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43. No Topic, Just Vibes
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This episode sports a little bit of everything - giggle fests, bad astrology, internet cat celebrities, and even a touch of our signature intense vulnerability. Welcome to the mayhem!
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Hosts: Christina Bell & Molly Wilde
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Exploring Books and Tarot
00:00:25
Speaker
I like I'm starting to get various, you know, different book suggestions that I have hadn't seen before. And this one jumped out at me and I read the reviews and they were like really, really good reviews.
00:00:43
Speaker
Okay. And I was like, hmm. Okay. Metaphysical Millionaires, a guide to enlightened manifestation. Yeah. All right.
00:00:54
Speaker
Yeah, and it had really good reviews. So I was like, what the hell? I'm going to try it. Might as well. And then this one I got a few weeks ago, but I put it on the bookshelf and like forgot about it, so I didn't tell you about it.
00:01:11
Speaker
um I think this lady was, yeah, I'm pretty sure this lady was on the Skeptic Metaphosition podcast.
00:01:21
Speaker
The Psychic Yellow Brick Road. How to find the real wizards and avoid the flying monkeys. Okay. That's her name. I don't know how to pronounce it. Yeah, I know.
00:01:34
Speaker
ah ah Corby Mitleid or Mitleid. Something like that. and I would say how to pronounce it in the episode, but he doesn't pronounce anything correctly, so...
00:01:47
Speaker
Well, so far we know he doesn't say Tarot correctly. um But I don't know about anything else. And then I did get another book that was like a psychic, like how to open your medium, like mediumship channels or something like that.
00:02:06
Speaker
Oh, I don't want that. But have fun. So yeah, because this one is ah this is the yellow brick road. um I really thought it was hilarious that my most recent purchase that just came like Monday or Sunday.
00:02:27
Speaker
You got to say the things when you put them up to the camera. The Wizard of Oz Tarot Deck and Guidebook. And I have not opened this box yet.
00:02:38
Speaker
Fuck, dude. I took the cellophane off of it, but I didn't open the box at all. But it's got, it's like, illustrated, like hand like hand illustrated. It doesn't have pictures from the movie or whatever.
00:02:53
Speaker
Yeah, you'll have to, when you do go through it, or when you do readings, you're gonna have to send me pictures. Definitely. I can tell you from the back, there's three cards on the back.
00:03:05
Speaker
And the Wicked Witch of the West is the Queen of Spears. Dorothy is the Fool. um And Glinda is Queen of Bricks.
00:03:19
Speaker
Huh. I am not sure. what? is what I know I'm not sure either. um I would think bricks would be like pentacles.
00:03:33
Speaker
That's what I was thinking. because it's And spears might be wands. Spears could be wands or swords. But they have swords don't they?
00:03:44
Speaker
Who has? What you mean? In the show in the movie. Aren't there swords? like they have They have spears but like I guess they have wands too.
00:03:55
Speaker
Yeah, because Glinda's holding one. would Glinda be the... Oh, because she... Queen of Bricks. Because the Yellow Brick Road, she's the one who points at it at the beginning. also, she's the Good Witch of the North.
00:04:08
Speaker
Yeah. and North is associated with Earth. So I wonder if that's why. Well, that's interesting. And he's... hold on Wait a second. No, that doesn't make any sense.
00:04:22
Speaker
I am so confused. ah Because she's the Wicked Witch of the West. Then I thought maybe it's West being associated with, but it's water and water is cups.
00:04:37
Speaker
So I don't know. And she doesn't, she can't do water anyway. Yeah, exactly. her Yeah. yeah Yeah. Well, you will have to send me photos when you use that deck.
00:04:52
Speaker
Maybe I should just do a big Marco and show all the cards. yeah oh yeah Well, yes, you sir i absolutely should do that. Okay. I'll do that. Since everybody likes to do that tarot or, you know, whatever. Tarot deck, oracle deck walkthrough showing. Yeah, or like random card pulls.
00:05:09
Speaker
Or yeah, yeah, that too. Yeah, well, that is a fucking cool ass deck. Yeah, dude. And like, I saw it like a couple months ago and I put it in my cart and like did the thing where you put it like you save it off to the whatever cart for later and then save for later yeah yeah and then i was like finally i was like fuck it i just want that and like uh books i am probably to the gills with books because i am running out of places to put them and yeah
00:05:48
Speaker
uh tarot decks and oracle decks as well So I really feel like at this point, unless something looks unbelievably like I cannot live without that thing or i will die. But you feel that way about everything. I don't.
00:06:07
Speaker
You do. Well, obviously wizard of Oz, but like. But how many Tarot decks? you You had the same feeling with the David Bowie one Yeah, that was one of my first ones, though.
00:06:20
Speaker
But still, it's like, this is the thing is I don't feel like you, I don't feel like that's the bar to go by. Because you feel that way about everything. i know, but I'm trying to be more discerning now. Like I decided that I really want to like stop buying decks and books because i have too many and I have so many fucking books to read.
