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35. The Dreams of a Weirdo
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In this episode you’ll learn more than you probably ever hoped to know about the inner workings of Molly’s subconscious and Christina’s libido… because it’s dream interpretation time, baybeeeee! :)
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Hosts: Christina Bell & Molly Wilde
Music: The Confrontation, by Jonathan Boyle, licensed from Premium Beats by Shutterstock
Editing: Molly Wilde
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Introduction to Dream Interpretation
00:00:25
Speaker
of chit chat we are here vocal cord warm-ups me me memi me he drinking our water we are ready o yeah we've got a bit of a weird one today Yes, because yeah Molly is the weird one.
00:00:56
Speaker
I'm just kidding. That is a constant. Let's be real. We are both weird ones. Who am I kidding? is constant in my life is I'm the weird one.
Molly's Vivid Dream
00:01:08
Speaker
um But ah for real, we are going to be taking a stab at Dream Interpretation. And this is with zero training or learning we don't know what it means when your teeth fall out of your head while you're dreaming like in your i don't like yeah not while you're dreaming but like in the dream in your dreams Because I would hate to have my teeth falling out of my head while I'm asleep dreaming and then I'm choking on them while I'm like... I dream of never having dental work again.
00:01:46
Speaker
my god. I'm kidding. I'm kidding. um No, but like, we don't have like an idea and we've not even looked up anything. ah Admittedly, Christina doesn't know what the dream is that I had last night.
00:01:59
Speaker
I very literally woke up in my dream. I'll i'll go ahead and explain this. In my dream, it was very vivid. There was a lot of detail. And I admittedly, you know, a lot of it's gone now. But like, because I wrote it down, you know, a lot has stuck around still.
00:02:22
Speaker
But in my dream, toward the end of it, I came, i like became aware of the fact that there was definitely a message trying to come through.
00:02:34
Speaker
And so that's why.
Reading the Dream
00:02:36
Speaker
I woke up because it was not a, it was not a pleasant dream. It was kind of a stressful dream. So I was happy to wake up. um So I woke up and I grabbed my phone and I opened a note and I wrote it as like much as I could.
00:02:52
Speaker
and I very literally was falling asleep as I was writing it because I just like was not, I i was tired. I wanted to go back to sleep. um But I was like, I have to get this down. So I was like,
00:03:04
Speaker
falling asleep as I was writing so I would like hit random buttons and it would I wake up and there'd be like a random like string of keys that had been hit um after the coherent stuff and I would like delete that and try to finish literally so I was so tired but i was like I have to write this down because it means something I know it does and so like Christina doesn't know it I haven't read it too or I haven't told her anything about it um So we don't we're going into this
Surreal Dream Scenarios
00:03:36
Speaker
blind. Whoops, excuse me.
00:03:37
Speaker
We're going use our intuition here.
00:03:41
Speaker
And so what I'm going to do is I'm going to read what I wrote. Tenses are not going to make sense. Characters are going to come and go. And like nothing is going to make sense.
00:03:55
Speaker
Because that's how dreams are. And also I was half asleep. ah But I'm going to read it Christina's going to listen. You're going to listen.
00:04:06
Speaker
I'm going to mute myself while she's reading it. Yes. Because I can like clear my throat and burp and do all kinds of shit while she's reading it.
00:04:18
Speaker
And you, the listener, can listen. and if i mean I don't know what we're going to come up with to interpret this, but like you know if you realize anything or if you have any knowledge about dream interpretation...
00:04:33
Speaker
that you would like to impart that we you know didn't you know any conclusions we didn't come to by the end of the episode like please write in and let us know because i would love to hear thoughts i feel like i i feel like myself i generally have an idea of what the message is but i feel like there are nuances and details that i haven't
Analyzing Dream Meanings
00:04:59
Speaker
identified yet so um that's why i was like let's do this yeah yeah i think it's a great idea i think i think this is a great topic great idea to have a hell yeah episode over it's a weird one it's a weird one like this was fully like unanticipated i had literally actually only last week added to our idealist dreams i don't know if you noticed that yeah i remember we were i think we were talking on the phone at the time when you were doing it
00:05:29
Speaker
Yeah, I think so. But I was like thinking to myself, like, man, like we both have the wackiest dreams sometimes. Like maybe this would be an interesting thing to talk about. And lo and behold, here we are. But it's also one that I'm like, I actually really want to know what it means.
00:05:43
Speaker
So. For shizzle. but I'm going to read it And i am going to afterward in some blanks because there are reasons why certain things exist.
00:05:56
Speaker
have like come up for me in my subconscious things that are easily identified so i'm gonna fill in those blanks after i read the whole thing it's only like five paragraphs ish but i'm gonna read it i'm going to fill in the blanks that i feel like i need to and then rob we'll dive in i guess yeah okay so i'm about to mute myself All right.
00:06:23
Speaker
Cool. Here we go. Bye. See you on the flip side. See you on the flippity flip.
00:06:30
Speaker
Okay. So here's what my dream was. I arrived at the Arctic cabin with a loose screw in the key fob for my car. While I was there, the screw came out, but someone said he had a tiny screwdriver to screw it back in.
00:06:47
Speaker
He went to look for it and never came back.
00:06:51
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I held onto the screw until I lost it in my bed. i didn't find it again until my friend came back from her shower and sat in the bed with me. i continued holding onto the screw.
00:07:04
Speaker
It poured rain so much that the parking area was flooded. My car was barely parked out of reach of the water. We realized we needed to get the hell out even though we didn't know how to do so safely.
