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23. New Year, Who Dis?
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The witches are back, and more distracted than ever.
We hit a wide range of topics, from what practices and mentalities we want to bring with us through 2025, to who Molly wants to fistfight and why. We’re so happy to have brought this project with us into the new year and we can’t wait to find out what new opportunities and adventures are awaiting us. Come along if you want - we’re glad to have you with us. <3
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Christina sells delicious microgreens in the greater Detroit area: https://www.christinasgreens.com/
Hosts: Christina Bell & Molly Wilde
Music: The Confrontation, by Jonathan Boyle, licensed from Premium Beats by Shutterstock
Editing: Molly Wilde
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00:00:25
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yeah
Understanding Insecurities and Judgments
00:00:26
Speaker
that was like I think a lot of self-esteem issues can be solved by us just needing to get over ourselves because even when you're being a dumb bitch you're not special because there are so many dumb bitches out there and we all are getting by somehow Yeah. You know, it's kind of like this one, like this weird realization that I had um one time that basically anytime I would be in public, I would feel like I was being watched and judged the way my grandmother would watch and judge me, right? Right. Yeah.
00:01:12
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and like having to like appear perfect like everything i did i had to sit right i had to hold my fork right i had to do this i had to do that i had to make sure i wasn't making any weird fucking faces or anything stupid like that just like be perfect in public and one day it clicked in my head that nobody's watching me. Nobody gives a fuck. islam god It was the most freeing feeling because it was like, all of a sudden, I'm like, I can fucking relax.
00:01:45
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Yeah. Don't look like an asshole. I don't look like a stupid piece of shit. I don't look like, you know, I'm just, nobody cares. Nobody cares.
Personal Realizations at Berkeley
00:01:55
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And then it it goes along with that one phrase and I, you know, forgive me if I have said this phrase on the show before, but, um, okay. So the the phrase was, you wouldn't care what anybody thought of you if you knew how little they did. Right.
00:02:12
Speaker
I probably said that before and open on the show. No, but this is the thing. Maybe you have, but I was going to say, like you describing you know the realizations that you have had in that regard reminded me of the fact that I very literally had the exact same realizations while I was at Berkeley. like Because that was really where the majority of my healing journey like picked up its pace.
00:02:40
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you know, even if I started therapy while I was at BYU. But I literally just one day it occurred to me, I had to think to myself like, man, how often do I pay attention to what is like what other people around me are wearing or saying or doing? Right. Like, how often do I care? Right. Why should I ever assume that everybody else cares?
00:03:10
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way more than I do. Right.
Private Judgments and Aesthetics
00:03:13
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And so that like was the very first step toward not being so stressed and hypervigilant and upset, upset, upset. Yes. But like uptight, you know, and like, it just, it was a really, I mean, obviously it was an impactful enough thing that I remember it now fucking 10 years later.
00:03:39
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Yeah. Yeah. And like to, you know, I don't know. I was just going to answer your rhetorical question about looking around at everyone else, like not giving a crap what they look like or what they think. Like I like to look at other people and I like to see what kind of shit people wear and how they act and all that stuff. I mean like in a way of like a critical eye. Yeah. Sometimes I am sometimes, but like it's all in my own head and it's not like I'm doing it to be mean or vindictive or saying it out loud or like making fun of them to somebody or, you know, I do it because it's just something I like to do. Just look at people and observe what they do and how they act. You know, what's so funny is that like, I literally have the same thought though, because like literally here I am with my Virgo son and my Leo moon.
00:04:33
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where aesthetics matter an awful lot to me and I am extraordinarily judgmental. So, like, I, like, sure, I can get critical, but it doesn't impact, like, how I feel about a person. Right. You know? Right. Like, it's very much just like a, oh, like, those shoes with that hat, like... Stupid stuff like that. But, like, um...
00:05:04
Speaker
It's never ever been like a oh my god, like they are the worst.
Confidence and Style Insecurities
00:05:08
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They're so stupid Because of the way they dress or the or the thing that they just said Like I don't oftentimes this you know stuff that people say that I don't give two thoughts about Mm-hmm, you know, and that's the thing that I think I was most insecure about because like I've never really Aside from when I was in high school and was actually prevented from wearing what I wanted to wear like I've never really had a problem with feeling confident about like the outfits that I would choose. So I was never too insecure about wondering or worrying if somebody else or the people around me were looking at me like, the fuck is that outfit? you know it was It was usually like my behavior or my words where I like word vomited and you know did the ADHD thing and then like felt stupid afterward. But like I'd never ever judge people for
00:06:04
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blundering, you know? Right. So,
Generational Shifts and Identity
00:06:09
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believe it or not, you guys, we have an episode today.
00:06:14
Speaker
but I have no idea how much rambling we are going to be cutting out here, but we have been recording for an hour now. And we do have stuff to talk about, because guess what, y'all?
00:06:33
Speaker
It's 2025. It's 2025, bitch. That's so crazy. oh I should have realized this, but it was, it was brought to my attention that 2025 starts the beginning of Generation Beta. What? So, so we're all, we're all being bumped up. So millennials are now at where Gen X has been for a long time.
00:07:03
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And Gen X is now where the Boomers have been. No. No, no. No, no, no, no. Oh, man.
