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39. Akashic Records Experience, Becoming Friends with Jesus + Buddha, Gene Key 22 Grace + Dishonor, Getting Fired for the First Time
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Hello my friend! This week I take you along as I share about a super fascinating experience in my Akashic Records this week!
- I share advice for the Purpose path from my guides
- How to trust yourself and the signs you get from your guides and the Universe!
- How I got to chat with Jesus + Buddha during my meditation
- Gene Key 22, the shadow of Dishonor and the Gift of Grace and how this was shown to me by spirit!
- My experience getting fired for the first time ever-- by my own boyfriend and how it relates to my Gene Key shadows
- I talk about Life's Work and the sphere of Evolution as a Line 2
It's super juicy it all ties together and you're going to get a taste of why I love the Gene Keys SOOO much!
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xx,
Ellisa
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Transcript
Introduction and Personal Updates
00:00:00
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Hello, hello, my friend. Oh my goodness. Welcome to the It's Happening for Me podcast. I'm your host Alyssa, and I am so happy that you are here with me today. If this is your first time, welcome. And if you are a regular Bussy over here, I just want to say thank you for your patience in getting this episode out. So you guys, this frickin'
00:00:29
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episode has been the first time that I've missed a week in this whole time that I've been podcasting, which is going to be coming up on a year shortly.
00:00:41
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You guys, okay, the eclipse season, okay, the eclipse season that we just got out of and the Mercury retrograde has, as you know, I've talked about in past episodes, wiped me the F out. Then I was feeling so excited from May energy peanut.
00:01:00
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peanut one second guys okay I think we're settled if you hear a little squeaky squeaky I'm so sorry that it's peanut playing with this toy mama duties it's Mother's Day happy freaking Mother's Day to all the beautiful moms out there and all the beautiful dog moms as well I see you girl and
00:01:22
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wouldn't change it for the world. Okay, so where was I? So we got out of eclipse season, right? We got out of Mercury retrograde. It was like the beginning of May, my energy completely shifted. I felt so excited. I was like, wow, like this is total new energy. I felt like this like mass like creative rut that I was in and just feeling crappy overall. I felt like it completely lifted and I felt like a new person. And then last Thursday,
00:01:52
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So that would have been, okay, so I missed last week's. So it would have been last, last Thursday. So not this Thursday, but like the second of May, I started feeling really sick and I ended up getting a super bad cold. And I had to take off like three days from work.
00:02:09
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And I even went to like urgent care because I thought something was like becoming severely wrong. I was like, Oh, do I have like a sinus infection or strep throat? But luckily I tested negative for everything. And I basically just like was told I need to let it run its course. So I think that was like what a huge lesson that I had was like divine timing, like everything is happening in divine timing. Like I was so excited to have my energy back and to be like,
00:02:37
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on it with my business and just like full throttle forward. But then I got sick and I haven't been sick with any like respiratory or cold in like two years. Like it's been so long since I've been sick and I was just like, what is going on? So I really had to surrender to that and be okay with it. And I had to miss last week's podcast episode.
00:02:57
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And a part of me was super upset because I think there's been twice where it's been late in the week, but I've never missed a week. And I think we're going on to like episode, I think this is going to be episode 39. So I mean, that's a really good streak, especially for me, someone who
00:03:13
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I have a lot of energy in my chart of in my human design and gene keys of new beginnings. So I have so much energy and initiation to like start things. I don't so much have the energy of completing things. And that's been something that I've really had to work through in the deconditioning process of like being okay with that.
00:03:34
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But the podcast is something that I'm so long term with. This is the longest I've really been sticking to something and showing up no matter what every single week. So a part of me was upset that I couldn't put it out. But then also I just released it and I was like, it's okay.
00:03:52
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do it this week so that's where we're at that's why i wasn't here last week i'm feeling so much better i think i did honestly you guys tried to record last sunday um a guided meditation that i was considering uploading or just like letting you guys know about it to send it out to you for free
00:04:12
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I'll talk about that in a little bit, but I've been getting super deep into my meditations. But the voice was just, it was still too sick. I don't know if you can hear it, but I still have a nasally sounding tone in my voice because I'm still getting over the illness. I was like, let's not do one of my first beautiful guided meditations that I put out there being sick. Let's just wait till I'm completely healed.
00:04:40
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Yeah.
Spiritual Insights and Akashic Records
00:04:41
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Okay. What are we going to talk about today? Oh my God. So something super fascinating happened to me and I cannot wait to share it with you. I was like, you are the person that I need to tell and I think you're going to appreciate it out of anyone in my life. And I considered like not even talking about it because it's basically this experience that I had during an Akashic Records that I was doing for myself. And it's like, I'm going to talk about
00:05:10
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the experience that I had, the meditation, the guides that I was speaking to, the lessons I received from it, and then go into gene keys and how it's shown up for me in a specific gene key this week. Everything has been confirmed. It's freaking crazy. And I'm like, who else would appreciate it other than you? And I know you love all the mystical stuff and like tying in
00:05:33
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like signs, like signs from the universe, signs from God. And so I'm so excited to just put it out there. So let's talk about it. So I did an Akashic Records reading for myself this week and it was super, super profound. And this is where I really wanna like tie this into where this is so relevant for all of us is that number one,
00:06:02
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We are so connected and supported from our guides, from the universe, from unseen forces, from angels, from ascended masters, from like ascended teachers, light beings. Like we are so supported and so connected to them. And any of us have the ability to access them and to talk to them and to literally just get to know them like a friend. And like we all have that possibility and that ability
00:06:32
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And, you know, what I learned when I first learned energy work, right? I learned anti-high energy work and quantum healing. And I learned from my teacher that the more relaxed, the least resistant, the least fixed, the least tense that we are when we are approaching like channeling or anything that has to do with like speaking to our guides or receiving messages, it's like,
00:07:02
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the more is going to come through, right? It's really having this child imagination and this total openness that anything can happen, and then learning how to trust ourselves when these things come through. That's another thing too. Also, when I took my Akashic Records certification,
00:07:22
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I think one of the things that helped me so much, be able to just pick it up so quickly, is that I just trusted what I was hearing. One of the biggest things that's going to happen is self-doubt, and we're going to feel like, am I making this up? Am I really speaking to some other thing outside of myself? Is this completely my imagination making this up?
00:07:46
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And the truth is, is that we're all so connected. And so like messages that are going to come through may even be something that you have heard from your friend that they're experiencing. Or, you know, it might, it's like, it might not always be this super new and different thing that comes through, which can make you feel like, wait, am I making this up? Because I heard my best friend talking about this and this the other day, and now this is coming through for me. And is that why I'm thinking about this? And it's like, no, it's just that we're all so connected.
00:08:15
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It's so crazy. So I really want to talk to you about the reading that I did for myself and what came through. And the lesson was all about on this purpose path, like we're already doing it. Like we are healers. We are light workers. Like if you're listening to this podcast, if you're interested in spirituality, if you're interested in like helping others, and it doesn't mean that you have to want to be a coach or it doesn't mean you have to want to run your own business.
