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Return from Hiatus
00:00:01
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What's going on everybody? Welcome back to Philosophony. I've taken over a month off and it's because it's because I got one negative comment. I got one negative comment and I took over a month off of the podcast.
00:00:26
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And the worst part is that it was it was from a dude named Ian. I let one negative comment from a dude named Ian knock me off my game for over a month. And it was literally, it was a clip of a podcast where I think it was like one of the best podcasts to date.
Dealing with Criticism
00:00:50
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And I saw that and it,
00:00:54
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It hurt my feelings. The comment was they have to start limiting the people who are allowed to make podcasts. And Ian, like, this is not like easy to do.
00:01:21
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I know that I posted the first episode and I post every episode knowing that people are gonna make fun of it. They're gonna laugh at it. And people do it to my face.
00:01:39
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And that it's not easy to keep going. And another thing is like i I've had people from various stages of my life reach out and be like I just and here's another thing I just had another person stop me and they're like I listen to the podcast like you're kind of good at that man and I got like a bunch of those and all it took is one comment from a dude named Ian and I'm gone and I'm ghost it's like
00:02:16
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And that's kind of the, I don't know, probably stretch to say that's the human conundrum. But like, these days, it's like 10 people can tell you they like your shirt. And then one person comes up to you and like, why the hell would you wear that? And it breaks you. And it's just so illogical.
00:02:43
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Like do the math, do the numbers. You got 10 to 1, well let's say like 9 people liked your shirt, 10% or 1 person didn't, that's a 90% success rate. That's probably a great shirt. And I, I got so many people that were like, I love what you're doing man, that takes guts, I'm glad you're doing that.
Value of Genuine Connections
00:03:03
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And then one dude named Ian.
00:03:07
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one dude named ian chirps me and i'm ghost my success rate was fantastic it was i don't know it was better than i thought it was and more importantly and i just i'm in social work i'm getting my master's in social work right now to be a therapist and the lady she said a couple things we had a guest speaker but One of the things she said are, um, and now I'm forgetting. Maybe Ian was right. Maybe that is what I'm scared of. But what'd that lady say? Um, I guess we're gonna have to move on. But one of the things she said is, yeah, no, I don't remember. Fuck you, Ian. Oh, yeah. But, um,
00:04:02
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It's hard to do this. It's really hard for me. It's like, it's it's putting myself out there. And it's something that's hard for me to do on a daily basis as well. And I think it's hard for a lot of people.
00:04:23
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I go through life and I'm like, I filter a lot of what I say out because I don't think people are gonna like like it.
00:04:37
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and my friend Oscar who's going to be on the podcast next week we're coming back and we're coming back hard he recommended a movie and it was about these two guys and one of them was like just kind of like a not aware at all kind of like mess you could even you could argue asshole and then the other one was just like this polite people pleaser and at the end of the they go on a trip together and at the end of the trip
00:05:06
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People are saying goodbye to like the unaware asshole and they're like, Oh man, like I'm going to miss you dog. Like I feel like we really got to know you this week. And the other one, they're like, see you man. And that is true because when you hide yourself from the world, you don't even give people an opportunity to know you. And it's like, yeah, people won't dislike you, but nobody will know you.
00:05:37
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If you don't know someone, you can't really love them. and it's It's a very lonely life when nobody knows you. and i did a The first guest I had on was Brad Kessler, one of my best friends. A large portion of what we talked about is like...
00:05:58
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all you have like being cool if you were to boil it down to like a definition is not caring what other people think and I want to not care what other people think so bad but I just I don't know I can't I don't control what I care about really but what I can control
00:06:19
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saying fuck it More like I can ignore it because the first time I put out this podcast I was I was just in a fuck it kind of mood I knew damn well people were gonna like send this like oh you heard Wes made a podcast he thinks like what does he think you have to say like you have no idea what I've been through you have no idea what my life is like
00:06:58
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That's another thing, Ian. Like, what was your goal? Like, I've left probably some hateful comments.
00:07:08
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But like, what was your goal at saying like, they got to start limiting the people who make podcasts? Like, maybe this one just ain't for you. Ian.
00:07:23
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I don't know. I'm a huge advocate of spreading like love and not hate. And I'm even a bigger advocate of being intentional.
00:07:37
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Like he just that thought popped up in his head. He commented it and it took me out for a month. But honestly, I'd like to thank you, Ian, because it was an important lesson. this part If I keep making this podcast, I was bound to get a negative comment sooner or later.
