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34. How to Know if What You Are Feeling is Yours or Not: Energetics, Human Design Aura Types, Undefined Emotional Center Case Study
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Hi babes! In this week’s episode we’re talking about energy!
- How our “inputs” affect our energy, what we watch, listen to, eat, etc.
- I break down the energetic auras of each Human Design Type, what it means to have our centers or energetic hubs produce our own consistent energy vs take in and amplify the energy of others.
- I share my personal experience of what it’s like to have my emotional solar plexus undefined, and how I can discern between what are my own emotions vs me amplifying the emotions of others.
- Caste Study: two stories that happened this weekend!
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Have the best week!
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Ellisa
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Transcript
Introduction to Spiritual Growth Journey
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Hello, my friend. Welcome to the It's Happening For Me podcast. If you are obsessed with all things spirituality, personal growth and development, and living as your highest self, you are in the right place. I am your host, Alyssa, and I spent the majority of my teenage years and young 20s living totally out of climate. As I started to question my patterns and behaviors and actually got to know myself at the soul level, I realized that everything was happening for me.
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Now, as a spiritual life coach and human design guide, I am here to share my voice, personal stories, human design wisdom, and learn from incredible individuals living their purpose. Join me each week as we walk the spiral path of purpose together. I cannot wait to dive in.
Understanding and Harnessing Energy
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Hello, hello beauty. Welcome back to today's episode. I am so happy you're here with me this week. So today we are going to be talking all about energy. So I really want to talk about energy in terms of us being energetic beings. And what does that mean? I also want to talk about emotions and how we feel emotions specifically as someone that is a non-emotional being. So someone that
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has their emotional solar plexus in human design undefined or open. So I'm gonna talk about what that means and then share some experiences that I've really had come up this week where I was trying to figure out like, is this my emotions that I'm feeling or is this the other person that I'm in their aura with?
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So I'm going to talk about two situations and kind of distinguish between the two. And then I also really want to talk about how it's so important to remember that we're energetic beings when it comes to manifestation and goal setting. That's something I've really been tuning into recently, and I've been feeling so many things shift. So I just kind of want to talk about that.
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And yeah, and then also just kind of talk about like energy in terms of our spaces being energetically clear and beautiful and functional, especially since we're getting to the springtime. I have been doing so much like deep cleaning and just like
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fixing things around the apartment to make it just feel like so beautiful, so open, so clear. And me and George's energy has been so much freaking lighter. We can tell a huge difference. So I'm going to talk about that as well.
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So let's get into it.
Exploring Human Design Types
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So what I really wanted to touch on is this idea of when we think about our human design and we think about our types, right? We know that there are projectors, manifestors, reflectors, generators, and manifesting generators.
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Now, personally for me, I know how it can be to get super excited to find out what your type is, start learning all about it, learn these nuances about it, and then really forget the basis of what we're even talking about and the fact that this is the type of our aura.
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For example, I'll give you a great example. When I first found out that I was a generator, I was devastated. I was like, oh my god, I don't want to be the most common type. I wish I was a projector. I wish I was a guide. I want to guide people. And I think a lot of people have that experience when you first find out what your human design is. Usually you want to be something else.
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I know so many of my projector friends who are like, oh my god, when I found out I was a projector, I wish I was a generator. And I was like, why would you ever wish that? But now being embodied in it, I love being a generator. I wouldn't change it for the world. And I know that as we grow into this and start deconditioning from everything that ever made us feel wrong for just being ourselves, we really fall in love with our type and our human design.
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I remember, so I remember learning everything about being a generator. I was like, okay, cool. So I'm someone who has sacral energy and I'm supposed to really follow like what lights me up. And you know, I have energy to like work and to get things done. And I just was like really focusing kind of like on all of the bullet points and like the theory of like what a generator is. But I kept forgetting or just like didn't really, um,
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I didn't really keep coming back to this idea of it's an aura type. Our types are types of aura because we are energetic beings.
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just to touch on the different auras really quick. So generators and manifesting generators, we have a open and enveloping aura. So our aura is like it reaches out, it expands out, and it's almost like this like warm hug, where it kind of like pulls the person in. It's like enveloping. So like, if you if you see two people in a room, and you just imagine like this like energetic, like their aura, their energetic, like,
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their energy, like, you know, seeping out from them. I don't know why I can't think of the word, but like, you know, like their energetic aura that's like around their body, you would see the generator would almost like wrap around the other person and envelop them with our aura and our energy. And then we have the projector. So the projector is a
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penetrating aura. So the projector can really see into the other person. The projector can penetrate through the aura of the other person, through all of the layers, through all of the blocks, through all of the shields that they put up, and they can see so deeply into the other person. This is what makes them such great guides and coaches and counselors, because they can see so deeply into the other person, even when that person is putting up these shields.
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And then we have the manifestors and manifestors have repelling closed and repelling auras. So essentially they're going to kind of like push off anything that is not a match for it. And the reason that manifestors do this is because manifestors are here to do like really, they're here to initiate. They're here to make bold changes. They're here to like move the collective conscious forward. They're here to be like innovative, create new ideas.
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And so imagine they couldn't be bogged down from being in contact with every person that they pass by. So essentially, it's a protective mechanism to protect their energy. And again, this is only for the people who are not an energetic match for the manifestor. Then we have the reflector. And the reflector has a sampling aura. So their energy takes in this, sees what feels good, puts it back.
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And it's kind of reflecting back the energy of the other person around them. So oftentimes, if a reflector feels like really sick, or if they feel just like constantly disappointed at work, it's probably their actual environment around them that they're like reflecting back, sampling and reflecting. And so it's so important for them to be in like beautiful environments to be around people who are healthy, who are positive, and just have like the different characteristics that they want to have in their life.
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And okay, so we think of it like that, right? So the type is our aura. Our aura is this energetic field. That's what I was looking for. It's our energetic field around us. Now, it's interesting because as energetic beings, our energy is so important.
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And our vibration is so important. And it's so important for us to keep this up. It's so important for us to take care of our energy and to take care of our own vibration, our own vibrational frequency.
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This does not mean that we're never going to have bad days, that we're never going to feel negative emotions, that we're never going to feel grief, loss. Obviously, that is part of the human experience and we're here to experience all of the vast range of emotions.
Media Consumption and Vibrational Energy
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However, in general, it is our duty and our responsibility for ourself and our deep self-care, actual real self-care to take care of our energetic vibration. That means we need to really be mindful of what we're bringing in to
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our energetic field. So like, what are we watching? Right? Like, are we watching something that's very uplifting, inspiring, motivational?
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something that brings us peace, calm, or are we dysregulating our energetic body and our nervous system from watching things that are really scary, like horror movies? I can't watch scary movies anymore because it just leaves me so dysregulated. I literally have nightmares. I get scared of the dark. Even at this age, 34 years old, if I watch scary movies, I will be afraid of the dark.
