fulfill this purpose. And your part, the biggest part of your purpose is for you to see yourself and love yourself and honor yourself and be yourself.
00:54:44
Speaker
I would be able to like save so much time on so much bullshit. Like, I don't even know. Like, yeah, that's truly like what it is for that too. Right. Even just to something as simple as that. There's so many nuances to it as well.
00:54:57
Speaker
We all know it, how to love ourselves and like how to, we all know that, but are we actually like doing that? And that's where the reprogramming comes in. That's where like all that, the tools that we use comes in. But it's like, at the end of the day, like if you really want to, you will.
00:55:14
Speaker
And you feel like people play small, like at all levels, they're playing small, you know, they're, they're blocking themselves and they know that they are. They know that they're holding themselves back. And if you truly loved yourself the way that you say you do, you wouldn't hold yourself back.
00:55:30
Speaker
You would put yourself first in front of the line and you would just do it. Why is it like the hardest thing ever to just like... but yourself and it is the hardest self I'm like literally it should be the easiest thing and it's like the key to everything in life or like why it so hard like we've been programmed so like so hardcore for so many lifetimes and even this lifetime it's just like undoing all of that so yeah it does get complex but at the end of the day it's fucking like simple like love yourself, put yourself first, be yourself. well just about fear like Here's the other thing about fear. Cause like fear is what holds people back in it.
00:56:09
Speaker
There'll always be a level of fear. Cause like our human brain and that's how it works.
Living Purposefully and Positively Contributing
00:56:13
Speaker
But I feel like ah Like if we actually like put ourselves into the fear and like actually see how the fear would manifest, it wouldn't be as bad.
00:56:24
Speaker
and And it will actually help you like move forward. Cause like for me, my biggest fear is being homeless. Like literally having zero money. leaving in Like, whatever. I think I mean, I would say that that's probably a lot of people's fear. But that was definitely my fear, right?
00:56:41
Speaker
And the way that I was able to like, neutralize that and like, actually, let go of that fear was to see like, okay, let's go there. Like, if I was to be homeless, then what would I do?
00:56:54
Speaker
how would i ah like how How would I operate? and then my mind started coming up with all these genius ideas into how I would build a life up for myself and how i would like I would take care of myself. I would go to the gym. I'll get the the Planet Fitness membership to make sure I take a shower so I'm clean.
00:57:13
Speaker
And then I'll go to the library and use the computer. And then I'll create a YouTube channel as a homeless person. And I would vlog myself and my journey and use... like I just started coming up with all these things.
00:57:26
Speaker
And like it's like, it sounds funny, but I was just like, wow, like being homeless wouldn't be so bad. Or maybe all sugar daddy would come my way. You're kind of like, I want to be homeless. This sounds actually pretty nice.
00:57:38
Speaker
But that really like example, that really helped me with my money beliefs and like my, the fears that I have that i that I felt like were holding me back from like, the things I wanted to do in life and like allowing myself to again be myself ah fully. It's just like us being able to like see those things and like, yeah, we see the big picture, just seeing like the thing that we're only seeing versus the whole thing.
00:58:03
Speaker
Yeah, no, it's, I love it. I don't mean to laugh at you. I just think that it's like, that's the kind of shit we would do. Because I have like in my shower, sometimes like thinking about that. I'm like, my biggest fear is losing everything. What would I do if I just couldn't pay my bills or like live it? I'd just be homeless. And I'd be like, maybe I'd be happy because I wouldn't be attached to all these things. Exactly. Oh my god, big one there. And it's like...
00:58:27
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That's like next level, like seeing your value and like seeing, you know, like to be able, and that would be like mastery over there, like with that and like being able to fully tap into your, your higher self and your intuition is it to like navigate and like,
00:58:43
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ah such an inspiring story that would be like so many things ah now now we're like making ourselves want to like lose everything
00:58:55
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I'm like you know life would probably would be a lot easier if I actually was homeless I mean like it would have its difficulties but man there would be some things that would be no I'm just kidding I'm kidding I'm yeah I mean it's a very natural human thing to like you know, want safety and security and a roof over your head. But I love that both you and I have gotten to the point where we've actually like thought of the whole scenario of losing everything.
00:59:22
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I mean, I even thought about dying, you know, like dying is a big fear for everybody and dying. But like now, again, knowing what I know spirituality and like,
00:59:33
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what it actually means and who you actually are like not the human but who you actually are wouldn't be so bad although i'll say that i do love this life so i'm not ready to go yet yeah i want to maximize my life here but it wouldn't be so bad either because i i'm aware of like what life is actually about and because and regardless of how happy they portray themselves to be Deep down, I know if you are not doing the thing that you were called down here to do, and I've been through this, it'll be irking at you like you are the one going to bed at night feeling that and nobody knows.