00:06:39
Speaker
Like I, I, I feel like, swear to God. If I do retire in a year, in September, a a year from September, I will have enough books to read to get me through the rest of the fucking Trump presidency.
00:06:55
Speaker
So I won't have to go out and buy anything anymore till he's out of office. I was going to say, you have enough books to get you through the rest of your life. Potentially, yes. But you have to remember, once I'm not working anymore, I will have a lot more time to read. It's true. so They may only last me like five years. We'll see. Yeah, we'll see.
00:07:18
Speaker
God. Because I really, really do want to read, but I'm too fucking tired all the time when I do have spare time. All I want to do is close my eyes because i'm like... Yeah. Like on my bus today.
00:07:30
Speaker
my God. I wanted to take a nap so bad. And I didn't. Well, I'm glad that you didn't at least fall asleep at the wheel. No, I didn't at all.
00:07:40
Speaker
I was quite wide awake today. And I think we know why. Yeah. ah But I had to because I didn't get any sleep last night. Like we went to bed late and then ah could tell my kid was like not settling down. Right.
Personal Reflections and Emotions
00:08:01
Speaker
Very well. And so i was like, I had this thought, which is it sort of like a intuitive mother thing.
00:08:12
Speaker
where I was like I haven't hugged this kid much lately and I just think that I need to like try to touch him and like give him a kiss or a hug or something so I just kind of rolled over and I was like because we were saying goodnight to each other and stuff but I was just like I'm gonna give him a kiss and he gave me kiss back then I put my arm around him And then he wanted to reach out and like put his arm around me. then he was just like, okay, we need to have a cuddle fest now.
00:08:38
Speaker
So I just felt like we haven't like I haven't hugged on him in a while, you know? yeah and he and I just felt like he and I both needed it. And I'm like, yeah, let me just try this. And he was extremely receptive. And then he like cuddled right up to me and he just wanted to keep kissing me um my cheek and stuff.
00:08:56
Speaker
Just sweet. So sweet. And you know how I was going to say, I'm not trying to equate the two at all, but like how you were talking about kissing women is like, you know, they're like so soft and everything like that.
00:09:11
Speaker
yeah. Well, he's also very soft because he's so young. Yeah, because he's a little boy. And the thing that's really striking to me is like... it's even so even though he's nearly 10 there's still so much softness and like it's still it's just like a puppy it's like when you get a brand new puppy and they're so freaking or a kitten you know and they're so soft and squishy and you know cuddly and all that yeah that's how it is except he's not he's not furry or fat
00:09:43
Speaker
He's like, he has no chub at all. This kid is so skinny. But it's like, his soft face, like his skin so soft. I'm like, ugh. Yeah.
00:09:54
Speaker
I just, I just, God, I'm going to be so sad when he gets to be too old to cuddle.
00:10:01
Speaker
I'm going to be so sad. But it was very nice last night. So we didn't go to sleep till at least midnight. Yeah. And like...
00:10:12
Speaker
It was, yeah, I'm just, I was so tired this morning when I woke up. I was like, fuck, I don't know how I'm going to get through the day. are you feeling, Molly?
00:10:23
Speaker
Not good.
00:10:26
Speaker
In what way?
00:10:29
Speaker
In ways that I'm, like, having a hard time disentangling. Physically? Emotionally? All of the above? wow My shoulders hurt.
00:10:43
Speaker
I think I'm I think I'm touch starved as well but like that's like what else is new which actually fucking sucks um because it's not new and it's wearing on me and i don't know our our group's been talking about motherhood a lot and is triggering
00:11:13
Speaker
I don't know what to do about it. I hope that my card pull didn't trigger more. No, but it also just, you know, was it served as a reminder that I don't have that.
00:11:29
Speaker
Or I never have. and Like, I both don't feel the pull or call. And I don't feel like I've ever had it. You mean had a mother or had the had the safe place? Yeah.
00:11:43
Speaker
Well, you have me. i do. But I'm just not close by to touch you. i know. I'm sorry. But also, I just don't. i Like, i it's it's, you know, this came up in therapy recently. i don't feel like I can have a mother.
00:11:59
Speaker
Like, I feel like to have a mother is it's like a triggering traumatic thing. And I can't, I feel like I have too hard of a time associating motherhood or being mothering ah at all as like an abusive thing.
00:12:17
Speaker
I don't know. I'm going to sneeze. Phew. Bless you. I'm glad i managed to mute myself first.
00:12:28
Speaker
Knees those demons out, bitch.
00:12:34
Speaker
Oh, God. Anyway, it's just like one of those things where like... We should just be saying that and not bless you. should just be saying, seize those demons out, bitch!
00:12:46
Speaker
Oh my god.
00:12:51
Speaker
Jesus. That's what they used to think it was back in the days. yeah Truly. as my son will would call it. He says back in the days. Back in the days.
00:13:02
Speaker
Just the same as what they thought But the female orgasm was. Really? They thought it was demon possession.
