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Reflecting on Global Conflicts and Social Media's Role
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We live in one of the weirdest times in history right now.
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We're watching people die and there are people that want those people to die.
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And it's just interesting how we've learned in history that we used to do bad things.
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We used to do bad things that we no longer do anymore because we're better than that.
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We've moved past that.
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We're, you know, better than our ancestors.
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Except this time around and this point in history, everyone gets a front row seat via social media to watch people across the world, in the Middle East, in Africa, get blown to smithereens.
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Even if history can be rewritten from here on out, we will all die knowing that we witnessed a dark period in history right in front of our eyes.
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And our children will know that too.
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And it's all because of social media.
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Ceasefire now.
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Free Palestine.
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Free to Sudan.
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Free to Congo.
Introduction and Personal Exhaustion
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Back to another episode of Get With Them Podcast.
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I'm your host, Jerome.
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We're back for another week, another episode.
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I missed last week, of course, but I largely missed it because I was tired as hell, honestly.
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I had a week off last week, and just to preface, there's not much of a news section.
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I'm just kind of like, you know, or like a...
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section to kind of go off of after I do updates.
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I'm just going straight into the Media Lab because most of my updates are a lot.
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Just in terms of things I want to talk about.
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Not so much that it was bad or anything.
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Everything was good.
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It's just a lot to talk about.
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And I want to talk about it all.
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So...
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Yeah.
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So last week I was my last week at, well, no, the week before that was my last week at Penn.
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Um, so I finished there and then I don't know what hit me, but like, I, I, I don't know what I like during the week, I'll say this.
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It was during the week.
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Um, when I started feeling like really tired, like really drained, I made a list of all the things I think over a weekend before, um,
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of my last, you know, day, um, I basically just like, you know, made a list of all the things I wanted to do, all the things I wanted to accomplish, things I just needed to get done.
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Um, and then I did barely none on the list to start off.
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Um, I remember Wednesday vividly, uh, falling asleep last week, um, after I woke up, um, I ate and then I like basically went back to sleep and then, um, um,
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Because I woke up early.
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I woke up at like eight and then I ate, went back to sleep, and I felt so guilty because I was just like, fuck, like I need to do stuff.
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And then I realized by that time I was like, oh, I'm probably just really tired.
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Um, because I had been saying this prior, but like, had I not gotten a new job, I would have totally just taken FMLA.
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Like that was how bad it was.
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I was just like, I can't keep doing this every single day.
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Like, I didn't know if I was going to look for a job or not on FMLA, but I'll just say that, um, I was going to still be doing my therapy job, of course, but I just was like, this is too much.
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Like, I can't do all this.
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So, um,
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Yeah, I think I was trying to like overwork myself during a period when I needed to slow down.
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So I was just like, all right, I wanted to record.
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And then it just didn't happen.
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It was like the even that was on the list, like the list was to include last week's episode during the week, which I had the time.
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Like, it's not like I had to didn't have the time, but I just slept and that was so good.
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It was the best sleep ever.
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Yeah.
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Oftentimes, like I felt like, you know, like that sleep when you sleep and then you're you wake up and you're still sleepy and you can easily just fall back to sleep.
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That's how it was.
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Like I was sleeping for hours during the day and I thought something was like wrong.
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And I realized that I just been overworked and run down.
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And I
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think that that was my moment to relax.
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And then I also realized.
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I had a super big weekend the weekend before because I had my... It was happy hour Friday.
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I did something Thursday.
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I can't remember what I did on Thursday.
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But it was the happy hour on that Friday, the Friday of my last day.
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And I was just like...
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I think I was just up for a while, and then I went out to bike stop for a little bit.
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I actually did go in to bike stop for a minute, but I just was exhausted.
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I think it was a really good moment for me to just take a minute and just reevaluate what
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what my goal should have been for the month or for the week.
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I'm sorry.
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Just in terms of what I was expecting out of that week off.
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And I feel like had I been able to just go in relaxing and just, you know, not putting too much pressure on myself to, to perform I think I would have been, it would have felt less,
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uncomfortable to just be like, oh my God, I have a list of things.
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And I always do this to myself.
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And I try to think about it eventually and think about it like, well, why do I feel this way?
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What is making me feel like I need to do more?
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Or why am I feeling guilt around sleeping or resting?
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And it goes back to capitalism.
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You know, it goes back to capitalism.
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It goes back to, you know, just the thought of needing to be valuable.
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And so and also to like the fact that and this is still also capitalism, because the fact of the matter is, is that like during the week, like you don't really get the time to just do stuff.
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And I got pen.
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I had to use.
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my vacation time to go to the doctors or I have a lot of like specialist stuff for my health reasons.
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But you don't really get like a chance to, you know, really take off and enjoy yourself.
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And then you're just thrown back into the chaos.
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And that can be very, what's the word?
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It could just be very disorienting or, you know, like,
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like you never rested or something like you, it feels like fake, if that makes sense.
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Like it feels like you took a break and then you joked and fooled yourself.
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And I feel like that's probably why I didn't take a week off or, you know, hadn't taken a week off since I went to see my friend Jeremy last year because I just was like working, working, working, and just trying to, you know, find a different job and, you know,
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All of this and that.
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So it's just needless to say, like, I feel like I've come a long way.
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And basically a year of not having a week off is just like, damn.
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I mean, I've had, it's not like I haven't had days off.
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It's just that I know when I have a week off, I feel the best when I, like, including the weekends, like I have to have
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Like the Saturday, Sunday, and then that week, and Saturday, Sunday, and then return or whatever.
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So yeah, that was that.
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And not to make a big deal about that, because I love and promote rest.
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I think for me, I just felt really disappointed in myself when I really shouldn't have been.
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And so that was like a lesson for me when I really thought about it.
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And then once I did like think about it, I was like,
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you know, Jerome, like you are tired.
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Like that's what's happening.
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You are tired.
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You need to rest.
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And then when I like relaxed into it, finally, like by Saturday, I started to feel like myself
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again.
