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I DID IT! My Live Tour is Complete, and here is the tea ☕
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In today’s episode, I wrap up my entire tour experience ~ all the shows, all the moments, all the feelings that came with it.
OH MY GOSH, I did it - it was incredible, my Smilies it was so incredible to meet you, the energy at each show was electric! It was honestly just all amazing! Thank you for all the support, its been such a long journey that you all have been on the ride for, and what a ride it was!
I share what the lead-up to the tour was really like for me, emotionally and mentally, and how much was going on behind the scenes that I didn’t always show.
A big part of this episode focuses on the Gold Coast show, where I really felt myself spiralling in real time. Allowing moments of self doubt and insecurity wash over me about things I couldn’t control. It pulled me out of presence and into my head in a way I didn’t fully expect.
I also open up about forgetting parts of the show and the pressure I put on myself in those moments. It was a real lesson in how easy it is to turn on yourself when things don’t feel perfect.
But I also talk about the shift I had to make ~ choosing to come back to myself, to the room, and to the reminder that no one knows the “perfect” version of the show except me. It became about not letting self-sabotage take over, and learning to anchor back into what was actually happening in front of me.
Across the tour as a whole, there were so many highs, so many learning moments, and so much growth I didn’t fully realise until now.
This episode is proudly sponsored by My Jewellery Shop, and also marks our partnership sponsorship for the tour.
Special thanks to Sarah Rachel Makeup for my gorgeous makeup and hair for the Gold Coast show ~ she was incredible.
This episode is your reminder…
That even in moments of self-doubt, you can come back to presence.
That you are allowed to not be perfect.
And that the way you speak to yourself in those moments matters more than anything else.
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If you’ve been following along this tour, I’d love to hear what resonated with you the most.
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Cleo xx
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The Pass Around the Smile podcast is recorded on Bundjalung Country, in South East Queensland, Australia. We acknowledge the Yugambeh people of the Bundjalung Nation, the traditional owners of this land. We pay our respects to Elders past, present and emerging.
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Introduction to Pass Around the Smile
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Pass Around the Smile is like your go-to friend, the one that lifts you up and backs you to the end. She's there to guide and inspire, challenge and teach, and remind you that your best self isn't out of reach. Self-development, manifestation, self-love and more, it's time to trust the process more than ever before.
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Welcome to Pass Around the Smile, the podcast. I'm your host, Cleo Massey, and I am so glad you're here. Let the magic begin.
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Hello, my smileys. am so emotional this morning. i have been waiting to record this episode. I've been excited to record this episode since last October.
Tour Dreams and Achievements
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Last October, I started sharing with you the BTS of creating my tour, my biggest career dream thus far, and I freaking did it.
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I did it and i as promised, am going to tell you everything. Oh my God. I can't believe we're here. I cannot believe it's done. All three shows are done in the spirit of pass around the smile live. I would love to take a quick moment to thank not only the partnering sponsors of the tour, but the sponsor of today's episode, which I know this episode, my smileys all around the world are excited for, and you've been waiting for, I've been seeing in my inbox, are you going to record a wrap up of the tour? We want like the full behind the scenes and so beautiful to receive messages from people that not just the smileys who were able to come to the shows, but smileys from all around the world being like, we want to hear it about it. Even messages being like, I'm thinking of you tonight, Cleo, when I had like my Melbourne or Sydney or Gold Coast show of these smileys that were like in England and America and New Zealand. It's just, you guys are the best, but a big thank you to my jewelry shop for being the partnering sponsors and for sponsoring this episode in particular. kila
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They are a gorgeous business located on the Gold Coast Highway at Nobby's Beach. You can go in, you can shop in person. The staff are absolutely beautiful. If you were at the Gold Coast show, you would have met some of the staff at the door. I, as you will have seen probably on Instagram, my engagement rings and my wedding rings and also a bracelet I own all from my jewelry shop. Luke back in the day stumbled across them and went in and designed them, had the most incredible experience with the team designing my rings and full circle moment.
Personal Growth and Challenges
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To now, they are supporting Pass Around the Smile. um They don't just have engagement rings, though, or, you know, the big diamond rings for things like weddings or special occasions. They also have affordable jewelry, earrings, necklaces, bracelets, you name it, they have it. And they're not just in person, they're online as well. a gorgeous business for all your jewelry needs. I will pop all their links in the show notes. Thank you again, My Jewelry Shop for sponsoring. And let's get into this very, very exciting and long awaited episode.
