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19. Signs, Angel Numbers, + Tests from the Universe: Update on how things are unfolding on my purpose path
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Hellllo beauty! Let's talk about signs + tests from the Universe.
This week is a life update and I talk about how I almost made a really big career decision that was probably not actually aligned...but through tuning into myself, my body, meditation, my support network, oracle cards, etc. I was able to come to the decision to stay put and then a really big miracle was presented to me right after deciding to not act on this career move.
I talk about signs and how things have been showing up for me, numbers, angel numbers, Gene Keys, word association, animal totems and more.
If you're spinning your wheels, feeling overwhelmed on the purpose path this is a great episode for you!!! We got this babes!
You can connect with me on Instagram: www.instagram.com/iamellisamae
You can book a Human Design or Gene Keys reading with me here: https://calendly.com/byellisamccoy
If you enjoyed this episode and can relate DM me, I'd love to hear what you're currently growing through!
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Transcript
Introduction to Signs and Purpose
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Hello, my babes. Welcome back to another episode of the It's Happening For Me podcast. I'm so happy you're here today and today is going to be really fun because we are doing a solo episode and I have so much to freaking fill you in on.
00:00:19
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Oh my gosh. So this episode is going to be all about signs, how I receive and understand signs from the universe, how I am being guided on this purpose path, and what some of the struggles are. And I'm really going to be walking you through the past couple of weeks because it's just been absolutely crazy. And it's crazy how the universe has been really showing up for me. And so this is going to be very helpful for you if
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You are on the path to purpose. If you find yourself frustrated with trying to figure out, what the heck am I doing here? What am I supposed to be doing with my life?
Understanding Angel Numbers
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What are the signs? Universe, please give me a sign. God, what am I supposed to do? I want to share with you, first of all, how signs have been coming up for me, how they always have, but especially right now.
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and just the different crazy things that come through when I actually release my own agenda and just like give in to surrender to like what the universe wants for me and by leading into my design, you know, of actually responding to things instead of just forcing, forcing, forcing. So where do I want to begin? Okay, first of all, signs. Like all of us are going to experience signs differently. Like I personally believe that the way that like
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God, angels, universe, our higher self is going to connect with
Exploring Jean Keys and Personal Insights
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us and give us signs is going to be individualized because it's going to be up to us in how we receive the information. And so it's going to look different for everybody because we all are going to like recognize things or receive information differently.
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So what has been something that always kind of I knew a sign was for me is it's these like little moments where I'm pausing and I'm recognizing like the beauty in something for example like say if I'm walking down the street and I notice like a really beautiful flower
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And I'll just look at it and like admire its beauty. And I feel like everything kind of stops and it's like, wow. And it's like, I'm like connecting with God and so it's like, this is beautiful. Like only you could have made this. Or if I'm looking at like,
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a really cute puppies, like little paws or, you know, things that just make my heart feel so open and connected and fulfilled. I feel like that signs. I get signs through numbers. So like angel numbers through the time, always 11, 11, two 22, three 33, four 44, five 55, always, always, always, like multiple times a day. I'm receiving those. And what's really important. So some people really,
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study numerology. And so they understand what numbers actually mean. For me, I haven't studied numerology. And so I don't really see any meaning in the numbers. And I don't really even look them up anymore to be like, oh, what does 2-2-2 mean? Instead, what I do, which I think is what a lot of people do too, is I think about what exactly was I thinking about in that moment before I saw the number. So it's like source, God universe, whatever you want to call it, is backing me up.
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it's either like confirming like the thought pattern that I was going down, or sometimes it even is like, it'll catch me in a thought pattern and help me like redirect it. So it's like really important what I'm thinking about, or focusing on right before I see the numbers. And then it's just like a confirmation and it's like, thank you. And sometimes it also is just like a confirmation or like a feeling of like, you're doing good, like you're on the right track,
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maybe take a breath, pause, relax, you're supported. Maybe this is really tough right now, but everything's gonna work out in your favor. And that's really hard to believe a lot of times when we are in the middle of feeling so confused or like so overwhelmed. So I think I'll first tell you, okay, so then also I'll tell you how signs are showing up for me now. So this, okay, it's just freaking insane. So ever since I started studying jean keys and
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I don't know if I already mentioned this, I think I have, but I'm really excited because I am in MasterKey, which is Maria Hennings' long-term gene keys, basically like training and just like learning course.
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We started a month and a half ago, but we're really going to get into it starting in January. That's when it's going to take off. It's a six to nine month program. I'm just going super deep into everything in Jean Keys. Right now, we've really been studying the foundation.
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We're looking at like, okay, how does the mandala, the rave mandala from human design fit into the astrological wheel with the zodiac sides? And how does the I Ching fit in there? And what is the I Ching? And where did it come from? And all of these cool things. And so it's really cool to just be studying something. I love learning. I love studying.
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It's just so fun to be in a group of people who also just love learning and studying.
