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14. GUEST EPISODE | ALEJANDRA MARTINEZ - Following Your Dreams, Lessons From Your Past, Love Yourself
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Was super fun catching up with Ali, she is such a light in this world and it was a pleasure to have this conversation with her! In the words of Ali Martinez "Life is best lived when you learn to love yourself"
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Introduction and Listener Engagement
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Welcome back to the podcast guys this episode today was amazing. I'm really really excited about it But I just want to let you guys know that I kind of fucked up the settings on my mic The noise reducer was all the way up. So anytime
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that I pulled my lips away from the mic. The audio was up and down. I tried to edit it the best I could. It's still good, but the audio on my end could definitely be better. Guys, I am learning every episode. I'm getting out all these kinks. It's going to get better. But I just want to say that I appreciate that you guys are coming back and listening to every single episode
00:00:38
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It means a lot to me. But it would mean even more if you guys gave my podcast a rating. So if you're on Spotify or Apple Podcasts, you can kind of rate the show what you think. Give me some feedback. If you guys want to see a certain guest on, let me know and I'll do my best to get them on here. I'm always doing my best to try to make this podcast better and better every single day. So let's jump right into it.
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Hey
Moving to Costa Rica: A Journey of Independence
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guys so today we have a special guest on and it is Ali Martinez. What's up? Long time no see. What's up? Long time no see. I'm good. Oh my god so much is up. I don't even know.
00:01:25
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I know. It's been a minute. It's been a minute. Last time I saw you was I was still in Canada. So there's that. I know. I know. And you're probably missing the cold weather and all the snow and all that. Honestly, your cold plunge videos are enough for me like that. I don't need anything more than that. That's plenty. So what made you go to Costa Rica?
00:01:51
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Oh my gosh, that's such a loaded question, but there's a few things. One, I've always wanted to solo travel. Like since my early twenties, I wanted to solo travel, but I feel like there was always something that was getting in the way, whether it was fear, money, pandemic, or a relationship. There was just an excuse that I always told myself that kept getting in the way. But in the reality is when I peel back the layers of it, it was more so,
00:02:22
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I can see now looking back hindsight 2020 that I, for like 10 to 15 years, I was a serial monogamous and in a lot of codependent relationships. And so when you're in a codependent relationship, it's kind of like, it's tough. It can be dark because you kind of lose your sense of self and your need for
00:02:51
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receiving love, receiving acceptance, receiving validation, receiving all these kinds of things from the other person trumps anything else. So any aspirations or dreams or anything that I had, it was always like second place to what I needed to get out of that relationship in order to feel whole, in order to feel safe.
Transitioning Careers and Embracing Change
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And so that ultimately is what stopped me for as long as it did.
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But you know what? It's okay. It is. And now too, also thinking about it, I needed to go through those relationships. And if I had gone in my early twenties, it would be a totally different experience than it is right now. It would have been a party. Do you know what I mean? I would be like, yeah, I do know what you mean. Yeah. So it had to be now. It was just God's plan. It was just how it had to be. So Godspeed.
00:03:44
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Yeah. And then so there's that is like a fruition of a long, a lifelong dream. And then the aspect of I'm in a really deep transitional phase professionally right now where I'm shifting out of personal training, not that I'm done with health and fitness,
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I'm not done with health and fitness. I'm still a huge advocate for it, but I'm done with one-on-one personal training, and I'm shifting into coaching, somatic coaching, embodiment coaching, self-love coaching, all types of coaching. I don't like to put my stuff in. You just did a nine-month course or something? Yeah, 10-month course. I did trauma-informed
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coaching certification. And it was awesome.
Coping with Loss and Finding Solitude
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It was life-changing. And it's so funny because I was supposed to go travel in March of 2022, but then my dog passed away. And after my dog passed away, nothing mattered anymore. I know that sounds dramatic. No, I definitely understand. I've always been a cat person. And my new girlfriend, she has a dog. I don't know. You might've seen him online.
00:04:59
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I've had a dog before, but I had to give him away just because of my work and all that stuff now. But now I have a dog again. I love that dog so fucking much. We're family now. I'm sorry. They are family. They are. And they have such a personality. Totally. And they're so smart. And they truly are one of the only creatures on the planet that embody unconditional love.
00:05:30
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Really, truly one of the only creatures on the planet that embody unconditional love. And honestly, we don't deserve dogs. They're too good for us. They are too good. Yeah. But anyway, so that kind of rocks my world. But even that, Adam.
