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Beyond Fantasy: My Life as an Adult Content Creator Part 4
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Most people only see the polished side of being a creator. The finished audio, the sexy clip, or the carefully curated post. But what they don’t see are the hours of editing, script writing, marketing, and constant platform juggling that go into making it all possible.
In this video, I’m pulling back the curtain on the not-so-glamorous side of being an independent adult content creator. From burnout and creative blocks to algorithm chasing, censorship, payment processor headaches, and the emotional toll of isolation and comparison. I’m talking about the messy, real side of this work that rarely gets shared.
If you’ve ever wondered what it really takes to produce a “20-minute file” that eats up hours of editing… or how creators navigate rules that shift overnight on platforms that control their livelihoods… this is for you.
✨ What you’ll hear about in this video:
- The hidden labor behind content creation (editing, marketing, re-recording).
- Burnout, pressure to constantly produce, and finding balance.
- Privacy, safety, and surviving platform rules and payment processors.
- Financial stressors like taxes, fees, and unstable income.
- The emotional and physical costs of this work.
💜 If you’re a creator, you’ll relate. If you’re a fan, you’ll understand us a little better.
🔔 Subscribe for more behind-the-scenes conversations about erotic hypnosis, femdom, and the realities of being an independent creator.
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Transcript
Introduction to 'Slut Next Door' Podcast
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Welcome to the Slut Next Door podcast, where we dive deep into desire, unravel kinks and fetishes, and explore the deliciously naughty side of self-discovery.
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I'm Beatrix Vale, an erotic audio creator, and your guide to all things kinky and curious. So let's begin.
Behind the Scenes of Content Creation
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People often see the finished product, a polished audio file, a seductive clip, or a perfectly crafted post, and assume that's the whole story. looks easy enough but what you may not see are the long hours the endless re-recordings the algorithms the hours spent marketing instead of creating being an independent content creator can look super glamorous from the outside and sometimes it does
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feel amazing and glamorous, but behind the scenes, it can be messy, exhausting, and oftentimes not so glamorous.
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So today I wanted to pull back the curtain some more and share another side of this work, the parts that you may not even know exist.
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So let's go ahead and get into it. One of the not so glamorous sides of this work are the long hours.
Effort in Recording and Scriptwriting
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And I'm pretty sure I mentioned this in maybe part one, but you know if you have a, say, 20-minute audio file, that 20-minute file probably took...
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hours to create, to, you know, do all the things behind the scenes. You know, for one, you have the editing and I make these multi-layered hypnophiles that can take at least an hour to edit. And then there's the recording it. And sometimes I do record live in my Discord server. So some people are able to see that, that it's usually not just one take, you know, for that 20 minute file.
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I'm I stop a lot while recording because I may like slip up my words or my voice like cracks a little bit, um you know, anything. Sometimes I stop and have to really think because I'll have written out the script, by and I think that script was great, but when I say it out loud, it might not come out right. So sometimes I'm stopping and like really thinking,
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or I may even improv a line here and there based off the script. And another thing that I don't find so glamorous is the actual script writing.
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That takes a lot of time, a lot of thinking, lot of strategy. But I have told people before that Script writing, i think because you're sitting there like within the kink, like you are really in it and you're visualizing things. And that can be a very arousing ah piece of the content creation and also editing like I i don't lie and i promise I'm not saying this to like turn you on but there I get aroused when I make my my content but the not so glamorous side of that is usually well I would say all the time I'm not doing and anything about that like I become aroused and that's that that's just that but
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I've also said that I think that's actually a good thing because when I'm aroused, you could probably hear it in my voice. You can hear you know me take a different tone or you can hear...
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the passion in my voice so that's that's a good thing I believe but you know it's not I'm sorry to say this guys but I'm not like sitting here like recording and I have to take a break to like finger myself or something like it's not it's not how it goes um and that's not glamorous at all right um You know, and then the not so glamorous side to that one piece of content, there's so much that goes with it. So there's,
Managing Burnout and Work-Life Balance
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you know, writing the description, thinking about the tags, planning how I'm going to release it, you know, and then along with the marketing
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that content, there's responding to comments on it and there's posting it to multiple platforms. There's a whole piece, I'm going to get into this later, you know, how I'm going to organize that piece of content in my own organizational system.
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um So yeah, it's, you know, this little file took hours to create, hours. um and then still takes time after it's created.