00:08:43
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but it genuinely means that you probably have a huge heart and you want to help other people and make an impact in some way, right? Like I always talk about the fractal lines and how like we're all part of each other's fractal lines. And so we're souls that kind of incarnated in the same lifetime on purpose to help each other, be inspired by each other, learn from each other. And so just know that literally
00:09:11
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trust that your purpose is unfolding in divine timing. That was a huge message that came through to me. It was like,
00:09:18
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Like you're trying too hard, Alyssa. Like you're intellectualizing everything. So I'm going to be talking about how we often over-intellectualize the purpose path. Even in business, we really, like we really get stuck in the humanness of like trying to figure things out and like figure out the perfect Instagram bio. Figure out, like I've changed mine. If you ever look at my Instagram bio, I'm always changing it like 30,000 times a week because I'm like
00:09:44
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how can I put into words who I'm here to help? That has been you guys. One of my biggest struggles is narrowing down who am I helping? What is the transformation that I'm giving others? And it's like, I'm obsessed with human design. I'm obsessed with jinkies. I'm obsessed with Akashic Records. I'm obsessed with all of these spiritual transformational systems that help us get to know ourselves on such a deep level.
00:10:09
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And it's been profound the ways that I have changed myself, but how do I put that into marketing or messaging? I think that's one of the things where we get so stuck on, especially, like I said, as Lightworkers or those of us that are in business for heart-centered reasons.
00:10:29
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Those were part of the questions that I asked my guides. I'm going to tell you all the questions I asked them, everything that came through, what they said, so that you can really, I think, just learn from this as well. And again, I felt kind of crazy sharing this, but
00:10:47
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Why else would I be using my voice and having a podcast if I don't share about real experiences that happen? Do you know what I mean? And it's just like mind blowing. So let's just get into it. So I asked my guides. Let me just pull up the questions because I want to share with you what I asked them. So I asked my guides, what is my bigger purpose?
00:11:08
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how can I be of highest service now? And also, I think this is going to give you really good insights on questions that you can ask the Akashic Records. So if you're ever interested in getting an Akashic Records reading, maybe you don't know exactly what you can ask them or how it can help you, this can give you a great idea of some questions. So that was number one. I wrote down five questions, right? So number two, I wanted to know
00:11:32
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What is the most juiciest, yummiest, easy way that I can make $8,000 a month in my business? Okay. Then the next question was, what is the easiest, most juiciest, yummiest way that I can share meditations at Cockshark Records, GM keys, blah, blah, blah, in order to make $8,000 a month in my business?
00:12:02
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And then I asked, what am I not seeing right now that is holding me back from being the most helpful and at the most service to others?
00:12:16
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I think those are the questions I asked.
Guidance from Divine Beings
00:12:18
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I tried actually looking for the paper right now where I wrote it down, but I can't find it. So anyways, so this is my process. When I do an Akashic Records reading for myself or others, especially if it's remote, what I do and what I did on a specific day was I wrote down my questions, right? So I write down my questions. So I have a very specific intention of like,
00:12:37
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What do I want to know? What do I want to ask as soon as I open the records? And this is so important because the Akashic Records, we can look at it as like the Akasha. It's like it's this beautiful library you can think of in space.
00:12:54
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that holds information, knowledge, wisdom of everything that's ever happened to every being ever to exist. So we can look at the past lifetimes, we can look at present lifetimes, we can look at future potential lifetimes. It records everything and every single soul has a record, right? It has like a book that you can take out and then you can read it and you can get all this information.
00:13:19
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And you can connect to whoever you're reading for as spirit guides, the loved ones, angels, ascended masters, whoever wants to come forward in love and truth and share specific messages, specific little things that that soul needs to know in order to be able to move on in their life, in order to heal, in order to transform, in order to forgive in so many ways, right?
00:13:47
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And there's so, think about that, right? There's so much information. So if you don't have a very clear direct path of what you're asking, it's like, it can be confusing or things can come through that don't really make sense. Or, you know, it might just be a little more difficult to, in my experience, to like pull things out. So I love having like the exact list ahead of time, the questions we want to ask. And it also, what happens as well, what I learned from my first teacher, when I learned how to read Akashic records for myself, is that
00:14:18
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When you write those down, you are telling God, you're telling Source, the universe, that you're ready to hear the answers. Because what's going to happen is that you're never going to hear something that you're not ready to handle. So it's never going to be scary. It's never going to be hurtful. It's never going to be painful.
00:14:42
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it's going to be truthful. And sometimes it might be things that are difficult to hear or uncomfortable. But as we know, like growth doesn't only happen when we're comfortable, it happens when we're out of our comfort zone. So when you're writing it down, you're saying like, I am ready to hear whatever it is that you need to tell me. I'm ready to take accountability. I'm ready to take the steps to
00:15:06
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implement whatever it is you give me so that I can change my life and so it just adds a like an energetic like an energetic like
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I don't, the word coming through is like acceptance, like an energetic acceptance of like, I'm ready to hear this. Because like I said, it can be uncomfortable if you are not open to it. And also I've recognized as well going into it and doing readings for other people is that if the person is not ready to receive the information, like they won't answer that question, like, or it just might not land with that person because maybe they thought they wanted to know, but they're,
00:15:48
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they're not yet quite ready to accept it or to integrate it. So anyways, just writing it down sets a beautiful intention. So I wrote down my questions, right? And so I lit a candle. Everyone has their own process, but I like to light incense or light a very specific candle that just really sets my space. And this time I did it in my cozy bed. I had already brushed my teeth, did my skincare for the night. I was ready to go to sleep after this. So I wanted to be so peaceful.
00:16:17
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I wanted to be in my bed in the comfort of like my beautiful room with my candle, my dim like lighting. So it was like a beautiful space. So I lit my candle and then I read my prayer. And so every reader has their own version of a prayer. So either they made it up themselves or they always pass down to them from their teacher. However, they learned is all perfect. And so I read my prayer.
00:16:43
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And what I always find for me happens is that every single time I read the prayer, it's a different experience. And that was what I would say for my teacher is that it's like being so present with the words that you're reading, you will never read that prayer the same twice. Because what happens is the moment that you start reading it,
00:17:05
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Like the Akasha already knows that you're tuning into this soul's information. And so you're already going to start getting downloads and hints and like certain words are going to stick out to you. And like you're already going to start to get certain feelings. So when I was reading my prayer, you guys, I started already before I even asked any questions or completely read the prayer and got into my records. I already started getting this visual of a meditation that I have done a couple of years ago, couple of years ago.
00:17:35
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When I really started learning about Buddhism and really felt called to learn more about it, and I loved how everything was really for the betterment of others, I took the Bodhisattva vow, which is basically where it's an agreement
00:17:58
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to attain enlightenment, not only for the sake of myself, but for the sake of others. So it's really this vow that it extends into all lifetimes going forward. So it's like, Oh, I vow to achieve enlightenment so that I can be a raft, a raft, or like a lighthouse to help others. And so it's something that I took very seriously. It's something that is very special to me.
00:18:25
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And when I did that ritual, we were guided through a meditation and basically under this tree, I saw some spirit guides, loved ones, ascended masters who were there to assist me, who are going to be there to assist me moving forward in every lifetime as I set out to achieve this, right? And you guys,
00:18:55
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It was crazy who was there for me. And I saw, so I'll just let you know who it was. And then I'll tell you how this came into the reading. So I had Jesus, I had the Buddha, I had my grandpa Dean, and I had the deity China master. So I always forget how to like pronounce her name properly, but she is the Hindu goddess that is holding her own head. Like her head is severed. There's like blood coming out of it in pictures.
00:19:24
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And she's holding her own head. And you guys, I like didn't know really who she was before I had this experience. And, and so she comes from, um, Buddhist, like Tibetan Buddhist, right? And I like, it was the craziest thing, like the craziest thing that I ever experienced. And it was so special. And I later went on to like research her and figure out more about her.
00:19:50
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But she was there with me as one of the main supporters when I took this vow. So those were the four that stuck out the most, right? So Jesus, Buddha, China Master, and my Grandpa Dean. So they were all there supporting me. And that was a couple of years ago, okay?
