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#41 - The Price of Ignoring Recovery
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In this episode of Mindset Mutiny, I pull back the curtain on the brutal cost of ignoring recovery. I talk about how chasing progress without rest left me burned out, drained, and questioning everything. I break down the signals I missed, the crash that followed, and the lessons I learned the hard way about respecting recovery as part of the grind—not the enemy of it.
But it’s not all about slowing down. I also dive into why making time for your passions—no matter how busy life gets—is non-negotiable. Because when you fuel what lights you up, you build the energy and drive to keep fighting.
This one’s raw, honest, and a reminder: if you refuse to rest, life will force you to. Tune in and take control before you hit the wall.
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Transcript
Introduction and Welcome
00:00:22
Speaker
What's up everybody? This is your host, Mike Ivanov. Welcome back.
00:00:31
Speaker
It's about 9.02 p.m. Sunday night. I try to get this done before I have to go to bed. It's been an action-packed week, particularly the last couple days have been real nice.
00:00:43
Speaker
We'll touch on that.
Car Rides and Burnout Relief
00:00:44
Speaker
Saturday, spent the day. It's actually great because my wife, and I have to, don't give her enough credit and don't talk about her near enough, but... um You know, i was talking about burnout and I was having a tough time last week and it continued to be even more rough this week and we'll detail that a little bit later.
00:01:04
Speaker
But she midweek scheduled with, you know, scheduled a car ride, right? So she wanted to, so I have like a race car that I built. um
00:01:16
Speaker
Yeah, it's kind of my pride and joy, but we'll talk about that in a little bit. So she wanted to go for a ride. So she said, hey, listen, man, like this is what we're doing Saturday. Get up, go get the car, come pick me up, you know, back at the house and we'll go for, you know, go for a drive.
00:01:30
Speaker
Had a bunch of things planned. want to stop at a local farm, get some, you know, get some local produce. think Marini's farm in Ipswich was a nice ah nice place to stop. ended up getting some green beans and some cherries and some corn.
00:01:45
Speaker
But what nice is, you know, when we were, well, geez, we've been together almost 20 years now, but she's been around me in cars for a long time. And we used to, when we were younger in college, go out and just ride around in my car.
00:02:03
Speaker
um You know, I have modified cars most of my life. um Not like the one I have today. um the one I have today is like my childhood dream car, 2007 Honda S2000.
00:02:16
Speaker
It's silver. Pretty much everything on that car has been modified.
00:02:26
Speaker
there's nothing that hasn't been touched on that car so the motor itself i actually built the motor uh in my kitchen um brian krauer billet crankshaft cp pistons carrilla rods uh it's the factory block but it's been um it's been sleeved and it's a step deck which is kind of cool and the cylinder head's got uh ferrera valves and all the valve trains been redone bolted up to that i got a full race manifold with a gtx 3582r turbo uh thing is just menacing 1300 cc injectors uh car is car's fucking sick and it's fast made 521 at the wheels which means it was making over 600 crank horsepower um
00:03:19
Speaker
Yeah, it's something to be seen. And you know
Weekend Adventures and Car Culture
00:03:21
Speaker
what? It brings such a smile to my face, but I never drive it. Like it sits in and sits in the garage and it just kind of like collects dust.
00:03:31
Speaker
And on the way home from work on Friday, a buddy mine, Nick, was like, hey, dude, just you know have fun this weekend driving the car. And as I had mentioned it to him i was kind of excited.
00:03:43
Speaker
kind of got to build myself up to these things too, you know, because I don't know. It's just with life being so busy and doing all these other things, I sometimes forget like what really makes me happy and what I really enjoy.
00:03:56
Speaker
And it's it's been cars forever. Like I was telling you, my wife and I have always gone out and driven around. And it forces us both to be like present. you know You can't be on your phone driving this car. like it's it's You gotta be locked in the entire time.
00:04:09
Speaker
um you know So we're both just windows down, you know b blasting through the you know the back roads in Raleigh, Ipswich, Gloucester. i mean, just a great time stopping at a farm here and getting out. We went to Vinn-Formage over in Wenham, got some nice cheese and and things like that. It was just all around a great ah great day. And then ah dropped the car off and then we headed to the beach and got to watch the sunset there. Just great weather all around.
