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37. POWER EPISODE WITH FALLON MANUEL - BREAKING THE CYCLES
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The only thing I can say about this episode is simply WOW! Such a powerful episode and I am honoured that Fallon came on today and shared her story. You are going to enjoy this one.
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Introduction and Special Guest Connection
00:00:00
Speaker
Welcome back to the podcast. I have a special guest on today. We got connected on the feel good challenge. And that's what I love about social media is because you don't know who you're going to meet. And let's just get Joanne a little shout out. That's your friend, right? Yes.
00:00:18
Speaker
So we have Fallon on the podcast today. We got connected. I went on our page. I related to a lot that she was saying. And I want to have a chat with you and share your story. But it's nice to meet you.
00:00:33
Speaker
It's nice to meet you too. And I really relate with what you're saying.
Joining Challenges and Overcoming Doubts
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Cause I almost didn't do the feel good challenge cause I'm in a couple other groups and I was like, Oh, it's a lot, but something I've been trying to lean into is like never saying no to an opportunity. Cause you never know who you're going to meet, who you're going to connect with. And now look at, here we are. Yeah. I love that. I love that. What other groups are you in?
00:00:56
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Um, I'm doing a couple other ones with, uh, my friend, Alyssa, she's doing like a kind of a similar one, like a feel happy one with like, um, working out and just positive affirmation, similar to what you, you are actually doing. That's why I was like, should I do this one? They're so similar, but there's so many different groups of people. And yeah, when I looked at your page and I saw what you're talking about, I was like, yeah, I'd love, I'd love to, why not connect with more people?
00:01:22
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Yeah, that's what I love about it. And honestly, I'm probably going to continue to do one like every single month just try to switch it up a little bit. But how are you? How was your day?
00:01:34
Speaker
It's been good, it's been good. Yeah, I'm super excited to be here. I almost, I was talking to my daughter, Chloe, she's 15. And going through a little bit in my personal life, and I was like, oh, you know, I'm not in the best mindset, like, maybe I should reschedule. And she's like, don't do it, mom, don't do it, mom. She's like, just do it. And then I thought, you know, maybe I'm self-sabotaging, because I have the tendency to do that, where I get like imposter syndrome,
00:02:02
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Like, who am I even? Like, why? What do I even have to say type of thing? But yeah, she pushed me to stay committed. So I'll give a thanks to her and yeah.
00:02:12
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Shout out to the daughter. Shout out to the daughter. I definitely relate to what you're saying because I'm actually the same. You know, I recently tried to do like a boot camp and I was always like thinking about it in my mind and I was like, I can't do that. Who the fuck am I to do this, right? And I'd like talk myself out of it. And then when you just go to do it, everything's fine. Like it's totally fine. So.
00:02:35
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I get it. And then you're like, wow, I hesitated to doing that so long. And as soon as you do it, you're like, oh, I should have done that sooner.
00:02:44
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Yeah, yeah, you just honestly you really just gotta just do it and stop like we obviously we beat ourselves up in our mind so much and we like tell ourselves these stories and we like just don't like you really when you just start believing in yourself and you get your confidence off and you really truly believe that like I can fucking do anything like you said like you've been saying yes to a lot of things and
00:03:08
Speaker
You just got to go out and do it. And you don't know who you're going to connect to it. You don't know what kind of opportunity is going to unfold. But if you're like sitting at home, just telling yourself, fuck me, like I, you know what I mean? Yeah.
00:03:21
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That was one thing my dad did really well. His name's Adam too, funnily enough. Adam and Adam and Fallon, that's pretty funny. He's really good at making me believe in myself since I was little. He'd always say, top of the gene pool, top of the gene pool. I feel like as a parent,
00:03:42
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It's so important to instill that in your kids because if you believe in yourself, it doesn't matter like how many obstacles you have to face. You, you know, you have that belief in yourself that
Parenting and Generational Growth
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you got this. Yeah. Keep getting up. Yeah. Yeah. You really gotta, you really gotta show up for your daughter too.