00:13:13
Speaker
What the hell? It's not that much different than a dude. no No, it is. It's very different. No, but I mean like the sounds of it? What do you mean? Like the vocalization?
00:13:27
Speaker
The vocalizations. yes how is it different how is it that different from a dude i don't think i've okay no we can't get into detail about this because i'm confused like we can't i'm gonna write this down we're gonna come back this later because like men female men have an orgasm and they know what that is so why would they think women was any different than man well for a woman to have an orgasm is demonic apparently
00:13:57
Speaker
Oh my god. Alright, I wrote it down. ah kind of We're gonna come back to that later.
00:14:05
Speaker
Female orgasm noises.
00:14:10
Speaker
That is too broad of a topic. oh Oh my god.
00:14:19
Speaker
my god Legitimately. Oh my god. No, but like it was actually, and also, also because it's the patriarchy, bitch.
00:14:29
Speaker
Yeah. they don't, they don't want women to have pleasure. Women should not experience pleasure ever. No, especially not during sex. but I know it's so fucking fucked, but, but the experience of a female orgasm is dramatically different than a male orgasm too.
00:14:49
Speaker
Not that I've had any male orgasms to like compare it to. Yeah. my god but uh it is it is apparently very different so just so you're aware i couldn't i couldn't let you go through the rest of your life not being aware of that oh my god i want to talk about the solstice the solstice weekend i'm so fucking excited yeah i'm fucking stoked man
00:15:23
Speaker
Why did we have to pick a place that doesn't allow pets? Damn it. ah I want to bring Maisie bad. Probably most places don't allow pets though. Just to be just to be real.
00:15:36
Speaker
She knows I'm talking about her. You're my baby.
Mysterious Cat Behavior and Psychic Curiosity
00:15:40
Speaker
Yeah, she's obsessed with you. You're my baby. What is that? What are you looking at? She's looking at the demons. I think she's looking at the demons in the corner. I really do think she sees ghosts.
00:15:50
Speaker
Oh, for sure she does. Because... for sure she does. I'm not kidding. When we're in the living room and she's on my lap on the couch, yeah she looks up into a specific area in the room all the time.
00:16:03
Speaker
In the same spot. I'm like, there is nothing up there. What are you looking at? Stop it! Even John even john says She sees the ghosts.
00:16:14
Speaker
She sees the ghosts. I swear to God. Yep. Oh, yeah. Animals are freaking crazy like that. They can just see the ghosts.
00:16:26
Speaker
Can you hear Have you seen? I can't remember if I've ever sent you the videos on TikTok of Dave the cat. He's a very, he's a, he's orange and white cat and he's got no brain cells.
00:16:40
Speaker
Is it a cartoon or a real cat? like a like ah person's pet cat. I don't know. the dumbest He's the dumbest creature in existence. I don't know. oh my god. Well, he is ah ben he's been... First of all, he's obsessed with the boyfriend of the woman who owns him. Obsessed with him? Yeah, like in love with him. Okay. Okay.
00:17:07
Speaker
um and like needs to be held and carried around all the time he's also obsessed with door frames whenever he gets the chance he wants to be picked up and held up to the door frame so he can like like hang on to it and just hang from it?
00:17:25
Speaker
not even just hang from it but just to touch it and stuff and then apparently recently after they' they've lived in their current house for like a year he recently discovered the ceiling fan in the living room oh i saw him okay yeah you sent me that i did and he was staring at it with these big open pupils yes i saw that what is this what the hell is this cat staring at like what the well why well i i saw a video i think last night an update where jackson the boyfriend
00:18:01
Speaker
lifted Dave up to introduce him to the ceiling fan and Dave jumped out of Jackson's arms like he was scared. And now everybody's theory is that Dave is not actually in love with the ceiling fan, but he, it's his mortal enemy.
00:18:17
Speaker
You know what I was thinking? Because that that frickin ceiling fan has like some chrome. Yeah, it's like metal. That he probably can see himself in it. And it's a distorted. That's what some people suggested too.
00:18:29
Speaker
Yes, it's probably a distorted figure of a cat. And he's like, what the fuck? yeah well the wild thing is is that like he's staring at it from like all the way on the ground and so and it's not that big of like a flat space right expanse of chrome right that he shouldn't really be able to see himself right that well or if he can he wouldn't be able to identify it as a cat probably not but like even still like it's like some cats can stare at ghosts and
00:19:03
Speaker
And he just suddenly discovers the ceiling fan after a year in the house. He's so fucking funny. Oh my God. Yeah. you you So you sent me that through TikTok?
00:19:17
Speaker
Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Have you sent me any more of that or no? I don't know. i don't know if I sent you the one from last night that I saw. Oh. But he he looks very soft also, i was going to say. He's a short-haired cat, but he looks very soft and silky.
00:19:35
Speaker
And like so does his, i think it's his sister. They have three cats. One of them, there's two girls and a boy. And one of the girls is a mom is the mom of the other two.
