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i hate the 3 way girls
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s2 ep5: the gals play fuck, marry, kill. p talks about her move to florida, her incomplete miscarriage, and off-season joe. eems updates us on her relationship anxiety and what its doing to her brain. kristen explains her no sex phases and how sleeping around is important...
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Transcript
Introduction and Humor
00:00:00
Speaker
Hey, Chris. Hi, Eames. What's up? I have to tell you something. Oh my God. Okay. Should I three-way Peyton in? Yeah, call me. Okay. Hello. Hey, Eames needs to tell us something. I'm three-waying you in. Okay, immediately. Okay, so... I left this up. Oh, go ahead. No, you go. No, you you should intro. like Oh my God. No, I'm so fucking shy. Like, I don't even know how...
00:00:26
Speaker
I'm like- Kristin, just start it. Okay. Hey guys, it's us. It's the three-way girls. We are- I hate the three-way girls.
00:00:42
Speaker
That's our nickname. Three-way girls. I hate the three-way girls. Like we're little superheroes. like take Wait, Kristin, can I see your vagina? Can you make sure that I can't?
00:01:01
Speaker
Kristin wants me to, she wants me so bad, it's so weird. How do you just put a blanket over you? Isn't there one right there? I don't want to see my cute little skirt. Not when I can see your vagina. Okay, is this better? Is this better? Yeah, it is. How do I look girls? I just don't even want to respond to this.
00:01:24
Speaker
girl Okay. I'm going to start this
Technical Difficulties and Life Changes
00:01:27
Speaker
episode officially. Um, okay. everyone. So we did have about an hour and 40 minutes of technical difficulties shocked. We made it through. time I wanted to give it multiple times. I was shocked. You guys didn't. That's a good thing. That's the good thing of having three people because like you hit your breaking point and then like it's, it's offset with the one I hit mine. And then like, once I hit mine, you're you're actually getting like a second wind, you know, It's kind of like a relationship sometimes. You're like, I've already pocked myself out of this in my head. Like, babe, you're going to be fine. Yeah. That's actually true. you have to do that. Mama girl is stressed right now.
00:02:02
Speaker
Well yeah, I'm not having a great time, but I will say, quick little update, girly girls. One, I moved to Florida. Two, oh my god, here at our house. Shut up the map of bottom jeans, boots with the fur. Oh my god, trigger warning. Hey, sorry, sorry, sorry. And B, what's the relevance? Yeah, what? Oh, right.
00:02:23
Speaker
Oh, that's right. That's right. That's right. Okay. Yeah. I moved here when we got here. Uh, there was about a month that the house was like, just no one was living there. And so everything is overgrown. Our neighbors are old people basically all over the place. No one has our age. Um, we've already had people complaining about the yard two days into our our stay. We're like, we're trying, we're not even staying at this house yet. There's no furniture there. We're like, okay, we're trying to get our cars,
00:02:51
Speaker
Joe got the landscapers over there. Guys, don't worry. Don't worry. Our pool. Our pool we got here was halfway empty and bright green and like dense green. So we don't really know what that is. We're going to have to fix that. And there's there's spiders everywhere.
00:03:08
Speaker
they do brat summer that sounds one of the palm trees is laying on the ground don't know how that got uprooted and yeah we have some spiders so that's a very fun time fun time alert unm funtime
Homeownership vs. Renting
00:03:23
Speaker
um Yeah. Welcome to owning a home again. I feel like everyone that owns a home in my life just as talks about all of the things. and like That's why like I choose to just like rent and like I could own the home. I think we all could like totally own our own thing, but it's just like so annoying. I know. It's like, I don't have time and it's actually- Yeah, no. It's totally smarter probably in this like
00:03:48
Speaker
Yeah, it's like in this economy with like how like you know the real estate market could just like crash at any moment. like I think it's like just really smart to like you know just rent, stay in your little tiny abode. Let's not get carried away. In your little tiny apartment to like overpay for in LA. That actually yeah is the move because yeah you have to factor in all the other stuff, the spiders in the pool and stuff. but Also, you guys, really quick, we're actually um right now, like, how do I explain this current on our episodes, like other episodes we're kind of doing in advance. But as of right now, like everything you're hearing is within the week of when you're hearing it. yeah Well, I guess the week before. But yeah yeah, yeah, exactly. You guys get the picture. We're live.
00:04:32
Speaker
Well, anyway, that's my Florida situation. It's been nice. I also will say I'm in a sweet spot where I used to get to complain about homeow home ownership, but it's Joe's home. I'm not half i'm not going to have these on this. um I'm not making any of the appointments and I didn't pay for anything. So I'm just able to be like spiders. Oh my God, Joe, there's spiders. Like we called spider guy. Wait, you're not even like making appointments and stuff.
00:04:58
Speaker
no cuz i fucking work all day and joe sits around he's not even training right now so he wakes up and is like what should we do today like the my job right now yeah and also this is his home like we're not married is this your favorite time of joe would not like no what's your favorite no joe My favorite time of Joe is like, I like off season Joe, but when he's training because like he'll start tomorrow, which will be fine. But like we're together constantly. And like, I was just pulling this up with you guys and Joe was sitting literally just touching my arm. We just got back from dinner together because he like, we wouldn't fix the house thing. He's like, let's grab some food. I grabbed some food with him. We come home. I rushed home. He stayed at the restaurant.
00:05:40
Speaker
So I, he comes home, we were waiting for each other for 30 minutes and then he's sitting down next to me. I'm like, Joe. Oh, he's very needy. He's not even needy. He just like is always there. I'm like, we need to spend, I told him yesterday, i'm like we need to spend some time apart, like during the daytime.
00:05:57
Speaker
Because you need, I need to go do my stuff and you need to go do your stuff or you can hang out with Winnie. So he's just been doing all the stuff for the house. And like, here's the thing, I would be doing stuff for the house if it was my house. Like if I had a financial interest in his home, it would be different. But like, I'm not, we're not combining finances before marriage. So I'll live in the house and I'll make it cute. But like,
00:06:19
Speaker
we've broken up before, I'm not gonna just like ah buy into a home with you. I'll make it cute and then take all my furniture. That's smart though too, because it's like the second you care about one thing, you're gonna care about 900 things and wanna like over like, yeah you know, oversee everything. So yeah, I guess.
