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Jerome's Summer Love-Hate Relationship
00:00:32
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Hey everyone, welcome back to another week, an episode of Gather Them Podcast.
00:00:37
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I'm your host Jerome, and we're back.
00:00:41
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It's been a hot one.
00:00:43
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I am very, very tired of the heat.
00:00:47
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As I'm recording today, today's the first day, Thursday, where it's not extremely hot outside and humid.
00:00:55
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And that's the thing, it's mostly been humid.
00:00:57
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Like, it's not...
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So much the heat.
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It's like the humidity is the thing that's like the problem because it zaps you.
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And that's my love-hate relationship with summer.
00:01:07
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I feel like summer is one of those months where, or not months, seasons.
00:01:13
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Oh my God.
00:01:15
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It's one of those seasons.
00:01:17
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I mean, it feels like a month though, because it's been hot, like consistently, like it hasn't even rained.
00:01:22
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But that's beside the point.
00:01:23
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But summer is like one of my favorite seasons.
00:01:26
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love that you get to go to the beach i like that it's lighter out longer um i hate that about the winter when it the sun sets at like four o'clock i used to like that um as a teenager because it felt like being outside at night when you weren't really outside at night um but it sucks like it sucks when you grow up and you have seasonal depression and it's cold as fuck so you can't do anything um
00:01:53
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But yeah, I'm just, I, it's, and then I hate the fact that like, now that it's nice today, because I had this whole thing this week where I was like, I'm not going out this week because it's too fucking hot and I don't got the time.
Contemplating Outdoor Activities
00:02:07
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And I went outside today to go pick up some stuff and run errands.
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And I was just like, hmm, it's actually not that bad out here.
00:02:14
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Like I could actually probably go out tonight.
00:02:17
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And then I thought about it and I'm like, Jerome, you definitely said at the beginning of the week, you are not going to go out.
00:02:25
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I don't know.
00:02:25
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But also, but then it's like, okay, so here's the thing that counteracts that, though, is the fact that in the wintertime, I did spend a lot of time indoors.
Winter Spending Habits and Financial Management
00:02:34
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But I will say, like, the caveat or the, like, inverse to even that is the fact that I spent a lot of money on, you know, DoorDash and Uber Eats and, you know, no sponsor, of course.
00:02:48
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But, um...
00:02:51
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spent a lot of money on them bitches so i'm like jerome like get yourself together like what the fuck is going on um but yeah i was just like thinking about that you know today and i'm like i don't know i guess next week y'all will know if i did it or not um i'm hoping that the podcast like if i record and it wears me down too much then i will feel tired enough to just be like fuck it i'm gonna stay in but it's so intense
00:03:17
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He's saying like, like the thing I love about the summer is I love that, like for the most part, I mean, besides the, you know, heavy gun violence, but again, when is there not heavy gun violence in America?
Appreciating Summer's Social Benefits
00:03:32
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I love the fact that people are just kind of,
00:03:35
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you know, outside a little bit more friendly.
00:03:38
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Um, you know, I'm usually not in a rush to just kind of, if it's a nice day out, I'm usually not in a rush to go anywhere, um, or go home immediately.
00:03:46
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Like I want to go outside and I want to be out in nature, but when it's just humid and hot and you just like, when I woke up the other morning, I went to Dunkin Donuts and I got, um, Oh, shout out to my friend, Alfreda, because she saw me.
00:03:59
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Um, and she said, I look skinny.
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Um, um,
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But yeah, so when I went to that just made me laugh because I was just like, oh, like I didn't even know like you saw me and it was just like traffic out there.
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Like that was it was crazy.
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That Dunkin Donuts is literally the hell mouth.
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But I was outside at like 7 a.m.
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and I was already sweating like the air was thick.
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It felt like being in a can.
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Or in a hot pot of soup.
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Or it felt like being in a sauna that you are wearing clothes in.
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And that's disgusting
Humidity's Impact on Comfort and Health
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to me.
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I'm like, that feeling of humidity.
00:04:37
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I don't know why some people like humidity.
00:04:39
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And I kind of get the importance of humidity.
00:04:41
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Because even when, say for instance, you're running your air in your house and you don't have a humidifier.
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then it makes it the air dryer and so you don't like you have to do a lot of um you have um phlegm and you know all of that stuff bile whatever uh
00:05:00
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you know, whatever that stuff is called, coming up.
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And it's usually because you need to hydrate and you're, you know, drying yourself out.
00:05:07
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And then it's like the humidity is kind of like a double whammy because, you know, when you maybe have the AC on a comfortable temperature, you start to sweat a little bit more maybe.
00:05:21
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And then you're like turning the air back on and, you know, you have to hydrate, you know, so that's the important thing.
00:05:27
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Um, I've been doing a terrible job at hydrating and my trainer hasn't, I mean, I haven't really talked to him about it, you know, as of late, but it's something that I'm also trying to like work on.
City Job Perks and Privacy Concerns
00:05:38
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So hold on one second.
00:05:39
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Did y'all hear that?
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But yeah, anywho, it's, you know, the middle of July.
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And basically, like, it's the 11th, 12th today when you guys hear this.
00:06:03
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And I'm just ready for it to not be hot anymore.
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And I'm also ready for, hmm, what else am I waiting for?
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I have a couple of events that are coming up this month, at the end of the month.
00:06:21
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that I'm going to, and I can't wait for my three months to be over so I can at least use sick time at my job because my job has me like,
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And the crazy thing is, like, you can honestly look if you knew my last name or whatever, you could look up somewhere online and, you know, research my salary, which is crazy, because when you work for like the city, your information is public.
00:06:50
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It's just kind of out there, which is interesting.
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And like.
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I'm like, I'm not, I don't know how to describe like working for the city sometimes, but it doesn't feel like you're like, you're not like super front facing, like you're part of it, but you're very in the background with my job anyway.
00:07:08
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Um, but they make you wait six months until you can use your vacation time and, you know, sick time and stuff.
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And I'm like, thank God we at least have, well for six time, I think it's three months.
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Um,
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which i found out but thank god like i started a job when we have a bunch of holidays but then i like kind of look at it and the city always has holidays like they always have a like one month off i think the only months they don't have off are august hmm
00:07:47
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And that's it.
00:07:48
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Because in April, I mean, unless Good Friday, like this year fell on a fell in March.
00:07:57
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So, yeah, like either March, April, but definitely August because they get like we get President's Day off.
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And.
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We got MLK New Year's.
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Good Friday.
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I'm thinking of the beginning of the year once.
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And then there's Labor Day.
Work Dissatisfaction and City Job Benefits
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So when I was working my previous job at Penn, we only had seven days off, which was crazy as hell.
00:08:30
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Because when I tell you that I...
00:08:36
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literally would have to like space out my time because we didn't get that many holidays and we weren't really working from home and i was working in an office that was literally it'd be fridays and like no one would show up like it was a outpatient office so i was just like why the fuck are we following the hospital rules there's nobody fucking here but i guess to make it fair or whatever but
00:08:58
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um yeah they didn't really give us holidays and we didn't get president's day we didn't get veterans day we didn't get um i think we have juneteenth now with the city but yeah it's like really interesting and i guess i feel more comfortable talking about my job here um and just in a way in which i'm like saying what i do for work as opposed to before because it's like the information is just public like that's crazy to me like the fact that
00:09:26
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my my salary and stuff is just like out there um like it feels like you you're vulnerable you know and that feels weird like it's like why do you like I like having that little bit of like secrecy so like I don't know it's just it's a weird thing working for the city I'm not gonna lie um it's kind of sort of what everyone said it would be which I think is like kind of iconic like the fact that
00:09:57
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people have had like the very like the same experiences that I'm talking about, like individuals that used to work for the city.
00:10:04
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And so I think that's
00:10:07
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I love consistency.
00:10:08
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You know what I mean?
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I love that in a job.
00:10:11
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Like, I feel like when I worked at other places, I got very mixed opinions about stuff until I got in there.
00:10:17
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And I was like, this fucking place is terrible.
00:10:20
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And it's not, like, terrible working for the city for once.
00:10:23
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I'm like, okay, like, I could do this.
00:10:25
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I could, I can really, like, push through this.
00:10:28
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Now,
00:10:30
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you know, all that other stuff, you know, how long I'm be there, all this and that, like what's going to happen, blah, blah, blah.
00:10:36
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I don't know any of that.
00:10:37
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But right now I'm rocking out.
00:10:40
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Like I kind of like the, you know, simplicity of a job that's just like, yes, no.
00:10:46
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I don't like when jobs are a gray area and you have to brainstorm and plan and figure out and develop something just so that you can satisfy a patient.
00:10:58
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Sometimes it's justified.
00:11:00
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And sometimes I'm like, why the fuck are y'all going above and beyond for someone that just called you a fucking bitch to your face and threatened to jump over the counter and slap you?
00:11:10
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And why are we still seeing this person?
00:11:12
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And, you know, I get everyone deserves health care, but everyone also deserves respect.
00:11:17
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And I got so tired of that.
00:11:19
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Like, I got so tired of people being like blatantly outwardly disrespectful on the phone, like cursing you out.
00:11:26
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All you're trying to do is help.
00:11:28
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And I feel like I don't, you know, there's jobs in the city that get that, but there's still better benefits behind that.