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Another side of this work is the potential to burn out. And luckily, I've only experienced this maybe once in my career where I literally became burnout and I just had to take a week to step back and you know, just take a break from it.
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um I'm je generally pretty good at knowing when to take breaks. Like I take a lot of breaks during my day. um I'm very self-aware.
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Like if I feel little bit of that mental burnout, I'll just take a step back. I'll walk away from my computer, go make myself a meal, go outside, play with Lucy,
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you know, do something that that isn't this. um But there definitely is a pressure that I feel to constantly produce, you know, because I don't want to disappoint.
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I don't want to not be consistent. So there's, you know, this pressure constantly can produce. And then I've got people waiting on customs, people emailing, oh, when's it going to be available? You know, like that's been a big obstacle I've learned how to deal with.
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and And still, i i still grapple with it because I am such a people pleaser. So if someone feels like they're waiting forever, that bothers me at my core. Yeah.
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Um, but yeah, it's, um, it's a constant pressure that I have to deal with. I have to really be mindful of taking care of myself.
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And like I said, I'm generally really good at this. Um, I, there's some weekends where I do do a little work, but I'll spend most of my day doing things that I want to do that have nothing to do with my business. And that's always really refreshing for me is to, you know, do things that I want to do because there definitely is a
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a balance, and I know I'm not very good at this right now. Hopefully one day I will be, but you know there there's a balance of your personal life, the emotional energy you're expending, and a professional demand.
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um you know All these things are are fighting together for for your time And it can feel overwhelming.
Risks of Platform Dependency and Monetization
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yeah I mean, for example, I'll be completely clear. Like today, i i logged in and I've got all these unanswered DMs. I've got ah crazy list of things to do.
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and you know what? Instead of letting that feel heavy, i just say, okay one thing at a time. You can do this. You know, it's just... ah
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It's not so glamorous is the point of this episode. Along with those things, there's platform um issues and payment processor issues, which is definitely not glamorous. um It's a very scary thing actually to think that one of the platforms that I depend on to push out my content on could have a rule change overnight.
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Like I could log in tomorrow and everything be gone. You know, um that's very, very scary. And something that's why I diversify, um why I use multiple platforms, just in case that happened. Because if I put all my eggs in one basket,
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you know, what happens if that platform goes away? It definitely feels like when I am on loyal fans, for example, that is land that I'm renting because just one policy change can threaten my business. And again, that's why I diversify so much.
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And then the payment processor thing is super frustrating. So if you don't know
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and going to really try to explain this, like I'm not a a yeah expert in this. I just and just know a little bit. So things like MasterCard and Visa have these rules, right, of what they will allow in terms of like using their services for.
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And when it comes to things of sexual nature, they consider that high risk payments. And so one of the one of the standards is that hypnosis is...
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ah risky a risky threat because it's it's ah not consensual. And that's just silly because when...
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You know, when I'm creating hypnosis content, you, the user, are making your own decision on whether you press play or not, right? So it's not like I hypnotized you and into buying my file or giving me money.
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I'm simply providing content that is within the realm of hypnosis And I don't find that ah something that's not consensual, something that will trick someone into it. So there's all these little rules that they have that we have to work around. You know, that's why when you go on platforms, the word hypnosis is not allowed because that'll be flagged as something that's non-consensual and dangerous.
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it's It's just so silly. And, you know, that's just, that it's part of the game, unfortunately. So another thing that's not so glamorous is the realities of content creation. So fortunately, you know, you guys as users see that when I create this piece of content, it's just, you know, done as perfectly as I can.
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edited and tailored up to be this great piece of content, right? But there are so many ah realities behind creating that content that are not sexy at all, um like technical hiccups. So I have knock on wood only done this once to where I recorded like a good 20 or 30 minutes of a file and my, actually it wasn't the program's fault. was my fault. I didn't save it, right? I wasn't done recording.
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And I, so I didn't save it. And so I lost like 30 minutes of recording. Super frustrating. Um, There are you know, I have to save a file in multiple ways. So like once I'm done recording and editing, I'll save what I call the raw version of it. So i can go back to it and edit it if needed.
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That's how I ah do personalizations, if you're wondering. So I save the raw file where all the layers are there. Because when I export it as an MP3, it is one audio file. Like I can't go back in and remove the layers once I export it. So I've learned to save the raw versions to where And I can go back to that file.
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i can reuse a layer. If I do a part two, for example, and that's not so sexy, right? See what I'm talking about? These things aren't sexy. Maybe it is to you nerds that love...