00:20:06
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Now, when I read my Kaushik records that I'm telling you about this week, as soon as I started reading the prayer, that image of me being under the tree, accepting my vow with those specific beings appeared. And I was like, oh my goodness. So I opened up my records.
00:20:24
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And before I ask any questions, I generally like to sit there for a moment and just be in a little meditation and just see what comes through. Sometimes I keep my eyes open, sometimes I keep my eyes closed, and I'm seeing are there any sensations in my body? Is there anything that directly wants to come through before I get into the questions?
00:20:42
Speaker
Because a lot of times it's so cool. You'll see that things just start coming through before you even ask questions. So a lot of times you can even answer people's questions just from that initial opening of the records before you get to the questions, which is so cool. So as soon as I open the records, I'm taken back to this day, to this meditation that I had. I'm literally in underneath the tree with these beings. And you guys, I start talking to them.
00:21:10
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And first I start talking to Jesus, and then I start talking to Buddha, then I finish with my grandpa, try to message there. And I'm like, they're just talking to me about the questions before I even ask the questions. And I think it's because my number one question was, what is my bigger purpose? How can I best be of service to the world? Remember, that was my number one question. So they already start talking to me like, Alyssa, like,
00:21:38
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you already know what your purpose is. Your purpose is to help heal suffering and to bring joy and to take ownership of that bodhisattva vow and help others. They're like, it can be that simple. They were telling me that I'm really over-intellectualizing this purpose path. They were like, they're talking to me,
00:22:08
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But then I'm also talking to them, but this is all happening in my head, right? And so I'm like, am I making this up? Of course, there's always that self-doubt. But I was like, no, trust this. It felt so real, you guys. It felt so real. And so I was telling them, OK, I get that my purpose path is to help others in the most basic general sense. And I was like, but...
00:22:31
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I live in 2024 and I want to have an online business and I want to reach people online. And so I need to play the game. I was like, help me play the game, you know? And they were like, okay, yes. And they were like, they're like, yes, 100%. They even gave me guidance. You guys have like who I can like learn from to help me, which I'll get into in a second. But anyways, they were like, okay, yes. They were like,
00:22:57
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We're going to set you up with the perfect person or beings or like person in real life that can teach you these things because they're like, yeah, we get it different times. You can play the game. Absolutely. But they're like also like.
00:23:10
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everyone's really over-intellectualizing it. They were like, you guys are making yourselves go crazy. They were literally the coaching industry and people online and messaging and trying so hard to get people to buy their stuff and marketing. They were like, you guys are trying so hard. They were like, it does not have to be that hard.
00:23:31
Speaker
Literally, the bio does not matter, Alyssa. You were spending way too much time on the Instagram bio trying to make that mean anything. The message was like, come back to the heart. Return to your heart, to your heart space. Speak about the things
00:23:49
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that you felt, like share your truth, share what really, like what really keeps you up at night? What is really painful for you? What have you really overcome? Like those are the things that you can speak to that are going to help others. And they were like, there's no need to like try to figure out these strategies or like try so hard when you can literally just like be in your own essence and like your vibration will be so high when you're tuned into the heart and speaking from the heart.
00:24:17
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So I was like, wow, this is so cool. And then I asked, I was like, okay, am I making this up or am I really speaking to Jesus? Like, I was like, how can I be talking to you right now? Like this is, I'm sorry, but for my human mind, this is kind of crazy. This is like, like, I'm like, am I even worthy? Or like, do I even have time to talk to you? And they kind of laughed.
00:24:36
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all of them kind of laughed. And Jesus was like, Alyssa, I, he's like, if you think about me as a human, like I was one with the people, you know, like I was for the people, like religion and what you think of now of Jesus or the construct that you think of, um, like being saved or just any, anything that you're thinking of through the lens of this more like
00:25:03
Speaker
modern day Christianity or certain religions has like really warped things. And he was like, I'm literally like, he's like, I'm here for you. I'm here for the people. It's so easy. He's like, it's so easy to talk to me. You can ask me for advice anytime anyone can. And especially since like time and space doesn't exist, he can talk to anybody at the same time, you know, like he can talk to all of us in meditation or
00:25:25
Speaker
when we close our eyes he was like you he's like the reason they were able to talk to me right now is because you're trusting in yourself and you're trusting in your gifts and you're making it be so easy and he was like it's not hard it's just that the human mind makes it seem really hard because the human mind makes it seem like oh there's no way that I could be talking to this being like I said how I already had my own self doubts of like
00:25:50
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do you really want to waste your time talking to me?" Just little old Alyssa. And he was like, of course, I'm here for you. And I'm literally here for all people. Whoever wants guidance from me or is interested in me, I am here for you to share that love and to share the truth.
00:26:08
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Yeah, like my path. And so I was like, Wow, thank you. That is like really special. So I kind of just like was talking to them. And then the way that we have our house set up you guys is we have a one bedroom and George now has the one bedroom as like anime world's office and like his live streaming like it's completely covered with like all of the walls are covered with
00:26:34
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tables. And then he has racks on top of that with all the figures. And this is where he live streams three days a week. And then he has like his office in here. And then I made our living room like the most badass cute, aesthetically pleasing room slash office. So I have my room in the living room and my office in there, my desk. And so anytime that he needs to come to the kitchen, it's like literally right there.
00:26:58
Speaker
So, when I was having this divine, profound meditation, like speaking to Jesus, speaking to Buddha, he came in and was using the air fryer, and so I would open my eyes and look at him, and then I was like, okay, so I'm not making this up, I'm not dreaming, I'm not asleep, and I'll close my eyes again, go back into the meditation, and just talk to them. So, I know that I wasn't asleep and I wasn't dreaming, and it was real, and it was easy for me to go back into it.
00:27:25
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Um, that lasted for a while and I honestly forget all of the things that I asked them. Like that also happens a lot when you're in the Akasha. It's like so high vibe and such pure love. It's just such a different frequency that we often like, if you don't write things down, you will forget things that you've said.
00:27:42
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especially when you do readings for other people. It's like, I don't even remember what I've told them because you're in a channeling state. So we talked for a while. I forgot everything else that I said, but mostly like, mostly the message was just like, stop over intellectualizing and complicating things. Like really lead from the heart, speak from the heart. We all have access to like guides, ascended masters, loved ones, our loved ones who have passed. Like the veil is so thin and it's more of just like trusting ourselves and trusting those signs.
Navigating Spiritual and Personal Challenges
00:28:11
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So anytime, you guys, that you get a sign that you think, oh, I think this is from an angel, or I think this is from my guide. Trust that. Trust it with everything inside of you. Really follow that. It's almost like a child-like imagination. Everything is possible. It's magic. It's literally living in a state of magic. Trust that. And also, anytime that... I've also seen a lot of things too about
00:28:41
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This has really helped me, so I think this might help you. Anytime that you see an animal, a number, anything that you're like, wow, I think this is a sign. Let me look up what it means. Before you go to like Google it and ask like, oh, what does it mean to look at blah, blah, blah? First, think about what were you just thinking about? Because whatever you were just thinking about, that is what the sign is there to
00:29:09
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give you guidance on, right? And then, and then, you know, you can kind of think about whatever you want. And that's really going to build your intuition. That's what's really helped me like with doing that and like receiving signs. And then you can go and look it up in whatever form you want to do. And I'm going to talk to you in a second about the bombest form of sign looking up that I do that resonates with my soul. It might not resonate with everybody, but it's just really, really freaking special, especially if you're into the jinkies, if you're into human design, into those like divination,
00:29:39
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systems, I think you're going to love it. So going back to that, it was a beautiful, beautiful experience. It felt so good. And then I ended up falling asleep and having the best sleep of my life. I felt so loved. I felt so peaceful. Oh, and the other message too was divine timing. It was a lot about me being sick, back to back, my dad being sick. My dad got really, really sick two days after the eclipse happened.