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And I was like, okay, great.
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And then I had a busy weekend last weekend.
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I went to, on Thursday, I went to see MK Asante.
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He is an author.
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He wrote the book Nephew.
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It just came out.
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Um, it's like a, basically like a letter to his nephew, um, who was shot nine times in Philadelphia.
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Um, he didn't die.
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His nephew was at the event, um, at the free library.
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And, um, yeah, it was really good.
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It was really nice.
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Um, I think that, uh, his words were really just, he speaks so eloquently.
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And I think that, um, anyone that can, um,
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I guess because he's like, I think he's a poet.
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I think if I'm correct.
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So I just feel like, you know, you have to be someone that reads a lot.
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You know, because you know words and you know how to make things like really compelling and whatnot.
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So he did all of that stuff.
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Like he read passages.
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He...
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I was like, damn, I want to buy a book now.
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And he had it there at the library.
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But me and my friend left before we, you know, ended up getting books or whatever.
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And plus, I was still waiting for...
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I was like, I still need to.
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There's like just so many books I just need to read.
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Like I told you guys about the Breaking Your Mind book.
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And I started reading that.
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And then this week, I suppose I read it every day, at least for a little bit if I had a chance.
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But I just was so tired because I was like not sleeping.
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So I'm like, no more books.
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I can't buy another book until I like read some of the books that I got.
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So, you know, I'll look out, you know, for it.
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It sounds like it's really good.
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And the stories were just really, or the letters that were written and the passages that were written were just really compelling.
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And that makes it a book that's like memorable to me to, you know, be interested enough to want to read it.
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So, yeah.
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um, shout out to him.
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Um, but then I went to the bike stop, uh, later on that night, basically by myself.
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Cause, um, my friend was tired and then, uh, that had an interesting experience.
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I'm just gonna say I had fun.
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Um, I had fun.
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Um, it was a good time.
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Uh, Thursday and I got really drunk.
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Oh my God.
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Like I was so drunk the next morning and I was just,
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the worst.
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I mean, I wasn't like hungover hungover, but it was just the nausea and like the feeling like you're going to vomit and die, um, kind of feeling.
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And I was just like, Oh my God.
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Um, and then third, uh, Friday night I went out to Dandan with my friends Saturday.
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I got a new tattoo, which was like, I've been wanting a new tattoo forever.
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It's a Buffy tattoo.
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It's my, like one of my favorite tattoos.
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Now my X-Men tattoo, I think was my favorite one.
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And now this Buffy one is now my favorite one.
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Um, and then I also Saturday recorded a podcast with, uh, Marcus.
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So, you know, um, more to come, more to come.
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And Saturday, Sunday, went to see a nightmare on Elm Street.
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Shout out to Stro, um, productions.
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Um, yeah,
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He is a creator, you know, artist in Philly.
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He is he does events and, you know, things like that.
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He did Nightmare on Elm Street, too.
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Like, well, he did a cult.
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um, series basically of a queer for queer, um, films.
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Um, so it was like Sunday was a night run out street to Tuesday was set it off.
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And then Wednesday was the craft.
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Um, and they were at the rotunda in West Philly.
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Um, um,
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Love that
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space, honestly.
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It's one of my favorite places to go.
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Which I didn't really realize until recently that they do a lot of balls in there.
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Or they do... I don't know if it's just for fun or if it is for money.
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You know what I mean?
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Or if it's for practice.
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But yeah, I saw some videos recently.
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I think maybe earlier this year or late last year.
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And I was like, oh, I didn't realize...
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They did that there.
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But yeah, it is a good venue space.
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And I remember on Street, like second one, first one, really great.
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We watched the second one specifically as a, you know, of course, it's like the gay, it's the gay one of the franchise and, or the queer one, I guess, of the fan.
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Of the franchise.
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And, um, it was like, every time I watch it, I always notice new things or I like pick up on different, um, energy, uh, from it.
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And this is someone, you know, like when I watch it and I'm like, okay, this is very homoerotic in some ways.
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Um, yeah.
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Like when Jesse is sitting in class and he's like dreaming or he's like falling asleep and he's dreaming.
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And then the snake ends up around his neck, which I also couldn't really tell.
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Like we were kind of having this discussion about like,
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If Freddie was showing himself as Jesse or if it was really just Jesse the whole time.
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So we had that conversation a little bit.
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That was really interesting, I think, to discuss and think about because...
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Just in a ways in which, like, there are those moments in the movie where, like, people will say things that sound like subtle hints to telling us who they're seeing.
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But then there's a lot of, like, staring and gasping and screaming and not really anything that descriptively tells us as the audience that this is Jesse.
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So I...
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Again, movie is great.
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I used to hate that movie as a kid.
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And I think it was only reason I didn't like it was because of it not following the initial format of A Nightmare on Elm Street.
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But I think like that was intentional.
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And I think that it adds almost like a different breadth of life into the franchise, essentially, because it is...
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To me, you know, just another element of Freddy's power.
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And then I think more on a deeper level, it just investigates or explores, I'll say explores, the idea that, you know, since dreams live in our subconscious,
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that um freddie is freddie was able to tap into that and so i think that that makes for an interesting um ability and an interesting plot to say the least so shout out the stro um and then monday i ran errands cleaned oh my god i talked to my family on monday on memorial day and i just like
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I just realized a couple things about myself and I'm not going to say them all here.
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Cause it's like very deep and a lot, but I realized a couple things about myself.
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And one of those things I actually did realize that I will talk about my final thought is just my feelings about my career, like my professional career versus my creative or my passion, you know?
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So I want to talk about that a little bit.
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Um,
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Later on.
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But yeah, long story short, it was just a full-ass weekend.
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It was a full-ass weekend.
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I started a new job Monday.
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You know, therapy job's going well.
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Or I started a new job Tuesday.
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Therapy job's going well.
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But yeah, that significant thing I realized about my life was just... The long story short is just, I'll say it, you know, it's the feeling of authenticity, you know?
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It feels like...