00:11:37
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that and actual pay raises like the thing about my other jobs have been none of them were really given raises and they were doing like performance evaluations but not giving raises and I'm like girl get the fuck out of here like girl bye
00:11:52
Speaker
they was given cost of living adjustments but that's nothing like once you're you get like a hundred dollars extra basically you know to your paycheck um when you are after taxes like the net so yeah i hated it um so much but i like the idea that you know we have some um we got some uh
00:12:14
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some good benefits.
00:12:15
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I like that.
00:12:15
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And I like that, um, you know how animated I do like that, that people are animated.
00:12:20
Speaker
I do kind of wish people would be quiet a little bit more.
00:12:23
Speaker
Um, cause my ADHD has been like so bad and I'm trying to navigate and manage that.
Fitness Motivation and Personal Challenges
00:12:30
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Um,
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you know, in my like day to day and making sure I get everything done.
00:12:34
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And then also having the energy and capacity, um, to, you know, pour into this job and at least do the best I can.
00:12:46
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Pour into like my podcasts and things like that.
00:12:48
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Like it gets like I realized this about myself.
00:12:50
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I realized that when people are really chatty to me, especially when it's something that is something that like, for example, say something goes wrong at the job or somebody really just wants to rant about something.
00:13:05
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Um, sometimes I can handle it depending on where I'm at, but when I have a lot of stuff going on, it makes it very hard for me to, uh, also have the energy to, you know, put up with that because I have to also talk to clients and I can't like have the energy.
00:13:24
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I have to have the energy for them.
00:13:25
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Like that's kind of point blank period.
00:13:27
Speaker
So I got to learn how to put my foot down more.
00:13:29
Speaker
in this job, I think.
00:13:31
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Um, so there's, you know, that my trainer's been fucking killing me.
00:13:35
Speaker
Um, he, I love him, but he is, he want me dead, I think.
00:13:43
Speaker
Um, I mean, I'm joking, but, um, no, I love him.
00:13:46
Speaker
He's great.
00:13:47
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I,
00:13:49
Speaker
it's so funny.
00:13:50
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I realized this about him and my, the spin instructor that I usually go to, um, who I think I'm going to take a break from this weekend.
00:13:56
Speaker
Cause I'm like, my body is trembling at the gym and I'm, I'm like, I think I need to just rest, um, and relaxed.
00:14:04
Speaker
And that's also why I'm like, I shouldn't go out, but like, it's the summer, but well, you know, we'll see.
00:14:12
Speaker
Um, but yeah, so I was just been, you know, with them, I realized that I,
00:14:19
Speaker
I like them.
00:14:20
Speaker
They're great guys.
00:14:21
Speaker
And then I'm like, during the workout, I'm like, I fucking hate this bitch.
00:14:24
Speaker
Because why the fuck is he got me?
00:14:28
Speaker
Doing this, like, I know I said I wanted to do a chin up, but damn, like, how many of these I got to do?
00:14:34
Speaker
I'd be like so mad.
00:14:36
Speaker
But no, I really, I love that, though, about having a trainer.
00:14:39
Speaker
I love having someone, like, push me because I'm someone that's, like, very rebellious.
00:14:46
Speaker
And I need that.
00:14:48
Speaker
Like, I need somebody to challenge me sometimes because I, you know, it's very Aquarius of me to just think I'm right.
00:14:57
Speaker
When I'm not right and I'm realizing that and that's the thing I'm like, maybe it doesn't hurt to have a trainer because you can actually get some direction and it doesn't have to be forever.
00:15:09
Speaker
You can just kind of learn how you're supposed to move your body.
00:15:12
Speaker
Yeah.
00:15:14
Speaker
And then you'll be able to, you know, do the exercises on your own or take a break and come back when you feel like you want to challenge again.
00:15:23
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Like I'm thinking of doing that when my six months is up.
00:15:26
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I'm thinking of, you know, kind of letting it breathe a little bit with the trainer and then working on like still working on my fitness and stuff.
00:15:36
Speaker
But I want to be more in a this is like more of a way to get me like
00:15:41
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in the gym, like learning what I need to be doing, being more consistent, like being accountable.
00:15:49
Speaker
Like I think having a trainer keeps me accountable because I don't like disappointing people.
00:15:54
Speaker
And it makes me feel weird when I have to disappoint someone.
00:15:58
Speaker
So I don't like that.
00:16:00
Speaker
That makes me feel weird, especially like a trainer, even though I'm fucking paying them.
00:16:03
Speaker
Like, you know, every, it's so funny.
00:16:05
Speaker
I'm not going to say this, but like,
00:16:07
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It's just so funny how like having a trainer just holds you accountable.
00:16:14
Speaker
Because you just, you know, you push yourself harder when people are watching you.
00:16:17
Speaker
I've been having crazy like epiphanies recently too about some other personal stuff.
00:16:27
Speaker
And I'm like, I'm not, I had it on outline.
00:16:29
Speaker
I was like, you know what?
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I'm not going to share it.
00:16:30
Speaker
Only thing I will say is this is about my dad.
00:16:35
Speaker
something I realized I needed to do.
00:16:37
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And he's been coming up a lot for me
Personal Growth and Family Reflections
00:16:40
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lately.
00:16:40
Speaker
And I'm like, Oh, like, this is starting to like, I feel like I'm, I'm, I finally made peace with like my mom, you know, passing.
00:16:49
Speaker
And now I'm like, Oh, here we go.
00:16:52
Speaker
Like, this is the dad part.
00:16:56
Speaker
Which I, you know, I never really, you know, given too much thought about because I was just like, well, we're not, we weren't really super close.
00:17:04
Speaker
But yeah, that was, that's something that's been coming up.
00:17:06
Speaker
So my depression's been a little here, like humming in the background.
00:17:15
Speaker
But yeah, that's it.
00:17:16
Speaker
But once I lose a stomach, I just want to say that before I move on.
00:17:19
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I just want to say once I lose a stomach, I can't wait for,
00:17:26
Speaker
to be out here like I can touch my toes like that's crazy that's the that's a big win for me because I'm like what are you
00:17:34
Speaker
what i just oh okay like i can touch one like the same side if i put my foot up or like stretch like i can like bend over and like actually reach my toes so it's not like i can stand up and reach the floor even though i can almost do that um but i was just like oh like this actually working i've been consistent i've been in here i'm seeing results i'm getting stronger um
00:17:57
Speaker
So shout out to my gym that is rich enough to sponsor me if they wanted to.
00:18:06
Speaker
Yeah, so we're going to move into some topics.
00:18:09
Speaker
I have actually really just two topics here, you know, for today.
00:18:14
Speaker
Actually.
00:18:16
Speaker
i'll say this one first um and this was going to be for the media lab but you know we're doing uh the special media lab so i'm not going to um talk about this here but um i just wanted to note that like i saw the trailer for um agatha all along i don't like that they named it that um because it feels like yes it is part of the like wandavision universe or whatever mcu but like
00:18:42
Speaker
I don't know.
00:18:42
Speaker
Like, it just feels... Like, the show doesn't feel the same based off of the trailer.
00:18:47
Speaker
Like, it feels like a gritty crime show that has, like, magic in it.
00:18:53
Speaker
And then... I don't know.
00:18:57
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It feels, like, very... It's, like... It is grittier, it feels like.
00:19:02
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In some ways.
00:19:04
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And...
00:19:05
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I don't know.
00:19:06
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Like, it's not going to be WandaVision, I realize.
00:19:09
Speaker
That's the thing.
00:19:09
Speaker
Like, it's when you start seeing trailers and, you know, the title and who's going to be in it and all of this and that.
00:19:15
Speaker
It's like, damn, this is really a spinoff.
00:19:17
Speaker
Like, this isn't, this is like its own thing, you know?
00:19:20
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And I don't, now that it's getting closer, I'm like, damn, I don't really know how I feel about that.
00:19:25
Speaker
But, um, Catherine Han, she's like fucking amazing.
00:19:29
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So I'm still going to watch.
00:19:32
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I love her.
Suppressed Anger and Autoimmune Diseases
00:19:33
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So I'm still going to check it out.
00:19:36
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I wanted to talk about an article that I saw this week.
00:19:39
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And then I realized I was doing a search and I didn't realize this, but there are so many articles about this.
00:19:44
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But
00:19:46
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Anger and there's a correlation between anger and immune autoimmune health.
00:19:54
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So come to find out that if you are suppressing your anger, there are some consequences to bottling up that anger, which are that essentially you're more likely to develop an autoimmune disease.
00:20:09
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And those autoimmune diseases are
00:20:18
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Things like lupus, arthritis, the thyroid one, what is that?
00:20:25
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Graves' disease.
00:20:27
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And those type of disorders.
00:20:29
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They are autoimmune because they essentially develop when the body is...
00:20:43
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Supposed to, how can I say this?
00:20:45
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They're supposed to, your immune system is supposed to protect itself.
00:20:50
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So you aren't supposed to, you know, get sick sick.
00:20:58
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Like you're not supposed to really, you know, get sick sick because you're, the point is that your immune system is supposed to be the thing that like keeps you from, you know, it takes a hit here and there, but it gets stronger over time.
00:21:10
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But the thing that they're finding or, you know, are researching have been that when it comes to anger, if you start to hold on to the anger, you don't release it.
00:21:21
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It starts to trigger your immune system in a different way.
00:21:28
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Like it's not...
00:21:31
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it starts to abnormally function.
00:21:32
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And so the idea is that an autoimmune disease is the response to the body attacking itself instead of protecting itself.
