Rosas

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Speaker: What's happening now?

Speaker: Mercury retrograde!

Speaker: How long?

Speaker: I thought it was done.

Speaker: I want us to talk about two, then suddenly there are the third voices.

Speaker: Charge!

Speaker: Wait, start now?

Speaker: We're just going to go.

Speaker: Okay, okay, okay, okay.

Speaker: Let's do this.

Speaker: Actually, very exciting itong episode na to kasi tatlo tayo dito ngayon nag-uusap.

Speaker: Meron nga tayong special guest.

Speaker: Inulit mo lang.

Speaker: Daryl, sabi mo ko sino yung guest natin ngayon?

Speaker: Actually, yung guest natin ngayon ay isa sa mga matalik natin kay Digan.

Speaker: Kabahe ko siya for how many years?

Speaker: Ganyan.

Speaker: Tapos nilayasang ko siya.

Speaker: Charret!

Speaker: True.

Speaker: Let's get started with our guest.

Speaker: Guest in charge.

Speaker: Hi guys!

Speaker: So, I'm the very nice friend of Daryl's friend.

Speaker: Charge!

Speaker: And Marien Cash.

Speaker: Me, Moggs, by the way.

Speaker: I'm sorry.

Speaker: We're halfway through the episode.

Speaker: What do you say to the listeners?

Speaker: What's his name again?

Speaker: Anyway, what about you?

Speaker: What about you here?

Speaker: Yes.

Speaker: If you're happy, you're happy.

Speaker: Plus three concepts.

Speaker: We're so happy.

Speaker: We're so happy before recording.

Speaker: Actually, we decided to make our Mugs for this episode.

Speaker: I think she's one of the best people who could give us more stories about our topic for this episode.

Speaker: Correct.

Speaker: Why are we still in this episode?

Speaker: You can't know if it's a crazy episode.

Speaker: As always.

Speaker: So anyway, Darryl, what's the topic of our topic?

Speaker: And why is our topic?

Speaker: We decided to do a topic now because there are a lot of people who have triggered a lot.

Speaker: Some songs we hear on YouTube, we have to laugh.

Speaker: The colors we see in the world are triggered.

Speaker: We talked about it and I also noticed that we haven't really sat down and talked about what happened.

Speaker: And I think, maybe it's about time that

Speaker: Pwede na tayo umopo.

Speaker: Medyo na-process na natin yung first stages of grief.

Speaker: Pwede na natin pag-usapan ng hindi umiiyak at hindi nagagalit.

Speaker: Feeling ko lang, pero tingnan natin, malay mo bigla may umiiyak dito.

Speaker: Kayo lang.

Speaker: Ako parang nastak ako dun sa spiteful, ano, bitch stage.

Speaker: Parang hindi ata ko nakamuun.

Speaker: Ganun.

Speaker: I'm still rolling my eyes.

Speaker: That's fine.

Speaker: But anyways, at least we'll talk about it right now.

Speaker: Because we actually never debriefed on this.

Speaker: We kind of had to grieve on our own, by ourselves, and it was hard.

Speaker: Because it's hard to process.

Speaker: For me, when I process it with people who were so compassionate about it, we'll be able to get out of the dark

Speaker: Darker room, darker stage.

Speaker: Kasi patong-patong yung mga disappointment, heartbreaks.

Speaker: Eh, parang wala pa ata sa atin yung, at the time, wala pa sa atin yung tanggap na, move on na.

Speaker: Walang bigger person.

Speaker: Nakakatawa na pinag-uusapan na natin siya, pero hindi pa natin exactly nasabi ko ano yung topic.

Speaker: Gulo na outline na yan.

Speaker: Ha ha ha ha.

Speaker: But yes, our topic for this episode would be our experiences.

Speaker: during the last presidential campaign.

Speaker: So, if you're a fan of your fan, welcome!

Speaker: This may be your episode.

Speaker: If you're not a fan of your fan, you're welcome to stick around and listen as to why it was very hard for us or why we were so happy.

Speaker: But one thing I can say, from the start, it was an experience of a lifetime.

Speaker: But yeah, before we go and go deeper, let's introduce ourselves again.

Speaker: I'm Kesh.

Speaker: And I'm Daryl.

Speaker: And this is... Is this thing on?

Speaker: The podcast!

Speaker: Okay, okay.

Speaker: Ito na, ito na.

Speaker: Okay, so...

Speaker: First question, I guess, was, Atabogs, what did you feel when you learned about the presidential candidates?

Speaker: Parang nung narinig ko yung mga unang nag-file ng candidacy, parang, ay, okay.

Speaker: Geh, ganun.

Speaker: Parang, I did not feel any excitement.

Speaker: Parang, this feels like your old, typical election, ganyan.

Speaker: Yeah.

Speaker: Tapos, meron pang, ano, disappointment.

Speaker: Or, hindi naman, parang expected disappointment na nung

Speaker: I hear the current admin now.

Speaker: But when Lenny announced or proclaimed her candidacy, you know the feeling that there's some sense of hope.

Speaker: Like light at the edge of the tunnel, my feeling.

Speaker: And I remember that I was thinking,

Speaker: We were in the house, and I was going to be a little bit of a little bit of a little bit.

Speaker: I was happy to share that moment with Daryl.

Speaker: Do you know what Daryl is?

Speaker: We're in the kitchen.

Speaker: There's a lot of love in the Philippines.

Speaker: How about you guys?

Speaker: Ako, ano eh, ang naalala ko lang super noon ay sobrang saya ko.

Speaker: Kasi, yun nga, parang it's like a breath of fresh air.

Speaker: Tapos, alam mo yung pakiramdam na feeling mo na nalo ka na.

Speaker: Ang feeling mo, fuck, sobrang nakakapagod.

Speaker: Ayun, parang naalala ko noon na super hopeful ka lang.

Speaker: Kasi alam naman natin kung gaano naging...

Speaker: dreadful yung recent years of the pandemic at kung paano tayo train nato ng administration.

Speaker: Tapos to hear na there could be an end to that pattern of governance.

Speaker: It made me so happy.

Speaker: It made me so excited to the point na I said na mag-invest ako ng energy, ng emotion, ng pera, ng oras for this campaign.

Speaker: Ako nung nalaman ko, actually, I was, ano eh, I wasn't on my phone.

Speaker: I wasn't, eh, wala naman kaming TV na, yung TV namin, parang nakakonek lang sa Netflix at saka sa YouTube.

Speaker: So wala kaming nasasagap na balita unless I go to Facebook.

Speaker: Tapos nagulat na lang ako when it was, hindi ko alam kung umaga ba yun o gabi o or hapon.

Speaker: I already forgot.