00:04:37
Speaker
I needed it so bad, man. I've just been running on an empty tank. And I'm just thankful my wife like makes me take these times ah to relax and kind of build these things into my routine, which I need to do a better job of. And obviously, this will be... It's just so timely with what's been going on over the last week. So...
00:05:01
Speaker
That was Saturday and then today was super action packed. Unfortunately, you know, I usually will never get less than eight hours of sleep. um But the day got away from me yesterday and had to wake up early, which is only six o'clock in the morning. But on a Sunday, six o'clock in the morning, we, you know, we stayed up a little late last night.
00:05:25
Speaker
um So I get up for cars and coffee and, you know, pretty tired. But that's like the one it's the one event that i'll skip some sleep for uh is the cars and coffee so sunday get up early ah head over to pick up my car and uh i meet kyle and uh a buddy his great guy um mr taylor is what we'll call him uh He had a Mustang and Kyle's got his Porsche 996 heavily modified 600 plus horsepower new turbos got a whole GT3 aero kit on it cars absolutely fucking just disgusting white brown and brown interior um one of my favorite parts is has a little roll cage in it but it's all wrapped in leather super super classy so
00:06:17
Speaker
We kind of rolled out. We were mobbing mobbing down the highway. was so sick. My younger self, my 13 to, you know, 17-year-old self, if I ever saw these cars flying down the highway like we were today, um yeah, it would have been absolutely on cloud nine. But, you know, ah feel like the car, you got to keep the car dream alive for young kids, you know? So whenever I see a young kid and out driving my car, I make sure, to you know, just give him little rev and Because just know how when I was a kid, I'd see these cars and it would just always just set my mind free and I'd always dream about them. And today, you know, now I've got my childhood dream car.
00:06:56
Speaker
And
Confronting Burnout: Symptoms and Struggles
00:06:57
Speaker
so we took it out to Cars and Coffee. Absolutely great time. Some beautiful cars. um just Just a great, great afternoon um all around.
00:07:08
Speaker
So Ended up parking the cars over there and Got out you walk around you see everybody's car kind of rolling in and everybody's on a little bit of a different schedule So you get to the parking lot and everybody kind of rolls in at their own pace So we got there about 730 so we get a parking spot and just car after car rolling in beautiful day Everybody was having a great time Just Great vibe.
00:07:33
Speaker
um I wish I did these things more often and I always like avoid them for some reason because it just seems like whatever I'd rather, you know, not I'd rather be, but like usually that's when I go out and for a run and I don't always have time to drive the car. But right now sitting here at nine o'clock at night, I'm completely stoked from the last couple of days of driving this thing.
00:07:55
Speaker
So we were there for a couple hours and, you know, we all had to take off because we have regular lives to attend to. And I pulled out um and saw there's a photographer posted up on the kind of on the corner where I pulled out.
00:08:10
Speaker
So I shot off the street, circled back around and came right by and he got a couple like absolutely sick pictures of my car. um I was super stoked. So I pulled over, gave him my card and make sure that he had my information to send me those pictures. So i just got those a couple minutes ago. um And they're so awesome. So super happy to have some nice little pictures. I'll share them online. If you jump on my Instagram, you can check them out.
00:08:36
Speaker
Anyway, drove home, parked the car, and let's see, headed back home.
00:08:43
Speaker
Got home, did a couple things, was just feeling really run down, really tired, and we'll get to what's been going on in the beginning of the week in a second here. So I ended up sitting on the couch and fell asleep for three hours.
00:08:57
Speaker
So slept from about three to six. I really needed it, but not fully recovered. So let's let's go there. um Monday, the day after I dropped the first podcast about burnout, I... um I was having a bad evening.
00:09:16
Speaker
was super, super just zonked out. I had nothing to give anybody. My mind was in a bad spot. um So if you talk about, I mentioned that didn't give a lot of scientific information last time, right? So when you're experiencing this level of burnout I was talking about, your cortisol has just completely gone rogue.