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I can finally sleep very peacefully in the dark because I've done a lot of work on my self and on my energetic body, on my emotional body.
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mental body, spiritual body, all of the bodies. I've done so much work, so I'm able to sleep peaceful in the dark. But for most of the majority of my life, I was not able to sleep in the dark, especially if I was by myself. Like I would have to have multiple lights on, like the hallway light, closet light, because I was just like literally terrified. And so yeah, so I as a form of self-care do not watch scary movies. Another thing would be
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like reality TV. So for me, one of my guilty pleasures is reality TV. Like I honestly use it as a form to like disconnect, to turn off all of my thoughts and just kind of like watch something that's just like really, it's really interesting for me to watch.
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Now, do I notice that maybe my vibrational energy feels like yucky afterwards? Yeah. Like if I was going to binge watch the Real Housewives, for example, it's funny because I love the Real Housewives, but George is very sensitive. He's, he's, we're going to get, we're going to get into
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being like a highly sensitive person and like the different centers in our body graph and what it means if we have just definition or undefined or open because some of us are just a little more open than others and so different things impact us differently but George is very sensitive and so like he can't even um it makes him upset if he hears like the housewives the real housewives in the background like it stresses him out because he's like he's like why do you like to watch that it's just like women literally like
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fighting gossip being like just like talking shit about each other just to go to the next scene to talk about what they talked about in the next scene they're always yelling and so for him it's like stressful which I get um so if I watch too much of it I do notice that it does impact me but sometimes like I just really like it because my life in general which I'm so grateful for is so freaking peaceful my life now I can happily say is boring
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Like I don't have any drama in my life. Like I don't have any dating drama. I don't have any friendship drama. I don't have any work drama. Um, and I can't say that it's always been like that. Like my life used to be extremely dramatic. Like from, I would say from like 26.
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I would say from like 15 to 26, it was extremely dramatic, you know, like when I was part of the party scene and like always out binge drinking and then being so embarrassed about like, Oh my God, like what did I say? Or like, did I hurt someone's feelings last night? Or like, did I embarrass myself? And I was always living in this constant state of like shame, guilt, uncertainty, kind of like self-hatred insecurity.
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And then it would be like a spiral. Like I would feel so bad about like whatever possibly happened last night that I couldn't wait to just like do it again and like go out again and like get drinks and like relive that again and again. It was like this like horrible cycle. And so in that stage of my life, I had all of that drama. It was like people talking about each other or just always kind of being in like everybody else's business. And then definitely in my young teenage years being in like codependent,
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relationship, emotionally abusive relationship. It's like that very toxic kind of love. Like when you're so young, I think a lot of people experience that because we like don't know yet what it's like to like create boundaries or to have like self-respect. And so for a lot of years of my life, I was living in a constant state of drama, constant state of anxiety and just like social anxiety, depression, um,
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also like physically being extremely dehydrated from like partying so much and not really taking care of myself. So I think I was always constantly like dehydrated, migraines, um, UTIs, like just always feeling really yucky and then always like really questioning myself, like not feeling good enough. And so basically like living in that state. Now fast forward to today.
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I'm so happy that my life is so boring. Um, I'm a non-emotional being, which means that my emotional solar plexus is not defined. And so basically I don't create my own energy here. So I don't have an energetic wave. So when I'm alone, my energy, my emotions are pretty like even keel, like it's pretty like flat. Um, not to say that I'm not an emotional person. Like I have extreme highs. I also like.
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cry all the time so but that's we'll get to that in a second but that doesn't but but in general like i don't experience the emotional wave like some like other people do and um aside from that i've also created a life where like i have a very small circle of friends i have very strong long deep relationships i have so much self-confidence and like
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so many boundaries that I just like don't accept any like toxicity or any like questionable behavior and so like I just automatically my vibration will not
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vibrate with people who are still living that lifestyle. So it's just like, we just wouldn't be friends. I just wouldn't attract those types of people into my life. I just wouldn't entertain them. And so my life is honestly pretty flowy and pretty easy now. And so again, that's not to say that everything's perfect and I'm never going to experience loss or I'm never going to experience
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friendship issues. But for the most part, I really don't. My life is 150 million percent different than what it was when I was younger. And again, that's attributed to doing all of the work, all of the internal work, self-development, spiritual work.
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confidence work and just really getting to know myself at such a sole level. And so where I was going with this is that sometimes I like to still watch reality TV and just kind of like see gossip because I don't really gossip in my normal life. And so it's like it's kind of fun to just see
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Like for example, love is blind. Like I think the premise of the show love is blind is ridiculous. I 100%. I don't believe that you can know that you want to marry somebody in three weeks. Um, I think it's really stupid personally and not even coming from like a judgmental place, but just coming from a place of where like me and my partner are going on
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it'll be eight years this year that we've been together. And it's like every single year, I'm not joking, I still learn things about him. Every single year it's like we show different parts of ourselves and we're like both growing to completely different people. And like, there's no way that I would know if I wanted to marry him when I just first met him. And same with anybody I've ever dated. It's like, if I would have married the people that I dated within the first three weeks of meeting them,
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it would be a complete disaster. So I just like think the premise of the show is really stupid. I think that I do see that it did work though for some people, which is very interesting that it did work for some of them. But it'll just be interesting to see as over time, if they are able to stay together, which if they are, I really hope that that's amazing. Like I guess it is, I guess it really is possible for some people.
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But I just like watching reality shows and different shows like that because it's just kind of like so different from where my life's at now that it's like I can tune out of my own life and watch something that's just like interesting and fun. Like I just kind of think it's fun. But other than that, I don't really, I don't watch TV. Like we don't, we haven't had TV for eight years. We have Netflix. So I mean like we have a physical TV but I haven't had cable or like normal television
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for like eight years. I only watch Netflix or like certain shows on that, like Peacock, little shows like that.
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Um, I don't watch the news. I haven't watched the news in years. Um, I just know for myself that it, when I was watching the news daily, there was a, there was a part of my life. I think I was like 23 years old and I was like obsessed with the news. Like I was watching it every single day. I was like so tuned in. I even remember being really young when nine 11 happened and I was like constantly watching the news. And anytime, any like big, um, event would happen.
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you know, that affected us, particularly in the United States. I was like so tuned in and like watching every second of it. And I was a nightmare. Like I was literally so, um, so anxious all the time and just felt so out of control. And I can go down these rabbit holes where especially like, okay, even when, um, when the pandemic happened, I was watching the news again and like being tuned into that.
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And you get to a point where you feel, personally, I felt so helpless and nothing even mattered anymore. And I was like, why am I even going to pursue my purpose if the world is ending? And that's not a place to live. And I know that the news purposely wants to keep us in a state of fear. So I do not watch the news. I hear about things that happen from other people that tell me about it. But I personally just choose to not watch the news.