00:06:38
Speaker
Well, I have I've had that question before of people being like, why do you feel comfortable, obviously, moving in with him or like, what's the deal? And I'm like, listen, I have nothing I'm working with. I have nothing to lose. I think moving is kind of fun. Also, um we're working with interior designers and I'm like doing a partnership with them. So Joe's.
00:06:55
Speaker
unless I can get some furniture as a partnership as well. Joe's like financing this. It's his home. I'm just like providing the service of the furnishing and I get to do content and everyone's like, well, what if you, you know, you spend all this time on this house and you have to move because it's his house and I'll break up. and I'm like, then I go to another house and do more content on that house or in that apartment. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. and Like there's like really nothing to lose on my end. So, yeah, he's doing all the stuff because it's his house. So I kind of joke about me being lazy, but also like with my business.
Personal Challenges and Miscarriage
00:07:26
Speaker
leads me into another thing I wanted to talk about how you can just like so like share everything online no matter what like no matter if you're sad just want to give you your flowers once again for sharing your plain fiasco yeah I share a lot on the internet but I will say I waited until I mean y'all if y'all haven't listened to that episode you can go listen to it on my podcast but I talked about how I had a ah Super, super early incomplete miscarriage that I've been dealing with for the past, like since September 3rd and it's still not done yet. But I feel like I gave it like a solid month. I'm trying to be like, when is it going to end? When is it going to end? Then I'll talk about it. And then I was like, okay, this is just essentially never ending. And like, if I go to the ER multi times.
00:08:12
Speaker
I think it's going to be obvious to like people I'm working with. That's when it became a problem. like I wasn't answering emails. like I would just spend a mess on the back end. And I've had to tell so many people I work with, like hey, I'm having like a medical problem. So I'm just providing context for everyone. At some point, I'm like, I don't want to send this many emails about my medical problems. Just like, here it is. So you guys get it. But anyways, it's actually very freeing. I was telling Joe that. I was like, there's not much people are going to find out about me that I'm not OK with them finding out about me. Yeah. Yeah.
00:08:40
Speaker
i also think like It is, you know, low key important timing. because I feel like I went I went home for a wedding recently and we my family and I kept getting into arguments like they're conservative and like, but you know, my dad will say like something or like they'll make a joke and I'll be like, um, actually, and like, just be like super cunty. And like, I'm still just like, I'm just still fighting the fight. You know what I mean? Like, yeah you right guys and it is so confusing for me. Like it really fucks with my head because
00:09:15
Speaker
like they are very religious like they're such good people they like help you know everyone that they can like i don't know like they are truly good people, but I just, I don't know. I just constantly have to like remind them of my side of things and like the other of other side of like everything. So my family is there. They mean well, but they don't know anything else and they're not willing to learn anything else. And they're also not forced in a situation where they have to be like aware of other people's problems. like
00:09:48
Speaker
They can have these like really strict limiting like rules and beliefs that quote unquote should be the law of the land without having any understanding of like They think there's certain like exemptions, maybe like for me with this whole situation, my parents were like, well, the, the point I was reaching a point where they were like, you might need to take like the pill in order to get everything out of you so that you don't ah get it like an infection. And we tested for infection a lot. Cause that was like the concern when like remnants are still in you from something like i what I just went through, it can get infected. Can you give a little more context just in case no, Helen, no one has like any clue what we're saying.
00:10:25
Speaker
Yeah, so i during my little miscarriage thing, during the early miscarriage, I tried to double it. I can't even remember what we texted, but Peyton was like, hey, yeah, I'm in like an ambulance or something like that. like And I was like, what the fuck? I actually can't think of a worse situation than getting carried off of a plane. into an ambulance, specifically for Peyton Sarton. I can think of basically every other person in my life that could handle that. Yeah, no. At this point, it was so I was in so much pain. And at this point, it was like kind of funny, even to me, even though I was in pain. The photo, I think I sent you guys the same photo I sent my friend Laurel. And it was just because I didn't take any photos of that. I was in pain. So I just remember being in the ambulance my first time. Obviously, you didn't fucking take photos. Well, it was my first time in an ambulance.
00:11:12
Speaker
and i was sitting there and i'm like oh shit like this is actually like dark like i will think this is funny later so i like my legs are like strapped in my shoes fully on obviously my first response is lmao and all caps she's like you guys i'm in the back of an ambulance and go lmao and then i hear why and i'm like all right well maybe i should wait until i say lmao and all caps to hear why someone didn't have ambulance I didn't know though why I didn't know it wasn't incomplete miscarriage. I that wasn't the diagnoses. I went to the ER that day on September 3rd. I didn't know until October 6th when they were like, okay, yes, that was not it. We thought it was maybe ectopic pregnancy. We thought it was possible that I was, I was actually still pregnant. We were three different doctors later also. Yeah, I went to the ah ER. I went to like a women's health clinic in Wisconsin, like three weeks later after I got back from New York. And then I went to, cause I knew I wasn't pregnant at that point, but, um, then I went back to the doctor and then they had me come in every two days for blood testing to test my HCG. So she was like, if you're moving to Florida, um, let's test all your stuff and hope that your ACG comes down like by itself over the course of a fucking month and a half.
00:12:21
Speaker
um or else you're gonna have to take the pill or something and I don't know if you can get it there, basically. They were saying they don't know if they would grant me, it's it can be tricky, they can like um investigate your miscarriage, you just don't wanna fuck with it. But basically I was telling my family this and they were like, well, it's it's fine, we got a person, like we can get it for you. We can get whatever pills you need. i'm like So what you're doing is you're gonna allow, because we know doctors,
00:12:45
Speaker
in Texas who will prescribe this and keep it hush hush, you're gonna vote for someone who doesn't want this to be like the law of the land that we have access to these things. and But you want me to have access to it because it's yeah, because it's like,
00:13:00
Speaker
it's scary to you that that I'm dealing with this. And I was like, I said this in the podcast episode. If this is going to happen to anybody, I am the best person for it to happen to. And it still fucking sucks. right So like, it just made me so when I heard that come out of one of my family members mouths, I was just like, so you really think like, Oh, it's just happened to Peyton. It's just an exception. I'm like, No, this shit happens to people. No, the time literally, thank God for people like you that and are willing to share that. Yeah.
