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16. Empowering Highly Sensitive + Intuitive Individuals to Embrace Their Spiritual Gifts: with Psychic Medium Rebecca Lyons
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Hello beauties!
Join me this week as we dive into all thing's spirituality with the lovely Rebecca Lyons.
Rebecca Lyons is a psychic medium and empath, empowering intuitive and highly sensitive individuals to embrace their spiritual gifts to reach their highest potential. Specializing in Akashic Record readings, she guides others to explore the proud library of their souls. You'll be shocked at what you are capable of when you step into your power!
Rebecca gives us all the juicy details on:
-what life was like growing up as a highly sensitive empathic Projector in a family of Generators
-what it was like working in corporate surrounded by drinking culture
-the synchronistic steps that lead Rebecca to learn Tarot and the Akashic Records and start her own Soul aligned business, taking the leap and leaving corporate to work for herself healing others
-a serious near-death illness that took her even deeper into her spiritual path and the lessons she learned around boundaries, health, energetic protection and more!
Connect with Rebecca at: www.instagram.com/rebecca.annmarie.lyons
Rebecca Lyons (mykajabi.com)
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Introduction and Episode Overview
00:00:02
Speaker
Okay, hello everybody. Welcome back to the It's Happening for Me podcast. I am your host, Alyssa, and I am so happy you're here today. Today is going to be a super juicy episode.
Meet Rebecca: A Spiritual Journey
00:00:14
Speaker
I have such a beautiful friend, Rebecca.
00:00:17
Speaker
And Rebecca is a spiritual practitioner that specializes in the Akashic Records. And we met a really cool way, actually, through a Sober Girls Guide. So our sobriety journeys have been super important to both of us. And then that's actually what catapulted us into our spiritual journeys. And so I'm just so excited to talk about everything, like spiritual. We're going to be talking about sobriety, how that launches us into spirituality. We're going to be talking about life as a projector and what it's like to be an entrepreneur.
00:00:47
Speaker
Um, being a projector, we're going to talk about healing, how serious illnesses can also really help us step into a whole rebirth portal. And we're going to talk all about the Akashic records. I have so many questions for you because I actually have a lot of people in my community that are excited to learn about that. And yeah, and so much more. So I just, hello, welcome Rebecca. I just want you to introduce yourself.
Understanding Akashic Records
00:01:11
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Yay. Thank you. Oh, my gosh. Everything you're saying, I'm like, yeah. So I am Rebecca Lyons. I am based in the UK. I live in England and I am a I guess I kind of describe myself as like a spiritual practitioner, Akashic records reader. I read the records and I teach people how to read the records for themselves and how to read the records for other people.
00:01:39
Speaker
because it's such a mind-blowing profound like experience I was like I can't just keep doing this myself I need to show people how to do it too so I can build this little army of like Akashic Records angels um I also read tarot and um yeah I am very entrepreneurial
00:02:02
Speaker
but all spirituality all spirituality really deep stuff all like personal development and yeah like sobriety all those things anything that connects me and helps me connect other people to their highest self their highest potential um and just to live a life where i mean i think because i come from such a limited
00:02:28
Speaker
previously limited mindset that now working with the Akashic Records has just blown my mind that now I'm like, right, there is so much possible, but it's can I hold it? Can I have it?
The Sobriety and Spirituality Connection
00:02:44
Speaker
Am I worthy of it? So I was just working on that pretty much every day. Yeah.
00:02:50
Speaker
I love that so much. I love too about like how you say that you have to work on it every day because it's not like a lot of people think that we can just do like a ceremony or just meditate like once or twice or whatever and like we're past all the limiting beliefs but it takes work every single day to like keep that muscle strong so I love that so much.
00:03:09
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Yeah. I always say to people, it's like a lifestyle. I'm like, when I teach people the records, I'm like, it's a lifestyle. Like you can't, I can't show you how to do it. And then you don't practice on your own because you're not going to get your own relationship with it. It's like, you have to be curious. You have to keep going back to it. And we're energetic beings. So we're always changing more shifting. So we're constantly changing. So like, yeah, nothing is, nothing stays the same, like nothing.
00:03:40
Speaker
Yes. Can you share with us what your life was like before you had the spiritual awakening? Like what life was like when you were still drinking alcohol and kind of like the difference that you see in yourself and like how that even led you to where you're at now?
00:03:56
Speaker
Yeah, okay, so much to say. So I actually really enjoy talking about it because I always used to talk about my story because it was like new to me, like my transformation and changing. And then I kind of was just like living my life and I kind of just forgot about my story. And then like the more I talk to different people and I come on podcasts and I share my story, I'm like, oh my gosh, like it's so cool for me to like hear it too. So,
00:04:22
Speaker
Yeah, so I started drinking alcohol when I was 13, which is very young. I grew up in a small town in England. It's just what you would do, like kids would just be drinking. It was like the 2000s, kids were drinking.