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Um, so I don't watch the news sometimes watch reality shows, but what do I spend the majority of my time watching? I love watching things that make me feel good. So like, I love watching shows that make me feel good. Even if it's like fiction shows, um, I love learning. So I love like documentaries and I love watching different like docu-series about stuff. I love learning new things. I love watching, um,
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YouTube, like I have so many things on YouTube I love to watch. I love to watch things about like financial freedom. Okay, there's like this really good YouTube that I watch that's like, honestly, it's more like, it's kind of more would see more kind of gossipy than actual like financial, like literacy information. But essentially, the host Caleb, he goes through people's different financial statements. And then he helps them create a budget and a plan to get them out of debt.
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And then how to create a six month savings and eventually start investing. But it's just really fun because it's people who really want help to do better, but they just have really bad spending habits. And so it's just really interesting to watch and fun for me. Because I can relate to that. I can 100% relate to before being an overspender. So it's just fun for me because I see myself and these people. And then it also just gives me
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It gives me inspiration and motivation to keep going on my path of financial freedom. So those are really fun. But yeah, I purposely don't watch scary things, don't watch the news. And then listening. It's like, what are you listening to? What music are you taking in or podcasts? So I personally love podcasts. I listen to podcasts every single morning on my commute, every single afternoon back.
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I have like an hour and a half commute both ways. And so constantly listening to podcasts, like all different kinds of podcasts. I love listening to music that makes me feel really good. And yeah, music really makes my vibration like a whole other vibrations. It's really, really fun.
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And then it's like, okay, what are we eating? So that's like my other biggest thing that like I'm always working on is like, what am I eating and just trying to eat, trying to eat more nutritious things, less processed things. Um, I really don't eat sugar. Like sometimes it's in the things that I buy, but I don't eat like candy or anything with like a lot of refined sugar. Um, I don't put like creamer in my coffee. Um, I would put like some sort of milk or some sort of like oat milk, um, and Stevia.
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Um, but yeah, so it's just like, okay, we are energetic beings. So what are we taking in? What are we eating? What are we listening to? What are we watching? And then also like, who are we surrounding ourselves with? Like I said, I used to live a very chaotic life. I used to work, go to school and then go out and then wake up and then go to school and then work and then go out and was just constantly partying, constantly being with people, never wanted to be alone.
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Um, never really had time to sleep. I was always sick. So I was constantly sick. I haven't been sick you guys in two years. So yeah, I think the last time I was sick, I had, um, it wasn't COVID, but before that I had COVID twice, but I haven't been sick in two years. I constantly sanitize my hands like everywhere I go, but I also just like don't have a lot of stress in my life. My life is so easy.
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And again, that's not to say that I don't have like stressful days, but in general, I love my job. I feel very supported by my boss. I don't have a micromanaging boss. I feel like I have a lot of autonomy in my position. I feel like I am contributing. I feel like I'm supporting others and they get a lot from me. And I also feel like I'm very supported from other people as well. I get along with all of my peers and coworkers. Um, I,
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feel very happy in my relationship. We're at a really great place. I feel like so many of our earlier years were really the years of more fighting and more serious fights and really figuring out who we are, what our boundaries are, what we do and don't accept from each other. So it's very easy. We know exactly what
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the boundaries are for each other. What we can and cannot do, what we accept and don't accept. It's very mutual respect. It's very love. Like there was, what I really loved from our relationship is there was never like toxicity of like
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name calling when we would argue or anything like that. So it's always been very healthy, but over the years, it's just gotten easier. I feel very happy in my purpose journey that I get to have this podcast and I'm expressing myself. And so before this, I had so much stress when I wasn't living my purpose, when I wasn't putting myself out there with human design and gene keys and life coaching, purpose coaching, doing the podcast.
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When I was only dreaming about these things, when I was working at a job that was extremely stressful, where I did not feel supported by my boss, where I felt overwhelmed every day, where I felt completely disconnected from my body, where I felt like my adrenals were so out of whack, where I was not eating properly, not sleeping properly, completely stressed out, it's like everything
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was like not good. It's just like, it's like when we're living in a state of stress, everything feels shitty and it can just be one area of our life because there was a time where even when I stopped partying and I completely had like, I basically had like no friends. I still had George, so I felt good in my relationship, but my job sucked.
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my whole life stopped. When I was working so many hours and just feeling so out of balance, my energy was just off and it felt like shit. It made every part of my life feel like shit. That's why it's really important to do these life audits and see, okay, what part of your life is making you not feel good? I always look for stress. What part of your life is bringing you stress? Is it your friend group? Is it your relationship? Is it your work?
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Is it your purpose or lack of purpose? Is it your nutrition and fitness? Is it your finances? Health. What part of your life do you feel stressed out, overwhelmed, not good in? And that is really affecting your energetic body. And that is where
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we can start to look at to start making changes. And then once you kind of get all of them aligned, you'll start to notice that like everything seeps into every other part of your life and everything starts feeling easy. Like we really can you guys get to a point of life or like it's simple. And I never thought that was possible for me. I never even wanted that. Like I think I used to be addicted to the chaos and I was like, you know, I would never want to just like
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be at home at night and have a normal life. I was like, I would never want to be that person. And now I'm like, girl, I have a home body. I freaking love my home. It's so beautiful. It's aesthetically pleasing. I love studying all the things I love to study. I'm a Taurus moon, so I love being cozy and comfy and being at home and eating. I love it so much.
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now I'm so energetic aligned to myself because that's who I actually am. You know, especially as like the two four in my human design profile, I meant to spend time alone and to hermit and to be by myself. Whereas before I never gave myself that chance. And so I was always sick because I was always out of alignment. I was always out of energetic alignment. So like I said, we can really look, do like a little audit,
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of our lives and see like where we don't feel good. And then once we see that the parts like the areas of life where we don't feel good, we can start tuning into who we are. What is your design? What is the energetic manual that you have for your body?
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Your human design is the design of you. It is a design of how your energetic body is supposed
Conducting Life Audits for Personal Alignment
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to work. Then we can look at that and start to see where can we make shifts, where can we make changes subtly, and maybe even sometimes big changes to get you into a more aligned place where your energy just feels good. It's where you thrive. It's where you want to be at.
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Another little example that I'll say is, so being a 2-4, the hermit opportunist, I really do need to be spending a lot of time alone. And in my younger days, when I was always going out with friends and could literally never be alone, I had super codependent relationships with boyfriends, best friends. It was like I was always spending the night at my best friend's house or she was at my house or I was at my boyfriend's house living with his family or he was with me.
