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E13: The One Year Mark
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In this episode - a year since our dad’s initial accident - we reflect on what has for sure been our most challenging 365 days ever. We check in with one an other, check in on our minds and our bodies, and tangent… a lot. Looking back on this journey so far, it’s still difficult to process that any of this is happening. We are forever grateful for our family and friends, humor (both light and dark), the team that has been caring for our dad, and this outlet that has helped us so much.
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Transcript
Sunday Reflections: Casual and Comfortable
00:00:04
Speaker
Back in the stew. Back in the stew. Sunday in the stew. Feels right. Just feels right. Where we should be. Sunday in the stew. S-S. Sunday in the stew, not looking our best, but... i mean... This might be our worst.
00:00:16
Speaker
It's not. No, we've looked worse. The hat and headband combo is just like, woof. But we've kind of been, the headbands have been making like a big appearance in all of our last. Yeah. Well, you wear them a People have commented. They're like, oh, so you guys just wear matching headbands? Yeah.
00:00:29
Speaker
I'm like, I hope that's not what you're getting. it's just Sunday and my hair's dirty. Right. No, it's just like, I don't smell good. um in In this realm of not showering. Yeah. It's still
Anniversaries and Emotional Reflections
00:00:38
Speaker
going on. um Anyway, so yesterday marked the one year anniversary anniversary seems like a celebratory word but anyway the one it's been exactly a year since our dad's car accident so yeah emotions feelings like what did you were you thinking about it all weekend like what was your sort of navigation around um so i don't know if i would have known
00:01:03
Speaker
like the date personally but I knew because it was a friend of mine's birth my friend of mine's birthday and I was with her when it happened and I to like leave youth a year ago so that sort of was on my mind and I also think I but wasn't like I wasn't I didn't think that it was the anniversary whatever the fuck um until I like thought until like that came into fruition and I was like, oh, that kind of makes sense.
00:01:30
Speaker
Like I definitely felt it in my body a lot and like was having like a pretty down week. And I think, don't know, like we, like mom and like texted me and like I texted you a little bit too, just about that. And I think it's a little eerie in in my opinion Yeah, I think that's all right. I think feeling it
Emotional Impact of Anniversaries
00:01:47
Speaker
in your body is so true. like i just, I had like, I mean, I don't think this is related, but i had like crazy headaches this past week. I just felt like really off.
00:01:55
Speaker
I felt very off too. Yeah. And I think, I mean, that's not like a foreign feeling. I think we felt that way on and off for a while, but it's just interesting to like, there are now so many dates. I feel like it's like, okay, here was the date of the accident. Here's the date that he got diagnosed. Here's the date of first treatment, stuff like that.
00:02:13
Speaker
This one in my head though, it really just sticks out because it's like, after this happened, like everything really changed. yeah Like even, the even if it hadn't been brain cancer, if it had been something else, like it was just the first moment that I was like, okay, something really bad just happened. And like, we're going to have Like this is just going to forever alter the course of what's happening next.
00:02:34
Speaker
So that's but that's a weird thing I think to grapple with. I don't know like exactly how I've been feeling about it or coping with it, but it just, it's been interesting to think about like, okay, Because I do feel like for the last year, it's like, oh, one year a day, it was my bridal shower. year ago today, it was- Yeah, especially with all your milestones. Yeah, it was blah, blah, blah. And now it's sort of like, okay, we've now spent an entire 365 days.
Life Before and After the Accident
00:02:57
Speaker
Dang. Sorry. 365 days like with this as an all-present, constant, just thing in our brain and in our lives. Yeah, cloud. Yeah. Yeah, I think that's really well said. i also just like, it kind of bugs me out that like, I think about times before then and I'm like, whoa.
00:03:17
Speaker
Yeah. Like the life pre-accident, pre-everything, I feel like we've been living it for so long and now there's like, don't know, there's tangibly like the year anniversary of it, whatever.
00:03:28
Speaker
So that's just like a little bit of like, a mind-boggle to me. It's no longer a new thing. Yeah, not. Like, this is now something that, like... This is just life. Yeah.