00:30:08
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had some heart issues that now he's dealing with. And so it's really allowing life to happen and to know that everything is happening in divine timing. So we don't need to be so worried or beat ourselves up if we're not showing up on social media. Again, this is another thing that always keeps coming through to me is that social media, Instagram, YouTube, whatever outlets you use for your business, the podcasts, whatever,
00:30:37
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Those are forms of content, but that's not the actual business itself. So if you feel like you're failing because you're not constantly showing up on Instagram, constantly the way you quote unquote should, you're just creating unnecessary stress and unnecessary resistance for yourself because you don't have to show up, right? It's like a privilege. It's something that you get to do. It's something that can be excited for, but if there's time so you need to rest, if there's times that you're sick, do not beat yourself up for not showing up because honestly,
00:31:07
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it's okay. That doesn't mean that your business is failing. I remember I just talked about this a lot with the Line 2s and the Hermit, like the Hermit phasing. Anytime that you feel like you need to step away or reserve your energy or just keep things private and keep living your life, that's the most important thing that you can do for yourself. That's going to help you show up even better when you're ready to be seen again and when you're ready to be visible. Then you'll have all of these cool lessons that you can share with your audience and with your customers and
00:31:37
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like that's more important, right? Than making yourself feel bad for not showing up. So just wanted to put that out there too because I know so many people suffer from like the inconsistency quote unquote that they feel of like not showing up on things. So that was something else that was shown to me to release because it's like that at the end of the day it has nothing to do with anything. Like yes, it's to put our message out there, to be seen, to be visible.
00:32:06
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but not at the sake of your own, like mental health or whatever you have going on. So I thought that was really beautiful and trust in the timing of wherever you are at. Okay, so this is where it gets crazy you guys. So that experience alone was crazy. The first time that I ever took that vow and they appeared to me in that meditation was crazy. And then the fact that this showed up again was just like such a confirmation. It made me feel just like so supported, so loved. And this is where it gets crazy.
00:32:37
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Okay, so in one of the group traps that I'm in, my friend was telling us she was on a walk and she was telling us how she just saw a deer. She's like, Oh my God, like I just saw a deer. She's like, Oh, I saw like a couple of them. That's weird. Like multiples of them. And so I was like, Oh, interesting deer. And I was about to tell her like, Oh, like, um, I wonder what gene key the deer is related to, you know, like you should look it up. But I just didn't. I was like, Okay, whatever. And then
00:33:04
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My brother yesterday was on a walk. He lives in Denver. So she's in like the Bay area. He's in Denver, Colorado. He sent us, me and my mom on our chat group chat, Marco Polo, he sent us this beautiful video on his walk of like two deers playing with each other in a field. Like they were just like running and playing and having the most fun. And then my mom responded, Oh, I need to look up what the spirit animal deers mean.
00:33:31
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So I was like, okay, there's my three signs. So I've talked about this in previous episodes, but anytime that I am shown an animal in three different ways, usually it's like the Trinity, like three different ways. So like someone will bring it up and then someone else will talk about that animal or I'll see that animal's name somewhere. I'm like, whoa, okay, this is weird, right? Like three different people saying something about deers. I'm like, I need to look up what the gene key is of the deer. So I looked up.
00:33:57
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the deer. The gene keys are 64 archetypes. They come from the hexagrams from the Chinese I Ching, which is ancient, ancient, ancient. The gene keys are 64. We can think of them as archetypes of human behavior and change. Richard Rudd is the founder. He actually took
00:34:23
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the gates from human design, those are also from the Chinese Yiching, and he created them into Jin keys. And so each Jin key, the Jin keys are really all about embracing our higher purpose. And so each Jin key has three different frequencies. There is a shadow, a gift, an acidic state, a city. And these different frequencies really show us in our own life where we are either A, operating from the shadow, which is like victim consciousness,
00:34:54
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B, it shows us where we can transmute that and alchemize that into a gift and really live in this like gift state, which is one of our beautiful gifts that we have. And then when we're operating from the gift, there's going to be times where we come in and out of the city and the city is like the enlightened state. That one's like very mystical, very enlightened, like it's super, super cool, but a little hard to explain. And so each of the gene keys, right, have
00:35:22
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an animal associated with them, which is called the animal dream arc. And so each gene key, each 64 gene keys has three animals associated with the shadow, the gift and the city. So what I do is anytime that an animal keeps popping up in my frequency and my
00:35:41
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in my world is I'll look up with Jean Key that's representing. And so I looked up the deer this week because the deer kept showing up for me this week, which is like right after I gave myself that Akashic Records reading.
00:35:53
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And it turns out the deer is associated with the 22 gene key, the gift. And you guys, gene key 22, this is freaking mind blowing. So gene key 22 is called grace under pressure. The shadow is dishonor, the gift is graciousness, and the city is grace. And in the 22nd gene key,
00:36:18
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It talks about dishonor and the way that so many people act in dishonorable ways is because they don't realize that every deed, every thought, every action is being recorded in the Akashic Ocean, you guys.
00:36:38
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It literally talks about the Akashic Ocean in Gene Key 22. And I remember when I first read that and I learned that the Gene Keys also speaks on the Akashic Records, I was like, holy shit, everything that I'm doing is so connected because I didn't know that was connected. I didn't know there was a Gene Key that talks about the Akashic Records or the Akashic Ocean.
00:36:59
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What it says in the shadow of dishonor is that the world that most of us see is not all that exist. We mostly live within very defined and closed circuit parameters. Human beings generally have no notion of the greater cosmic laws that exist beyond the world of form.
00:37:22
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One of the greatest of these laws is the law of divine memory. This law states that all thoughts, feelings, and acts are recorded everywhere within the body of the universe. Science now shows that we live in a vast information field of subatomic particles, some of which are so tiny that they actually pass through matter. This ocean of consciousness exists in many dimensions and it responds to thoughts, acts, feelings, words, and even intentions.
00:37:51
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It is a vast quantum field that acts like a great memory bank holding and recording every impression ever made. The language of the ancients it is often referred to as the Akashic record. Like what?
00:38:09
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Right? What the hell? So right away, I got chills. I was like, Oh my God. Okay. So I'm like, interesting. So I had this crazy Akashic Records reading that felt so like, incredible. And now I'm being drawn to look this up. And this jinkie is all about the Akashic Records.
00:38:30
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It's not all about the Akashic records, but that's just a part of it. It's like saying that when we're in the shadow state of dishonors, because most people don't realize that everything is being recorded. Basically, we're creating our own karma. We're creating our own karma in this lifetime. This is where it gets freaking wild, you guys. This is where it gets spooky. Just kidding. It's not spooky. It's really cool. I want to read to you.
00:39:01
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Okay, so then it goes on to say this, this is also all about the 22nd GQ. So I kind of want to read all of this too, because it's just like
00:39:12
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I'm going to keep reading this to you guys. I'm sorry. I'm just going to read this to you because it's just too good. Okay. Because also it's, if you've ever had the experience, the transmission effect of like reading the book, the blue book of the gene keys, and then trying to explain it, it's almost impossible because this is a living wisdom. So I want to read this to you right out of the book. So the 22 gene key is deeply connected to this law of divine memory. It is like a massive receiving dish that responds to the frequencies, sounds, and vibrations that it hears. And it hears everything.