00:19:47
Speaker
And I can't. remember the name of the mom but the sister cat her name is Gandalf
00:19:56
Speaker
and the way that i first came across this account at all years ago before Dave was introduced into the picture was because um the vets sent a prescription to the pharmacy for Gandalf the cat and but there was something like They were overcharged. I don't know.
00:20:20
Speaker
For some reason, the pharmacy needed to issue a refund, but they wrote the check to Gandalf.
00:20:30
Speaker
Oh my god. And she was like, I don't know how to cash this.
00:20:36
Speaker
And a huge amount money. It was like 20-something dollars. Oh
00:20:42
Speaker
um my god, that's really funny. Yeah. Oh my god. So that's how I first came across that account. And also, all three of those cats just look really soft.
00:20:55
Speaker
yeah Yeah. Soft and heavy. They look dense. I will have to go and find their account on TikTok and watch a bunch of their videos.
00:21:05
Speaker
You will. You will need to. Absolutely. wait. oh wait I was going to say, i when you talked about, you know, all animals see ghosts and then you decided to go on your podcast about Dave.
00:21:21
Speaker
Like, I had i have ah story to tell you about my mom. Oh, no. Today, when I was on my way driving to go pick up my kiddo from Latchkey, she texts me and she's like, something weird just happened here and I want to tell you about it. And I was like, okay. I go, well, I got like 10 minutes before i get there to the school. So...
00:21:44
Speaker
What's she didn't respond to my texts, you know, quickly enough. So I just called her hu and she goes, I have this little picture frame. That's like, it's, she called it a shadow box, which is not, it's not a shadow box. It's just like a little, it's like a shelf thing, but it has like,
00:22:03
Speaker
Yeah. Well, no, it's it's a shelf, but they're like little squares, like it's divided into like six squares inside of this thing.
00:22:15
Speaker
And there's this little picture frame that's sitting on one of them. And it's a picture of her dad as a baby. and it fell off the freaking shelf and like i can't she can't imagine why or how it would have fallen off because it wasn't like close to the edge you know as far as we know i mean maybe walking by all the time maybe it started to like shift itself to the edge who knows you know When you walk a lot, sometimes vibrations can i don't know shake the walls. I don't know.
00:22:48
Speaker
Anyhow, andhow that's how I was trying to explain that kind of stuff. like you mean How often has she been over there looking at it? Maybe it's over time shimmied towards the edge of the shelf because of walking by a lot. you know whatever Anyhow, she heard this weird like noise and she goes in the you know living room and she says to her husband, like,
00:23:11
Speaker
Did you hear that? And he was like, yeah. And then she looked over and the picture, the little picture frame was on the floor. Oh my God. But she also heard a sound that was like when you chink a wine glass, that sound.
00:23:23
Speaker
Oh yeah. That's kind of echoey. She heard that kind of sound too. Yeah. Which is weird. But she thinks her dad was coming around to like say, Hey.
00:23:37
Speaker
Interesting. So she believes in ghosts. Yeah. Apparently she does. That's somewhat surprising. she all She also thinks that she has guardian angels.
00:23:49
Speaker
And she thinks that her grandma or her... Yeah. I think she thinks her grandma was one of them one time. Anyway.
00:24:00
Speaker
I don't know. Yeah. I don't know. Well, we've talked about angels in general before. I'm a little on the fence about them. Right.
00:24:11
Speaker
But ghosts are real. Ghosts are fucking real. Yeah, dude. Yeah. Yeah. For sure. Yeah. And I'm, you know, i I want, I'm more interested in opening my psychic abilities in general. And like, I don't know if I will have abilities to be a medium.
00:24:31
Speaker
But like this lady who wrote this book believes that everyone can do it. and like um not just this one but like the other book that i was telling you about yeah uh so i'm just really curious about it just curious well i'm curious to see if you find anything out because i i mean like i've i've expressed how i do not have that natural ability um and nor do i want it no but you have sensed spirits i've sensed them but like
00:25:06
Speaker
Not in general. Right. they don't They don't make themselves known to me. me neither. Me neither. Yeah. Swear to God. Well, that's the thing. Like, I have no interest in it.
00:25:17
Speaker
I don't want that door to be opened. Right. I will keep it firmly shut and locked. Thank you i think very much. i think I will clarify, though, that this...
00:25:30
Speaker
bullet That was the dog noise, by the way. If anybody was curious. Oh, she just shook and made her call. Right in front of the microphone. Her collar went cheeky, cheeky, cheeky. Yeah. Little baby, where are you going?
00:25:43
Speaker
on She's having an explorer. Trying. So ah the mediumship or channeling yeah also is is doesn't necessarily have to mean that you're channeling spirits like dead people.
00:26:00
Speaker
But it could be that you're channeling
00:26:05
Speaker
entities from other dimensions or aliens. don't want to do that either. Like, I am perfectly fine communicating with my own spirit team, whatever that consists of.
00:26:21
Speaker
um I'm perfectly fine communicating with those of the people that I care about. five I don't want to talk to aliens. I don't want to talk to ghosts.