00:05:49
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Remember how I said I come from really codependent relationships? I feel like the universe, everything was always preparing me for the next thing. Losing Baxter had to happen in order for me to be able to settle into a deeper space of solitude because I had him for nearly 15 years.
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And so that whole era of codependent relationships, even when I didn't have other people like roommates, boyfriends, parents, I always had Baxter. Always, always. It's such a beautiful thing when you realize there's no end point.
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There's no end point. There is like I that's that's huge because I was always in such a rush to get so Yeah, same but you know what that's like
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That's conditioning. That's just kind of how we were brought up. We grew up in a society that markets like, if you get this, you'll be happy. If you get this, you'll be happy. If you do this, you'll be happy. Subconsciously, we're constantly chasing this thing that, honestly, does it even really matter to you or does it matter because somebody told you it should matter? Do you know what I mean?
Living Simply: Abundance in Minimalism
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It's a rat race and I have opted out of the rat race. I truly have. Yeah, it blows my mind how I used to live my life because I was always just chasing money. I just thought I needed to have a bunch of money and I got to buy a bunch of things. But why? Now, ever since I'm on my own, I don't need anything.
00:07:45
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Like I really don't need anything to keep me happy and I'm just like, I'm okay with like very little, you know? Yeah. Yeah. And it's so interesting what happens like energetically when you
00:08:00
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start becoming that person. You almost attract more when you need less in a sense because you start to appreciate the abundance that's all around you all the time. You start to place value on the simplicity of life
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and you don't take it for granted. And so living in a space of gratitude, like the universe sends you more. You know what I mean? And that's not just in money. That's like, that's in relationships, like love, energy, health, you know, just like feeling deep sense of gratitude for any of these things. I feel like it's like the universe sends it to you in tenfold. So yeah. And I've seen that you were up at 444 this morning.
00:08:49
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Dude, I don't know. Maybe it was because I knew it was a podcast date today, but I have been intentionally going to bed earlier, so I'm pretty bad. I'm not perfect and I know what I ever want to be, but I'm pretty bad at watching shows or scrolling my phone right until I'm like, okay, I'm done. I'm ready for bed.
00:09:14
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I'm learning a lot about human design and I'm learning a lot in general about how my soul functions and how it best operates. And in general, as human beings, that light at night, it's over stimulus. It's not winding down the brain, it's revving it up. So it's hard for you to get into a deep sleep or a deep REM. When your brain, even after you've closed your eyes, your brain is still going,
00:09:44
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right so i'm really trying to intentionally say you should stop an hour before bedtime so i started with half an hour so half an hour before bed i. Shut down the computer i shut down my phone and i will either read or i'll do a little nightly journaling because i usually only journal in the daytime.
00:10:05
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but now i'm doing a little nightly journaling where i'm kind of like reflecting on the day and like what was awesome today and i thank god for everything that was awesome today and so it's putting me in this like state of gratitude and so last night i was i was like
00:10:21
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doing my nightly thing. I was like, oh, and tomorrow I'm so excited. I get to do a podcast. It's going to be so much fun.
Optimizing Sleep: Nighttime Routines and Supplements
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And so I don't know. I guess my body was like, let's go. It just woke me up. I was like, literally, it was like 443. I was like, is this a joke? I was like, I'm meaning to get up at like six, but 443. And so then I had to like document it, you know, because I was I wasn't just like up. I was like,
00:10:51
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up like I was wired I was ready to go and that's such a cool feeling you know you know the work that you're doing you know the work that you're doing is paying off when you want to fucking spring out of bed because you're like I've got excite you know yeah have you like have you noticed a big difference since you've been like like doing that nighttime routine now instead of watching shows
00:11:15
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Yes, I have. It's subtle, but subtle is so impactful. You know what I mean? Instead of going to bed at 12, because I'm like, oh, just one more episode, just one more episode, and then being too sluggish because my brain won't slow down until maybe one,
00:11:35
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So I'm tossing and turning. I'm not getting up at six. I'm not getting up at seven. I'm getting up at eight, eight, 39, and I'm kinda like, ugh. And what's the first thing I do? I go and scroll my phone in the morning. Whereas now, I'm going to sleep in this state of gratitude, reflection, and more calm energy. My brain has already started shutting down. I fall asleep faster. So I go to bed at 10.30.