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And I'm not a parent, I don't know, but I feel like if you're mentally not well, that would definitely rub off onto your kids, right? Am I right by saying that?
00:04:14
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hundred percent, they get whatever version of you, wherever you are in your mind. But I swear she's like, God sent her to save me because I had her when I was 17. And she's just such a wise person. Like just even for her age, she's so wise, the things that she says all the time, like giving me the best life advice, something that she'll always say is, Mom, it's happening, but it's happening on another timeline. We just have to get there.
00:04:46
Speaker
She's way beyond her time. It's crazy. My mom actually had my sister when she was, I think, 16 or 17 as well. She was super young. She's only 53. I think she had me when I was 23. I just can't imagine having a child at that age. You probably just got to grow up so fast.
00:05:13
Speaker
Well, I said to her, cause you turned 15. I said to her, um, on her birthday, I was like, I've had you half of my life, half of my life without you. I was her age. And then, so she is part of me. I said, we literally have grown up together. Who I am is because of her and the things we face together. It was really us growing up together, which is a crazy experience. I had a lot of help luckily from like,
00:05:40
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family. Um, I, I can't imagine having a kid now, like a baby. You know what I mean? Like, cause I had her and she's like, basically can, she has a job now. She got her first job. So, um, I can't imagine having like people who have babies now. I'm like, Oh, scary.
00:06:00
Speaker
Yeah, I'm not quite there yet, but I don't know. We'll see. So I want to jump into some stuff because I did relate to a lot of your posts that you were posting on Instagram.
00:06:15
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It's just because I like catch myself doing the same things too. So the one post you said that you were taking new tropics and you were finding that you were kind of reacting differently to certain situations and you're having these like aha moments. What kind of new tropics are you taking?
00:06:36
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I take microdose, but usually it's in a ceremony setting or out in nature. But the biggest impacts that I've had is I was introduced to ceremonies about two years ago. And that's where I really felt the biggest growth in my emotional health and mental health.
Healing through Plant Medicine Ceremonies
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And it's basically just a group of whoever comes
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And then I started with my friend Jen and then Sarah, she started doing them. I brought my whole family to one. My dad had like a house fire in June and there's been some long stemming addiction in our family. They nearly passed away in a house fire due to it. That's definitely a really deep story. We'll maybe scratch on that in a little bit.
00:07:30
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What are these ceremonies that you're talking about? Do you have to go to somebody or do you run in yourself? Because I've never personally been to one.
00:07:40
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So I don't run them myself, but I was really good at bringing people to them. So I met one girl, Ksenia. She has a huge, like beautiful studio, like a sunroof studio. She can fit about like 15 people in there. So the last one, we did the last three there with my friend, Sarah. So Sarah brings like Sage and she smudges the house and kind of makes the energy clean. And then we'll do different things. It's like a four hour, four hour ceremony.
00:08:09
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It starts off with kind of what your intentions are, what you're hoping to get from the medicines, like the plant medicines. We'll do like cacao with the micro dose. Um, and it's a little bit more than a micro dose. Like sometimes it's like 0.5 or 0.75 or even a gram, just because we want to get like the full, full experience. Um, and then she'll do, have you ever heard of like sound bowls? Yes.
00:08:36
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I also want to point out too, I like how you said plant medicine, because not many people say that. But go ahead. It is medicine. Yeah, yeah.
00:08:46
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And she'll use her bowls, she has like thousands of dollars of bowls and each bowl is a different chakra. So she'll play the bowls for us and we're like really just like get into a good head space. And then she plays like, she was trained by like an indigenous woman. So she's actually like trauma therapy, addiction therapy has all these certifications.