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the more authentic I am, the more likable or freer I feel, you know?
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And then it also made me think about like my career and like the things that I'm like striving for and like the feeling of, I actually have a moment to, like I'm starting to gain,
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not like massive followers or anything like that, but it's like I'm starting to get people's attention, you know?
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And I think that that is almost like enough for me to consider, you know, ditching the profession.
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Yikes, sorry.
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Oops.
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Oops.
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But I really want my clinical license.
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So there's that.
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Um, but anyway, we're going to move on.
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Um, the only news thing I really did have though, was the fact that Nikki got arrested.
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Um, and I think that it was in regards to, and this was in, um, another country, um, where she was performing, uh,
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for, I guess, for her tour.
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And she said something about she was holding it, like, the blunt for security or something like that.
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It was just very confusing because they didn't... It's like they knew who she was.
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Like, they didn't tackle her or anything like that.
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Because had there been... I mean, and also, too, like, I don't know.
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I don't know what the cops are like outside of America.
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I just feel like in America, like, if you're Black...
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It's over, you know, but they were like, really, whatever, they let her keep her phone, they didn't put her in handcuffs.
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They put her in the back of the van.
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And I was just, there was a little thought in my head that was like, is she just doing this just because like, she don't feel like performing.
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And that's just a reason for her to like,
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You know what I mean?
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Like, it just seems like very, like, elaborate and fake and dramatic, you know?
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For a blunt, you know?
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And I'm like, Nicki is smart.
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Like, the thing about Nicki Minaj I feel like that people don't really understand is that, like...
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She is very, you know, she can be very calculated.
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And I think that that just kind of happens to be one of her strengths.
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Like, I don't think it's like necessarily a bad thing.
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I think that her doing what she needs to do to meet her needs.
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I mean, like who everyone does that, you know, but I think that she in a way in which sometimes goes about things feels very, you
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like, extra performative.
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Like, I was just kind of like, that thought in my head was just lingering.
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Like, something about this feels weird.
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And it wasn't even the fact that I don't know, you know, what's going on.
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But I'm like, her of all people, like, would have a blunt on her and not know...
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Hasn't she toured there before?
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I think it was Amsterdam.
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I'm like, didn't she tour there before?
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Like, I don't understand.
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So, needless to say, that happened and she got released.
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Also, an interesting update.
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Diddy was...
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Well, after he gave that, you know, he gave it a fake apology or whatever, but someone's mama said that.
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Oh, who was it?
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Who was it?
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Who was it?
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Someone's mom said that they wanted to slap the shit out of him.
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And I fully support that.
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Let me see who tried that.
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Who said that?
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Because I was like, oh, this is what we actually need is for people to get like slapped the fuck out.
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no uh notorious bigs mom notorious big yes biggie um so i just thought that was hilarious that she said that um because i think that he is like i just i don't know i just feel like
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Like, I don't understand why he's not in jail.
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Like, I don't know.
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Like, I don't know.
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Why is he not in jail?
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Because it's just like so much stuff that's like just coming out.
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And it's like every day at this point, like there's something new.
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No, it was the Netherlands.
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Why did I say Amsterdam?
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The Netherlands.
00:22:43
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Yeah.
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But yeah.
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There was something else that happened that was the one that Diddy, I think, or someone has said that...
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They alleged that Diddy hit them over the head with a chair over Kim Porter, which I believe.
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I do believe that.
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I just, you know, or it feels like it's believable.
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And I'm also, it's just not surprising.
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Like, it's not surprising at all.
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And then hot off the press, Trump was accused of or found guilty of all 34 counts of in a sexual assault case.
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And so...
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That's interesting.
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And the fact that no one's saying that he can't run for president, it's also interesting.
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His hearing is supposed to be, or his, um, what is that thing called?
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Not hearing.
00:23:55
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Um, I don't know why I'm like brain foggy today.
00:24:00
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What is that thing called?
00:24:02
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Um,
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Sentencing.
00:24:06
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That's what it's called.
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Um, yeah.
00:24:09
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So that's going to happen.
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And if we have a president running from jail, like that's insane.
00:24:16
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Like, I feel like that's just another June, January 6th all over again.
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And I just don't feel like it.
00:24:27
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Like, I don't feel like being, like, I'm not going to even be shocked.
00:24:30
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Like, that's the thing about it.
00:24:31
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Like, if something happens, I won't be shocked.
00:24:33
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And that's very telling of where we're at in this country.
00:24:41
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It's just embarrassing.
00:24:42
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Like, it is all just so embarrassing to, like...
00:24:49
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be in a world where something like this can just happen after learning about like how great America is and how like, you know, I don't know, like just how America is just thriving and it's this and it's that.
00:25:06
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And it's like all of these things.
00:25:08
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And it's like, well, actually, no, um, you know, we are not as, um,
00:25:16
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We're not as like cultured or whatever that history has tried to make it seem is kind of where I'm at.
00:25:29
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And it's just, it's almost like insulting, I think, to...
00:25:39
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act like otherwise, especially now.
00:25:40
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Like, I've made this, like, comment just about how we all kind of know, like, going forward, like, what history is.
00:25:50
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Like, whether or not it gets rewritten.
00:25:51
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It is what it is.
00:25:53
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Like, people are dying.
00:25:55
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People are starving.
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People are homeless or houseless.
00:26:01
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And it is just insane to me that, like, we're just being lied to still by our
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political figures.
00:26:10
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Like the fact that, you know, they can say the complete opposite of something that we witnessed.
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Like the fact that when they were shipping aid to...
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And then they made this point of like, oh, well, you know, look, Biden sent over aid to Gaza.
00:26:32
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And then come to find out it was actually stale and moldy and disgusting and edible.
00:26:39
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And then when people were like, when the Israelis were destroying the human aid that was being given to or donated to charitable causes, it's just like...
00:26:54
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What kind of world do we live in?
00:26:55
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Like, it's very sick around here.
00:26:59
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So... Yeah.
00:27:04
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And then Brittany also just said something about her jewelry was stolen.