00:04:40
Speaker
Um, and you know, I started drinking at a time when I was like becoming a woman becoming like my hormones were coming out, you know, like I was developing and it was such a critical time and I just completely numbed myself. So.
00:04:58
Speaker
Having done so much work now, being very into spirituality and personal development, having my spiritual awakening, doing a lot of ancestral healing and inner child healing and stuff like that, I realized that I'm so sensitive and I'm a mental projector, which we'll get into, right? Which makes sense. So I'm so, so, so sensitive. And I always used to think there was something wrong with me. So I drink alcohol because alcohol gave me confidence.
00:05:27
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And I started doing drugs. I was just...I just didn't know who I was. So I really like...
00:05:37
Speaker
I'm sure a lot of people can relate to this. I blocked out a lot of my childhood. I don't remember a lot of my childhood. And then I spent most of my teenage, no, sorry, I spent all of my teenage years pretty much drinking. So before my, I had my spiritual awakening during my Saturn return, which is typically between the age of like 27 and 30. I had my Saturn return early when I was about 27.
00:06:03
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So I was just living my life, I was working in London, I had a new relationship and I was working in recruitment and it was such a heavy drink culture in London and in sales in recruitment.
00:06:22
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So I was just, yeah, you know, like it was just normal. I was just like, great. They have a free bar on a Thursday. Cool. So, you know, very social, very extra, extroverted when I was drinking. And I needed drink to give me confidence because I had such bad social anxiety, but I didn't know I had social anxiety. I just thought I was shy. And yeah, when I had my spiritual awakening, my body couldn't take the alcohol anymore.
00:06:51
Speaker
So I was very physically rejecting the alcohol. I would just be crying. I'd be drinking and I'd be crying and I'd be sad. And I was just like, you know, it wasn't fun anymore. It wasn't fun for me to drink anymore. And I would get blackout drunk. I would do stuff that I regretted and I would just have so much shame and guilt and it was just this vicious cycle of shame and guilt and shame and guilt and shame and guilt.
00:07:18
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So, yeah, before everything changed, I was a completely different person. Like, completely different. I don't even recognise that person now for me. And I would hate to be her anymore because she was such a shell of a person.
00:07:38
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Because from such a young age, she numbed herself and distracted herself from these powerful gifts that she had, this sensitivity, because she was told that sensitivity was weakness. You know, oh, get over it. Just ignore it. Don't be so sensitive. Like, I would hear that over and over and over again. I just couldn't take it anymore. So I drank alcohol. And that completely took away my psychic abilities, my empathy, everything.
00:08:08
Speaker
I was just a lost soul. So yeah, thank God for my spiritual awakening. And now I'm
Social Pressures and Spiritual Insights
00:08:16
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just, yeah, I'm such a different person. Yes. Oh my God. It's crazy how similar our stories are. Like just when we started drinking, why we drink, like just getting that confidence and
00:08:27
Speaker
feeling like not knowing what social anxiety is. Like me too, I used alcohol to feel cool. Like it made me feel like, wow, like everyone likes me. I love being alive for the party. And then like also working in a male dominated industry where like everyone drinks and it's just like, it keeps, it's so normalized in every part of our society. And it's almost like we're the weird ones when we don't drink, which is just so stupid, right? A hundred percent. I felt like when you were saying that, it's like we became a victim of, um, what's the word? Like we became a victim of like,
00:08:58
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The trap, we fell into the trap, right? It's like, that's the trap. And yeah, when you change, everyone's like, oh my God, who do you think you are? And it's just like, uh, I'm just trying to like find myself and be happy and healthy. Like, why are you taking offense to that? You know, like everyone gets so offended when you want to stop drinking.
00:09:18
Speaker
So yeah, that's tough too, you know, because when you are a people pleaser, when you're very sensitive, and when you've used alcohol as a crutch, then when you come away from it, it was so hard for me to come away from it. It took me many attempts to stop drinking, many, many attempts, and that made me feel even worse. But at the same time, like saying no to people,
00:09:43
Speaker
Like, that was really hard for me. So when people were like, oh, go on, just have a drink, like I'd cave in all the time and then I'd be really mad at myself. So it took a couple of years for me to come out of that vicious cycle and to gain like self-worth and boundaries and to be able to say no and be and FOMO, you know, I thought I was missing out on so much. And now I'm like, hell no. You're missing out.
00:10:11
Speaker
Yes. Yes. Um, I want to know what your, okay. What is your perspective on like the spiritual side of what happened to us? Like when we drink, because I had this experience where, um, okay. So, you know, um, what are they called? You know, sleep paralysis, how they say like sleep paralysis is a thing. So when I was like really in my dark, like drinking days, like depressed and just like feeling like really shitty.