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hearing about stuff like this but um yeah so then there's um and if you've ever heard me record live there's lots of re-recording things um you know if I mess up when I talk which happens often Or, you know, that this happened at my previous home um there're because I lived like in an apartment. So there was lots of noise like lawnmowers, birds chirping outside, the downstairs neighbor dog barking, and know, was just things like that. so not sexy at all.
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Oh, ah at my old place too, there were... loud vehicles like people with obnoxiously loud I don't know car talk like when cars are loud when they're driving by so I would have to stop when they drove by it was just extremely frustrating um and not sexy or glamorous and then this is the most unsexy thing about this work that the financial quote unquote fund. So taxes, bookkeeping,
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but like my least favorite part of all this, um you know, keeping up with the expenses that I do have and and when that glorious tax time comes, paying Uncle Sam his share.
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and then you've got also platforms that like all platforms take a fee of what we create. So like I'm giving all these platforms, I'm making them richer, which is fine because I like to me, I see value in their platforms, obviously, because going back to that payment processor thing, that's why you don't see a lot of people too many. I have seen creators do it um where they're selling things off their own website.
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I could do that. um I could use a payment processor that works with adult themed, but I'm going to be paying a lot in a fee to be able to use that where I can just use loyal fans or clips for sale and they do all that.
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for me. um Also, these platforms provide a really great way to market, you know, like within clips for sale, like people know who I am because I'm posting on there.
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Same with loyal fans. So You know, it's a good thing, but a not so glamorous thing. Another piece of being a content creator is the, and I've kind of hit on this in multiple ways, but not so much um on this level.
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So there there's emotional and mental health ah balancing that I have to maintain.
Isolation and Mental Health Concerns
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Being a content creator is actually pretty isolating and lonely, which sounds funny because I'm talking to people all day every day.
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However, it's it still feels like very isolating sometimes. Um, and i don't really struggle with that. I think at first, when I first started this, it was one of the things I realized, and I was doing phone sex. So I was really tapped into people all day talking to them.
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But, you know, the, the guy gets off and they get off the phone and it's hard to explain why it feels so isolating, but it does, you know, you're just,
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you're getting people off all day and then it's just you. It's just you sitting there by yourself. um you know And then when you're recording, sometimes when I record live, i do it because i don't want to feel like I'm just behind the mic now. Sometimes i feel super introverted and I don't want to share anything. I'm totally fine behind the mic. But there are some times where it does feel a little like lonely in this odd way. um Yeah. And then another piece of it is because this can affect my emotional state or my mental mental health. Yeah.
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is it's really easy to say go on Reddit. For me particularly, the erotic hypnosis subreddit, it's easy for me to go on there and get in this comparison spiral where where I'm looking at my, you know, have my view, my own lens, my perspective. And then I see another creator post something and get more upvotes or whatever. And then it makes me feel not good enough. It makes me feel less than. It makes me feel like, oh my God, I'm failing
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And that can be a really yucky spiral. And something I still work on is, you know, if if I am on Reddit, don't look around because I don't want to feel that way.
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I don't want to feel less than because I know I'm not less than. You know, I know that I'm very confident in my business and my content creation, but it's very easy. I mean, we all know the whole social media thing, comparing yourself to others, it's never good.
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um You know, so I've learned to just back away don't look, don't compare, take care of yourself, basically.
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you know, and along with all this, another not so glamorous side of this work is a platform and overall industry, like freaking headache.
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So i feel like I'm constantly trying to keep my finger on the pulse of the industry. So like how how to hit algorithms on different platforms, how best title my work so that I am hitting algorithms or showing up in someone's search.
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It's, you know, it's a fun thing. Don't get me wrong, but it's not a glamorous thing at all. um And then on top of that is censorship.
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If you've been following me, you know that I was on Patreon for a short time. Well, guess what? I got banned because they they don't like the word mommy. And I wasn't creating family-related content.
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And to be specific, their email... when they banned me, they gave examples of how I was using fan or how i had family related content.
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I used to have basically what I do now on this podcast. I had it for my subscribers. I called it behind the scenes with mommy B. And it's literally where I did what I'm doing now. I just talked about my audios, I talked about editing, i talked about, like I talked nothing sexual, right?
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And so they had used that as an example of posting family-related content. So I think what they did is saw the word mommy and just banned me.