00:09:13
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So I feel like it's a safe person to perform. I wouldn't just do this with anyone. And she does like with drums. Part of it is like with drums, it's like an indigenous thing where she'll come and she'll like beat the drum over you. And when every time she does it to me, I literally will cry. Like you have such an emotional release because you just like feel the drum like pounding with your heart. And I feel like the plant medicine really allows you to like get out of your
00:09:42
Speaker
your human brain, if that makes sense, and more into your soul, more into your divine, higher power. You're able to connect with the part of yourself that the world has kind of shut you out from. We've been taught and programmed into being who we are and to loving things instead of people and using people instead of things.
00:10:08
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and yeah it's it's really intense but like everyone like cries so we're like crying and releasing and i've like
00:10:18
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I felt like I had a conversation with different ancestors, not like a conversation, but different waves of things come to your mind when you're in plant medicine and you're able to let things go. I feel like I've healed a lot and been able to let go of a lot of childhood traumas and even traumas in my adult life. You feel like a brand new person. It's like you heal on such a soul level.
00:10:48
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Um, like a cellular level, like you're like a new person from it. It's like the most healing thing that I've ever done. It's everyone needs to do one in my opinion. You just gave me cold shivers. So that if you're going to last, like, I'm like, I gotta go to one of these fucking things. That was amazing. Honestly.
00:11:07
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That was great. So think of like your own ceremonies that you do, right? So like, I like, I would love to do something like that. And I feel like I'm going to look into that. Like, I don't know if, if there's anything like that here in Newfoundland, I'll have to look into it. But like, I just kind of like sit at home and like, I'll do like a larger dose and kind of just like, let it happen. You know what I mean? And just like, I always find it's like you're,
00:11:36
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You start out laughing, like when I say like a large dose, I do like a large, large dose. But I do find every time I do a larger dose, it's like,
00:11:47
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I learn some sort of lesson and it forces me to deal with my shit and I always come out of it the next day being like, fuck, yep, that's why that happened, you know what I mean? It just gives you that clarity but I feel like your way that you do seems like a more
00:12:07
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I don't know. It sounds cool. It sounds cool. I want to do it. Yeah. It's seriously so good. Um, cause it's like what you do with yourself, but like you're doing it like in a group and you're all, and I brought my whole entire family. Like I brought my daughter, my dad, my mom, my stepmom. We all did it together. And it was just, it felt like we like broke a lot of like generational.
00:12:29
Speaker
Stuff that is really that is amazing that is honestly fucking amazing like i would i would love to be able to do that with my family right because it's just yeah like people don't realize like that the second that they hear mushrooms like most people are just like oh
00:12:44
Speaker
You know like but they like they don't know like this stuff is healing and I in your post you said you had like a ha ha moment and I found that ever since I have been micro dosing and whatnot I've had a lot of those and it's it's like it always like
00:13:02
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I always look back on my past and be like, oh, I'm like, shit, like that. That's why I was doing that. And like, it's you just you're constantly like changing and learning more about yourself and like discovering yourself and healing. It's the healing era.
00:13:18
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I have a really bad habit with like, if I don't have all and there's a really good book that explain this, it's called unwinding anxiety. And I for the longest time didn't understand and I just thought I was crazy or something. But if I don't have all the information and it says in the book, this is written by like a psychologist that this happens. So if you your brain doesn't have all the information and you had childhood trauma or abandonment or whatever it may be.
00:13:48
Speaker
that your prefrontal cortex actually stores all these memories of the bad things that have happened in a similar situation. So if you're given information like you don't know where someone is or you're supposed to pick someone up at a certain time and they're not there or you haven't heard from someone, whatever, your brain starts to try to protect you and it starts shh.
00:14:11
Speaker
This could happen. This could happen. This could happen. This can happen. And I don't know if you do this or maybe not, but it's like you kind of start to believe those negative stories. Like it's already happened, but it's not happening.
Mindset Shifts and Self-Healing
00:14:24
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And then you just go down the like spiraling. And I find like when you microdosing, it's like you don't. That doesn't happen.