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Nothing even has to come from it, even though, yeah, I offer Jean Keys readings, and this is only going to deepen my understanding and enhance my readings
Career Reflections and Spiritual Focus
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even more. But it's honestly a living system. The Jean Keys is a living system that is alive. And I swear to God, the past maybe month and a half, as I've really been diving into the Jean Keys
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like from this place of like seeing the world through it and being alive to it and you know being in this container and just like thinking about them all the time I think about them every single day the way that I look at people's behaviors the way that I look at what's going on in the world with the war like everything that happens in life we can we can literally see through the lens of jean keys because what's so cool about jean keys is like the 64
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jinkies are like 64 archetypes of behavior, of human behavior in this 3D realm. So it's like spirituality can get like, you know, it can be so esoteric and like very out there and like, confusing to understand and like the languaging can be very fluffy and like, it's like, what does that even mean? You know, it's like if you don't understand what something means, it's like very hard to embody it. But what I love about the jinkies is it's like,
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the 64 Jane Keys are like the archetypes, like I said, of like human behavior. It's so freaking cool. And just like seeing the shadow aspect of us and seeing like the gift and how like the gift and like the enlightened state is born through the shadow. So it's like, it's not a bad thing when we're feeling confused, when we're feeling inadequate, when we're feeling weak, like all of these shadow aspects are
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necessary in order for us to grow into the gift of whatever this situation is presenting itself in our life. And it's also like very based off of themes and different experiences that we're going to go through in our lifetime. So this is where it gets crazy, you guys. Okay, so the gene keys have been talking to me like
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They have been communicating to me and showing me things and showing me solutions, showing me things of where I've been asking for help in my life. They have been showing me so many things through little pieces of themselves. So this is what I mean.
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gene keys, right? Numbers, 1 through 64 numbers. Each of those gene keys has a shadow, a gift, and a acidic frequency. And it's a word. It's one word. So one word for a shadow, one word for the gift, one word for the enlightened state of each of the 64 gene keys.
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Each of those words, so the shadow, gift, and city of each of the 64 gene keys has a related animal. It's like an animal totem that is related to that shadow, to that gift, and that cytic frequency.
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And I'm not studying the animals. I think it's called the dream arc. I'm not studying that. That's not included in like what I'm going to be studying this year. That's something else that is just through the actual source itself through gene keys. But
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I do have the chart and I look it up often. It's a free chart if you ever want to download it. And it tells you what each animal, insect, whatever represents. And so the way that I've been using it is if an animal keeps presenting itself to me in a certain way,
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I'm like, Oh my God, like you're the jean kids are communicating to me like I need to look up what that animal is. I'll look up what the animal is like what jean kids related to and then maybe that word will tell me something that I need to know and it's like, wow, thank you. This is what I've been contemplating. Or maybe I'll read the actual jean keys itself and I'll get even more in depth understanding of like, holy shit, like this is applying to my life right now. And it's been happening to me so much in my life, the things I am
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currently going through and also with the war and with the horrific things that are happening in the East. And it's insane. And every time it happens, every time that I get this intuitive hit of like, hey, pay attention to that animal. And it's not like every animal. It's very specific.
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like guidance where it's like my intuition is picking up on this signal. Like my intuitive gifts are picking up on the signal and then I'm like looking into it and then it's like this mind blowing realization whatever that I'm having and
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It's not like I'll just be like walking and like, Oh, I see a dog. So I'm going to look up, what is the gene key of a dog? I don't even know if a dog is related to a gene key, but do you know what I mean? It's not like it's like, I'm always out there like, Oh, like what animal should I look for? It happens in very subtle ways. So let me give you a great example. And this is crazy cause it's going to pull this like full circle. So I think it was last week.
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or maybe this last weekend, over this last weekend, there was
Meditation, Guidance, and Spiritual Growth
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in Pacific Beach. I live in San Diego. So in Pacific Beach, there was a huge, huge whale that showed up on the beach. It came to shore, washed up to shore, and it was dead, which is really sad. And it was all over the news and all over Instagram. I don't watch the news, but I do have a couple of news
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San Diego news things I follow on Instagram. And so I saw this and I was like, wow, that's so sad. Like I wonder what happened to the whale. That's so interesting. Like that we don't see that often. And it was kind of weird. There was like a lot of people that were like going up and trying to touch it. And it was just like sad and like weird.
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But they ended up having someone come and remove it and properly take care of it and do whatever they need to do with it. But it was just interesting. That's interesting. And then I was going about living my life. And then when I got to work,
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on Monday, one of my coworkers was like, Hey, Alyssa, like, did you see that whale that that showed up washed ashore in the beach? And I was like, Oh, yeah, I did. Like, that's crazy, right? And like, we kind of talked about it for a second. We and then whatever went on the day, then literally, like, it was weird, like, an hour later, she came back, like, she walked by my office, and she's like, Yeah, that's so weird about the whale, right? Like, I wonder, like, if they're gonna do a biopsy and see, like, what happened to it. But like,
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We had already talked about that in our conversation like an hour earlier. And so I was like, yeah, like it was just weird. I was like, yeah, yeah, I hope they do a biopsy and like find out what's wrong. Like what happened to it? Like that's so weird. And then I was like, Oh my God, like what the fuck is what gene key is the whale related to? Because I, I have a message for me right here.