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I never wanted to be alone. And that's where I was so out of alignment, like always getting sick, feeling extremely, um, not like myself, like just feeling like, even though I was always with people, I never felt like I belonged. I had really bad self-esteem. I did not feel confident in myself. I felt like I was like a burden on everybody. And then also mixed in there, like,
00:29:08
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binge drinking all the time, not really, like, you know, blacking out, not really remembering what I did, what I said, and then just being like so embarrassed. And always, a lot of times it's always was like, I made it seem way worse in my head than what actually happened. But it's like living in that cycle of like embarrassment, shame, guilt, over and over again, and then also having my body physically depleted from the alcohol from being dehydrated.
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not getting proper nutrition in my system and in horrific sleep schedules, never getting enough sleep, it was a recipe for disaster. So now that I really honor the two in my profile, I love being alone. I love spending time learning things that I love to learn. I love being in my own energy and my own natural genius, and that's where I was able to completely pick up these systems like human design, jinkies, Akashic Records,
00:30:03
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and like really master my craft so that I can live my purpose and help other people. That's the other huge, most hugest out of alignment issue I had was that I was not living a purposeful life. I didn't know
00:30:18
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Well, my purpose was I didn't even know that I could have a purpose. I wasn't even thinking about anybody besides myself. And so now it's like my purpose is really being a life of service. Like I want to help other people. I want to help other people feel good. I want to help other people know that they can move from this like suffering state to a state of joy, ease, things can be easy. And just like learning that it's okay to be bored. Like it's okay to
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have nothing to do. It's okay to be like, wow, I'm just staying in today. And the old me would have never knew that that was okay. That's another thing that happens, especially with our society where we feel like we always constantly need to be doing something. We need to be somewhere. Like, oh my God, I used to have the worst FOMO, like the fear of missing out on everything. Like if I wasn't invited somewhere and I saw people like out somewhere, it made me feel like
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so horrible inside. And now I'm like, girl, I don't even want to go anywhere that I'm invited to. But really, I'm like, oh my god, I could like care less. I have like zero FOMO inside of my body. And that feels so good because that tells me that
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I'm aligned with me. I'm aligned with my soul. I'm aligned with spirit. And this is my personal journey. So not everybody, not everybody is going to want to be at this place where they feel like things are quote unquote boring. Like for me, I just say that because it's not boring at all. But I just say that because it's like,
00:31:53
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Nothing is really going on, but my mind's like, I'm a very vata mind, which is like very imaginative. My mind is always doing something. I'm always reading something. I'm always pulling cards. I'm always learning. I'm always studying. Like it's never like I'm not ever doing something. I'm always doing something.
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I'm always doing self-care, meditating, doing something. I love it. But your thing might look like, oh, maybe you're someone who always travels. Maybe you're someone who's always going to new places and new experiences and that is what's really aligned for you and that's what's missing in your life. Or maybe you're someone who's meant to
00:32:30
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I don't know, fill in the blanks. So my point is, the point isn't to get to a place where like, oh, your life is boring and you don't hang out with anybody and you don't socialize. It's more like you do you and find what is super aligned. But if there's anywhere in your life that feels energetically yucky, where you feel stressed out,
00:32:50
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or you feel overwhelmed or you just feel like your needs are being met, that's where you can start to look at like, okay, what am I doing? That isn't really so aligned. And maybe you're someone who is extroverted and you thrive off of social interactions and that's what charges your batteries and maybe you're not doing that. And so you need to get out there and do that and start interacting with other people and that's going to make you feel really good. So we just have to really figure out what it is for us.
00:33:18
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And just know that it does come down to energetics at the simplest level. It comes down to energetics.
Deep Dive into Human Design Centers
00:33:27
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OK, so that's what I wanted to say about that. So now let's talk about the centers in human design. So I just wanted to really quickly touch on the difference of defined centers and undefined centers. So what are centers? So in human design, centers are the energetic hubs.
00:33:47
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that you can think of them as being corresponded to the chakra system. Sorry.
00:33:56
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Okay. I'm just like, my computer is almost like restarting. So I'm like, Oh my God, please don't. Okay. So when we think of the centers, you can think of them, um, almost think of them as like the chakra centers, right? But instead of seven, we have nine. So we have nine centers in our body graphs. And these are energetic hubs where energy is, it wants to do something there. Like it wants to do something or go somewhere. So if we look at it, we have just starting from the top.
00:34:27
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Starting from the top, we have the head center and the head center is a pressure center. So the pressure wants to figure things out. Okay. So this is like the inspiration that comes in and we really just want to figure things out.
00:34:45
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Then we go down to the Ajna center and the Ajna center is an awareness center. So this is really here to process questions. Okay. So the Ajna center is an awareness center. Then we go down to the throat center. The throat center is a manifestation center. So this is all about communication and action. Like this is where it wants to take the energy and it wants to create something. It wants to do something with this energy.
00:35:11
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Then we go down to the G Center. The G Center is the Identity Center. And so the Identity Center is really connected to like love, identity, and direction. And this is where the energy really wants to express itself in a way that is through our identity or through love and direction.
00:35:35
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And then we have the ego center. So the ego center or the heart center is a motor center. So this is really all about willpower, desire, motivation. And so the motor center wants to move energy.
00:35:50
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Then we have the solar plexus center. So the solar plexus is all about emotional, spiritual motivation. And this is a motor center. So again, it wants to move energy, but it's also an awareness center. Okay, so it wants to be aware of our emotional responses. It wants to be aware of spiritual motivation.
00:36:11
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Then we have the sacral center and the sacral center is also a motor center. So this is like regenerating motivation. So this is all about like creativity, fertility, sexuality, and it's all about the energy that's here to do or like to create. Then we have the spleenic center and the spleenic center is also an awareness center. And so this is all about processing health. Okay. So,
00:36:41
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This is all about like health, intuition, instincts. And then we have the root center, lastly, which is a motor center and a pressure center. So again, that's where energy comes in and it has this pressure to move energy up into another center. And this is really the pressure to grow the pressure for motivation.
00:37:05
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So when we have those centers, some of us will have them defined, which means it'll be colored in. And this means that we have consistent access to this energy. We produce our own energy here. It's really like the sun. The sun is always shining. It's always bright. It's always there no matter what. We know the sun is always on. Even when we can't see the sun, we know that it's on. And this is really what it feels like to have a defined center. You just know this energy is just a part of you.