00:03:39
Speaker
Like, I think we were sort of forever branded by this last year. Yeah. Which is interesting to think about. Like, I... When I realized, I was, like, joking to one of my friends and i was like, oh, that's funny, like, 365 days ago, like, marked the worst
Adapting to New Norms
00:03:51
Speaker
year of my life. And they all were like,
00:03:53
Speaker
felt like a little awkward because I mean it awkward yeah but it's just really interesting like I do feel like it's been longer than that sometimes but I also don't and I can't like I'll see like snapchat memories or like things from like obviously this time but then even like five years ago today like the one I sent you like us home making cookies with mom like for Easter five years ago today like I'm just like that feels like dystopian almost like yeah like I don't know I feel like I've been spending more no it was definitely simpler I feel like I've been spending more time this weekend thinking about just the last year and everything part of the time I've been spending is like almost mourning the like our lives yeah before this was going on because it just like you said it did feel so simple it felt really easy like there were obviously good and bad things that were happening throughout the way but nothing felt as
00:04:45
Speaker
huge significant like life-changing as this so it's it's interesting to like mourn for almost the um I can't think of the right word just like the arrogance um or no no no sorry ignorance ignorance yeah it's yes that's what I'm looking for just the ignorance of the of our lives up until this point and yeah oh we were sweating the small stuff and freaking out about things that we probably didn't need to expend our energy on and now it's like I don't know about you, but my personal my whole perspective on just like where I'm putting energy, how I'm thinking about things, what I'm doing day to day has changed drastically. 100%. Yeah. Last year.
00:05:23
Speaker
No, I completely agree. And I just, don't know. It's weird to think about it. Cause do you feel like it's been more than a year or less? Cause I like say both. I think it depends on the day. yeah Like there are days when I wake up and I have a full, like, I don't know, 60 seconds. And then i'm like, Oh right. My dad has brain cancer. Yeah. Like,
00:05:43
Speaker
and That sometimes ah it's not hard to remember because I am thinking about it all the time. It's hard to remember life before. agree. I feel like it feels like lifetimes ago. Yes. It's hard to remember life before. But I also like, I don't think I've grasped this enough to ever feel like we've been dealing with it for so long that it feels normal. It doesn't feel normal. Does that make Yes. And I 100% agree. It doesn't feel normal.
00:06:06
Speaker
I don't think it's something I'm used to yet. Like it's still
Coping Mechanisms and Humor
00:06:09
Speaker
sort of shocking. Yeah. And I don't think I'll ever not feel that way. But like, ah what is the word that I'm trying say? It's like, it doesn't feel, it feels fake still to me a little bit. Less so than it has.
00:06:23
Speaker
Like, ah yeah I don't know. i guess it's a little more real now. But i've really struggle to think about life pre-BBC before brain cancer. BBC.
00:06:34
Speaker
Like BCE. Oh, I got it Like news channel? Come on. Yeah, the news channel.
00:06:42
Speaker
Anyway. um We can probably get that. No, let's keep it. okay Okay. But yeah, no, I think it's weird. And I definitely, i had a pretty like bad week, to be honest.
00:06:53
Speaker
More in the beginning of the week. Well, let's dissect that because we didn't talk all week, which was so weird. i Maybe that's why I had such a bad week. I'm sorry. i was traveling. No, I, I, I actually, yeah, I don't know how to describe this.
00:07:06
Speaker
I had like a little, ah like not very needed, like breakdown cry situation on Tuesday that initiated. Yeah. I like sent you a picture of me crying. Of course, obviously you talked about this. felt like just, I don't know. it was like accumulation of things and like stress and unknown and like figuring out what I'm doing this summer and things like that. And it all just sort of like bubbled over. Came to a head.
00:07:32
Speaker
Yes. There was a cherry on top and it was, Our sweet mother was ah on the other side of the phone while I was whelaying. So. Yeah. But it happens. Like, it totally happens. And I think, like, we're in tune with our feelings and emotions, but I think there's so much subconscious that comes up when you hit an anniversary like this.