00:07:18
Speaker
We started packing up as fast as we can, but we keep running into issues that become too many to handle.
00:07:26
Speaker
A family is stranded out in the rain and begs to take
Personal Reflections and Dream Themes
00:07:30
Speaker
refuge with us. We allow it. The daughter of the family took up the bathroom because she had nits or lice.
00:07:39
Speaker
I allowed myself to be consumed with trying to fix a low table and enlisted the dad's help, which he enthusiastically gave. The original priority was lost.
00:07:50
Speaker
Plows came and snows melted. i flagged one down and asked, how do I get out now? They said I had to just flee. i said, what about my belongings?
00:08:02
Speaker
They said, it's just stuff. It can be replaced. I said, I don't even know what got left behind. Can I just go back inside and try to get my stuff? I was refused.
00:08:14
Speaker
I still don't know how to flee. Okay. So the original priority, when you mentioned that, that's the putting the key back in the fob or the, I'm sorry, you putting the screw back in the fob, right?
00:08:26
Speaker
that what they're priority? Yeah, I would say, I would say it was both that and the fact that like, we realized we needed to get the hell out, but we kept running into problems okay and couldn't.
00:08:38
Speaker
Okay. So I'd say it's both though. Like, that's what I keep thinking is it is both like the original priority was lost. One thing, a blank that I'll fill in is that I have a little bit of a weird, like, neurodivergent hyperfixation about the Arctic.
00:08:56
Speaker
Oh. And especially about, like, human inhabited Arctic regions. Interesting. I don't think I ever knew that. Well, you know about my, like, huge interest and fascination with a Cecilia Blumdahl.
00:09:12
Speaker
Who's that? Yeah. Oh! The girl... The Svalbard girl. Okay, okay, okay. Yeah. I never can remember her name, so I'm always like, what? Cecilia, who lives on Svalbard, an island close to the North Pole. Right.
00:09:24
Speaker
Yeah, so. Okay. But yeah, anyway. So I've got a little bit of that fascination going on. Okay. Where, like, i've and I've had dreams before about traveling, like, all over the world, including, like, through Siberia.
00:09:37
Speaker
Huh. So. Yeah, like. It's it's I can't explain it. I just know that it's a thing that like and Tom says I was an Arctic explorer in a past life. So I was like, yeah, you're probably right. of ah where you Where you probably met your demise.
00:09:59
Speaker
Probably in the Northwest Passage. um
00:10:03
Speaker
ah The other thing is that I do currently think that a screw is coming loose in the key fob in my car.
00:10:11
Speaker
Like, I think, I don't know why it keeps happening, but it does. Okay. Because I've i've had my key fob break before. because Because the, um well, it's mainly because I've dropped my keys a lot.
00:10:26
Speaker
Like, I'm grateful it's my keys that I
Sexual Themes in Dreams
00:10:28
Speaker
drop and not my phone. But, like, I drop my keys a fair amount. And so, like, every time i do, i feel like it gets a little looser. Mm-hmm. um But I've had it like I've had them break before. I've had like this screw come almost loose and had to like find a tiny screwdriver to screw it back in.
00:10:47
Speaker
and need to just own one at this point. Like, like one of those that is meant for like the screw in your glasses. Yep, I know. um Yeah. I should just own a pair or own a like a thing of that, a set of that or whatever. My most recent key fob that I've had that was to the to the Honda Passport um didn't have a screw in it.
00:11:07
Speaker
You have to like pry it open. it's like a solid piece. Pop apart. It just clips into itself. Oh, well, that would be handy. yeah Mine is mine well mine's also an older car than that.
00:11:20
Speaker
Right, right. So, you know, mine still has a screw as a 2009. Yeah. yeah So, you know, um but yeah, so like, because that has been, I've noticed it's been coming a little loose. It's not near, you know, don't think it's near falling out.
00:11:37
Speaker
um But like, I've, yeah I shouldn't be able to feel it
Deeper Dream Analysis
00:11:41
Speaker
outside of the, plastic of the fob and you're feeling it and i'm starting to feel like the side of it okay so i'm like i gotta get that fucking fixed but like that's i think why that came up is because that's been the thing that's like on the back of my mind gotcha um but it was still a thing that became a problem in this dream right um including holding on to the screw yeah because i don't know where to put it yeah that i'm not gonna lose it right you know
00:12:12
Speaker
Which I'm going to go ahead and say, like, I'm fairly certain that is like pointing at my inability to like find out a way to like deal with small details that don't have to be like that I shouldn't have to micromanage.
00:12:28
Speaker
hmm. about my own life but like me being the anxious virgo that i am i'm just like i can't let go of this screw where's the guy with the screwdriver where did he he walked away and he never came back we know I know. and and and because I am the person that I am, I'm going to offer you some advice.
00:12:53
Speaker
ah Unsolicited advice. Right now? Yes, right now. So if that screw ever falls out, you need to find a piece of scotch tape and take it on stick it tape it to something. Tape it on the desk.
00:13:06
Speaker
No, you're right. did not have tape dream.
00:13:10
Speaker
i did not have tape in my dream um um or like remember i was in an arctic cabin right do a macgyver and get a piece of chewing gum and chew it up and then like stick it on your desk and stick the screw into it ew a virgo
00:13:31
Speaker
i'm not gonna do that i'm a ver i'll use the scotch tape thank you very much okay I do actually have scotch tape, so I should be like, i have I have this tape that you bought me.