00:37:34
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anywhere that you have a center that is white, that means that it's either undefined or completely open. If it doesn't have any of the gates defined, so like the numbers along the outside, if all of those are completely white too, that means it's completely open. And if it has a few gates or at least one gate, that means it's undefined. So the way that it works is,
00:37:59
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undefined or open centers doesn't mean that we don't have this energy. It just means that we have inconsistent access to it. So the way that it's going to show up for us is going to be different. It's more like the moon. The moon has different cycles. It has different phases. This energy, it'll express itself in different ways at different times. Okay. So it's just not consistent. And when we're
00:38:23
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with other people and we're interacting with their aura fields, we actually take in and amplify the energy of the undefined centers that we have. So for example, I have an undefined emotional solar plexus. So that means that again, I don't have that emotional wave. I'm pretty even keel when I'm by myself. But when I'm interacting with somebody else's aura,
00:38:50
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I can actually feel and amplify their emotions. So people that are, people that are, quote unquote, non-emotional beings that don't have that defined, sometimes we can actually feel more emotional than people with it defined because we're amplifying the feelings of others. And so, oh my God, do I feel feelings? Like, I feel feelings so freaking hard. And I think that's why
00:39:14
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I started drinking and partying at such a young age because that's one of the things I didn't want to feel. Like that's also why I used to be a people pleaser because I didn't want to feel these uncomfortable emotions. And I always wanted to protect the, I always wanted to like never rock the boat and just keep things very even, very like, Hey, I'll do whatever I need to do or say to keep you
00:39:40
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from having an emotional reaction because I don't want to feel your emotional reaction because it feels so uncomfortable for me because it's so intense. Um, so I've also done a lot of work around that and I've, I've really learning what are my emotions and what are other people's, which are going to talk about today with two examples that I have. Um, and also just another thing to say the center, the centers like I just described are the energetic hubs that are associated with whatever I just described.
00:40:10
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If you have any of the numbers around those centers defined, those are called gates and those are like very specific flavors of the way that that energy wants to express itself. It's like a filter or you can think of it as like putting on glasses. It's like, okay, like I'm putting on glasses and this is the way that my soul wants to experience this type of
00:40:35
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energy, and it's going to be consistent for the places that we have definition. So let me give you a great example. So if we look at, let's look at the Asuna Center. So Asuna Center, again, is going to be the second one from the top. And I have, the Asuna is the second one from the top. Again, that's an awareness center. So the energy wants to process questions.
00:41:05
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And I personally have number four. I personally have gate number four to find. And so gate number four really wants to answer why. Okay, so I have gate number four to find in my Ojna Center. And so this is called the gate of answers, or the mental solutions, or in the Yuching it's called youthful folly. And so this is,
00:41:33
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a Leo gate and it's really designed to create logical answers, not necessarily correct answers. Okay, so I, and this is also like a reflex, like the answers just come like a reflex. And so it's important for me to know that I'm not always right when I'm answering people's questions. But for some reason, I always am just there to answer people's questions.
00:41:56
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So I'm a very it's like it wants to express this energy wants to express is like a problem solver. But sometimes I can go looking for problems that don't need to be solved. This gate really has a fear of chaos. And so it's like, it wants to formulate logical answers.
00:42:16
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But mental anxiety will never allow this to happen. There's also a fear that I won't have the right answers. And so that's something that can come up a lot. But if we look at just the words or the themes of this gate, it's logical, reflex, possibility, projected, fear of chaos, sharing, problem solver, know it all energy, pressure. So again, if you think about it, if this is a Leo gate, that is someone who's always like, oh, I have the answers.
00:42:46
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It's like, it's very expressive. It's very like, oh, like I always want to try to find the answers for other people. So I just think it's funny, like the way that this expresses. So yeah, so that's kind of what it's like when you have definition in a gate. If you don't have any definition in a center, so like none of the gates are defined.
00:43:05
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then that just means that you don't have any real specific way to filter or color the way that you express that energy. So you actually have way more possibilities for wisdom because you don't have just a specific way that it's always going to express itself.
00:43:23
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So another thing I noticed when I do a lot of readings for my clients is when people are first learning about their human design, I find that people feel like it's a weakness to have a lot of white, a lot of undefined or open centers. But actually, you guys, this is extremely cool because wherever you don't have definition, you have the potential to be so wise.
00:43:51
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Because you take in and amplify that energy from so many different people they've ever come in contact with.
00:43:58
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So you have like so many different ways of expressing this energy, which makes you so freaking wise. It's not just like one defined way that you're only going to do it your way no matter what. It's like you're so open to all of the different possibilities. So this is like actually superpowers that you have. So it's nothing is wrong with having undefined or open centers. Um, it doesn't mean that you don't have this energy. It just means that it's inconsistent and you're going to experience it in many different ways.
00:44:30
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Okay, so why did I want to go in on that? I wanted to tell you about that because I wanted to talk about an experience that I had this weekend. And I wanted to kind of share the difference between what it's like having an undefined emotional center and really trying to understand what is my energy and what is someone else's energy. And as I've been, you know, really experimenting with my human design for the last couple of years, this is something that I'm like always constantly experimenting with.
00:44:59
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and trying to figure out because I've had so many clear examples in my life where I thought I was feeling something, but I learned that I was actually just picking up on the very intense emotions of someone else and amplifying it so strong that that's why it feels like it's coming from me, but it's actually not. And I had two examples where this came up this weekend and they were both different. So
00:45:24
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One, I can confirm I was absolutely feeling that woman's feelings. And two, and I'm going to teach you how I cut my process that I do to try to figure out if it's mine or not. And then the second one I realized was not mine, or was mine. I'm sorry, was mine. So this is the first one. And you know what I've noticed? For me, the feelings that I really feel amplified so strongly is anger slash rage.
00:45:54
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which feels like rage in my body, but I think it's really just like annoyance or frustration in the other person's body. But to me, it feels in my body like freaking rage. Like, oh, it feels so horrible. And then, um,
00:46:09
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sadness, like sadness, grief, loss. I feel those extremely amplified. And for me, you guys, this is very interesting. I wonder if you can relate, but for me, it's always tied around animals. So it's like the loss of an animal or an animal being hurt. Those are like really strong for me. And then also, which is kind of funny. I don't know if it's funny, but it's kind of odd. It's like older people. So I'm going to talk about them in a second.
00:46:37
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So this is the first example. So me and George went to, on Friday we went to the Dollar Tree store because he needed to get some envelopes and I forgot what else, something for his anime world business. So we went to checkout and then the girl asked us if we needed bags and we said yes please, we love bags.
00:46:59
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Oh, we also got toilet paper there. So she put everything in one bag, and then she was like, oh, perfect. Got everything in one bag besides this. And then she just put one of the toilet paper packs next to the bag. So she didn't put everything in bags, you know? And so she rang us up, George Payne's like, oh, can we please have another bag?
00:47:22
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And for some reason, that really upset her because I guess she was trying to put it all in one bag. In California, you do have to pay for bags. I think it's like 10 cents or something. So I don't know if that's what irritated her because we had already put in the pin number and the card went through before she finished the packing it. And so she wasn't able to charge us for the second bag. I don't know if this is what made her mad.