Speaker: But what I did remember was I saw everyone was posting pink.

Speaker: A lot of people were already showing support and were very happy.

Speaker: And then I confirmed that the Attorney Lenny was going to die.

Speaker: And I was very... I was not actually registered.

Speaker: I was just going to register that.

Speaker: But it was so long for me to come in the Comilect and where I can register.

Speaker: And then when I announced Lenny, I was going to fall.

Speaker: So I really finished my register for the Voters Registration.

Speaker: And yeah, tama yung sinabi ni Ate Mugs, yung sense of hope.

Speaker: Kasi diba nung pandemic, yung office of the vice president yung nakikita nating gumagalaw.

Speaker: True.

Speaker: Ang dark kasi nung feeling nung pandemic.

Speaker: Parang naka-lockdown ka.

Speaker: Tapos you feel hopeless.

Speaker: Tapos you hear news about people suffering.

Speaker: Tapos parang ako, may frustration ako towards the administration at the time.

Speaker: Kasi parang may lack of action.

Speaker: Tapos yung, alam mo yung symbol of leadership sana na dapat...

Speaker: na-feel mo sa isang pangulo, parang doon mo siya pinakakailangan eh.

Speaker: Right?

Speaker: Parang ano sana eh, parang yung presence sana ng leader ang dapat mag-uplift ng mga spirits natin kasi nga, pandemic was really a dark time.

Speaker: Pero kasi yung nangyayari noon is parang yun nga, the presence of the leadership before was not really felt in a way that it was assuring, reassuring

Speaker: So, for me, again, as I've said before, Lenny's candidacy felt like a light at the end of a very dark tunnel.

Speaker: All the shitty things, all the suffering, there's a hope to end it.

Speaker: Hindi lang actually pandemic eh.

Speaker: Yung pandemic yung nag-highlight nung kung an naman yung competency ng government natin.

Speaker: Pero kasi pagod na tayo.

Speaker: Simula pa lang.

Speaker: Ang daming namamatay.

Speaker: Wala namang pangakong natutupad.

Speaker: Puro na lang PR.

Speaker: Puro na lang...

Speaker: Drama.

Speaker: Diba?

Speaker: Ganon.

Speaker: Nakakapagod kaya yung ganon?

Speaker: Kung ikaw ay isang Pilipinong nakikiba ka sa pang-araw-araw na pamumuhay to think na you have to have a stable job, you have to have food, you have to have like shelter.

Speaker: Diba?

Speaker: Nakakapagod.

Speaker: Diba?

Speaker: So, we all were excited for that phase of our lives to end and to like start a better one with like better governance.

Speaker: Kaya ayun.

Speaker: Eh, nung campaign period ba, nung sinabi ba ni Lenny, nahalala ko eh, nung sinabi ni Lenny, natatakbo siya for the presidency.

Speaker: Alam natin na hindi naman ganun kadali, diba, to battle, for example, these oligarch politicians.

Speaker: Sa una pa lang ba, naisip mo na na tutulong ka?

Speaker: Oo, pero sabi ko hanggang social media lang ako kasi nga maarte ako, introverted, maraming requirements sa buhay, ayokong napapagod.

Speaker: You know, because I have a history in life.

Speaker: For example, when our class at Baguio, I didn't go to all meetings of the org because there were a lot of studies.

Speaker: So I said, I'll help on Facebook and Twitter.

Speaker: Eh, anyari.

Speaker: Alam mo, hindi ko din alam.

Speaker: Yan yung gusto kong maintindihan eh.

Speaker: Yan yung gusto kong maintindihan.

Speaker: Kasi sabi mo, oo, sige, tutulung ako sa social media.

Speaker: I want to share ako.

Speaker: Yeah, I remember.

Speaker: Tapos, like, magulat-gulat ako, ikaw yung nag-house-to-house campaign bigla at uma-attend pang rallies.

Speaker: What's going on, Mari?

Speaker: You're going to be able to do it?

Speaker: Yes, we're going to be able to do it.

Speaker: To the exciting part.

Speaker: I'll put you there.

Speaker: There are a lot of layers, right, that's what happened to me.

Speaker: Parang there are lessons that I already know in life because of my educational upbringing that I have to learn again because of this fucking pandemic.

Speaker: Parang ano, dati nawi-witness ko rin yung reality, tapos nagsisimpathize ako dun sa mga tao, ngayon sinampal ako.

Speaker: Parang I learned that no matter what your privileges are in life, if your healthcare sucks,

Speaker: you're gonna die.

Speaker: Yeah.

Speaker: Oo, oo talaga.

Speaker: Parang aanhin mo pa yung insurance, aanhin mo pa yung pera, pambayad sa ospital, kung hindi ka nga matatanggap kasi punuan na lahat.

Speaker: So, ayun, sinampal ako ng ganong reality na I know it happens, but I didn't think that it can happen to me that way.

Speaker: Many times.

Speaker: Yeah.

Speaker: Yeah, multiple times.

Speaker: Multiple times.

Speaker: So I've been through that.

Speaker: So parang ako, hindi ko agad siya na-realize, agad-agad nung tumakbo si Lenny.

Speaker: I realized it when I was already somewhat immersing to the campaign but not totally.

Speaker: I realized that, oh my God, this is not just my principles, this is not just my ideology, but actually this is something that I have to fight for because my family and I experienced systemic struggles, especially in the healthcare.

Speaker: So...

Speaker: It was not just a fight for what I believed in, but it was the fight of our lives.

Speaker: Because apparently, if your government sucks, the people you love will really die.

Speaker: Yeah, yeah.

Speaker: It is what it is.

Speaker: So, in a nutshell, I think my motivation was really fueled by my grief.

Speaker: Kaya grabe yung energy ko.

Speaker: Parang knowing myself, hindi talaga ako ganun.

Speaker: Hindi ako people person.

Speaker: I mean, kaya ko.

Speaker: Pero hindi ako genuine.

Speaker: Parang kailangan kong i-orient yung sarili ko that I am gonna go out, I am going to be a pleasing personality person.

Speaker: But with Lenny, it happened naturally.

Speaker: And for me, I think I was being genuine when I was going out, meeting people, talking to people.

Speaker: And how was the experience when you were already doing, you know, those?

Speaker: So what was the experience?

Speaker: What were you doing?

Speaker: Oh, yeah.

Speaker: What were you doing?

Speaker: How was it?

Speaker: Ah, grabe.

Speaker: It was really going out of my shell and my comfort zone.

Speaker: If you really know me as a person, na ano, ay, masakit yung likod ko.

Speaker: Masakit sa tuhod yan.

Speaker: So yung ginagawa ko noon is every week, talagang nag-house to house ako with volunteers, youth volunteers of Pasig, and also tita volunteers of Pasig.