00:09:37
Speaker
So normally, you know, your cortisol will, you know, It will allow you to focus and it'll give you energy under stress, but only in short bursts, right? So, but when you're experiencing a level of burnout, cortisol will stay elevated for like way too long and that will cause chronic inflammation, water retention, brain fog and mood swings, right? So that's what i was experiencing. And what i now looking back after having, you know, these, this week of real struggle, um,
00:10:09
Speaker
Starting like May 1st, so I track my weight. I weigh every day in the morning at the same time. So that's like, you know, super standard, right?
00:10:20
Speaker
So I've been tracking that weight every single day. And I've noticed since May 1st, my weight's been fluctuating. So normally I weigh in at about 202 pounds. And it usually just kind of stays there perfectly. But with all this, I guess with everything going on, I've been starting to experience a fluctuation of my weight.
00:10:36
Speaker
Couldn't really explain it. So one day I'd weigh in at like 207, be back down 203, up to 208, down to 204, to 210, down to like 206. what's really crazy down to two ah four up to two ten down to like two ah six so what's really crazy is it kept fluctuating like that, even if my calorie count was lower than usual. So that was the first trigger that I ignored, right? First signal I ignored.
00:11:00
Speaker
um And that hasn't happened to me. So that was like, so i I went pretty far down this path that I shouldn't have. I should have picked up on this. Because I've been telling people about it, I've been talking about it, like, hey, listen, I've been experiencing this and that, what do you think, blah, blah, blah.
00:11:14
Speaker
So, whatever. just Just something to point out. So, if you are ever seeing weight fluctuation like that, and calorie counts the same, and you're weighing in at the same time, and everything in your u routine has remained the same, ah that could be, you know, part of a signal, right?
00:11:31
Speaker
So then, you know, having dopamine issues is as well. No motivation, completely gone. You know, normally that dopamine you know drives that reward structure, the focus, right, the pursuit of the goals. But when you're in a state of burnout, that constant stress drains the dopamine store.
00:11:50
Speaker
So things that used to excite you are fucking meaningless. and And I noticed that, right? And then I also was having, like I mentioned, mood problems. So serotonin, big factor here.
00:12:05
Speaker
So when you're normally, like functioning normally, serotonin will keep your mood stable. It helps you, you know, stay calm and grounded. But when you're in a burnout state,
00:12:17
Speaker
Chronic stress will deplete that serotonin and then you get the anxiety the paranoia the irritability the emotional volatility Okay, I was experiencing anxiety paranoia irritability and emotional volatility a screen all it's all of those Okay, so I tell you so I'm sitting on the floor stretching at night and my wife is trying to have a nice conversation with me And I should be available to listen, but deep down inside I'm sitting there. I've got the anxiety going.
00:12:45
Speaker
I got the paranoia going. I'm irritated having a hard time regulating my emotions right and I'm sitting there trying to figure out what the fuck it is when I really just need to say Hey, dude, are you surprised you feel this way? Look at everything that's going on.
00:12:58
Speaker
You just did a fucking podcast about burnout Okay, there's a reason why you did that and now you're sitting here Monday night freaking out trying to fer out what's wrong with you, okay? So anyway, there's a lot of other things that go, you know, go on into this, but that's just kind of a high level, you know, look at what I was experiencing.
00:13:15
Speaker
um So with the weight fluctuations, the mood slips, the lack of motivation, all that stuff, I go to bed Monday night hoping that I'll wake up and everything will feel better.
00:13:28
Speaker
I wake up Tuesday and I can't get out of bed. No. I knew what it was, okay, because I've been there before. But it doesn't matter if you've been there before because the disappointment starts to kick in. So...
00:13:46
Speaker
I can't go to work. So call out of work, lay in bed all day. i slept 13 and a half hours. um Still woke up, felt like shit, felt exhausted. This is Tuesday.
00:14:00
Speaker
Complete shell of a human being. And I hang around the house all day i try to eat as healthy as possible So I know what it is I'm like alright I'm feeling bad This isn't great What can I do?
00:14:12
Speaker
I've already slept 13 and a half hours I still feel like shit Alright the next thing Is that I'm going to to get as little steps as possible Because I need to just relax
Recovery Insights and Support System
00:14:21
Speaker
I'm just going to sit down And veg out Well, hindsight would tell me that that's not great for me. Okay. And Devin helped me figure that out.