00:08:01
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and And... Yeah, I don't know if I'm ever gonna get to the point where I don't care what other people think.
00:08:13
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but I'm definitely gonna get to a point where I don't let it control how I act.
Living Authentically
00:08:19
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Now I'm saying type shit. Cause you're gonna die. I'm gonna die. And imagine on my death bed, cause I think about, I don't think about this podcast a ton, but I love doing it.
00:08:38
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And a part of me thinks it could be successful.
00:08:43
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and dude just imagine like I stopped forever because of a dude named Ian and I'm on my deathbed and I'm like all these people told me they liked what I was doing and one person told me they didn't and I let that stop me like are you gonna let the Ian in your life win?
00:09:12
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Maybe his name is not Ian. Maybe his name or her name or their name is Latresha or Dennis or Alex.
00:09:25
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Maybe even like Chris. Maybe, maybe their name is like Jennifer. But it don't matter the name. What matters is you can't let them win. And it's not even about letting them win. It's like you can't Your life is not about what they think. They have their life, you have yours. And you're gonna let them dictate what you do with your life. you get your You're on earth for a limited amount of time. Probably 32 years. And you're gonna let them control what you do with your life. And another thing is like, i You gotta to remember your why. That's what that lady said. Hell yeah. I was in class and this lady was like, you gotta remember why you do something. And she was talking about social work, but it's applicable to like anything you're doing. Because if you don't know why you're doing something, anything will stop you, including a hate comment from a dude named Ian. But if you know your why,
00:10:41
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then nothing will stop you. And I didn't do this podcast for Ian.
00:10:50
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Hell no. I did this podcast because I like doing it and I think it could help people.
00:11:02
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And just by doing it, I complete the first part. I like doing it. And I've already had people told me they like it and it helped them. So the mission is already accomplished. Anything from here on out is bonus.
00:11:20
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I just watched the Peaky Blinders. And they they were in a moment where they were almost guaranteed death. Like probably about 90% that they were gonna die. But somehow they got through it. Call it God, call it luck. But they were like, anything from here on out is bonus. And that's where I'm at. I've helped people. And I like doing it. I still like doing it. I'm gonna keep doing it.
00:11:51
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You hear that, Ian? I don't know why I laugh like a baby. i
00:12:00
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But I i do ah love me, man. I love me. And that's so that's something a lot of people don't know, but I've come i come to learn more and more every day.
00:12:16
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It's like you how you feel about yourself is how you feel about the world like it's a mirror a mirror An example is like I met a kid when I first got to Denver and I could just tell everything that came out of his mouth was like inauthentic and he was like saying it to like try to be something he's not and it It had me fucking pissed I was heated I was livid. And yeah, I think I was right. But more importantly, why did that bother me so much? And it's because I did some thinking and it was probably because I hate when I'm inauthentic, when I try to be something I'm not.
00:13:11
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when I hide myself from the world to be who I think other people want me to be. Not even who other people want me to be, who I think other people want me to be. And the truth of the matter is that other people want you to be yourself. That's why like the coolest thing you can do is not care about what other people think and just be yourself.
00:13:36
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But I, and the only reason that bothered me so much when that dude was like inauthentic, he's like, I wasn't gonna drink tonight, but then blah, blah, blah. I'm like, dude, you were like, ugh. And I could, it was written all over his face that he was just like playing a character. And I, maybe I could have, if I wasn't like, if I didn't hate that about myself when I did that, then I probably would have just like laughed.
00:14:06
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even if I knew it was being a character like it was it was funny I guess but like it bothered me so much because I like as I was talking about before I often filter out what I'm gonna say because I like I don't think people will respond well but here's the thing fuck em because you get you have a limited amount of time on this earth And here's the bigger thing. Here's the bigger thing. It's... It's like... Here it is. It's common.
00:15:00
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yeah Okay, I got it so like I I hold back a lot of the things that like come to my mind because it's like ooh they don't want to hear that and I do that and I make friends, but those friendships are so fucking surface level because they don't even know the real me and That's my fault and it's because I hide it from them And a if I didn't hide it for them, to a thing two two
Self-Perception & Relationships
00:15:29
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things could happen. Either they like it and I can actually be myself around my friends, which would be swag, or they don't like it. And if they don't like me for who I am, then should they really be my friend?