00:21:45
Speaker
And that is wild to think about because that also reminded me of when someone told me that, um,
00:21:55
Speaker
oh sorry this ice pack is i also hate that about the summer i hate the sorry i'm sidetracking but i have an ice pack on because i keep getting like rashes because it's so fucking humid and i keep sweating um and it's just so like nasty and disgusting um and so i have this ice pack on and it's cold um
00:22:16
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um yeah so yeah the thing about autoimmune you know diseases um too i think is just that fact that um we talk about them but we don't really kind of know what they are in the way in which um they come about but there's been these like articles i've been reading about that have been talking about like chinese um
00:22:40
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Ideas of like the way in which the body functions, there was something I was reading about how the blood is the thing that basically gets attacked in this and it impacts the way in which your liver functions and your liver is supposed to push out those toxins.
00:22:58
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You know how your body has a system of how it gets rid of waste or how it turns food and drinks into waste.
00:23:05
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And that system gets impacted along the way when anger comes about, which is interesting because it makes me reflect on anger.
00:23:18
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you know what i've been like learning about with thoughts and feelings how they are basically real so like they are real things and by bottling up your anger you're not releasing it you're holding on to it so instead of attacking you know other people i guess with your words or with your emotions your thoughts and feelings your thoughts and feelings impact you and that's wild um i'm wonderful black well people of color they said
00:23:47
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one, uh, one in Florida, one in five are, um, no, one in five are usually men.
00:23:56
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So men are less likely to get autoimmune diseases, which also tracks because the fact is that men are often, um, we're more so told to express our anger, which is interesting because I've, you know, not been someone that's been under that track.
00:24:14
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Um, my parents also didn't let me cry.
00:24:16
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Like they weren't,
00:24:18
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you know, like, whatever, rest in peace, but, like, they weren't really, they wouldn't let me be emotional, but they were always emotional, and I think that that's why I have emotional problems sometimes, because I'm like, hmm, this is interesting, but that's not to say, though, that men don't usually, I don't know why I sidetrack like that, that was crazy, it's like I'm talking to myself, like, that's
00:24:45
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mental illness.
00:24:47
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But that just means that, you know, with this going back to the autoimmune thing, that just means that like men are less likely to get it, but it doesn't mean that men aren't more so, you know, aren't going to get it at all because we have famous people that have autoimmune diseases.
Celebrities Managing Autoimmune Diseases
00:25:03
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And some of those are Nick Cannon, like people like Nick Cannon, Morgan Freeman, Ashton Kutcher, who I didn't know had an autoimmune disease.
00:25:12
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Um,
00:25:13
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And then I was reading about it a little bit and he was saying like, I forget what the disease was, but it made him blind and death like temporarily.
00:25:23
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And that's scary as shit.
00:25:24
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Like I can't imagine.
00:25:25
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Like that's also like with Selena Gomez.
00:25:27
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She has lupus, I think.
00:25:32
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Don't quote me.
00:25:34
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And that's when she basically had to get a kidney transplant because she
00:25:42
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her body attacked itself.
00:25:43
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Like that is wild.
00:25:45
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How, if you don't let your emotions out, they still find a way of coming to the surface some way.
00:25:52
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And we can't really treat autoimmune diseases, like in terms of like curing it, curing it, we can treat it with like medicine, but it doesn't really go away because it's chronic.
00:26:04
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And so, um,
00:26:05
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Some people do things to try to make their immune systems a little stronger or they'll try to be a little bit more mindful about what they're eating and making sure they exercise and drink enough water and stuff like that.
00:26:17
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And I think that that is just insane to kind of think about.
00:26:23
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And I also just wonder if like what is...
00:26:28
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counter to that?
00:26:29
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Is it, you know, the idea that like more people tend to get, you know, autoimmune diseases because they're nicer or they're not as, you know, willing to tell people no.
00:26:41
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It makes people or makes me think about whether or not people, I didn't really look into like genetics and stuff, but it just makes me like really think about the ways on which
00:26:56
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Our emotions are real and how they impact.
00:27:01
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I mean, they're real like that's crazy to think about the fact that like something that you can't see has an impact on.
00:27:11
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your physical body, even though you can't see the inside of your body, it still exists.
00:27:17
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And you know, way, it's wild to think that like this thing you can't see triggers, you know, hormones that are based off of your thoughts.
00:27:29
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you know, and that you and your feelings and your emotions and the ways in which you're, you know, going about your day to day, like that is, I think, wild to think about.
00:27:39
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Four out of five people are more likely women, but of that, more likely to be people of color, specifically black women.
00:27:48
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And that doesn't surprise me because, and again, it tracks because women are often told that they need to
00:27:59
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contain themselves and be ladylike and they can't be angry they always have to be happy and this and that like it makes so much sense when you look at the psychology behind the ways in which these elements come about from social experience like social interactions like that is
00:28:24
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I don't know.
00:28:24
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It blows my mind a little bit.
00:28:26
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I don't know if it blows y'all mind.
00:28:28
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I just was like, wow, when I read this and I was like, damn, that's crazy.
00:28:32
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Because I know people like Wendy Williams, for example, like she has Graves disease.
00:28:36
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And I'm like, damn, like.
00:28:41
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And this is why I'd be like, okay, people don't... Like, people be doing too much work for her.
00:28:44
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Like, that's why I'm, like, always going to be a Wendy Williams apologist.
00:28:48
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Because I'm like... Like, damn.
00:28:50
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So she must... Like, she was stressed.
00:28:52
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Like, she was going through it.
00:28:54
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That's wild to think about.
00:28:58
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But yeah.
00:28:59
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So out of the autoimmune diseases, lupus and arthritis tend to impact women of color more.
00:29:12
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That makes also makes sense when you think about like the medical field and the way in which the medical field treats people that aren't white, you know?
00:29:26
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And then it's like, then there's the testing part.
00:29:28
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So this is the part where I hear from different people, like various experiences of how they found out they had an autoimmune disease.
00:29:35
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And oftentimes it's because the doctor doesn't even want to test for it, which is fucked up.
00:29:41
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Now, knowing this information, because...
00:29:44
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Honestly, if you took an article like this to your doctor and was like, well, see, I just want to make sure I'm good.
00:29:48
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I mean, you might have to find a new doctor if they still say no.
00:29:54
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But, you know, at least you asked.
00:29:56
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And I don't like that patients have to be advocates for their own health.
00:30:00
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Like doctors should be doing that.
00:30:02
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Like if I can do that and I work a fucking like eight hour job, like plus some with, you know, another job.
00:30:10
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And the podcast, like, y'all can research this stuff, too, you know?
00:30:14
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Like, that's the thing about, you know, being a medical professional or whatever, you know?
Megan Thee Stallion Interview Insights
00:30:20
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And they don't, like, some doctors don't be caring about anything that's not the paycheck.
00:30:27
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So, there's that, too.
00:30:28
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Even though some doctors don't make that much.
00:30:31
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I don't know, like, what doctors, I guess, what doctors make a lot of money, y'all?
00:30:36
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I know maybe surgeons, but...
00:30:39
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I also wanted to talk about just kind of moving on.
00:30:43
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The Megan Thee Stallion and Shannon Sharp interview on Club Shay Shay, which I ended up watching because I was like, when I saw the clips, I was like, all right, now he's going to do some bullshit.
00:30:56
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But he actually came through.
00:30:58
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And I mean, I didn't like some of the ways in which he was asking the questions.
00:31:01
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Like some of them were repetitive.
00:31:03
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Some of them were not really thought out.
00:31:07
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Or he kind of talked around like what he maybe wanted to ask.
00:31:13
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And it felt somewhat shady at times.
00:31:16
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And I was just like, all right, like.
00:31:18
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I genuinely think that it is a better interview.
00:31:21
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Like, I feel like he's going into his journalism bag a little bit more.
00:31:26
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And he must have got, like, the feedback.
00:31:28
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And it wasn't three hours long.
00:31:30
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Thank fucking God.
00:31:32
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Oh, my God.
00:31:32
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And he updated or uploaded one up with, what's her name?
00:31:35
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Megan Good, which I kind of want to check out.
00:31:38
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But, like, I'm also kind of all right.
00:31:40
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Like, I don't.
00:31:41
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really care about that and you know the whole thing that she's got going on with um jonathan majors and i kind of feel like i don't know
00:31:55
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I have some thoughts.
00:31:57
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I'm not going to say them, but I have some thoughts.
00:32:01
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But anyway, with Megan, it was a really great interview.
00:32:04
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I thought that Megan, I love her.
00:32:06
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She's just very much herself.
00:32:09
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I love when she was just like, so like I said, my influences are my...
00:32:15
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mom or my main influencer you know in my life has been my mom because you know i wanted to you know i loved the way she rapped i wanted to you know become a rapper and she had really inspired me and blah you know xyz blase blase and so um i think he was trying to get her to say though because he kind of sort of asked again that was when he asked again actually but um he kind of it seemed like he was trying to get her to list like actual
00:32:43
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like people that are mainstream or that are like really known um but she's like i love that like she's so authentic because she was just like so like i said my influence my biggest influence is my mom and i'm like yes everybody stop asking her that question like she's already said this before like not even just in this interview but she's said that before um and so when i first saw that clip i was laughing because
00:33:11
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I'm like, damn, doesn't he do his interview?
00:33:13
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And I feel like that was okay.
00:33:15
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And so this is the thing.