00:14:32
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Yes, yes. I definitely definitely relate to that for sure because like the atom that I am right now is not the atom that I was before and like I like at the time before I started microdosing like I literally didn't
00:14:47
Speaker
believe i had any issues and but i was like so jealous and relationships like that for me that sticks out a lot i used to be super jealous and i create the stories in my head that weren't even fucking true and then i would start to believe it and then i would like build up resentment towards that that person like none of it is true it's just shit i was just like building up in my head right so i was just literally sabotaging my relationships but like when the relationship would end not my fault stare far
00:15:12
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You know what I mean? And then I started like doing mushroom plant medicine, microdosing. And now I look back on all those relationships, I'm like,
00:15:20
Speaker
Well, fuck, I'm like, if I was like the way I am right now, you know, maybe, well, I'm not gonna say I would still be with those people because I don't, you get what I'm saying, right? But it's just like, and even like friendships, like arguments with family members, like it was, it would all stem from me. And I like, I just never would do the work. And now I'm doing the work and I'm like, well, fuck, I'm the creator of all my bullshit.
00:15:49
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You know, if I just fucking handle my own shit and I keep putting that good energy out there, I'm not going to get any shit in return. Yeah. Radical ownership. Sorry. I have a long healing journey. I feel like life is just finding, discovering new parts of yourself that need healing, like forever.
00:16:13
Speaker
Yeah, yeah, I made this post today talking about like a lot of there's a lot of people I'm after talking to people before and they were literally say like I'm broken like there's nothing out there that's gonna help me like I've tried everything and they just like they convinced themselves that they're broken and they're like that's what they believe and they're just stuck in their shit and they're never gonna change.
00:16:35
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But like, once you learn to like shift that mindset to like, okay, I do have problems, but like, I gotta, I gotta work on myself and I will get better and I will heal and like, you know what I mean?
00:16:45
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It's all about that voice up here in your head. It likes the voice. It's loud. Be listening to something while I'm like cleaning or whatever. Like my, if I'm not like listening to something positive, that voice still, it gets loud. That, that voice of doubt or fear, you're not good enough. And it's just always scattering.
00:17:07
Speaker
Yeah. Yeah. There's a really good, um, episode by Mel Robbins where she talks about like the rectangular activating system. Okay. I'll have to check it out.
00:17:19
Speaker
Yeah, so it says whatever you're thinking about, it's called your reticular activating system and your mind searches for confirmation. So if you think, oh, I suck, or I'm not good at something, or whatever it is that you're thinking about, your mind is constantly looking for confirmation to prove that that thought is right.
00:17:43
Speaker
So yeah, if you think you're shitty, you're just always going to be saying, oh, I knew it. See, I knew it. That's why that happened because it's a really good video. You should watch it. I love it. It's so good. You'll have to send it to me. I just want to say, too, I don't know if this has been in your mind or not, but you should do your own podcast because I'm learning just from sitting here talking
Future Plans and Personal Achievements
00:18:04
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to you. And you have a lot to say. And you seem like you're very knowledgeable. And you got the mic. I do.
00:18:11
Speaker
Have you ever thought of it? Honestly, do you know what's so funny is like one of my goals for this year is to like start a podcast. And I've been talking to my family like I would I would be like, oh, this would be such a good podcast episode. You know, when you get in really good conversations with people who have put up your phone and start recording. Yeah.
00:18:34
Speaker
And I have I got all the equipment and I've been talking about it and I actually have a name for it and like what it's about and everything. So I wanted to call it like hey stigma and then talk about really dark things that we don't like to talk about. And we keep hitting and we just like show our highlight reel. So like what's actually behind the highlight reel. I think I think there's a great fucking idea. Yeah, honestly, honestly with you.