00:26:34
Speaker
Like, just, like, ghost ghosts. Yeah. like i'm really And I know that some people are like, there's no good difference. Like, it's all the same. Like, whatever. Fuck off. No, it's not.
00:26:48
Speaker
I'm starting to wonder if it really is all the same, to be honest. But um regardless, I have no idea who my spiritual team is. who my guardian angels maybe or whatever. Well, maybe that class. I would like to get in touch with them somehow.
00:27:06
Speaker
You remember that class, right? affinity Divinity experiencing? Yeah. Divine connection or something. Brittany D, your day. Brittany D, yeah. ah You took notes and stuff, right? Because like yeah I used what she explained as my framework to try to get to know my spirit team okay back in like october-ish i took like a day on a long weekend and just sort of spent that day like journaling shadow working and then like meditating and like just sitting and like allowing myself to just like opening my senses to them them specifically
00:27:57
Speaker
like i and I guess I basically like called out to them being like, hey, I would like to talk to you guys. Okay. I know you're around, so i know that when I'm asking for you, you know that I'm looking for you.
00:28:09
Speaker
Okay. um And i don't remember what I specifically got, but I know that I like ah did like the voice memo journaling stuff, like I have talked about before. Yeah.
00:28:23
Speaker
um I just did that because it was easier for me than like trying to like write and like cramp my arm. Yeah. um And so i haven't gone back and listened to those in a while, but I did like take notes and stuff too. But I, again, haven't looked at that.
00:28:40
Speaker
So, yeah but you know, it's not like I have names to identify them by. I just know like what roles they play and I got like a sense of like the energies of them, each of them.
00:28:56
Speaker
And I probably, and don't want to say should, I'm not going to should on myself, but like i would like to try to connect more often because it doesn't feel like I know that I did that deliberately, but it doesn't feel like,
00:29:16
Speaker
I did. Okay. Because it's like, I know that I did, but like, I don't remember much, you know? Yeah. So just because of the passage of time and all this shit that's happening and, you know, I'm overwhelmed all the time and life overtakes the more esoteric stuff that I'd rather be focused on. Yeah. Yeah.
00:29:43
Speaker
so You should be calling on them to help you get through this little phase of shit. I should. i would like to. I'm going to. i will do that.
00:29:55
Speaker
yeah That's the magic we can do about it, Molly. True. That we were talking you were talking about earlier today. yeah. yeah It's true. yeah You know what? Maybe I'll do that tonight.
00:30:08
Speaker
Just like talk to them about it.
00:30:14
Speaker
Did you ever do that homework I gave you?
00:30:18
Speaker
No. Do you remember what it was?
Astrology and Financial Concerns
00:30:23
Speaker
Meditating, but I can't remember on what.
00:30:27
Speaker
With you. I can't even remember when you gave it to me. I don't know. I don't know what happened yesterday, to be honest. I'm so fucking lost in my own, like, mire of shit.
00:30:41
Speaker
Mm-hmm. and I hate it. It was only like a couple of weeks ago but I was like I know it wasn't that long ago I just cannot for the life of me remember what it what it was we were even talking about you know?
00:30:54
Speaker
meditate with the mantra I am worthy. ah that's right. It's literally you in front of my face.
00:31:03
Speaker
Bitch you are
00:31:07
Speaker
Don't you dare forget it.
00:31:11
Speaker
I guess I am trying to remind myself But I've been in low, low places before with a similar energy to where I am now.
00:31:25
Speaker
And it's hard because I don't feel like I immediately, you know, got out of them from one windfall of like, good luck. You know, because I'm thinking of the time I worked at Starbucks and I was in so much physical pain.
00:31:43
Speaker
that like a job that I had loved was turning into a job that was making my life a nightmare. And the very first job I found that was a desk job was also kind of a toxic fucking environment.
00:31:55
Speaker
Yeah. So I wasn't in physical pain anymore, but i was ah not happy still. And so it's like, I, I don't know what's going to happen, but like,
00:32:14
Speaker
You know, i' somebody in the last couple days said something on our Marco group where, and we said this last last week, yeah, that time isn't linear.
00:32:28
Speaker
Somebody also said that time isn't linear, but they followed it up with, like, time is cyclical and life is cyclical. Yeah. And how, like, you know, as i I'm finally getting to a place in...
00:32:44
Speaker
my life in like the grand scheme of all the years that my life you know has been and will be where i'm starting to see the bigger patterns her and uh i am trying to remember that this is just a part of a bigger pattern right that it is not the stagnant hell hole it will not be the stagnant hell hole that it is forever got it I mean, i i I do understand because I have recognized patterns and shit going on in my life as well.
00:33:22
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And I think that the the pattern, the app, yeah has helped me, you know, recognize those. Because it says, like, you know, think of where you were when you were, you know,
00:33:37
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what the fuck age 19 years ago was always like a 19 year pattern with this one pattern that I have. Yeah. And it's like, okay, so I'm going on, you know, but whatever. I've had at least two of these at this point. So yeah.