00:13:45
Speaker
yay! The tape dispenser. I love Tape dispenser. It's so pretty! Y'all. I have it. It's right next to my desk. Good. So, I have tape and I will use it if I have to.
00:13:58
Speaker
But I also and probably just going to seek out and purchase a tiny screwdriver. Mm-hmm. And keep it in my purse. Mm-hmm. It's always handy for sunglasses when the screws start coming out of your sunglasses. know. Oh my god.
00:14:15
Speaker
That's true. That's happening to mine right now. It's not coming out, but it's loose. like the The arm is loose. It flops, and I don't like that. Luckily, my sunglasses have not been...
00:14:27
Speaker
doing that lately but they've done it in the past and it's a problem so i'm just i like i said i just need to own one of those tiny screwdrivers and keep it with me keep like you know keep in mind that i know where it is whenever i need it yeah and in the meantime you can take a piece of tape and tape over where the screw is on your key fob right now so that it doesn't just fall out that's true There you go.
00:14:52
Speaker
There's my unsolicited advice for you. Thank you. i was about to say you're welcome. oh because you're You're welcome for opening up the opportunity for you to give unsolicited advice. Yeah, you're welcome that I'm not biting your head off for giving me unsolicited advice.
00:15:08
Speaker
That's good. yeah that's one that's good Okay, okay, so, okay. So, but, like, I do think, and I i think you'll agree with me, that, like, the holding onto the screw definitely... are you laughing at now?
00:15:25
Speaker
she's on um She's on mute. I'm gonna do the... What the fuck? I can't stop laughing in a situation right now. I guess I'm just laughing about you saying you're welcome for me not biting your head off. Yeah.
00:15:41
Speaker
I'm glad that you can laugh about it. Because it's sweet. It's for real. It's fucking funny. Jesus Christ. Okay. Alright.
00:16:00
Speaker
Oh no. Oh no. We've been kicked in the giggle dick.
00:16:08
Speaker
okay I'm gonna keep muting myself don't because I can't move on while you're still laughing oh god okay I hope that you have a weird dream soon and we can laugh at you have weird dreams all the time well next time you do we're gonna do this again my god oh oh my god and all right but okay but like you do agree with me though right yes yeah and i want to say like my weird dreams are sometimes like too embarrassing to like talk to talk about no so like mine too but like i think that we wouldn't be doing this i think we wouldn't be doing this if i didn't have that very intense feeling of like there's a message here okay you know
00:17:02
Speaker
um There's multiple messages, I'm quite sure. So that's that's the reason. But, like, next time that you feel like that... Well, whether you have the feeling of that there's a message there or not.
Dreams Reflecting Life Transitions
00:17:16
Speaker
Like, next time you have a dream that you feel like is not too embarrassing to talk about. Like, we're going to need to do this again. For sure. Because, it like, it in all likelihood, it's going to be more often me than you. But, like...
00:17:32
Speaker
A lot of times mine have weird sexual shit and I'm like and I'm just i don't want to talk about that. Same. a Excuse me as I snort. Well like I will say and like the thing that you claim has not happened to you before but like I'm sure at some point it will it is like when you're actually like having an orgasm in your dream but you're really having one in real life and you wake up from it and then you fall back asleep and then when you wake up in the morning you wonder if the whole thing was a fucking dream but like honest to god it always feels like it really happened in real life that you actually woke up but honestly it's so blurry you don't know for sure
00:18:16
Speaker
ah weird yeah yeah like i'm just i just am not sure that that's possible for me i'm sure it's possible for anybody but like whether or not it actually happens eventually is another you know totally different thing because like i'll i will definitely have dreams that like whether they're like objectively sexy or not like they push me to the edge of like like so turned on like but i wake up you know mm-hmm And then like, I'm just like, well, fuck, now I gotta like jack off.
00:18:48
Speaker
Oh
00:18:51
Speaker
my God. but But I've never, but it's like, I literally,
00:18:58
Speaker
when I have to chase something in my dream, it will always evade me. hu And it never happens. Like, yeah I've tried to chase sex in my dream and I've tried to just let it happen.
00:19:14
Speaker
And neither time gets me there. I know. Neither time. Because it always just like, I always wake up before it's over. Or before I even really get to like start the action.
00:19:24
Speaker
Yeah. Like, okay. So here's the funny thing. Like the first time i I remember having a dream where I believe I actually orgasmed. ah her I was like straddling the arm of a couch.
00:19:41
Speaker
In men your sleep? In my dream. Oh, your dream. and that i would But not physically in your sleep. Right. I was sleeping in my bed. Right. Okay. So, like, in the dream, I was straddling the arm of a couch and, like, probably rubbing around, like, you know.
00:19:56
Speaker
And it was enough to get me going in my sleep. Yeah. But it was, like... one of those things where it was like randomly happening and not something I was pursuing or nothing like that. It just was, I was dreaming of doing that. And then yeah boom.
00:20:13
Speaker
And I'm pretty sure that that stuff, like when I've had those and like, granted, I don't think I've had more than 10 of these in my whole whole life, but maybe like maybe five or six, I don't even know for sure.
00:20:25
Speaker
They probably didn't start until my thirties. I don't think I
Concluding Insights
00:20:30
Speaker
had them. In my twine and they occur they occur without any actual friction. Yes.
00:20:37
Speaker
that's not That doesn't happen for me. Never would have happened for me either. It only happens in my sleep. It's only ever happened in my sleep. Yeah, i can't I can't fathom that happening because it is even with plenty of friction, it's still really hard for me.