00:07:49
Speaker
Yeah. I physically felt that. Yeah. Like, I was traveling and I was in l LA for work, which was good because it's a distraction, bad because I feel like I need to be, like, really on my game and I don't feel like I was. Yeah.
00:08:01
Speaker
I'm sure you are more than you think. I hope so. but it yeah But um I also got to see Lucy, which was amazing. yeah And just so nice to like see. if And we didn't talk about it, really. like She was like, oh, how's dad doing? Because we just see him more than she does. So I gave her like honest answer.
00:08:16
Speaker
um But it was really just good to like see her. We hadn't seen her in a really long time. so Yeah, it's been a while. I know I'm jealous. i think that But we're planning our trip together, the three of us.
00:08:29
Speaker
To Austin. Yeah. Is she down? Oh, she's like wants to plan it. Yeah. She's really excited. Yeah. Okay. Great. You guys can plan out about that. What? No. What? No. She can plan it. Thanks, Liz. But no, I think that, yeah, I'm excited. I also, I want to go visit her this summer too when I have time.
00:08:47
Speaker
But I know I definitely was like, I was jealous that you guys were together. like Yeah. Because that's nice to have that touch of family a little bit. um But I also think I had really fun this weekend because had lot of plans going on, so i was very distracted. And I think I'm grateful for that because the distractions worked in my favor, for sure. Like, the week was harder for me.
00:09:08
Speaker
Yeah. don't know. That's sort of typical. Yeah. It's up and down. I mean, we're yin-ing and yang-ing. Like, my week was fine. Yeah. We are yin-ing and yang-ing. Per usual. Per usual. Yeah. I think it's just a little bit of a whirlwind. We're going home next weekend, so that'll be fun.
00:09:24
Speaker
Yes. I feel like it's needed. I feel like haven't seen our family. Well, it's been like three and a half weeks, which is longer or will be three and a half, which is longer than usually go. Yeah. I feel like it's like we're in a long distance relationship. It does feel that way. I'm like, oh, I didn't FaceTime him. Are they thinking about me? Do they care about me? No, seriously. No, same. Wait, what's the three week rule?
00:09:43
Speaker
It's like a thing when like long distance since we're like, you're That's like ideally the time that you won't like see each other. Every three weeks. like meant Like the longest time between. Like a month is too long. Two weeks is ideal, but it's like, real that's not that realistic.
00:09:55
Speaker
Yeah. It's not like a rule, but I just feel like I know a lot of people that did that. But try to keep it to three weeks. I think, yeah, I think Will and I. I think you that. Did I make it up? Maybe. I think, I'm such a genius. I can remember my own wisdom.
00:10:08
Speaker
um I can't, I think Will and I did that, I think.
Family Dynamics and Long-Distance Challenges
00:10:11
Speaker
But yeah, that is, it's like we're in a good rhythm with them. Yeah. It's funny. But you're so right. I'm like, are they mad at me? um But no, it'll be I'm very low energy right now.
00:10:22
Speaker
like Like, you don't have like low social bad, like what type? Brain, body, everything? Brain. hate Brain. Brain. Low brain energy. Like, I feel stupid. Yeah, i get that. I feel like. I don't think that's like mental health related. did I think that's because like I didn't sleep that much. in Like binge drink. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
00:10:40
Speaker
Maybe. No, I feel that. I do. I think I slept more this weekend, like coming home from LA than I almost ever do. Like I think I slept 12 hours last night. That's so nice. I've literally never done that. I think I'm to do that tonight. I'm going to do it right But I can't decide that that's going happen. Like I just woke up and was like, whoa, it's really late.
00:10:57
Speaker
I was stunned by that. was crazy. Yeah, it was nuts. Were you alone right now as well, huh? No, well, Tom, he was, um he was away for a bachelor party. He got home at 10 a.m. m and then I was still asleep for multiple more hours. Because going to say, i feel like sometimes like having your bed to yourself, like you just like can cash out for longer.