00:12:05
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fall asleep faster, so for sure sleep by 11 o'clock, get up at like six, I don't feel sluggish, I don't feel tired, and I don't feel the urge to check my phone. So yeah, super subtle. But then all of a sudden, it's like, I'm back to getting these early morning workouts in.
00:12:27
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and getting that stuff out of the way, but not from a place of like, I have to do this from a place of like, let's go, let's go, let's go. We've got so much today. This is so exciting. Like let's get after it. It's from that space. So yeah, I'm loving it.
00:12:42
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Yes, that's actually great. I bet that's something I've been trying to do as well is get to sleep a little bit earlier and I actually started I started taking those like we eat THC CBD gummies I found that I was getting like a more solid of a sleep But I also did find that it was just giving me the bunchies crazy And late at night and like that's not good. Yeah Taking these mush these mushrooms sleep
00:13:13
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Okay. Yeah. Yeah. So it's a company that's not like, we're not, we're not, uh, I'm not posting about it yet, but, um, there's like a Rishi extract in there. It's like, um, okay. I don't know, but whatever, whatever it does, my dreams have been crazy. I mean, ever since, yeah. And I'm getting up and I'm like having, like, I remember last night, I must've had like four or five different
00:13:40
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so nuts, but like you said, I'm waking up in the morning and I'm just like, so energized as soon as I wake. And normally, I'm like very like, ugh, froggy. But now it's just like I'm up. I'm like, okay, let's go. Yeah. Yeah. You know what you need to do, Adam? You need to either on your phone or have a tiny little notebook.
00:14:05
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right beside your bedside table, you need to like, and it doesn't matter if your eyes are half closed, okay? It doesn't matter if your eyes are half closed, but just jot down just like a couple of words or a couple of sentences of whatever that dream is, because your dreams are like not an accident. Like your dreams have messages for you and they might make no sense, but you might also start to notice like a recurring theme. You know what I mean?
00:14:34
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I'm big on that. You should start writing some shit down for real. I actually had a conversation with someone last night. We were diving deep into the whole dreams and what this product can do and all this stuff, right? Because there for a while, I would never dream, never. And then I started taking these mushroom gummies and all of a sudden, every single night, having these complicated dreams. So he was saying too that, record your dream.
00:15:03
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And then kind of loop back to it, like before you go to bed and kind of like just listen to it before you go to bed. And then it's almost like you're, because we sleep like a third of our life, right? So like if you can like start remembering, remembering your dreams and all this stuff, right? Like you're, it's like you're in a world. Well, that's how you can start getting like past life regressions and regressions and stuff. Right. Cause.
00:15:32
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man, our soul, there's been so many lives. Some of your dreams are actual memories just from a past life. And so when you can start tapping into them more intentionally that way, that's wild. Do you consider yourself? Because I know for me, I used to not consider myself a very visual person. But when I did mushrooms, it almost unlocked
00:15:59
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this part of my brain where it was like all of a sudden I'm seeing and feeling and I'm like oh my god wait I because I've had friends be like oh can't you close your eyes and visualize a red apple I'm like
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No, I just see black. You know, there's different ways of visualization. Some people are like, you know, they see, some people feel like when I manifest, I more feel what it would feel like for that to come to fruition. That's how I manifest. But since starting mushrooms, and I've done macro doses and micro doses, so I've done both sides of it. But when I've done the macro dose, it was like,
00:16:45
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colors, like shapes, like almost like watching a movie inside of my head, which really was like, it started shifting the belief that like, I can not visualize, right? It start kind of started unlocking that for me was like, Oh, it's not true. I can. It's just it just like a muscle. It's I have to exercise it. I have to strengthen that ability, but I absolutely can. Do you know what I mean?
00:17:16
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Yeah, yeah. Have you like when you take a macro dose, you know how it kind of goes through the stages? You know what I mean? What
Exploring Creativity with Macro Doses
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I actually love about taking a macro dose is towards the end.
00:17:31
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Like after like all like the visuals and everything, it's like my brain just turns into like, it's just firing on all cylinders. And I'm just getting so creative. And I'm like, okay, I'm gonna do this and this and this. And I start writing all these things down. I'm like, I'm just getting all these ideas that I wouldn't normally have. That's what I love doing the Macros. Absolutely. It honestly, I just, it feels like it unlocks doors.