Speaker: So hindi ko sila kakilala.

Speaker: to begin with.

Speaker: Parang may sign-up form, nag-sign up ako dun.

Speaker: Tapos yun pa yung proclamation rally sa Quezon City.

Speaker: Yeah.

Speaker: Oo, oo.

Speaker: As an ambivert person, very introvert, I signed up as a volunteer for Lenny.

Speaker: Tapos nag-attend ako ng Quezon City rally with people I don't know.

Speaker: Tapos, ayun, parang kinapalan ko na lang yung mukha ko.

Speaker: Nakikipag-chika-chika na lang ako.

Speaker: Ganyan.

Speaker: Hi Ate, taga-binog, pinagbuhatan po ako, ganyan.

Speaker: Tapos ano, dun nag-create na sila ng ano, parang chat group.

Speaker: Yung pangalan pa ang cute-cute, Ka Pink Bahay.

Speaker: Ka Pink Bahay.

Speaker: So cute.

Speaker: Then I was organized a weekly house-to-house.

Speaker: So I was involved.

Speaker: So it wasn't just after the QBC rally, it was house-to-house.

Speaker: It started around April.

Speaker: So I was like, you know, I'm going to get a kit-kit.

Speaker: I was like, okay, I'm going to house to house.

Speaker: We were with Daryl.

Speaker: Daryl, you know, the issue was, the mindset was to reach as many streets as we can.

Speaker: There are a lot of skinnitas that will come, a lot of flyers that will give you.

Speaker: What's that?

Speaker: It's not good because we always have to look at our friends.

Speaker: Really?

Speaker: I think we should be saturated with the area.

Speaker: Not really strategic.

Speaker: Then we were like, bird dance.

Speaker: I'm like, oh, what's up?

Speaker: Iron.

Speaker: For some reason, I kind of reflected on myself.

Speaker: I was like, oh, I'm so angry at social media as a Lenin supporter.

Speaker: But I'm not a volunteer because I only get the easier job.

Speaker: So I said, I want to be self-aware and I want to be more aligned with my values and with my goal as a Leni volunteer.

Speaker: So I decided, okay, let's commit here.

Speaker: I became house-to-house coordinator.

Speaker: From Saliket-Ket.

Speaker: I was not sure.

Speaker: Oh, kasi bagong lipat lang tayo dyan eh, sa area na yun.

Speaker: Pero parang ano naman, I found my way, na hindi ko pala talaga strength yung geography as a house-to-house coordinator.

Speaker: Parang yung strength ko pala is in, dun nga, sa accounting, orienting people, na bago tayo pumunta sa mga kanto-kanto, what is our strategy,

Speaker: But I'm not going to lead because they will lose.

Speaker: I'm going to delegate.

Speaker: Maliban sa, siguro maliban sa house to house, alam ko na nakapunta ka rin sa mga rallies and those were the big rallies.

Speaker: How was that for you?

Speaker: Well, for me, sa Pasig, sa Makati, sa QC.

Speaker: Hindi kasi, hindi ko kaya yung ginagawa nyo na halos lahat ng rally na pwede nyong puntahan, pinupunta.

Speaker: Pero ang dami naman mong napuntahan.

Speaker: Isa lang naman ang kailangan dun.

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: Iyon nga kasi nga ako, self-proclaimed titas of youth vote for Lenny at the time.

Speaker: Parang kasama ko yung mga bata pag nag-rally.

Speaker: Oo kasi nung pupunta kami, si Kes yata, di ba Kes, pupunta ka din sa mga rally?

Speaker: Yes.

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: Tapos kung paano tayo pumunta doon, nakasasakyan tayo, di ba?

Speaker: Nag-rally tayo.

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: Ito si Bakla.

Speaker: Iba yata yung experience.

Speaker: Ayun.

Speaker: Parang... Kasi yung sa Pasig delegation, talagang naka-delegate.

Speaker: May delegation talaga.

Speaker: Ganyan.

Speaker: May mga props na dinadala.

Speaker: Like...

Speaker: Ang dami mong bit-bit.

Speaker: Yun pala yung reality nun.

Speaker: Kasi may mga flaglets, pink balloons.

Speaker: Logistics ng mga bagay-bagay.

Speaker: Oo, logistics ng bagay-bagay.

Speaker: Tapos hindi siya ganun kadali kasi di ba may mga sponsored na jeeps, sponsored na parang shuttle, parang may designation.

Speaker: Talaga ba?

Speaker: Tapos madaming business owners sa Pasig.

Speaker: ang nag-sponsor nung campaigns in a way na they would give financial support to weekly house-to-house campaigns.

Speaker: Tapos, they would sponsor for example, sa Makati, meron nakipag-coordinate sa akin na businessman ng Pasig.

Speaker: Hindi ko kasi, hindi ko alam kung gusto niya magpa-drop ng name or gustong sabihin yung pangalan niya because, you know, some people, they really

Speaker: Um, nag-sponsor siya ng 20 jeeps for the Makati MDA.

Speaker: Para may mga youth from Pasig.

Speaker: Makapunta.

Speaker: Originally, ang goal is para yung mga youth ng Pasig madala sa Makati and makauwi sila safely.

Speaker: But there were a lot of extra jeeps that were sold, so I think there were six.

Speaker: So, that time we were able to give free rides to Makati.

Speaker: People who wanted to go to the rallies, right?

Speaker: Kasi diba chinechismis, nakakaloka na chinechismis na hinahakot.

Speaker: Eh hindi naman hinahakot yung mga tao.

Speaker: Like, they were the people who were going, wanted to go.

Speaker: And people were volunteering.

Speaker: So kasi nasabihin kayong bayan, diba?

Speaker: Like, bayarin daw kayo.

Speaker: Oh, yeah.

Speaker: Usually, we don't cover the budget of house-to-house because sometimes there are a lot of people who have to eat all the water.

Speaker: So, if you have to adjust, you may cover a expense, that's why it's not that.

Speaker: The most important thing about it was one role I fulfilled that I never thought I would was to be a barker of a jeep.

Speaker: Did I say it right?

Speaker: Yes, barker.

Speaker: Barker.

Speaker: What does the barker of a jeep do?

Speaker: Yung parang nagtatawag ka ng mga pasahero, pero it was such a fun experience because, ano, grabe yung spirit of camaraderie and volunteerism.

Speaker: Tapos parang people jive instantly.

Speaker: Kasi yung time namin, nung time ko for the Makati MDA, di ba nga yun yung na-delegate sa akin was the transportation.

Speaker: So, parang merong natirang jeep ata na walang laman.

Speaker: So, sayang, di ba?