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So it is currently Monday, the, I don't even know, 18th of May. And as I said, like you guys, and if you're just coming across past Around the Smile now, there are so many of you. I have noticed so many new followers and new smileys adding themselves to the Facebook group or messaging me hello and welcome. If you want to go back to, you know, the start of the behind the scenes and kind of come on the journey, please do go back to like October podcast. And I take you through the whole journey. It is been, it's been crazy career wise.
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This tour was the hardest thing that I have ever done. I have been out of my comfort zone now for like six months straight. It has been so uncomfortable, but the fire in my belly was more powerful than that discomfort. And I know that I am an advocate for not pushing yourself and not not feeling that uncomfort that brings a...
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Like the the really uncomfortable fear where your gut is screaming no or that uncomfortable feeling in your gut where something isn't right. Maybe that dream or that person isn't aligned with your values, with your beliefs, with who you are as a person or who you are stepping into be at the moment, like that future version of you. I'm absolutely an advocate for doing that self-work to understand when something is right versus when something is wrong, but understanding whether it is just fear or it's actually wrong for you. We don't want to confuse fear with a sign that you're on the wrong path. As I said on my show night, exciting dreams can feel really scary, but that doesn't mean that they're wrong. This dream felt really scary, but it was not
Show Experiences and Feedback
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wrong. The feedback that I have received from every single show, voice messages, emails, I got a letter in the mail. Like the the feedback has just been so mind blowing. It has been so worth it.
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So worth the blood, sweat and tears that I put into creating this tour because of how you received the show, my smileys. And if you are a smiley that was not in the tour cities, of course, I have a plan.
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Just give me a beat. But I am basically going to organize an online version of the show where you guys will be able to join a live Zoom recording.
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As I said, give me a minute to like work it all out, but it is coming. I just don't want you guys to miss out. But yeah, wow. I cannot tell you how nervous I felt, guys, before every show, especially the Gold Coast show. So Melbourne came first and I was so nervous, don't get me wrong, but I was quietly confident. And I think accidentally my smiley community in Melbourne came is is huge and i don't know why i guess just word of mouth down there but I just like you know the the theater was pretty much sold out quite quickly and being in like kind of it was like a black box theater it just felt really like safe and warm and i just felt really confident and I obviously had the beautiful Dina Kaplan and Alicia Bannett at that show and just it was just
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I finished that show on such a high being like, oh, my gosh, it could not have gone any better. Like it really couldn't have gone better. I didn't have like limiting beliefs. I didn't have like, oh, what if or I should have done this. I should have done that. My God, I made mistakes like there were mistakes. There were things that like didn't go perfectly to plan. But.
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I was so in my element that none of that mattered. And I was just so grateful for every single moment and every single smiley in the audience and how everything went and the support from like my family and my friends, like it was just palpable, you know?
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Anyway, then Sydney, was so different, like not in a better way, not in a worse way, just in a different way. The audience were gorgeous. The theater was incredible. I actually, again, was like, I walked out of that theater being like, that show could not have gone better.
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Like I had a few little things again, like I'm human where I was like, oh wow, I think I missed that beard. Or like, I wonder what they thought about this beard. And Christina Carlson, the guest was absolutely incredible.
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And then Gold Coast, my hometown, the biggest show, I was a nervous wreck. Like, as I said, i was nervous for every show, but Gold Coast, I was like, oh my God, I was so nervous. I think because being vulnerable in front of pretty much everyone that you know, and being back in a theater that I grew up like dancing in and doing a Stedford Z and it was just like, I really felt the pressure.
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And I didn't realize this whole tour in itself was going to be such a self-development journey. Like I knew it was going to be hard. I knew I was pushing myself, but I have learned so much about myself, about my capacity, about who I am, about what I do want, about what I don't want, about how I want to show up in my business. Like I have learned so much about myself, which is the greatest lesson for me in all of this.
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But yeah, Gold Coast, it was crazy. And as I, as I always share the real BTS, I'll tell you guys everything. So I walked onto the show and like, it was so beautiful. And actually my mum side stage, mum played the universe side stage.