00:27:08
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And I just hope someone gives it back.
00:27:10
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Because... Leave that woman alone.
00:27:12
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Like, leave Brittany alone.
00:27:14
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For real.
00:27:17
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She don't do nothing to nobody.
00:27:19
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But twirl around in her boots and...
00:27:25
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You know, it's just, I don't know, just leave her alone.
00:27:29
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But anywho, what else?
00:27:32
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What else?
00:27:33
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I think that's it for news.
00:27:35
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Going into the Media Lab, so I specifically really just wanted to talk about the South Park episode, because there was a new South Park episode that came out, and it is called The End of Obesity.
00:27:51
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It's an episode, but it's a special, like how they're doing those specials now.
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And there was just so much in this that I've really wanted to talk about.
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And so that's going to be, I think, a lot of what this is.
00:28:02
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Yeah.
00:28:05
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I do want to bring on a guest, though, to talk about... Now, you know.
00:28:14
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Anyway.
00:28:15
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So... South Park.
00:28:25
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I just, it's something about like these series that are just so funny.
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I don't think the last one really, the cred one was, I think my least favorite one of all of them.
00:28:36
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The water, oh my God, the water wars, whatever.
00:28:39
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I think it was the water wars or something like that.
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The streaming wars.
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That's what it was.
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The streaming wars was one of my favorites.
00:28:48
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The COVID one was like hit and miss.
00:28:50
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Like some episodes I liked and some I didn't, but that was like a multi-series of it.
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And then I know they did season, they did like six seasons or six episodes and like the last season that they did and it's just been single or specials ever since then.
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So this special, you know, just kind of focused on, excuse me, the ideas around obesity, drug use,
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ignorance, and just navigating the American health system in general.
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So I guess to kind of start, the one thing I did, you know, again, watch this episode on repeat, but I just noticed the, almost like this contrast between drugs versus drugs.
00:29:47
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um and that you know and these are specifically to lose weight so you know when randy is like talking about like oh you got drugs you got drugs i have drugs like he's thinking of like crack or like meth like he's not thinking about like ozempic and then even in the episode he'd started to describe like what a glp1 was and then
00:30:13
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Didn't really tell the full story, but, like, knew enough to know that it was a drug.
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And then had to, like, try this first shot of whatever they were trying.
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And he got high off of that.
00:30:27
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And I'm like, what the fuck is wrong with him?
00:30:29
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Like, he... Like, you don't... Like, that doesn't happen.
00:30:33
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When you take, you know, Olympic or something.
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I just... It's so interesting of how, like, his drug...
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addiction has just grown.
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Because initially it was just like the alcohol thing.
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And then, you know, it turned into like the pot thing.
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Of course, with the medical marijuana.
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And it seemed like, I mean, with the marijuana thing, it's just kind of like, okay, like it's weed, like it's not...
00:31:01
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it's not actually like going to kill anyone or you know do anything but it's just the fact that like when we got to the episode or the special um the no it was a season finale it was the christmas special um and then how it was mixed with cocaine and weed and i'm just like dude like what the fuck are you doing like that is insane um
00:31:28
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But it also was just very insane for the women that were just... The housewives.
00:31:36
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That were just like, oh, we're going to take this drug and we don't even give a fuck.
00:31:39
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We're just going to... We're going to, like, rob a pharmacy.
00:31:43
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Like, what?
00:31:44
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Like, for Ozempic?
00:31:46
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That's crazy.
00:31:47
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Like, robbing a pharmacy for Ozempic is wild.
00:31:50
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but I also love these like newer episodes, uh, because of how the parents are just like wilding out all of a sudden.
00:31:57
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Um, they were wild before, but they're like, especially wild now.
00:32:01
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Um, and I feel like a lot of it had to do with South Park becoming PC.
00:32:06
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Like that's literally the turning point of the whole thing.
00:32:10
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Um, but I love Randy's question going back to that really quickly of just like, what are you supposed to do with drugs when they were like, they're starting to ban, you know, or restrict, uh,
00:32:21
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these drugs so that because, you know, people are abusing them and blah, blah, blah.
00:32:25
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And then Cartman wasn't able to get Ozempic.
00:32:29
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And I'm gonna get into that a little bit later.
00:32:32
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But the idea about them, like restricting, you know, Ozempic and Manjaro and all of them is because of
00:32:41
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abuse.
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And so for Randy to just be like, oh, well, what else are you supposed to do with drugs?
00:32:46
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Like, sorry, you're not supposed to abuse drugs.
00:32:48
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Like, that's what you're not supposed to do.
00:32:51
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But I think it also played into the ignorance and the myth about obesity with the government needing to restrict, or at least for insurances to restrict whether or not people were able to
00:33:06
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get or access an LPG, no, GLP one.
00:33:13
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There we go.
00:33:16
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And so, yeah, it was just interesting how like, they're just like, oh, well, you know, because people with diabetes needs it or like people that, you know, are actually overweight, like, and I just want to lose my last five pounds.
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And it's like,
00:33:34
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All you got to do to lose five pounds is literally just not eat for a week.
00:33:38
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And that's it.
00:33:39
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That's all you got to do.
00:33:41
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It's very easy to just lose five pounds.
00:33:44
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That's not anything very difficult to do.
00:33:49
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Not encouraging not eating.
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I'm just saying that to try to at least get a weight loss drug
00:34:01
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And take it away from someone else that actually has diabetes is fucked up.
00:34:06
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So that was interesting.
00:34:08
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And then I also thought it was interesting of the, like, ignorance that people just kind of talked about with, like, the idea of willpower.
00:34:15
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And then, like, you know, we know science talks about genes.
00:34:18
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And then, like, Cartman just wanted to tell people off.
00:34:23
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Like, he just... That was so random and also kind of funny because...
00:34:27
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Every single time he's just like, you don't have anything to say.
00:34:30
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You can't call me a fat ass because I am not fat.
00:34:35
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But just going into the idea of willpower and the idea that people should just be able to just stop eating.