00:19:03
Speaker
Yeah, like it's the universe is the universe like it was meant to be you're meant to come on this podcast. And I feel like this is gonna just propel you into starting your own, right? Like, I want it like basically, I used to do these like talking videos on Instagram. And like some of them were starting to get really long. And I was like, I could just do a podcast, like I got a lot to say, right? But then I beat myself up about it. And I was like, No, no one's gonna fucking listen to it. Like, whatever, you know what I mean?
00:19:29
Speaker
And then I started doing it and I was like, the first few episodes were wanky. I was just like, fucky, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. I'm pretty sure my second episode, I was making fun of myself because I said fuck so much in the first episode. But you just get better at it. The more you continue to do these talking videos and the podcasting, the better you get at it. It's just like anything. I think you should keep your eyes on the prize and start it because that's a great idea.
00:19:58
Speaker
I love that. And I feel like I was so nervous and I was like, Oh, I'll do it later. I'll do it later. And then you invited me on yours as like, this is going to show me how comfortable it could be to just have like a cool conversation. It's chill, right? Yeah. Yeah. We're just talking, talking shit.
00:20:16
Speaker
Yeah, no, it's easy to talk to like a like minded person who has some beliefs and you're just kind of bouncing energy off each other. Yeah, like I, I do a lot of episodes by myself. But like, I really like I told myself this year, like I really want to get a lot of guests on. And as soon as I seen your videos, like I got to get her on.
00:20:37
Speaker
Got to get her talking about it. So here we are. I've seen another video that you've done talking about prescription medication and how the negative benefits was kind of outweighing the positive benefits. And it used to make you super irritable and stuff like that. You want to dive into that? Yeah, definitely. So prior to me getting sober, so I haven't drank alcohol in over four years as of December.
00:21:07
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That's crazy. Yeah. It's, it's gotten easier. I don't even think about it anymore, but I was back then I was taking, I was taking, um, like Vyvanse in the morning to kind of pep me up and I'm in sales. So, you know, it makes me really sharp. It makes me work harder, longer, faster. It's like a limitless pill, right? Like it was really nice, but at like three o'clock you start to get that, like you're literally coming down off of drugs. Like it,
00:21:36
Speaker
pharmaceutical they're just better at making drugs you know i mean like i'm coming down off that and then around like five o'clock i'd get home and then i'd drink and mixing the two is just awful
00:21:52
Speaker
Then I got into a relationship where it was really, really toxic. And I didn't realize how bad my drinking was until I was like on the other end of someone else who behaved as wildly and erratically as I did. And until I saw how I was to people, I was like, oh, wow, that's like a lot worse because sometimes I'd blackout and whatnot. And like, you don't really remember like, oh, sorry, that was crazy, crazy night, right?
00:22:19
Speaker
Right? And you don't remember, so you don't even realize the facts that you've had on people. And yeah, so...
00:22:27
Speaker
I stopped drinking and then I stopped taking prescription drugs as well because there's a long history of addiction in my family. Like my dad has had opioids addictions. He is now six months sober, went to rehab and all that kind of stuff. But my family, our bloodline, it's just like, we don't know how to just have one. It's, it's like,
00:22:56
Speaker
one is never enough. So when I was taking the prescriptions, I was just in a really, really stressful place last year. And I was like, okay, my friend had started taking medication, she did my eyelashes. And she was telling me, oh, I get so much more done now and da da da and just like kind of like being a bug in my ear of like how great it was. And I was like, maybe I'll just take it again for for a little bit. So last year around this time, I started taking it and it was really good at first
00:23:25
Speaker
really focused, getting things done, but I was so irritable and so snappy at my family. I can't even explain really how it feels like. If you've ever come off of a hard drug, it's literally like coming down off a hard drug, but every single day, and I was just really irritable.