00:39:41
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Like a cosmic aelonian wind harp, reception is determined by the way in which the strings are tuned. In the case of the 22nd shadow, the strings of your DNA are twisted out of harmony, and your behavior and experience in the world is similarly mishappen. This is a shadow of dishonor. It only exists in the world because most human beings do not realize that all their acts are recorded.
00:40:04
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We do not realize that every act, thought or feeling creates a ripple effect in the Akashic Ocean and that each ripple must and will one day return to its original point of origin. The 22nd shadow is one of the most powerful emotional shadow jean keys in the human genome. It is highly passionate and sexual with a huge emotional range, encompassing extreme highs of sweetness and extreme lows of violence.
00:40:31
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Because of its situation in the genome, it is directly or indirectly responsible for most of the relationship problems in our planet. However, before we journey any further into this profound gene key, it should be borne in mind that negative emotions in and of themselves are a natural part of the world in its current state.
Gene Keys and Spiritual Confirmation
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If they can be usefully transformed or sublimated into art, creativity, or service, their power is awesome.
00:40:57
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It's a matter of how much responsibility you can take for your own feelings. However, most people in the world today are utterly ruled by their emotions, and whenever you project negative emotional power at another being, you dishonor both yourself and the other person. Many so-called spiritual teachings suggest that you should subdue your negative emotional states in favor of sweeter, more virtual frequencies. In fact, this is the basis of most of great religions.
00:41:26
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But to subdue any state or feeling is to dishonor and distrust that feeling, which prevents acceptance. From the point of view of the 22nd Jinkie, every feeling, mood, or thought you have is put there directly by God for you to trust in it. Trusting this process is obviously not the same as acting it out.
00:41:48
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trust is a powerful internal process that requires great courage. One of the tricks of the 20 second shadow is to con you into trying to change or fix your moods rather than allowing them to simply pass through your system naturally. The fact is that you cannot reach higher states of consciousness without first passing through your own suffering. Okay, so again, this is talking about
00:42:13
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feelings, emotions, and that most of us are going to experience the most emotional highs and lows through relationships, right? This is why most relationships on our problems are happening is because of this 22nd gene cube of dishonor. And it's where we're not allowing ourselves to feel the feelings. We're either making ourselves feel bad for them or we're repressing them. We're not actually feeling them.
00:42:40
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um let me look at yep yeah the repressive nature is being proper so basically that's where like someone is on the outside very calm very put together very proper nothing bothers them they're so prim and proper but on the inside they're like seething like in here it says they're literally um
00:43:03
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All of their repressive shadows are rooted in a deep-seated fear, and they're literally stewing and seething until it erupts of negativity on the inside. So they don't actually feel good on the inside. It is concealing a lot of violence and explosive nature.
00:43:19
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And again, if you have the 20 second gene key, that is incredible. Notice, do you feel more like you have the repressive nature where like, do you feel like you kind of have to hold everything together and you kind of have to make everything seem perfect and like, oh, like nothing bothers me. But on the inside, like you're really angry. You're resentful. You are mad that people are crossing your boundaries because you don't have boundaries set, right? So that's something to look at.
00:43:45
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The reactive nature is being inappropriate. So the way that this can manifest the shadow in an inappropriate way is that people cannot control their emotional reactions. So it says they usually lead fairly disreputable but passionate lives wearing their hearts on their sleeves. Their actions and behaviors are usually destructive, initially more towards others than themselves.
00:44:09
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So this is where they're like really lashing out and they don't have any control over their emotions, right? And you guys, it's crazy because trust me, I'm going to tie this all back into something crazy that happened this week. It just keeps getting crazier. Okay. But remember those, there's the proper where it's like repressing this like anger inside of you.
00:44:27
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because we all have anger, we all have negative emotions, right? What did it just say? It just said that the shadow of dishonor is not accepting our negative emotions, right? And we can all experience this. Even if you don't have the 22nd gene key as one of your gene keys, we all actually have this in our DNA. And so I'm gonna tell you about how this has shown up in my life this week. And then the reactive nature again is gonna be inappropriate. So it's like,
00:44:55
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not having control over emotions, right? Being very reactive, hostile. Okay. Before we get into that, listen to this, you guys. So it goes on to say that there are three pure ones. So just listen to this. This is where my mind was blown for my Akashic Records reading.
00:45:13
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Okay, as we enter deeper into the transmission field of the 22nd gene key and its shadow frequency, we encounter three streams of teachings concerning the nature of suffering left by three great world teachers or avatars. These three beings are actually one single being which divided into three fractal aspects over the course of human evolution. Even though these were individual people, it is more helpful to see them as three fractal transmissions of the same truth. The first is Hermes.
00:45:42
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whose legacy dates back to the age of Atlantis, and whose name greatly, directly reflects the triple nature of his transmission. Hermes goes by many names. Thoth, or Toth, I always say that name wrong, but I think it's Thoth, Merlin, and Fujitsu, to name a few. The teaching represented by this fractal is the teaching of alchemy or high magic. All true alchemy concerns the transmutation of suffering through alignment with divine will. This work is crazy, guys.
00:46:12
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The second great teacher is Christ, Jesus, whose fractal represents the transmutation of suffering through love and sacrifice. Finally, the third great teacher is the Buddha, whose fractal represents the transmutation of suffering through wisdom and compassion. Like, what? The actual fuck, right? Like, in, my question, Parker is reading, but I did it for myself.
00:46:41
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Jesus was there. Christ, Jesus, Christ consciousness. The Buddha was there. Then, kept hearing deers, kept seeing deers. Okay, Alyssa, look up dear. What does that mean? 22nd jinkie. Okay, what's the 22nd jinkie? Okay, the shadows dishonor. Oh, let's talk about the three pure ones, the three teachings.
00:47:00
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from Christ and Buddha, right? I was like, like, you cannot make this up. And this is what I'm saying, you guys. I was even like, okay, I told my friend, I voice my friend about that reading I did for myself. And I was like, I feel crazy that I was talking to Jesus and to the Buddha and like that I might be making this up or it's just like, I don't know. I don't know if I'm crazy. And then I was like, oh, I'm definitely not gonna talk about that on the podcast. Cause it's like, I don't know. To me, it just, it just felt,
00:47:31
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like so sacred like so sacred and again I think there's a little bit of that like who am I where like our human mind is like oh you can't just like call upon these like beings or they're not just gonna come to you but it's like yes they are we're so connected we're so freaking connected and then it's like they wanted me to know that Alyssa you did talk to us and like we told you anyone can talk to us at any time like we're your friends we're here to build relationships with you
00:48:00
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read it. And then I'm like, oh my God, these three teachings are coming through. And this is not new to me.