00:11:12
Speaker
I'm not like usually like that, but I do. I understand that, I guess. I'm going to forget you like are a co-sleeper. Yeah, I'm a really good co-sleeper. um Wait, but let's like just going back to you with low energy. Like I do feel like one of the things that I learned, I think i think we both i think we all as a family have learned a lot about ourselves over the last year just in terms of how we think, process, prioritize, um take advantage of time together, et cetera, et cetera. I could go on.
00:11:37
Speaker
But one of the things that like, and I know that we've touched on this, but just because we've both been sort of low energy recently, specifically today, um I feel like one of the things that i think about now is I really just think about my energy levels and like where I'm extending energy. And like, if I'm putting myself in a situation that I know is going to be a big energy spend, I decide like, okay, is that do I have to do this? yeah Is it, if it's an elect, like if I am electing to do it,
00:12:03
Speaker
do I really want to do it? Is this where I want to spend energy? And like, what am I going have to give up if this drains me? Yeah. You have to be more selective with it. I've also found like, I need to like prepare sometimes. Like, Oh, totally. Like i've I'm going out sometimes. if I, even if I'm like getting a drink or dinner with a friend and I'm like tired, sometimes I have to force myself to take a 30 minute nap just so I'm like recharging almost. Yeah.
00:12:25
Speaker
Or like have like a minute alone. won't do that a minute, but do something or like the night before, like stay in like, I don't know. Yeah. Um, I definitely think that that is a factor for me.
00:12:35
Speaker
Do you have like people that don't drain energy? Yes. Like I think I have my friends that I know I can be low social battery around. And that's sort of the, like it doesn't need to be black and white. It doesn't need to be like, okay, I'm going out or I'm like sitting on my couch either by myself or with Will like watching a movie. It's like I have friends that I can have over for like a glass of wine. I don't feel like I need to be filling the air.
00:12:57
Speaker
No, no, you don't need to entertain. i also think there's certain people that, I can have just like sit with me and exist and like be on my phone or like not talk, like be alone together type of thing. Is that what they say? Yeah, yeah, alone together. yeah I like that. I think that that's like a comfort. It's comforting. and Like I would way rather be alone together than a alone. Oh, same. Like I don't get, I don't get like stress with some people I do, but with like my closest friends and family, if I'm like sitting in silence, like I'm happy to sit in silence. Yeah.
00:13:23
Speaker
And I think that just speaks to the relationship too. But yeah, to be able to sit in silence, like do your own thing while the presence of the other person is there and comforting, like that is my favorite thing. Same, same. I say I hate being alone, and but like, that's not true at all. I love sitting and not talking, but I just like, also you're still not alone. You're like the presence of someone else. Yeah. That's what I need. need a warm body.
00:13:43
Speaker
But anyway, I am so low energy. Like body. I know I can tell. I'm sorry. i think I'm tired. You are tired. I have eye bags. No, you you're fine. I'm covering mine with hat.
00:13:54
Speaker
Luckily, I have hat. like ah No, it's like this is a, I don't know, like this, I think we go in and out of being tired. I think it's subconsciously, emotionally draining to hit a pivotal moment like we hit this other day.
00:14:11
Speaker
is subconscious. And I don't know like about you, but part of me also when we hit, or when, I don't know, this is obviously the first anniversary like this that we've hit. But I'm always torn between wanting to like honor it and like let myself have my feelings and between just being like, I don't want to think about that because I know it's going to sad.
00:14:29
Speaker
And I think I've chosen the latter. Like I've not really been, I've not sat and been like, okay, wow. And maybe that's why this conversation is a little harder because I've not been like, okay, this is what's happened.
00:14:40
Speaker
i can't can't believe we're going through this. Like I've not even allowed myself to really cross that border. haven't done that either. I'm sort of yeah, same. Like defense mechanism as fuck. Yeah. But I learned actually that humor did I say this? Humor.