00:34:44
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That's really not how it works.
00:34:47
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The way it works is that your body gets addicted to salt and sugar and fat and you just keep eating it.
00:34:54
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And...
00:34:56
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There's science that proves that there's genetics involved and that, you know, these genes are passed down, which is often why if a parent's fat or overweight, their child most likely is going to be overweight or have to struggle with obesity.
00:35:12
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And I think that the just like you should just be able to control yourself thing is...
00:35:24
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When we know that sugar is a drug, like that's the thing.
00:35:26
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It's like we know that about like sugar and we know that with salt, like the more salt you eat, like the, you know, you're going to drink more.
00:35:35
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And a lot of times people aren't going to drink the right things and it makes them more thirsty.
00:35:40
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And so, yeah, like it just to me is like very judgy to just be like, oh, well, you can, you know, just will yourself to stop eating.
00:35:49
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Some people can't.
00:35:50
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Some people aren't able to.
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And that's why we have the future.
00:35:56
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This is why we have modern medicine and why we have people that are able to manage their lives better because of
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medicine you know i don't know what people were doing back then like i you know someone i had this kind of i almost had this tiff with someone on social media but i was like i'm not gonna i don't give a fuck that much um but somebody was like it was so there's um a sex worker um named santana and um
00:36:35
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Someone made a comment or I was, oh no, I made a comment underneath
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of the video because I was like, yeah, it's like, we're finally getting like big boys and mainstream porn.
00:36:44
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And, um, because it's just been the same, like it's literally just been, you know, flat abs and, you know, or Twinkie guys or bears, um, um,
00:36:55
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Like, it's just very, like, when it comes to fat people or big people, like, they just don't give a fuck about us in the industry.
00:37:03
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And that's, again, it echoes what the public oftentimes talks about when they talk about, um...
00:37:12
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you know, overweight people.
00:37:13
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So yeah.
00:37:16
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So he was performing or he, you know, was in a video and then I made a comment about like, yes, I love seeing like regular bodies or normal bodies or something like that to that effect.
00:37:28
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And like these spaces or something.
00:37:30
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And then someone tried to fight me under it and was just like, what do you mean by normal bodies or regular bodies?
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And I'm like,
00:37:37
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The fact that you can go outside and see a fat person, like that is what I mean.
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Like the fact that you're not like nine times out of 10, like I've not seen, like I can go outside and I can either go outside and see no abs or I see maybe one or two people running around with abs and that's it.
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Like that's all.
00:37:58
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Um,
00:37:59
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Most times people just have a flat stomach.
00:38:01
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Most times people are just maybe have a little, um, little bit of a stomach or something if they have their belly out.
00:38:07
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But nine times out of 10, most people aren't just abs on legs.
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Like it's, and he was just like, well, normal as in you're supposed to be not fat.
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And I'm like,
00:38:20
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Okay, you can eat that.
00:38:20
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Like, I don't give a fuck.
00:38:22
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I mean normal in the sense that you see it everywhere.
00:38:24
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It's common.
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You see it everywhere.
00:38:26
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Like, everyone's fat.
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So why would I, you know, not want to see something that is realistic or something that feels more realistic?
00:38:36
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And then also, too, like, bigger people deserve to be loved on, too.
00:38:39
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Like, that's... This is totally a sidetrack, but, like...
00:38:43
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I just get so annoyed with like fit people or people that are just really judgy about people's weight because it's just like...
00:38:57
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Okay, because you were able to keep it up doesn't mean other people don't go through things or medicines, health conditions.
00:39:05
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There's so many things that... The fact that medicine will make you gain weight, that right there is crazy.
00:39:13
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To have a stance of, oh, well, you're fat and you deserve to die and you shouldn't be able to wear...
00:39:22
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clothes even though everything you wear is just like ugly and disgusting because no one likes to make fat people clothes like I feel like there's a lot of that and then it's like okay well you know
00:39:35
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Fuck y'all.
00:39:36
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Like, you know, and it's like people are fat and that's just it.
00:39:39
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And I feel like people are maybe getting to a place of, there's like this almost like a divide happening where people are either like really healthy or they're just kind of like whatever.
00:39:48
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Like there's not really that, I don't really hear people talking about wanting to diet anymore.
00:39:53
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I...
00:39:54
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There's some people that might talk about getting back on track or eating better or something like that, but not really in regards to diet culture where people are feeling, oh, well, I was called fat, so now I have to diet and lose a bunch of weight and stuff.
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Yeah.
00:40:15
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That's dying.
00:40:16
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Like, people aren't real, like, super real thin anymore.
00:40:20
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Like, they used to be in the early 2000s, which is great.
00:40:26
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But I feel like there's just, again, a divide between, like, people that are bigger versus people that are smaller.
00:40:33
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So...
00:40:35
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Another interesting thing was just that quickly was the Lizzo thing because I was just like, oh my God, I wonder how she's going to take this.
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But she actually did laugh at it.
00:40:44
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And that's kind of how I feel.
00:40:45
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Like, I feel like if you can laugh at yourself, it's like, it's not that deep.
00:40:50
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Like, it's just, it's a cartoon.
00:40:52
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You know what I mean?
00:40:52
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Like, it's not going to hurt you.
00:40:55
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You know, you're famous.
00:40:57
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Like, you have lots of money.
00:40:59
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Like, it doesn't really matter what someone says about you or if, like,
00:41:04
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you know, you're just, what's the word?
00:41:06
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Like if you are just like obsessed about what people think about you in terms of
00:41:16
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how you look or, you know, how you act is way different to me.
00:41:21
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Like when people portray, like, for example, when they portray Diddy and Biggie Smalls, and there's a couple other people, other characters, you know, that have, well, guests or celebrities, I'll say celebrities, like they've played the celebrities, but like,
00:41:41
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in terms of notable people being on like South Park or Family Guy or something like that.
00:41:48
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Like nine times out of 10, like they are acting way crazy.
00:41:55
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Like I would rather someone be like,
00:41:58
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oh, like, this is the Jerome or something like that.