00:15:48
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It's the same thing. I made a video about this on West Reflex. Those are for the OG fans who know how this all started. and But I made a video, it's like when you're going after a girl or even like a job, you're trying to like say all the right things.
00:16:08
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And say say you say all the right things and you get it. But then you have to say all the right things all the time to keep them. Kanye West, who's a controversial being right now. And I definitely do not support what he's saying at all. But one of the things he said is If your whole life you try to say the right thing, then your whole life is a test. And when did you have the most anxiety in school? On test day. Like, this is not a test, bro. It's life. It's meant to be live it's lived. It's not something you have to get right.
00:16:53
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Be yourself. Be yourself.
00:16:59
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But for real, like, and they say death, I don't, I ah probably tell my podcast listeners they're gonna die three times an episode, but like, that's what it comes down to. You've limited time on this earth. It doesn't really matter if some people don't like you. And I've tried to make everyone like me and it does not work because like that movie,
00:17:28
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I should get the name of the movie. It's called The Real Pain. But like that movie, when you hide yourself from the world, you don't even give people an opportunity to know you. And if you don't, if you go through your whole life not giving anybody an opportunity to even know you, then you are going to be lonely as hell.
00:17:57
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And life is hard. Do you really want to go through it alone? Life is hard enough when you got friends and family and a good job. Life is hard no matter what. That really irks me. It's that people like, people love to pretend that they're doing fantastic when they're not.
00:18:23
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And I'm like, I'm probably guilty of that. That's probably why it bothers me. World's a mirror. Or your perception of the world is a mirror on how you feel about yourself is a better way to put it. Type shit.
00:18:39
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Every time I make a joke, I lose my spot. But um,
00:18:50
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yeah life and it does it pisses me off that like you could be going through it and because of social norms like if someone comes up to you even when like when you're like friends like a school friend comes up to you and they're like how you doing you just got to say good even if you're doing horrible And you gotta post on social media the highlights from the past year. And then someone else looks at that and they're like, oh, look at how amazing your life is. I'm doing like shit. When in reality, they might not be doing so hot. And we're all just fucking pretending. For what? For who?
00:19:33
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Why?
00:19:37
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My guess at why is because especially for men, and I hate saying this, I hate having to like defend men having emotions, but somebody got to do it. Because showing a emotion, especially like saying I'm not doing good as a man is like, you can't do that.
00:20:01
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And like, what the fuck? Why are we pretending?
00:20:09
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And I know the patriarchy is alive and well, sexism is alive and well. Like women probably, women aren't taken as seriously. And it's like, why?
00:20:27
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And that sucks, but you know what else sucks? Having to pretend you're doing fantastic all the time. And if you look at the stats, I should probably pull up the stats.
00:20:42
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I'll hum some elevator music while I pull up the stat.
00:20:47
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and order latata I can't hum and search at the same time, so just give me a hot sec. How much more likely are men to commit suicide? And we're back. Three to five times more likely than females.
00:21:10
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So in between three to five is four. So that means for every one girl who commits suicide, there's four men.
00:21:22
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And women love to pretend that like men are just like living it up blissfully in this patriarchy. It's like, no, no, this shit sucks for us too.
00:21:35
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Like how about we take women seriously and men are allowed to have emotions. Wouldn't that be something? Fuck. Like think about for every one women woman who commits suicide there is four men. What the fuck?
00:21:59
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And that's another thing, like we come up with these stats and they're like, hmm, that's really interesting. And then you keep doing your fucking crossword. Like, no, how about we do something about it?
00:22:20
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And it's so hard to be a guy standing up for guys having emotions because women are uncomfortable with it and men are also like also scared so I have no one with me I mean it's not like I'm the first ever to do this but like women don't like it and men don't like it it's like fuck
00:22:55
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But I'm doing it anyway. Because fuck it. Because I'm gonna die one day and I'm gonna live the life that I want to live. And maybe if I do my thing a couple years down the line and if a bunch of men do their thing and if women are receptive, then we could live in a more equal world.
00:23:21
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And yesterday I was in class and I was talking to two of my classmates. it was We had to talk about something and then we got a little off track because I love getting off track. But we were talking about like how I got into social work.
00:23:41
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And then I was like, well, my passion is mental health. And I put passion in air quotes. And the only reason I did that is because it felt weird to say that I have a passion.
00:23:57
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Implying like men aren't allowed to have passions. And that's not really what it's like, but that's what it feels like.