00:14:53
Speaker
Humor is, um like dark humor is a really intelligent um defense mechanism. Like it in terms of like trauma and coping, it's actually intelligent because when you make like a dark joke or like you use dark humor, or you trick your body into like laughing and feeling safe and like funny. Yeah. But like, I don't want to be one of those people who's approached in a terrible situation and like can't stop laughing.
00:15:16
Speaker
but Like, you know, that's like a disease. Yes. That's completely different. I'm saying like making a dark joke is like you trick your body into like feeling better. So it's actually like an intelligent defense mechanism or coping mechanism. My trauma class said that.
00:15:28
Speaker
That's cool. That's actually interesting. I was like, yes, I'm intelligent. It was sick. Um, But no i what was I going say? Shoot, we were talking about... oh yes.
00:15:39
Speaker
I definitely think I've been, like, avoidance of it. Like, yeah you texted me a really nice thing last night, and I was out, and, like, my friend was next to me, and he was like, oh, like, what is that? And I was like, uh... Back off, bitch. And I was like, to be honest, like, you could read this. I'm not reading this right now. And then, like, he, like, gave me a really big hug it was like, I, like, you're the best. Like, whatever, like, was very comforting, but i was like, I don't want to read this right now. I'm reading it later.
00:15:59
Speaker
And then I read it later, and it was really nice. But, like, so you... went out as an old man last night. I don't understand. I was like, I don't want to read this right now. Oh my God. Um, no, I, I honestly, besides sending that one text to you, I, I do feel like I'm sort of like putting it quire.
00:16:14
Speaker
Like I remember even at the anniversary of the death of like grandma and pop pop or poppy or whatever, I would text mom and dad and be like thinking of you, like hope you're okay today. But I didn't want to even like, I just didn't want to like acknowledge or do that even for myself. Like I didn't, you know it's like i' order to do it for your song I've been talking to mom and dad, but I didn't want to like,
00:16:32
Speaker
I also don't know. look That's the type of thing where it's like, you're never going to remind me that dad has brain cancer, but I might accidentally be reminding people that it's been a year. I'm sure mom like has it down in her calendar. Mom 100%. Like made a shirt about it or something. like but But they also had a really like but good weekend good weekend with friends and like, I don't know, like celebrating and things like that. So yeah.
00:16:54
Speaker
I don't know. I don't think. I'm sure. It's impossible that if we're thinking about it, I'm sure both of them are even more. Yeah. But I think just a year is weird, especially like not to get all dark and whatever, because as we were talking about it, we don't want to talk about this too late.
00:17:09
Speaker
ah I think a year is weird because with this illness also. Yeah. Like your, your prognosis after diagnosis. It's like six months.
00:17:20
Speaker
Yeah. Or i think the stat it's like five, 5% live over year. over a year It's something like that. And I don't want to talk out of turn, but I do think it's 5% of the people have like 12 to 16 months.
00:17:33
Speaker
Yeah. it's It's from when they're diagnosed, which is not again, that's not today. Today was the accident, but a year it's my timing, my understanding of how the length of a year has just changed drastically.
00:17:47
Speaker
I think that time has a different meaning now because it's like, Oh, time's so valuable, but also with this ticking time bomb for lack of a better word, that sounds awful. No, but it was.
00:17:57
Speaker
It's like a year is like a very long time. Yeah, it's a very long time. But like to your point, it's also, I don't know. It's both. Like, will we get a whole other year? I really hope so. And I think so.
Chemotherapy and Hopeful Outlooks
00:18:10
Speaker
But it's just, those are the questions that I think are fogging my brain from even being able to emotionally understand how I might be feeling about the situation. Like, I feel like I'm cut off because I'm thinking like, just about other stuff.
00:18:25
Speaker
pertaining to the situation but not like how I'm feeling about it. Yeah. Does that make sense? It's sort of hard to unlock that door to be honest. I also think thinking about how it's been a year and um has caused at least me to sort of reflect a little bit on how dad's doing and don't know it's just like thinking about progress in some ways or just his care and I think what's interesting too is um which I didn't know, but mom told me this recently, I guess there's like one or two more rounds of chemo and then they're taking your like break.