00:17:58
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And I think that the important piece of this, and some people do it recreationally. When I started, it was for recreational purposes. They're so much more intentional now. It's so much more intentional now. And I think part of it being intentional is the integration process after the fact, right? It's like, so with all those creative ideas, how are they landing in your body? What are you doing as a ritual after the fact to,
00:18:28
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take action on that. How are they making you feel? What's standing in the way? What comes up when the idea of taking action is actually present, right? It's like really learning to observe your body from your heart versus just staying in the mind and be like, I'll have all these ideas. I'm going to write them down. And then it's like the integration process. Yeah. You don't do anything about it, right? Exactly. So then you're not integrating.
00:18:57
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How long have you been doing mushrooms now? How long has that been in your life? I mean, when I was younger, here and there, just for fun, but really intentionally and as a spiritual practice, I'd say probably about three years.
00:19:17
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Yeah. It's, it's such a difference. And I try to explain this to people because when I first started, you like taking mushrooms, it was just for fun. You're just laughing. You don't understand what's going on, right? Yeah. But now it's like, when I take it, I know it's after what's happening. And it's like, it's just a totally different experience. It's the awareness. Yeah. And I always like come out of the journey with something, right? It's the, it's the awareness that makes it so different.
00:19:47
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right? It's the awareness. For me, it is feeling what's happening inside of my body versus getting locked or trapped in my head when I'm experiencing it. I have had times where I'll be looking at ... You know how everything's like,
00:20:05
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4k when you're like, you know in the yeah, it's just for me it simplifies everything like all of the stuff that my ego tries to impose and Tell me what it matters like it all dissipates it all melts away and so I could be staring out and I've had it happen where I'm staring out at the ocean and all of a sudden I feel like a wave of emotion Swell up in my chest
00:20:31
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And I just, instead of getting locked in my head and saying, oh my God, why am I feeling this emotion? Why am I getting upset? Why am I crying? What does it mean? Instead of that, I literally ride the wave. So I feel the wave of emotion and I'll just, and all these tears start flowing and I'm like,
00:20:51
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My head's like, no idea where these are coming from, but all good. And the thing is that not everything that is felt in the body needs an explanation. That emotion was trapped inside of my body and it needed to be released. And because of the microdose or because of my awareness of the body while microdosing, it had the ability to move.
00:21:14
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You know, so I think the awareness is so important and being really mindful of your body, like what is happening in the body and viewing that from the heart versus like logically trying to explain everything that's happening or that you're feeling or that you're thinking. Does that make sense? It does make sense. It doesn't make sense. Um, yeah, you're into meditating and whatnot, right?
00:21:39
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Yeah, that's my jam. You do love it. Yes. Yeah, right. Yeah, every day. Have you ever have you ever had like an experience because I only had this happen to me one time and it was the most fucked up experience of my life. Have you ever meditated for so long start getting like these tingly feelings in your body? Yeah. And then you're good.
00:22:02
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your body's like vibrating so like this this is I gotta explain this so I turn one of my buddies told me to turn on the samurai soundtrack on um youtube and start meditating so I started okay and normally with youtube like when a video ends um it literally like an ad or something and the next one pops up but for some reason it didn't and it just went into this other weird thing and I was I was going for probably like an hour and a half
00:22:33
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No word of a lie, I was bawling my eyes out, but I was shouting out things that were on my mind. I was screaming, but I kept my eyes closed. My body was just like...
00:22:49
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I opened up my eyes and I was like, what in the fuck? And I call my buddy and I'm like, dude, what is happening? I've never had an experience before, but people told me that once you get that vibration, if you just keep going, keep going, apparently you have this out of body experience. Have you ever experienced anything like that before? That is so cool, Adam. I'm so happy for you. I love that you are.
00:23:19
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I love that you're expanding and stretching yourself, bro. That's awesome because I know some of your past, and I know the things that you've been through, and I know some of the challenges you've been through, and I'm so proud of you. I know we've been on this wavelength. We're both in the fitness thing. Now we're both ... I'm really proud of you, dude. I really am. Thank you. That's awesome. That's honestly growth.
The Power of Meditation and Emotional Release
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That's connection to self. That's soul awakening.
00:23:47
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Like what you experienced was soul awakening. You have a soul, bro. We all have souls. But when you are so conscious, when you're breathing, and that happens a lot to me when I do breath work. So when I do breath work, I mean, there's different types of breath work. Um, I can do like activation type breath works, but that happens to me a lot where I'll feel like tingling or almost like there's been times too, where like there's so much energy surging through my hands that my fingers like curl.