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She cried because of the welcome applause that I got when I walked out into that, onto that stage. It was like you guys, the Smilies the Gold Coast were applauding and whatever and clapping. And then i was like, okay. And I took a breath and then you all started again. And I was so overwhelmed. I did this like awkward hop, skip, dance, jump thing. I don't even know it was caught on video. I look like the hunchback of Notre Dame, but I don't care. i was like so overwhelmed.
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But the audience at Gold Coast was so lit up. I could see every single person all the way to the back in the audience.
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Do you know how off-putting that is? Like at Sydney and Melbourne, you could kind of see the first two rows and then it went black. And while apparently for the audience on the Gold Coast show, it felt dark,
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for everyone in the audience for me because the slideshow at at hotter was so big on stage and so white it lit up the audience for me so as I'm trying to like this was an hour and a half it actually ended up going over time sorry theaters um it was like an hour 45 to a two hour show that I had learned off by heart the only time where I had my iPad was when I was interviewing the guests, but it was a lot to learn. And that was one of the biggest things mentally coming up to this tour was learning the script to the point of like knowing it like the back of my hand, because not only do you have to learn the script, you have to know when to pause and when to be, you know, on this side of the stage and when to
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click the clicker for the slideshow and when to involve the audience and when to not and when to go off stage and when to come back on when to have a sip of water like there is so much to think about when to stand when to sit the props like there was just I don't think I realized how much of a production this was and I remember listening to a Mel Robbins episode about her tour and And like, I'm not comparing my tour to Mel Robbins. Like she's been on a world tour um in like much bigger theaters than me. But I remember her saying like, she didn't realize what went into a show and she's not from like showbiz background.
Commitment to Growth and Realism
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I am like, I'm from the film and television world. i have done theater. I have done stage. I grew up doing Stedfords and musicals and working with cameras and lights.
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I had an understanding and it was still scary. Like little things like that the audience kind of I talked to my friends about that they didn't realize was like the the furniture for the stage. That's not something that's provided by the theaters and just rocks up. That's something where you have to hire the furniture and you have to get it delivered on time and then you have to have it picked up on bump out and you know, the the flowers. Like in Melbourne, we were like at florists, like picking and arranging flowers. Like, thank God my beautiful friend Michelle made me the most gorgeous arrangement for the Gold Coast show. But there's just so many little things that you don't understand. Like, sorry, I'm not saying that you don't understand, that I didn't understand went into
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a show like this the um tech specs for the audio guys the lighting guys the ushers at the doors the uh the lights up lights down the green rooms what I needed in the green rooms for the guests to make them feel comfortable the questions for the guests prepping the guests the thank you gifts for the guests um god what else like there's just so much the marketing though oh oh
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oh the marketing. Guys, I have now put myself out there consistently on social media, posters around cities.
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ah What else? In what ways? we We did everything. We emailed and called schools. We ah went to like dance and acting schools. we I went to like my old agencies. i basically for six months straight asked people for help and asked people to support me in getting this tour out there and I still didn't fill the theater like in Sydney or Gold Coast Melbourne pretty much sold out is so cool Gold Coast was a really big theater
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And I must say, I was manifesting to feel it and I didn't. So there are parts of this journey that like didn't actually meet my expectations, but I am truly glad that they didn't because I now know that one day i will go back to that theater and I will sell it out within a day.
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And I'm still saying that with hesitation in my voice. which is a lesson in itself and something that I tried to teach my smileys on the night. So often we ask for what we want or talk about what we want in a sarcastic way or in a joking way or in a quietly, right? We whisper our desires. And just then it in bit a hesitating kind way because there are parts of me hesitating kind of way because there are parts of me that
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are like, but what if you don't, Cleo? A, what if you don't ever want to do a show like this again because it was so hard? But B, what if you do do a tour like this again in five years and you don't sell out the theater again and you've said that you have to all of these smileys that are listening?
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Well, I need to say it with conviction. i need to say it and believe it. I need to ask it like I want it and ask it like I deserve it. I'm going to give myself grace at the moment because I actually don't know if that's what I truly want yet. I am going to be taking the next couple of months to do a real lot of inner work and self-reflection on the next version of me, on who I want to be, on how I want to show up, on how I want Pass Around the Smile to evolve now.