00:47:48
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Essentially, she was like, he was just very nice like, oh, can we please have a second bag? You know, we want to put everything in bags. And she got so upset from that that she she's like, yeah, sure. So she took the bag and kind of threw the bag like to me and just like threw it on top of the toilet paper and didn't put the toilet paper in there, which was kind of weird.
00:48:09
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And in that moment, I felt in my body, extreme rage, like, oh my gosh, I feel it in my stomach, like my solar plexus, mostly in my stomach, and also in my chest. And it's like, I can feel it in my entire body, this feeling of like,
00:48:29
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just I can't explain it other than rage of like and I wasn't even like offended or mad I thought it was a little bit like rude that she like threw the bag at me instead of putting it in the bag but I wasn't like
00:48:46
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not offended. I was just like, oh, thank you. And then I just put it in the bag myself. And they're like, thank you so much. Have a great day. And she's like, thank you. So in that moment, I was like, babe, did you feel that woman's rage? And he's like, Oh, because we went to the car and I was like, Oh my gosh, did you feel that woman's rage? Like I felt it. And he's like, he's like, yeah, I felt it too. I'm like, wait, but did you feel it in your body? Like a sensation or
00:49:11
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did you just feel like did you just know she was mad because of how she threw the bag at us and he's like oh I didn't feel it in my body he's like I just knew that she was mad at it like mad about it because how she threw the bag like it was pretty like rude and kind of like unreasonable and he's like but he's like I really didn't let it bother me at all because you know I just got done with my really long walk so he's like I'm pretty like zen doubt right now which I thought was so funny
00:49:35
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And I'm like, yeah, I don't know why I felt it so painfully in my body. And then we had already left, and we were talking about it. And the feeling immediately dissipated. So the way that I can tell you guys is being an undefined person. So I don't have this defined. That means that I take in and amplify the feelings of others. It's like an instant rush of the energy coming into my aura.
00:50:00
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It's like, I feel it, and then it passes. So it's like, even when we went outside and we were talking about it, I wasn't feeling that feeling anymore. I wasn't like, oh my god, she's so rude. I can't believe she threw that bag at me. And I wasn't creating my own stories and creating my own rage around how she handled that. It was really just an observation of like, oh my god, I felt so horrible in that moment.
00:50:25
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Did you feel that? You know, like asking George and George also has this undefined, which is why I really like to like talk about this with him. Even though he doesn't really know the terms of what I'm talking about, like he can, you know, tell me his own experience. And so that's where I was like, OK, interesting. So, you know, George must have his own like protections up and he must have already like he already went on a walk. So, you know, he was already kind of like really chill and like
00:50:54
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I don't know. I honestly can't, I don't know how to describe why I felt it more than him when we both have it undefined. I don't know. Some people just have like more intense feelings. Um, but I can definitely tell that that wasn't mine and that it was just hers and it felt really yucky. Like I was like really amplifying it. So
00:51:14
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Yeah, so how I can tell is that it just kinda goes away. And you guys, if you are undefined or if you are defined and you have a partner that's undefined or open, I would love to know your experience. Or if you have two of the same, maybe if you're both undefined, I would love to know if you guys ever experienced that where one of you really felt someone's stuff so strongly and the other person didn't. Or maybe you just knew, that's why I really like to ask him, did you feel that in your body or did you just know she was mad?
00:51:42
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And yeah, he was like, I just knew she was mad because of like how she acted. So it's fascinating. I don't know, but it was just interesting to me because that's how I can know that I was feeling her stuff. Then this is so interesting. So then we went to eat African food, like our favorite, favorite African food place. And it's on the San Diego State campus, like campus. And so we were eating and like when we were eating, it's a restaurant, but it's just on the campus.
00:52:10
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There's all these different stores and restaurants that anyone can go to. It's just in the general vicinity of the campus. So we were sitting inside and looking out. The whole wall is a window looking out on the campus of people walking. I don't know if there's dorms there or what it is, but it's a pretty busy pathway. And they were doing
00:52:32
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they were doing tours, like I did tours for new students with their parents. And it was like tour back to back to back, just like groups of like 15 to 20 parents and students just like walking on campus, like getting tours. Like it was like, boom, boom, boom. It was so busy. It was actually pretty like fascinating to watch. But as I was watching this,
00:52:52
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And I was seeing all of the new students, potential new students with their parents, walking on campus, learning all about it. You guys, for some reason, I literally started crying. I felt my heart just break open. To me, it was the sweetest thing ever. And it was just so sweet to see all the parents wearing the SDSU shirts. And I was just like, oh my god.
Managing and Understanding Emotions
00:53:17
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It just broke my heart open of how these parents just are so involved in their kids' lives and they just love them so much and care about them so much and they're here with them on this journey.
00:53:30
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to start school. And it just was so sweet because not everybody gets that with their parents. And so I just started crying. I was crying, tears were just streaming down my face. And I was like, dude, am I feeling the feeling of all of these parents' love for their kids?
00:53:49
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I was like, what is this? Like I didn't know what it was because it just really overcame me. It was just like, I could not stop crying and I felt it in my heart space and my stomach. It was like my heart and my stomach. And I was like, am I feeling this love that these parents have for their kids or am I feeling something else?
00:54:08
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I know it's funny because some of the chicken that we eat is really spicy. I don't really do well with spicy, so I actually get the sweet chicken, but it's still spicy for me. And so I was blowing my nose, and I think George thought that I was just blowing my nose from the spiciness, and I was just wiping off my tears because we were sitting next to each other.
00:54:30
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Like when we sit, like when we go somewhere and there's like a booth or like a table, it's so cute. Usually we sit next to each other. So I don't know if you sit like across from your person, but.
00:54:39
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like to sit next to each other so he couldn't he wasn't like looking at me we were both just like looking out into the distance and so I was just like eating and crying and like trying not to cry and just like wiping my tears away and then when we left um and it felt like that for like probably like two or three minutes and I was like this is so weird like why am I feeling this and I was like I'm not about to get my period I already had my period like usually I get very emotional uh around my period like right before I have my period
00:55:05
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So I was just like, okay, this is weird. And I was like, Oh, maybe it's like the lunar or like the eclipse season. You know, like maybe I'm feeling something about that. And then when we walked to the car, I was like, Oh my God, babe. I was literally just crying in there, like looking at the parents with their students. And he was like, Oh my God, really? He's like, why? I was like, I don't know because I felt like so much love from them. I was like, I don't know if I'm feeling their love or if I'm feeling sadness. I was like, I don't know what I'm feeling.
00:55:28
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And so in that moment, I wasn't really sure, right? I was like, am I feeling them or not? I was kind of far away. Like I don't think my aura and their auras were like connecting. Usually they say your aura, I think a healthy aura reaches about like six feet out, like in every direction around you. So I definitely don't think I was like in their auric field.