Speaker: Ang ginawa namin is umikot-ikot kami sa mga kanto ng Pasig.

Speaker: Tapos, pag nakita namin na nakapink or may dalang streamer or props for the Lenny Rally, tinatanong namin, papunta po kayong Makati, ganyan.

Speaker: Libreng sakay po.

Speaker: Tas, ayun, sumasakay naman sila, ganyan.

Speaker: Tas, naghahanap kami ng mga crowds, ng mga nakakampink.

Speaker: Then when they go to the Jeep, you think you'll be friends immediately.

Speaker: That's what made the campaign so special and so unforgettable.

Speaker: And it was definitely an experience that you would never even imagine that could happen.

Speaker: Kasi I remember yun, yung sinasabi yung kinukwenta mo kanina ate Mugs about yung spirit of volunteerism.

Speaker: And I've never seen that before for years.

Speaker: the entirety of my 27 years of existence.

Speaker: I've never seen that before, especially in a political campaign.

Speaker: It's usually, the traditional way is hinahakot, and that has always been the norm, na babayaran ka, sumama ka sa rally, at madaming pupunta, and after nun, okay, alis na.

Speaker: Pero yung campaign na to, it was so different.

Speaker: Kasi in every aspect, like everybody was contributing whatever they could, whether it be time, talent, financial, or just energy.

Speaker: And it was so...

Speaker: Like Daryl said earlier, it was a breath of fresh air to see that, especially after a very, very dark and difficult time during the pandemic.

Speaker: We could just do this, to be able to do this.

Speaker: It was beautiful.

Speaker: The experiences I've had when going to the rallies were, they were very overwhelming, but in a very good way.

Speaker: Kasi, natandaan ko yung pinakauna kong...

Speaker: Rally was going to... Sana yun, Darryl?

Speaker: Kasama kita nun eh.

Speaker: Magkakasama tayo nun.

Speaker: Ortigas.

Speaker: Pasiglaban.

Speaker: O, Pasiglaban.

Speaker: Kasi hindi ako nakapunta nung nag-rally sa Bulacan.

Speaker: Kasi yung rally nun sa Bulacan, eh nasa malayong part ng Bulacan.

Speaker: Wala kami.

Speaker: Tapos wala akong kasama.

Speaker: So, sumama akong kanila, Darryl.

Speaker: Tapos natandaan ko, yung papunta pa lang kami doon, ay shit, naiiyak na ako.

Speaker: What?

Speaker: Hindi, kasi natatandaan ko na ang daming tao na naglalakha, tapos nakikita mo lahat nakapink, lahat silang masaya, lahat silang like excited, na parang concert yung pupuntahan na hindi mo maintindihan.

Speaker: Pero hindi mo mag-concert.

Speaker: Tapos everybody was just so freaking happy and full of energy.

Speaker: And you could feel the hope.

Speaker: that you're making hope.

Speaker: That's how we want to change, not the right kind of change.

Speaker: And it gave me so much hope.

Speaker: I remember the moment I stepped into Ortigas, where it was in Pasig, one of the most famous streets in that street.

Speaker: Emerald.

Speaker: It was just so happy.

Speaker: And I was so overwhelmed to that point that I was going to panic attack because I didn't believe.

Speaker: It filled me with so much hope that, oh my God, there is a better future for us and for my children too.

Speaker: And I was so, so happy.

Speaker: What was your first rally experience?

Speaker: Or if not the first one, I guess one of the most memorable ones.

Speaker: Kasi ang dami mo inattendang rally eh.

Speaker: Tibay ng likod niyan eh.

Speaker: Oo, siguro overview lang ay hindi ko na malala kung ano specifically yung mga inattendan ko.

Speaker: Pero marami mong inattendan.

Speaker: Kasi doon ako bumabawi.

Speaker: Like, kung kailangan akong sumigaw-sigaw to build the crowd, to help build the crowd, I would.

Speaker: Gagawa ko ng placard.

Speaker: Pupunta kami sa bookstore, ganyan, sa BGC.

Speaker: Kaya sa Pasig para bumili ng stuff.

Speaker: Tapos gagawa ng mga placards.

Speaker: Tapos naalala nyo ba yung may mga something, yung blank for Lenny, ganyan.

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: May mga ganon.

Speaker: Yun nga.

Speaker: Actually, magandang pakinggan yung mga sinasabi nyo kasi...

Speaker: It brings me back.

Speaker: It brings me back to those days na bakit ang saya-saya.

Speaker: Tapos ngayon, nalungkot-lungkot ko na lang as a person.

Speaker: Ano ko din, Mugs, di ba?

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: Yun yung pinakaunang big rally na sobrang daming tao.

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: Pero yun nga, ano ako nun eh, titas of youth vote.

Speaker: So... Mayroon siyang mga ano nun.

Speaker: May mga kasama ka nun.

Speaker: Magkahiwalay tayo.

Speaker: Oo, nagkahiwalay tayo.

Speaker: Alam mo, doon ako, feeling ko, yun yung malungkot ako about Dararye.

Speaker: Kasi parang I had responsibilities.

Speaker: So hindi ko siya na-enjoy with you guys.

Speaker: So parang... Parang nung sa Makati, medyo naingit ako na ayaw magkakasama sila.

Speaker: Franz, sila Darryl.

Speaker: Alam mo yun, parang there's another side to it.

Speaker: Pero ako, I'm very happy that I was able to help Pasig delegation.

Speaker: I was able to

Speaker: Somehow, I was able to bring youth votes to Pasig, Makati, and others.

Speaker: Naku, Ate Mawis.

Speaker: If you know, we were all so envious of you because you were so productive.

Speaker: If not envious, if envious is not the right word, I guess the right word would be proud.

Speaker: We were so proud of you.

Speaker: So proud of you.

Speaker: When you were bartering...

Speaker: When I thought about my roles, I didn't want to do my roles.

Speaker: I didn't want to talk about my roles.

Speaker: I didn't want to do my roles.

Speaker: Ayoko din yung, ako ayokong pinakamapagod sa rally.

Speaker: Yun, ayokong napapagod dahil sa rally kasi mahirap bumangon.

Speaker: Tapos, yung experience ko pa nun sa MDA, parang hindi ako maka-immerse dun sa event kasi natatakot akong mahimatay.

Speaker: Hindi ako pwedeng mahimatay.

Speaker: Dapat walang mangyari sa akin kasi may mga logistics nga akong kailangang i-cover at that time at dapat may presence of mind.

Speaker: So yun, parang, kaya nung time na yun, parang, oy, sumasaya sila.

Speaker: But I was trying to be alive.

Speaker: I was trying to not faint, not get to time.

Speaker: Yeah, it wasn't all enjoyable for a lot of people in the sense that it's not just all fun and shit.

