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Speaker: Hello everyone, welcome to the weekly coop. I am back. I am well, how do I say this going through changes, big changes, and I've been gaining a lot of followers, been gaining a lot of traction, a lot of popularity, but I've also been gaining
Speaker: I wouldn't say enemies. I've just been gaining some opposition at times. And that's my own fault. um
Speaker: With great power comes great responsibility. And that responsibility is grow. You know, I have to teach people how to grow. in order to do that, I have to grow myself. And in order to grow myself, I have to let people go.
Speaker: And I have to let old habits go. and
Speaker: I've picked up that resistance and it doesn't make me sad, but it definitely makes it hard to, you know, get up every day and keep doing what I'm doing and to keep
Speaker: ah putting on this almost charade of, I have to people please just because I'm in a business with someone, just because I'm in,
Speaker: a friendship with someone just because I'm, don't know, I'm supposed to bring people with me ah to to where I'm going.
Speaker: But I can't. And that's, I think, what today's episode is about. It's about you can't bring everyone with you.
Speaker: And you're just not on the same wavelength as other people, and that's fine. doesn't make me better. It just makes me different. And that's, that's the thing I've learned lately. Some people just want me for my money. Some people want me for my energy.
Speaker: Some people want me for my followers, you know, and ah some people just want me for my labor, my work ethic, because they know they can take advantage of that.
Speaker: And to be honest with you, it's never
Speaker: Nothing's ever 50-50, but nothing is ever...
Speaker: um no. It shouldn't be a give-take. It should be giving. And I need to be in this facet of life where I'm taking.
Speaker: Like, got to take back what's mine. And what's mine is my wealth, um my creativity, my brainpower, my physical energy, um my time, my mental energy, my mental focused.
Speaker: um
Speaker: Yeah, I don't know. I just see i i don't know. I see the writing on the wall this year and that's to literally be my best self and I thought I had the right people around me and I don't think that's the case.
Speaker: And it makes relationships hard. um I want friends, but and don't know if you can have friends in business.
Speaker: I don't think you can. i thought you could, but don't know if that's possible because when you get money involved, it's just a whole different ballgame. It's just a whole different...
Speaker: universe that you live in. And unfortunately, when you bring in people into a business, you try to be friends with them or, you know, you try to be friendly.
Speaker: And that's just not how it is. You know, you can't, you can't do that. um That's why dissolving things that don't make me money, give me back time, or give me energy and love is what I'm diminishing first.
Speaker: And I've realized i have to cut out the music affiliate deal. um I have to cut out a couple other affiliate deals. I, you know, in an awkward place with My business ventures now with public speaking and, you know, my coaching business and um
Speaker: even with, you know, the Feedery app, you know, it's it's all kind of hitting me. But it's been long awaited and long deserved um where the rubber was meant to meet the road. And I just have to make that.
Speaker: clear-cut decision. And that clear-cut decision is to, well, cut ties.
Speaker: And I thought, you know, i don't know if I'm meant to be here in St. Louis. um I thought I was meant to leave, but I don't know where I'm supposed to leave.
Speaker: Part of that's financial. Part of that's mental. You know, part of that is, you know, ah thought I was going to be moving out of the city by now of St. Louis. I'm still not there yet.
Speaker: And it's tough, you know. It's tough to be this vulnerable with you guys. You know, it's tough to admit shortcomings as a person who thrives on, you know, having these spiritual breakthroughs and
Speaker: I haven't really been having those. And that's just because i have to wait. I'm not sure what for, but I have to wait.
Speaker: And
Speaker: the reason that I'm stuck is because of me. That's the only reason I'm stuck. It's the only reason I'm stuck in these endless loops and endless cycles. um But the beautiful thing is having the ability to pick yourself back up over and over again, even when things don't work out the way you hoped that they would.
Speaker: Right. Um, starting business ventures, I thought were going to free me from working a regular job for the rest of my life.
Speaker: I thought I'd have that by now and I still don't in terms of like, it's not in my 3d realm. Um, like making 10k a month.
Speaker: I thought that's where I was going to be by now. And it hasn't come in my realm. I know it's in my 5D realm. I'm just waiting for her to catch up in my 3D.