00:07:22
Speaker
What's a no? Millennials. Don't you dare ever put me in a category with Boomers, ever. In any, any way. No, you you and every member of Gen X, which is a lot,
00:07:33
Speaker
So, oh my God. Gen X can't stand boomers just about as much as you guys. Oh, I know. boomers I know. But also boomers are now where the silent generation Yeah, I get that. we Everyone's shifting, but I don't even want to be like considered. You've always been, you've always been like the hypothetical or not. whatever But you've always been like in that close of proximity to the boomers. Just like how I've been i always been in that close of proximity to Gen X because I'm a millennial. So really nothing's changed. We're all just getting old. So my kid who is nine,
00:08:17
Speaker
Yeah. Is considered a Gen Alpha. Yeah. and But he's only nine. He's not old enough to have kids of his own yet. No. So how is there another generation happening already? Because the the delineations take place every 15 years. I get it. Yeah. So Gen Alpha to started at 2010. And then yeah so and working backwards, Gen Z started 95.
00:08:48
Speaker
Technically, though there are blurred lines there because of the fact that so many, with millennials, I feel like they're the most blurred that it gets is like when Gen Z kids were raised with like millennial siblings. And that's kind of how my family was, where like I'm the oldest, but I'm a young millennial. And all my siblings are technically Gen Z, but they're all, you know, the We were also all raised without the internet for a long time. like We didn't get wifi in my house until I was a sophomore in college. In my family's house, I mean. I don't understand how you're a young Gen Z. I'm a millennial. When if it had to have started in 1980.
00:09:41
Speaker
So 92 is like 12 whole years. Yeah. And 15 years is the grand total. got it I got it. With it ending in 95. Yeah. That makes sense. Yeah. Sorry. like No, you're good. Um, cause yeah, like the, the quintessential millennials are the ones who are the age of like a lot of my friends, a lot of the guys I've dated, like, you know, right in like the mid to late eighties, like,
00:10:10
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right in the smack middle of the the generation. Yeah. Crazy shit. Yeah. So old.
00:10:22
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We all be getting old. So old. We all be getting older and older every day.
00:10:31
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yeah How do you think I feel I'm going to be 50 this year? tunnel You're going to celebrate your 50th in the best possible way. so Yes, I agree with that, boy but I'm still going to be 50.
00:10:43
Speaker
The celebration is gonna be badass, but you know, maybe he isn't badass. Yes it is though. Oh my god. It's just gonna be bad. Don't they say the 50s are the new 40s or something? Oh, they probably do. The same way they say that the 30s are the new 20s. I don't know.
00:11:03
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Yeah, probably. Oh my God. You know one of our friends in our Marco Polo group that is by age, and she said the other day, like in her head, she's still 15 or something like that. And I was like, yeah. Yeah, I get it. yeah yeah I don't know about 15, but I totally understand what she's saying. Cause I think a lot of times in my head, I i still feel like an early twenties something. Right. Like in my head, I'm still 19. And if it wasn't for my gray hairs, I think people would, more people would assume or still be assuming that I'm 19. Yeah. Cause I have a young face. Yeah.
00:11:45
Speaker
I just have fun here. Most people do not think that I am as old as I am either. When I was in my mid thirties, I think somebody thought that I was in my mid twenties and I was like, thank you. Yeah. you know It's funny. It's like I was having the same kinds of things, like compliments where like I'd be in my mid to late twenties and people would assume I was like 19.
00:12:07
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and It used to bother me. And then I realized, I was like, I think as I get older, I'm going to be grateful for that. Yeah. Yeah, for sure. like if i If I was still dyeing my hair, I have no doubt people would think I'm at least in my early 40s, not in my late 40s, you know? Right, yeah. But like, I have been accused of being s*** grandmother a couple of times.
00:12:33
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ah cut
00:12:36
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yeah um yeah do this I told you Santa Claus a couple of years ago, right? I don't know. Tell me. oh He was like, Grandma and Grandpa, you want to get in the picture with him? Oh my God. And I was like, we're not Grandma and Grandpa. We're mom and dad. And he was like, oh, I'm so sorry. And I go, it's OK. It happens. and good thing is we're mature enough but to be able to like roll with it and not get mad.
00:13:10
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yeah We are older, but we are not his grandparents. yeah yeah oh my god And surely enough, John is old enough to be his grandparent. I mean, technically, yeah we both are old enough to be his grandparents.
Cultural Norms and Marriage Perspectives
00:13:24
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Because I know i know women who've become who became grandmothers at like 39, 40 years old, right which is crazy to me. mormons mormons go to mourn Yeah, maybe that perhaps, but there's more or less people, other people in my life that I have known um that are not Mormon. right They just had children young and then their children had their children young and that was that.
00:13:51
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yeah yeah Yeah, it blows my mind when I hear it. I'm just like, what? Yeah. How are you a grandmother? What? Yeah, I know. You know, it's funny to me because like, it's, I feel like I have like may have asked you this at some point early on in us first, um getting to know each other. But like, with you having like, known that you placed me with a Mormon family, and knowing the way that Mormons do,
00:14:23
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their lives. ah Like, I feel like I at least thought this and I think I asked you once, like, if you if it ever occurred to you, the high, high potential, that if I ever found you, you'd be discovering grandchildren as well. Uh, from you? Yeah. Now, like you if I never thought of that. If I had gotten married at like the typical BYU age of 19 years old, I could have easily had two or three children by the time I was 23. I know. I know.
00:15:03
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To get married at 19 to me is insanity, agree first of all. Agreed. Sorry to any of my friends that got married at 19 and are listening to this, but it's like, it's not normal. Guess what? it They probably hear it and agree with us at this point. Maybe. he the guy I mean, and if you don't, then good. Why are you listening? No, no. I'm just like, if there are people out there who have been married at 19 and they're listening and they're getting offended,
00:15:34
Speaker
Well, I'm sorry, but also maybe they're offended because, hey, look, everything turned out perfectly for me. I'm 50 or whatever, and i'm you know I've been married for 30 years, 31 years, and and my life is great. Well, that you are definitely in the minority. yeah You are a rare breed for sure.