Speaker: It was all so tough.

Speaker: It was very difficult.

Speaker: But despite the fact that you thought it was difficult and you're going to spend it,

Speaker: You don't just spend time, you'll adjust your schedule for those rallies, for those campaign activities.

Speaker: For some reason, at least at the personal level, those were weekends or days that I looked forward to.

Speaker: Because there were some very tired, like I was trying to play volleyball or I was trying to play mall.

Speaker: Ganyan, kasi feel ko nakakapagod.

Speaker: Natamad akong bumiyahe.

Speaker: Pero yung mga weekends na yun, yun yung parang maaga gising ka na, gabi pa lang, prepare ka na.

Speaker: Ito si Keshe, bumabiyahe pa from Bulacan.

Speaker: Ganyan.

Speaker: It was not all fun.

Speaker: It was sacrifice as well.

Speaker: It was sacrifice.

Speaker: It was sacrifice too.

Speaker: It was something we looked forward and we were willing to do.

Speaker: Yeah, actually.

Speaker: Tapos, yung energy na yun is mararamdaman mo sa lahat ng tao na nandun.

Speaker: I mean, syempre, di mo naman makakasalamuha lahat ng tao.

Speaker: Pero kahit siksika, natatanlan ko pa nun sa mga rallies.

Speaker: I don't know how many people are feeling, I don't see anything feeling, or I'm complaining.

Speaker: Everything is fun, and everything is not going to go to the end.

Speaker: or to participate in the program.

Speaker: There are a lot of LED screens that are released so that the others are far away from the main stage can see and hear what is happening in the program.

Speaker: Kahit yung iba, hindi nakakalapit.

Speaker: They were just there.

Speaker: They were just there for... To show... To show support.

Speaker: To show support.

Speaker: Na kahit hindi sila makapasok at maka... Nagsistay sila.

Speaker: Hindi sila yung pupunta doon.

Speaker: Tapos aalis na lang pag nakita nilang wala silang makita.

Speaker: They would stay.

Speaker: Tapos yung iba, diba?

Speaker: May sarili silang program with the... Yung magkakasama silang mga...

Speaker: And they are strangers.

Speaker: Like, hindi sila magkakakilala.

Speaker: Pero they are, ano, they're sharing their food with each other.

Speaker: Everyone was sharing food with each other.

Speaker: Everybody was giving water and free, like, so many free shit na food na coming from other people who went there din.

Speaker: Like, diba?

Speaker: It wasn't even coming from...

Speaker: Lenny herself.

Speaker: It was coming from the people who went there to participate.

Speaker: Yung may namimigay ng pink na puto.

Speaker: Ay, oo.

Speaker: Tapos naalala ko yung sa pandesal.

Speaker: May namigay ng Shanghai kasi birthday daw ni Lenny.

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: Ayun.

Speaker: Yung lahat lang nagbibigay ng kung ano yung kaya nilang dalhin.

Speaker: Yeah.

Speaker: Like the movement of wanting.

Speaker: It was a movement.

Speaker: It wasn't we were idolizing Lenny.

Speaker: It was because she symbolized progress and change for the better for a lot of Filipinos.

Speaker: Like a hope that we can do better and we deserve better.

Speaker: Because her whole...

Speaker: platform and her track record speaks for herself din kasi she was nothing but transparent and wala siyang bahid ng corruption which was so very which is so very common here in the Philippines na parang

Speaker: Everyone accepted, eh, that's a political.

Speaker: But he's not.

Speaker: Which was what we were looking forward to.

Speaker: We hoped for it so bad.

Speaker: We were so happy.

Speaker: Oy, I have a question.

Speaker: How many times did you watch the video of Kiko and the Pampanga that you didn't cry?

Speaker: Did you cry?

Speaker: I don't know.

Speaker: Noong pinapanood ko yun sa tatay ko, kasi yung tatay ko hindi siya decided for, parang he wasn't decided until the last weeks na, yung talagang magbabotohan na.

Speaker: Tapos pinakita ko yun sa kanya kasi surprisingly, hindi niya pa nakita.

Speaker: At nagulat ako kasi like it's all over, you know.

Speaker: Pero again, ganun pala kasi ang social media, may algorithm.

Speaker: Kung ano yung algorithm mo, yun lang makikita mo.

Speaker: So sinend ko sa kanya yun.

Speaker: E di ba yung tatay ko, farmer.

Speaker: Tapos nung sinend ko yun sa kanya, he made up his mind right there.

Speaker: Na...

Speaker: okay, si Kiko, si Kiko na yung, ano, ibuboto niya.

Speaker: Kasi, that, that moment was so genuine, ano?

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: Yeah.

Speaker: Actually, ako pag pinanood ko siya ngayon, iiyak pa din ako.

Speaker: Eh, kahit anong pinanood ko ngayon, kahit anong panoorin ko na about... Why would you do it?

Speaker: For the letting come in?

Speaker: Noong isang araw, parang tumagtog sa Spotify ko yung liwanag sa dilim.

Speaker: Or sinend mo din yan sa akin.

Speaker: Sinend ko din sa'yo.

Speaker: Naiiyak-iyak ako, ganya.

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: Sa playlist ko pa din siya.

Speaker: Siguro naiiyak ako...

Speaker: I don't know how many months ago, but I didn't have to wait for a few months.

Speaker: I didn't have to wait for a few months.

Speaker: And it was sad that it was not happening.

Speaker: It was not happening.

Speaker: But I know that...

Speaker: that the voting day came out.

Speaker: We were like, we were in the discussion of the process.

Speaker: But maybe, just very briefly, describe the day of the Boto-Han.

Speaker: Because I know there's a different level of excitement and anxiety.

Speaker: We'll be together with you!

Speaker: We were together with him?

Speaker: Yes, we were together with him.

Speaker: We were together with him.

Speaker: Tell me about him.

Speaker: We were together with him.

Speaker: And then, I remember before going to the precincts, we were 7-11.

Speaker: We were so happy that we were in the morning.

Speaker: Yes, we're exercising our right, our civil right.

Speaker: Ito na eh, alam mo yung feeling na fresh kapad galing Makati at feel na feel mo pa yung the pink movement inside you.

Speaker: Tapos nakaboto ka na.

Speaker: Tapos naririnig mo na yung mga balita na nag-fail yung ano, anong tawag doon?

Speaker: Mga PCOS machine.

Speaker: PCOS machine.

Speaker: So may mga hindi daw nabibilang yung boto.

Speaker: Tapos may mga naririnig kang mga balita na yung mga iba parang pinapaiwan yung ballot sheet ba yun?

Speaker: Ballot.

Speaker: Para saka na lang bilangin kasi nga hindi mabilang.