00:20:52
Speaker
I understand. yeah And that's why the thirty s is pivotal. Interesting. The thirty s is when hormones change for you or and or your.
00:21:03
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um
00:21:06
Speaker
Let me think of the right way of saying this. As we mature and or our hormones change, our mindsets change and our like, that's why they say women in their 40s have the best sex because they have gotten to a point where they don't give a shit anymore. hmm.
00:21:27
Speaker
It's a very freeing feeling. It's like you no longer have any hangups. You're not insecure about yourself in any way or like maybe some people are still, but like that's the thing about being in your 40s as a woman. That's so magical, right?
00:21:41
Speaker
It's like your hormones and the maturity in age and experience of your life start getting to this pivotal point where you're like, you are confident And you don't give a shit about anyone else or what they think.
00:21:59
Speaker
So it's easier to like let go of hangups in your head and move but beyond like worrying about being judged for how you look or how you're acting or how you sound when you're having sex.
00:22:13
Speaker
And like you just get over it. You just, it's just none of that matters anymore. It's like, I never had it. I never had orgasms during sex until I was in my mid thirties ever.
00:22:28
Speaker
Even with a partner soon, even with help. Like with a regular partner. Yeah. I mean, it, it, it was, it was in my mid thirties that I started being able to actually have an orgasm during sex intercourse with or without vibrator or something to help.
00:22:47
Speaker
Gotcha. Yeah. Yeah. So things change. Things change, for you know, as you're getting older. So I'm thinking, i don't remember for sure. it might have been in my later 20s.
00:22:57
Speaker
I don't know for sure. i can't remember. But I was a little older when these dreams started happening. Okay. It's all hormone driven, I believe. I mean, hormones have a lot to do with a lot of things. Oh, I know. oh my god.
00:23:14
Speaker
So, now that we've gone way off in left field.
00:23:20
Speaker
Let's talk about my dreams. Christina's like, let's talk about sex!
Listener Engagement and Reflections
00:23:27
Speaker
Let's bring it back in and start talking about Molly's dream and interpretation. Yeah, we haven't even gotten like halfway through this dream yeah okay okay we gotta we gotta we got shit to dig through yeah um one more i don't know if it's really a blank but like one more thing that i can explain the next portion of this dream where it was pouring rain in the parking area it was flooded yeah i have potentially an unhealthy codependent relationship with my car
00:24:07
Speaker
I don't feel safe if I don't have access to my car. Interesting. Yeah. And so to have a dream wherein the like, well, to to have a reality where like the functionality of my car is threatened, like we observed at Thanksgiving. Yeah.
00:24:27
Speaker
Puts me into a horrible state of mind. Yeah. Of like, oh God, I'm about to lose all of my freedom. Yeah. you know so like having the stress of like oh god the parking area is flooded what if my car is like fucked right now especially if i'm in an arctic cabin like i need my car so i can leave i'm not walking across the arctic let me Let me tell you, that's how I died one time in my past life. Oh
00:25:04
Speaker
my god. So like, but the thing is, like, it was a, so it was like a stress and it was a threat that was happening, but my car was not actually damaged.
00:25:16
Speaker
In real
Episode Wrap-Up
00:25:17
Speaker
life? Because like, you no no, like in the dream. Okay. Because like when I went to check on it, it was parked like just barely out of reach of the water. Gotcha. So like if there was flooding, it probably didn't make it past the bottom of the tires.
00:25:31
Speaker
You know? Yeah. So it was like... I had the threat there and I had the stress about it, but nothing actually happened to my car. It wasn't damaged. And so the next portion being about realizing we needed to get the hell out, but we didn't know how to do that safely because of all the flooding.
00:25:50
Speaker
And then i mean, like, I feel like this is a common theme with dreams. Like when you start to pack up or like start to do something that you know you urgently have to do, but like then you keep running into stupid problems that you can't explain or don't understand. Yeah. Yeah.
00:26:02
Speaker
You know, it's like this thing is getting in the way of me completing what I'm trying to do right now. That's like a common thing that happens in dreams, especially like stress dreams, if not nightmares.
00:26:14
Speaker
You know, it was just that very urgent sense that like we couldn't escape really. Okay. So one thing I want to say about the car. hmm.
00:26:26
Speaker
Is yes, admittedly, you may have an unhealthy dependence or whatever you called it on your vehicle. Codependent relationship or something. I'm not sure if it's unhealthy, but it is like a very prominent like correlation between my sense of freedom and my ability to like use my car.
00:26:44
Speaker
Right. I think what was happening in your dream, the fact that, you know, regardless of you not being able to get to the car safely.
00:26:56
Speaker
um the fact that you knew that it was on damage or you know still fine is your subconcious subconscious is way of telling you not to worry about your car and like you know maybe you don't need to have such a chokehold on your dependency on your you know vehicle being like your only way to get freedom or something because There's always going to be a way. Yeah.
00:27:27
Speaker
To get. You know. Get what you need. Like. Uber, friends, buying a new car, whatever it is. It's like, right yes, you have a nice car right now that's dependable. It may not always be that way.
00:27:40
Speaker
i mean, because, you know, it is getting older and older. is getting old, yeah. And that's the the thing that maybe your subconscious is telling you not to worry so much because even though your car may die, there's still going to be a fix.