00:15:55
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but If that is your situation, literally, I am very happy for you. yeah But I think that it is probably so rare that they probably have seen enough life at this point where they would agree with us and say, yeah, 19 is insanity. It's too young. It's too young. And now I'm hearing- But like it's the point though is that it happens so much, especially among Mormons and especially Mormons of BYU to the point that I was like, that had a high probability of happening. Yeah. Based on my so life circumstances. Yeah. Yeah. And I know I never. Be like, Oh, look, and here's your grandchild, Ezekiel, and your other grandchild, Valerie. Because those are the two names that I would have given children that I might have had maybe one time.
00:16:44
Speaker
You said Ezekiel and Mallory? Yes, because Mallory is a great name, first of all. Yeah, Mallory is a cool name. Second of all, Ezekiel, simply because I want to and want to call him Zeke.
00:16:58
Speaker
Okay. But you could just call him Zeke. because But Ezekiel is a cooler fucking name.
00:17:06
Speaker
Oh God. Okay. Anyway. No, I never really went there in my head because probably in my head at some point, your age probably froze ah in my head. But like, yeah I don't know. I never.
00:17:25
Speaker
I never really had that thought. Because I know you acknowledged when I turned 18, but like, I don't know if you really did after that. I acknowledged publicly on Facebook when you turned 18. Yeah. I don't know if that means that you mentally were like, okay, she is a whole ass legal adult now.
00:17:50
Speaker
No, it it was because I knew that legally at that age, you would be allowed to start living. No, I know that. I know that. I'm saying like that you mentally aged me up to 18 and then never passed that. I
Age Perceptions and Responsibilities
00:18:02
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don't know.
00:18:06
Speaker
I don't know. Cause I mean, I know I thought of you on your birthday every year. So whether or not I like did the math and internally and went, okay, now she's 21. Now she's 22. I don't know. I don't remember.
00:18:22
Speaker
I'm sure I did because I would have to like, you know, be keeping track of the years, how many years it had been and everything. But for whatever reason, the idea of grandchildren never entered my head. Not that it shouldn't have or any of that, but it just, you know. It's probably, mostly it just probably is like, even though you were raised within the Mormon religion that you like, you didn't attend BYU. So you weren't like,
00:18:51
Speaker
you know bit I was never a Utah Mormon. They're a different breed. And you don't necessarily have to be a Utah Mormon for that to be a thing, but like you were never too deeply involved in like the religion past like young adulthood. I didn't go on a mission. Right. Yeah. Once I hit 18, I was in the singles ward for a little while. Yeah. but like not really like super active. Yeah. um And like meanwhile, I was always super active like through my whole life, even if I didn't actually believe. like I was super active and super involved in like the youth groups and then went to BYU for two years, where it was like thrown in my face constantly that everybody's getting engaged and married.
00:19:39
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to the point that I was like, but I'm not getting engaged and married. Oh my God, what's wrong with me at 19?
00:19:47
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But ah point being, like I was in the thick of it up until 1920 when I finally was like, you know what? I don't want to do this anymore. right And very much so, that is why it occurred to me and it did not occur to you.
00:20:10
Speaker
Yeah. Yeah. I guess I didn't know that many people in church who were getting married at 19 and 20 and all that. So it just never really was a thing in my head, I guess. But I'm reminded of something I remember hearing Dr. Phil say once many years ago, and he was like, they should make it illegal to get married before age 28.
00:20:36
Speaker
And like literally, I had to agree. like I was just like, yeah. And then like remember the one person in our Marco group talking about her husband who is like his prefrontal cortex is probably still not oh yeah mature yeah at his age, at mid-20s. And like they're doing like I guess science is proving now that like for men, it's not maturing until they're like 30? 29? Something like that? Yeah, late 20s. Yeah. Yeah. So what Dr. Phil said is fucking a very true. Like, yeah seriously. And like, but I agreed with him then. But now it's like now science is starting to prove that he's not wrong. is Pretty right about his. Yeah. And that's not necessarily to me and that like, people aren't capable of making major decisions before then. But like, goddamn, do you really know yourself?
00:21:31
Speaker
No, no. And I think a lot of people don't even haven't, you know, if they get in a serious relationship in their twenties, mid or early, whatever, twenties, haven't had enough time to experience relationships in general, like before sticking with just one person. right yeah Every relationship is different and you learn something from every relationship. And so it helps you to develop yourself and learn how to have a better relationship when you've had multiple. So it's like really, people who are getting married right out of high school or staying with their high school sweetheart until their mid-80s. Or even right out of college when they're like 22. Mid-20s and getting married.
00:22:21
Speaker
Yeah. You know, dating the same person for eight years. That's still crazy. Yes. There's time that they've had to live and get to know themselves better, but yeah it's still like really, you probably should have split up at some point and tried to date a bit and see how things are and like learn the world, right yeah learn relationships and all that. but anyway yeah i I think about the way that like,
00:22:51
Speaker
My relationship with my ex started when I was 23 and ended when I was 27. And when I got out of that, I was so lost and I was just like, holy fucking shit. I am so glad I was not married to this man because I had no idea who I was when I was 23. I was even less sure who I was at 27 because of the fact that I was with somebody.