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This live show, no regrets, literally no regrets there. As I said, there were mistakes. There were things that didn't meet my expectations, but the way that it went, the feedback, the special time that I got to spend with my family on tour, the support I received from my family, from my friends, family,
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from like people I worked with, from my smileys was like, I have never felt so loved and supported and appreciated.
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So it's also worth it. Don't get me wrong, but I've promised you guys that I will tell you the real behind the scenes. And I had a beautiful feedback ah today, actually from Renee at my jewelry shop.
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a staff member at my jewelry shop. um And she said, it was so nice to hear that you have struggles as well. And that, you know, we can look up to people. Like, for example, we had Revy and Bryony and Cooper talk at the Gold Coast show and they were...
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phenomenal like I cannot even explain I'm sorry guys that if you went out the Gold Coast show like I don't want to make you feel like you missed out or anything but their story like the way they opened up there they shared so generously and vulnerably and they had the audience in tears they had them laughing they had them reflecting feeling really seen and heard What it made me realize and one of my questions to those three guests was...
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Often we assume as a society when people gain a following or become successful or seem confident that they automatically become immune to things like jealousy or comparison or self-doubt and it couldn't be further from the truth. And something that like Renee shared with with with me this morning was it was so nice to see these people that we do look up to and who seemingly have it all together We actually don't.
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And we have real struggles just as everyone does. And I'm not putting myself on ah on a pedestal here at all, but I have had smileys say things to me in the past. Like you run past around the smile and it's such like a a positive business and you seem so happy all the time. You seem like you have it all together. And I don't, I do not guys. I do not at all. And I'm sure like the most, I don't know like let's say,
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I don't know who I'm thinking about. Someone who I really admire. Who did it Oh, it was Zoe Foster Blake. She is just someone that I think like, oh my God, how could she ever be like, how could she ever have self-doubt? Like she is the most incredible business woman and you know she's she's successful and she's confident. She has a beautiful family. She did ah an incredible podcast episode once and shared how she falls asleep with the most crippling anxiety at night. And I was like,
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Wow. And it just made me feel so seen and heard. So something that I always strive to do with Pass Around the Smile is keep this podcast real and open and vulnerable. And yes, I will experience vulnerability hangovers from that, but it is worth it from the way that I know Pass Around the Smile has you, my smileys feeling. I promise you, i will continue to share and to inspire and to guide you through all seasons of your life.
Philosophy on Challenges and Mindset
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And i will never,
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be that person who preaches toxic positivity. I never, ever want to be that person who makes you feel like you should be happy and optimistic and manifesting these incredible things all the time because that's just so unrealistic. Yes, there should be many seasons in your life where you do feel incredible and grateful and inspired and where you are um manifesting really effortlessly and easily because you deserve to.
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But it won't be all the time. It can't be all the time. And that's okay. And I never want you to feel like you have to resist or feel ashamed of seasons in your life where you're not your best self or where you are scared or where you are negative or where you are complaining We've all been there.
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I complained so much guys in the lead up to this tour. I was constantly saying to people who asked me how the show planning was coming along that I was overworked, that, that the process had been so hard that i was so tired and exhausted and i was sick of pushing myself But I was, and that was my truth. But this is such an important part of my journey.
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As I said before, the fire in my belly to do this tour was so real and I had to honor this dream. You will all have dreams, right? Whether it is to start your gardening business or it is to, i don't know spend more time alone meditating, whether it's to go on a holiday or wear a shorter dress or um I don't know, go on a date with someone, you have to do it.
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You have to honor yourself. And even if it doesn't go the way you had hoped, at least you will know and at least you will have tried because I think one of the worst things that we can experience as a human is regret for not trying, for not giving ourselves a go, for not giving our dreams a go. You have to honor yourself to do this. You've been given this life. Please allow the last six to eight months of Pass Around the Smile to be an example of you can do scary things. You can put yourself out there. Yes, I still do stand by. You should not have to burn out. You should not have to hustle.
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to achieve your dreams, we can do less and attract more. But you know what that takes? A really strong mindset. But we all hold the same power, which means you can do whatever you set your mind to do. So for the last 75 days, i meditated every single day. and I...
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It was hard. There were many days I didn't want to do it. Some days it was a five minute meditation. Some days it was a 20, but I needed to show myself that I could stick to something and that I deserved to feel good. And my gosh, did I reap the rewards of meditating every single day. i became...