00:13:01
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That's what I'm saying. It's weird. We had already had this conversation. That was the second time the whale came up. I didn't think anything about it. Then when she walked by my office again an hour later and said, yeah, that's so weird about the whale, where it was like, why are you saying that? We literally just talked about that. Then I was like, oh my God, I need to look up what the whale means.
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this is where it gets even crazier. So I looked it up and it is my gene key. It is my vocational gene key. It's gene key 48. And it's the gift. Okay, so it's the gift frequency of my gene key. And okay, so it's gene key 48. And the
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gift frequency is resourcefulness, okay? And the shadow side of it is inadequacy. And this is my vocation, so this is like also my core wound, okay? So inadequacy is my core wound, is my core shadow. It is something that I suffer with
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in every part of my life, individually, in relationships, in work, finances, and tuning in or transmuting that into resourcefulness and knowing that it's literally gate 48 in human design is the well. It's the well of depth. I have so much of this intuitive
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resourcefulness inside of me. It's like a well that cannot be drained. It's like if I just access that internally and tune into that, I can answer anything. Like I have this inside of me, but the fear of it really shows itself as being inadequate and like not knowing enough, not being good enough, not having enough. And like, I can list off all of the places in my life where that's affected me. So I was like, okay, interesting. So that happened.
00:14:52
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And that was just a side note. And then it's crazy how it ties in to everything that I've been going through this past two weeks. So me and George have really been talking about our goals and going into the new year and where do we want to move towards. And it's like, we want to buy a house. That's something that is the reasonable next step. I love my apartment so much. I love the view and everything about it. But it makes sense. The next step would be to buy a house.
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I love my job. I love the corporate job that I have. I love the people I work for. I love what I do. It is so easy to me, especially as a Line 2. I think I've talked about this so many times on the podcast, but if this is your first episode, I work in the automotive industry as a recruiter. I recruit for almost 37 stores right now, which is basically all of San Diego.
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I work directly for the VP of Operations. I've been with the company for eight years, started off as a technician in the service centers, moved up to management and then did that for a while and then came on the back end to become a support role. So it's like I was very unhappy in the management position in the operation side of things because I didn't have a consistent schedule. I was working very long hours.
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this was also like the height of this happened to me during COVID. So that was very stressful on another thing. But I just felt like I wasn't thriving. I was like, I just don't feel like I'm thriving. Even though there were things that I loved about it. It was like,
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There were also days where I would go on my lunch break and cry because I wanted to quit and would fantasize about leaving. Because in the back of my head, I would go home and I would study my spiritual stuff that I love. I was pulling cards on my lunch break and looking at this freaking card and being like, please help me. I remember always drawing different deities and different gods.
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from Sahara Rose's deck, a Yogic Path deck. And I would just look at them and pray to them during my lunch break and just be like, are things going to get better? Because I want to focus on things that I love. I want to focus on things that I'm very excited about, and I just didn't feel great in the role that I was in anymore. And I also was suffering from health issues, severe eczema breakouts. I was very underweight.
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taking proper meals and just all of this stuff, right? And so then I manifested the support role. Now I work in recruiting. And I forget how lucky I am a lot of times because I have my own office. I work in a beautiful office.
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for one of the most important people in our company who I have a great relationship with, the best boss I ever had, the most understanding boss, the most accommodating boss. He totally believes in work-life balance. He is a people first person. I don't feel micromanaged. I have authority to be a leader to make my own decisions. I don't really have to answer to anybody because I'm so on lock with what I'm doing with that line two. It's like with my line two and my profile,
00:18:12
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Easy breezy genius. And I also have single definition. So it's like I process things very quickly. I work alone very well. And I have my structures in place. Like I've created my own organizational flow to do my job. And I follow it. I have the same spreadsheets. I've been recruiting now for, this is going to be going on to two years.
00:18:37
Speaker
In January, it'll be two years. I've used the same exact spreadsheet to track all of my hires from when I first started two years ago to now. Actually, I have it right here.
Balancing Stability and Spiritual Ambitions
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It's just one for me to look at this stuff. But as of today, I've hired my 1,333 person. If that makes sense. 1,033 people I've hired. As of today, my very last hired, I just sent the offer letter to.
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1,303 people. On that same document, I track everything of the process that I do. And nobody taught me this. This wasn't something that my organization gave to me and was like, oh, here, this is how we do things. No, this is how I learned how to stay very organized because the person before me, or when I took over this position, it wasn't that organized so things could get
00:19:35
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very chaotic, they could get lost. It's like, how do you know if you sent this offer letter to this person? How do you know if you started the background? How do you know if you ordered their shoes? How do you know if you ordered their uniforms? It's like, if you have a million different spreadsheets going for each month, how are you supposed to do that? So I literally figured out a system for myself that's color coded. So it's also really fun for me. And I keep track of everything.