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um I could have fought it, but I just figured fuck it because um Patreon was a backup for me at that time. I've always... been on loyal fans that's always been my home base um but you know that that was a headache that was frustrating um you know you have to learn how to navigate these places in the smartest way and i learned the hard way with patreon
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And lastly, I'm going to talk about the lifestyle cost of being a content creator. I know I talked about this before, probably in part one.
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There oftentimes feels like there's no off switch, which I do turn off a lot of times because I'm just not able to mentally handle or, you know, I'm not sitting at my computer 24-7.
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But there are times when it feels as though there is no off switch. Um. um For example, if I'm out and about and I'm running errands doing my normal life stuff, my phone is connected to my email and I do that because, you know, if if some I just like to be and like to be updated. Right.
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And there's sometimes when I'm out and I feel like I need to reply back to an email, I need to reply back to a message. um
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I have this feeling like I have to look after my business. And I know I don't have to, but I think when you are ah ceo you it feels scary to not have an eye on it. you know Because I think the smartest thing to do would be not to have work on my phone. So when I'm in my personal life, I'm not even reminded of it, but...
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I don't feel comfortable with that. And I don't know what that is. i guess it's, you know, i've I've put so much time into this business. So it's like my baby. And i don't know, I guess in case shit goes down, I want to know.
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right then and there. you know I don't want to have to wait to get home to know that. um So I often feel that lack of an off switch.
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um Sometimes there's really weird hours. I definitely do the normal workday schedule, but there's some nights where i'm you know i'm sitting in my living room, like de-stressing watching something on TV, but my laptop is right there. I'm still doing a little work.
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um Or if I feel super behind, i might push through and record something at night. I do the same thing for my weekends. You know, my weekends are kind of there to tie up anything I didn't get done during the week.
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um You know, so the hours can be strange. This is definitely not not glamorous at all. There... um dare
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I'm embarrassed to say this, but there there can be physical strain when you're sitting at your computer for so long. And you might know this if you work in an office.
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It can really fuck with your neck and back if you don't have good posture or don't have a good chair. Luckily, i do And I've learned the hard way on how to avoid, I'm sure there's a word for it, um you know, the aches and pains of working at our desk for so long.
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But there is a physical strain that can happen. Like it's so not sexy. There's also a vocal strain. um and I will definitely back off. When I feel these kind of strains, I back off and I don't record because I don't want to fuck up my my voice. But there, you know, when I get it really coughy, like my my throat is itchy and um I can sometimes hear it too.
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I have that to worry about. That's not sexy. um And these are some interesting topics here that I'm about to talk about.
Stigma and Personal Relationships
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Something you may have wondered yourself you've got the whole concept of, do I tell my family about my work?
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You know, um I'm going to keep that part of my life ah still private. So I won't talk about that, but that's something you have to think about. Do I tell my friends and my family what kind of work I do?
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um and on top of that, so with that, there is the stigma of, of being an online sex worker you know like I know that there's people I know that there's a large amount of people that would know what I do and have judgment they'd look at me different um and that's not so glamorous is it you know like um
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it's it's a weird It's a weird thing. It really is definitely a weird thing because there's oftentimes I feel like I live a double life. You know, I've got me that I present to the outside world and then there's me that you guys see.
00:29:44
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um So that's definitely a weird, it's just a weird thing. And I'm sure you've probably thought about that. um When I first started doing this type of work, I was still trying to date.
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And so there was that too. Like imagine me going on a dating app right and one of the things people love to ask when you're getting to know each other is hey what do you do for work do you say what you do for work you know like that was such a weird thing to be like well um what I do for work uh I make men come all day So want to get some coffee? Like, because with that, i know that sounds really fun, but take, like, hear me.
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Okay, please hear me. There's not a lot of men that are comfortable with that. I know maybe for you, you're like, oh that sounds like a dream. But it creates a weird, weird dynamic because either what's going like a few things will happen.
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Either that man is going to be like, oh, well, show me your fucking tits. You know, like he's thinking, oh, well, I got this kinky woman like. I can now treat her like an object.
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um Or secondly, he's going to judge you and think you're gross and think you're a whore. um Or it could be someone that gets it and they're cool with it and just curious about it. So that's a whole thing. Think about content creators having to date.
00:31:29
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It's odd. And then along with that, I could probably do a whole episode on, you know, how a content creator maintains a relationship because that's a very unique.
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aspect How does someone date me and know that, you know, I'm adored by groups of people and, you know, like then there's the potential jealousy. It's a weird, weird thing that You know, I'm not sure people are talking about out know. I've never looked.