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a clearer version of myself, a calmer version of myself. I could see the way because when we connect to our intuition and that's what meditation will bring you connection to your intuition, you, you connect to your higher self and your higher self is the version of you who knows the way, who knows your next best step, who knows how to hold themselves, how to react, how best to perceive And I was doing my cards like every second day in the lead up to this tour because I needed the guidance. And the cards that I were pulling was so magical. Like the cards would tell me exactly what I needed to do when the self-doubt would creep in again or when the, you know,
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A block would come up or something hard would come up. the The cards would tell me exactly what I needed to do. And then the next card would always tell me what was right around the corner, the hope. And I would just get so excited. And then the thing would happen or the solution would appear. And I'd be like, oh my God, there it is. The cards told me this was coming. Like they're magic.
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But they became more magical when I connected to my intuition. And I allowed myself that So like, yes, you shouldn't have to like hustle or grind or give up incredibly important moments or people to achieve your dreams. Yes, exciting dreams can come with sacrifices and will come with fear and will come with increased responsibility, but it shouldn't mean completely sacrificing things that are so important to you. For example,
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I did not sacrifice my days with Indigo in the lead up to this tour. Having two days with her a week was so important to me. And I knew that I would look back and regret working too much and not spending those two days a week with her. And I mean, like, I'm not including weekends. I have two weekdays with her a week, non-negotiable, because...
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I want to because she's my daughter and she's at such a precious age. And i I, kept that. And like, of course I will admit there were days where like I had her and I'd have to like pop the TV on while I caught up on emails or practice my lines. Sometimes I even practice my lines to her and she was looking at me like, dude, I'm so bored. Can you please sing baby shark to me instead?
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But I actually, and I'm really proud of this, I don't feel guilty.
Balancing Personal and Professional Life
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I do not have mum guilt as a whole on reflection for doing this tour and for pushing myself. Yes, I will admit there were moments in the lead up where I did feel guilty, where she was like, you know, mummy, mummy, and I'm on my laptop or mummy, mummy, and I am a really stressed stressed and anxious version of myself. And
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However, as a whole, I actually did this for her. I did this to show her that i wanted i'm just I was so excited to show her videos and show her what her mummy did. I'm so excited to tell her when she's a teenager or when she's an adult what I did, um where I stood on stage and I was so scared, but I chased my dreams and I had feedback where people told me that I changed their lives and that the meditations allowed them to connect with
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people who had passed that they haven't been able to connect with in so long and like I just I can't even begin to explain what people have said to me that have made this so worth it so I don't actually feel guilty as I said there were moments there were moments in in the tour prep where I felt guilty, but it's just been so worth it. And I didn't sacrifice those days with her. So that was a non-negotiable for me. So when it comes to your dreams, you can write down your non-negotiables. So if a non-negotiable for you is not giving up
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time with loved ones to a certain degree, then write that down and stick to that. But maybe there are some sacrifices that you have to make in other ways. Like for example, i made sacrifices with friends. There were so many friends that I had to cancel on or not see in the lead up to this tour. And I know that they understand. And I'm so grateful for their support. But like that was something that it sucked. But I was like in this season of life for me, it is important for me not to go to that catch up or not to go on that walk because right now I just do not have the capacity to do so. So there were so many parts of my life that I did sacrifice to make this dream a
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a reality, but there were so many parts that I wasn't willing to sacrifice. And that is what I want to show you guys that you don't have to completely give up everything because I never want you to look back and think like, Oh God, I gave up so much for this dream, but the universe will support you when you are in alignment with what you want and what you believe in. I believe in being the most present beautiful mum to indigo again I'm still admitting there were times where I wasn't the most present mum because I was a seriously anxious version of myself the last six months because of this tour but all in all my efforts of like meditating every day and spending one-on-one time with her even when I was like I need to practice my lines like it all it all added up
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um So I would get your journal out. What is it that you want? What will you regret at the end of your life if you don't give a shot now?
00:28:24
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Whether it's buying that house, um getting the puppy dog, reaching out to, i don't know a group on Facebook to make new friends, ah whether it is like a career dream or moving overseas.