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their orientation dates. I keep track of when I talk to them on the phone. Did they not sign the offer letter? Did I leave them a voicemail? I have notes on there. I track their orientation dates, sizes for everything, literally. Sorry, I just love that about myself. I feel so good in that job.
00:20:20
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Sorry, I think I'm getting a little off track. But the thing is, okay, right, so I have that job that I love, love what I do, it's so easy. Because it's so easy, I'm able to come home at the end of the day and check out. I don't think about my work for one goddamn second when I leave that office, because I don't have to. But when I was a manager, I thought about it until I went to sleep. I thought about it in my sleep. I thought about it on my days off. I would call them on my days off. I was constantly checking numbers. I was constantly checking, where's everyone at?
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blah, blah, blah, blah, and just was always obsessed with work. And so I was tired all the time. Like I said, had eczema. Severe eczema breakouts did not feel great. Now that I'm in this role,
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I don't think about my job when I leave. I feel so satisfied. I go into work. I have my own beautiful office with a freaking window from the ceiling to the floor. And it's like high rise ceilings. I have beautiful equipment, like beautiful monitors, like so comfortable. I get to decorate my office however I want. I can close the door if I don't want to hear anybody else talking and I want privacy. We have like a kitchen.
00:21:28
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I can literally meal prep, cook my own food there if I want. I have the ability to go on my walks throughout the day to get my steps in. I have flexibility. Because of that, I'm able to go on my time off from work and work on my business, work on my reading stuff, give readings, do my podcast, live life, and do all the things that I freaking love.
00:21:53
Speaker
The only thing that I wish was different was that I got paid more because if I got paid more in the role that I'm in, that would just energetically help me so much more to have more time to work on my business and not feel so stressed out of like, oh, do I, I need to make money in my business. So this is where things get good. So about two weeks ago, I have to sneeze. Sorry. Okay. Sorry.
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So about two weeks ago, me and George are talking about how we want to buy a house. Like it doesn't really make sense with how much I'm making right now. Like I'm not making a horrible amount, but I just wish I made more. And I also want to pay off some debt. Like I still have student loans and some credit card debt. And so I was like, you know what? In 2024,
00:22:47
Speaker
This is my year to pay off my debt, to go all in on my services and offer my business stuff. I'm going to stop taking courses. I'm not going to give my power away. I'm going to stop investing in so many things because I've literally, and I don't regret any of it, but I have invested so much money into my training, into my coaching, into certifications, into courses. I have invested
00:23:18
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a shitload of money, like so much money. But that's because that's what I prioritize. Like I don't prioritize shopping or like going out. I prioritize or like vacations. No, I prioritize my personal growth and development because that's like my passion. That's what I love to do. But I need to get real. I need to get real with myself this year.
00:23:39
Speaker
And I need to start getting some return on investment for all of the things that I've done. And the reason I think that I'm not getting as much return on investment is because I keep pouring my energy out and not tuning it back into myself, into that resourcefulness. So I was talking with George and he kind of gave me the idea of like, oh, maybe you should go back to the service center and be a manager because they make more money. And then I could be on track to become
00:24:06
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like an area manager. And so I was really considering it. I was already considering like what I was going to tell my boss. I was like, you know, this makes the best decision right now in the moment. Like I. OK, sorry, I have to take like a little mini break there and pause. But like I was saying, I had this idea of like, oh, maybe I should go back to the service center because I could immediately start making money now.
00:24:35
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So I started talking to George about it and started talking to my mom about it, my brother, and getting really pumped up. I started practicing how am I going to bring this up to my boss? What's the best route for this? Because I'm sure that I could do it.
00:24:52
Speaker
But I would need to be very certain that I want to do this because it's a huge transitional transitionary role to go back from being support and being on the office support side to back into operations. It's totally different, obviously. And so I know they would make room for me and help it happen, but I would have to be very certain.
00:25:13
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And I realized what I was doing. So in my mind, I was creating all the ways of why, oh, well, I think it'll be so much better now because I've been out of that position for three years. I've done so much personal growth and development work. I've learned so much about myself, about my emotions, about leading people, directing people,
00:25:35
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And I just thought, oh, I want something more challenging. My job is so easy right now. Maybe I'm at a plateau maybe because it's so easy for me. And maybe I need to be challenged more. And I know that this would really challenge me to the T. It would freaking challenge me. And I was like, but maybe that's what I need. And maybe that's growth. And this will be for my biggest growth and evolution. And so they were really pumping me up. They were supporting me. And I was like, OK, I'm going to do it. But then I started.