00:27:54
Speaker
There's going to be either you can fix the car or you're going to get a new car or you're going to do, you know, whatever. There's... there's nothing that's like oh fuck i gotta hate it when my words just don't come to me like like solvable yeah i was gonna say life of life you know altering altering or life whatever like you know yeah nothing that is going to kill you that's a good point you know what i'm saying yeah if you're the if your car dies you are not going to die
00:28:27
Speaker
No, I'm not. You will figure it out. So don't worry, you know, because you have to recognize right now that, yes, that car is not going to last and it may be sooner than you think.
00:28:41
Speaker
But yeah don't stress about it. You just have to plan ahead a little bit. you You know, have a plan. Saving up cash is great. Which we've been we've been talking about.
00:28:52
Speaker
yeah doing yeah Yeah. So like that's what I'm doing now. with you know This car scares the crap out of me, the one I have right now, because it has a lot of things I think need need fixing.
00:29:03
Speaker
And I haven't had time to save up cash to do any of that yet. yeah So I'm a little worried every time I get in it. I'm not sure what's going to happen. um But the you know but like ah the the thing that helps me feel more secure is knowing that at any moment...
00:29:24
Speaker
If it's just too much and I can't handle dealing with it or it's too expensive or something, you know, whatever, if I can't afford to fix it, whatever, I can always go to the freaking dealership and buy another car like I used to always do.
00:29:38
Speaker
I mean, that's just that's a backup plan. In the back of my mind. It's like not ideal, but it is possible. Exactly. So if I still have to work another couple extra years to be able to pay off a car or do something like that, then okay, well, whatever. It's not the end of the world.
00:29:54
Speaker
But I'm just hoping for the best, not expecting the worst. yeah um Planning for, you know, whatever I can plan for in just having a, basically having a plan to fall back on and knowing that i'm not going to be stranded somewhere like forever it's not yeah yeah i'm not stressing about that so yeah there you go you're right you're right okay good so maybe all the weird shit that happened in your dream was just literally like your whole brain saying like but this could happen but that could happen and like and then my subconscious being like no no
00:30:38
Speaker
Stop it. Chill the fuck out. Your car's okay. But but there's we do have this next section yeah about this family. Right. And it's it like in the dream, it really truly was not a family that I knew.
00:30:55
Speaker
Like I'll have random dreams where like random characters of people I've known, families I've known in the past have shown up. This was very truly like strangers.
00:31:07
Speaker
Mm-hmm. and most Most of my dreams are strangers. Because, like, even, like, well, guess the guy that I was expecting to find me a screwdriver was not somebody that I knew.
00:31:19
Speaker
but like, the friend that had taken a shower and then helped me find, like, the missing screw was a friend from high school. Like, middle school and high school that I remember distinctly.
00:31:33
Speaker
Like, it was a specific person. Mm-hmm. And then the friend that I was with at this cabin shifted. Like, it was not the same person the whole time. But, like, you know. Oh, okay. and Like, I just, I don't remember who she turned into, but it was, like, she was not her the whole time.
00:31:51
Speaker
Okay. But I do remember who it was at that point in the dream. Okay. um But this family, like I said, total strangers. Mm-hmm. And they needed help. But then the daughter had, like, lice or some shit. Okay.
00:32:07
Speaker
and so she like locked herself in the bathroom to deal with her lice or whatever and in the meanwhile i had written a low table it was like a coffee table really um like I don't know why this became a priority but it became a priority I was like the sides of this thing are falling off like I want to like glue them like wood glue them back on and like hammer them into place and like the dad of this family was like, let me help you dad. And I was just like, okay, I guess. you know Whatever. And I don't even have like a conclusion to that. I just know that it was a thing that was happening and i was like, i don't know why I'm doing this now.
00:32:54
Speaker
like I thought we were trying to get out of here. yeah
00:32:59
Speaker
um Which is why I said you know the the original priority was lost. Yeah. Because it was like, clearly, like, stuff is coming up now that I'm like, well, all of these things are happening that somehow have become my problem.
00:33:12
Speaker
Like a girl with lice in the in the bathroom. Random fucking teenage girl. Armpit crabs. Oh,
00:33:26
Speaker
ah hate that. Oh, my God. hate it more.
00:33:33
Speaker
I... That's so disgusting. oh i agree Oh, God. Oh, my God, dude. I'm sorry. Anyway. Yeah, like, it... growth anyway yeah like This is this portion, like this the end of this dream was the part that I feel like I did come away from it knowing like this feels like a part of the message, if not like the main message of like things coming up that feel like they suddenly have to be like all of my priority. And I lose sight of like the original goal, the original plan, the original priority or like the bigger picture priority.
00:34:15
Speaker
Um, because I'm just like ADHD, this is in front of me. I have to fix it, you know, like, you know, and maybe that's, yeah, maybe that's the meaning of this, this section here about the family. Hmm.
00:34:32
Speaker
I don't know. I don't really know if I can offer... an interpretation about that because in my dreams they are they shift so much that a lot of times they are one thing at the beginning and a completely different thing at the end it's like i don't even know right well that's that's the thing is that my dreams are often the same way um and this time like there was a consistent theme yeah like there was a consistent setting there was a consistent like urgent need priority and stuff just kept shifting and changing and like but i kept remembering like wait but i'm supposed to get out of here wait but my key fob is broken like
00:35:21
Speaker
you know these things where it's like wait but this is still a problem like why am I dealing with this stupid fucking table our subconsciouses are so stupid I know I know Which, like, i mean, like, they are, but also this last part felt not stupid, which is the reason why I was like, I really want to talk about this.