00:13:29
Speaker
Unfortunately, they people need to be reminded more of stories like you because I just feel like a lot of them are so convinced. Well, they have black and white thinking. They're like, oh, it's bad. or We're not going to do it. I'm like, there's so many situations. It's too restrictive. I think something that you can do, Peyton, that like a lot of people aren't able to is like,
00:13:49
Speaker
you think about how something affects the bottom line and how many people are a part of the bottom line. So it's like, usually when you're exempt from something, you're like, thank God, like let's fucking go. Um, but when you're thinking about like, okay, I'm going through this, how many people are going through a literal miscarriage where like the blood coming out of them could get infected and then they could actually die. That's every, yeah so every person on the planet could be going through that. And so the fact that it's like, they can't get help for it. It's insane.
00:14:19
Speaker
Um, the episode is called plane ride from hell, but basically I didn't want to put miscarriage in the title. Yeah. Peyton's been, um, going through this for like a month and a half and it's just been like so weird and scary. And I just sadly think that we have to talk about these things more to make people realize that they're not just like these like one-off crazy scenarios. It's like the most extreme version of it. Exactly. It's just like.
00:14:47
Speaker
it's It's happening and you know. Anyway, um so on a lighter note. Someone else someone else ah give us some like happy updates, because mine are not happy but, well besides the move to Florida. But Iman, I haven't heard about your crush in like a really long time, so.
Relationships and Personal Growth
00:15:07
Speaker
ah Yeah, we're in a relationship. It's been three months now. o I know. Not yet, but like probably really been looking in two weeks. yeah like um um I don't know. I feel like it's kind of annoying to like.
00:15:28
Speaker
only be giving good updates. So I feel like I can share like maybe some of the hard parts of it. Cause I don't want to just like be like, yeah, everything's great. Everything's amazing. Cause there's obviously just like nuance to that. Did you have a question you were going to ask? Well, I was going to ask. So when we were in New York, which was not that long ago, but when we were there, y'all were like,
00:15:50
Speaker
in a relationship, kind of. Yeah. one did the top actually You should read my journal. I'll send you photos. Maybe I'll post it on three way. Like after our first date, I wrote in a journal like, Oh my God, it was so amazing. I can't stop thinking about him. This is great. Then it's like, you keep reading him like a month later. He hasn't asked me to be his girlfriend yet. I'm freaking pissed. I can't believe he won't ask me to be his girlfriend yet. This is so annoying. So I was like really annoyed that he wasn't asking.
00:16:14
Speaker
And then he did, so it's great. But I feel like I've been dealing with like the worst relationship anxiety ever, which I feel like is so humbling because I've always been on such a high horse of just like feeling like I'm not crazy or just like my friends are like, oh my god, I've been thinking this, this, or that. I'm like, oh my god, you just need to be like more grounded. You just need to whatever. I don't know if just like I never liked anyone before this, but I just feel like my relationship anxiety has been I've been actually driving myself crazy. Explain what you mean by relationship anxiety. It's like any moment of just like stillness or like being healthy, I like create a story around something new so that my brain has like a new thing to think about. So like at six in the morning, well no, at like six-third he usually leaves to go to Equinox.
00:17:04
Speaker
He'll leave like, Oh my God, like him so much. Oh my God. I wish he was staying in bed. blahbah I go to work. I'm out for a couple of hours. I'm like, yeah, I probably wouldn't cry if we broke up. I don't know where, where nothing's still going on. You've yeah told me about this. Yes. So this lady is like it's daily. Then a couple of hours later, I'll be like, I'll just think about something random. Maybe a week ago that happened. And then I'm like.
00:17:31
Speaker
I don't know, his ex is probably texting him. Like just out of nowhere, it's nothing. There's no proof. Well, here's the thing. I do that for sure. And I feel like I do that, especially in phase two of our relationship. One, I was thinking about this a couple of days ago because I was like, I always was so grounded, especially with like advice. And I feel like I so i can still ground myself, but I have that initial reaction. That's like.
00:17:55
Speaker
leading me to like arson. Like I understand songs about like I burned the fuck down. Yes. Out of his house. and Yes. Um, I like him like, okay, I could see how someone would get there. Um, okay. So I started like being crazy, but i I like the feeling of being crazy. I can level it after the crazy, like I understand that the crazy isn't real. And then I'm like, okay. But my moods changed like that too, where I, so I've talked to my therapist and someone got onto me about this recently.
00:18:25
Speaker
My therapist before me not having a therapist, the last one I saw, she was basically like, I think you're manic depressive, which that's why when I say I'm manic, I genuinely get spurts of mania where everything is the best thing ever. And then when I'm down, I'm so down, so dark and down. Not to the point of physically doing anything to myself, but to the point of wishing I wasn't here. But I'm not gonna do something. I don't want the process of me not being here. I feel like I'm the same way.
00:18:56
Speaker
But I'm like, damn, it would be so nice to just not be at all. You know what I mean? Like, I would like to go to sleep forever kind of thing. But like, and that things get so bad and I see no light in anything, like at all. But so I'm like manic depressive, but then I'm also like, how I happen to be sometimes in a relationship, I'm like, am I like, like kind of bipolar too?
00:19:17
Speaker
Or like oh I'm definitely like OCD. Maybe it's like your OCD coming out imon because I feel like you're just like like in your head, like ruminating. Yeah, it's like I'm constantly trying to control the situation, I think, and I have nothing to control. So I have to like think of a new thing that I can then try to control.
00:19:33
Speaker
Yeah, like when I tell you he's like the great like it's insane how like and if you my friends that have met him are like Iman you are in like the things that I come up with my in my head verse like actually meeting him and being the same room as him. He's just the sweetest person and like does nothing wrong.
00:19:54
Speaker
I feel like it's the epitome of those memes where it's like, you're on one side of the bed and it's like, he's probably thinking about other women. He's thinking about, like I don't know, the yeah stock market. Yes, literally just yesterday he shared a, so I was gonna do like an um Instagram facelift for him a little bit. So I told him to put a bunch of photos that he likes of himself into a shared album.
00:20:22
Speaker
Cause he has four photos and they're all from like 2019. So, yeah um, I was like, Hey, setting him up for his next check. No. So here's what I was thinking. It's like for work. I feel like his Instagram could be like, I don't want him to have more than four photos. I want him to archive those four photos and have four new ones. Just like more recent ones. I don't want him to, be he's private. Like I don't want him to go in private. I don't want him to be like an Instagram guy.