00:24:09
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Like I can't be passionate about anything. I can't show weak weakness. I can't like not be doing fantastic all the time.
00:24:21
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I don't like that. Frankly, it sucks.
Emotional Expression Norms
00:24:29
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Because as I've mentioned before, there's been periods of my life where I really was not doing okay. And I had to show up in the world as if everything was Okay. And that sucked.
00:25:07
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Cause that just, it made it twice as bad. I don't know about twice as bad, but it made it a lot harder. Like not only was I not doing okay, but I had to hide the fact that I wasn't doing okay.
00:25:30
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I had to hide myself from the world. And maybe I didn't have to actually, but that's what it felt like.
00:25:46
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And it felt like that because every time I did show emotion or said that I wasn't doing okay, shoddies were like, that's not normal. Like why is, why is he talking about him struggling? Aren't, like are men good all the time? Like they're the ones who get taken more seriously. Like, but it it goes both ways.
00:26:13
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That's what I, That's what I gotta say. There's a quote. I'm a big quote guy.
00:26:26
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But it's like when you push someone else down, it hurts you too. That's the message of it. It's like when you want revenge and you get revenge, you think it's gonna make you feel better, but it doesn't.
00:26:39
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It makes you feel worse. I remember there is this, I was in a fight with my brother when I was younger and all, I was like, what, what can I say to get back at him, to hurt him like he hurt me?
Perspective on Life Events
00:26:54
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And I said the perfect thing. And I saw the smile run like just disappear from his face.
00:27:04
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And that's what I wanted. I got what I wanted. and I've never felt worse in my entire life.
00:27:23
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When someone hurts you, Like hurting someone does not make you feel, it doesn't make me feel better, maybe it makes you feel better, but it certainly does not make me feel better. I couldn't tell you how many times I was in a fight where I was trying to think of the perfect insult and it didn't really get to them and I was like fuck, I should have said blank, I should have said blank. Finally, I get it right, I hate them where it hurt.
00:27:53
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And i yeah, it's one of the worst I've felt in my entire life.
00:28:03
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Because hurting people does not make you feel any better.
00:28:12
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and this is a little tangent but I learned about this it's like women when we were like cavemen and shit women were having the babies and men were out like getting the food that like we we can't have babies so we got the food and then when the industrial revolution happened a couple thousand years later you guys were still having babies But instead of getting the food we went to work so we could pay for the food Like it wasn't just like men got together and right. All right, fellas. What's going on? Yo, what up Derek? We're we're gonna make it so women are are not taken seriously and all they can do is Fucking be housewives and it's gonna be sick. No That is not what happened, bro This wasn't this wasn't
00:29:10
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This wasn't planned. It just happened. That's another thing. It's another thing. s So I had had some troubled times in my youth as I continued to ruminate in like a big baby. And for so long, I was like, why is this happening to me? Like, what did I do to deserve this?
00:29:36
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and there was a very important mistake in that wording. Like shit, life, shit does not happen to you, it just happens. Like that's the equivalent of like, there's a tree and a forest and there's a huge storm and maybe, yeah. And this tree is like, oh fuck, like why is this rain happening to me?
00:30:01
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No! The rain is not happening to you, it's just happening. It's not about you. That's the whole thing. Like, I just read a book and that's what me and Oscar are going to talk about next week. But like, it's not about you. You are not the center of the universe. Shit doesn't happen to you. Shit just happens. Some of it's good. Not even. Some of it you perceive as good and some ah of it you perceive as bad. And you're like, why is this stuff I perceive as bad happening to me?
00:30:34
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No bad dog It is not happening to you you are just a piece of the puzzle life is not about you I watched this um cosmos documentary with Neil deGrasse Tyson and Like life isn't even about humans. Humans that is said if like all of time since the Big Bang, say if the Big Bang happened on January 1st and where are we now are at happened at the very like end of the year 1159 at the end of that year on December 31st of that whole timeline, of that whole year
00:31:22
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Humans have only been around for a couple like, from like 8 p.m. to midnight on the last day. The rest was like fucking dinosaurs and it was like algae. Like this is not about us. Fuck. And someone like, and like you, I don't know, what do people struggle with?
00:31:48
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I hide my struggles from the world, so I'll come up with another one. But some people are like, my parents got divorced. Why is this happening to me? It's not about you.
00:32:01
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Your parents don't love each other anymore.