00:33:54
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The big, the big thing that's happening this week, uh, astrologically is Saturn going into Aries. Yeah. and did you listen to the Chani app?
00:34:06
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I listened to mine. listened to both. I think I started to listen to the the week ahead in general one, but like I didn't finish it.
00:34:17
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Yeah. yeah it's um A lot of big planets are in my rising sign now, or entering my rising
00:34:30
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And, like, what was it? Actually, I think I did finish it because I think at the end she started answering questions about... ah that's right. Whatever. She was answering the question and about something and she went through all the zodiac signs, but I didn't... I didn't i don't think I finished.
00:34:48
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Yeah. Well, she went into this ah in my in my personal reading because it's directly relating to Aries Rising. But...
00:34:59
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Neptune's in Aries. And I think Uranus is in Aries, isn't it? I don't remember. I don't remember. But Neptune being in Aries is a big deal.
00:35:11
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Because it hasn't been in Aries since the Civil War. or just after the Civil War. Ooh. Yeah. um So it's never been in Aries in our lifetimes.
00:35:24
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so it And you know, what was interesting is she, ah based on, it's one of the clearest, like, or the most easy time I've had just simply grasping the way she explained. she and This is not to say that she's not good at explaining, but like, it's so much, it encompasses so much. Every little phrase encompasses so much when you're talking about astrology that it can be hard to like keep up with.
00:35:54
Speaker
Sometimes I feel like i have to pause every five seconds to digest everything that has just been said. And I don't have the time for that. I don't have the time. and but But in this, it was so clear cut because Saturn is about structure and like authority.
00:36:13
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and like, it's, it's the serious planet. And Aries. Well, Aries is chaos and Saturn doesn't do well in Aries as she has repeatedly said.
00:36:25
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um But when Aries is the rising sign, the first house for you, for me, like, and Saturn is in it she pointed to it as like an indicator of like, now is the time to like, start to take yourself seriously. Hmm.
00:36:45
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And like, take your life seriously. And you're like, you're, you're like, treat yourself like a, Like a job almost. Hmm. And just sort of get your shit together. You know? And I'm like, man, I've been feeling like I've never been able to get my shit together.
00:37:06
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But maybe this is the time. You know? Interesting. Because how old was I was like four. Four went the last time that Saturn was in Aries. Hmm.
00:37:17
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Four, five, six. Hmm. Because it's like two and a half years that it's in each sign. You know, so that wasn't, ah that was not a significant time for me because I was not a complete person yet.
00:37:32
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um I was still baking. um But yeah.
00:37:41
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Just made me think about some things. And then like the same way that you were just talking about, ah you know, a little while ago about how You wanted to start like changing your spending habits on those things. And I'm like, man, I literally just wrote about that the other day in my like morning pages.
00:38:01
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ah For yourself, obviously. Yeah, like changing my yeah my spending habits. but and like What kind of spending habits do you have that you're trying to change? Well, just like my inability to like, you know, stick to the, for example, the groceries that I have.
00:38:17
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And like instead go like order food and pick up food all the time because it's convenient and I don't have to sit and cook and then I don't have to have dishes. Yeah. um And things like that.
00:38:30
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But it's, you know, it like I've tried to rationalize that like I'm not spending at the grocery store. so like, you know, I'm not really spending more, but that's not really true.
00:38:46
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and like, also just sort of getting a grip on this like fear that I always have of like where my finances are at and like, Oh my God, is it a risk to take to like swipe my card just now?
00:39:03
Speaker
Like, or um or is it going to decline? You know, it's like, I live in fear of looking at this is, this is for sure an ADHD thing. It's like, I live in fear of,
00:39:16
Speaker
not having money, but I'm terrified of looking ah where my money's at, like balance wise, because it's just got, I guess it's just got so much trauma attached to it.
00:39:32
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Um, you know, I've lived in like fucking poverty for so long that even though I'm doing better now, like I'm still terrified all the time.
00:39:44
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And like, I just sort of, play a guessing game with my finances all the time and I hate it but I'm just like ruled by fear of my finances and like in in the like writing and the journaling effectively in the morning pages the other day this was and this was before I heard the episode where she was talking about Saturn entering Aries being my time to start taking myself seriously. i had written all this stuff out, like just fucking no more, no more.
00:40:24
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Because, you know, I told, like I told you the other day, i saw the notification that an escrow analysis had been done. Yeah. And I was like, because last year when they did that, they mistakenly assigned to insurance policies to my mortgage. yeah,
00:40:42
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and Suddenly my mortgage payment was like $350 more out of nowhere. And you remember how fucking traumatic that was for me. Yeah.
00:40:53
Speaker
Oh my God. It was awful. Yeah. I was like panicking for you. Yeah. And I, I appreciate the empathy, but Oh my God, it was so fucking bad. And i you know, I saw that and like my heart just like sank,
00:41:10
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My stomach sank. Everything sank inside me. was just like, no. but i was like, you know what? I'm going to log in and look at it right fucking now.