00:26:04
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kind of feeling like, wait, I don't know if I want to do this. And so I started really like drawing into meditation and pulling cards. So I really leaned into like pulling cards, getting messages from my guides. And it seemed like I was getting the messages. Obviously, we never get the message of like, should I do this? Yes, no, it's not going to tell us that. But I was getting so many messages of like, I'm so powerful. I'm so
00:26:33
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I'm an empowering person. I'm so capable. I can do anything that I want. Everything's leading up. Everything I've been working on is leading up to this moment. And so it's like, I can take that either way, you know? And I was like, but at the end of the day,
00:26:47
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I want to make more money now. I want to pay off debt. And I was like, I can still work on my business on the side. Yes, I'm going to be way more tired, but I can just maybe like do readings and coaching or whatever I want to do going into next year on my two days off. So I was like, okay. So as I was more like sitting with it, I was like feeling like I don't think that's what I want to do.
00:27:07
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And I started getting eczema on my hands again. And I haven't had it like this since I worked in the service centers. And I've always kind of had it on my middle finger, but it started coming back on all of my fingers. And I also get this thing like in the winter time where I start getting like dry, itchy skin on my hip, especially like on my left hip. And it just like, it hurts so much. It's like genetic, my grandpa would get it too. I don't know that it's necessary eczema. I'm not sure what it is. I've never had it like dermatologist, sleek,
00:27:38
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dermatologistically tested, if that's even a saying. But anyways, I started getting it all over my other leg, all over my hips. And it's so painful and it's so itchy. And I was like, this is how I felt when I was working in the service centers. And I was like, Oh my God, I think my body's trying to tell me something that
00:27:59
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you're not supposed to go back. Like this is foreshadowing what's going to happen to you if you do, because yeah, you've gone through so much personal growth and development, but maybe like, that's not what you want to do. And maybe that's not where your soul wants to go. And I kept, my mind kept convincing me that I was like, Oh, I can take human design into the operations and I can teach my team their human design and like create the best team and really use my competitive spirit to have like the best team.
00:28:25
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make the most numbers, promote the most people, do the best training based on their design. And then maybe, and then my hair girl was telling me that I was like, Oh, maybe if I do that so good, like they'll see like, Oh, wow, she's really up to something. Like what have you done, Alyssa? And then like create this new role for myself where I teach everyone their human designs. But then I was like looking back and I was like, at the end of the day, and this is so true, like my company is here for oil changes and they want to
00:28:54
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grow the business in that aspect. They're not really here for personal growth and development. It's not a personal growth and development company, even though they're a huge core value.
00:29:06
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is like continued learning and improvement. Self-improvement and learning is a way of life. That is one of our core values. And so anyways, I felt like I was just trying to force it. It was all coming from the mind. It was all coming from the mind. And I was trying to paint this picture of how it's going to be so awesome and like, Oh, I should just do it. But then my body started breaking down. The cards are like telling me that, Oh, this is the other craziest shit ever. So then the cards are telling me that like, I have so many deep intuitive gifts, like my psychic
00:29:31
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abilities are coming online. And if you guys listened to the podcast two weeks ago, I think it was three weeks ago when I had Becky, Rebecca Lyons. She's a really cool Akashic Records reader, a medium. And it's crazy because then I think like
00:29:49
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a lot of episodes back, if you listened, I was talking about how I felt called to reopen my Akashic Records because I took level one two years ago. And so I had reopened them and was re-channeling and then it kind of fell off. And then after having her on the podcast, I got really, again, drawn into it. And so I've been opening them again. And then I re-did level one because I did an online course. So I re-did that a couple of weeks ago.
00:30:19
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And I've just been feeling very tapped in and intuitive. So all of the cards have been telling me, your psychic gifts are strengthening. Tune into that. And then I was like, hmm, interesting.
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So then, okay, so then I was like, you know what, like, I think I'm going to make the conscious Oh, and then this is the other coolest thing ever. So then also, my friend Carla, we talk all the time, like we both voicemail every day. And she is a projector, like a really beautiful projector. And she was asking me some like really good questions of like, she's like, why do you think that
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It's going to take so long for your business to pop off. Why does it have to take so long for you to start making more money in your business? She's like, just look at that. Why is that a belief? Because that's a belief that you're holding right now. She's like, why do you need to go to that job?
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to make instant money right now when you can make money doing something that your soul loves to do and that you've been working on for so long. And I was like, Oh my God, you're so right. So it's all these little things like in the universe, it was like the people, you know, because I'm a very, I'm a two four. So like, relationships are very important to me. So it was like,
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the people having something to respond to like Rebecca getting really lit up from her talking about Akashic Records and like, you know, this is the other craziest thing that I did too. I'll talk about it in a second. But anyways, so all of these things were like, yeah, yeah. Like I was responding to them and I was like, I don't think I want to go back to the service center. So then I did
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Okay, so I had the intuitive head to go back and do Akashic Records level one again, like just go through the course again, like refresh things and like open up my records daily. So I did that. And then that prompted me to go listen to their podcast. It's Lucia and Lorena from a Soul Tribe podcast. That's who I learned Akashic Records from, like from my mom. My mom did it and then I learned, I found them from her. So I went back and listened to an episode on like masters, guides,
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how to differentiate between like guardian angels. Like what are the differences between all of them? And so I listened to that episode and I was like, Oh wow, I never really knew how to differentiate between like my voice. Like I've never seen my guides. Like I haven't visually seen them. I haven't really known how to like differentiate between like masters and guides and ascended masters and all that. And so I did that. Okay. And that was like a great episode. And then,
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a while back, before I did the podcast recording with Rebecca, I had actually gotten one of her... It was either new moon or full moon ceremonies that I had signed up with her, but I wasn't able to watch it live. And so I did the replay. And I remember when I was watching the replay, I was really tired because I fall asleep very easily, especially when I'm relaxed. So I had watched the replay. This was weeks ago.