00:14:31
Speaker
She mentioned like, Hey dude, sitting around the house isn't good for you. Now, what's funny about sitting around the house is it goes back to like, there's like this thing in my childhood, right? Where when I was a kid and I was out sick from school, um, or, you know, my mom would always tell me if you're not going to go to work, you better not leave the fucking house. Right? Like if you're sick,
00:14:53
Speaker
You stay home, we don't leave the house. Because if you leave, you're somewhere where you shouldn't have been and something bad might happen. So I still carry this like fucking paranoia about leaving my house when I'm sick or don't feel good, which I've been carrying since I was a little kid.
00:15:13
Speaker
um But the point being is that I should have gone out for a walk. I should have gone outside. i should should have done something, right, rather than sit around. All right. So Tuesday night I was getting this feedback, you know, from my wife and she was a little concerned because this hasn't happened in a while.
00:15:31
Speaker
And I was like, I was really fucked up, you know, and I messaged a couple of people that I know and started kind of talking about what was going on. And, um, Because I'm training for this this race coming up in September and I'm you know upset, super upset that like, geez, look at this, I can't ah can't train, I'm gonna fall behind.
00:15:54
Speaker
um And when you're in this situation, you think that like time like slows way down. So instead of being like, all right, hey, this a couple of days down, just enjoy it, relax.
00:16:07
Speaker
I'm, I'm freaking out about it. and It's making it worse, you know, and I got some really good advice from somebody, um, that mentioned to me, and this is from their personal experience.
00:16:19
Speaker
Um, they said to me that it happens to the best of us, right? And I really respect this person who gave me this advice. Um, They train at a very high level and they said that they find it's important to mentally note that you aren't taking time off from training, but rather this is part of the training in and of itself.
00:16:45
Speaker
I love that. That helped get me through the last couple days where I was having that issue. um That was really, really great advice. And I want to share that with you all um because that was something that was playing out in my head. I just kept thinking that way. i was like, all right, yeah, this is part of the training. This is part of the training. Like this happens. You hit a wall. This is, you know, this is, this is, it's not supposed to be easy, right?
00:17:10
Speaker
So go to bed Tuesday night and um wake up 13 and a half hours later. Again, didn't go to work, um needed to recover, needed to be my best. If you're not rested, you can't deliver ah good quality of work anyway.
00:17:29
Speaker
um And I think too many people push themselves when they're having problems, trying you know when they're sick or when they're not recovered, trying to provide quality work is is next to impossible, especially with brain fog and whatever else is going on.
00:17:42
Speaker
So, Tuesday, Wednesday I wake up and this time I'm going to take my wife's advice and I'm going to get outside. Even though, you know, in the back of my head, the the statement my mom would always make when I was a kid about not leaving the house when you' were six, you know, playing in the back of my head.
00:17:58
Speaker
um But I have to force myself to leave the house. I feel like absolute ass. I don't want to go anywhere. So I just get up, I go outside, I sit in the sun for a little bit. Start to feel a little better.
00:18:11
Speaker
And I'm like, you know, let me just go for a quick stroll. I'll walk down to the post office. I'll get the mail, come back to the house. So I go down, I walk around, you know, half a mile, get to the post office, get my packages, come back home. I'm like, man, I got to like, still not feeling good. And I'm like kind of freaking out of my head thinking like, this is never going to go away.
00:18:31
Speaker
um And of course it will. But in the moments, you know, that's all you can think about is it's not going to go away.
00:18:40
Speaker
So text him with buddy and he's like, dude, you got to go to the beach. Like, go to the beach, get in the water. I live really close to the beach, nine minutes away. so I'm like, all right, yeah, like we'll go to the beach. Now, it's funny because i had to drag myself to the beach.
00:18:56
Speaker
you know Most people would never say that, right? Like you wanna go to the beach, it's a great place to go. But I was just in this spot that couldn't get out of. um So I dragged myself there.
00:19:09
Speaker
And the reason I mentioned that you have to drag yourself there is a lot of us in our lives you know won't drag ourselves through things. We get that first little level of resistance and then we you know back off.
00:19:21
Speaker
um Sometimes you got to go through the motions, man. You got to drag yourself through the workouts. You got to drag yourselves through the hard conversations. You got to drag yourselves through you know all the mundane tasks that make you better.