00:41:21
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And going to see what it is so that I don't have to sit in dread at what it might be and what my next mortgage payment is going to be. Which it doesn't even affect the next export mortgage payment. the one after the the increase in price kicks in.
00:41:38
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or in in the increase in the payment but i wouldn't have known that if i hadn't logged in i just looked and not lived in dread and fear and you know it's like stupid fucking shit that i have let it rule me for so long but like i did all i did all this thinking and i did all this like writing the stuff out and then i heard the thing where saturn's like now's the time to start taking your shit seriously yeah yeah and like change things for yourself and i want to go back and re-listen to it because it was like it hit me like a ton of bricks and we go it was that impactful and i'm like man i gotta gotta roll with this energy
00:42:32
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You know, you're reminding me of something. Oh, what's that? So, remember when I went into depth about my Chani reading, like, I don't know, um a couple months ago.
00:42:45
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yeah and i was, like, analyzing all of the shit in there. and like, a lot of it had to do with my professional, and you know, career and public persona, and that kind of thing.
00:42:58
Speaker
um That is still going on. Like, in more in in more different ways like you know because different planets coming in and doing this and that but it's like my yeah oh yeah your 10th house yeah your 10th house is in areas and your chiron is there too yeah dude okay so there's there's still that stuff going on with like you know i was supposed to start making my goals like start happening like back then um but she's still is talking about the same kind of stuff in general and like when she was talking about that originally it was about putting out the thing putting it out like like writing the thing publishing the thing like doing ah like a thing that's public that's like gonna be seen you know like whatever
00:43:55
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and that just made me think like, hello today. I just started having all this crazy, like downloading about my, the book that I want to write. And I never envisioned it being a book like that, but every single time I ever thought about writing my story, i was always like, what the fuck am I going to write about that? Anyone's going to be interested in reading, you know?
00:44:18
Speaker
yeah Like I have a lot of crazy crap in my life, but but there's got to be a point to it, you know? Right, right. But so if I do it in this different way where it's more interesting because I'm bringing in all this nostalgia shit from the 80s and like music and tour, I was like, after I told told you my idea, ah started thinking about, oh my God.
00:44:40
Speaker
I could talk about TV shows and movies that I watched when I was a kid and toys I played with and like all the memories attached to those things too. and the stories that I lived through that were attached to those things. And like, yeah, you know what I'm saying?
00:44:55
Speaker
That would make it more interesting, I think. Yeah. and you know, maybe draw more Gen Xers to it or, you know what I'm saying? Right, right. So it might be more, you know, more popular or more like successful.
00:45:10
Speaker
because of that so that wasn't it that is interesting that you're saying that that you had that whole thing about like you know get more serious about yourself don't be you know don't be afraid to take on your finance stuff like head on and you know be aware of it and you know yeah like how have the knowledge rather than like being anxious yeah because don't know but not wanting to know all that stuff just like you told me before that you were always afraid of looking at your credit karma score and i'm just like why because yours is definitely better than mine and it has been for years that doesn't make a difference when it's like but it's it's in the 700s or whatever why do you why are you afraid to look at it and i don't think it is any i don't know where it is i still don't want to look at it is in like low six hundred s now mine is like
00:46:03
Speaker
I'm less concerned. I'm less concerned about it now that I like, don't, I don't have a loan on the horizon. I'm going to try to get, but like try to get a new car, but at the same time, it's just like, you know, it's the same way as of like, you know, people have expressed this and I hate, you know what I'm actually not even going to do that. I'm not, I'm not even going to use that example because I hate it so much, but like, it's the feeling of I've not been behaving myself in this area of my life. And therefore I have no, nothing good can be shown to me on my bank statement or my credit score.
00:46:37
Speaker
You know? Like, it's that kind of feeling of, like, I've not been behaving, therefore i don't want to look at the consequences. That kind of feeling. Well, i don't know. and but like But it makes sense with um Saturn entering Aries being your 10th house where you're suddenly getting lit up with like structured ideas.
Podcasting and Audience Engagement
00:47:03
Speaker
Okay. Is that make sense to me? is that what she said in your reading? That's a good question. I need to go back and re-listen because I don't remember too much. And you know what freaking bugs me about listening to her readings?
00:47:20
Speaker
is how she jumps back and forth all week long to this day, back and forth to that day. It's like, then she's talking about Saturday, then she's talking about Wednesday. The nice thing, actually, it's, I don't know how it's available on Spotify, but um on the Chani app and on Apple Podcasts, you can look at transcripts.