00:20:48
Speaker
but i want to photos I feel like eight photos would be a good solid amount of photos. I want like a current photo, because I can't even show my friends a current photo of him because he doesn't have one. So it's like, let's get four solid ones and just kind of, we could stop from there. That's fine if you just want to have four. So I'm going through this shared at iCloud, whatever. I look up at the TV and I accidentally clicked to my camera roll.
00:21:13
Speaker
So in this motion where I'm going to share photos, I look up on the TV, look back into my phone, and I see like a girl laying on a couch. And I was like, did he accidentally add this photo to this shared album? So I show him the photo.
00:21:32
Speaker
This was not an issue in my head. I was like, he had this photo of this fucking girl on the couch and she's laying like just how I lay on the couch. I was were in the exact same position. So I was literally in my brain just like, all right, well, this is how we're sitting right now. How am I going to bring this up to him? My stomach's dropping and I go to show it to him. And he was like, and and then I look at it and I was like,
00:22:05
Speaker
want this new fucking boomer it was It wasn't me, but it was like a photo from my own camera roll. Oh my God. Wait, I i actually did think you were going to say it was you. oh wait wait Let me see if I can like show you guys what I'm talking about if I can. Okay. Yes. it Yes. Yes. Did you fully freak out or did you just like mini freak out? I freaked out in my brain, but I didn't freak out like in.
00:22:31
Speaker
front of him yet and thank god I could pull myself together because it wasn't even a part of his own shared album. And he was like, uh, and I was like, uh, okay. Wait, while you're finding it, do you want to, do you want to know what made me mad today? And I didn't tell Joe this cause it's none of his business, but I made me mad. This is a photo. Should it be, should it be your kill though for a fuck Mary kill?
00:22:57
Speaker
No, I mean, kill myself for thinking about this. oh It's stupid. I was just like getting ready. This is the kind of thing that happens to me. imon I'm getting ready today. Joe's been literally the best of this whole entire process with the early miscarriage and the moving and me being like in a horrible head space and like being depressed in general. Anyway, this whole week, he has just been great for the past like month. He's been great. Like when I say great, I mean, he's always great, but I mean like exceptional.
00:23:23
Speaker
yeah like I was getting ready today and I was like thinking about how when Joe and I are broken up, he like saw other girls or like hooked up with other girls. That's not even the problem. I was thinking about Joe taking someone on dates, just in general. like Before me, like in the midst of our relationship, when we had broken up, whatever.
00:23:42
Speaker
And the idea of him asking a girl on a date, I was ruminating. I was like, how did he do it? Did he like text her? or did talk about it And I'm like, I'm livid. I'm literally like, how no idea dare i get a him ask a girl on a date. I'm like so mad. And then I have to be like, okay, you're being insane. So relax.
00:24:02
Speaker
Yeah, but like the the thought of someone pursue if you pursued other people and you like thought they were. OK, it's just weird. Yeah, it's just it's just like you shouldn't be doing that. Someone says like as if you shouldn't do that. Like, that's crazy. I think it's also kind of like in retrospect, I can also think like me dating people who I just like had nothing to worry about was also kind of a defense mechanism. So I feel like now I'm finally dating someone where I'm like, oh, shit, like other people would probably like this person because they're so great. And I honestly don't know that I've dated other people that I can say that about. And I think that's why I'm also hearing some like, oh shit, like I'm not so out of your league that this is insane that you could never like do something else. Yeah. ah her I get that. I feel that.
00:24:47
Speaker
feel that hard. What's yours and how's yours? Yeah. What's your update Chrissy? Moo. ah gustin
00:24:58
Speaker
Moo's here to say, Hey, she, hey girl. Why does she look like she truly wants to be in here? I don't know. why I just feel like she does. Oh, ah obviously. I feel like she doesn't want to talk, but she wants to be involved.
00:25:11
Speaker
Yeah, but like the thing is the breathing. Oh, okay. That is chill. If we can keep up with that. um My update right now I okay so the thing about me is is like sexual as I am I also go through these like a sexual not even a sexual because I've been like obviously using my vibrator and stuff and actually today like even use my finger.
00:25:34
Speaker
like old school. Whoa, I haven't done that in years. I know. I don't even know like what prompted it. I was just like, Okay, cool. Um, so I wouldn't even say fully asexual. It's just like, I'd go through these periods where I just have no fucking interest in dating, like hooking up just anything.
00:25:56
Speaker
Um, so I would just say I've been like working honestly. Um, and, um, yeah. Like no dates, no random bang. Do you feel like that's kind of like a part of your identity to like be doing those things?
Sexual Identity and Relationships
00:26:15
Speaker
Like what do you feel like when you're in moments not doing that?
00:26:19
Speaker
No, I don't feel like it's part of my identity. I think it's part of my identity that I have a balance. and Like I really like people that are just like hyper sexual all the fucking time I can't really relate with and I think it is probably like because I have, you know, depression or whatever.
00:26:38
Speaker
that I just kind of like goes along with like my moods, which I've been feeling great. Like I feel like my, I've been, you know, I have like some looming things, but like I feel good overall. I just like, sometimes it's just not, I think I'm more worried about just like, you know, work and other shit that I like am good about putting it to this side. Um, and it you' not being part of my identity. Like I don't,
00:27:06
Speaker
Like sometimes I'll kind of get onto myself and be like, you need to be out there more. And then I'm like, you know what? No, I don't. I can just fucking chill. Like I sleep around enough. I don't need to be fucking all the time. I mean, I had those exact same things. I get it. But I think that's also what my therapist is talking about when she said like, you're like all or nothing kind of person. Yeah. Which I called all or nothing. She was like, it could be manic depression.
00:27:28
Speaker
Um, but I did that too where I was like, like, for example, 2019, like that last year where we were like close, I feel like was 2019. I think I had sex like five times that entire year, like and singular times. Oh. And then I'll go out and be like an actual,
00:27:47
Speaker
kind of horror rare or I was I was like I'm down you know what I mean yeah I do yeah I do remember that I feel like we were like both similar and that it's like there were times we could just like take it or leave it whereas like I have friends that like can't live without it or you know other friends that are like you know I literally am asexual So asexual is kind of the move like I feel like I would do that now if Joe and I like were broken up I'd be like I don't think I can't do this anymore as much as I have like done that in my specifically in my 20s Y'all know I'm fucking crazy. It was I like had no heart or soul. I was just like whatever if i yeah yeah and I'm going to but now that I think about it, I'm like I
00:28:32
Speaker
And for what? Like, that's the thing. It's like, my yeah, I didn't even label it asexual. It's more like I don't fucking care. Yeah. Go through all of these steps or to like, like I've done the whole fuck buddy thing to where like at any moment that I'm horny, I can hit them up. I've done the, you know, obviously dating thing and all of that. And sometimes it's just nice to like be rid of all of it.