00:23:20
Speaker
who was so rigid and I had to mold everything about my life to his way up of living. yeah And that's why I'm such a different person now than I was at 27. And even now I'm like afraid of dating and reaching the potential, like risking the potential of losing myself again like that, even though I am in such a you know, more solid place than I ever was before, especially at 23. But I'm like, Jesus. Yeah, I don't know. It just scares me. Because it's like, sure, marriage was never on the table, which was a problem in and of itself with him, where he was like, I just never want to get married, like blah, blah. And I'm like, I didn't, I didn't know myself well enough to know that that was something that I wanted. And I needed to have protested against that or been like, Oh, this is an incompatibility. But like, I
00:24:21
Speaker
It feels a little bit like I got away by the skin of my teeth with that. yeah And now I watch people so young get married so fast, or at least get stuck in relationships because they have kids, even if they're not married yet. And I'm like, I just, I respectfully, you're going to regret that, you know?
00:24:48
Speaker
yeah ah So anyway, that's not the subject we were going to be talking about.
00:24:59
Speaker
The doggy came back. I gotta get her. I got the baby dog.
00:25:14
Speaker
Baby.befeh, the potato. She is a potato. She's a potato. She's a cheesy potato. The potato. She's a furry potato.
00:25:26
Speaker
who The only kind of furry potato I want in my life. who Oh my god. I love this baby so much. I was going to say, even though we have d the deviated so far from this point,
00:25:45
Speaker
Do you want to talk about the way your 50th is going to be celebrated? I must acknowledge because it should absolutely be acknowledged that my dear daughter here bought me my tickets to Anahata's for Christmas.
00:26:01
Speaker
So that is a separate thing from like the fact that it's going to be my 50th, but it's like literally that is the coolest presents I've gotten from somebody in a very, very long time, if ever. And I appreciate it very much. I am so glad. I'm so glad and I'm so excited.
00:26:19
Speaker
I am too. I am too. Cause we're gonna go. yeah Yay! We're going back to Anahutas! Now we gotta figure out how I get to bring my little potato. Yeah. Easy, easy, easy. It'll be so fine. No worries. But yeah. So on that note, we did come up with... Molly. What? Thank you. Thank you. You're welcome.
00:26:48
Speaker
You're welcome. I appreciate it. More than you know. Listen, if I'm not making your life better, I'm not doing my job. Aww.
00:26:57
Speaker
I love you so much. I love you. That's the best. This is what I'm here for. To buy you amazing Christmas gifts and then yell at you until you make the right decisions in your life.
00:27:14
Speaker
Oh my god, you're such a dork. I love it. Listen, it's either yelling or I could get in a fistfight with you. So, you know, just like I'm gonna get a fistfight with my bio dad, so. Oh god. Can I at least watch that? Yes. It'll be me and the tall brother. Yeah. Against him and I think we can take him.
00:27:47
Speaker
I had some thoughts about him the other day. My brother or my dad? Your bio dad. yeah I had some thoughts about him the other day. I was thinking about how there were a number of people who I was friends with from high school, Facebook and actual, like, you know, like I still communicated with XYZ and your bio dad was one of them. And everybody was cool with me.
00:28:16
Speaker
I think, I think the reason I was thinking about this was because New Year's Eve, right? There was a New Year's Eve where I was chilling at home and bio dad was in here. Is there another thing I could call him? Just say your dad.
00:28:28
Speaker
say your dad at And his wife and some of our other friends and your uncle, uh, and his girlfriend or wife. I don't remember. They were all hanging out at this bar.
00:28:43
Speaker
And I don't remember if we were on Facebook messenger or just what, I don't remember, but they were all like, come up here. And I was like, okay. And I didn't take any time to get ready because I wasn't like planning on going anywhere. I just threw on some clean clothes and went and got to this bar literally within two minutes of New Year's, the New Year's countdown.
00:29:10
Speaker
So I got to at least be around people, yeah you know, when it happened. So I was thinking about that and I was like, that was an interesting night. And like how funny it was, you know, how it worked out. yeah But then,
00:29:28
Speaker
and please do not think that I am talking smack about you at all, because this is not what this is about. Okay. As soon as Molly comes back into my life,
00:29:40
Speaker
they all leave. And here's the thing. I think, you know, obviously we know that your dad had issues with has the person he was married with, that he was married to. I was thinking it has as in he still has issues, but yeah. Yeah, he's probably got issues still, but he had issues with with the wife. And I think that all of those people who I was also friends with that he was friends with were all on his side about that situation. And got you know defensive for him and basically cut me off because I think that maybe they felt like I was trying to push you into his life or something. I don't know. I don't know. Do you think that it has to do with the fact that they were aware of the fact that she was holding divorce over his head? It's possible. And therefore they wanted to prevent that from potentially happening.
00:30:36
Speaker
But you, you know, what I'm saying is his, his brother and his mother yeah were both like, we can't have relationship with her, blah, blah, blah. And then like the uncle, your uncle was like, leave him, leave him alone. Yeah. And I fully, fully believe that it was because they were aware of the risk that this threat that she had made. Yeah. But my point is, my point of bringing this whole thing up, and this is why I'm saying to you, I don't want you to think this was Molly bashing time because it's not. My point is... No, I know. the the When they say, when you're when you level up your vibes, the bad vibe people tend to leave your life, right? They all left my life because you came into my life.
00:31:29
Speaker
or after you came, not maybe because, but but after you came into my life, you came back into my life. They all split. They could have been friends with me on the side behind your dad's back. They They chose not to.