Balancing Personal and Professional Life
00:48:08
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This synchronistic, crazy signs and confirmations always happen to me, you guys, through the jinkies. The jinkies are my love language with the universe. Whenever I see an animal or a number that repeatedly shows up,
00:48:25
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I'll read that gene key. Again, even if I don't have that in my hologenetic profile, but it's still going to give me a relevant teaching and it's going to have something to do with my life, which is freaking crazy. Okay. So I just wanted to kind of set that scene for you so that you can like understand how massively crazy it is that it was like confirming the reading that I did for myself and the guidance that I got. Now this is where also it gets even a little crazier. So, um,
00:48:54
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Okay. So Thursday, you guys know that I always help George on the Thursday Sunday mark or Thursday sunset markets. And I literally guys got fired this week for my own boyfriend, because I cannot control my emotions. I was literally living out that dishonorable jinky number 22 and their reactive nature of
00:49:19
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like being hostile and like, oh, sorry, let me just look it up to see the exact word again. I like just put away my book, but this is like the joys of having undefined Ashna, like no information sticks. It goes in and out. Okay. Yeah. So the reactive nature is inappropriate. Okay. Yeah. So I was definitely inappropriate in my actions. So as you guys know, I helped George with the sunset markets. So every single Thursday I drive to Oceanside from my job in Mira Mesa, which is probably about
00:49:47
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traffic, like an hour and 20 minute drive. And so I got there and I was already kind of in a bad mood. This makes sense so much now, but I actually just started my period like yesterday, which makes so much sense of why I've been in that like raging mood. It's not an excuse whatsoever. But anyways, I was first in a great mood, but then for some reason when I got there, I got in a really bad mood. And he was asking me to like put out some car stickers and to do some things and I was like, Oh yeah, for sure. But then
00:50:17
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something happened where I was telling him about my day or something. And then he just went on his phone and started ignoring me. And I didn't realize that something that I said triggered him about something. And so I got super annoyed and went to grab my phone. And then he was like, oh, you need to put your phone down. You can't be on your phone. And one thing that we've really struggled with is me seeing him as George, my boyfriend, and slash boss when I'm at Anime World working.
00:50:43
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he does pay me. So it's like I am literally an employee. You guys can see where that can get very confusing, right? It's like, okay, am I listening to my boss or am I listening to my boyfriend? Because the way that I speak to my boyfriend is very different from the way that I speak to my boss. I would never speak to my boss in an attitude, in
00:51:01
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any sort of like inappropriate way, right? I'm super professional. I've never been fired from a job. It's actually, this is crazy that this came up because something I've been contemplating this week is my line two in my life's work and my evolution. And my line two is in my evolution. Okay, sorry. Let me back up for a second. In your jing keys, in the hologenic profile,
00:51:24
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I have been studying in the master key that I'm in, which is like this beautiful mastermind all about the jinkies with Maria heading. We have been all, we have been studying the spheres of the activation sequence. So this week, last week was life's work. This week it's evolution. So literally like two hour calls, two hour teaching calls on one sphere alone and a two hour call
00:51:48
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breaking it down and sharing our contemplations, which is just crazy. It's the coolest, nerdiest shit that I could ever be in in my life. I'm obsessed, forever grateful. I was really contemplating my line two of my evolution. My line two of my evolution is passion and relationships. I'm going to have the biggest struggle. Evolution is the sphere that tells us what the biggest lesson is that we're here to learn in this lifetime. It's going to be the most challenging thing that keeps showing up over and over again. For me, it's immaturity. The shadow is immaturity.
00:52:18
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The gift is expansion and the city is superabundance. It's 53, okay? So, Jin Ki 53.2. The line, line two, the way that this is going to show up for me, because there's six lines, right? So, there's six ways that 53 could be expressed. There's six ways that Jin Ki 53 can be flavored and like show up for someone's life. Mind is going to show up in passion and relationships.
00:52:42
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So, my biggest struggles are not with a boss, it's not with a co-worker. I never argue with a co-worker. I'm like the most bubbly, fun, happy, go-getter, like, I can do anything you want me to, co-worker. I will do anything you ask me.
00:52:58
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I am the best employee. Anything you ask me? Oh my god, of course. Yeah, no worries. Literally. I've never been upset. I'm not the type of person to be like, that's not my job. Like I will do anything you want from me with a smile. I will make your day the best day of your life. And I'm so fun to be around and I'm so positive.
00:53:15
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When it comes to relationships, you guys, okay? Because these are my intimate relationships. Line two is passion and intimate relationships. I'm my true self, okay? My true self is not going to be bubbly, positive, and happy all the time, right? Because what did we just learn about dishonor? It's that the human experience has all sides of emotions, anger, annoyance, pettiness, like anything you can think of, right? A broad range of emotions.
00:53:42
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I can be a total bitch when it comes to my personal relationships. If you look at my purpose sphere, my purpose shadow is agitation. I get agitated as a fuck in my personal relationships, okay? I am not the same person. Like you don't know me. Like you do not know me unless you're very like close to me. My partner, my mom, my brother, my dad, they know the true me. Nobody else will really see that side, right? And
00:54:11
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Okay, that's great, right? But the difficult thing is like now my boyfriend is also my boss. And so I'm like, okay, who am I dealing with? The way that I respond to him when he asks me to do something is so confusing, right? It's because it's hard for me to separate the boss and the boyfriend title. I'm like, are you talking to me? I know you're not talking to me like that as a boss because I like, or as a boyfriend. I don't know. It gets confusing. Anyways, I have attitude is what I'm trying to say. Okay. Specifically on this day.
00:54:41
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about to go my period, very irritable. I had attitude and I was showing up as that inappropriate
00:54:49
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reactive aspect of dishonorable, okay? I was not handling my emotions correctly. I could feel, you guys, it's crazy because I oscillated between both of those. So first, I was trying to be proper. I was concealing it, right? Like, and this is just my interpretation. If you have Genki 22, your experience of these are going to probably be completely different because all of us as humans experience these shadows and
00:55:13
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like repressive and reactive nations in very different ways. But I just want to give you my example of how it showed up for me, okay? So don't think, don't feel like this has to show up for you. But for me and my personal experience, I first felt proper. I was like, okay, I'm okay. Yeah, I'm holding it inside. So I went to fix the card, the key chains. I thought I was being like proper by being like nice on the inside, but inside I was
00:55:39
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seething. I was agitated, I was annoyed, I was angry. I could feel this dark cloud around my aura, and I didn't want to feel like that. I don't want to feel anger. I don't like feeling rage inside, but it's literally uncontrollable sometimes.
00:55:58
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And so like I don't know if you've ever been in that mood like I don't know if I'm sounding crazy right now y'all but I don't know if you've ever been in those moods where it's like you're just so irritable and like it's like okay yeah like I'll do this anyways I went to fix them came back and then he was like
00:56:13
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Oh, can I talk to you? And then in that moment, I was like, are you talking to me like a boss or a boyfriend? It got very confusing. He basically just asked me to please like, don't have attitude and to like do certain things that I need to like upselling and stuff. And I was inappropriate now in my reactive response, I could not control my emotions. And I was very rude. Like I was very rude back then. I was kind of laughing because like it was uncomfortable. Wasn't really acting like myself, couldn't contain the rage or the attitude. And then he's like, Oh, like,
00:56:43
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you can leave if you're gonna act like that. That set me off even more because I just drove an hour and 20 minutes to come help you and I could not control it. And so he ended up firing me in that moment and that's the first time I've ever been fired ever in my whole life being 34 years old and a job was for my own boyfriend. And I was like, oh my God. And so I, again in that moment was confused because I was like, wait, are you really firing me? Because if I leave right now, you're gonna have to,
00:57:12
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pull down this whole tent, put away everything by yourself at the end of the night. And also, how are you going to be here for the next three hours by yourself? What if you have to go to the bathroom? Who's going to be here to watch the booth? Or what if you have to go get food or whatever? So I was thinking all these thoughts, but I was like, no, I think I need to just go home. I think I need to just stand up for myself. I also don't want to be talked to like that because I felt like he was a little rude or emotionally charged. I was telling him. I was like,
00:57:38
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If you're talking to me as a boss right now, you should be more neutral because you're very emotionally charged. I've never had a boss talk to me like that.