00:19:34
Speaker
um And in this particular situation, um my recovery was important and it was going to happen by getting to that beach. sitting in the sand, you know, reflecting, no phone, no book, just looking out across the horizon and getting in that salt water. You know, so that's what I did. i got there the entire time, like, just like, I don't want to be here. i want to go home. Like, but then when you get home, you don't want to be there either. That's the whole problem with being burnt out and experiencing these, these levels of fatigue is that no matter where you are, you're not comfortable. Even when you're trying to sleep, you're not comfortable.
00:20:09
Speaker
um It's tough. Now I'm feeling a little bit better now, but I mean, obviously I'm still experiencing some of these level of fatigue, right? I told you I came home and fell asleep for three hours on the couch, um like deep sleep, right? from From three to six, you know, so I still have some recovery to do, which is a little concerning because I would want to kind of want to ramp things up next week, you know, and hit the ground running right out the gate.
00:20:32
Speaker
um So we'll, you know, we'll see what happens. I got to get to bed here soon so that I can get a good night's sleep and and be ready for work tomorrow. But Tuesday was a better day. I came home.
00:20:44
Speaker
was a much better day. I mean, Wednesday, sorry. Wednesday was a much better day. So I come home from the beach. My wife gets home and she's like, hey, are you feeling better? And I hadn't taken really, like, i hadn't really taken registry of how i was feeling because I was stuck in my own head. You know, i started starting to feel bad for myself, you know, and this is something that we all have to look out for um because it starts with, like, a physical exhaustion of the body, but then that will leak into the brain, and the brain will start to think, like, oh, man, like, everything is falling apart. We're all exhausted, all of us, right, you know?
00:21:18
Speaker
um the body and the mind uh so whatever started feeling a little bit better i mentioned it to my wife and i had a coaching call um to do that evening and um you know i have to summon all of my energy for those type of things you know my clients count on me to bring them uh everything i have i have to be at my best level you know when i'm trying to help others and we're we're working through hard things and we're trying to make progress and we're We're doing all the hard work, right? I can't show up half-ass.
00:21:49
Speaker
So
Transparency and Health Challenges
00:21:50
Speaker
anyway... um
00:21:55
Speaker
real quick before we get to that, Tuesday night, and you guys will fucking love this, I'm sitting on the floor stretching, completely wrecked, and I get a text from Ben Kelly, and all it says is, half mar what is it, Newburyport half marathon in November, and I'm like, motherfucker, like you know I'm laid up right now, and you're sending me this fucking text. like Shit.
00:22:22
Speaker
But part of me made me happy because I was like, you know what? Like, yeah, I'll be ready for that. Like, this shit's only temporary. So, of course, all as I said back was, yep, gave him a little shit for, you know,
00:22:35
Speaker
for texting me when I was, you know, all laid up. But that's sometimes the shit you need, man. You need people like that around you, right? um and that helped me gave me a little energy so back to this coaching call where we're having a good time we're uh gets you know get a client that's got some big wins under his belt uh super super proud of him making some big moves and um we're talking and we're starting to finish up the call and uh I get comes across my screen Kyle Hayden sends me a text and all I can see is it's it's like a map of like a run that he did and You know we've been talking the last couple days You know about me being kind of smoked and he's giving me some you know some words of encouragement right we're always kind of picking each other up and making sure each other is doing well
00:23:24
Speaker
Especially we both have a ah you know big training regiment that we're always going through as just part of life. So he sends me this map. but I know it's a run. And the guy I was talking to, and and I'll leave him nameless, but ah
00:23:43
Speaker
I'm sure he'll hear this. But I was like, man, fucking Kyle just sent me ah map. And i know it's a run. He's like, well, click on it. So I click on it. And I'm like, oh, yeah, look at that.
00:23:54
Speaker
dude ran whatever it was running like three miles and whatever time was a fast it was a fast pace and uh was like fuck you know i've been laid up a couple days and uh the dude's like man you gonna let him talk shit like that and i'm like no absolutely fucking not And I was like, let's like said like you know what man I'm gonna go out run right now And that's not a smart move and I'll tell you right now that was fucking dumb But we finished up our call. I put my shoes on went out and crushed his time We won't get into too much detail.