00:31:45
Speaker
They all, they all blocked me, deleted me. You know what I'm saying? Right. They took the trash out for me. That's how, that's how I look at it. Yeah. And no offense, but your dad is kind of part of that group. Yeah. In my mind. For sure he is because he is so stuck. In my mind he has taken the trash out for me. I hate to say it because I would still be his friend.
00:32:13
Speaker
But he has chosen a different path. And it's like, if he can't level up to include you or me at all, then it's, sorry, it's his loss, dude. Yeah. Well, it's all, it's, it's perpetually his loss. One of the things that I was expressing was how if he could just get past whatever is blocking him from continue or blocking him from Deciding to break that ice again his life would be so much better for it Yeah, I mean we all know that yeah He won't get out of his own way. Yeah, that's like it's it's and I know I've said this to you before it's not Going to require a whole lot of groveling to get back in my good graces Like it wouldn't it's very literally like I am here. I'm ready Mm-hmm. I'm mad
00:33:12
Speaker
And I will punch him in the face, but then I'll also be like, let's be friends. Yeah. That's just my hair. He's rising. but oh yeah So in my mind, it's like everything is all their loss. It's all them. yeah They are the ones who are missing out yeah on what could be really cool shit in their life. And they chose not to be a part of it.
00:33:41
Speaker
And I'm like, whatever. I have better friends now. I have much better friends now. I'm so happy. I'm so happy. Yeah. And that's like, I mean, when I said, if I'm not like making your life better, I'm not doing my job, like the same applies to him where he's actively now preventing me from doing my job. Yeah. Yeah.
New Year Reflections and Resolutions
00:34:07
Speaker
So it's very sad. o Yep.
00:34:11
Speaker
anyway anyway we're here to talk about it is it is related because you talked about new years we're here to talk about the fact that it is indeed a new year and also the fact that it is if we are in the dredges of winter now yeah obviously we considered not talking specifically about the new year because of the fact that it is so cliche and on the nose But at the same time, it's all anybody's talking about right now. So it's on the forefront of our minds here. And so we're like, you know, what fuck it. We're not going to necessarily talk about like resolutions because I fucking hate resolutions, but like, you know, the new year is as good a time as any to do some like mental and emotional and spiritual hygiene and, you know, check-ins with yourself and like,
00:35:11
Speaker
resets of, you know, whatever it is that you feel like you need, whether it's like environmentally with your house or like with your person, your, you know, your body, your physical health, or like, whatever. Like, it's a good time to do it. I i will say, personally, I feel like I'm better suited to waiting for the spring to actually start taking action on stuff. For the fact that A,
00:35:38
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in like witchcraft in the spring is when like the real beginning of the year happens, um especially in the zodiac and everything. But also like, who's got the fucking energy this deep in wintertime? Not me. So I'm thinking the energy for what again? For like taking action on like new like routines and goals and oh yeah all the things that people like put on themselves for New Year's resolutions. i I'm so sure that the majority of the reason why people don't stick to their resolutions is because they're starting them at the wrong time of the year. sure so For many, many years now, i have never I have not put any kind of pressure on myself to have a resolution because I think that they're just stress inducing and stupid.
00:36:30
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so No reservations. And let me tell you, I hope people get the reference on what I just did there because if you're an Anthony Bourdain fan, you will know that his show that was called No Reservations, the guy in the beginning after this the music little thingy, the guy goes, no reservations or whatever like that. That's such a weird way to say it.
00:37:00
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it's It's just, you have to listen to it. But it just came up in my head and I was like, no resolution. i mean But I've been a big fan of Anthony Bourdain's for many years. yeah
Spiritual Practices for the New Year
00:37:14
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He was a hero of mine back in the day. No Reservations was one of my favorite shows because he's he is an amazing genius writer and he wrote all of the monologues for his show because he he would narrate them like you would hear him narrating like throughout the show in the background and uh genius writer just genius writer but i was thinking about resolutions and i was like no resolutions because resolutions suck they're stupid yeah
00:37:48
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anyway yeah i was gonna say like if you don't know if you don't know anthony bernain or no reservations you must look up that show and watch it it is so fucking good i'm so sorry he's dead now anyway fuck resolutions yeah but like the thought that i had because like action is always more difficult for me in the depths of winter when there's no sunlight, no like warmth, and everything is still and quiet and difficult. For me, this time of the year is better used for like the internal shifting rather than like making changes to what I'm doing. Yeah, yeah and so that's been on the forefront for me, and like I also kind of wanted to
00:38:44
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hopefully touch on witchy things to do in the new year just for you like spiritual hygiene or whatever. Like we've had a couple of our friends talk about like floor washes for like you know cleaning where there's like energetic you know intention being set and including that in you know part of your deep clean for the new year which you know that really intrigued me but also like tarot spreads like This is the first year, amazingly, that I have decided I'm gonna do a 12 month tarot spread. And I didn't have- I haven't done mine yet. Yeah, you gotta. It's time. But it's the first year that I've done it. And I'm like, I've been a tarot reader for what, five, six, seven years almost now? Holy shit, that's fucking crazy. That's a long time.
00:39:40
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And I've never until this year decided I'm going to sit down and do, cause I guess I just don't do a whole lot of readings for myself. I think that's probably it. And so I just sort of, I'm like, I don't need to do that. But I'm like, why not? Why the fuck not? You know? Yeah. And I did it. And then the, and then my January card was the three of swords. So like yikes. What does that mean? That's, that's disappointment and heartbreak and grief and like betrayal. Ew. I know.