00:32:07
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I'm sorry. I know divorce isn't funny, but it hasn't happened to me, so I think it's a little funny. But it's dead ass. Like, your parents getting divorced doesn't really have anything to do with you. It's about their relationship that you are not a part of.
00:32:28
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And it's like, say you're sad about your dad abandoning your family. It's like, what did I do to make my dad leave? It's not about you. The family life was probably too much for him and that's probably due to other circumstances. Life doesn't happen to you, it just happens.
00:32:55
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And that distinction is everything. Because like I had my own bad things happen to me and I was like, it it's my fault. It's because I'm not good enough.
00:33:10
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And then I try to be perfect so I never get hurt again. And it's really not funny. It's so stupid. But that's genuinely what happens to so many people. Like, someone's parents get divorced and they're like, it's because I'm not good enough. and No, it's not about you.
00:33:34
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and that you try to like change to be perfect so you never get hurt again but let me tell you something pain is unavoidable people
Self-Love & Worldview
00:33:44
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no one gets out of this life unscathed and often what happens another there's a uh i don't know if for the what exactly he is i know for sure he's an author i think his name's like gaber mate he's like babies or narcissists and this is what he means like by that it's like oh I cried and my mom didn't come get me I'm a bad baby and I like no your mom had to take a fucking phone call she has a job because it's 2024 and women can work now they're not just taking care of babies you sexist asshole baby oh it's all so complicated but it's like yeah every oh man everything is connected
00:34:40
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Everything is connected and it ties back to like the women like men didn't come to get together and like let's not take woman Seriously, it'll be sick and awesome and we can just watch football and drink beer and not show emotion. No You guys had babies and we had to help out so we got the food and that's it was just like a stream of events from there and
00:35:07
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Life doesn't happen to you, it just happens. Something I spoke about before is on how your perception of the world is a reflection of how you feel about yourself.
00:35:31
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And it's just, I didn't really know that. I think a lot of people don't know that. but it's once you see it you can't unsee it and yeah but like think about it if you're always and it's I don't know if it's like a causation is not correlation that means like just be I don't know which causes which maybe how you feel about yourself is a perception about how you see the world I don't know which one causes which but
00:36:05
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It's very connected that it's like if you're always pointing out what's wrong with you You're always gonna point out what's wrong with other people in the world, but if you're compassionate towards yourself you're gonna be compassionate towards other people and compassion and that's why I like self-love and being compassionate towards yourself and
00:36:28
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is of the utmost importance. It's debatably the most important thing because it will change how you feel about the world you live in and how you feel about your life. So how you feel about yourself controls how you feel about life.
00:36:44
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and your life's a lot better when you feel good about life when you wake up in the morning and you're like let's fucking go dude like I've been on a roll lately I'm gonna fuck some shit up I'm gonna shake the world up get ready world cuz here I fucking come or it's like man I gotta do this again I gotta fucking brush my teeth and take a shower and go to fucking class I hate class class is too long you see the difference there
00:37:11
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And that's why I'm a little bit of a hippopotamus because I don't take my own advice. Well, I do, but, and maybe this is just me not being that compassionate towards myself because I, I apply what I learned probably more than anyone I know.
00:37:27
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maybe I don't know but yeah but I don't really give myself credit for it like maybe I don't apply everything I've ever learned and maybe it's because of um I've been through a lot and I'm 22 and I'm a work in progress and that's the thing like people are like the world's fucked and I wouldn't really disagree but but we've like think about how we got here like I don't this isn't even religious it's just science and I hate when people it's like science verse religion it's like no science is just like what we've figured out about this planet since we got here
Societal Progress & Challenges
00:38:19
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it's whatever I won't talk about that right now but like this is insane that I have to say it like this but alright so we're humans on earth and eventually there had to have been like the first humans on earth and how that happened is up in the air but I'm team evolution
00:38:41
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So whatever, at one point you were the first humans on earth. You weren't given any instructions. You're just trying to stay alive with like tigers and all that jazz around you like tigers and other angry humans. You're just trying to stay alive. And as time has gone on, we expect ourselves to have it like all figured out. It's like, no.
00:39:12
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like we weren't given instructions really Jesus left a little book but like we God if if you even believe in that did not give us any instructions we're doing our best fuck and yeah we got some problems but like essentially we're just trying to stay alive still like life is hard a lot of scary things in life
00:39:45
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And it's like we were baffled that we don't all get along. It's like, no, like I, I think we came from monkeys. Like no other animal gets along. Like they make tribes and like gangs of animals and then they fight each other. And that's kind of what we're doing.