00:29:01
Speaker
And yeah. I i feel like that narrative is like the older you get, the more empowering it is to just like sleep around and stuff. Yeah, I feel like the older I get the more of like a bird's eye view I I have of like myself yeah and how sexual I feel in any moment like also who genuinely deserves Right. Yeah to be i like it's different when I was young and especially where I come from people are like very into purity Yeah, which I'm not really talking about it from that where it's like you need to remain pure people should know your body whatever it's more just like
00:29:35
Speaker
I think of all the times I did that it was usually when I was out when I was drinking with my friends that usually was surrounding some kind of like story like it was kind of like like my friends weren't in the room with me when it was happening but it was like you never been to take back them a bit a story to tell yes and it was just like for you know and it really was like for what Like I just wasn't like really thinking about it and I didn't think it was a big deal. Obviously like luckily came out healthy and I don't have children, you know, and stuff like that from that time in my life. But like I, I just, when I look back, I'm just like, it wasn't about me wanting to obtain purity either. I'm just like, but what was it for? Other than like the fun bits of it all. Right. You were lost in the bit.
00:30:21
Speaker
but but here's the thing I think a lot of the time I was just like drunk and thinking like it would be good because I i was feeling myself and I'm like yeah I'm like feeling sexual whatever but then like rarely does do moments like that actually end in a situation where you're like wow that was really great productive Yeah, like this guy in the bar just ate me out for 40 minutes and went home. Like, that's not love that. Like, no, it it was so unproductive. But I feel like I needed to go through that process. um And I think it was part of the process of me connecting with my own body, like trying to figure out for sure who I am, like sexually in that sense, and how I like express myself sexually. It's really i window people you don't care about because you just tell them exactly what to do and where to be. And then you're like, Okay, now leave.
00:31:08
Speaker
it just to get that going on like to sleep around it's it's depends on your mental capacity for it i will say but It's just like waste of time sometimes. Yeah, a waste of time letting more people in on like knowing me and like my space and my dogs and my life because like, I obviously don't know how I mean, like I do know how to not share everything. But at the same time, it's like, you know, if I felt with you, it's like,
00:31:37
Speaker
Yeah. like i'm running no boundariary like Even though it's not associated to purity, I feel like sometimes I was doing it to be the opposite of it. Cause I feel like a lot of times I was really confused cause I'm like, I'm not Christian and I don't have this value where I'm like not trying to sleep around, but I also don't necessarily feel like it, but also I have no reason not to. It's like, why wouldn't I just do it? Yeah, it's kind of like, Hey, I don't have an excuse to like, why not? Yeah. It's just not, I'm not saying anything. It wasn't necessarily a moment about purity culture or something to make that.
00:32:07
Speaker
Quisto Cleo. Quisto Cleo. Quisto Cleo. Should we do a quick Fuck Mary kill?
Passions and Daily Life
00:32:14
Speaker
Oh, you have to think about mine. Yeah, I have mine, which is something that I'm very passionate about. I think Peyton might know about or I know Peyton knows about me. I've never said before. So my Mary is actually UX design and I need to not go into it too much because I could talk about it for three hours, but I'm going to just
00:32:37
Speaker
Not. I'm gonna not. Wait, I don't know who and what or what that is. So UX design is like not necessarily a graphic designer who just like makes things based off of like aesthetics. It's like psychology the psychology of like humans and like how they interact with any interface. So it's like user experience design. So it's like if you're checking out on like Delta and you're buying a flight,
00:33:03
Speaker
Right. How many like things can it ask you and in which way can it ask you before you like drop off and you don't want to deal with it anymore because you're just like too overwhelmed? Got it. I feel like people don't realize how many areas of like life that that actually does touch and like how much um better your life gets once you like start thinking about it in terms of marketing. So I work in marketing. And so I feel like so many brands get it wrong because they want to create something in a way that they like want people to interact with it. So like.
00:33:36
Speaker
Let's say if, um, I don't know, someone is making a brand deal and they have to like, you guys know this, say a bunch of like touch points to say all these things. People are going to click off, but they want, they'd rather have you say all of these different things than you actually say how you would want to say it. I feel like that's the best way to describe it. And I just, yeah, I just geek out over it. I read a bunch of books about it and it's my favorite thing. So that's what I'd marry.
00:34:05
Speaker
Wow. So you're like pretty smart, huh?
00:34:11
Speaker
Yeah. You got really, I just, I just like this one thing, but um I don't know a lot else. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Do you want to do it? Iman's like the most and emotionally intelligent person, one of the most that I know in my life. So that actually tried for you to know. yeah But like, if you ask me, like, where is Florida on a map? like I don't know that I could. That's just book smart. That's easy. Yeah, I not look at it and you'll learn. Yeah, I mean. OK, Kristen, what are you marrying? I'm going to say David Portnoy's Miss Peach's voice.
00:34:47
Speaker
Miss Peach's. Wait, what do you think about Miss Peach's brother? Aw, he's so cute. And I'm really happy for them. I feel like they're going to really like to have one another. I was kind of out on the brother at first, because I was like, fuck. I just love the, oh my god, this with us being on video and my friends being like, this is going to really want to make it. Oh, everyone's going to know you have a dick. Fuck!
00:35:13
Speaker
you um I was out on the brother because i like they don't match aesthetically, but then I saw the zoomies. I was really brought in once I saw the zoomy video. It was like, yeah he was on the plane and then that was another video. And then like five seconds later, like the brother was acclimated and they're zooming. And I'm like, yes and i'm like this is everything. It reminded me of like Mu and Barb where I was like, Oh, this like Like I didn't know I was going to keep Barb whenever I brought her home and then they like really vibed and I was like, Oh, I guess like I have a second dog now.
00:35:48
Speaker
yeah um she is a friend Yeah, I just I just I don't even follow him. I don't even follow Miss peaches. But every once in a while it comes up on my for you or whatever reels is and then I go and creep. And I literally will like it's one of those where I like I'm laying in bed and I'm just like watching and like his voice is so calming. Yeah, and it's just truly like I'm sure he's done some nasty shit but like the marketing is working.