00:23:45
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really snappy and I was like, okay, the way my body felt too, it's like you have this tension in your shoulders and a headache. It's such a terrible feeling. Me and my boyfriend ended up actually breaking up because my dad had a house fire
00:24:05
Speaker
almost died from using my stepmom and him. And then I was just in a crazy place because I was taking medication and I was trying to deal with that and we ended up breaking up. He ended up relapsing. He's also sober a year minus the slip when my dad had those issues. Oh, I'm getting anxiety talking about this because I've never really talked about it.
00:24:29
Speaker
to the world and I've kind of not talked about it because I'm like, what will people say? Will they judge me? Cause I have a pretty professional job. Um, but whatever, if people want to judge me, then I'd rather, if I can help one person, that's, that'll be more important to me than, than being judged. And if you're judging, why? That's a powerful story. Thank you for sure.
00:24:58
Speaker
Well, we're on the surface of it, but I have two episodes. One's called tripping in the badlands and then the house is tripping in the house fire. So we'll save those two episodes to dive deeper into those. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Um, man, can I, can I ask, um, what is via vans for? Cause I actually, I actually don't know.
00:25:26
Speaker
So Vyvanse is for ADHD. So there's concerta, Vyvanse, dextrogen, Adderall. They're all under the same medication umbrella. And so you've got off of those to switch. Did you come off of those and go straight to microdosing? Were you off of them for a while?
00:25:48
Speaker
Yeah, I was actually, I did a ceremony and then in the ceremony, it like came to me that I needed to stop taking, it was in June. Yeah, I did the ceremony and it was just like, what's more important? Like me and my boyfriend were broken up at the time and it was a constant issue with us, how I was so reactive and yeah, we were broken up. I was at the ceremony and I was like, I don't wanna lose my relationship or be this way to my family or friends or anyone.
00:26:18
Speaker
I want to heal and I was in the ceremony and so yeah after that just I just decided to stop and yeah when I decide I don't want to do something anymore it's pretty easy for me to quit.
00:26:31
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I do believe that you have a purpose because all the things that you went through, there's probably a lot of people that go through the same type of things and they never ever do speak out about it and they think that they're alone and you just sharing your story, there's gonna be so many people that's like, man, I relate to what she's saying. Fuck, if she got out of it, I can too, you know what I mean?
00:26:59
Speaker
I hope so. When I finally started to like start healing and whatever that's all I've been doing on my Instagram is just really talking about like all of my issues that I used to have and just kind of like being like this is how I got like I got over like this is what I've done and like I do feel like because I'm always sharing my personal stories that most people don't share
00:27:25
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I am like changing people's lives and that's exactly why I started this podcast because like I've got so many messages from people like over a year just being like man like I listened to that one video related to what you're saying is like because of you like so motivating you know what I mean so I just yeah thank you for sharing that and I think I think you're gonna change a lot of people's lives
00:27:49
Speaker
Those are such beautiful words to hear because I honestly, I feel like my dad, he wants, we've been joking around for the past little bit about like podcasting and whatnot, but like having it like the real Addams family and he wants to get like the tune like branded to him and like have it. You can get him on too. That'd be great.
00:28:15
Speaker
journaling and he, um, his is like, what is it? He calls it, um, the ramblings of a, an ex heroin addict or something. He calls it, it's something really clever and he is so good with his words. And I was like, he messaged me. He's like, good morning, podcaster. He calls me his high priestess. Like he used to call me princess and now he calls me his high priestess. That's so cute.
00:28:38
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Yeah, yeah, I didn't have him for a long time because he was heavily into like opioids like I went there on my birthday in April and he usually sometimes you forget would forget to call but this time I called and he wasn't answering so we're like, there must be something wrong and we went there and
00:28:56
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They're active in it.
Family's Sobriety Journey and Conclusion
00:28:58
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And I haven't had my dad for a really, really long time because he was lost in addiction. But now he's like doing street ministry. And, you know, like he started this thing called Team Brotherhood, where he's getting other people just like involved. And he's yeah, he's.