00:35:46
Speaker
Because, okay just to, like, refresh, do you do you feel like you need to refresh? The very last part? The last, set like, paragraph, effectively. Yeah, refresh me. Okay, and so this last paragraph that I wrote here.
00:36:01
Speaker
The original priority was lost. Plows came and snows melted. i flagged one down and asked how I get out now. They said I had to just flee.
00:36:11
Speaker
i said, what about my belongings? They said, it's just stuff. It can be replaced. I said, I don't know what, I don't even know what got left behind. Can I just go back inside and try to get my stuff?
00:36:25
Speaker
I was refused. I still don't know how to flee.
00:36:31
Speaker
i know that I have made the argument to you about stuff just being stuff. And it can be replaced. Mm-hmm.
00:36:41
Speaker
So, like, I think, I mean, like, there's also, i think I also have that, like, what's the word? This, like, not primal, but, like, in a similar vein to the, like, anxiety attachment I have to the functionality of my car, i also have this, like, anxiety attachment to my belongings when I'm, like, out and about somewhere.
00:37:07
Speaker
Like, I'm the kind of person who, like
00:37:12
Speaker
It felt like an exercise in, like, exposure therapy. Okay. this sun This Sunday, when I went to that new, like, coffee... Not new coffee place, but, like, the coffee place I'd just heard about.
00:37:24
Speaker
Yeah. um I went and I, like, while I was waiting for my order, i sat down at a table. And it wasn't, like, empty, but it wasn't, like, crowded in there either. There was, like, you know, decent amount of people just, like, sitting around.
00:37:39
Speaker
and They called my name when my coffee was ready and it felt like a risk for me to leave my purse on the chair walk 20 feet away to grab my coffee from the counter and go back.
00:37:58
Speaker
Yeah. Because I had, you know, taken my eyes away from my purse for five seconds. Right. You know? Yeah. I think that's just a testament to the kind of world we live in right now because I feel the same exact way.
00:38:11
Speaker
But at the same time, like and my he you and i feel that way, but a lot of people don't. That's not a typical thing for people to feel. Really? Yeah. a lot of people don't feel that way.
00:38:24
Speaker
Take a poll. I'm not kidding. Ask your friends how they would feel about getting up from the table and leaving their purse behind for like five seconds to go grab a coffee and come back. Yeah. Particularly in like a new environment.
00:38:36
Speaker
Yeah. Because like I i've well I've also felt anxious even in familiar environments trying to do something like that. Yeah. You know, like I never yeah i don't leave the house without making sure the door is locked. I never walk away from my car without locking it.
00:38:51
Speaker
Like, you know, i I think it's part of the reason I get so anxious trying to like carry shit through an airport because I'm just like, where's all my shit? If I can't like keep eyes on it at all times, I'm just like, someone's going to grab it, you know? Yeah. um Just like, you know, or or yeah I'll even like unconsciously do that. Like if I notice somebody, you know, gets up and leaves their bag somewhere for like a minute, like I'll just keep eyes on the bag.
00:39:21
Speaker
And if I notice, like this has never happened, but like if I, you know, I've done that because I'm telling myself like, if I see somebody else come and try to pick it up, at the very least, they're being robbed.
00:39:33
Speaker
You know, and at the worst, like there's like a government conspiracy happening. We need to call the CIA. yeah or there's like a a bomb plot or some crap. Right.
00:39:44
Speaker
Yeah. But like, you know, just like, it's like a, it's like ah an awareness that I'm incapable of like, shedding and you know that was the kind of feeling that i was getting having left all of my belongings inside the cabin going outside to whoever was running the plow and then being told leave your stuff ah hu get out of here just go Yeah, I mean, there's always going to be a sense of loss whenever yeah that kind of situation happens.
00:40:20
Speaker
Yeah, and I'm like, I'm not thinking that the meaning of it is a literal thing either. Like, this is this is more what I was going to get at. Like, I get why that like came to the forefront as like a, here's an example of a way that you're too hypervigilant again.
00:40:37
Speaker
But like, it was the fact that by the end of the dream, i no longer had the option to go inside and get my stuff. It's a sunk cost, but I still couldn't figure out how to leave.
00:40:53
Speaker
Yeah. and like, like literally feeling like I'm still stuck in that place where it's just like, but the stuff that, that, that matters to me, like both needs to not matter. And I need to figure out how to go.
00:41:14
Speaker
yeah like this i feel is maybe something that we're not going to be able to like get to the bottom of today maybe it's something that i bring to my therapist which i get to go back and see if she's done with maternity leave this week um ah get to meet with her again this week so maybe i'll bring it to my therapist and be like help me like but like You know, obviously the first thing that comes to mind is the job situation that I'm like struggling with.
00:41:46
Speaker
Yeah. You know, where I'm just like, it feels like a sunk cost. It feels not worth it to stick around anymore. But i don't know how to survive without income. Right.
00:41:58
Speaker
And especially i don't know how to survive with unpredictable income. Like people say like, oh you can just like, you know, take freelance work and blah, blah, blah. I'm like, I know people do that all the time.
00:42:10
Speaker
The money anxiety that I already have would quadruple hu living that way, even even if I ended up making, you know, um enough money every month that I did get all my bills paid.
00:42:25
Speaker
Like, even if that kept consistently happening. Yes. The fact that, like, I don't know for sure that I'm going to have money. another pay payment coming in from somebody right you know like i'm i'm not like secure and i admittedly i don't really feel that security at my job right now i mean like i have no reason to believe that they are about to like give me the boot yeah but i just you know i'm just like they've done a round of layoffs before mm-hmm
00:42:57
Speaker
that like that's That's something they they can't come back from. No company can come back from that. The rest of the company is always going to feel unsafe once they do that.