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Please. Give it a go. I gave it a go and I did it. And guys, I am the most relieved version of myself at the moment. I feel so proud.
00:28:51
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very overwhelmed, not going to lie. The feelings that I have felt in the last couple of weeks of these, these shows are like a mix of like nerves, excitement, complete terror, um, feeling so fulfilled and appreciated and grateful, ah anxious, vulnerable,
00:29:15
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all of all of the things, um but it has been so worth it. And I really want this to be an example for you. So that was like a big that was like a half an hour segue pretty much where I started to tell you about the Gold Coast show.
00:29:28
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But what I was saying was I was on the stage and I could see everyone, right? So I'm trying to remember my lines and I'm looking out and I'm like, oh, there's my auntie. there's my cousin, there's my neighbors. Like my, half of my street came. Oh, it was so cute. Like the the people that, stepped up and supported me. Like it just, oh my God, it filled my heart. There's my neighbors. There's, oh, I used to dance with her. Oh my God, that person came. Oh, there's, there's my besties. There's, you know, oh my God, there's so many guys in the audience. I'm so glad so many men came. Oh, there's this, was a do you know how hard guys mentally Gold Coast was my toughest show?
00:30:11
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I, I didn't want to say this, but I keep it like in the spirit of being vulnerable, I guess I just don't want the audience in Gold Coast to like, nah, anyway, I'm just going to say it.
00:30:23
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Gold Coast was personally my worst performance, my worst performance out of Sydney and Melbourne. And that was something that I went off the stage and I'm not going to lie amongst the excitement and the relief and the feelings excitement. being so proud of myself and proud of my team and like seeing my mom and dad's face and Luke's face and even like my staff member, Kate, and my my producers, like they were so proud of me and so happy and they knew the work that went into this. Amongst all of that, I came off stage and I was like focusing on the negatives.
00:30:58
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I was doing a lot of what I tell my smileys, what I had just told my smileys on stage not to do. But I gave myself grace. I was like, Cleo, it's okay. This is the hardest thing career-wise that you've ever done. It's okay. Just go through it.
00:31:15
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We don't have to resist these bad feelings, okay? We just have to go through the motions. So I came off the stage after my first segment and I said to my tour producer, oh my God, the light, like, can you please tell the lighting guys to like turn the lights off in the audience? And like, it was, she then used a little headset to be like, guys, like what's going on? Cleo can see everyone. Like the audience is so light. And they were like, it's not us. Like the lights are down. The slideshow is lighting up the audience. So it was just something that happened and I had to get used to. um And yeah, it was, it was really hard because there were also like lots of gaps in the audience too, because there were so many people who, not so many people, but there were people who messaged me after being like, I'm so sick. I was so sick. I couldn't come. I'm so sorry. Or like, there was this like bunch of like a big family who's unfortunately their grandma passed and like
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I don't know. There was like so much that went on, which is normal. Like it is so normal, but I was up there focusing, oh my gosh, why are those seats empty? I wonder if this person is here. Oh no. Like, I hope they're okay. I'm like, Cleo, concentrate. Like it was a mental battle to continue concentrating and focus on what was working.
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all the beautiful people that were still, like there were like 400 people in that audience still, like what an incredible amount of people. Yet, Yeah. and And I have also opened up to my friends already about how I felt. And I'm not saying this to be like, oh, I was amazing. But they were like, oh, Cleo, we couldn't even tell you were nervous. Like we couldn't tell that you were like mentally battling this on stage, like all of these things, which was so nice to hear, of course. But the reason why I'm sharing this is because so often we overcomplicate
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and replay moments that we don't need to. And this was a big segment that I talked about at all of the shows was overcomplicating our interactions with other people. And in my case, overcomplicating my show, which actually, and again, I'm not, I'm not being up myself, but it was a great show. You know, it was, the feedback was out of this world, like yet,
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I was finding the bits and pieces that weren't perfect or that tiny bit that I missed that people had no idea what I missed or what I messed up. They were like, we literally had no idea. How would we know? We don't know the show. So this is a reminder, whether you're doing a presentation at work or you're having a conversation with someone where you wanted to like bring up all of these points or whatever, the other person doesn't know and they're not judging you. And if they are,
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Who cares? you don't want You don't want them in your orb anyway. But it was just another lesson to me and another lesson that I was like, I have to share this with my smileys in the spirit of being vulnerable and sharing all of the BTS of this tour with you guys, that something can be so good and so exciting and so amazing. Yet why as humans do we focus on the tiny, tiny, tiny things that went wrong?