00:24:29
Speaker
I want to rub it in too bad in case he listens, you know I don't want him to try to you know bite my ear off during jiu-jitsu or something like that so We'll keep it kind of clean here, but I went out and smoked his three-mile time and then I threw another three miles on top just for good measure, so ended up with six-mile run.
00:24:48
Speaker
you know and And my client, he took off for run and he banged out five miles, sent it to me. So we you know we were just building that energy back. And um I came home and felt great. So this is Wednesday afternoon, um feeling way better than you know Tuesday during the day. So we're looking at like a day and a half of just being completely fucking wrecked.
00:25:11
Speaker
We're looking at, what, 27 hours of sleep in the last two days that I had. And then I'm out ripping six miles. So felt great. But what it really said to me, and I told this to somebody else, I said, yeah, man, I told them this story. and they're like, ah dude, you lost your head.
00:25:29
Speaker
And um that's a fact. Okay. That is an absolute fact. And I'm reflecting on it right now. And I'm sharing it with all of you because the whole point here is for me to share what's fucking messing me up where I'm getting stuck because I could sit here and pretend and most people will.
00:25:44
Speaker
They won't let you know
Rest and Balance in Life and Activities
00:25:45
Speaker
about this type of shit because they'll say, oh, yeah, I don't want anybody knowing like I was down and out. I don't want anybody knowing I was feeling bad. I want anybody know like my mind was all fucked up. But like this is the this is the real shit that happens.
00:25:56
Speaker
And, you know, a lot of people don't talk about that because we're in a world where everything needs to look pretty. Everybody needs to be, you know, hold their, you know, hold their ego and and and, you know, make themselves look like they're tough and shit. But like, no, man, I was fucking laid up.
00:26:08
Speaker
I was sitting there feeling bad for myself. Okay. Like letting my mind eat me alive. And all I need to do is just fucking shut the machine down. Shut it down relax, but I couldn't do it, you know, and um I'm better for it now, you know, i'll be able to recognize it now when it comes knocking But i'm still not out of the woods yet, you know i'm i'm probably 25% You know where I need to be so now I have to figure out How to get through the next four weeks?
00:26:40
Speaker
You know and still run some miles because we've got this race coming up in about four weeks and uh You know, i'm not going to show up and be fucking embarrassed. That's for sure. But I can't let that thought process ruin my recovery.
00:26:54
Speaker
So I have to play this little game. You know, I have to see the most recovery I can get, right, and play it close to the line where, you know, there's, I might be under trained when I get to this race, but I will tell you for sure there's one thing.
00:27:11
Speaker
I will get those 20 miles done, no problem. That will happen. There's no way that won't happen. I just wanted to get a real good time, want to put up a real good effort. But this is that balance you kind of fuck around with.
00:27:22
Speaker
um You know, I knew this when I took on jiu-jitsu, that it was going to be it was going to be difficult to keep doing all these things I wanted to do. You know, i like to think that nothing has to give, but, you know, something does have to give. And I fucked myself up the last couple of days here.
00:27:37
Speaker
But, um yeah, I want to share that.
00:27:43
Speaker
Rest will be the next thing I pursue learning about. i Didn't put a lot of stock in its value. But it is just as important as the actual process of training its in itself, right?
00:28:00
Speaker
I mentioned that feedback I had gotten. i mentioned that earlier, and that's very, very valuable. But you cannot put forth a good level of work if you do not take rest as serious as the very work itself.
00:28:12
Speaker
um And I've realized that.
00:28:16
Speaker
So what's really kind of cool to mention is I mentioned this coffee shop that I go to Little Wolf, and how you know I've gotten to know a lot of people there. And a month ago, um met a guy named Matt, and he shared a book recommendation with me.
00:28:33
Speaker
And I always talk to people. who always try to get book recommendations from people because it's always great to know you know what they're reading. And recommendations are always better than just trying to pick a random book yourself.
00:28:44
Speaker
But the book was called rest And let me tell you, I dusted it off today and I read a couple pages and it's right on right on par ah with what I need to hear.
00:28:56
Speaker
But it's funny because if I had just read the book back when he had recommended it to me, I might not be in the situation I am today. um But it's funny how timely that book was suggested to me. So when I was telling you in may around May 1st, was experiencing all these different weight fluctuations.