00:47:38
Speaker
So if you like, pause it. Oh, I was listening to it through the Chani app. Well, it it has transcripts on the Chani app. Okay. That's what I mean. But I don't know if it has it on Spotify, if you're ever listening on you know listening to her week ahead episodes but like the point being like if you are not sure where you're at in the week based on like you know you your mind drifted for two seconds and you missed the like critical information you can pause it because you can see where she's like where she is talking actually i'm not sure if you can okay on it does say apple i have the transcript on the apple podcast it highlights the words that
00:48:19
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you're on um oh but it doesn't in the channy app but okay regardless like like as she's reading it's highlighting where she's reading at like well like if you're listening to it at the same time you mean no well only on an apple podcasts okay but that's what you mean while she's like it highlights the words that's being spoken okay in this in the instant the millisecond okay i got you um And so like if you pause it and look, you can see where you're at and like what information you just missed. Okay. um
00:48:55
Speaker
That's been fun to watch. Whenever i go back and re-listen to any of our episodes, it's been fun to open the transcripts and listen and watch our words being like read like written out. Interesting. Yeah.
00:49:10
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um yeah but oh my but it's But it's available. So you can you can you know look at the transcripts rather than playing the whole thing over again.
00:49:23
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So in case it wasn't clear, we didn't have ah topic today.
00:49:31
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we We couldn't think of anything. but And we were like, well, let's just let's just fucking wing it. So we'll see.
00:49:41
Speaker
We'll see what what comes of the final product. um Yeah, dude, if anybody listening to this has any like psychic...
00:49:54
Speaker
or intuitive or channeling kind of like skills and had a specific feeling about what happened to my mom today with the picture frame like write us and let us know what you think I want to know if you if you really feel like you picked up on if there was an energy there or not if it was just like a coincidence that somehow it just fell yeah um I guess I guess we'll see yeah um yeah I for sure don't know.
00:50:27
Speaker
For sure. i for sure don't really want to know. But that's your great grandpa. Eh.
00:50:40
Speaker
here I never met him. Yeah, well. I have a lot of those. Yeah. Honestly. Yeah.
00:50:54
Speaker
I hate that that makes it sound like he's not special I'm sure that he is don't know anything about him no I think he was a bit of a creeper oh no don't tell me that you I hate that but uh but even still you know that's just one of those like a lot of our ancestors pieces of shit yeah they were to be honest but uh regardless but yeah That's our show.
00:51:25
Speaker
We're not done forever. We're coming back next week. Don't worry. Hopefully a little bit more organized. We'll find out. But in the meantime and in between time, we got so much other probably sometimes higher, mostly questionable quality content over on Patreon. Yeah.
00:51:46
Speaker
Highly questionable. Highly questionable in the best way. um if you like our vibe, you'll you'll like our Patreon. I'll just say that much.
00:51:58
Speaker
sure that's all that That's all you need to know, really, to be honest. um What's that Patreon you URL, Christina? As you break your chair over there.
00:52:08
Speaker
Okay. www.patreon.com slash soulpodpodcast. Yeah! I'm so proud of you.
00:52:21
Speaker
Do you think you can rattle off that Instagram? At SoulPod the podcast. You have learned so well. i am so pleased.
00:52:33
Speaker
Oh, and that Gmail address. Gmail is SoulPod the podcast at gmail.com. Fuck yeah. This Gen Xer's brain isn't dead yet.
00:52:49
Speaker
still kicking still kicking and if we don't have any other social media but if ever we do get more social medias you can bet your fucking fanny that it will be soul pod the podcast all right till next week bitches
00:53:46
Speaker
that wait did i detect a little bit of a fucking boston accent in that probably think i did i think i heard soul pad the podcast
00:53:59
Speaker
that's my best boston accent coming from a fucking michigan or over podcast soul pad the podcast at gmail.com gmail how much of it how much of it is A Boston accent versus just a smoker voice.
00:54:16
Speaker
Oh, God. They are one in the same, my friend. you remember that silly one that silly thing I said to your ex when I was, like, faking a Boston accent to him?
00:54:30
Speaker
No, I don't remember. something that everybody says when they're faking a Boston accent? I don't know. Papacad, Habid Yad? No.
00:54:40
Speaker
Okay. I got it from John. i don't know. he know he said it before. and I just thought it was so fucking funny that I like to say I'm concerned. I don't trust him.
00:54:53
Speaker
Let me see if I can even do it now that I'm smiling so hard and can't stop laughing. Yeah, you you can't you can't be happy with the Boston accent. Let me squish my cheeks.
00:55:04
Speaker
I know you can't smile and talk with a Boston accent at the same time. Yeah, everybody's angry. New Englanders, we're all so fucking angry.
00:55:18
Speaker
We don't know how to laugh.
00:55:22
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Okay, ready? Parky can't have it yet.
00:55:28
Speaker
Okay, go, go, go. Pop-tart farts.
00:55:36
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Don't ask me why Pop-tart farts is the way to do the Boston accent. Pop-tart farts.
00:55:47
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go that to your accent. He was laughing. Yeah, because he would. Because that's his humor. Oh my God.
00:55:57
Speaker
Oh my god. My head hurts from how much I'm laughing. You know that like tension feeling? Yes. a deep breath. My fucking face. Get some oxygen.