Speaker: The anxiety was settling in.

Speaker: And that's when I was a kid, the votes were coming in.

Speaker: So, my anxiety was like, but I decided to accept that this can happen.

Speaker: It's such an ugly feeling.

Speaker: Actually, ano, mas natatandaan ko pa yung voting day kaysa sa yung mga rallies, rally days, mga campaign days.

Speaker: Kasi sobrang iba yung tama sa'yo ng emosyon.

Speaker: Nalala ko na nag-volunteer ako as a... Ano ba yung ni-volunteer?

Speaker: Watcher.

Speaker: Sabi ko, pagkatapos kong sabihin ng naalala ko, oo, yun yung term, watcher.

Speaker: So nag-watcher ako, tapos, edo syempre, may bumalit ako, may cellphone ako, so nakaantabi ako sa balita, ganyan.

Speaker: So mga 7pm, mga 6-7pm ng kabe, andun na yung ABS-CBN, andun na yung mga, andun na yung GMA, nag-ano na ng live na pagpasok ng mga boto.

Speaker: Tapos biglang,

Speaker: Parang, parang una, ang saya-saya mo eh, kasi ang mini-leverage tayo nung una.

Speaker: Tapos biglang, ang laki nung margin, bigla.

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: To the point na parang, parang alam mo na yung trend.

Speaker: Alam mo yung, nararamdaman mo na yung trend na, shit, bakit napaka-overwhelming nung numbers na sobrang laki bigla.

Speaker: Sobrang overwhelming nun, tapos,

Speaker: I just got to go to the classroom and I just laughed.

Speaker: I felt like, I felt like, I felt like, shit, until here.

Speaker: Maybe until here, I laughed.

Speaker: I laughed.

Speaker: I laughed like, I didn't even think that 10%, 20% of ballots.

Speaker: But eventually, you, Cash, how do you vote for you?

Speaker: Like you, I was happy when I started.

Speaker: I was excited because I was a first time voter.

Speaker: After I voted, you know, you can't even know who you are, like, what number of people who voted.

Speaker: I double-checked, I triple-checked if it's right.

Speaker: I was asking people who already, my friends who already voted, if it should not be able to pass.

Speaker: If it's not going to pass in Bilog, it's not going to be able to pass.

Speaker: I was so anxious about the whole thing, but I was also excited.

Speaker: Then when we came to the precinct,

Speaker: I was with my husband.

Speaker: She's a voter.

Speaker: She's not voting last time, so she should be active.

Speaker: She should be active.

Speaker: But when it comes to that, she's not going to have the name of her.

Speaker: So, we didn't have a vote.

Speaker: Then, we came to the help desk, the precinct, we didn't have a vote.

Speaker: We didn't have a name in the database.

Speaker: So, okay, I just wanted to vote.

Speaker: So, Pila, ganyan.

Speaker: Pagdating dun sa precinct.

Speaker: Kasi diba, hindi mo makikita kasi syempre maliliit yung names.

Speaker: Pero kasi diba yung balot, makikita mo kung nasaan si Lenny.

Speaker: Kasi yung kay Lenny, nasa dun siya sa pinakadulo, tas mag-isa lang siya.

Speaker: Tapos yung sa ibang tao, ay yung sa ibang candidates nasa gitna.

Speaker: Then, I was a pot girl.

Speaker: I was a pot girl.

Speaker: wala, ako lang, ako lang ang dun sa mga, ano, nung nakita ko, tos parang, dun yung nag-sync in sa akin na parang, oh shit, oh shit, um, we might actually lose this, kasi, like, the past few months during the campaign, we're so filled with hope that you can't even imagine

Speaker: at least, I can't even imagine losing this one.

Speaker: Because you feel it so... Maybe it's also because you want it so bad.

Speaker: That's why you believe it wholeheartedly.

Speaker: You believe it wholeheartedly that it's going to happen.

Speaker: But also because you felt it.

Speaker: You saw it with your own eyes when you went to the rallies.

Speaker: You see it everywhere in social media.

Speaker: But after I cast my vote and I saw...

Speaker: I think I was the only one who voted for her.

Speaker: That's when it synced in.

Speaker: Oh, we might actually lose this one.

Speaker: Tapos nung nasasasaken na kami ni Bon, pabalik dito sa bahay, iyak ako ng iyak.

Speaker: Kasi, sabi ko, it was more of like, I wish I did more.

Speaker: I wish I've done more.

Speaker: Kasi, the last presidential election, yung kay Duterte, I was also very, I was very loud nun campaigning online.

Speaker: But that took a toll on me and my relationships with other people who voted for Duterte.

Speaker: And I couldn't handle the stress or the anxiety of talking to people.

Speaker: Because, you know, the water, the bardagulan.

Speaker: So this campaign, I didn't do much of talking to people, to my relatives who voted for Duterte.

Speaker: the other person who were very vocal about voting for the other person, I just didn't talk to them at all.

Speaker: Kasi I didn't want to interact.

Speaker: Kasi nga, it was too stressful for me.

Speaker: Like, I really get panic attacks.

Speaker: Tapos sinabi ko, parang na-realize ko noon on the car ride back home from voting.

Speaker: Sabi ko, maybe if I did more...

Speaker: Maybe if I did more.

Speaker: Maybe if I just talked to more people.

Speaker: Like, talked to my neighbors at least.

Speaker: Kasi, like, sabi ko nga sila Atimog, sila Daril, nag-house to host sila sa mga taong hindi nga nila kilala.

Speaker: Like, alam mo yun, pawis at pagod sila.

Speaker: Tapos ako, hanggang rally lang ako, hanggang online lang ako.

Speaker: Pero, may nagawa ba talaga ako?

Speaker: When I know na ang laki-laki ang nakataya.

Speaker: So I was crying more of like regret na hindi ko pinuhos lahat ng parang nasa isip ko na I could have done more.

Speaker: I should have done more.

Speaker: Ganon.

Speaker: Para at least kahit natalo, masabi kong nabigay ko lahat.

Speaker: Pero hindi ko kasi nabigay lahat.

Speaker: Kasi, yun nga, I wasn't capable of doing that.

Speaker: So yun, yak-yak ako.

Speaker: I was just watching the news.

Speaker: When the results were already in the morning, if you were in the... Daryl was really there, counting.

Speaker: I was just in front of my TV, seeing the numbers getting updated every 30 minutes, every something minutes, and I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

Speaker: The margin was so... The big difference.

Speaker: Tapos umiiyak na ako.

Speaker: Umiiyak na lang ako the whole time.

Speaker: Tapos nagpabili ako ng ala ko.

Speaker: Umiinom ako.