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And I saw all about what she was teaching on, but then when it got to the guided meditation part, I had fallen asleep and I wasn't able to do it. And she's been asking me, hey, have you done the meditation? I want to just know how is it? I want your feedback. I'm excited to know how it went for you. And I'm always like, oh, yeah, no, I haven't done it yet, but I'm going to do it this weekend. I'm going to do it this weekend. I just never did it because I just kept getting busy. But this is so divinely guided. So
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So we have a call, me and Rebecca, to just talk about business stuff. And I tell her, oh, I'm going to do the guided meditation this weekend. Then George ended up going to the hospital because of his chest pains from his myocarditis or whatever. I don't know how to say it. It's not whatever. But I just don't know how to say that word. So this was this last weekend. So Sunday, we went to the hospital.
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He's all good. He had the ultrasound of the heart, the EKG, everything came back so good. His oxygen levels are incredible. We had the best doctor ever that I've ever seen in my life. He was so reassuring, and he's a specialist, a cardiac specialist. It was just awesome. It was an awesome experience because he is so healthy, and so that was such a relief. But then I was so tired, so I didn't do that meditation.
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didn't do the meditation. So really been feeling into Akashic Records, like really excited to like dive into it. I've been having these incredible freaking like downloads when I open the records. Like it's crazy the things that are coming through. I feel so connected to my intuition, so connected to my resourcefulness, right?
Affirmation through Career Success
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Like that, that well that is inside of me that I forget that I can tap into. And so
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I ended up doing, I finally ended up doing her meditation this week and it was the coolest experience of my life. So I did the guided meditation and she basically walked us through like finding our safe place and then like calling in our guides. And like, so I had my grandpa present who's passed and I had a guide come through that I've never seen before and I saw her and she was like, she, now I know that she is one of my guides and she is this like really beautiful,
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alien like guide. She's like bald and she's like an alien, but she has like really beautiful eyes. And she's like this, this really cool energy of like warm, grounded, like love, like endless love, endless potential love. She's so smart. And she's really like
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a really solid figure. And then I had my grandpa and which is also so solid for me. And he's came through many times. I've had medium ship readings done where he's come through. I've had a psychic reading done before where he came through to the psychic. And it's been confirmed that yeah, he is with me. He's one of my guides. And so that's been really cool. And it's been cool for me to see him as well. And then basically she went through and like helped us clear out all of our chakras. And when she was doing like my
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We were doing the root chakra and she was like, Oh, you probably have been feeling like a lot of fear, a lot of self doubt, a lot of like holding yourself back, imposter syndrome. Like it's yucky. It's like muddy looking. It's like all clogged up. And she had our guides put their hands on us and clear out that energy. And I literally felt like the coldest sensation in my root chakra. It was like cold and tingly and I could feel them cleaning everything out and
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It was such a cool experience. And I felt so much spaciousness inside me when that was done. And then just through each chakra, I had so much blockage in my solar plexus. I had so much blockage in my throat and so much blockage in my third eye. And then she got us through this part where we cut all the cords. So I saw all of these cords and hooks that were in me, especially a lot up here.
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a lot in my root, just all over me and my back and everything. And it's like,
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They cut them with like this magical sword. They all started disintegrating. And I just felt all this energy come back into me. And then we did this really cool, like ceiling portal thing. But after that, you guys, I felt so clear. I was like, Oh my God, I have been inundated with other people's shit. Like in my fricking open Ashna and open head, like, especially in this space where so many of us are
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aspiring entrepreneurs and like healers and coaches. And there's like so much self-doubt that is just like perpetuated in the ethers in social media that we're not even aware of. And it's like, I felt all my energy drawn back into myself, all the cords cut from me. And I was like, wow, I am solid. I am whole. I felt so connected to my intuition into that inner well. And I just knew that
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I really need to lean into Akashic Records because that is where my power is and what a beautiful way that I can incorporate human design and jean keys and Akashic Records because it's like I can literally guide people through the themes of their life through the jean keys and help them see what shadows are going to be present in this life because that's the thing with Akashic Records is like
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Yeah, we can tap into past lives, which can be very helpful. We can tap into future potentiality. But it all is only going to show up if it has to do with this lifetime, because the present lifetime is what is most important. And so many times people want to bypass and
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ascend or get out of this lifetime and go back to like different places and it's like we chose this life on purpose to be in this earth at this time and so that is why I feel like so connected to this work because I have a lot of my human design where I like I'm a I'm very empowered to be like in my body and this physical experience I'm gonna get more into that in a second but yeah so it was just really cool so
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through all that, I felt really called to like, go into Akashic Records, learn how to read other people. So I'm going to be doing Rebecca certification in January. And not even that it's a certification of like, Oh, I need a certification to feel like powerful and worthy. No, I'm just I'm doing it because I really want to learn how to read other people's records for them. Because it's just going to enhance my coaching 1000%. And it's the most
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empowering thing ever. Tuning into our own intuition, tuning into our own, getting messages, channeling from source, our guides, spirit, our higher selves is to me the ultimate empowered state. And so I'm so excited that I'm going to be able to do that for other people as well. So there is that. So I made this decision and I was like, I'm going to stick with the job that I have. I'm not going to try to
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pursue going back into operations, even though I would get instantly more money, my happiness would significantly drop, and I wouldn't be able to take time to do my self-care practices. Also, through all of this, I've been very connected to get back into my body. I always say this, but really getting back into working out, eating nutritionally for my body, I still do all of my self-care practices at night. My skincare routine, laying on my acupuncture mat,
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doing meditations, like all of these things, creating a beautiful environment in my home and creating like a sanctuary, all of these things are what is so important to my life. And I'm not going to have that stability of a routine.