00:40:09
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And I'm like, what do you mean? But we'll see. I'm going to pull, I'm also going to, you know, I decided I'm going to pull like spreads for just the month. So I'm going to do one for just January and see if I can get any insight into that. But it doesn't always mean, and one of our friends from the group was pointing this out to me, it's like, it doesn't always mean like brand a new things to have grief about, but like, you know, grief buttons from like the past can be pushed, you know? Yeah. Working through old griefs.
00:40:38
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Yeah. Or just like having it come up and just be like, Oh, gotta, you know, deal with this right now. Um, and then maybe the fact that we just brought up and talked about your, your bio dad, your, so your dad, like, you know, could be, you know, a part of it something you're going to be working through a little bit this month, you know, maybe. Yeah. Yeah. There's a lot of things, you know, take your pick. What are the things that I could be grieving about? the ah But like, you know,
00:41:05
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I can tell you for sure that February I pulled the Empress and then March I pulled the Magician, so I think I'm going to be okay. That's amazing. Love it. yeah Not to mention the oracle spread that I pulled. I pulled from the um postcards from the Luminal Space deck. As well as your tarot deck? The postcards from the Luminal Space deck was the of the oracle deck that I used for the middle of the spread.
00:41:35
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You know, I sent you the chart that I used. Yeah. um I didn't look real closely at it yet. Sorry. Yeah. So there's, uh, I mean, I didn't specify three, but I chose three oracle cards to go into the middle that are like the the message for the year. who And from the limo space deck, I pulled three cards. The first one was just yes. The second card is, uh, called the software update. Hmm.
00:42:05
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And the third card is where your treasure is, there will your heartbeat also. Yeah. And in the guidebook, they're, they were all pretty short descriptions in the guidebook, but the one for yes, just simply just said permission granted, not that you needed it, which was like so like sassy and wonderful. Um, and yeah, like it was all just very straightened to the point and like nothing remotely negative about it and so i'm like even if i've got some tough moments in the year like i do have i have the ten of swords in is that june yeah i think it's june um the ten of swords for june which is a challenging card for sure but like everything else is like really positive and it's like giving me a little bit of optimism because in spite of what else is going to be going on in the world and in the country
00:43:05
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this year. Like, that doesn't mean that it has to have such a negative impact on me. Right. I can still choose to be happy. Mm hmm. So, and I'm going to. And you you know, along those lines, if I can get out a straight sentence. No, get out gay sentences only.
00:43:32
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weird Oh my lord. Okay. I was hearing something, there's a YouTuber I listened to who brought up some stuff and which she had been channeling a couple of people who I will not name, but um that they, one of them had said, be careful. And she said, please explain what you mean by that. Please expand on that or whatever.
00:44:02
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And basically what they meant was take care of yourself, but also be careful. And then it was like, she talked about the chakras, right? And like, there's a crown chakra. I think there's one just above that too, isn't there? There's like the crown is the top of the head. And then there's another one, I think above that, but. Yeah, I don't remember what it's called, but I know it exists. Cause it's like third eye crown, something above.
00:44:31
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Yeah, like the spirit chakra or something like that. Yeah, I'll need to, I'll need to look into that. I cannot remember. But she was like, clear, your crown and or the top, tapest.
00:44:47
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but
00:44:50
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The highest above that one, whatever. Clear them because we are literally like beacons of light. We are like lighthouses and we need to make sure that that that those chakras are clear so that we are showing our light and like not letting the craziness and the evil in the world dim it. Yeah.
00:45:16
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so That is a big thing to me. And like, I want to do my research again. I know there are specific crystals. I could probably name them, but I don't want to be wrong. That clear energy, right? Obviously clear, clear quartz is just your basic one that can do pretty much anything you want it to do. Selenade is a good one for that too. That's what I was going to say. Selenade is one and I think potentially black kyanite, which is that stuff that looks like Game of Thrones. Oh yeah. It looks like, it looks like, no, no, it's called black kyanite and it's like a spray of like, it looks like shards and it's like a, it almost is shaped like an arrowhead. Right. Well, that's what I was going to say is, um, in Game of Thrones, they call it dragging glass. It's actually obsidian.
00:46:09
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No, that's not what it, I'm, I'm saying the look of Black Kyanite looks like the way that, hu game of thorns, game, God damn it. What is the name of the show? Game of Game of thorns, game of thrones. Game of thrones. It's like visibly looks similar to the chair on that, you know, cover okay or whatever. yeah That's all. and That's the only parallel I'm drawing.
00:46:37
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Yeah, that's the only parallel I'm drawing. okay um It's black kyanite. And I'm going to look up a picture of it, because I want to make sure you know what I'm talking about. Because I gave you one, and I don't know if you have it or even know where it is or anything. well It looks like a blade, but it's real jagged looking, right? yeah um And I gave you a piece of this, and I hope you have it, and I hope you can find it. But it it's somewhere.
00:47:06
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Apparently it is it clears energy, because I remember when I was telling you about using my Vogel, which is like a similar shape to a wand, a double-ended, double-terminated wand, but it's more pointy. um You use that, doesn't matter what the crystal is that it's made out of, but You use that to dig into like energy around your body. So like I was using it to like go into my shoulders because I was tense. I was digging with my Vogel into my energy fields around my body. And you have to like empty it out, like the energy that it collects. You have to touch it to a piece of wood or a piece of black cayonite, I believe, to clear the energy.
00:47:56
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so okay I think this shit is badass. Black Kyanite is amazing looking. So I want to try and see if I can come up with a little ritual to use Black Kyanite on myself, ah around my chakras, crown and above, to clear energy. And I probably will want to do that on a regular basis.