00:57:49
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So I ended up leaving, right? And I was very torn. I was like, wait, is he gonna get mad at me for going home, even though he told me to go home because he's not gonna have anyone to help him set up. And then I went home, so I ended up going home, whatever. And I did cry. I was really sad. I was really sad that I got fired, even though I got fired from my own boyfriend.
00:58:10
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I was sad too because I was like, but then a part of me was relieved because I was like, okay, I don't really want to do this anymore. It is really far drive. He already can kind of get help from somebody else there and then he doesn't need to pay me. He might as well save that money for himself. It's kind of getting to the point where it's unnecessary. It's more of just me doing it to hang out with him, but he needs something a little more professional at this point.
00:58:34
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little part of me is relieved. But anyways, um, I went home and then I was like really sad, but I used all of the tools that I had. And I was talking to my herself. I was talking to my guides. I pulled a card and I was like, Oh, I just need to like rest in this and like, I can heal myself from this, right? So I didn't call him. I didn't text him. It's like that anxious attachment style. We've been together for eight years.
00:58:57
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So it's like, sometimes when my anxious attachment style comes out, it's like, you know, you want to solve things right away. And like, it's like a needy feeling. So the old me would probably be like calling him or texting him. He's an avoidant attachment style.
00:59:13
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And so I didn't honestly, now we might have like healed healthy attachment styles. I don't know, but those are the two that we tend to like oscillate between. So I knew if I called him, he wouldn't answer anyways. And then I would feel more dumb and more like needy and desperate. So I was like, I'm not going to call him. So I didn't. And we ended up being totally fine. We ended up like talking about it afterwards the next day, cause I was asleep by the time he got home. Um, but we talked about it the next day. I totally admitted where I was wrong and I saw like,
00:59:39
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Wow, I was really inappropriate. I would never talk to a boss like that. I would never give them the attitude I would never be that rude and just like Inappropriate in my emotions. I could not handle my emotions. And so it was a huge growth for me It was a huge growth for him too because he felt like he really needed to like
00:59:58
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not accept that and like let me go too. So now we both feel way better about it and I still work for Anime World you guys. I am like the recruiter slash like HR slash like scheduler slash behind the scenes admin so I still like help and do so much stuff which I'm going to talk about next week with a huge update life update that we have with Anime World and its expansion but
01:00:23
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Yeah, so and honestly, you guys, I wasn't even going to talk about this either. I wasn't going to share this with anybody because it's embarrassing. Like it's embarrassing to get fired. I kind of had.
01:00:33
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I kind of held that as like a badge of honor my whole life of going this far with never being fired and being like literally a dream employee because I love it. Like I love that about myself. I love that I'm in a support role. I love that. Like I just, it's just part of my design. I literally think about it. My life's work is 54 in human design. That's the marrying maiden, the person who climbs the social ladder, the person who is like supports, the person who wants to support the person in power.
01:01:00
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I fucking love that shade. You know what I mean? It's almost like teacher pet status, but not really. But it's like, I want to be the one. I want to be the favorite. I'm going to be the best at what I do. And you're going to love me.
Growth through Conflict
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And that makes up 70% of my personality. So it makes sense. It's just part of my design. And again, no shade on anybody who's ever been fired. That is totally freaking normal. It was actually kind of fun and healing because
01:01:27
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George has been fired from so many jobs. He's a manifesting generator. He does not want to work for other people.
01:01:37
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That's what makes him such a great entrepreneur because the manifesto side of him does not like authority, does not like being told what to do, does not like rules, does not like having guidelines or having to stay inside the box, which makes him literally the perfect dream entrepreneur because he can totally do it for himself. It was honestly healing for me to finally be able to see what it feels like to be fired.
01:02:01
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and it was honestly like really sad like I was I was crying I was it was really freaking sad kind of hurt the ego but I also saw where I was wrong and where like I cannot act like that and you guys that's what I'm saying it's so hard like okay any of you any of you guys anyone who has a 2 I'm a 2-4 okay my profile is a 2-4 generator anyone who has a 2
01:02:25
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as the first number, you're going to have that in your life's work and your evolution. So that means that your biggest lesson in life, your biggest soul lesson that you're here to learn, whatever your gene key is for your evolution, you're going to have a two line there. It's going to be in passion and relationships and relationships are going to be your biggest teacher, you guys. And that's where we struggle. It's so hard. It's so hard. It's like, why am I so mean or like so much attitude or just like so
01:02:55
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I'm just so myself. This is what it is. Okay, sorry. I just, sorry. I had this instant download. The two lines, we're unconscious. We're unaware of ourselves. We're unselfconscious. We're unselfconscious. We are the dancers in the life's work. The dancer is the life's work too. We're unselfconscious. We just are. We don't even see ourselves. We're so lost in the sauce of being ourselves, being on stage that we don't even notice how we are.
01:03:21
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When I'm at work, I'm very conscious and self-conscious of what I'm doing. I'm watching my back at all times. You can almost see it. It's almost like a fake version of myself because when I'm with George, I'm lost in the sauce. I'm myself. He's even told me like,
01:03:36
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you would never talk to Steve like that. Steve's my boss. He's like, can you imagine ever talking to Steve like that or telling him the things he told me? And I was like, no, absolutely not. I would never talk to him like that. But that's because I'm so self conscious and so hyper aware of how I'm acting that it's like, Oh, when I'm with you, I'm just my full self. Like I'm so sorry. It's not that I don't respect you. It's not that I don't like believe in you as a boss. It's I'm literally so myself because I'm
01:04:03
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confusing the lines of like boyfriends boss that I think I'm just like with my boyfriend that it's very confusing for me and I can't help myself I cannot like I guess my shadow side is gonna come out is what I'm saying trying to say is like
01:04:17
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the shadow sides of me are going to be popping off, like that agitation, the uneasiness, the greed, the provocation, the stress, the inadequacy, the force, the weakness, then patience, the immaturity. Okay, I just like read you guys the fantasy. I just read all my shadows.
01:04:35
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Those are going to come out in my relationships because that is where my soul is here to grow the most. So yes, I wasn't going to share this with you guys or with anybody because like I said, very embarrassing. And I don't even know if this is relatable. It's like, I don't know if you're going to think I'm like the worst.
01:04:53
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girlfriend ever, but I think it is relatable. I think it is for being honest with ourselves. Anyone who has ever felt like the reactive nature of things can probably relate. If you're more of the repressive side, you might more like repress your feelings. You might not be able to relate, but you might feel that kind of stuff inside of you and it just doesn't have any way to get out in a healthy way. And mine is more like erupting in an unhealthy way.
01:05:21
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So I definitely need to check my emotions and check how to handle them in a healthier way. Honestly, I've learned a lot. I've learned a lot. I've grown a lot. So yeah, that's how I've gotten fired for the first time ever. And it was from my own boyfriend.
01:05:41
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Okay, so that's kind of what I wanted to share with you. I just thought it was crazy, you guys, because it's like, okay, I did the reading. I was really asking like, what is my sole purpose, my bigger purpose? How can it be a biggest service?
01:05:54
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be the best service to everyone. Again, it came through, oh, remember, Alyssa, the bodhisattva vow that you took? You're really here in this lifetime and every incarnation after that to help end suffering, to share your voice, to help others, to heal. A huge part of my design, you guys, is a lot of individual circuitry. I'm here to be myself. I'm here to heal myself. I'm here to be my best self, my perfected form.
01:06:20
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I have the I have the 1034 I have the 1057 I have the 3457 gate and so I'm really here to share like I'm here to basically
01:06:36
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share my convictions, my power, and really perfect my own form and share that. And then through that, hopefully that is going to help other people just be okay with being yourself. And I hope this sparks some interest in you. If you don't know anything about Jean Keys, but you're like, oh, I want to work on my relationships. I want to work on being a better partner.