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if I go back into operations, it's just going to be scattered everywhere. And I'm going to become very scattered and I'm not going to have the capacity to want to work on my business outside of it. So I was like, cool. I made the, I was like, I'm trusting the universe. The moment that I trusted that, every fucking card that I pulled and sorry for saying that word, but
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I know we don't care on this podcast, but every card that I pulled since then is insane. It's like the same cards I keep pulling. It's like you're building brick by brick the foundation of your business, of your purpose. Your psychic abilities are online. I kept getting the card that I am going to meet someone that is going to be a teacher, a friend, a trusted helper, and it's going to help me with my gifts. Another thing about my
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jean keys is that in my attraction sphere, when I attract people that are out of alignment for me, I'm in the shadow of weakness. And so it's like putting other people on a pedestal.
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which I've done so many times in my life, right? Like how many people can relate to that? To like signing up for something or thinking that this teacher, this guru is so much more wise than you and you need them to like learn and to tell you what to do to get to the next step, even in terms of like having a business coach and like, oh, they just have everything figured out. And I've given my power away so many times. And this is not to say that it's not important to invest in yourself and to have a coach. Like it's a hundred percent, like I'm where I'm at because I,
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continuously invest in myself and have coaches and mentors. But what I've realized is that every time I enter into those relationships where I'm in the shadow of weakness, I'm calling in a very weird dynamic where I feel like they're up here, I'm down here. It's a really weird relationship where I just feel less in them. People pleasing might stay on longer
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than I want to because I don't want to disappoint them. It's almost like I want them to like like me and I want to be validated by them, which is weird. And then if I step into the gift of equality and I understand that I am equal to everyone, there is no one that is above me. Maybe they have more experience than me in this or that, but that doesn't mean that as a human or on a human level, they're way more better than me. So when I call in people like that that are equals, it's like a crazy, beautiful,
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I don't even know how to describe it thing that can happen. And so I feel like, so I kept drawing cards that were like, you're going to meet someone or someone's going to help you learn things. And I literally think that is Rebecca, because we both have different things that we can help each other with. And it's like, I want to learn Akashic Records and she can teach me Akashic Records. And then also same with Maria Henning with the Jean Keys. It's like, I never put her on this pedestal of being like, oh, I need to learn from her. It's just like, oh, I think she's cool as hell. And the things that she
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teaches and the way that she teaches is so cool that I want to learn from her. So this is why I also recommend getting a Jean Keys reading because you can see
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in your Venus sequence where it's all about love and relationships, where are you attracting the relationships in your life? Your partners, bosses, friends, mentors, coaches, are you attracting them from a place of your shadow? And it's good to know what is your shadow so you can recognize these patterns and tendencies and then see what is the gift of it. What energy do you need to step into so that you start attracting soul line people who are part of your fractal family?
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that are here to really help you grow and evolve and have the best, highest intentions for you. So full circle real quick to just cap this up. So I was receiving all of these messages and all of this intuition of stay where I'm at, tune into Akashic Records, tune into my spiritual gifts, my intuition, focus on my body, on things that make me healthy. And then this morning, I had really great news from my boss that
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I'm getting a raise. This was kind of unexpected. They're doing market adjustments going into the new year, which they do every year, but usually it's only for operations. It's never for support staff. I'm very excited that I am getting a very good raise, the highest raise I've ever had.
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the universe is providing. It's like, oh my God, you guys, when I found out, I might not seem that excited right now because I'm just a little tired right now, but when I found out, I was like, oh my God, thank you. I trusted my intuition, trusted the connection from spirit, and it was like, stay where you're at. Stay where
Social Media Hiatus and Personal Alignment
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you're at. Be grateful for what you have. Be grateful for this position that you created for yourself.