00:24:17
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and I can't straighten out my hands. Yeah, my forearms get so tight because energy is like, you can't stop energy. It's always in motion, right? And in fact, energy in motion is emotion, right? So you're moving energy, right? And so think of all, what you're doing, the blood, the cells, everything in your body is,
00:24:47
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moving. You can take that to really intense levels. It's moving blockages. It's clearing. It's cleansing. It's everything. I'm stoked to you, brother. That's awesome. That's good. That intense thing only happened once, but I've been listening to this other ship, the app.
00:25:11
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Um, it's like a brief. Yeah. Yeah. So I've been using, um, their thing and it's like this, uh, 10 day journey or whatever. And I did this, this, this like shock rough. They were, I had to do all these like kind of, I don't know if it was workout. It was like almost like these pulsing movements or something like starting out and then, and then you like end up.
00:25:30
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And I was like laying on the floor, like just bawling my eyes. But it was like a good cry. Like, it's not sad. It was just, I was like, I was like so proud of myself for something. And I was just like, yeah, you're releasing. Yeah, totally. Energy, emotion is emotion. You're letting that go. Yeah. And I was so like my past before, it's just, I was so like, I was so tense all the time. And like, I never used to cry. I never used to do these things. Right. And now it's just like,
00:26:01
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I can just fucking breathe now.
00:26:03
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Totally. And think about that, right? And why? Because there were stories that were running in the background. I can't cry because I'm not a pussy. I'm not weak. I can't this, I can't that. Like there's all these stories that don't, and that's not even what you truly believe. That's just what was projected onto you by an external source. Do you know what I mean? And so we're all walking around with all of these stories. And because we're so disconnected from ourself and our awareness isn't there,
00:26:32
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We don't even know what the stories are. They're just looping every single day. Until you slow down long enough to connect with yourself, go within yourself, and start discerning and decluttering, you're always going to have this shit running in the background. Do you know what I mean?
00:26:54
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Oh, I hate waking up, I hate waking up. Do you really hate getting up in the morning or is this just like the narrative that you've adopted and now you identify so much with it that you're just limiting yourself to the potential of another narrative? When I started to learn that like this like recently, like about the stories and like how like I talk to myself and stuff like that, man, I cannot on see it now. And I like I listen to other people and like,
00:27:22
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For example, my last job, right? Some guys would go to work every day. I fucking hate it here. I don't want to be here. Like, you know what? They're saying this every single day and like, they're literally creating this life that they hate. Like, how do you do that every single day? I don't want to tell myself, right? I would just show up to work. You know, I've got a job. Like, let's get it, making money, whatever. Like, I don't want to, obviously I don't want to be here, but like, this is what I'm doing right now. So like, you might as well make a test of it.
00:27:49
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Yeah, instead of you took the approach of like, I'm grateful to have a job, I'm grateful to be able to fund
00:27:54
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my projects. I'm grateful to be able to have a roof overhead, have food in my house, have clothes on my back. It's like that embodiment of gratitude has led you to where you are today because you created new opportunities. You created an abundance of opportunities and other aspects that actually interest you. Do you know what I mean? Yeah. It's all connected. It's wild. How long do you plan on staying at Costa Rica? Is this a full-time thing or you're just kind of going with the book?
00:28:24
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Yeah, I'm kind of going with the flow, but I do want to be back in Van City for summer because I love Vancouver in the summertime. It's so beautiful. I do have my partner and my best friend's having a baby that I want to meet. I miss my people.
00:28:45
Speaker
This was more like a six month trial, if you will, in the sense that I'll be here, I'm probably gonna head home maybe around mid to late June. That's not etched in stone, but that's my intention. And then my idea is to spend the summer in Vancouver, and then when November, December hits. Come back again. Onto the next chapter. Now I'm thinking Bali next year. Yeah.
00:29:14
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Bali, Thailand, I want to, I've always wanted to do a lot of traveling and I'm not getting any younger. Um, so yeah, I need to get it out of the way so that I could like settle down and have a family and do the kid thing, you know, but I have to do this for me. I have to do this for me. Everything you're doing right now is online, correct? Everything I'm doing online, everything I'm doing. Yeah. So I coach, uh, I have like coaching clients that I train online.
00:29:44
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I'm working on a potential partnership with, uh, I can't say much about it yet, but I'm working on a potential partnership for a, uh, like a series, um, it'd be like content creation. I am working on some masterminds. I'm working on a group coaching program. So yeah, like I create everything and I'm gonna eventually log into my own podcast. You're inspiring me to launch my own podcast.