00:33:16
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So I feel like that was supposed to get people to watch.
00:33:20
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And it, you know, worked on me, of course.
00:33:21
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I mean, either way, I was going to watch because I was like, fucking Megan Thee Stallion.
00:33:24
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Yes.
00:33:26
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I was gonna watch regardless.
00:33:27
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But I think for him, like, or that clip, it made me intrigued because I'm like,
00:33:33
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okay, people are saying the interview is better, but why is he asking, you know, why is she saying it like this?
00:33:38
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And I think that it's probably somebody that like works for him or whatever his podcast is under.
00:33:48
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Like, I don't even know who like owns his podcast, you know, or like where it's who is hosted through.
00:33:55
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I was just watching.
00:33:57
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And,
00:33:59
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I think that they took that clip to make it kind of messy, like, you know, the sense to make it salacious and to get people to watch, which, I mean, cool, you know, whatever.
00:34:11
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But I just feel like the real fans of Megan Thee Stallion know that her biggest influences have been Pimp C and her mom.
00:34:20
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And...
00:34:23
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yeah like i don't know it just to me it's like i wouldn't even ask that question i would like you can literally look that up online so but i love the interview overall i love that she you know um is so independent and nice and funny and interesting and
00:34:44
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Like, she's an enigma a little bit.
00:34:46
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Like, she's an enigma because she has so many different sides to her.
00:34:51
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And I'm like, I still kind of can't figure... Like, I know who you are and I feel connected to you, but I also don't really know who you are.
00:34:57
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And that's the thing about Aquarius.
00:34:59
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Like, people are so quick to judge Aquarius.
00:35:02
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But the thing is, a lot of times, we just be going through a lot of stuff.
00:35:06
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Or we'd be going through...
00:35:07
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We're having these airhead moments.
00:35:10
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I saw that clip of her on Family View when she was like... Or Steve Harvey asked her, name something that's curvy.
00:35:19
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And she was like, me.
00:35:19
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And then she was like, oh, my body.
00:35:22
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Like right before the buzzer rung.
00:35:23
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And I think that's so funny because...
00:35:27
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I feel like that's something I would say.
00:35:28
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Like, I feel like that's something I would do.
00:35:31
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Because I'm not thinking like I'm thinking about curvy, or I'm thinking about the thing that connects to me, or something random and people be like, how the fuck did you come up with it?
00:35:41
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Or like, why the fuck would you say that?
00:35:45
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And so I think that was just
Megan's Personality and Philanthropy
00:35:46
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so funny.
00:35:46
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I think that I love, you know, I was noticing that Shannon was picking up on the fact that Megan's a very authentic person.
00:35:57
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Like she doesn't pretend to be this fake person.
00:36:02
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I think it's, I can tell sometimes it is maybe hard for her to be in the limelight.
00:36:10
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Because, again, like, she's a very, you know, high vibrational Aquarius in the sense that, yes, I'm using astrology.
00:36:19
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I don't give a fuck.
00:36:20
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It's my podcast.
00:36:20
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I can do what I want.
00:36:22
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But the thing about Aquarius is that there are, like, high vibrational Aquarius and there are low vibrational Aquarius.
00:36:28
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She very much strikes me as someone that is more of a high vibrational Aquarius because...
00:36:33
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She's like more comfortable in her skin.
00:36:36
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She's about advocacy.
00:36:39
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She's about, you know, building people up.
00:36:42
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Humanitarianism, that's like one of the Aquarius traits.
00:36:47
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She talked about how she wanted to, I think it was in this interview, how she wanted to...
00:36:54
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Oh, yeah, I think it was where she was like talking about how she wanted to make I think it was like a group home or something for like individuals.
00:37:04
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So she's like very much like philanthropy driven.
00:37:09
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And that's like a Aquarius thing.
00:37:11
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And then it's also like the guy complex and all of that stuff.
00:37:14
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But she seems like very loyal, which is a high, you know, vibrational Aquarius trait.
00:37:20
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authentic, like she doesn't pretend to be herself.
00:37:23
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Like, this is why she's an enigma, because it's like, she literally, like, the fact that people were, I remember, I literally remember when she started talking about anime, when she first, like, was starting to talk about it,
00:37:36
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um around the time when she was you know getting hot and people was like she don't know nothing about no anime she don't know nothing about no anime and then she started talking about the names and the stories and what she really liked and it sucks that it had to take her doing that for people to actually validate okay like she actually is an anime like she's not just making this up um and that i think makes that as another layer of
00:38:04
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realness and authenticity to her.
00:38:07
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Like, it makes her more real.
00:38:09
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Because she's not just, like, yeah, she's shaking ass, and yeah, she's, you know, talking about getting fucked and, you know, slurped up and all of this and that.
00:38:17
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But...
00:38:19
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she's also an anime girl and she loves Japan and, you know, she's going to school and got her degree and she has these dreams outside of rep of what, you know, she wants her future to look like or what she wants to do.
00:38:38
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Um, she wants to own or be like, create her own, um, and she said like a rock nation, uh, situation.
00:38:47
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And I'm like, girl, you need me to come work for you.
00:38:49
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I, oh my God, please.
00:38:52
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Okay, so we're going to gather right now.
00:38:54
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We're going to gather and manifest that we're going to go, you know, that I'm going to go work for Megan Thee Stallion.
00:39:01
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And I don't have to do anything in the front.
00:39:03
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Like, I really don't.
00:39:04
Speaker
Like, I don't have to go work.
00:39:05
Speaker
I don't have to be in the front.
00:39:06
Speaker
Like, I could be in the back.
00:39:07
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Like, I don't have to be, like, person, like, face up.
00:39:11
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Like, the thing is, I do hard.
00:39:13
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I do really good work, and I work hard.
00:39:14
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Like, I don't be giving a fuck up.
00:39:16
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Like, I just...
00:39:17
Speaker
be toughing it out you know i'd be hard on myself sometimes but one thing about me is i don't be giving up and that's my favorite thing about myself like i'm a hard worker i you know i try to give people the benefit of the doubt but i'm also quick to be like this don't make sense to me um
00:39:41
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I'm good with creative stuff.
00:39:43
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Um, I'm also good with tech stuff, kind of, sorta like there's certain, certain tech things I can do.
00:39:49
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Um, you know, and I think that's just because I'm a millennial, uh, people often come to me for, you know, help.
00:39:57
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So I could be a life coach.
00:40:01
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I have a, I have a license or I will have a license.
00:40:03
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I can be a life coach.
00:40:05
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Um, um,
00:40:07
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know like i just and i wouldn't be a therapist because girl i can't like we got to be friends i'm sorry like we kind of got to be friends and i feel like a life coach isn't like
00:40:19
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not to be, it is, I'm going to say it.
00:40:21
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I'm just going to say it.
00:40:22
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I'm not going to bitch around it.
00:40:23
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I'm going to just say it.
00:40:24
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Being a life coach is like anybody can do that.
00:40:26
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Like, it's not something that you need really, you need training for it.
00:40:31
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Yes.
00:40:31
Speaker
But like, it's not something that is like this serious oath that you're, you know, sworn to protect people and all of this and that.
00:40:40
Speaker
And the only reason I found that out was because I found out that life coaches, I guess, can,
00:40:48
Speaker
kind of sort of provide counseling to people across seas.
00:40:52
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And I'm like, well, shit, I have a fucking master's degree.
00:40:55
Speaker
And I can't even do that.
00:40:56
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Like, I can't, like, there's more freedom.
00:40:59
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And I'm like, so yeah, we're not the same.
00:41:01
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Like, we're really not the same.
00:41:03
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We have different skill sets.
00:41:05
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Ours is a little bit more clinical, goes a little, I think, deeper.
00:41:10
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But I would make a really good life coach because, and I don't, you know, I don't think she really need one.
00:41:14
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But
00:41:16
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I just, I, I'm a good time.
00:41:22
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Oh, no, maybe I'm asking to be her friend more.
Collaboration in Music and Songwriting
00:41:26
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but I love also, oh, the other thing is too, oh, going back.
00:41:30
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So yeah, so this is what I wanted to say about the Limelight thing.
00:41:34
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So the thing that made me realize that I was like, I don't know if she's really great at Limelight because she hesitated when he asked her if she's ever written for
00:41:48
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or ghostwritten or written something for another artist.
00:41:51
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And then she kind of paused.
00:41:52
Speaker
And I, it almost seemed like initially she wanted to say yes, but then realized that she couldn't.
00:41:59
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And I'm like, girl, who did you write for?
00:42:01
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Like, and it's,
00:42:02
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I don't know, like, it's not that deep to me.
00:42:04
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I love that she was just like, yeah, I need help writing my hooks, you know, and I get it.
00:42:08
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Because when you're a rapper, like you rap.
00:42:11
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And I've realized, I think that a lot of people don't think about the fact that most artists do need a group of people to come together and say like, okay, this is how this is going to sound.
00:42:24
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You know, we just all threw ideas together, you know, bounce ideas off each other of what
00:42:29
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you know because you can't just be saying anything like you can you know just say anything but it's not going to be great or memorable um and i feel like that's what most people do that write their own raps is that they don't create anything or if they use like the same type of writers they don't add any kind of like value to their art so but she like
00:42:56
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rapping in Japanese like girl I can't wait like to review that album and I'm mad that I didn't go to the um hot girl summer tour I should have just fucking went honestly I should have just said fuck it and went but um it's fine I heard a lot of people saying that she had people singing on stage and I was like girl I don't really
00:43:17
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like, I don't know, I like when I go to see the artists, like, I don't really want to see, like, the fans, like, I don't, I don't mean to be a hater, like, I really don't, and I mean, that is her image, which, you know, she's, like, a real person, like, she's real about that, and I feel like, for me, I'm a real person in a sense that, like,
00:43:39
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don't get on the stage with me.