00:42:01
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Like, if they were talking about body positivity and being lazy, like, I would laugh.
00:42:05
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But if it was an actual, like, depiction of me abusing someone or some kind of just, like, sexual...
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misconduct or whatever it is, or allegations, rumors, like things like that would make me more mad than a joke or a dig or something.
00:42:26
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Like, you know what I mean?
00:42:26
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Like if it was an actual accusation or like some kind of thing that was like alleging that I did something that I don't do, I would be more mad about that than someone making fun of like the way I look or something of that nature.
00:42:41
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And I think that that is where people often get lost and
00:42:45
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and fucked up for whatever reason because they think that when they look crazy you know or when they look like you know they're not I don't want to use the word crazy but when they look like out of pocket or irrational very angry out of character or you know there are you know rumors or things like that about like sexual assault I start to just be like oh like that's you know a little bit too that's a little too much um
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for me to handle, uh, as a person.
00:43:18
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So, um, and then there was also the mixing of the obesity shots, which I was like, I didn't, I couldn't really tell if it actually worked or if Cartman was just a fat ass, um, because once the women stole all of the, um,
00:43:40
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Once they stole all of the, you know, the pre-made injections that Kyle made, I think they used them.
00:43:48
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But I don't really remember that anything like came of it.
00:43:52
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Like, I feel like Cartman, he ate a cereal bomb, which I thought was hilarious that whenever he was like...
00:44:00
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oh, I'm defeated and I just, you know, I give up and, you know, I'm just going to be fat forever.
00:44:06
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And he would just eat like a KFC bowl with cereal and like some other shit on it.
00:44:14
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And he was like, yeah, I'm having a cereal bomb and I'm sitting on the toilet while I eat this.
00:44:18
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And, you know, the fact that he can eat a whole cereal bomb.
00:44:23
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And then he got down to, he was like, I can only, I couldn't eat the last two pieces of chicken.
00:44:29
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And I'm like,
00:44:30
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yeah, you're also not supposed to eat like that.
00:44:34
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Like, you're not supposed to eat like that in general, but also not on, like, Ozempic.
00:44:38
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Like, you're not supposed to eat, like, super crazy and super wild like that.
00:44:42
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That's bad.
00:44:44
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And that's... That reminded me of, like, Tracy Morgan.
00:44:47
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I think that that's what that also reminded me of.
00:44:50
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That was...
00:44:51
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The thing when Tracy Morgan made that comment about how he was on Olympic, but like he gained 40 pounds and, you know, that couldn't stop him from eating or something like that.
00:45:00
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I was just like, sir, risk your life, I guess, because...
00:45:10
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I wouldn't, cause the thing is with Ozempic, like I've been on, um, I've been on, I mean, I am on Ozempic now, but it's like, I, when I first started it, it made me nauseous as hell.
00:45:22
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Like I felt like I was throwing up, like I was waking up in the middle of the night, throwing up.
00:45:28
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Um, there'd be times where I, uh, eat just a couple of bites, but then I would be so hungry that my stomach, um,
00:45:37
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needed something and I would just get nauseous and throw up so
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I and if I ate too much I would just feel like miserable like and that was the thing too like I could eat like a few bites or something when I first started and I just was like miserable if I tried to eat more like I felt bad and so I'm like you had to do a lot to go above and beyond to say something like in terms of like I gained 50 pounds on the Olympic like that's
00:46:06
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really a feat you know like why would you want to even do that like that's like i don't know like i feel like i don't know if he's joking because i'm like maybe it was a joke but i'm also just like be fucking for real
00:46:21
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And then it was also the last part is the part about the American health care system, which I also thought was like hilarious because as a social worker, this is literally what I've done for people like I would fill out forms.
00:46:34
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I'd have to, you know, fax the forms, call the people, see if they got the form refax to form.
00:46:40
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They would get the form and say, like, no, we need this thing to say this and we need it to say this.
00:46:45
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And then they're like, oh, we need to talk to this person and this person.
00:46:49
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And like going back and forth is very much the American health care system, which is why I don't really blame people.
00:46:56
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For not going to the doctor or not taking care of themselves or even trying to access something because there's just so much red tape and there's just so much that is just...
00:47:14
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It's semantics.
00:47:15
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And at the end of the day, it is, you know, your life that, you know, these people are playing with, creating, you know, these astronomical numbers for tests, dollar amounts for tests, and...
00:47:32
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And then giving you, like, crap food.
00:47:34
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Like, when you're also, like, it's like you go to the hospital.
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Like, you're not even getting, like, your own private room.
00:47:39
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You're not getting, like, nine times out of ten, you're not getting your own private room.
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And you're not getting, like, the best cooked meal or whatever.
00:47:47
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Like, they literally charge you $3,000 for...
00:47:53
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drawing blood and that's insane to me like that like just to draw the lab and then the fact that people don't actually get paid that money is that's sick to me and i just be like i i can't um support this and this is why this shit is falling apart now um this is exactly why um
00:48:19
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Yeah, that was like a good-ass episode.
00:48:21
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I'm trying to see if I'm anything else.
00:48:24
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Nope, that was actually it.
00:48:25
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I covered everything.
00:48:27
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I'm moving pretty quickly.
00:48:30
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So final thought.
00:48:34
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I just wanted to just briefly just talk about my thoughts about or the thoughts that have been coming up for me regarding my career and what I'm passionate about doing.
00:48:49
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And I feel like when I talk about what I'm passionate about doing, I never really have a
00:48:55
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thought, like a phrase for what it is, because it's not like drawing or it's not being necessarily an artist, but more so like a creator or someone that creates things.
00:49:07
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And...
00:49:10
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I think I've borrowed that from the idea of content creation because essentially that's, you know, what you do for social media as you create content, but I never really saw it that way.
00:49:20
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I've always just seen it as I'm posting my art or I'm posting the things that, um, make me, me or things that feel like important or personal to me that are like, whether it's like a poem or some kind of a short story or, um, um,
00:49:38
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some kind of like, again, digital photography or picture that I drew.