00:30:10
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And so yeah, like all the projects that I have can be done from anywhere in the world. And I think that that's the way of the world now, you know, for a lot of people. So freedom, freedom is one of my core values. I need to feel free, free to create whatever I want because I am a multi passionate being. I can't just be put in a box. Like that's why Realtor never worked out.
00:30:31
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financial or what it was, insurance broker, personal trainer. Like I can't have these titles. I'm a wizard. I'm a woman. Fuck the titles, man. Fuck the titles. I hate when someone's like, what do you do? And they're like, well, I'm a nurse. Like, no, I'm not a nurse. I'm Adam.
00:30:50
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I do a lot of shit. I'm a person. Yeah. I'm multi-passionate, man. Don't put me in a box. Don't put baby in a corner. I cannot. I have so many ideas. I want to write. I want to speak. I want to create series, YouTube podcasts. I can't be put in a box, man. You're going to do it all. You're going to do all of it. I am.
00:31:11
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The reason why I started this podcast is because I was already online preaching to the world. Sometimes I would go on rants for like 17 minutes.
00:31:25
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So then I was like, maybe let's start a podcast. But then I was kind of nervous. I was scared to start it. I'm like, well, nobody's going to fucking listen. That was just me creating these stupid stories in my head. And if I would have kept listening to that, I used to then say, fuck it, let's just do it. But then I was doing all the episodes by myself. And then I was like, I'm going to be a guest on. But I was nervous about that too. So you just got to fucking do it.
00:31:50
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Okay. Is that your advice for me? Just fucking do it. You just got to fucking do it. You gave me that advice when I was actually, I think we were chatting about the online fitness or something and you're like, man, you just got to do it. You just got to do it. You're right. I'm going to take my own advice. Damn it. I feel like you'd have a really good podcast because you're really well spoken. You have a lot to say, right?
00:32:13
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And I feel like- Never shut up. Well, that's good though, right? You've gone through a lot of life experiences and that's what makes a good podcast, right? You're right. Okay. I'm inspired. I'm fully fucking inspired right now. I want to start my podcast. I don't remember what name it is. Yeah. I was thinking about names and stuff, but I was just overthinking it and I figured I'd unlock it with Adam Pike.
00:32:37
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Yeah, keep it simple. At the end of the day, you can always change it. Yeah, you can always change it. It's not a big deal. Yeah. Okay. I like that idea. You should. I'm gonna do it. You should. I'll be waiting. I'll be waiting. You already got the mic. You already got the mic. You're ready to go.
00:32:54
Speaker
I am, I am. One thing I want to do though, talking to Vancouver, like the last time I was there, right? I had fun, but it was like, I was just so fucked up the whole time. Dude, Adam, you were so annoying. I couldn't handle you.
00:33:11
Speaker
I was like, stop, Adam. It was, it was, yeah, like it was so, I was just so like, like everywhere we went, we were just drunk and like, it was just, it was a lot, right? So like I would love to go out there and actually like not be drunk and just like experience BC, right? Cause like, you got to, we were, we were kind of talking about doing another, um, triplet all the guys again. And I was like, Dougie, man, like I don't want,
00:33:39
Speaker
to go and just be fucking drunk the whole time, like waking up, like just so hung over every single day trying to get through, like that's not fun. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Drinking is the worst. I'm not a fan of drinking anymore.
Reflecting on Alcohol Use and Lifestyle Choices
00:33:53
Speaker
And that's saying a lot for Queen Tequila over here. But you know what? Alcohol got me in a lot of trouble in my 20s, like a lot of trouble. Like it was the source of so many arguments in my relationships.
00:34:08
Speaker
A borderline drinking problem as a coping mechanism. Yeah. So much wasted time, energy, money. And don't get me wrong, there's getting drunk and having fun, but when it becomes a literal lifestyle, and I did work in hospitality, so that didn't always help either.
00:34:30
Speaker
You're miserable and so you drink to forget how miserable you are and that's where it gets scary you know what i mean and.
00:34:38
Speaker
It took me a lot to break that cycle and to get out of that loop. And now it's like, I'll get drunk, like drunk once in a blue moon. But because it's not as frequent, it's like you forget how bad the hangover is. And the next day I'm like, this is why I'm like not down. This is why I'm not down. Because it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a depression. Like it's not, I call, I used to call him a shame over.