00:43:41
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Like, don't be fucking up the spotlight.
00:43:43
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Like, you know, like she makes it more fun.
00:43:47
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And I think that that is what people like, like about her.
00:43:50
Speaker
Like she's a likable person.
Megan Thee Stallion's Personal Strength
00:43:52
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And you know, the fact that she has had so many unfortunate events happen and like losing her parents, like both her parents, her grandmom losing her,
00:44:05
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Not having any siblings, I didn't really think about that.
00:44:08
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Like, she's an only child.
00:44:11
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You know, she still has family, but, like, her family of origin, like, her mom and dad aren't here.
00:44:17
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And her grandma, like, people that are quintessential in your upbringing.
00:44:22
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Like, your aunts and uncles might be, depending on how close your mom is or your dad is to their family, but
00:44:28
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their brother and sisters.
00:44:29
Speaker
But for the most part, like, when I think back on my childhood, a lot of what I remember was spending time at my grandma's house a lot.
00:44:40
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And
00:44:44
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My mom going to work and just, you know, coming to pick us up, you know, us going to the grocery store with my grandma or taking her to the grocery store, taking her to run errands to the doctor's office, doctor's visits.
00:45:01
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things like that.
00:45:02
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So for me, like growing up, you know, my family origin was really, you know, my mom, my brother, my sister, and my dad and my grandmom and grandpop, and then my stepmom.
00:45:17
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So like that felt like very much my like circle, you know, my close circle.
00:45:22
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And then everyone else was just kind of extra because my mom and, um,
00:45:27
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Like my mom and the family weren't super like whatever, you know, there's some stuff.
00:45:32
Speaker
But I really get a chance to like hang out with my cousins like that.
00:45:36
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Like I didn't really get to, you know, spend the night too much of people's houses and things like that.
00:45:43
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And so it gets and then when you, you know, when you lose your parents and then, you know, whether or not you have siblings, how close you are to them or you just kind of, you know, you grow apart and you move on and, you know, life changes.
00:45:57
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happens you know um you start to realize you're like damn like
00:46:02
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I really am in this by myself.
00:46:04
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Like, that's crazy.
00:46:05
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But she's like, she's going really well.
00:46:08
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Like she's handling, I think everything as best as she can.
00:46:12
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I mean, I don't know what's kind of, you know, we don't know what's happening behind the scenes, but she's been very honest about what's been happening behind the scenes.
00:46:21
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I just feel like she's got to be in a good place right now, or at least I hope she is.
00:46:26
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So yeah,
00:46:27
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Shout out to Megan Thee Stallion.
00:46:29
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Also, I realize, even though Shannon Sharp ain't shit sometimes, I'm really attracted to him.
00:46:35
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He is... It's not so much... Like, he gives Uncle or whatever... I think it's his body.
00:46:44
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Or his face, his body, like, all of that.
00:46:46
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Like, I don't know.
00:46:47
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It's something about Shannon Sharp that I'm attracted to.
00:46:51
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It's not so much the jokes, though.
00:46:55
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I don't think.
00:46:58
Speaker
Oh my God.
00:46:59
Speaker
I did think it was hilarious though, that I was looking up Shannon Sharp and I didn't know this, but he had made a joke about Deion Sanders losing his toes, which is not funny.
00:47:14
Speaker
Like that part is not funny, but I'm like, the fact that like you would make a joke about that is weird.
Queer Subtext in Horror Films
00:47:20
Speaker
Like this man, I,
00:47:24
Speaker
lost more than one toe on one foot you know and that's fucked up i am like i like that's why i'm taking care of my body now i can't go through that shit like that's too much um but yeah so moving into the media lab this week we're talking for our queer horror series we're talking about a night run off street 2 um
00:47:46
Speaker
I had the luxury of seeing it again recently at my buddy Stroh's event at the Rotunda in Philadelphia where he did like a queer horror movie series.
00:48:01
Speaker
And that was one of the ones that was played.
00:48:03
Speaker
And I wanted to see that and the craft, but I had to work the night of the craft, I think.
00:48:10
Speaker
Yeah, I did.
00:48:11
Speaker
I had to work the night at a craft so I couldn't go watch it.
00:48:15
Speaker
But he also just set it off, which I think I maybe could have saw, but I was like drained or whatever.
00:48:25
Speaker
But yeah, so we watched it, we had some discussion and something about this movie that's been prevalent for me or that stood out is the fact that it's a movie where
00:48:39
Speaker
I first hated it when I first saw it because it didn't follow the themes of the first movie.
00:48:45
Speaker
And it felt like a very much like its own, almost like a spinoff of the first movie.
00:48:52
Speaker
And then I found out that Robert Englund did play Freddy.
00:48:59
Speaker
There were some doubles or whatever, but...
00:49:03
Speaker
you know, he played that character.
00:49:05
Speaker
I also didn't like that he was a little, that the character was darker.
00:49:10
Speaker
You know, the voice, the eyes seem more menacing.
00:49:14
Speaker
And it made you almost like, really have no kind of like empathy for him.
00:49:20
Speaker
Because he's a child killer.
00:49:23
Speaker
I mean, in the first place, like you don't have empathy for him.
00:49:25
Speaker
But you don't even like laugh.
00:49:28
Speaker
Like he's just when he says certain things.
00:49:30
Speaker
You're just like, damn, like he's for real.
00:49:35
Speaker
But when I started to get older, I really did appreciate the fact that I started to, you know, I rewatch it, research it a little bit more.
00:49:46
Speaker
Come to find out, I don't really think.
00:49:48
Speaker
Well, based on what a lot of the straight people has said in the 1980s, they were like, we never saw the gay, you know, subtext or whatever.
00:49:57
Speaker
And I'm like, I didn't either until the, you know, bar scene when he goes into the bar and I'm like,
00:50:05
Speaker
Okay, so he's dreaming about being in a bar and he gets caught by his coach and then, you know, his coach, he gets revenge on his coach, which is crazy because when you think about the way in which literature works, for example, so if you look at...
00:50:25
Speaker
The idea that a knife is a phallic object.
00:50:30
Speaker
So the idea of stabbing someone or slicing someone becomes very sexual, which is interesting because in one of the documentaries...
00:50:42
Speaker
They had said that they wanted to, in the scene when Jesse was at the stairs, he was, you know, like trying to figure out who was like outside.
00:50:53
Speaker
He was getting, you know, there was a peeping Tom that was Freddie.
00:50:57
Speaker
And then Freddie ended up in the basement going into the furnace, which I think that was just symbolizing him going back in.
00:51:05
Speaker
getting the glove, I guess.
00:51:07
Speaker
And then his introduction to Jesse.
00:51:10
Speaker
And they wanted him to put the, like the knife fingers, or one of them in Jesse's mouth, which I thought was interesting.
00:51:23
Speaker
And so it reminds me, even in this movie, or just characters in general that like,
00:51:31
Speaker
knives are phallic objects and they are the thing is that they penetrate you and that is sexual you know of course but with um in the movie i guess i didn't really notice it too much um because i'm trying to think of like the kills and
00:51:53
Speaker
Cause it was his coach.
00:51:55
Speaker
It was his friend.
00:51:58
Speaker
Uh, what else?
00:51:59
Speaker
It was at pool party.
00:52:00
Speaker
He was going crazy at the pool party.
00:52:02
Speaker
That was like, are you going crazy at the pool party?
00:52:05
Speaker
Because you are turned on by all these people that are, um, in this pool, like what's going on?
00:52:19
Speaker
And let me see.
00:52:21
Speaker
Who else did he kill?
00:52:24
Speaker
Those were like the significant ones that I remember.
00:52:26
Speaker
I don't know why I can't remember who else he killed in a movie.
00:52:30
Speaker
Because when he killed his friend, he came over to the party with the bloody hands.
00:52:35
Speaker
And then when he killed...
00:52:40
Speaker
his, uh, his coach, he was wandering out on the street and they were like, what the fuck?
00:52:45
Speaker
Like his parents were like, why would you be wandering out on the street?
00:52:49
Speaker
Like, why would you do that?
00:52:51
Speaker
And then put the bars on the window, which they did in the first movie.
00:52:54
Speaker
Um, which it's interesting too, because it gives us almost like idea of jail, which he doesn't sneak out of the house really.
00:53:04
Speaker
Like it's different from the first movie in that sense where he,
00:53:11
Speaker
almost takes starts to take control of, or like really almost fall in line with this character or with this like shift in him.
00:53:25
Speaker
And yeah, that's crazy.
00:53:31
Speaker
He only killed and then a bird died.
00:53:35
Speaker
Oh my God.
00:53:39
Speaker
Huh?
00:53:43
Speaker
Anywho, we're moving one up from that.
00:53:45
Speaker
But I think it's interesting that his targets were men.
00:53:51
Speaker
And that is the penetration part.
00:53:54
Speaker
That's what I'm getting at.
00:53:55
Speaker
So him being like having that like wet dream about his coach, essentially, because he was in the shower and he turns into Freddie, which is crazy.