00:29:17
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He's going to do a lot of good things too. I feel our family, like all the trauma, all the addiction, all the obstacles is meant to tell our stories and be like, hey, you can change. You can save yourself. And it started with myself.
00:29:35
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And I've created a ripple effect, like I'm sober, my dad's sober, my stepmom's sober, my boyfriend's sober, my friend Caitlin now, she's coming up on nine months sober. So it's like just these little ripple effects of being in people's lives and showing them.
00:29:54
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you can be so much happier than whatever you're chasing in the end of that bottle or in a pill or whatever, right? And use the plant medicines, it will save you.
00:30:09
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Let's go. Let's go. Man, I believe it too. Like I've found that since I've started microdosing, I've actually like I'm drinking a lot less. Like I used to be type of guy that would be down to the bar four nights a week while I'm working there till like two, three o'clock in the morning and then going to work just hungover as fuck, like throwing up in the bathroom. Like, like what the fuck was I doing? You know what I mean? Like it was all fun and games when you're doing it. But like now I'm like,
00:30:39
Speaker
What the fuck, right? It's almost like an escape, but...
00:30:44
Speaker
Alcohol brings like, as much as I love it, I wouldn't say love it because I always fucking hate it the next day, but as much as it's fun, it's like every time I do it now, I'm like, this is why I don't drink. This is why I don't drink. And I feel like I'm just on that like trajectory to not drinking, right? And the mushrooms are just, you could sit down on a Friday night and like take a gram of mushrooms and have the best time of your fricking life. And actually like,
00:31:12
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put your phone down and talk and like go deep into those conversations and talk for hours and like literally and just enjoy yourself and wake up the next morning and you're feeling fine and everything's there's no hangover. You know what I mean? So the world like I live in have a good micro dose. What's that? Like do a micro dose and then do a podcast.
00:31:34
Speaker
Yeah. Yeah, that would definitely be fun. I actually, that's funny enough to say that I did a podcast with a girl, Steph, and she was like, why don't we take like a little bit, a little bit of a larger dose. And anyways, I done it.
00:31:50
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I was like, I took way too much. It was not a micro dose. And I was like, I was stumbling over my words and shit. So I don't know if that's the best idea. I actually, I actually did it. Sorry. I got to say this too, but I did this this comedian here in town. He was like, why don't you come over and take some mushrooms and do a podcast together and like.
00:32:11
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I was there for almost I think like six hours and we were just going on and on and on and like there was times like I couldn't even talk it's a lot of fun but there's a lot of editing to do as well you know when you're actually like on you can just get to the point you know but
00:32:30
Speaker
Yeah, yeah, having those like revelations and whatnot. But sometimes when you have an agenda, it like takes you out of the place that you're trying to go, if that makes sense. Yeah, yeah, I feel you.
00:32:43
Speaker
I think that this episode was honestly great. And I like, I got a lot more questions, but like, I feel like this is a good time to just end it because like, I honestly, I'm going to say, I think this is probably going to be my best episode to date. Like you said a lot of good things and I feel like there's going to be a lot of people that like, I'm pumped to get this out and fucking amp it up. Um, yeah.
00:33:10
Speaker
literally touches me so much. That makes me feel so good because I feel like this conversation has been super valuable. Exciting thing. I don't want to overdo it. I don't want to overdo it. I think we're at 33 minutes right now. We'll stop it there. If you want to tell the people where they can reach you, maybe talk about the podcast that you're going to be doing. No, but yeah, let them know.
00:33:38
Speaker
Sure, my Instagram is heyitsfallen. You can go to Adam's page if you have them and find me. I'm definitely going to hopefully have more conversations like this even hopefully with Adam on my own podcast, Hey Stigma, where we talk about the darker side of what's going on inside and get comfortable having uncomfortable conversations.
00:34:00
Speaker
Hey, let's go. Anyways, I really thank you for showing up today, telling your story. I really appreciate it. And you have yourself a good day. You too. Looking forward to more good conversations. See you later, people.