00:18:56
Speaker
Oh, I didn't know that. Oh yeah. Oh, that's great. So I think it's, I think, I don't know how i feel about it, but I guess like that's, that's like the standard of treatment is, or standard of care rather is I think it's like six rounds and I think his last round is this weekend.
00:19:10
Speaker
Maybe it's next. okay I don't know the logistics, you should ask mom, but um yes, he was like one more of the like five days on 25 days off. And... 23 days. Sorry, five days on, 23 days Because mom's going to correct us. She will. You're right. Thank you.
00:19:24
Speaker
detail-oriented. Well, remember when you got the story wrong? I'm like, oh my god. um But anyway, so you saying that she might not remember it's the year, like shot. Obviously, she's going to remember. There's a banner.
00:19:34
Speaker
There's a banner. I'm going to say. She's the best. But yeah, I think it's interesting to think about he's been sort of on this trajectory of the five days on, 23 days off. And now I think the plan is one more, or two more rounds.
00:19:48
Speaker
Mom, I'm sure will correct me. um But then after that, it's sort of just like waiting and healing game. Okay. And I think I am helpful hopeful in the sense that like it'll give him more energy and he'll be able to sort of like, I mean, not taking the poison every day is gonna be amazing. Yeah. And gain more muscle and like gain more strength and really like heal.
00:20:09
Speaker
I think that will be really important. And then they're just like monitoring how he feels and like there'll be another scan in um mary May. May, yes. I think. Yeah, I think that's right. And then those scans periodically, but I guess like it's sort of interesting because it's also like, okay, what now?
Balancing Caution and Enjoyment
00:20:26
Speaker
Like in the, in between it's like, we're not doing anything. So it's sort of to me stresses me out. Cause I'm like, Oh, you're not like, like at least now with chemo, I'm like, Oh, you're doing something to help a little. ah Right. Right.
00:20:38
Speaker
But let's, I mean, we don't, this is the standard of care. We don't know if it's actually doing anything for him because Yeah. Of his biomarkers, which would indicate that chemo doesn't. Yeah. It's less effective. It doesn't mean it's not effective.
00:20:52
Speaker
It's less effective. But also like, let's not sleep on the fact that a year ago in April, he didn't even come to diagnosis until July. So he was not treating or doing anything to actually do anything. And they didn't grow. And nothing grew.
00:21:04
Speaker
Yeah. Like nothing's grown since his accident. Just so crazy. Which is really crazy. It's from wood. Where's wood?
00:21:12
Speaker
It's not wood. Wood's on the ground. Shit.
00:21:16
Speaker
I've become so much more super sensitive. Same. I have to say, like, my, like, I just celebrated my birthday. So many, like, birthday candles, so many wishes like that. I'm like, Don't say it out loud, little jinx. I'm not saying what I wished for. I'm just saying that I wished.
00:21:29
Speaker
I'm like, let's go. That's like one time I was home. was sitting on the couch with dad and it was 11-11 and I always kiss my phone on 11-11. Yeah. Pretty nice. You your phone is like bringing me a leader. Yes, I know. I need to clean mine too also because kept dropping it.
00:21:42
Speaker
But I kissed my phone and I was like, my dad was like, what is that? Or dad was like, what is that? And I was like, oh, like 11-11, make a wish. And then kiss your phone and he goes, thanks. Thanks. like Dude.
00:21:53
Speaker
I mean, he knows. It was so funny, though. it's really Because that's just, like, so, again, dark humor, but, like, to a T. It was so funny. But, no, it's good. I think also dad was telling me that he is going to get some sort of, like, um a different type of, like, shot to go on his back to sort of help with that pain. Great. So that's good because outside of, like, back pain, which is, like, separate than...
00:22:14
Speaker
cancer, like it's not from his tumors. um I feel like he's doing and looking pretty good, which is amazing. Yeah, for sure. He's definitely like tired, but hopefully going off the chemo will help that. I think it will a lot. So that's positive. And like that's nice, like that on top of like some sunshine in the summer, hopefully.