Speaker: Tapos nagtawagan na kami parang yung ibang friends nagtawagan na kami ng mga friends.

Speaker: Sila Jonas, sila Franz.

Speaker: At I forgot kung sino pa.

Speaker: Pero we were in disbelief of what the results were.

Speaker: And

Speaker: It felt like someone died.

Speaker: That's how it felt for me, no?

Speaker: How did you process that, Mog?

Speaker: I mean, you know, I'm a petty.

Speaker: When the results are final.

Speaker: You know, I'm so...

Speaker: I think I echoed the question of Keshe.

Speaker: A part of me felt that maybe if I had more reservations in life, that's how I felt.

Speaker: Parang, baka sana if lahat ng house to house na puntahan ko, or nung nag-stategize kami ng house to house, sana mas exhaustive siya.

Speaker: Baka mas malayo yung narating.

Speaker: Baka, paano ko ba sabihin?

Speaker: Kasi nung tinignan ko yung votes, yung mga barangay kung saan tayo nag house to house Darryl, talo si Leg.

Speaker: So, parang may personal...

Speaker: kirot siya on me.

Speaker: It felt like we failed.

Speaker: We did naman.

Speaker: Pero parang ako, hala, saan ako nagkulang?

Speaker: Bakit hindi ko na-reach yung goal?

Speaker: Bakit?

Speaker: Kasi parang siguro kung sa barangay namin nanalo si Lenny, medyo, I did something good.

Speaker: Ganun.

Speaker: So, may ganung feelings ako.

Speaker: I share the same feelings with Keshe.

Speaker: On the other hand, as a petty bitch that I am, as a petty kakampinklawan, as a petty kakampink, ano talaga ako, spiteful ako.

Speaker: Bala kayo dyan.

Speaker: Ayan yung governance na pinili.

Speaker: Oh, sige.

Speaker: Ganun ka na nag-cope.

Speaker: Sige, pahala kayo dyan.

Speaker: Oo.

Speaker: I don't expect your learning experience.

Speaker: Let's see what you feel when your leader did not show up during difficult times.

Speaker: That's what I'm saying.

Speaker: I'm confused on Twitter, I'm confused on group chat, I'm confused on the chat.

Speaker: I'm confused on the chat.

Speaker: You know, disclaimer, what I did is something that people shouldn't do as a kakampink.

Speaker: Don't be a spiteful bitch.

Speaker: But you know, I'm happy that there are friends who, you know, called me out on it.

Speaker: But I still haven't listened because we're still a little bit.

Speaker: Yes, because you're a fight for bitch.

Speaker: Yes, I was a bit self-centered.

Speaker: I was a selfish take.

Speaker: I went beyond my comfort zone, but it's not your own.

Speaker: It's not your own.

Speaker: It's your own.

Speaker: Yeah, you're being honest.

Speaker: We're transparent here.

Speaker: We're transparent.

Speaker: I'm wrong.

Speaker: That's just the level of self-awareness.

Speaker: We all process grief differently.

Speaker: We all processed it differently.

Speaker: I realized it was also hard to talk to you guys about it.

Speaker: It's not hard.

Speaker: But because I know that we all process grief differently and we may not agree with each other's

Speaker: processes.

Speaker: And everything was triggering.

Speaker: So, it was hard.

Speaker: I can't even remember anymore.

Speaker: Parang blinang out na siya ng brain ko.

Speaker: Maggagatungan lang tayo ng lungkot at

Speaker: Inis.

Speaker: Diba?

Speaker: Minsan pala ganun na no.

Speaker: Minsan, kasi sabi nila basta may karamay ka, okay lang.

Speaker: Minsan hindi din.

Speaker: Minsan, you have to take things separately din and have you process it on your own through.

Speaker: Siguro ang tanong ko sa'yo mag, ako, for me, at least, last two questions.

Speaker: Number one, nakamove on ka na ba?

Speaker: O masasabi mong nakamove on ka na ba?

Speaker: Pangalawa, dapat bang umasa pa tayo?

Speaker: Because we don't have a hope.

Speaker: It's like, this is it, fuck, it's another six years.

Speaker: Maybe, I'm not going to move on.

Speaker: I'm able to manage my emotions, handle myself, tone down the spitefulness, but I'm not.

Speaker: Andun pa din, andun yung kirot, andun yung what if.

Speaker: And it's okay.

Speaker: I embrace that.

Speaker: I embrace this season.

Speaker: Pero hindi ko siya finofuel or nire-reinforce.

Speaker: I just let it be.

Speaker: Ganyan.

Speaker: But to tell you honestly, I haven't.

Speaker: Because of course, a big desire in my heart is I want a better governance for the country.

Speaker: As cliche as it may sound, but you know, I have mga inaanaks, pamangkins na gusto ko maayos yung kinabukasan nila.

Speaker: Ano yung naiisip ko sila Kurt?

Speaker: Naiisip ko sila Bik Bik?

Speaker: Na itong six years na to, hindi naman na ako yung magre-reap nung consequence na to eh.

Speaker: Sila Bik-Bik na yun, tsaka sila Kurt.

Speaker: And hindi ako at peace with that thought na yung political consciousness natin or yung mga political decisions natin ngayon, ang magsasuffer is yung mga bata na hindi naman butante.

Speaker: Kaya hindi ako makamove on.

Speaker: Kasi, as we all know, political decisions, decisions made by our leaders will always have effect to the future.

Speaker: Well, you know, the next question din na gusto ko sanang sagutin is how do I channel this feeling in a more productive and in a more healthy way?

Speaker: Siguro this is also in relation to the next question, kung umaasap pa ba, umaasap

Speaker: Umaasa pa ba ako?

Speaker: Oo naman.

Speaker: Parang, I think yun na lang yung pinaka minimum requirement sana na para dun sa mga nasaktan, sana umaasa pa din tayo kasi we need to move forward.

Speaker: I think there's a little, I don't want to say obligation or responsibility, but a part of us, I think,

Speaker: should still have some sense or some desire to make all things better.

Speaker: Yeah.

Speaker: But in a way that we make do with what we have.

Speaker: Hindi ko naman pinapressure yung mga pink

Speaker: my friends, my pink.

Speaker: No, we should also give it to you, help.

Speaker: But if there's a part of you that wants to help or if there's some form of resources that you can give to people who are suffering under this whatever you call this admin, leadership, governance, help.

Speaker: I think that's how I'm gonna move forward.

Speaker: making do with what I have in a way that I can help other people's lives better.

Speaker: Especially those na naapektuhan ng mga desisyon ng mga nakakataas.

Speaker: Ayun lamang po.

Speaker: Mugs for Mayor.

Speaker: Sorry.

Speaker: Mayor's wife.

Speaker: Sorry.