00:43:11
Speaker
Once any company does that, the rest of the company it inevitably is going to always feel like at any moment they could be out the door. Yeah.
00:43:23
Speaker
Unfortunately. So maybe... Whether I fully understand what it is that I am trying to flee from and what it is that I might be losing, even if I'm still trying to figure that out, I think the same interpretation that you gave about my car applies here too.
00:43:45
Speaker
where it's like until something happens you have no idea like there's no reason to like be sitting in anxiety in anticipation of what could go wrong what could be the next shitty thing to happen yeah so like until it something does happen stop sitting around Yeah, just have a plan.
00:44:08
Speaker
Just have a plan in the back of your mind. Like, okay, it's not the end of the world. i mean, you got to tell yourself when it happens, it is not going to be the end of the world. i have this option, this option.
00:44:19
Speaker
It's like, I'm never going to just be stranded because there's always Uber or Lyft or a friend a taxi or whatever. yeah i'm thinking I'm thinking outside my car now at this point. like I'm thinking more in terms of like you know what if I suddenly found myself unemployed. right you know Like we were talking about earlier today. Earlier tonight when I was just like, based on the savings I have, like I can only sustain myself for a month.
00:44:49
Speaker
But that's building. It's building, but it's again, like like I said, if I wake up tomorrow and I didn't have a job what would I do yeah and I think hold on hold on I'm forming a brain wrinkle I can feel it happening
00:45:12
Speaker
I keep thinking what would I do but if I don't have if I didn't have a job what couldn't I do that's a great way of looking at it yeah because of like all the time i'd get back true and you know i mean as as much as it sucks that companies aren't really hiring or like there's too many applicants that there's too competition or i don't know whatever it still feels like options are limitless you know what i mean like yeah where it's like i wouldn't just have to spend
00:45:48
Speaker
All of my time applying for jobs exclusively, but to, ah you know, be able to focus more on these kinds of projects like the stuff for the Patreon or like, you know, my own tarot business and exactly other things to like, even if it's a very slow trickle, you know, it's something that could lead somewhere.
00:46:14
Speaker
so Okay, so you you made the point about, you know, what couldn't you do hit what if your job was suddenly like no longer? um Yeah, admittedly, I couldn't spend and whole lot of money.
00:46:32
Speaker
Yeah. um I couldn't do things that would require spending a whole lot of money. um But that still leaves a whole lot of options anyway.
00:46:43
Speaker
Yeah. Yeah. oh I think that's the message though. Like, I mean, admittedly, it was a wrinkle that I had to like sit there and like be like, this is forming.
00:46:56
Speaker
It's happening.
00:46:59
Speaker
um But I ah think that's probably part of it. Like you really, you really were on the nose when you made that connection about my car and knowing like, I don't have to feel just like a constant anxiety about my car, but just like, know that I have options if something happens.
00:47:28
Speaker
And then the same thing goes for my life in general. Yeah. Yeah. Whether it's specifically about employment or just in general.
00:47:41
Speaker
Yeah. Your things. My stuff. My stuff and my things. Oh, and I think we were talking about the purse situation, leaving your purse sitting somewhere. that's right. and then like Yeah. Well, that was that was like, I was using that as like an explanation for my, like, the kind of hypervigilance that I was thinking of.
00:48:03
Speaker
Yeah. You know, and especially because like it had just happened this past weekend. I was like, oh, like very specifically. yeah I like did that when I wasn't comfortable with it, but like I still did it.
00:48:14
Speaker
Right. Yeah. I do think I'm going to start asking friends how they feel about that kind of thing. I think it would be interesting just to know what yeah what are generally speaking different people's viewpoint on that?
00:48:28
Speaker
Yeah. um Because I don't think that we are in the minority. and Yeah. if, if anything, I'd say it's probably an even split. Yeah.
00:48:40
Speaker
But like, I've still, ah feel like I have been looked at weird, but like, I feel like I have been in the minority and expressing that kind of like anxiety.
00:48:56
Speaker
Or at least like whoever I was talking to was like, what the fuck? You know? Crazy. Yeah. Yeah. So it's like to them, I would have been in the minority maybe based on how they feel and who they know.
00:49:10
Speaker
but yeah, I think that people like that are probably the kind of people that bad things happen to a lot because they're not hypervigilant enough.
00:49:21
Speaker
It's so like, I don't think that there is like a consistent, there there's no blanket rule you can apply to everyone about all things all the time. There are some people who aren't hypervigilant because bad things never happen to them.
00:49:35
Speaker
I know we can't conceive of what that might be like. Right. But like they have the perfect luck or something all the time. yeah If you want to call it that. But like its it's some I don't know if it's luck or if it's chance or if it's like whatever. I don't know.
00:49:52
Speaker
i ka I know that there's people in my life who are constantly having issues and problems. And I really truly believe that a lot of it has to do with poor choices and a lot vigilance of whatever type. and yeah Or just like constant untreated ADHD. Well, there yeah, there's that, I guess.
00:50:15
Speaker
yeah And like I for sure have developed this hypervigilance as a result of having an untreated ADHD most of my life but also narcissistic abuse and trauma true yeah but it probably in particular with when it comes to like you know feeling like I'm always going to lose track of my stuff like losing track of the screw like ah feeling like that like that comes from the feeling of like if I don't have this in front of me at all times I am going to like it's going to disappear yeah
00:50:51
Speaker
Whether that means somebody came by and swiped it or it just like simply slips into the void. You know? like that's And that comes from ADHD.