00:55:52
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So I was a little confused. I was like, am I feeling their love and appreciation for their kids and like their sadness and like of them like going off to college and like leaving them and starting the new chapter of their life? Like what am I feeling?
00:56:06
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So later, um, when I got home, I was like doing something else and then I, I meditated and then I started doing like reflections on it. I was like, okay, I want to, I want to dive into this. Like, why was that making me so emotional? And I actually uncovered that it was making me so emotional because first I was like, Oh, I wish I had that. I was like, Oh, just like the love. I felt like my heart broke open.
00:56:30
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from seeing the love of both parents supporting them. Because my parents divorced when I was in high school. And then I was like, oh, even just having the support of them at such a big life event. I was like, my parents didn't do that for me when I went to college. But then I remembered that my mom did, because I went to community college for the first 10 years. That's getting for the first however many years.
00:56:55
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But my mom did go with me when I moved to Bakersfield. She went with me. She drove all the way there with me to meet with my counselor and to check things out before I actually started my first day and moved there permanently. And so then I started feeling overwhelmed with this love and appreciation for my mom because she was one of those parents that I was seeing walking me through the campus, getting the tour. And I felt so loved and so supported. And then it brought up feelings of,
00:57:24
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Oh, my parents. But it also kind of brought up sad feelings of like, oh, my parents never really came to my sporting events because both my parents worked and worked a lot. So I never really felt like they came to like my sporting events. And I would never really look out and see them there. That's kind of like the memories that I have. And so it kind of broke my heart and in a good way to see parents who like
00:57:45
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are able to love their kids so much and take them through this chapter of their life. So that was just really beautiful. And then I think I was also feeling the feeling of like,
00:57:56
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new beginnings, starting a new chapter. And so in that moment, I got really emotional again when I was reflecting at my house and started crying a lot and just releasing a lot of emotions from that. And that's how I can tell that that was mine. Because generally, if it's someone else's feelings I'm picking up on, I'm not going to feel that when I'm outside of their energetic aura field. It's like if I'm feeling their stuff, it's passing through me. And I can allow it like a screen to come in
00:58:26
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and come out and just like kind of like that anger and rage that I felt like from the cashier lady and then with this I'm like okay if I'm being re-triggered by this I was obviously just like that was my own emotional trigger from something that my soul wants to look at and you know really contemplate and then be able to release.
00:58:43
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So I felt like I was able to really sit with that for a while, look at all the different angles of it, cry it out, and just release it, just have gratitude for my parents, for everything they've done for me, gratitude for the love that they have for their work, gratitude for all the ways they've been able to provide for me, and just gratitude for every parent who's doing the best they can. And then also what I want to do for my kids, I started going down the rabbit hole of how I want to show up for my future kids, and that just felt so beautiful that I was able to
00:59:12
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Be like, wow, I can have this. This is the other thing, you guys. Not only were we watching all of these students with their parents go on these tours, there's also a couple with their daughters sitting in the restaurant with us right across from us. She was clearly an SDSU student. I can hear them talking. I think this was her second semester on campus. She was filling her parents in on everything. It was so cute. The dad was wearing Converse.
00:59:39
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he was like an older dad and I was like oh my god he's so cute and like so hip and then like I don't want to say the word hip but he was just really cute with his converse and then the mom was wearing like an SDSU shirt like a proud mom and um that relationship just felt so sweet to me the way that they were like all interacting was like very close and like you can tell like
00:59:59
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they were a very close family. And I just loved how the parents were with her. And so I think that was also something that made me emotional. And I don't think I wasn't feeling any of their emotions at all because they weren't feeling any sort of sadness or it wasn't that. So yeah, it was just interesting because seeing them made me reflect on my own relationship with my parents. And then it also made me reflect on how I want to be as a parent. And it made me really emotional.
01:00:29
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And so yeah, so that's kind of the way that I can tell the difference. So I'm very curious for you, like if you're a non-emotional being, can you tell when something is yours and when something's not? Something else I've really noticed for me is
01:00:46
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anything that has to do with a dog, like a dog or a pet, mostly dogs being put down, I'm extremely emotional. I one time went to the vet to pick up some medicine for lemon, my mom's boxer. And when I came outside and got my car, I saw a woman walking outside, like holding a collar by itself and just like bawling. And so I knew that she just had to put down her dog. And so I instantly just started
01:01:15
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crying like I'm like it was horrible I felt the grief I felt the loss and for me
01:01:22
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I don't even think that it was because I was in her auric field. And at the time I thought I was feeling her emotions. I was like, Oh my God, like, wow, I'm really feeling her emotions. But I've realized that that happens to me all the time. Like if I see someone has put their dog down, if I see anything on like Facebook or Instagram or anyone talk about it, it instantly creates a huge emotional response in me because I've had to put down two of my own dogs. And I've always been someone very sensitive to animals and to animal death. Like, um, even when I watched
01:01:51
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I remember watching, I think this stems back to my childhood when I watched Babe, like Babe Pig in the City. I don't know if you guys ever saw that, but I think at the end, and then like little like, or is it Charlotte's Web? I think it's Charlotte's Web. It's the one where there's like the spider and then there's the pig and they have to put down the pig.
01:02:10
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But I just remember I was probably like eight years old crying to that movie, just heartbreak, um, crying to the Bassett and the Hound. Have you guys ever seen the Bassett and the Hound? I think it's like a Disney movie. I think one of those characters dies just crying. It's like something when animals, pets die. It just is like really, really hard for me. So I don't know if that's because I'm a Virgo rising and Virgos are like really related to like animals.
01:02:36
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And taking care of animals, is that something or am I making that up? I don't know.
01:02:41
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Anyways, so I just wanted to talk about that because I'm curious about your experience and how you can tell if something's yours, if something's not. Anything that isn't ours, just remember that we are a emotional, like think about it like a screen. So allow the emotions to come in and out instead of being a sponge and like soaking it up and then creating a story of like, oh my God, like now I feel angry and like, you know, holding that on when we don't need to hold on to it. We can just let it come in, come out,
01:03:09
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and then just let it dissipate. If you're around somebody who's very emotionally upset, angry, feeling feelings that don't feel good, notice if you can go away from them for 15 minutes and see if the feelings subside, that's how you can know it's not yours. It's like, okay, you're out of their energetic aura and letting it go.
01:03:32
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If you can regulate yourself and get back to feeling good and nothing, most likely it wasn't yours. The other thing I will say too is we still have emotions. We're still going to feel grief. We're going to feel lost. We're going to feel hurt if somebody does something that hurts us. We're going to still feel embarrassment. But one really cool thing that we can do, and this is also for my emotional beings, is work on our refractory period. So the refractory period is how long does it take for you?