00:32:09
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um And then on top of that, you know, let's say I do tell a friend in my life and they they're not in this kind of work.
00:32:23
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Let's say that I do tell them about what I do. They know everything. how do they understand, um, if I come to them with a issue that I'm having, you know, in my work, um, how would they be able to understand? I'm sure they'll listen, right?
00:32:44
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But they don't understand. They don't understand. It's such a weird, it's such a weird and unique, um, world that I live in um There's, I don't think there's many people that are in this kind of work that would understand things that I go through.
Community Support and Competition
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So they're and this is a whole thing too, the online community of content, ah especially adult content creators is weird.
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It is so weird. um Luckily I'm part of a really positive and community that is kind of like a message board type deal where people are very
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collaborative and supportive and such but that is actually pretty rare at least when I first started i i definitely tried to join different communities and it gets kind of weird yeah I think that some people have issues with quote-unquote competition you know so yeah, I didn't spend much time in these places because it was so toxic.
00:34:07
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um You know, so I bring all this up to say that I do have ah group of friends that are content creators and it is so invaluable to be able to go to them and talk about an issue that I have within my business. You know, i can i can talk about the issue and they'll understand everything about it, right?
00:34:38
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I don't know if you've ever been in a relationship like when your partner worked in a field that is so different than yours. Like one of my exes would come home and go on these long stories for like 30 minutes.
00:34:53
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I felt like about issues they had at work. And I'm like, I have no idea what he is talking about. Like he is saying words that I don't know. He is speaking another language. I never understood, but I listen because, you know, I'm a good partner, but it's, I never do that because I know they're not understanding what I'm talking about. So why even say it?
00:35:17
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But anyways, You know, it's just, it's very nice to have people to go to that will get it um or have actual advice that that works, you know.
00:35:32
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um So, yeah, that's, these are the not so glamorous things about being this goddess that I am online. Yeah.
00:35:46
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It feels funny revealing this side to especially those of you that are listening that are my fans. i i don't want you to look at me different or i don't think you are, but it it does feel weird, you know, lifting the veil as as I'm doing right now to show you sides that I work hard at not showing you these sides.
00:36:14
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Because here's the thing, when when people come to me to, like i want them to come to me and it be an escape from their life because life is so stressful and and shitty sometimes. And I want you to come to me and and know that you are entering the realm of a goddess that is about to blow your mind. You know, so I work hard to
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provide this sense of like a luxury, you know, like I want to feel like a luxury. So it feels weird letting you in on this side, but I think there is also value in me being vulnerable and showing you these these sides and hopefully you can respect, you know, your goddess even more.
00:37:10
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um but you know, truly at the end of the day, i would not, I would never trade this work for anything else because I love it so much. The freedom that I have you know, the creativity i get to push out into the world and the connection that I make with with my fans makes every struggle I mentioned in this episode worth it and more.
00:37:43
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So I feel like it's important for me to acknowledge that What looks effortless is, you know, built on countless hours of invisible layer that that you're not seeing or the constant juggling I'm doing or even the emotional resilience that is required when you are a content creator.
00:38:13
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So f and I always hope that other creators are listening, if you are a fellow creator, I want you to know that you i'm not alone and you are seen.
Conclusion: Invisible Labor and Resilience
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And if you are someone who is ah consumer of content that is made, just remember, remember that ba behind every file, every post every performance, there is a human being doing far more than what meets the eye.
00:38:50
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And honestly, if this doesn't prove that I am a literal goddess in the flesh, I don't know what else would. But thank you so much for listening. And remember, if if you are curious more about my work, I include a link in the episode description so you can discover more of me.
00:39:15
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Until next time. And I believe that next time actually I'll tease that a little bit. I'm actually going to make the last part of this kind of podcast series of behind the scenes type deal.
00:39:33
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I'm going to get to a episode that's kind of geared towards aspiring creators. um I think that even you you being my fan, would enjoy hearing these things.
00:39:51
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I hope that i that it hits another creator, but if it doesn't, I think it's going to be a intriguing interesting ah episode for anyone to hear so look for that next week and thanks for listening and that's a wrap for this episode of the slut next door where we dive deep into the raw unapologetic truths of human desire If you loved what you heard today, make sure to subscribe and turn on notifications so you never miss a juicy moment.
00:40:31
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and Until next time, I'm Beatrix Vale, your Slut Next Door. And I'll see you in the next episode.