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think the person got an assault charge because of the germs. I think that, yeah, I think that, um I think that, yeah, if I were to give, so like, I know I came in hot, but like, for me, I think that that's, it takes me out of the story. I immediately feel a sense of anxiety because my, my natural state of things is that I just want even, this is why I love romance. I just want everybody to get along. I just want everybody to feel loved. I just want everybody to feel safe. You read like those high stress, like 10 book saga romanticies. Hey, you know what guys? And we all end up reading stuff. That's nothing like our real lives. But for me, like I, that is for, yes. And I read high stress stuff and crazy things like yeah major tension. No, I know. But that's just for me. I'm like, Oh no. that's too much pressure because now I have to be like, I immediately, without even trying to, will sit there because of my little people-pleasing, everybody-get-along-kumbaya brain. And I'm like, well, what is he going to say about this? So like if if it's even a mention, I'm like, what is he going to say about this? Am I going to like what he has to say? I going to have to find a way to like this person even though I don't like their viewpoint? Am I going to have to like – you know what I mean? And so I immediately get this pit in my stomach and it's about this dread of like how much work am I going to have to do