00:54:07
Speaker
And symbolizing, and I had not really thought too much about this, but symbolizing the manifestation of his gay homosexual urges.
00:54:21
Speaker
Like, the fact that he has Freddie living inside of him.
00:54:25
Speaker
Like, that...
00:54:28
Speaker
is that's a lot to take in like the fact that a villain like freddie who is very demented like you have to be demented because i think it's alleged that he molested those kids that he murdered as well like he didn't just murder them it was like a lot i think they just tried to not make it go too far um which i'm interested about in a new reboot if they're going to actually do that but um if they're going to take their
00:54:56
Speaker
And also, fuck whoever put out, like, fuck y'all if y'all are making those fan trailer things.
00:55:03
Speaker
I just want to say that really quickly, like, because I thought that a trailer really dropped.
00:55:07
Speaker
Come to find out, it was clips from X and other things that Jenna Ortega was in.
00:55:14
Speaker
I'm like shut the fuck like do something better with your time like stop making fake stuff because it's a waste it's like it doesn't do anything for anyone like everyone wants to see that the real official trailer like no one wants to see the fan made you know with the clips of the actors in different movies and all of this and that like and then apparently I think Robert England isn't supposed to be in this which I
00:55:40
Speaker
I'm actually okay with.
00:55:41
Speaker
Like, I don't mind him not being in it because he's older.
00:55:44
Speaker
Like, what do you expect?
00:55:46
Speaker
I do think it is time, though, to do a reboot for this one.
00:55:53
Speaker
Only because something I also realized was that the majority of the movies came out in the 80s.
00:55:59
Speaker
So it was like 84 and then 85.
00:56:04
Speaker
Then Dream Warriors came out.
00:56:06
Speaker
And then I think the fifth one was like,
00:56:11
Speaker
1989 or something like that.
00:56:12
Speaker
It was like right before the 90s.
00:56:15
Speaker
And so then, you know, Freddy is Dead came out in the early 90s.
00:56:20
Speaker
And how every like thing had this like very 80s flair to it.
00:56:27
Speaker
And
00:56:29
Speaker
I think it's time.
00:56:29
Speaker
Like, I feel like it ran, you know, almost a decade or over a decade.
00:56:35
Speaker
And I think it's time for it to come back because he didn't really come back until like Freddy versus Jason.
00:56:43
Speaker
And then...
00:56:46
Speaker
the remake, which I didn't even watch because that defect, his makeup looked terrible.
00:56:51
Speaker
I didn't, the prosthetics looked bad.
00:56:53
Speaker
I was just like, I'm not watching this.
00:56:55
Speaker
So I don't even know if it was good or not.
00:56:57
Speaker
But I heard bad things.
00:56:58
Speaker
I did also in tune in, but it is, I think it's time.
00:57:03
Speaker
I think it's time for a good one.
00:57:04
Speaker
I think it's time for a good one.
00:57:06
Speaker
If someone can do it right.
00:57:08
Speaker
If you can't do it right though, then leave it alone.
00:57:11
Speaker
Like I don't need it to be even like a,
00:57:15
Speaker
cut copy cut paste like I don't need it to do that like I could do some new elements or if they took it in a direction where which is what I saw in the original series was that an original you know franchise I should say is that I just thought the second movie was just like another manifestation of what Freddy could do because
00:57:44
Speaker
he possessed the bird or was in the birds.
00:57:48
Speaker
I'm going to, I think he was in the bird's dream.
00:57:50
Speaker
I'm going to just say it.
00:57:51
Speaker
I think that's why.
00:57:52
Speaker
And then he made the bird combust because the bird was dreaming.
00:57:59
Speaker
Like what, like literally happening what, you know, with the kids, you know, in their dreams was happening to the animal.
00:58:06
Speaker
And then I think that was validated by,
00:58:08
Speaker
And the fourth one, even though I don't think that was supposed to be the case, but he entered the... Fuck, what's that man's name?
00:58:17
Speaker
Oh my God, what's his name?
00:58:19
Speaker
Because I just watched the fourth one and the third one.
00:58:22
Speaker
Kincaid.
00:58:24
Speaker
He went into Kincaid's dog's dreams and Kristen, I think that was her name, woke up with the bite on her arm from the dog.
00:58:36
Speaker
And I thought that that was...
00:58:39
Speaker
I thought those two things were connected.
00:58:41
Speaker
So that's why, to me, I always saw Freddy's powers as being like, he could do it if he wanted, you know, because he's done it before.
00:58:50
Speaker
And I could see why he maybe didn't want or why he failed in a second one with that plan of taking over Jesse's body because he was defeated in the end.
00:59:03
Speaker
Well, he was defeated for a minute and then came back.
00:59:05
Speaker
But I think that
00:59:08
Speaker
which I also haven't thought about that.
00:59:10
Speaker
But anyway, I think that it can add continuity when you think about it that way.
00:59:21
Speaker
And does it make it so far-fetched that these are different Freddies?
00:59:24
Speaker
And it could be that this Freddy, if he was a manifestation of homosexuality, this idea that being gay is this
00:59:37
Speaker
dark, twisted, you know, it almost like it digs deeper into darkness when that's not the case, you know, and it essentially what a lot of I think the writers were saying that essentially what was happening, you know, was that in the 80s, around the time when
00:59:59
Speaker
the AIDS epidemic first happened, you know, people were freaking out and people were like, oh my God, you know, being gay, like you're going to get a disease, blah, blah, blah, X, Y, and Z. And so I think people, you know, also were going through a thing of realizing like, are coming to terms with their sexuality.
01:00:19
Speaker
And Freddie represents the fear of your sexuality or the fear of men who
01:00:30
Speaker
discovering their sexuality and i thought that that was deep as fuck like that's i was like wow like that's crazy um because men are afraid of their sexuality and when you look at the movie or the film i guess in that way it makes so much sense as to why because he wants you know a normal life uh with you know a girlfriend and he doesn't really you know he had a friend but like
01:01:00
Speaker
He seems to want the things that society wants him to have, but he is fighting himself.
01:01:15
Speaker
And in a way, that almost makes this manifestation of Freddie...
01:01:20
Speaker
more real in some ways because that's a very real thing.
01:01:25
Speaker
Like it's not, it's almost like it's a very elevated version of what the first movie did in a lot of ways, even though I didn't like the fact that the guy that produced or directed whatever has said that he never watched the first one or didn't care for the first one.
01:01:41
Speaker
And then still took things from the first one.
01:01:45
Speaker
And yeah,
01:01:47
Speaker
like the house for instance like you didn't move jesse into a brand new different house you moved her into the house that nancy lived in but then didn't really acknowledge nancy outside of like oh she was just some crazy girl that like lived here her mom locked her up like what the fuck is that like she like nancy is that girl
01:02:06
Speaker
Like, don't, don't do Nancy like that.
01:02:08
Speaker
Like, Nancy is the girl, and she should have made it to the end.
01:02:10
Speaker
That's also tea.
01:02:12
Speaker
You know, I'm not gonna, that's also another thing about the series, though, that I don't really, like, care for in later movies is the fact that the final girl keeps changing.
Freddie's Symbolism in Society
01:02:22
Speaker
And I don't know, like, that feels very intentional in the sense that, like,
01:02:27
Speaker
this is what I was want to say earlier when I was talking, but that fear, you can't really, unless you overcome it.
01:02:36
Speaker
Like when you, you know, when Nancy's like, Oh, you turn your back to it.
01:02:39
Speaker
Fear always reappears or there's always something else to be afraid of.
01:02:44
Speaker
So even if Freddie or not Freddie, even if Jesse, for instance, did come to terms, that's also interesting how their names are like Freddie and Jesse.
01:02:52
Speaker
That's interesting.
01:02:53
Speaker
Um, um,
01:02:55
Speaker
even though like you can conquer a fear there's always going to be there may be something that you're else that you're afraid of and then freddie becomes that manifestation of whatever that new fear is and that's like very deep and i think it creates this because as i talked about before in this like idea of like queer
01:03:20
Speaker
films queer media um that makes it interesting or that is really reflective of real life is that people think they know what it's like to be gay or trans or whatever or they or they don't know and i think that's the problem a lot of people don't know what it's like and can't empathize with the fact that people are different um and that they're you know fucking haters um
01:03:44
Speaker
It'll always be.
01:03:45
Speaker
But it's like the fact that like, even when you do like, say if you are coming to terms with your sexuality, you're still going to have that doubt in your head, you're still going to have that feeling of am I making the right choices?
01:04:00
Speaker
Like, am I if I even if I self accept myself?
01:04:04
Speaker
there's always going to be layers there, you know?
01:04:07
Speaker
And I think that with, uh, what's her name?
01:04:12
Speaker
Lisa, um, saying like when she kissed him at the end and then Freddie melted and went away.
01:04:19
Speaker
Um, I just think it's interesting that like, he came back in the end, like the same thing happened that happened in the first movie, which again, I'm like, sir, like you clearly, you took inspiration and stop with the bullshit.
01:04:34
Speaker
I think it's just interesting that he's still like he comes back in the end.
01:04:38
Speaker
And the idea of him coming back in the end, to me, represents the fact that Jesse still either one hasn't come to terms fully with his, you know, homosexuality or his gayness or being gay.
01:04:52
Speaker
And two, that he also, or that he has new problems or concerns that are coming up that he's starting to act out on because of his urges and what Freddie represents, if that's this interpretation I'm making.