00:40:09
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I hope that we get to the point where we all live in peace and harmony.
00:40:18
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but like I don't like we're no different than the other animals like they eat each other at least we're not still eating each other and that's progress I know the boy Jeffrey Dahmer was still about it but like I feel like overall most of us aren't cannibals and that's progress that's dope i don is it dope because nowadays we're just like so lost
00:40:49
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And we're like, what's going on? We act like before this point, we had it all figured out. Wrong. No. Not at all.
00:41:04
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And we're doing our best. Everybody is doing their best. That's something I like to remember.
00:41:14
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because remember that dude I was talking about when I hated I didn't hate him but I hated how everything he said I could tell just like wasn't real and he was trying to be something he's not he's trying his best I bet he would be himself if he could but he's scared to kind of like I am
00:41:40
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And also, everybody is going through something that you know nothing about.
00:41:50
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Keep that in mind. But also, like, and that's because we pretend. And I get it. I don't really.
00:42:02
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Like when I say like, oh, how's it going to someone? And they're like, I'm really not doing well. I kind of judge them too, but like, can we work on that? Because everybody's going through something, you know, nothing about because we're all just hiding ourselves from the world.
Focus on Positivity
00:42:20
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At least I am sometimes.
00:42:26
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I care what people think.
00:42:30
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One dude named Ian left a hate comment and it took me out for a month. That's how fragile I am. But I'm coming back and I hope you do too.
00:42:48
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And I'm coming, I'm coming correct. And like, I don't, I do. I hope this podcast blows up one day, but like, even when I was doing it before, like it,
00:43:00
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There were a million good things about it. And one dude named Ian who said he didn't like it. And I let him, I let that outweigh all the good things. Like one, I like doing it. Two, it helped other people. Three, it gave... It made me and my dad closer. i We really liked talking about it together. Four, it reconnected with me with friends that I don't often talk to because I was doing it online. like i why not One of the episodes I did was titled, The Chillest Dude I Know. And that was my fucking boy from over the summer. And if we didn't film that, we maybe never would have talked again.
00:43:42
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But we had that conversation and we were both like, man, that i like I forgot how much you're my fucking dog, man. And I love you and I love talking to you. And this that this is what made that happen.
00:44:01
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And i this is also practice for me, sharing more of myself with the world.
00:44:15
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So all that, then there's one dude, you'll never guess what his name is, who said he didn't like it. And I stopped for a month. One hate comment equals me stopping for a month. So if I get 12 hate comments, I'm done for a year. But it's really not funny.
00:44:46
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I just, we'll probably, should I get into it? Let's flip a coin. Heads I get into it, tails I don't get into it.
00:44:57
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c Siri flip a coin. Tails. Siri says tails, so I guess we won't get into it. It'll be for another time. Cause I think we've had a good talk today and it kind of all tied up nicely. And Siri agrees.
00:45:21
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So if you're listening, Ian. Now I'm playing. I love you, Ian. And I have compassion towards you. because Because... I don't know. I don't know what you're going through. Maybe you were having a bad day. But I forgive you, Ian. And I love ya. But you know who I love even more? Is y'all. If you're still listening. I'm very happy I did this. I'm getting back to this.
00:45:50
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And thank you to all the people that reached out and said they liked it cause y'all are the, y'all are the only reason I'm back. I don't know about the only reason, but y'all are the reason I'm back. And I'm coming for blood. Thank you for listening.
00:46:09
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And one other thing that lady said, her name, I'll ah'll shout her out. Her name is, she gave me her business card. Where it at, dope? I think it was like Sofia something. I'll find it later. Should I find it now? Ooh, here it is. It was Sofia O'Lan. She came to our class and another thing she said um was never second guess your authentic self.
00:46:47
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And it's so easy too. but it's probably just about the worst thing you can do.
00:46:56
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That's all'm Mickey from Rocky. I love Rocky. Mickey's his trainer. He's like, ah, that guy's just the worst. I mean, if you don't know, he's saying worst. And yeah, I'm gonna keep my baby laugh because that's my authentic self. And people tell me they like my laugh. I like it too.
00:47:19
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Because it's fucking like raw and it's authentic. And I'm done hiding my authentic self from the world. You hear that Ian?