00:36:15
Speaker
um And I honestly, I would marry him and his voice. Me too. Me too. I have a huge crush on him. You know what? I love when Miss Peaches does something so terrible. Like she is a bad-ass doll. Like Miss Peaches is a bad girl. She could tear up his whole couch, punch his teeth, bite his teeth.
00:36:38
Speaker
yeah oh like She gets away with everything and he gets so mad at everyone. Like someone could walk across him on the street and look at him the wrong way. And he's like, are you fucking kidding me? And then Miss Peaches,
00:36:53
Speaker
is house two they think oh
00:37:06
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i Like I would say this is kind of off-brand for me to love like it's something that I didn't want to love and I've just been like holy I don't think any of us wanted to love it, but that's why I really. What he's done for the, you know, adopted and the community and like adoption. And, um, yeah, I just, I want to marry the whole thing and I love you, Dave Portnoy. And also like, if you wanted to send us like a few mil and like fund this project just for a few years, um, before we, yeah, just like, let us know, but we don't want to get like too deep, like,
00:37:43
Speaker
We're not going to like the actual audience too is kind of scary. We don't really want them involved. see You know what I mean? Oh. They're kind of, they're kind of scary. They're kind of like scary boys. I am marrying just like only semi reckless shopping sprees at the mall.
Light-Hearted Topics and Entertainment
00:38:05
Speaker
It's gonna be that door mall. Y'all know I loved going to Westfield Century City. Yeah. Going in there where I can find a Nerizia, perhaps my new thing, like well, Reformation obviously too. And then like maybe an Abercrombie.
00:38:20
Speaker
um Anywhere I can go spend a little bit of money, nothing like crazy too reckless, nothing too luxury, just like getting some stuff at Sephora, getting like a little shirt at Aritzia, grabbing my Reformation skirts, that's what I'm marrying. One of those afternoons, every so often is my fave. Okay, what are you fuggin' beams? Okay, I'm fuggin' girls who overshare on their Instagram story that you get to then send to your friends and you're like, oh my fucking god. And here's a thing. Oh yeah.
00:38:51
Speaker
In certain areas, I think we've taken bullying too far. Don't bully the girls who are putting their whole life on their Instagram stories for you to be entertained by because they're going to stop and you're going to ruin it for all of us.
00:39:04
Speaker
Yeah. And also they're doing their thing. They, they probably know what they're doing. So it's like, don't let them do their thing. Let them get it all out. They won't express themselves. Yes. And unless they're saying something so problematic, let's champion everyone sharing or else you guys are going to ruin it. I personally, we're going to be bored. Right. Yes. So you guys all want to judge everyone on the internet until you have no one on the internet saying anything real. And you're like, Oh, this is so like not real anymore. It's like, because you guys are doing this to everyone.
00:39:35
Speaker
So I personally love all the girls that I hate on Instagram. The girls that I'm like, you were so fucking annoying. Am I ever gonna tell them that? No, I'm gonna send it to my friends, I'm gonna talk my shit, and I'm gonna also love and respect that they're sharing their lives in a way that I would never. So I cast off this one girl. And, oh my God, I don't even know where to start. I'm gonna keep this short, you guys. I know we're on a time crunch. She's two kids. Every time she gets a new boyfriend, she's posting him within the first week.
00:40:04
Speaker
oh god Yes, she got this guy's name tatted on her ass before he even made her his girlfriend. And he made a YouTube video about it. They'd known each other for a couple weeks. She got his name tattooed on her but he made a YouTube video about it and they're posting on Instagram this whole time.
00:40:32
Speaker
And he just asked her to be his girlfriend and she just posted the rose petals would be my girlfriend and I'm like, you got his name tattooed on your butt. You even made you his girlfriend but also do you know this girl or is she like an influencer? So like in my group, I've been around her, I've been in the same like room as her I've been to like parties with her so like Be careful now. I don't have her phone number, but I've been around her and everyone in my friends group has the same experience. So this is the last story I'll tell, sorry, then I'll go off. But her last baby daddy, once they broke up, she posted on her Instagram story that both of his sisters were built like SpongeBob and tagged them.
00:41:15
Speaker
This is unreal that we're ever getting this kind of content. If anyone's bullying her for this in her DMs, I will personally fucking kill them. I need her to stay motivated. I need her to stay in the, like I fucking need this in my veins. Like, Oh it my God. It's an actual like interactive and real time reality television.
00:41:37
Speaker
And you never get stuff like this ever in this day and age. People are too great. TikTok you do. That's why it's with chocolate so good because it's like they are getting money for this. So it's like, I don't know. I don't know this bitch that's going viral right now. Just like doing all these crazy TikToks. I can't even remember her name. Is it Aspen? Yes. Oh, I love her.
00:41:59
Speaker
Yeah, I don't know the lore of this but she's everywhere am I for you? me Like this video her last video and I'm like, I don't know what video I go to Yeah, I'm like, I don't know what video is that crazy? But here's the thing saying but thank God for her. I think God for there. So I think her crazy like for me, I'm trying to to figure out what the crazy is. But she's like, I watched of her for last videos and she was like, Yeah, I've only been to a club like twice and I don't really drink and I'm like, that's why I can't find the crazy.
00:42:25
Speaker
Because wall like, well, she grow your that and kind of crazy to like go and like do do these like, I don't know, like, I feel like she's like really putting a like she's really saying a lot through these videos sometimes. But she also made a video that she was like, I feel like essentially manic. Like she's like, I have horrible days. And I just like, now I'm getting on here for my therapy and just saying whatever. And I might regret it later. And I'm like, I know. And I kind of respect that. No, I really do. Like I know that feeling and instead like when me and Joe broke up, I felt that way. Obviously it's a completely different thing. She's divorcing like the father of two of her children. So that's so different. But like I felt so manic and if I had a camera on me that whole entire time, I probably would have gone viral for being crazy. But like I did try to keep that. You didn't have the ball. I did not have the ball. Let's just say that. To be honest, I should have had the balls for that.
00:43:18
Speaker
No, I'm proud of you for not like you can still because like the thing is Peyton, what if you have the balls but you don't go viral? ah no yeah No, no, no, like that no, No, that's the fucking thing you guys know, that's my worst fear is that I'm literally sure I do stark a secret and I'm not going viral.