00:49:43
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Cause I'm not a great draw, not a great drawer or color or anything like that.
00:49:49
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But sometimes I do get these like bouts of wanting to draw and it's not even for like validation.
00:49:57
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It's really just because it's,
00:50:00
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whatever I'm drawing depicts like the mood I'm in.
00:50:03
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So I, you know, I've always just kind of seen myself as a creative and something I've been kind of wrestling with lately has been this, you know, between like having the podcast and two jobs has just been a lot.
00:50:18
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Because it feels like it's starting back up again where I'm starting to get that busyness of, you
00:50:26
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That I had when I did have two jobs before.
00:50:30
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And I've just been like looking at, you know, my social media numbers and just looking at.
00:50:39
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Whether it's like engagements and, you know, or likes and things like that.
00:50:44
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And this is not to say I'm going to like up and quit my job or anything like, or my jobs.
00:50:49
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It's just that I've been like, do I put more into my passions?
00:50:53
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And that's what the astrological girlies are like.
00:50:56
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Are you going to do that?
00:50:57
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Because you should.
00:50:59
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And I'm like, okay, maybe I should.
00:51:02
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Just to create more, you know,
00:51:06
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Because that's kind of the goal for me.
00:51:07
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Like, the goal is to create community, to create, like, a space where people can just kind of, like, have fun and congregate.
00:51:17
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Like, I really got inspired by that when I...
00:51:21
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Well, when listening to my friends, Iman and Sabria's podcast, Black Girl Brunch, which shout out to them.
00:51:27
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And I hope that they come back soon.
00:51:31
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I've missed listening to their podcast.
00:51:35
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But just like listening to them and just listening to them talk about, you know, their goals and the things that they wanted to do.
00:51:43
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It's like almost like inspired me to.
00:51:46
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go off and create this part.
00:51:49
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Well, it did inspire me to create this podcast and it did inspire me to, um, really think about influence and pull and community and creating a space where, um, my listeners or, you know, followers or whatever, you know, are, um, engaging with each other and creating a, uh, community that is, um,
00:52:16
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Just not like drama filled and just messy.
00:52:20
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It's just like a fun thing, you know?
00:52:25
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So I've been thinking about that and just trying to almost like weigh my options and figure out if like what I'm doing now, because and this is crazy, because for the past couple of weeks has been just this this push and pull of, you know, trying to get a new job and trying to like for weeks.
00:52:44
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I mean, like it's been a push and pull of trying to get a new job and.
00:52:47
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wondering if that's going to happen and then still going to my main job and being burnt out and also still like trying to figure out, you know, how I'm going to eventually pay bills and, you know, all of these things.
00:53:00
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And I just feel like, I don't know if it's this thought of like, I'm at a very pivotal point where something is about to like happen, like not tomorrow, but like in, you know, a year or so.
00:53:16
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where things start to really pick up.
00:53:19
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But it's even like my ideas, like my ideas and my thoughts for the podcast are starting to become greater.
00:53:26
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And my ideas and my thoughts for social media are becoming greater.
00:53:31
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And it's also the reason it hasn't really become as much of a thing as what I wanted it to be when I first started was mainly because of
00:53:45
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I've always just been trying to sustain myself.
00:53:46
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Like I've been trying to find, you know, work, use my social work degree, you know, get a good paying social work job and just being able to, you know, do what I'm passionate about on the side and, you know, and grow it and things like that.
00:54:04
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But I'm just like, as I think about it, I'm like, should I just pour more into this?
00:54:08
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And it feels...
00:54:09
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Sometimes feels right to do that.
00:54:11
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And then I also get nervous because I start to feel like I wasted time.
00:54:18
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And I think that that's why I'm like so dead set on trying to get my clinical license because I
00:54:24
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At least if I get that, I feel like then at least it's like a good halt or like a pause or pen or something I could always return to if things didn't work out.
00:54:39
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But...
00:54:40
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I also just recognize that, like, I love the internet.
00:54:43
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I love, like, searching for stuff, and I love talking about things, and I love, like, you know, talking about the, like, pop culture things, like, things that we're all experiencing at the same time to try to either make sense of it or give my own opinion or report fact, like, things that are actually factual.
00:55:05
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Yeah.
00:55:09
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So it's just been on my mind lately.
00:55:11
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I just, I, and I always listen to people like talk about their stories of how they didn't give up or how, you know, they had to do work, like their own personal work on their, you know, nine to five and how exhausted and tired they were and all of these things.
Social Media Saturation and Sustainability
00:55:31
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And I think about it and I'm just like,
00:55:34
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I could maybe do those things and I could, you know, really try to, um, to hustle.
00:55:41
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And, you know, maybe at some point I will get to that space of, um, being like, just like completely like, yeah, fuck this.
00:55:49
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I'm just going to follow my dreams.
00:55:50
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But I just feel like too, like, and lastly, I guess this is the last thing I'll say is just that I feel like too, the, this,
00:56:01
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the world is just so saturated with people.
00:56:04
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Like there's so many people, social media wise, there's just so many influencers, so many people to have to gain access to and to try to find.
00:56:18
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And sometimes I just start to think whether or not
00:56:23
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it's possible, you know, because there's so much that we threw.
00:56:27
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There's like so many people doing the same things.
00:56:32
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The minute you're not interesting, if you're not interesting in like 30 seconds and people are off onto the next thing.
00:56:37
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And so it's always just this fight of like keeping people interested or something.
00:56:42
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Cause I don't think my goal ever has been to be like a celebrity, but I've just wanted to have influence.
00:56:50
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If that makes sense.
00:56:50
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I wanted to,
00:56:53
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I don't want to be like a traditional celebrity.
00:56:55
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I want to be like an advocate or some kind of a media personality that's really just real.
00:57:04
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And I noticed that when I actually do have time off, like I did last week, and recharge and things like that, and I start to think about my hobbies and
00:57:17
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the things I'm passionate about, I get really excited and I think about the ways in which I could do them.