00:48:23
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But I need to probably clear all my fucking chakras to be honest. There are need work so many good cha achrier chakra clearing. We're both now you're doing it. Well, that frankly is a difficult set of words to say. So excuse me. oh But there's a lot of good chakra clearing meditations out there on like YouTube and stuff.
00:48:53
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Mm-hmm. So you will not have a hard time finding something that works for you. Sweet. Um, yeah. Something else too, with regards to like, witchiness and like, honestly, for me right now, it was purely, um, not consequential. Circumstantial. The way, the timing of this, like the way that this is happening. But like, I, on New Year's Day,
00:49:23
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um and this is me telling you Christina as well as me talking about it on the podcast because I have a chance to tell you about this but like on New Year's Day I was describing to one of my friends from Marco this weird instance last two years ago now in 2023 when I discovered a dried rose on the floor of my basement and like it was on the floor in the way where I would have had to deliberately step over it to get to the laundry machines. So I don't know where it came from because it certainly wasn't always there. ah But I like set it on a box. It kind of freaked me out because I was like, where where the fuck did this come from? I set it on a box still in the basement. And then at some point, Jim brought it up from the basement and put it in the like supply closet that I have.
00:50:19
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And I was showing our friend the rose and telling her like how it just randomly appeared that one day. And she hit me back with, have you ever worked with Aphrodite? And I was like, Oh, cause apparently roses just showing up somehow is one of the signs that she wants to talk to you. So was that something that was happening?
00:50:48
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around the time that the rose showed up, had you been working with her? I've never worked with Aphrodite. Oh, okay. But I think her point was, maybe this is a sign that you're meant to. ah And it blew me away because of the fact that I have been on such a very intense and harrowing and scary self-love journey for coming up on a year now. And she is the goddess of love and beauty and fertility and other things. But like, love and beauty are like the main associations that come to mind for me with her. Self love. Love in general, but self love is going to be the thing that I think she's showing up for, for me. So now it feels a little and that was, you know, yesterday, which
00:51:46
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you know, we're recording this on the second of January. So the first of January, the very beginning of the year, this was pointed out to me. And now I'm like, well, I think this might be a part of what I'm supposed to work on this year. And yes, it's, you know, circumstantial with the timing, but also is it? It might've, it might've been exactly the right timing. And so I'm like, left and right, I'm getting confirmation. I think I got to work with Aphrodite.
00:52:15
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That's awesome. Sounds awesome. Yeah. Do it! Woo! Yeah. I don't know if this is anything you want to include, but I think perhaps acknowledging what happened in New Orleans on New Year's Day. Huh?
Tragic Events and Spiritual Tools
00:52:34
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You don't know what happened in New Orleans on New Year's Day? No. Oh boy. Unless I heard something and didn't get the context or where it happened.
00:52:43
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um Well, it was like three o'clock in the morning while New Year's revelers were still out in the streets a Terrorist person drove his truck into a huge crowd of people and killed like I think it's up to 14 people now are dead and but Yeah, I'm surprised you didn't hear about that. I'm really sorry but there's still like probably close to 30 people that are still injured like being treated for injuries also and It's really fucking bad. It's really bad. Oh my god. There was also a another situation that happened in Las Vegas, which wasn't as devastating, but some dude apparently took his own life in the front of his cyber truck, parked in front of Trump Tower, and then blew up his truck. I like, okay, I saw
00:53:41
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memes about that. Yeah. But I didn't see any articles or anything about it. Like just simply memes, but not like ha ha funny memes, but like, I dunno, I'll, I'll have to like get into it later because like, that's fine. But it was like the same day. Basically this dude, they just said on the news earlier today,
00:54:06
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that they they the body had a gunshot wound to the head and there was a gun in the vehicle with him. So he did it to himself and he probably blew up his truck as a way of trying to like send a message or do damage to Trump Tower. I don't know. but um So yeah, there's things have happened already. It was like really horrible to wake up on New Year's morning. I mean, obviously I was up to like 1.30 that morning anyway, but went to bed, got up and John was watching the news and he was like, yeah, there's like, at that time there was only 10 people that were dead at the time, but now it's up to 14 because the injuries were so bad. Jesus Christ. Yeah. And the the guy was, um well,
00:54:54
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All the Republicans instantly look at his name and was like, see, it's a foreigner. See, it's an immigrant. See, blah, blah, blah. No, this motherfucker grew up in Texas. He was a resident and a US citizen and he'd been in the military. So fuck you Republicans for trying to say, it's an immigrant who did this, you know, trying to blame everything on them, but it was a fucking US citizen.
00:55:20
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And he apparently got, um, what do they call it when radicalized? Like he'd been recently been radicalized by Al Qaeda or something or ISIS. ISIS, I think. And he had like an ISIS flag or something like that on the back of his truck. And so he was definitely like being a terrorist for those organizations or one of them. But, um,
00:55:50
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He, apparently the authorities got him into a position where they were, he got cornered or something and they were shooting, he was shooting at them and they shot at him and they killed him. So he's dead. But all I wanted to do was, was say, cause I'm only explaining it to you now because you didn't know about it, but I just was going to say, you know, acknowledging the tragedy and like trying to send love and good vibes and stuff to the people down there.