01:04:01
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from feeling that emotion to allowing it to kind of dissipate and really come back to regulation, like, you know, emotional regulation. So that's something you can work on. The other thing I will say about people that are emotional babes that have definition and they have their
01:04:19
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Yeah, like emotional solar plexus defined is that your highs and lows that you're going to experience don't have to mean anything. And that's where I also have see where I do a lot of readings with my clients where they get really wrapped up on like feeling so bad or feeling so guilty for being in a low. But one thing that I really love that I learned from my teacher.
01:04:42
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my human design teacher who, um, is emotional. She has an emotional solar plexus is that when she accepts the lows and just accepts like, okay, I'm just in a low, it might take a couple of hours. It might take a couple of days, couple of weeks. It's gonna, I know that it's going to dissipate when she allows it. She says that she's allowed to, it allows her to get through it much quicker and much easier than creating stories or feeling bad about it and be like, Oh my God, like I was just feeling so good and I feel bad again. Like, you know, and creating those stories or,
01:05:12
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creating guilt or any sort of like wanting to be where you're not creates more like resistance. And then we kind of stay, you can stay in those cycles longer. So just being okay with it and just knowing like, Hey, this is just part of my life. And then finding ways to like really take care of yourself and like honor it and know that it's okay. And like, that's part of you and that's really beautiful. And then you're going to, again, come to a place where you're in an emotional, um, where you go up again. It's never just going to stay low.
01:05:40
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um so yeah so it's something really beautiful that she taught me that it doesn't have to have a story behind it because it absolutely doesn't so yay okay i hope that was helpful i hope that um
01:05:56
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can kind of start thinking about in your own life whether you are emotional or non-emotional how you feel feelings and if you know like are these your feelings are you amplifying others what you can do if you want to get out of their energy to try to get back to your own energy and just ways to really be reflective and go back and think about it later and see if it brings up an emotional response if it does and if you like really explore that like ask yourself questions meditate on it and you might see that it's actually just a trigger
01:06:22
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for your own emotions and then you can work through that. Feel the emotions, like cry, express it, expel it. If it's anger, like let yourself be angry, maybe like shake your body. If it's anger for its anxiety and just let it get out of you and dance, dance to something, put on music, move and allow it to just come through you. That's how we can let go of these emotions.
01:06:47
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But yay, okay, so I hope you have such a great week. I hope you have such a great week.
Connecting through Readings and Programs
01:06:56
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If you would love to schedule a human design or chain keys reading, I will put all of the links in my show notes. I am so happy with my new scheduling system. I feel like it looks so pretty, and then I feel like it just gives you more of a description of each of the different readings, so you can kind of go through those. So you can see the one-to-one readings that I offer,
01:07:16
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So the three different chain keys, readings, human design. I also am doing my remote Akashic Records readings, which I freaking love. Like these are just giving me so busy and so happy. The feedback that I've been getting is just like,
01:07:32
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It makes me so happy that I stepped into another part of myself and explored something that I didn't know I would be able to do. And it's just so rewarding to see like how this is really helping people and just it feels really good. So there are the remote Akashic Records readings. Those are really cool because we don't actually have to meet in person. So if you're like really busy or if there's something you just really want guidance on now,
01:07:55
Speaker
It's perfect. It's mini. It's only 30 minutes. It's only $88. You can ask me three questions about literally anything. Purpose, business, um, content, relationships, love, moving somewhere, health, like anything, anything you can think of, I got you. And then, um, yeah, I have my workshop coming up. So my Jean Keys purpose workshop on the 14th. So that's in two Sundays from now, which is going to be so fun because I'm going to guide you through
01:08:25
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the genius sequence or the activation sequence of your gene keys, and I'm going to show you exactly how to get your four prime gifts, how to look at the shadow states, the gift states, and the enlightened states, the city states, so that you can really move through those shadows and live your purpose and know what your four prime gifts are. It's going to be very interactive, so that's going to be really fun.
01:08:49
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I also have spots open for my one to one mentorship, which I'm sorry about. So the name is sacred codes and it is a three month one to one mentorship. If you're interested in that you can just DM me at I am Alyssa May, which I'll put in the link below as well my Instagram, but essentially it's for anybody who just wants to
01:09:09
Speaker
get going on their purpose. If you want to start a podcast, if you want to figure out what your purpose is, if you want to ask for the promotion, look for a new job, anything that you want, help on getting something initiated and started. We're diving all into your human design, into all of your gene keys. It's going to be Akashic Records readings. It's going to be cutting cords and healing any ancestral ties that have been holding you back from wanting to be seen or
01:09:37
Speaker
any fears that are coming up around just being your highest self and living your purpose. We're going to heal all of that. There's subconscious rewiring, guided meditations that are going to be sent to you, personalized, also remote Akashic readings. It's going to be incredible. It also includes Voxer so we can talk during business hours for the full three months. And it's also all around setting goals and
01:10:01
Speaker
getting going on something that you want to bring into this world because honestly you guys I wanted to start this podcast for like two years and I was so scared and I also was just like coming up with every story and reason of why I didn't feel ready to do it and the truth is you will never feel ready like you're never gonna feel ready for the things that you really want to do it's gonna feel scary it's gonna be uncomfortable so why not have someone that is like there with you every second and you're in your back pocket to encourage you
01:10:30
Speaker
to give you guidance to tap into your energetic signature so that you can do things and create things from a place that are so aligned to your soul blueprint so that you can do things that feel easeful and like you're not copying anybody or trying to do things the way that other people do it and it doesn't feel good to you. It's like, no, let's find out how you're actually made to show up, create something that's sustainable and something that's really tuned into your energetic frequency so that you can do it and start to express yourself and live your purpose and live a life that you freaking love.
01:11:00
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And yeah, and like I said, once you set goals and actually start taking action, that's where the fears come up. That's where like all of the other limiting blues are going to come up. So we have tools that we'll be able to do together to cut those chords to
01:11:15
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remove any limiting fears, replace them with the new identity of you so that you can just fully shine and be your fullest self. So I'm super excited for this. Again, that is my three month one to one mentorship. You can just send me a DM on Instagram. I don't have anything like posted publicly. Um, I'll probably post it once we're done with the clip season at the end of April, but I would, I can take three people at a time. So if you're interested, I would love to have you.
01:11:43
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And that is it. Oh my gosh. 1-11-01 on the clock. Okay, you guys, I hope you have the best freaking week. Take care of yourself. Take care of your energy. Do something that's nice for your body, your soul, your mind, your spirit. And love you so much. See you next time. Bye-bye.
Conclusion and Listener Engagement
01:12:02
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Thank you so much for being here and listening beauty. If you enjoyed this episode, please be sure to leave a review and share the episode with a friend who you know will love it. We can connect further on Instagram at I am Alyssa Mae. So come say hello, leave a comment of your favorite takeaway on my most recent post and I cannot wait to connect. Thank you so much and I will see you next time.