00:57:21
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And of course, everything costs money to start.
00:57:26
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So everything's not super spectacular up front.
00:57:32
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But eventually, that's how people grow.
00:57:34
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People evolve.
00:57:36
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They start to do research.
00:57:37
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They do a little bit more, whether it's tech or
00:57:41
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um, a little bit more research or investigation on like what people are, um, looking for and creators, um, and, you know, things like that.
00:57:55
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And then also people, and people listen to like podcasts, like fresh and fit.
00:57:59
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And I just be like, I don't know if y'all want to listen to this, but, um, but yeah, again, that's not really the point.
00:58:04
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The point is just that I really have wanted to, um,
00:58:09
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mentor kind of show people that, you know, life you can, you know, when, when you are consistent and when you are like, when you think like everything is just lost, you can come back from that.
00:58:31
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And that is one of the most powerful lessons I've learned.
00:58:35
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And I've always just wanted to either like,
00:58:39
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again, mentor people, coach people, be a like authentic figure, a person.
00:58:48
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Like, I don't want to be an act.
00:58:49
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Like, I don't want to be anything but me, you know, which is funny because I've been tapping into my Scorpio rising, which, you know, I'm calling him Rome.
00:59:03
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And Rome is just...
00:59:08
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The free-spirited, like, has the, like, Aquarius qualities, but it's like that chaotic good that I've always kind of talked about.
00:59:19
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Like, I feel like Aquarius and Scorpio are very chaotic good signs.
00:59:24
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Taurus and Leos, too.
00:59:26
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So I feel like the fixed signs.
00:59:27
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Because of, like, I feel like generally with the fixed signs, we are just...
00:59:31
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very stubborn.
00:59:32
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We are very set in like what we do.
00:59:36
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We can have these like very dark elements to us, like being, you know, mysterious and, and I guess in that enigmatic, we can be, you know, a little manipulative or just like, we have all these like dark qualities and I'm just like playing with them a little bit in terms of
01:00:01
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flirting a little bit more or like being witty, um, to, you know, or charismatic, um,
01:00:12
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Yeah, not so much manipulative, but like using like the elements that are that make up, you know, like a Scorpio, because essentially your score, your rising sign is your yourself, like your true self, because it's the exact that's why you need your exact time and location to figure out what your rising sign is.
01:00:35
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because it's very specific to you versus the whole month that you were, um, born into because you could, you know, have felt like fell in anywhere, um, in the risings.
01:00:49
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So, you know, I think that, um, I've been playing into that a lot more.
01:00:53
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I've been trying to be a little bit more flirty, fun, um,
01:01:00
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You know, like really listening to people and engaging, you know, with folks.
01:01:10
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Yeah, that is where I'm at.
01:01:14
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And I feel like if I give up my professional career now, it's just going to, it just feels too early.
01:01:18
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Like, and I feel like that's what it is.
01:01:19
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It's too early.
01:01:21
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It feels too early to do it because, you know, I'm not where I want to be.
01:01:25
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And then I also would have to know that I could sustain myself.
01:01:32
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more than I could now, because the thing about fame and, you know, notoriety and, you know, all of those things is that it can die off very quickly and people get bored.
01:01:45
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People, you know, if you talk about a lot of the same stuff, people get bored.
01:01:50
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People are often on to the off to the next thing.
01:01:54
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Like I said before, if it's not impressive in the first 30 seconds or a minute, you
01:01:59
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It's just a scroll.
Conclusion and Advocacy for Peace
01:02:01
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Or if you don't look like, you know, conventionally attractive or have like six pack abs or something of that nature, like it can just be very hard to.
01:02:14
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To break through, but I'm really feeling this like.
01:02:21
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Astrological.
01:02:23
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minute that we're in where we're experiencing you know people wanting to see more authenticity wanting to see uh real people um doing real things versus like celebrities and whatnot so you know we will see and also too like i can't with um
01:02:49
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Just the idea of like working forever.
01:02:52
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That's also the other thing.
01:02:53
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I want to not feel like something is a job.
01:02:55
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Like I just want to feel like something is not a job.
01:02:59
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And also if it's like less than like if it's like 20 hours or 25 hours a week, that would be ideal.
01:03:07
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But that's it.
01:03:07
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Yeah.
01:03:09
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Yeah, that's it for the show.
01:03:12
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I feel like, you know, we went by pretty quick.
01:03:15
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But if you want to follow me on socials, it's GatherThemPod.
01:03:20
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If you have any letters, send them to GatherThemPod at gmail.com.
01:03:25
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I am going... It's Pride this weekend, but I actually might just...
01:03:28
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I don't know what I'm going to do.
01:03:29
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I have no Pride plans, really, except for, you know, by the time you guys will hear this, I'm going to, you know, kind of like an opening party or like a dance party or something for Pride, like for the Thursday night.
01:03:46
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So I'll be doing that.
01:03:48
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But I mean, Sunday, well, not the parade, but like the festival and...
01:03:59
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I might meet a new friend.
01:04:00
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There's also that.
01:04:03
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Might meet a new friend.
01:04:04
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So, you know, potential.
01:04:06
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But I also just need to rest.
01:04:07
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Like, it's just been a week.
01:04:10
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But, yeah, everyone, I hope everyone has a good rest of their week.
01:04:14
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Also, free Palestine, free Sudan.
01:04:19
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you know, free Congo.
01:04:21
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There's just so much happening right now.
01:04:23
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Like I empathize so much with people.
01:04:27
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And again, there's just no way like this is sustainable.
01:04:32
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Like we got to do something, you know, to stop like ceasefire.
01:04:37
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Now we got to ceasefire.
01:04:39
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Now stop sexually assaulting people.
01:04:43
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Stop,
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you know, cluttering land with e-waste.
01:04:48
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Like we've got to reel it in like big time.
01:04:53
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And I am just, it's just like, it's just so much to, you know, to witness in real time.
01:05:06
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But yeah, everyone take care of yourselves and I will talk to everyone later.
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Bye.