00:43:44
Speaker
Yeah, exactly. You like, you think you're really doing something. Um, is it my, is it my turn to fuck? Yeah. Fugging. Yeah. I'm fogging. Oh, oh my gosh.
Routines and Critiques
00:43:56
Speaker
Okay. So I'm fogging my equinox routine as a whole, but specifically my newly added, um, step, which is the castor oil pack and girls, let me tell you,
00:44:12
Speaker
I've used castor oil for my hair and hair growth and all of that. And then I saw this stuff about castor oil packs and I was like, oh, I don't need like another thing, but it's supposed to like help your gut and help you detox and all of that. And I've been super bloated and anyway.
00:44:27
Speaker
um I got castor oil and I got like a pack and you wrap it around yourself. Literally the second I laid down in the steam room, because it's better when it's hot and it's messy, kind of like it could leak. So I'm like, oh, this is like a steam room activity. um Literally immediately when I laid down with it on, I was gurgling, girls, gurgling. Really?
00:44:53
Speaker
starting to form, I was pooping for like two days. So yeah, I am fugging that because pooping feels good. um But also, yeah, also, I did want to mention that's just like the, you know, 15th step of what my Equinox routine is, like my bag that I take,
00:45:22
Speaker
because i I walk there like up the hill um with my weights on and everything. And I have my bag with all my beauty stuff in it. It's literally full. It's so fucking heavy. And it's because I have 900 things I'm doing. I'm like so done for it yeah sometimes I'm goshawing. I'm always doing hair masks. I'm you know doing this. You are always doing a hair mask.
00:45:48
Speaker
um all doing a hairma I'm always in a steam room. But yeah, anyway, this is like my my latest elevated thing that I've been wanting to try but I didn't know if it was like you know, all hubbub, but girls, I was shit in. So. I bought the castor oil pack thing that you put on you. I just haven't really done the actual castor oil part yet. Highly recommend. So. Is it my turn to fuck something? Yeah. um I am fucking rewatching Scandal right now. Oh shit.
00:46:23
Speaker
with Joe, because Joe's never seen it. So especially because we lived in D.C. He lived in D.C. for like six years or six seasons. So like half the year for six years and then we lived there together and we just like I love D.C. But you know what his like biggest annoyance is?
00:46:40
Speaker
So far, we're in season two. Fitz, he's like the president. He's like, this guy is so annoying. He's so dramatic. He acts like he can't like just like control himself around this chick. like He's the president of the fucking United States. like Get it together. And I'm like, you know what? If I wanted my boyfriend to despise anyone on the show the most, I think it would be him.
00:47:02
Speaker
He's like, what, he has no self control? Yes. yeah Thank you, Joe. Yes. Thank you. Guess who he doesn't despise. He doesn't despise his wife, Millie or whatever her name is. She's just like a fucking bitch, but she doesn't necessarily do anything to anyone. She just like is uptight in a bitch. I think she's smart. Yeah. I think she's like, she's there. She's like talking to, she's like, we just watched the episodes where she's like talking to Olivia about how She he's was like she's like, I need to take my husband back because obviously like you two are in love and you're not fucking him right and you broke his heart and now he had to go fuck this other girl and basically get her pregnant and that it caused all this whole problem. So like you didn't do your job. And I did my job. I sat there and looked pretty and go fuck yourself. And I literally was like, that's like like like the sickest thing to say in that situation.
00:47:49
Speaker
Like, yeah, I know you're fucking my husband. He actually didn't do it right because guess what? He actually fucked someone else and... Well, he she was like, you broke his heart and you left him when like we, were the thing we had going was great. He was happy and I was perfect. Like I was doing my part. You were doing your part. Y'all can be in love, whatever. But like, then you fucked it up by breaking up with him and breaking his heart. So go fuck yourself. Yeah. um So I'm fucking watching scandal. I don't know how long it's going to last. It feels to be short lived. So we'll see.
00:48:18
Speaker
love yeah i need to watch it do you guys think i would like uh i don't know i don't know i don't know if it's really your vibes yeah it's like a little serious it's like not very funny yeah not funny i have nothing to gain yeah i know um okay i'm killing so here's my biggest issue right it's actually not my biggest issue but like
00:48:42
Speaker
that I can talk about on here in like a silly way is that my hair, having to deal with my hair is a huge issue
Hair Care and Moving Frustrations
00:48:49
Speaker
in my life. her so but Like a couple of months ago or even last year, like I got braids, which I love having braids, but it makes my hair fall out because I have like thin actual like hair strands. Okay. So then I feel like I can't get braids, which are like obviously protective style. And then when I wear my hair curly, whenever I put it up, it like makes my hair like break off. Again, I have like thin hair strands. Then when I wear my hair straight, I get heat damage. So it's just like, what the fuck am I supposed to do? Right? Yeah. so
00:49:22
Speaker
You're supposed to embrace it girl. It's just like, it's takes so people always tell me like, Oh, why don't you love your curly hair? Like I love my curly hair. It takes, it's so long to do like, it's so much more work. Like this is actually me taking a shortcut. It's not me like, Oh yeah. I think like way better with straight hair. I just like,
00:49:43
Speaker
People are always like, ew, ew, ew, ew, really? So many products, I feel like to make sure the curls don't frizz almost. I feel like even with waves, I mean, Kristin, you have waves. I feel like yours are naturally like that. Mine are naturally pretty wavy, but even with waves, it's annoying because a little frizz in two seconds, you can't brush it out. You have to make sure each curl is perfectly real. No, I get it. I just would have never thought that that would be more than straightening and everything. I feel like it's so many products. It's so much more.
00:50:12
Speaker
So I finally have like a perfect hair care routine for my heat styling. Okay. It costs me hundreds of dollars every few weeks. <unk>o And it's just like, I'm feel so annoyed with my hair care routine right now because it does work, but it's so expensive and it's also so many steps. And I just feel like I'm never going to be at the end of the hamster wheel. I will say the moon juice, super hair pills,
00:50:40
Speaker
You're going to look at the price. You're going to see $65 and you're going to say for a month and I'm going to say, yeah, you're going to have to do it. Yeah. Then I'm going to say all the Olaplex line and you're going to say $200 I'm going to say, yeah. And they're actually all coming out after you use it two times.