00:35:05
Speaker
More than a hangover because i had so much shame because it was like this feeling of like.
00:35:12
Speaker
Now I'm going to be here like a piece of poo and I'm going to eat crap and I'm just going to binge watch and I'm going to waste time. I'm not going to work towards it. And so yeah, like, listen, if you're going to get drunk and you're going to be hungover and it's once in a blue moon, do not guilt trip yourself. Just enjoy the ride except that you're having a hangover. Okay. Don't give yourself the shame over, but I used to give myself a shame over every time. So it was just a really toxic cycle because then I would just have a lot of negative self talk.
00:35:40
Speaker
And that doesn't motivate anybody to like get up and go. You know what I mean? So it's just like, none of it works for me. And so like, I could do it once in a blue moon, if it's like a special occasion. And now I don't give myself the shame over. I'm just like, Oh God, this is why I don't drink, but whatever, let's have a pizza day and watch some movies. And that's fine.
00:35:59
Speaker
You know like it's like accepting it, but it's just not the lifestyle that I want because it doesn't fuel me. It doesn't propel me. It doesn't move me. It doesn't inspire me. So it's just like it slows me down. And yeah, I like to move slow but not like that. The last time I had a shame over I started 75 hard.
00:36:22
Speaker
I was going through it the next day and I was like, oh, like it was so bad. And I was just shaming myself. Right. And I was like, no, this is this is not me. I got to start setting my heart again. I'm like, yeah, I'm not the same thing as you now. Like, you know, I'll save it for a big night. Like if we go to a concert or if there's like an event or someone's like really close birthday or something like that, then yeah. Right. But I'm not. I don't have these random ass nights just getting fucked up for no reason.
00:36:50
Speaker
No. It's just not enjoyable and I would watch rap. Yeah, you got to ask yourself like why? Yeah, like I don't understand. Like I don't understand how I used to live my life. I used to party like three, four nights a week, like even on work nights. And it was just, it's just not good for your mental health. Like my sleep was just, I wasn't sleeping. You know, some nights I wouldn't even sleep at all. Go to work. Yeah.
00:37:16
Speaker
So what I feel is like a part of it is just being young and naive. That's just part of it. And there's no shame in that. You got to go through that in a sense. But at a certain point it got to, I'm running from something. This is escapism. I'm numbing. I'm avoiding. I'm hiding.
00:37:36
Speaker
And it was the fact that I didn't want to feel the things that I was feeling inside. And so that's where it's like, okay, this isn't just like I'm 2021 and oh my God, I'm legal and let's party it up or oh my God, I'm in Vegas for the first time. This is like, I'm fully numbing myself because I don't, I'm too scared to feel what I'm feeling. And so now that I've gone through my certification and stuff, I understand that a lot of us do not feel safe in our bodies.
00:38:06
Speaker
We do not feel safe to feel. It's like the idea of allowing ourselves to feel what's actually happening is feels like death. So as a means of survival, we run and avoid and numb and hide as much as we can. That's why I love microdosing because you can just feel everything. Yeah. Are you, are you microdosing right now? Yeah. I'm microdosing right now with, with microcybin or
00:38:32
Speaker
With Michael Siben. Yes, sir. Yes, sir. Although, yeah, I mean, it's gonna be tough because I'm supposed to read it out. So like. Well, you got connections. Actually, no. You got connections. I do, I do. But actually, there's a, I joined a WhatsApp chat for like Puerto Viejo community. And this guy has like chocolate bars. And I actually love you with the chocolate bars because it's just like, it doesn't, it doesn't taste. There's nothing more nasty than.
00:39:01
Speaker
Eating mushrooms like last week last week and I literally had four grams and I just shoved up my mouth with a spoonful of peanut butter No, no, no, yeah, so even in powder form I don't like the taste I have to have it with like yogurt or like whatever so this guy's got chocolate bars So I'm gonna try those out
00:39:21
Speaker
Yeah, I'm excited. Have you done like any like retreats or anything down there? Isn't there a lot of like psychedelic retreats down that way? Well, you are, you are. You know what? I have started putting it out into the universe and I've done some research, but I'm really just, I'm in a chat, another chat as well, where like a community, a private community, they don't advertise it. Like they don't market on social media. It's more like,
00:39:51
Speaker
if you find this community, they'll keep you in the loop. But I'm really interested in doing ayahuasca. Have you ever heard of ayahuasca? I have heard lots about ayahuasca. And so go ahead. Yeah, I feel like because I I've been on this journey now, like my spiritual evolution has been like over four years, like maybe four years. But this like macro micro dosing evolution has been about three years. And I've
00:40:19
Speaker
done a lot of work. I've done a lot of inner work, and we all get to a place where there still feels like there's something you can't quite ... What is that thing? What is it? What is it? What is it? Right?