Speaker: Pero yeah, I love that so much.

Speaker: That is true.

Speaker: Ikaw, bada, meron ka pa bang hope?

Speaker: You know, Moggs, different things to be able to process grief and be more helpless.

Speaker: I'm in the spiral of helplessness.

Speaker: If you're hoping, I feel like I'm at the point where

Speaker: Pagod na akong umasa talaga, Mogse.

Speaker: Like, kung ikaw sasabihin mo mo dapat umasa, sana umasa pa tayo.

Speaker: Ako parang, ang pangat naman ng umasa at umasa at umasa na lang.

Speaker: Ganyan.

Speaker: Tapos, tapos parang, ano, parang, ang realidad, sinasampal ka sa mukha na, hindi, hindi pa rin.

Speaker: So parang, andun ako sa point na, yun ko, parang,

Speaker: you're tired and tired.

Speaker: And maybe to follow the answer, I channeled my tired that I was tired.

Speaker: I was tired and tired.

Speaker: I want... I want... I want... I want to be able to be able to be influenced by people who are influenced by people who are influenced by people who are influenced by

Speaker: Ganito ang pamamalakad.

Speaker: Ganitong klase ng governance.

Speaker: Sa korupsyon.

Speaker: Ganyan.

Speaker: Sa... Sa... Sa mga kasinongalingan.

Speaker: Ganyan.

Speaker: Yung galit na ganyan.

Speaker: Kasi feeling ko.

Speaker: Feeling ko lang naman.

Speaker: Magmamanifest siya to like... Some sort of... Other kind of change.

Speaker: Kasi you know.

Speaker: The positive scripting... Does not work for me anymore.

Speaker: Ganyan.

Speaker: Pero... Ewan ko...

Speaker: To tell you honestly, I'm angry.

Speaker: I'm upset, but I'm angry.

Speaker: I'm a little bit of both.

Speaker: Because I need to channel your anger to make sure you're able to get out of the way.

Speaker: No, to make sure that people who are accountable will be held accountable.

Speaker: Yes, right.

Speaker: Yeah, that also.

Speaker: And not stop it.

Speaker: We cannot stop there.

Speaker: We need to progress.

Speaker: I do it for the sake of my children.

Speaker: I have to.

Speaker: I have no choice.

Speaker: And who will fight for them?

Speaker: They're still children.

Speaker: The consequences of...

Speaker: the decisions that are made during our time will affect them.

Speaker: But I still hope for the best.

Speaker: Maybe it just wasn't meant to be this time, I guess.

Speaker: Yeah, we make do with what we have right now, which is, I don't know, what do we have?

Speaker: I don't even know.

Speaker: But yeah, we're getting there.

Speaker: We're processing it.

Speaker: one day at a time.

Speaker: But I'm happy that we were able to already talk about it now, right?

Speaker: That says a lot.

Speaker: Sorry.

Speaker: Grabe talaga yung impact niya sa akin.

Speaker: Kasi, honestly, kuminsan, parang feeling, inaanoko na lang ang OAOA ko naman.

Speaker: Pero tanggap ko na na ang lalim talaga nung kurot sa akin.

Speaker: Tsaka, akala ko nga, nakamove on na ako eh.

Speaker: Kasi ang tagal-tagal na.

Speaker: It was a long time.

Speaker: I was a long time.

Speaker: I was a depressed man.

Speaker: I was a nervous man.

Speaker: I was thinking, now we're going to be in September.

Speaker: Yeah.

Speaker: Then, we didn't even know.

Speaker: It was a pain.

Speaker: I was a pain.

Speaker: When he speaks to me, I always come to my mind, like I'm going to cue in Ben and Ben from the next life.

Speaker: That's what Kish said.

Speaker: I'm going to try it.

Speaker: Diba may mga post kasi sa TikTok na ano, mga memories nila sa Pink Rally.

Speaker: Tapos yung background, Sasuke.

Speaker: Pag ikaw yung magkata.

Speaker: Eh, iniiyakan ko yun.

Speaker: Eh.

Speaker: Pag nakakakita ako nun.

Speaker: Siguro ngayon ang form of distraction ko yung mga memes.

Speaker: Yung mga memes.

Speaker: Mga shitposts about what's happening.

Speaker: Parang...

Speaker: Pag nakakita nga ako ng mga ganyan sa TikTok, yung mga campaign shit, meron pa kasi sa algorithm ko, wala talagang scroll up, scroll up, ganyan.

Speaker: Kasi hindi ko kayang panoorin.

Speaker: Trauma.

Speaker: Nulungkot ako.

Speaker: Pero, di ba, di ba, ati Morgz, dapat i-embrace lang natin at ano, i-process lang natin ng lungkot and we sit with it.

Speaker: Yeah, buti na lang hindi po ka, Mogs.

Speaker: At, ah, salamat dahil nakasama mo kami sa episode na to.

Speaker: Medyo mabigat-bigat din kasi siya.

Speaker: But, yeah, thank you for sharing your stories with us and your experiences.

Speaker: Yun.

Speaker: Wow.

Speaker: Yun lang, gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa Is This Thing On for inviting me.

Speaker: Ako talaga feeling ko dapat meron akong badge, fan badge ng Is This Thing On.

Speaker: Ay, oo.

Speaker: Top fan.

Speaker: Oo, dapat top fan niya na ako.

Speaker: Kasi, ayun.

Speaker: Tapos, feeling ko as a fan, ano pa eh, after kong makinig, itchatchat ko pa sila darin, Hoy, totoo ba?

Speaker: Hindi ko alam yun.

Speaker: Gano'n.

Speaker: I'm so happy to hear.

Speaker: We're happy that you're here.

Speaker: I hope your listeners will be here because I think this podcast has really helped other people, including myself, process things, especially the burnout episode.

Speaker: For me, sometimes I just want to escape cash.

Speaker: That's it.

Speaker: Now why you can process your grief in a better way and healthier way, not like us.

Speaker: I'm sorry.

Speaker: But thank you for your feedback.

Speaker: We always try to do it again.

Speaker: And so, for those who are interested, if you haven't followed us on social media accounts, we can also find the handles of our social media accounts like Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter.

Speaker: We can also add the links in the show notes.

Speaker: Yes.

Speaker: And if you want to share those, we have an anonymous link that you want to share.

Speaker: In Google Form, yes.

Speaker: If you want to share those experiences of the campaign, please do.

Speaker: We will be happy to read it in one of our episodes.

Speaker: It's a series.

Speaker: We also want to process and share some stories.

Speaker: Why not?

Speaker: So, thank you so much for your love.

Speaker: We'll be here to finish it.

Speaker: Yung episode na to, ako ulit si Daryl.