00:56:19
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I got you. Okay. Yeah. You're right though. Like that's important to acknowledge. yeah So another thing that had come to my mind recently was alter spaces and refreshing it, renewing it for the coming year. um But a along the same lines as what I was talking about with ah taking care of yourself, being careful,
00:56:50
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clearing our clout crown. Oh god. So you're doing it now. Crown chakra and the other higher chakra. Yeah. So that our lights can shine and not let evil dim them. ah We can use our altar space as a way of reminding ourselves or having a setup where if you need to do a little bit of crown chakra work, you have things that are out and available and handy to use.
00:57:20
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if there are deities that you think can help with these things. So I don't know if there's like offerings that you can maybe put on your altar to honor specific deities or ancestors yeah or anybody that you think can help assist with you remembering to keep your light clear, your crown chakra clear. Totally. Take care of yourself in that way. And yeah I don't know.
00:57:51
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as those are some ideas. I need to figure out something too. Yeah and I mean like if you do have a designated ultra space like it's a great time you know as with like every change of seasons it's a great time to you know do a little decluttering or reset like clean it up but I think too like you made a good point when it came to like if you If there is stuff that you want to start doing in the spiritual ah train of thought, things that you want to be able to do every day. and like you but An altar is like the best way to like set yourself up for success with it. Where it's like, if you do want to do a meditation, like you know set up your space so you have your comfortable seat right in front of it.
00:58:42
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every day and you can just sit down and do it or if you want to to deliberately clear your chakras or work with a particular chakra like you have the particular crystals or tools that you have that you need out right there ready to use um so like in that way as with like any other aspect of your life like just setting yourself up for success is like perfect truly yep yeah yeah i love it i love that It makes me want to have, cause like I don't have a designated single space for where my altar is because it's everywhere. Like when I'm doing deliberate works, it's on my coffee table. Yeah. But like also so much of my practice and craft like gets interwoven into like my daily life anyway, to the point that it's like, my tools are everywhere.
00:59:39
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And I'm doing everything everywhere. And so my whole house is just witchy. Your kitchen is like your altar too. True. It's very true. Like it's, it'd be cool if I was a more organized person. If I didn't have ADHD, I think what would work the best for me is to just sort of like have an altar for every single room. who Yeah. Yeah. But I am not an organized person. alone Let alone have the best setup for that. Like they can just do whatever the fuck they want. I love it. I love it. I'm so jealous of that. Oh my God. Truly. Oh man. But yeah, it's good. Is there any thing that you have thought to yourself that you want to do, whether it's in the spiritual
01:00:37
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vain or otherwise, like not that I'm saying like resolutions, but like, you know, is there anything that you want to do more of, you know, this year to take care of yourself?
01:00:54
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Yeah,
Meditation and Self-Improvement Tools
01:00:55
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there's something I definitely want to start trying to focus on and spend more time doing is meditation for sure. Because just as we talked about last year, the I know how good it is for you to do. yeah And I need to start making it more of a priority in trying to do it every day, if possible. You got to use a superhuman app.
01:01:23
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Yes, yeah definitely. For sure. Yeah. So that's it. What about you? Well, I think that like doing the monthly spreads, in addition to the, you know, 12 month spread that I've already done, it's going to be one of those things where it's like, I do think I need to do readings more for myself than I have been. But Something that I acknowledged in that cleaning group that we're in that, and I think it was New Year's Eve when I acknowledged this, was I have decided that if I think of a tool or a technique. Oh, I know what you're talking about. Yes. I saw that. Something that will make my life easier
01:02:23
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And it's within a reasonable, affordable range. I am not going to hesitate any longer to just go ahead and get the thing or, you know, implement the technique or whatever, simply because my bully brain wants to tell me that I should be able to do the thing without that tool. Right. This, this realization brought to you by the cordless hand vacuum that I purchased after beating myself up for not liking and not wanting to sweep anywhere in my apartment. Holy fucking shit. Like that is, it's so mean of me to myself to say that I should be able to do something the hard way. Right. When like I have proven over and over again, no, I can't. Right. And nor should I have to just because I
01:03:22
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you know, just because other people can. So I'm not doing that anymore. And that's my, that's as close as I get to a resolution. Amen, sista. Be nice to myself. Yup. Give myself helping hands.
01:03:43
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Welcome to the new year. Yay. We're going to be okay. Oh, I know we're going to be okay. Not just you and me, but the collectively. I know, I know, I know that's what you meant. I mean the read the reader, the listener, if you need the reminder, we're going to be okay. It's late. It is late. It's time to bring this episode to a close. We love you guys. We are so grateful. It's really cool that we're still doing this and it's not been that long, but like we're going to do this.
01:04:22
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We're keeping this up. Oh, hell yeah, dude. I'm excited for our Anahana's 2025 episode already. Oh, shit. Yes. Maybe we should record on my birthday too. Yeah. That'd be fun. That'd be cool. But I loved recording afterward and talking about our experiences. That was so fun, and I can't wait to do it again. Yes. Oh, my god. It was fun.
01:04:52
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It was cool to have like the third person, yeah you know, as soon as you will buy your another guest if not going to be able to make it, which I'm not sure yet still if she's going to or not. She didn't think she would, but now she's not sure. But like, maybe we'll, maybe we'll find another guest to join us for our Anahata's recap for 2025.
01:05:15
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it's It's fucking 10 months away, but whatever.
01:05:21
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10 and a half months away. Jesus Christ. Well, in the meantime and between time, we'll be here busting up your ear holes with our shrieking laughter. um And we're glad that you're along for the ride. We hope you have a fun time with us this year.
01:05:45
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We don't know what's going to happen, but I think that makes it more fun. Yeah. We're super grateful for you as always for being around and listening to us. Yeah. We hope you have a beautiful day.