00:29:15
Speaker
That's about when I got the book from him. So it's just funny how the world works, man. But yeah, I'll keep you updated. I'll start reading the book this week, give you some updates on it.
00:29:26
Speaker
First couple pages already are are kind of spot on with everything that I need to hear. um But yeah, it's about that recovery. That's what I'm doing right now. And yeah,
00:29:37
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just trying to share openly and honestly about what's going on. And I think the biggest thing right now that's bothering me is that I know that I'm not going to be able to do it all. I'm not going to be able to do all the jujitsu, all the running, all the lifting, okay? I'm not to it.
00:29:52
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And I do not want to give up or scale back on anything. But somebody gave me some good advice and they said, Mike, this type of thing is not switches.
00:30:03
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It's dials, right? And what does that mean? know You can't turn these things on and off like a light switch, right? It can't be full on, can't be full off. What you have to do is you have to turn the dial, right? Like adjust the volume a little bit. So you got to turn. So I got to turn down the lifting.
00:30:17
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I got to turn down the jujitsu a little bit. I got to turn the running up, right? And then when I'm done with this race and, you know, we have that. And then after that 20 mile race in September, we've got a half marathon in November now. Thanks to Ben um trying to fucking kill me.
00:30:32
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I'm hard to kill though. So that's completely fine. So then I'll turn the running down after that's over, and then I'll turn the lifting and the jiu-jitsu up for when the cold weather starts coming, right?
00:30:44
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um Now, I'll still be out getting some miles. I'll figure out what that weekly mileage looks like to kind of maintain through the winter. But I think that that's kind of how I got to start doing things. For me, it's ah it's almost like a personality flaw where I think I can do all these things full blast no matter what, and then nothing is going to give. And then when something gives, I'm all fucking butthurt about it, you know? Like...
00:31:05
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Again, there is some rewiring that I need to do in the brain to get better at training, which is resting. i have done zero I have given zero thought to resting. In fact, I've always talked shit about it.
00:31:21
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And I wonder why i keep hitting these walls. And you've got to think that... The guy who's most consistent is the guy that wins the race, right? Or the guy that achieves the greatest result.
00:31:32
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So I need to figure out how to alleviate some of these down weeks that I'll run into. So what I'm thinking is every five or six weeks I schedule in a deliberate week off where I just unplug everything.
00:31:45
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Now I say that now and then five to six weeks from now, I'm not going to take that week off. So if anybody you know sees me around, please give me that reminder that every five to six weeks you need a week off.
00:31:58
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um I know that I need to do that. I've had that discussion with myself past months, even last year, but I haven't i haven't executed on it. So for me, Tuesday and Wednesday were some pretty dark fucking days and I gotta tell you, i have to do everything I can to stop those days from happening.
00:32:19
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But I also wanna mention that what made me get through this was the circle of people that I have around me. The people that i talk to and share openly with about how I'm feeling. Those people helped me get through this little down time because it was an outside perspective where they know my baseline And then they know kind of my level of activity. They know who I am and can give me great advice.
00:32:44
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So you need to have people around you like that. and that's kind of what I want to close out and let you know is that these people that are around me help me be able to get back on my feet quickly. Right. Where I would say most people run into this problem.
00:32:58
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They're going to be down a couple of weeks, maybe a month. OK, maybe a couple months, because then they're going to say, oh man, i don't want to go back to that spot. So I'm going to avoid it. Me was like ah a day and a half okay because I had great people around me okay giving me great advice helping me you know kind of dimension the problem step outside myself So you need to find those people in your life all right very very important I give a lot of credit to those guys um For how fast I was able to recover and then the fact that Kyle sent me that run
00:33:31
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when i When I sent him back my time, i was like, what did you fucking think was going to happen when you sent me that? And I know deep down inside, he sent me his run because he knew it would do something positive for me and it would get me allow me to so make that switch in my mind for stop feeling bad for myself and go back and fucking get after it.
00:33:49
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And that's exactly what I fucking did. And that's exactly why I'm sitting here today and fucking 9.30 at night on a podcast telling you guys about it. All right. So I'm going to get to bed. We'll have a great Monday.
00:34:01
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I appreciate all of your time. I love you all. We'll see you around.