Speaker: And yeah, passive income is, I think, real. And that's what I've been striving towards lately. And it's definitely come with a lot of obstacles.
Speaker: um Just a lot of things that I wasn't expecting to pop up. um
Speaker: But I know life is life is good. Life's going to continue to treat me well. um
Speaker: I just got stay patient. And patience is a virtue. But I also know I have to get rid of some things to to upgrade myself. So... Yeah, just been telling people no, um cutting contracts, cutting ties.
Speaker: Who knows what's next?
Speaker: I've just been working to find myself and find my community. And I think I've found bits and pieces of people in my community.
Speaker: but I'm still needing to let go of certain individuals, the ones that are not healthy for my spirit, my mind and my body.
Speaker: You know, that mind, body, soul connection is real and you have to figure out what resonates and some people and some opportunities do not resonate with you.
Speaker: And if it's not a heck yeah, um it's not for you. That's what I've had to learn. It's got to be a heck yeah for you to do something, for you to want to do something.
Speaker: You have to want to do this. And it can be anything. it could be investing in a stock. It could be your business, venture. it could be working for a corporation. It could be working for a startup.
Speaker: is It looks different. could be buying a house. It could be renting an apartment. It's got to be a heck yeah. Could be dating. It's got be a heck yeah.
Speaker: If you don't have that heck yeah, um don't do it. Like i I just don't have the heck yeah in a lot of spaces. And unfortunately, that catches up to you and it drains you of your energy. When you don't have any energy left, you can't pour into yourself.
Speaker: Excuse me.
Speaker: can't believe I just yawned, but, um, just goes to show where I'm at. Tired. Um, like even just like drinking coffee, you know, I've noticed that it's not a heck yeah for me anymore. so I'm going to try matcha, you know, and, and, and, and ah shift my health habits, you know?
Speaker: Um,
Speaker: getting back into cold plunging, getting back into red light sauna-ing. Yeah, just getting back into those heck yeah moments in your life. Like that's what you have to do.
Speaker: Because if it doesn't fill you up, it's going to take away. And we don't want that. We don't want life to take. We don't want the life drained from us.
Speaker: That's the thing. Like we don't want the life sucked out of us. And.
Speaker: We just we got to be better as individuals, like we got to be more sound. We got to be more clear um with our intentions. We also like just need to be nicer to each other, even if it doesn't work out.
Speaker: and We got to be nice to each other. If someone genuinely hurt you, which I've been hurt by people, Like, I get that. You had distance yourself. I had to reblock people recently on Instagram for those that were trying to, like, weasel back into my life.
Speaker: um
Speaker: But, yeah.
Speaker: I got 85,000 followers on Instagram.
Speaker: And it's crazy.
Speaker: Because now people, they don't really love me for me. They just want something from me now, whether it's time, attention or energy. And it's whether I had a thousand followers or 85,000 followers, it's like the only difference is people just want something from you.
Speaker: They don't necessarily love you for you. The same song and dance.
Speaker: Like, i'll i'll ah I'll put on my tap dance shoes, but I'm not going to kiss babies and shake hands.
Speaker: I'm going tap dance for you. going to do my thing, and then I'm going to go home and just lounge around, read a book, play some video games. I don't know.
Speaker: But, yeah, it's like isolation. I get why people do it now because... We live in a world that it's just all about like, what can you give me and what can I get out of you? And it's just in genuine and the social media success I feel like has contributed that.
Speaker: Um, and know that you don't need to be this
Speaker: social media success for people to love you because no matter how high you climb in the followers and the rankings and the money and those sorts of things, if you don't have the right people around you, it don't matter.
Speaker: People are just going to take more from you. And that's when you make your mistakes. That's when you're going to make your unhealthy decisions.
Speaker: So yeah. Life's weird. February's weird. January was long.
Speaker: Been going through changes, which I'm grateful for. um I'm grateful for the changes, but I know that it's definitely been just a long time coming and I just pray that we all find love within ourselves and love within each other because we need to do that.
Speaker: We need to love ourselves and we need to love each other. It's only way stuff's going to get done. Yeah,
Speaker: that's pretty much all I got. Love you guys. safe.