01:06:57
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I want to work on my emotional intelligence and work on how to handle my emotions. Maybe again, you don't relate to being explosive. Maybe you're more implosive. Maybe you hold onto things more, but that's not healthy either. And maybe you want to learn how to work on these things, or maybe you want to know what your evolution is. What is your biggest lesson that you're here to learn? How does it express itself? What line is it? And of course, you can always go to myjeankeys.com, print out your free hologenetic profile,
01:07:27
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start looking at those jinkies, look at the words. You can look at your shadow, gift, and city frequencies, start playing around in your mind with what does that mean to you, and then girl, if you want to go deep and if you want this shit explained to you in a very profound way, I'm your girl, okay? I am your girl. I'm telling you the things like I'm obsessed. I've already been offering jinkies readings. The
01:07:54
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frickin incredible wisdom and like
01:07:58
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insane insights and just like revelations and um contemplations that i've been having through the master key and through studying these with others and learning how other people experience their gene keys and like spending four hours a week on one spear you guys okay like what um and learning from the best of the best maria hening it's just been so cool and like this is invaluable this is
01:08:27
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me having this, having a roadmap of knowing why I am feeling this certain way I'm feeling, like I did the Akashic Records journey for myself. Those things came through. And then again, the deer, okay, 22, look up what does 22 mean, dishonor. Oh my God, the reading that I had for myself was confirmed from Jesus and the Buddha coming through. And then literally learning about the reactive and repressive nature of dishonor, I realized how I was being dishonorable in my own life and how my own actions created
01:08:57
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me caused me to get fired. It wasn't George's fault. He didn't make me react and not know how to control my emotions in that situation. He was doing the best thing for his business. It was my fault. So it's like I'm able to take accountability for these things instead of blaming. In the past, I would have blamed him and be the victim. How dare you fire your girlfriend?
01:09:19
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You can't fire your girlfriend. What kind of person does that? It's like, no. I'm taking full accountability that I'm not supposed to be there. My soul is moving on from that. I'm not happy anymore. Obviously, I can't control my emotions. It's time to move and separate and make
01:09:38
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you know, part ways, but it's like I can be in an amicable place and understanding place, have understanding for myself and accountability because I know what my shadows are. And then with me understanding the secret language I have with the universe, spirit is talking to me all the time. They're like, girl, you're being dishonorable. Like here's a sign. Here's a deer three times so you can look it up so we can explain to you how you're being dishonorable. It's just so cool. And then it helps me learn and become a better person, which is literally what I want to do.
01:10:07
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evolution, enlightenment. If we look at my city-states, it's ascension, superabundance, clarity, timelessness, awakening, wisdom, majesty, stillness, emanation, timelessness, tenderness. Those are my beautiful essences of my soul that I'm here to express. The only way I'm going to get to those is having an acknowledgement and accepting my shadows and then getting the beautiful gift that comes out of them.
01:10:37
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And actually on that note, let me just, I want to end real quick with not just the shadow of 22, but I want to really, really quickly talk about the gift of it. Oh, this is so beautiful. You guys. Oh my God. I can already tell the freaking gift. You guys is graciousness and it's the milk of human kindness.
01:10:59
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The 22nd gift is the gift of graciousness. It is a rare and beautiful quality that has a profound effect on everyone it touches. Graciousness means that whatever you do in life, you always consider the feelings of others.
01:11:13
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This is one of the great social gifts and if it is part of your hologenetic profile, then your whole life is geared towards impacting people's emotions in a positive way. So look at that, the beautiful gift of graciousness. I was doing the opposite of that. I was impacting and not considering the feelings of George when I was being really rude and inappropriate in my emotional reactions towards him.
01:11:38
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And through that graciousness was able to come and you guys, I consider his feelings a lot now. Like I am living in this gift frequency now because anytime I'm about to have like an emotional outbreak, this is only been a week, but it's really giving me a lot to consider. Or I immediately am like.
01:11:58
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changing my mood or changing my frequency or apologizing, not holding any resentment, you know, really taking accountability for my feelings and my emotions, which is what a mature adult does. And that is gracious, that is kind. And that's considering the feelings of others. And I'm really considering his feelings now. Like I felt really bad. I was like, who does that? Like no one acts like that rude or that like, you know,
01:12:23
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Yeah, just like no one acts like that, like attitude. It's not like I was like yelling at him. Also, I think I might be painting the picture like really dramatically. It's not like I was like yelling or anything. It was just a very subtle, rude attitude. And I was laughing at him when he was telling me to change my attitude, which is also very rude. So I was not considering his feelings. And now through that, I can take on the gift of graciousness and consider his feelings. And it's improving our relationship, honestly. So that's the other thing. Getting fired from my boyfriend this week has improved our relationship significantly.
Conclusion and Services Offered
01:12:53
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another takeaway. Okay, so yes, if you want to learn any of those, I will put the link to book below. You can link book your Jean Keys reading. Book the purpose reading, so purpose codes if you want to learn all about your four prime gifts. So we're going to be going over your life's work, like what are you really here to do in every area of life, your evolution. So the biggest lesson your soul is here to learn, we're going to be going over your radiance. So
01:13:18
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What keeps you healthy and vital in this lifetime? And also, what is the shadow that undermines your health? And then we're going to talk about your purpose. So what is your purpose? And what is the shadow of your purpose? What is the gift of it? What is the city? If you want to learn all about love and relationships and how to really heal your heart and open it up to love, then pick the love codes, which is all about the Venus sequence.
01:13:45
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Um, so that's where we would go over your purpose. We would go over your attraction sphere. So like how to attract the correct people into your life. We're going to be going over your IQ, EQ and SQ, which is your, um,
01:13:58
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mental so mind IQ is the mind. So like, what is your mental quotient, your emotional quotient and spiritual quotient. And then last but not least, your biggest core wound. If you want to know for business, so like money and business and financial prosperity by being of highest service and using your biggest core wound, turning that into your greatest gift for the world, book the
01:14:23
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I think I called it money codes. Everything's going to be in the link, but that's going to be going over the pearl sequence. We're going to go over your vocation, which is how you changed your biggest core wound into your biggest offering to the world. We're going to be going over your culture. Who are your people? How do you attract them? Ultimately, how are you blocking them from abundance? What size of audience are you here to share your gifts with? Then we're going to talk about
01:14:47
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your brand. So what is your brand for your business? And then we're going to talk about your Pearl, which is how you're here to really enjoy and use money in this lifetime. So if any of those pique your interest, or again, if you want questions on which one to do, if you want to do all three, go in order. So do the activation sequence, then the Venus sequence, and then the Pearl sequence. If you want to just do one or the other for now, pick whichever one is calling you from your intuition,
01:15:12
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I'll put the link below. If you have any questions, you can DM me on Instagram and ask me and I'll let you know which would be the best for you. So yay. And of course, if you want to caution records reading, still offering my chef's kiss, um, 30 minute remote reading. So you don't even have to pick a time specific thing. It's like, girl,
01:15:32
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You're sending me your questions. I am doing it within three business days. You will get that 30-minute recording, which is like, imagine 30 minutes of someone doing a pure channel reading for you, answering your questions. It's incredible. It's life-changing. So I'll put that in the link as well. And other than that, thank you so much for your patience and getting this a week out. Don't worry, girl. I'm not going to let this happen again.
01:15:57
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But yeah, but also like I'm accepting myself. So graciousness. Okay, I hope you have the best week and I'll see you next time. Bye bye.