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The lesson I needed to learn is that work is not supposed to be difficult for me. Just because I'm not being challenged, that was coming from a place that was coming from my undefined heart center of like, oh, I'm not worthy unless I'm working hard. If I'm not challenging myself, then I must not be working hard enough. Now, as a line two, my shit should be easy. It's easy for me
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because I've streamlined my process and I'm really good at what I do. Put someone else in this position, throw them in this position. They're probably going to fuck stuff up. People aren't going to get their stuff ordered. Things are going to fall through the cracks. It will become chaos. I just forgot that I'm just really good at what I do.
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And with the two line, it can be easy, easy, breezy, genius. I don't need to work hard. I'm supposed to do what is easy. I think where he says this is that you should be getting paid for what's easy for you. Like whatever is the easiest for you, you should be getting paid the most for it. And it's like, yes. So I'm so excited. The universe provided I now have like more income, which is just like setting me up while I focus on my business. And then the other cool thing that I just want to say is that I had my
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So Keely from a spiritual loop community is learning all about
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I always heard it's called BG5 Human Design, so it's like human design for business. I got a reading with her today and it was so awesome because it just reaffirmed my direction in my business. I'm not supposed to know where the heck my business is going. I don't have the gift of visioning. I can't see that. That is why I've always felt so uncomfortable when business coaches or
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like the pressure and the conditioning to be like, Oh, like have a five year plan. Like, where are you going? Like, I'm literally only supposed to do what I feel like in the moments and respond to it. You know, as a generator, I'm supposed to step by step, figure out the next thing, the next thing and respond, keyword, respond. I'm not supposed to force things. I'm not supposed to mentally figure it out. I'm just supposed to do whatever is really exciting right now. What's exciting for me right now, Akashic Records, just tuning into my tuition, learning how to trust myself and
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Like as I've seen in the cards, everything is just slowly coming together and like slowly figuring itself out and that is good enough. So I also want to offer this to anybody who's struggling with like needing to figure it out, like feeling crazy, like you're going crazy. The purpose path and the entrepreneurial path is a long windy road. As I always say, it is a spiral.
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Sometimes it feels like we're going 20 steps back, but actually we're not. We're just looking at something and revisiting it. So I got the greatest guidance from Keely to focus on what makes me really happy right now. She pointed out that I'm super gifted in empowerment and empowerment of myself. I have so much power inside of me that I meant to do for myself and to transform myself into perfect form.
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And that is what is going to be so magnetic and exciting to other people. And so it's like, I don't have to try to think about how am I going to transform other people. I can literally just transform myself, focus on, like I said, my health and wellbeing, you know, connecting to source, my meditation, strengthening my psychic abilities.
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strengthening my love for jean keys and human design and my studies and just being ultimately myself and like having not forcing myself to do anything is literally going to be magnetic af and so i am going to take a break off of social media probably until just january when we come back january 5th um trying to think of dates it doesn't really matter but
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I know you probably don't care either. But I'm just thinking, when I first thought of taking a break, I was like, Oh my God, there's no way like I'm going to become irrelevant. No one's going to care about me. But then I was like, Am I even really relevant right now? And like, does anybody really care what I'm doing right now? I think I'm more doing it from a place of like, forcefulness or like needing to show up. Even though I really love the content that I put out, I feel like it's really good. But
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I'm very excited to just come back to what empowers me. How can I become like in line with my perfected form so that I can show up and just be myself and that it's going to magnetize people. So if you are feeling at all like you're stuck, like you've been stuck in the conditioning, like it, I'm literally having this epiphany that the spiritual path, the entrepreneurial path is like,
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kind of like a capitalist conditioning trap, because it feels like we need to be putting ourselves out there. But we're doing it because we want to help people and we want people to feel better and we want people to improve their lives, like self improvement, that like growth, evolvement. That's what the spiritual path is. But
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I'm really called to be like, how can I embody my design so much? That's literally all I'm doing. And that empowers other people to embody their design.
Conclusion and Gratitude
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And so that's going to be like an experiment of only responding to things. I'm going to do like three weeks to a month where I don't do anything.
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except respond. And I have so many root center activations. Oh my God, the pressure in my root is like, I'm so driven. I want to go. I want to do things. I'm so competitive and like I want to get things done, but I have to know that that has to be coming from my strategy and authority. So like I have to be lit up by something to be pouring that energy into and that is what's going to be so magnetic.
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Um, and then, so yeah, so just to make this full circle, you know, like over the past two weeks, I was like contemplating like, do I completely change my life and go back into operations? So I can really get track on track in 2024. But then through, you know, my community, through my friendships, through myself, meditation, listening to my guides, you know, listening to the Oracle cards, tuning into spirit and seeing like, no, stay where I'm at. Keep going.
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Be grateful for what you have in this beautiful job that you have. It's supposed to be easy. You're not doing anything wrong. And now I'm being compensated more for it. So it's just like, thank you, universe. Thank you so much. Yes, more, please. I'm so excited for everything that's to come.