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It's like on Instagram, you know, as like a, i don't know, like I've talked to friends who kind of have followings or businesses, right? You could get a thousand the beautiful supportive comments on a post or on a business launch or whatever.
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And you could get one negative comment and you focus on that negative comment instead of all the positive ones. I did that for a little bit on and off since the Gold Coast show. Like, as I said, after Sydney and Melbourne, I was like, nah, there were, as I said, there were, there were things that went wrong because like, of course, there are always things that don't go how you expect, but it is how you reflect on that and how you deal with that that matters.
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With the Gold Coast show, I think because I was feeling so vulnerable and so nervous, I nitpicked myself and I pulled it apart. And I have done since Thursday.
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but I did it in a way where I was like, no, no, no, this is okay. I'm giving my myself grace. As I said before, I'm not resisting it. I'm human. I just want to go through the motions and I actually haven't journaled yet, which is so naughty, but I have been absolutely indulging in just feeling relaxed and like watching mindless TV. We're watching Below Deck at the moment and and I'm just like, oh my God, it feels so nice to be relaxed and so nice not to have like I can't relax because I should go over my script once more or I have a million emails to respond or I have to make sure my tour producer's okay.
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Oh my God, guys, I cannot explain to you how relaxed I am right now and how easy everything seems now in my business. Like this tour has really put things into perspective for me and I'm sure that will change and I will, you know, one day be so stressed about a launch or whatever, but it's just been such a beautiful experience for me the showing myself what I can do.
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Like I really do feel powerful and I feel so proud that the people, the smileys in every single audience have told me that they walked out of those theaters feeling powerful. Do you guys remember my only goal? I said to you guys, my only goal is for the audience to walk out feeling inspired and powerful. And I know that I have achieved that. So I have to focus on that and I have to let all of the other little things go because no one was there to judge me.
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no one cared, no one actually noticed all of the little things that did go wrong. And as I said, they were little things. All like as a whole, the big things, they they went right. They went so incredibly right. And it was so fun. As a reflection, this dream was so fun. Like I got to travel to Melbourne and Sydney with my family and my team. And like, and I have a team guys. I like, I have it.
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I had a team helping me. Yes, the team was small, but it was mighty. ah It has just been me. Pass around a smile for. 10 and now I have I have a team and it feels so nice and supportive and it was a real moment for me when I was sitting there and I was like getting my makeup done by this incredible makeup artist called Sarah Rachel she's on Instagram I'll put her um link in the show notes she's incredible if you're on the Gold Coast cannot recommend her for hair and makeup enough but I was getting my hair and makeup done and then I had my beautiful content creator Alicia from Call Her Jean there filming me, doing content, editing, uploading things to my story for me, tagging everyone I needed to tag. Then I had my beautiful team member Kate there on her laptop. emailing people their tickets, making sure everything was under control. had my mum and dad there, you know, packing the suitcases and the car. I had my friend Michelle dropping off the flowers. I had a team at HOTA of like ushers and lighting guys. And actually, I'm so sorry, it was actually a lighting girl and she was beautiful. And I freaking love that she was a female. This was a very like female empowered tour, especially because my mum played the universe. And I loved like when I brought mum out on stage at the end of the show, the crowd went wild when I said, and yeah, like my mum played the universe because the universe is a woman. And all of the women in the room were just like, yeah, because yeah, the universe is a woman. Let's face it. yeah.
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But yeah, i had I had a team. I had my my producers, Sophie and Ainsley, and i just had a team and it was so cool. It felt so cool.
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And speaking of support, my smileys, whether you came to a show or couldn't live on the other side of the world, you guys are just the best. I have felt your support. I feel your support. If you haven't already, jump in the Facebook group There are conversations and posts happening in there all the time. I'm in there. But I did want to let you guys know my plan moving
Future Plans and Podcast Break
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forward. So I am going to take a break from the podcast and I hope you're not sad to hear that.
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It is going to be a well worth it break because when I come back, I am coming back bigger and better and better. I just, I need a break.