00:50:56
Speaker
And then you're going to say, oh, and also the K18 like leave in here. I'm going to say, yeah. And you're going to say, oh, it's $30 for one use. And I'm going to say, did amount yeah. And then I'm going to say, okay. Yeah. The wow. Um, hair cosmetics, blow dry spray. Yes. I didn't say for the little one.
00:51:15
Speaker
It's just like, I'm so exhausted with doing my hair and like, obviously I'm trying to look gorgeous all the time, but it's like, when's it going to stop? What am I? There's no way for it to stop ever in my whole life. And I have my whole life of dealing with this. So I'm just feeling really defeated. Well, I'm really sorry you're going through that, but. Yeah, I appreciate that. You know, we'll keep you on our prayers. Thank you. Yeah. What are you killing or what are you killing me?
00:51:44
Speaker
Oh, me? Oh, who me? I'm killing i the Gen Z hand motions on TikTok. For instance, like... what is that one i taught what What does that one say?
00:52:03
Speaker
Wait, that goes along with the sound? It like... Yes. But like sometimes they don't like sometimes it's, and and they're just like, Oh, I wish I could think of other ones. I feel like I know what you're saying. I just don't really notice it even. Yeah. It might be so ingrained into my little tiny brain that I just don't even notice that this is like a thing happening. Yeah. yeah ah It's like, I even feel bad saying that now that like people are starting to call me out or calling them out.
00:52:39
Speaker
Do you want to share or no? No. Okay. I don't. Can we say Kristin got in trouble for saying someone someone's name on the last episode? yeah No, i love and like I think it was like two episodes ago and i and it's not what you would expect. She does say a lot of names, I will say. Well, it doesn't count if it's men, but I didn't, I don't know.
00:53:07
Speaker
Okay, we'll move on. We'll save space. Anyway, um i might want to to I might want to do a different one after Peyton, but keep going. Well, I don't really know what I want to kill because I want to kill everything. Oh my God, my fucking sweatpants when I... You're ding dong. I know, I keep forgetting. Oh my gosh. Ding dong. There's got to be something that I want to kill. I feel like you want to kill a lot.
00:53:35
Speaker
Plus my problem, like I can't narrow it down. It's not that I can't think of something. It's just like everything I'm going to kill the same amount. And I'm trying to figure out something I'm going to kill more than everything. You know what I want to kill is like the moving process. And what I mean by that is like.
00:53:53
Speaker
movers and car shippers. I've said this before, when you go to ship your car somewhere, you feel like you're doing a drug deal and you're kinda just like, am I ever gonna see my car again? Because even doing it with like with Joe, we did like a covered one, but like it was so sketchy where we like dropped our cars off and then he's like, you can give me a five day window and I'll go pick it up in that five day window and then he tells us 20 minutes before he was gonna be here today.
00:54:18
Speaker
And he told us he was gonna be here at the end of the week. And he's like, no, we have to drop off now. And I'm like, what is the, people are moving all the time. People are shipping cars all the time. Like, why isn't someone kind of like come in and been like, we're going to make this like an app where you can like see your car. Like of all the things we have in this day and age, it feels like you're doing a drug deal every single time. Like I put an air, an air tag in my car. So I know where it is obviously, but like,
00:54:45
Speaker
You have no idea. You have limited contact. When we shipped our cars to DC, this guy like met made me meet him on this one-way street in the middle of DC, which is like not an easy place to bring like a semi-truck of 16 cars. We met on a one-way. He asked me to get in the the cab of the truck with him.
00:55:03
Speaker
like to go back there he had something there was something off about him for sure he was like flirting with me the entire time this is after when i went and dropped off the car i dropped it off in a parking lot and i like meet the guy it was just a guy with a thing on the back of his truck and i'm like and And you're texting a number with a green text. I'm like, this is, it feels like a drug deal, but it's my car. So I'm like, but same with movers where they're like, yeah, so we'll just pick up your stuff and it'll be there between October, like right now to like maybe November 3rd. And you're like, no, what the fuck are you talking about? Like we're paying you thousands of dollars. Why did we not know like this is when it's getting picked up? Yeah. there that' what it's getting dropped off It's like going to the doctor. It's like,
00:55:48
Speaker
No, it's crazy. And so he, he like booked out, he rented a car throughout the whole week because we were told it'd be dropped off at the end of the week. And then we have an Airbnb because we don't have any stuff. Like we have no bed or anything like that. But we actually rented a Tahoe this week and Joe's like, we got both of our cars today. And there's nothing driving a guy driving a Tahoe.
00:56:07
Speaker
That's what I told him and Joe's still driving the Tahoe around because he's like I kind of love that it's like a literal boat like I'm just dirt like whipping around Florida. The audio is also like really good in those cars. We're just like when he's in the back. I literally learned how to drive in a suburban.
00:56:23
Speaker
And I can't believe it because, I don't know, my I just can't imagine driving something that large anymore. Well, that's a big one, too, because that's the Tahoe, but so fucking long. We saw one the other day, and Joe was talking about how the Tahoe was a boat, because he's a big guy. So I'm like, that's kind of like a car that matches you. And then we saw the Suburban, and I was like, that's the big one. I'm like, maybe no wonder I am a bad driver, because I learned how to drive like a fucking tank. And like, I have a tiny little girl.
00:56:54
Speaker
Tiny little pool have a tiny little car now yeah we um Well, okay, so that was kind of like I would say like a very like real-life semi-depressing But like maybe good for you guys because like maybe you're going through and it feels nice to hear that we're going through it um anyway, I who I hope you enjoyed and I hope you um will be back next week and at running after forever. And come bite us on Instagram.
00:57:29
Speaker
Yeah. ah greatest us On Spotify, only five stars. If you have less than five stars, then ah maybe just DM us and give us some suggestions and and don't do it. But if you have five stars, just give us rating. And rate on Apple um podcast, because I really like to see the comments they really make. Yeah, those are so fun. Like we get a lot of comments on Spotify, but I don't think those are public. I think those are just for us, which we obviously ah appreciate so much, but I just don't want you guys to think that they're public when they're not.
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Yes. Please give us a waiting. I think the reviews on Spotify are helpful for like, for like feedback. yeah yeah Just share it on Spotify. Just show it. We'll see it. Please. We see it. Me and question. See you. We love you guys. Okay, seriously. Bye. You guys have to go and I have one more thing to say.