01:05:10
Speaker
of this character it's just very well written overall um i think that we it's interesting when we talk about gay characters um in media like some people like the subtext some people don't i'm more someone that doesn't because i like when things are very clear and i like a good story like i can still do the analytic stuff like this like
01:05:37
Speaker
dissecting it pulling it apart but if say for instance like i didn't watch like you know the behind the scenes and like there's certain references i might not get and like the uh what was it the probe the game the probe game that he had um there was
01:05:59
Speaker
I mean, the gay bar was obvious.
01:06:01
Speaker
That one was obvious.
01:06:03
Speaker
And Dom, like, the night it was called Dom's Place, I'm like, stop.
01:06:10
Speaker
The whipping in the shower of the butt, like, that to me was like, when I was younger, that didn't, I was just like, okay, like, that happens.
01:06:16
Speaker
Like, guys do that.
01:06:17
Speaker
Like, that doesn't.
01:06:20
Speaker
you know, mean anything, or at least that's what straight guys tell us.
01:06:22
Speaker
It doesn't mean anything.
01:06:25
Speaker
But then when I started, when I rewatched it and I started seeing the way in which like, okay, the balls are falling, there's the rope, there is, you know, the fact that his teacher, there's this son and coach thing there.
01:06:41
Speaker
Like there's, like he loves to give punishment, but then Jesse's like, I'm actually, I actually want to punish you.
01:06:48
Speaker
And that's,
01:06:52
Speaker
That's wild.
01:06:53
Speaker
That is crazy to think about because he essentially and almost like it's this whole other persona of this like foil of himself where he becomes like this take charge devious and like satanistic kind of
01:07:22
Speaker
gay and it's it's just interesting to watch and if you start to look at it from that perspective but shout out to that uh to that movie series um i can't wait until i don't care what the fans say i'm watching that shit um there's about no robert england like he's old and that's fine like people get old like that's the thing like things happen um and we keep getting reboots so like why not you know why not get an updated version um
01:07:51
Speaker
I didn't realize I didn't have five and six, so I'm a little annoyed about that.
01:07:55
Speaker
I've got to figure that one out.
01:07:58
Speaker
I do have a new nightmare, which I think I had to buy that one.
01:08:02
Speaker
I had to buy the first one, three, and a new nightmare.
01:08:06
Speaker
And then I'm like, okay, now I'm glad I do have the second one.
01:08:09
Speaker
The fourth one, I don't know.
01:08:11
Speaker
It's all right.
01:08:13
Speaker
but and that's why I think the other ones are just okay too like the third one is like so fucking good like honestly if I were to rank them it would be hard because I think the first one is good because the first one introduces this story I think that Nancy did an amazing job I think that the uh
01:08:36
Speaker
introduction of this idea of we don't know what dreams are and you know psychology like starting to piece these things together that to me is interesting and then it takes it a little further and the third movie where they're in the inpatient psych ward and they all like are basically there for like some kind of suicidal ideation or past or active suicidal you know behaviors and
01:09:05
Speaker
They're like, and I mean, the thing is, is that when you are going through something like mental illness, like sleep is the thing that you really need.
01:09:14
Speaker
And to watch these kids just go about their life.
01:09:22
Speaker
Like, I think that one was like more of the, I think it's the best one in terms of, okay, if you want to talk about like the best.
01:09:30
Speaker
If you want to talk about like the big three of A Nightmare on Elm Street, I think that's like the entertainer.
01:09:40
Speaker
That's the entertainer one.
01:09:43
Speaker
The one that I feel like I have something to say is the second one.
01:09:49
Speaker
And then the third one is, because that's the lyrical one, I think.
01:09:56
Speaker
I forget what they said.
01:09:57
Speaker
But then I feel like the first one just does this thing that is just... It's very different.
01:10:05
Speaker
It's not... It leads the way for the story to even happen.
01:10:10
Speaker
So it's like you can't not have the first one.
01:10:12
Speaker
That's like not having the first Child's Play.
01:10:15
Speaker
Everyone loves the second one.
01:10:16
Speaker
But the first one, there'd be no Child's Plays, too.
01:10:20
Speaker
We didn't know...
01:10:23
Speaker
about this, you know, kind of a little bit of what's going on with this story, you know?
01:10:28
Speaker
So shout out to, uh, Wes Craven for that one.
01:10:32
Speaker
Um, RIP also, um, shout out to Matt, uh, Oh my God.
01:10:39
Speaker
Yeah.
01:10:39
Speaker
Matt Patton.
01:10:40
Speaker
Um, because I didn't know that he was, I mean, there's another thing.
01:10:44
Speaker
I didn't know that he was, uh,
01:10:47
Speaker
you know, not openly gay at the time.
01:10:50
Speaker
And he was playing a gay character, which made him feel uncomfortable because he didn't want to get typecasted, which I thought was interesting because I'm like, huh, did at some point you think you were going to come out or did you feel like people were really going to
01:11:08
Speaker
I don't know.
01:11:08
Speaker
I still don't understand that part of it, I think, for me.
01:11:11
Speaker
I think I still don't understand why he felt like he was going to be typecasted as a gay character if he was closeted.
01:11:22
Speaker
I don't know.
01:11:23
Speaker
And then the fact that straight people were like, oh, it went over my head.
01:11:25
Speaker
I'm like, huh, that's interesting.
01:11:29
Speaker
Um, but yeah, shout out to, um, Wes Craven for that.
01:11:33
Speaker
Um, I love, love, love, um, that.
01:11:37
Speaker
And I love, um, scream.
01:11:39
Speaker
So, well, even though we're protesting scream right now, fuck them trying to make, um, scream seven without, uh, general Ortega or, um,
01:11:53
Speaker
Oh my God, I can't think of this woman.
01:11:55
Speaker
I'm so bad with names, y'all.
01:11:56
Speaker
It's something about my brain.
01:11:57
Speaker
I don't know what it is with names, but what is that woman's name?
01:12:03
Speaker
Melissa Barrera.
01:12:05
Speaker
There we go.
01:12:06
Speaker
Marissa Barrera.
01:12:08
Speaker
Especially her, because they fucked her over real bad.
01:12:15
Speaker
I wish I could do Scream, but I don't really know if there are any
01:12:23
Speaker
there's not really any screams that are see that was also the problem like y'all should have did some freaky gay shit on there like i don't know why that hasn't happened yet like i don't know like to me that's i mean they kind of sort of do it in the first one of course with um and this is what i mean about subtext like it's you have to read in between the lines and i don't really like that like i don't really like the
01:12:50
Speaker
Because in this particular instance, I don't think there was enough there.
01:12:53
Speaker
There was the closeness, the fact that they were really diabolically manipulative and killers behind the scene.
01:13:05
Speaker
I think that that was interesting.
01:13:09
Speaker
But there was this closeness or this bond that they had that didn't really get explored because they died in the first movie.
01:13:17
Speaker
So...
01:13:19
Speaker
Yeah, moving on.
01:13:24
Speaker
That's like kind of bring her home, I guess.
01:13:30
Speaker
We're going to do another final thought.
01:13:33
Speaker
We're going to do another grind my gears.
01:13:38
Speaker
And because there's some more things that are getting on my fucking nerves.
01:13:40
Speaker
I already told you about summer.
01:13:42
Speaker
So I don't maybe I might go in on that a little bit more.
01:13:45
Speaker
We'll see.
01:13:48
Speaker
But I did want to talk about things that were pissing me off.
01:13:51
Speaker
And some of those have been I don't know why people feel like they need to have their notifications on on their phone.
01:13:57
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Like, I don't understand.
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why people need to hear the ding like every like every time i'm in an office or i'm in a building or on the bus or just somewhere like and i hear notifications going off ding ding ding i'm like put that shit on mute like for real like that's very annoying because it's distracting and
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it makes me sometimes think that my phone is going off when in actuality it's not.
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And I'm getting better at it because I don't always keep my phone on the ringer or anything like that.
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Like I only really do it when I'm expecting a call.
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But when I'm like,
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getting text messages like what do you like why do you have it dinging all day and why are you in the office or why are you in a space where you share a common space with people just being fucking annoying or talking on the phone very loudly like no one really wants to hear that like I miss those days when people really didn't have phones like I miss that
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And there was some kind of phone etiquette.
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Like people weren't like, oh, I only ever wanted my business.
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Like, I'll call you back when I get home.
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Like, I missed it.
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Like, I don't.
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This new age is just it's too much.
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Like, it's too many like dings and pings.
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And I have to turn my team set like thing off because I'm like, girl, shut up.
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Like, stop.
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team team shut up like it just the noise is very annoying to me and i think that that's my um adhd like part of that because that is it's distracting like you can be focused on something and you hear you know you keep hearing dings and you keep hearing like ringers go off and you're just like i can't even like
01:15:49
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I don't know.
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It just distracts me too much.
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I don't like it.
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I also don't like the way the world is functioning.
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Like, what are we even doing at this point?
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The fact that the Democrats are now talking about secretly trying to figure out if Kamala Harris would be a good vote is like ridiculous to me because I feel like I should have did this months ago.
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Like, I don't understand what the fuck is going on.
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Like, I don't understand why y'all wouldn't like just pick her.