00:22:30
Speaker
Yeah. Would be great to get him on the golf course. Yeah. I'd love that. i we could drive we could oh my gosh I would be so down i love that like that'd be fun I just I feel like I'm I'm torn between trying to proceed with caution in terms of like this next year and just like trying to make it as much fun and as great as possible and I think it's the latter that we need to lean in on it's balance though too it is a balance like I don't yeah and I'm not trying to be foolish but it's like I do want to just like have fun have a great summer make memories as cheesy as it sounds and like
00:23:01
Speaker
hope for the best. But that's sort of my plan, I guess, going into this next year. That would be my, I would feel very accomplished if we were able to do that. Yeah. think that's amazing. I think, I don't know. Yeah. It's hard to not get very like wrapped up in the future and like,
00:23:15
Speaker
yeah I don't know. That's, I think, something that made me feel a little down this week was thinking about the future because i like, oh, should I be home all summer? Like, just spend time with them. But also, I have things I want to be doing here. And yeah i love want you to to they want you to live your life. But it's hard because, like, my preference is to be with them all the time.
00:23:33
Speaker
It's just hard. And then it's also, the like, I'm like, oh, if I don't have, like, a reason to be in person in New York, why would I ever be here? Especially in the summer. But I don't know. Okay, well, that's why I'm giving you an internship. We'll chat.
00:23:44
Speaker
oh um Yeah, it's just back and forth a little. And I think with like school ending for me and this anniversary, it's just a lot of like thinking of the future, I feel like. Yeah. Which always is a little stressful in my opinion.
00:23:58
Speaker
Listen, we're obviously very low social battery mental capacity right now. I need to be unclasmed. We're very We're very one-tone. I really need to be charged like lightning cable. I need to stick my feet into the outlet.
00:24:15
Speaker
Yeah, same. Yikes, dark. um Yeah, we need to we need to be revived. um I'm super excited for next weekend. We're going to go home. We actually have like some great stories that our dad specifically wanted to tell on this podcast. Yeah, and we'll get him back on, so it'll be interesting again. Yeah, good, like recent, funny.
00:24:34
Speaker
The theme, just as a little teaser, is is this happening because of brain cancer, or am I just really dumb?
Authenticity and Emotional Ebb and Flow
00:24:41
Speaker
um so It's a fun like back and forth. Yeah, it's a great, great game.
00:24:46
Speaker
It's a tongue twister or a mind tweezer. It is neither of those things. We got to recharge. um But yeah, I guess, yeah, that's that's all I have for today.
00:24:58
Speaker
Best episode ever. Wait, I was going to add something. Oh, no, you were? You were going to add something? That's crazy. but come on. No, you're perfect.
00:25:10
Speaker
I'm being a dick. and What? No, I was thinking about low energy and... I'm not going let Lizzie cut the noise that you just made. What? A what?
00:25:22
Speaker
What are we doing? So obviously this was an episode that wasn't best because... Low energy. Let's let but fans decide. Okay, fine. Well, this was a low energy episode, which I think is very relevant to what we're doing and talking about this ah ebbs and flows of emotions. And maybe we have to stop recording on Sundays because have no thoughts in my brain. Authenticity. This is really, this is real raw. Real raw. often So authentic.
00:25:51
Speaker
You know those bars that are like, one date, no BS. Yeah, RX bars. 15 peanuts. I'm like, whoa. and no bullshit. One date, three egg whites, 15 peanuts, and no BS. Don't you dare ask for a bar with BS.
00:26:07
Speaker
No, that's like today. Don't even drink with it. We're like two brain cells. um Two one and a half microphones. Sadie. um but one One baseball hat.
00:26:18
Speaker
um So much BS. Zero makeup. Zero makeup. And no BS. No BS. No BS. All right, we're out. Yeah, this is gotta go. Gotta go.
00:26:30
Speaker
Oh, I just tried to do a piece on and I did it wrong.