00:51:02
Speaker
Actually, my kid had a ah perfect word for that earlier. oh really? Yeah. It was into the shadow realm.
00:51:14
Speaker
i love it so much. It's funny. Oh my god. It's so descriptive. I really do It's perfect. It's perfect. I think it's probably it's definitely like from the internet. but like It probably is.
00:51:27
Speaker
It's definitely not original but you know nothing is anymore these days. um But yeah. It's a perfect description. and know. When he said it I like actually like audibly laughed in the car. That is so funny.
00:51:43
Speaker
Hell yeah. It's perfect. Yeah, it's much akin to you like Into the Void or Into the Abyss. is Yeah, but yeah more um Stranger Things-esque. Very true, very true. The Upside Down. in the Upside Down. Into the Upside Down.
00:52:03
Speaker
ah my god, I love Stranger Things. I think that we did a good job of ah figuring out your your dream for you, like interpretation and stuff. I think we did too. I feel good about it.
00:52:16
Speaker
Awesome. um We're still open to hearing ideas and suggestions though. Yeah, for sure. For sure. Like, yeah, there's, I think, still a lot of like open, like...
00:52:29
Speaker
uncertainties about some of the details which like like we said we're not versed in dream interpretation so ah it could be anything and and let's let me just remind you to grab a piece of scotch tape and go stick it on the back of your key fob as soon as like we're done here go do that yeah leave okay I'll send you photo evidence that it's done laughing
00:52:59
Speaker
Oh my god. But yeah, no. um That, yeah. I think, not only did I feel like we did a good job and had a good time with this, I feel like better about life.
00:53:14
Speaker
Cool. I hope it stays that way. If you need a reminder, you know who to come to. i do. It's true.
00:53:25
Speaker
The one who wears the rainbow tie-dye shirt. Yeah, yeah. Hippie dippie. Yep. But yeah, I hope that this was enjoyable to listen to. Hells yeah. Us and our goofy ass selves and our random tangents talking about sex dreams. but Oh my god.
00:53:48
Speaker
Oh god. In any case. Yeah. Yeah. Um, hey. Hey. I'm going to keep this in the recording. We do got to get going because the Aurora might be happening in like six minutes.
00:54:01
Speaker
Ooh. but time And it should be visible in both of our areas tonight. So. Oh my gosh. It's almost 11 PM. Holy crap. I know. I know. Wow. Sorry that we.
00:54:13
Speaker
Wow. Kept. ah Wow. Recording so late.
00:54:20
Speaker
But we do, because I want to see if I can see the aurora. All right, go sit outside. want to try. ah So but we'll, we'll ah you know, return a report if we actually did get to see it. Yeah.
00:54:32
Speaker
But that's a thing that might be happening. It's been on my bucket list. Part of the reason I'm obsessed with the Arctic. Make sure you're facing north when you go outside. What way is north?
00:54:44
Speaker
Okay. Okay. I know where to go. I know where to face. Okay. All good. Cool. um Yeah. All right. Until next time. Oh, oh my God. You know what we didn't do last week that we need to do this week that we we were almost forgot? What? We need to remind people that we got a Patreon.
00:55:01
Speaker
Oh my goodness. We didn't do that last week? We didn't. edited the episode. was how did we not mention that we have a Patreon? Oh my You guys, we have a Patreon and holy shit, it's great.
00:55:14
Speaker
It's great. I love it. It's good. Molly's been doing all of the work. All of it. Oh, God. But like for real, like I did the tarot reading for this past Monday for this week and it was like real nice.
00:55:32
Speaker
was real good. It was real good. It was definitely like, you know, meant for somebody to hear it. A couple of them have been that way so far. But like you know it definitely felt like there was somebody that needed to hear it.
00:55:45
Speaker
And at the same time, it was also like reminding us of like the bigger patterns of duality in the world and in our lives. um So it was really fucking cool.
00:55:57
Speaker
Interesting. Yeah. So y'all should go subscribe holy shit yes subscribe and check it out because it's it's a good time over there um I've got another blog post coming out this Friday so I have not written it yet but it will be there but yeah so definitely check that out and also check us out on Instagram I am slowly but surely resolving to post more on Instagram um
00:56:32
Speaker
ah So, you know, come hang out with us there. Come say hello. And you can also send us an email. If you have dream interpretation skills and you want to proffer them, send us an email at k Christina. Tell them the email.
00:56:48
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00:56:56
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and it's all mentioned in the description below so
00:57:01
Speaker
anyho We gotta It's Aurora time. Okay. It's Aurora time. Let's go. All right. We love you guys. We're so grateful for you. Thank you so much for listening to us and being by our sides through these times.
00:57:18
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end we can't wait to see you next week. Hide your pickles. Bye.
00:57:27
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hey
00:58:06
Speaker
that's when they like get closer to the microphone and start whispering. ASMR. Listen to me have an orgasm. I'm just kidding. yeah though but No, you don't have to cut that out. It's me being funny. can start um doing the one Harry that Sally seen in the restaurant.
00:58:32
Speaker
Yeah. No! You have a child in the house! If there's anybody who should start doing that When Harry Met Sally scene, it should be me.
00:58:44
Speaker
As payback for my neighbors. wow Do it! really god Oh my god. If I want to be overheard, I want to be actually getting Yeah, yeah.
00:58:58
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done ya