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um or like have joe go sit down because joe says something something about like to the effect that he's not going to go he's not going anywhere and i'm like what that's selfish as fuck like that's literally that's selfish like that is insane to me like you would rather go out bed and have us going out bad than to just step aside and let your
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second in command take over like that it's kind of sick to me you know what i mean and it also and not to say like i'm not you know like when it's it doesn't matter like whoever you know wins like it it matters in the sense that like trump is going to be way more extreme but i don't know like i feel like y'all should have just been did this like i feel like
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Telling Kamala that, or having her just be second in command, it makes me feel like, okay, you really do hate women, huh?
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Like, is that what's going on?
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Or the idea of a woman running a country is just so...
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Is that like very beneath you or are you able to make that decision?
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Like who's making those, making those calls?
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Because I mean, everyone always talks about wanting the first female president, but I think that people don't want, you know, her to be any kind of anything but white.
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And that's crazy how we almost had Hillary Clinton as a president, but like,
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them bitches voted on harambe that i feel like that same thing is going to happen this go round like i really do like and i'm going to be very upset you know and like i said i've been debating whether or not i'm gonna let the world fall into chaos and this week i'm feeling very much like all right i got no other choice i guess i have to vote for joe but i'm gonna do it so
01:18:14
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in a way in which I don't really want... I'm going to have an attitude about it, of course.
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But also, I'm just giving conservatives free reign to do whatever is just... That's sick to me.
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We're supposed to be ladies.
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We're supposed to be a country.
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We're supposed to be sisters.
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We're supposed to have American unity or citizenship unity or whatever.
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And the idea that you would rather just destroy your own people and your own country...
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That is crazy to me.
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Like that is wild to like me.
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I can't wrap my brain around that.
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I can't wrap my brain around this idea that people want people to fail, that there has to be this, you know, the one person on top, like the idea that like we could just.
01:19:14
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Support one another, build community, you know, pay taxes so that everyone has access to the doctors or transportation or, you know, just something like that, like just having the system work a lot more efficiently.
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really scares people.
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And I don't really know
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why.
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Like, I don't, like, the idea that, like, you have to have the flashiest this or, you know, this, that, and the other.
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I'm like, in that sense, money doesn't make you happy.
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But when people are actually suffering and when they actually need things, it's like, I don't know what the big deal is to just fucking give someone, like,
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you know, some money to have a home or to help pay for drug treatment or having to help, you know, buy food or making sure that they're getting their medical bills covered.
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I honestly feel like my, like, I'm very radical about this, but I feel like
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no hospital should be privatized.
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Like, I don't think any hospital needs to be privatized.
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I think they should be owned by the country or the state.
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And I also think that the states need to, there's need to be levels.
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Like, there can't just be that, like, oh, we're leaving it up to the state to decide.
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Like, I get that.
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That needs to happen because, you know, the United States is big or whatever.
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But, like, and, you know, the federal government can't do everything.
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But I just feel like
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When it comes to that... I don't know.
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I just kind of feel like that's...
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It's just it needs to be levels like there has to there can't just be like this state did this this state outlawed this but you can't you know the federal government times and they're like well you can't cross the border for abortions like that doesn't make sense like that like you either have control or you don't it is just too much of a free for all like I don't like that.
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And then lastly, I don't know why people are just OK with being terrible and basic and lazy and just average.
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Like, I don't understand
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that.
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Like, I can get it in the sense of like, OK, I want to raise, you know, have a family and kids and go to work and come home and just live a happy life and.
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You know, I get that.
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But, like, when people... Maybe having, like, stuff like living with roaches or, you know, just leaving a dirty house.
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Like, it's crazy how everyone always talks about how they're surprised how hot... Like, clean my house is, for instance.
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And...
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how, you know, I'm able to kind of do certain things really well, like how I'm able to pick up certain tasks really well, how I'm able to just kind of navigate my day-to-day on my own and be very independent.
01:22:05
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And some people are just... Ooh, I want to say a word.
01:22:13
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It begins with a W, but, like, I'm not going to say it.
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It begins with a W and ends with a S. I'll say that.
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A lot of people are that.
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And I think that that.
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I mean, that's why I don't want to say the word because I'm like, it does stem from mental health and I have to be mindful of that.
01:22:30
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But there are some people that have these lives that are just very, like, they don't want to know anything.
01:22:37
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They don't, they don't, and that's the thing, that's the difference.
01:22:39
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It's like, there are people in the world that, you know, do want help for their problems and they don't want to feel the way they feel or they don't want to, like, navigate life in a bad, terrible way.
01:22:49
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But there's some people that get very stuck in their ways and they, I don't know if it's mental illness or not or trauma, but it just becomes this thing of like, they don't want to learn anything new.
01:22:59
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They don't really want to experience anything new.
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They don't want to, I don't know, they just don't want to really do anything that's fun and interesting.
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So yeah.
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And then they have these expectations of what you're supposed to do for them.
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Very selfish.
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Very manipulative.
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Very just not great people.
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Order's lazy, and they don't really want to contribute or do anything for society.
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Because the thing is that when I realized when I got older, and, you know, in my 20s at first, I was just working and coming home.
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And, you know, I was like passively working on projects and things like that.
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And, you know, trying to hang out with my friends and do stuff.
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But something I realized was that you actually...
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have more control than you think you do when it comes to how you live your life and it really does become a thing of i hate to say it but sometimes you do have to strike strap up those bootstraps i'm sorry sometimes you do
01:24:12
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just to get out of certain situations.
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And this is what I'm saying.
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Certain people just be giving up and you can't give up.
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You have to keep going.
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Even when things are hard, you have to build community.
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You have to have strong support systems.
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You have to think outside of the box.
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And that's what a lot of people don't do.
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A lot of people are very set in their ways.
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They don't think outside of the box.
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They don't consider anyone else's feelings about things or they don't have great, you know, maybe communication skills.
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And that's,
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most likely a product of, you know, not having access, of course.
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But as I'm like, just observing like people in the world and the ways in which people are constantly on their smartphones or constantly on like TikTok or just doing things, I'm like, why don't y'all look up stuff that actually is helpful or like things that are actually benefiting you or like getting you to where you want to be in life with your goals?
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Like, why don't
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Why aren't you doing that?
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And I think it takes, again, it takes you, like, working on yourself to start seeing that you're old, like, people are stuck in, like, the old pattern that you were stuck in.
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Like, for me, I'm, like, talking about myself.
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I'm realizing that people are, like, stuck in this pattern that I used to be stuck in.
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Whereas now I'm, like, what am I doing?
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Like, what's up?
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I gotta, you know...
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record a podcast.
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I got to write up, like, write up the episodes.
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I got to go to work after work.
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I got to go to the next thing.
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I got to do this and do that.
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And I got to read and research.
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There's just not, I don't know, a lot of people don't have that.
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And I think that that not necessarily grinds my gears, because I'm like, it's okay to want a simple life.
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But I think that some people just take it to the extreme of
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they just don't want to change.
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They don't want to leave the area that they're in.
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That's all they know.
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They don't, they're not open-minded.
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They don't think outside the box.
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There's very basic people.
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And I remember, I'm not telling the story, but I remember there was someone I met recently that I was off of like, you know, the gay apps that I was,
01:26:33
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Like, I'm going to tell this part of the story, but not the whole story.
01:26:36
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But there's someone I met, and I'm like, I've met up with him, and we were talking, and I just felt like I'm talking about these very big, deep, abstract ideas.
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And he's just like, huh?
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What?
01:26:48
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What are you talking about?
01:26:49
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What?
01:26:49
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Huh?
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And I'm like, but you're on social media all day because you're, like, texting me on this app, but you're not...
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I don't know, like you're not doing anything to like expand your horizons or even like those people aren't great at debating like oftentimes.
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And that's why I think for me, I just give up.
01:27:12
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Like I just go, all right, well, you won because they can't debate.
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They can't hold conversation.
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There's not anything spectacular.
01:27:22
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All they know is just primal instinct.
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And that's
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you know, surviving, of course, which, you know, we all do, but there's nothing else.
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And I think that that makes life boring.
01:27:36
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And I think that it also just makes me irritated when I have to talk to people like that.
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Because I'm like,
01:27:44
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I don't really like small talk.
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Like I don't really like talking to people about the weather or, you know, sports.
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Cause I don't watch sports.
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Like I don't know nothing about that.
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Or local politics or news or whatever.
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Like, I don't really want to talk about that.
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Like I want to talk about deep, profound things.
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And I think I recognize of course that people are different, but there's some people that I think that could be doing better.
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And that's just what I'll end it on.
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I'll end it on the fact that I think that some people could be doing better.
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Because I know a lot of like people that.
01:28:18
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do live like lifestyles that are, you know, very similar.
01:28:22
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Like I said, like people that are in my, that have been, I've been in their situation where I, you know, don't, I, before I wasn't as like motivated, I think to do things for myself.
01:28:34
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And now I'm a little bit more motivated because you got to work on yourself.
01:28:38
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You got to start from somewhere.
01:28:40
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And I think that a lot of people haven't done the work, um,
01:28:43
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and don't acknowledge the fact that it's a big world that we live in.
01:28:47
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Like, it's a big world.
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There's a lot of information.
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There's a lot to know.
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And I just get annoyed when people get caught up on the dumb stuff.
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So that's how I feel about it.
01:28:58
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But that's it for this week.
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01:29:11
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um and gather them pod on instagram as well i am going to figure out what i'm going to do um because i am feeling tired so i might not go out but you know we'll report back next week we'll see what's up all right i will talk to everyone next week and i hope everyone has a good weekend good safe weekend and take care bye