01:00:14
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You know what, I have a theory like this is just my own theory, but I feel like people are so afraid of death because our souls actually love to be in the human experience so much. And it's like, our souls are always beckoning us towards our potential. And like, we want to experience everything this life has to offer.
01:00:31
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So we get afraid of death, not because like, we're actually afraid of it. But it's because our souls just don't want to like, miss out on things in life. They want to relish this whole experience and be here as long as possible.
01:00:43
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So i i that's my own theory. And I know like my soul definitely has that for sure because I love just being here and experiencing everything. And I know the subtle like theoretical death of not doing what you're here to do and accessing your full potential like I just can't let that happen to me you know yeah I mean I know I used to get triggered when I would have people tell me the things that I know that I should be doing and I wasn't doing it I used to get so triggered off of that because I know like deep down I'm like getting in own
01:01:16
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the shit that I know I need to release and let go of and like also like do and people in general and in the world don't understand it but it's so essential for you to actually live your best life and I know deep down everybody wants to I know deep down everybody feels that void especially if they're not in like doing what they're here to do not that fully but And so that's what I want to like really help people with is just like on like unscrewing their mind and like filtering out all the things that they believe to be true or they they were misinformed with. There's a lot of misinformation going around and actually like doing what they want to do, you know, like giving themselves permission to do what the F they want to do.
01:02:04
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Amen. And like also just on that note, like we are just so privileged, like you, I and so many of us like to be in this position, especially with all the world events going on, like that we actually get to do this. And like, so I think it's like, you know, there is so much like tragedy in the world and everything. But like if you're in a position to be able
Conclusion: Spirituality as Self-Expression
01:02:23
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to access your full potential, if it's like easier for you,
01:02:26
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do it because that's doing the rest of the world a service, right? Because, you know, it's like your frequency is upgrading the frequency of the planet. And when you're helping other people, it's like that continues to spread over generation, over generation, over generation. So it's like, you know, all of us here, like in this position of life, like if we're not experiencing tragedy and all this stuff that's crazy that's going on on the planet right now, which we don't have to get into, but it's just like,
01:02:53
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we're so fucking privileged, like be everything you're meant to be like, you were given literally like this life, like do it. Be yourself like love yourself like, just do everything that you're meant to do. Like, that's just my thought on that. I could feel the love girl.
01:03:10
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I know I'm passionate about it I know. Oh my God. This was such an amazing conversation, Courtney. Like, thank you so much for just showing up and sharing your wisdom and your energy and just like being so open to talk about this in such a like chill way. um I don't think there's anyone that really connects with me about this topic in the way that you do. Make spirituality feel normal and cool and like,
01:03:39
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just as normal as social media is like I'm just really grateful and happy that you were able to do this with me and I just want people to know that like the being spiritual is the art of being you and just to be yourself give yourself permission to be fully yourself is there anything else that you want to add on let's say you were to die tomorrow knock on wood no but Let's just say, what would be the message that you'd want to leave to the world? Yeah, I mean, I think like, it's a summary of everything we talked about, just like, love you love all the parts of you and like start by loving the parts that you shame the most and know that those parts are
01:04:18
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that you feel are bad are also good. They have good too. And like, go for it. If you feel the soul pull, if you feel drawn to something, like go for it. Don't waste your time. Start working towards it. And just be like, you don't have to be a certain thing. You don't have to portray yourself a certain way. Just follow what's true to you.
01:04:40
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Honestly, that is like, the true spiritual journey in my perspective. And it's something I'm working to master myself, but it's truly been the most beautiful journey. And I just want to say thank you, Darsh. Like you are a homie. I'm so glad that like you and I have connected. i love our readings together. Darsh knows my higher self probably better than I even do at this point. Very well.
01:05:03
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And we just like talk and have so much fun. And I feel like we've had a lot of like similar experiences in life. So this has been like the best and you know, who knows, maybe we'll get on in the future and do this again.
01:05:16
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i love that. I love that. I feel like my message to the world would be that you don't have to be perfect because you already are. you just have to be you. And you just have to fuck around a little and keep fucking around.
01:05:30
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to get to where you want to be because it's all perfect. Buck around and find out. That's
01:05:42
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Just with a sprinkle of fun and everything. The worst that could happen is maybe you end up homeless or die, but you'll be okay either way.