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As I said, I did really push myself and I have been working consistently so, so hard for so many months now. And we are going to Europe, but we're going to Europe and watching my friend get married in England. And then we're heading to Sardinia and the South of France and taking Indigo. And I'm just so excited to have quality time with Luke and Indy and,
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my besties, like how lucky and what a beautiful way to finish off this this tour, to to go to Europe and to shut my laptop and to actually have a break and practice what I preach in connecting with myself again and being like, all right, what is my next, what's my next move? I can tell you guys that I know that the card decks are your most favorite part of Pass Around the Smile. I mean, correct me if I'm wrong. Maybe it is the podcast. Maybe it is a journal, the meditations. But over the years, I believe my card decks are the most well-received and like, I don't know, just guide you guys.
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So I'm going to bring out a new card deck and i'm I've told you now, but guys, these take a year to create. So you're going to have to be patient, but that's why I know and believe that my card decks are the best.
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real deal. They are so magical because they take a year to create, because it's straight from my heart. It's straight from my illustrator's heart.
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They are filled with magic. And I just, I can't wait. I mean, look, who knows? Maybe I'll go to Europe and I'll come up with a new idea and I won't make a card deck, but Right now, my aim is to make a card deck and a new surprise product that Luke actually came up with the idea. Luke, who believes in Pass Around the Smile more than I do, my husband, he's the best. um But I'll keep that a surprise. And again, oh God, do have I just spilled the card deck too early? Probably. It's literally going to be like a year away.
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um But like, oh, in the spirit of being transparent and BTS with you guys, that's the goal. Um, But I am going to go to Europe and I'm going to shut off and I am going to meditate and journal when I'm over there, when I feel like it, when I feel like it. I am also going to sip on wine and eat so much pasta.
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Like i'm going to eat so much pasta. It's not even funny. And cheese. and relax and let my brain rest. And I'm going to feel really proud of myself and let myself feel into those feelings of pride. And I want this to feel inspiring for you guys, because you have a choice to do things in your life that are going to make you feel proud. And then you have a choice to like reward yourself as well like this is such a big reward for me and I bloody I know I deserve it I bloody deserve it and I I can't wait to switch off and come back better than ever if you have listened to every single past around the smile episode i love you but please remember you will have forgotten those episodes like even me who plans and writes and records every episodes I go back and listen to my old episodes and I'm like oh wow, I learned something new. I take something from it because I'm in a different season of life or I forget what i've what I've said. So if I forget what I've said, you will forget what I've said. So please remember, there are so many episodes you can go back to There are mini courses on the podcast, which are free. by My Pass Around the Smile e-commerce store will be operating as usual. My mom will be packing my orders. So I'm not i'm not just disappearing for a bit, but I really do need this break. I...
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And thank you for just for being patient and for for staying around and for coming back when I am back. And I can't thank you guys enough for the support with this tour, the messages, the comments. Please keep in touch.
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The Past and The Smile podcast is here to stay and it is going to get better and I'm going to be posting more consistently and I'm going to be listening to what you guys want. So please comment on Spotify or on Apple or in the Facebook community about what you want to hear about because when I come back, i sure am going to be feeling really inspired. um And let me know as well, like it doesn't have to just be podcast. You might want a new online course or you might be craving connection in a different way. And I can think about it and I can do that. I have so many things I'm going to have time for now. Like it's so exciting. I've just been so to a focus that it has not been business as normal here at Pass Around the Smile. I can finally focus on what Pass Around the Smile has always been about. But um yeah, I did it guys. I did it.
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And it feels so good. This episode was a bit of a messy mix. I had no plan. I've probably forgotten a million things, but this podcast has always been about being imperfect. And I hope that...
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you feel like you could conquer anything right now. I had someone say to me that they walked out of the room feeling like they could conquer the world. And I was like, oh okay, that's incredible. I had someone show me and tell me that they had started business straight after the tour. I just, yeah, I just keep, keep feeling inspired and keep pushing yourself, pushing yourself to an extent, working out what you're willing to sacrifice versus not.
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Um, and we will talk again soon. i am, I'm off to relax. I'm off to relax and breathe and take this all in. Thank you for being here for the ride.
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My jewelry shop. Thank you for sponsoring this episode and for being the partnering sponsors of the whole tour. My smile is I love you. i will talk to you soon.