00:40:35
Speaker
I feel really cold to try ayahuasca. So I'm
Ayahuasca and Plant Medicine for Healing
00:40:39
Speaker
in a chat and I'm just kind of waiting, just patiently waiting for the universe and God to tell me when it's time. But it is my intention to do it before I head home. It sounds intense. The whole puking and the shitting yourself and all that. What?
00:40:58
Speaker
I've not heard about the shit you're talking about. I've heard about the puking part. I've heard about the puking part. Yeah. I was listening to a Joe Rogan podcast yesterday and there was a guy on there that done it multiple times and he's like, he's like, it's intense and it's gross. Like you're going to be shitting and puking. Well, maybe, maybe not. Like maybe, but I feel like that's the best part of it.
00:41:26
Speaker
Well, I mean, I guess if that's part of it, maybe I'll get a colonoscopy or before I do it. No, but I have heard. So the purging aspect of it too is like, from what I understand is like, there's kind of like a cleansing night, the night before you actually do it and do like a rapé or combo. And so these are other natural, like,
00:41:51
Speaker
intense plant medicines that are kind of utilized to help you purge prior to the actual ayahuasca cerebellum. So I have done cambo before and that was intense. It felt like my whole, my stomach was like, and it felt like my, it felt like my whole body was on fire and I didn't puke, but I spat up and the idea is like you are, it's like,
00:42:21
Speaker
I think it's like a frog poison is what it is, like a frog poison, but when put on the skin, it's meant to cleanse you. It's a ritual and it's sacred ceremony, so it's not just to be like just done like that. There's a process and a sacred way of practicing these things.
00:42:40
Speaker
Yeah, it felt like my whole body was on fire. I was like, oh, it was so intense. I mean, I'm ready for it. Let's cleanse. It sounds like you got a good episode for your podcast, what I've learned from my Alaska.
00:42:52
Speaker
Totally. Yeah, totally. Or my journey to in preparation. Yeah. I got one last question for you. Um, just pretend that this is your last day on earth, right? And everything, everything that you've learned over the past years, everything that you gather, you got one last thing to leave to the world for people. Oh, man. What would you say?
Conclusion: Embracing Self-Love and Acceptance
00:43:27
Speaker
I would say that life is best lit when you learn to love yourself. I love how much thought you put into that. It's good. It's very true. Very true. I feel like life just gets so much better when you really learn to fully love and accept yourself. Yeah.
00:43:57
Speaker
We fight against ourselves so much and it makes it hard when we have zero compassion, love, empathy, or anything for ourselves. It's hard to have it for other people. Yeah. Yeah. Very true.
00:44:14
Speaker
I would say like up until maybe like last year, I've really been like loving Adam, right? Before that it was like, I just had so many issues. But like my life is the best it's ever fucking been right now. Cause I love Adam and I love my life. I love my little life right now. It's great. I love that. I love that. I love that for you, Adam, but yeah, that's definitely,
00:44:44
Speaker
Definitely what I would say. Life is so much sweeter when you learn to love yourself first. Yeah. It's been a pleasure. I'm so thankful that you came on here. If you want to tell the people anything, where to find you, what you're up to. Yeah, of course. I am actually opening up a couple of spaces for private one-on-one mentorship and coaching.
00:45:08
Speaker
If you are interested in that, you can hit me up at movewithalley.com on Instagram or on TikTok. I do have a couple of projects in the works. I'm really in a place where I'm not pushing stuff out just for the sake of pushing stuff out. I'm being so integral and intentional with everything that I'm creating.
00:45:33
Speaker
Right now, it's really more about the one-on-one holding space for people one-on-one, or if you want to join my community, I do a monthly Soul Jam session as well, which is a live group coaching call on the first Sunday of every month. So you can message me at info at movewithalley.com, or again, movewithalley on Instagram. I'll have to pop in sometime.
00:45:57
Speaker
Yes, please do. Thank you for having me. This is so much fun. Sure, for sure.