00:10:39
Speaker
I would have like sleep paralysis but I would literally feel like I saw almost like a demonic thing like kind of over me and it would like happen to me at different houses like it would be at the apartment I lived at and my mom's house and my friend's house and it started happening to her too and we were both like really drinking a lot so I was like
00:10:57
Speaker
And then I read this book before that was talking about how like kind of like lower dark like entities entities kind of hang out around like clubs or bars because something about like where maybe if we're blacked out like maybe we're not fully conscious or in our body so like things can come into us. Have you ever heard of anything like that or like what do you think about it?
00:11:17
Speaker
Yeah, I have. So I, have you heard of, I think if I'm saying this right, it's called Jezebel and it's from the Bible or it's from, I could be totally wrong. It could be a different religion. I'm so sorry if I'm wrong, but this is like going back like five or six years I got told about this where when you drink alcohol, your spirit comes into you and that's why you get like jealous or you might do something like,
00:11:47
Speaker
if you're drunk and you're with your partner, you might start flirting with someone else. Like there's these traits that come through when we're drinking that is meant to be this like spirit that comes into your body and makes you do certain things that is like out of character. And this goes along with, because I've been involved in so many sober communities and there's so many different beliefs and everything like that, right? So I've had a lot of different
00:12:15
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opinions on things. And this specific person was saying how the real you doesn't come out when you're drunk. It's like the traumatized, you know, like, unhealed version of you can come out when you're drunk because you have no inhibitions and it just comes out. So I think that that could be true with the whole like, it's not your true personality that comes out when you're drunk.
00:12:40
Speaker
I also am starting to believe myself that when we drink and when we do drugs we can, our spirits can get hijacked or our bodies can get hijacked. I know like Sharm and Derek shares a lot about people doing ayahuasca and that opening portals and bringing
00:13:03
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spirits through, like not so positive spirits through. And you know what, I can't tell you 100% if that is sure is real or not, but in my opinion, there's something like not right about alcohol. There is something that's just not right. The advertising, the grooming, the glamorization of it, when really, if you think about it, a lot of it tastes like shit. We just tell ourselves it tastes nice.
00:13:31
Speaker
A lot of it, it's called a spirit, right? And I'm very much believing in like, things are right in front of our eyes sometimes, we just don't believe it or see it. So I do believe that if we are abusing alcohol, for example,
00:13:52
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or abusing drugs, you know, we're not like sacred in ceremony with something, then I do personally believe, yeah, you can attach to these darker spirits. And you know, if you think about like a bar or a club, a lot of the people that go there, they're escaping or they're numbing, right? They've had a hard day, so they want to have a drink to just like take the edge off, or they've just come out of a really bad relationship, or they hate their job, or
00:14:20
Speaker
they've had a fight with someone. Oftentimes when people are drinking it's to forget something or to escape something or to numb. So I think then that can invite in these darker energies that feed off of that, feed off of it. And it can also happen to people who aren't drinking.
00:14:39
Speaker
who are very much stuck in a very maybe like negative cycle like you know they call it a dark night of the soul not that a dark night of the soul is purely about evil spirits or anything like that but i believe that as an energetic beings we do attract different energies to us
00:14:58
Speaker
I often do energy cleanses for myself, for my clients, cutting cords, removing entities. So yeah, I would say I do believe that to be true, but I can't say like 100%, you know? Yeah. No, I love that so much. That's exactly like kind of what my intuition was feeling about it because it's like,
00:15:20
Speaker
You're right. It's like when you're at these places, it's like people are in kind of like their lowest like place or maybe even they're celebrating something, but it's like they're kind of wearing a mask of themselves and they're not necessarily like their true self. So I feel like it makes a lot of sense that it would like invite in different stuff.
00:15:38
Speaker
Yeah, I'm like, why do you want to get shitfaced if you're celebrating, you know? Exactly. And not remember it. Yeah. And my 30th birthday, I had a party in Liverpool Street in London, and I was so nervous because social anxiety. I didn't eat anything all day, then everyone was buying me like Prosecco and shots, and I got so wasted.
00:16:01
Speaker
I had to be carried out before like 10 pm of my own birthday party. My friends were like, oh my gosh, how are you? You're looking so well. And I just broke down. I was like, I hate my life. I'm like, I'm so unhappy. That was like my lowest point. This is when my spiritual awakening had already begun and I was in a dark night of the soul, which is like a period of
00:16:23
Speaker
feeling very disconnected from myself, from source, just feeling very alone, like no one understood me. Because I'd had such a drastic transformation, such a drastic change. I was like, who am I? So yeah, I, you know, I was celebrating my 30th birthday, but I wasn't celebrating my 30th birthday. I'd put a party in because I thought that's what you do.
00:16:46
Speaker
I didn't enjoy it for a minute. Yeah. A hundred percent. And okay. So you, that was the lowest time of your life. And then you were already kind of doing your spiritual awakening. And now what, like what, what were the things that you got into her? Like, was it Akashic records or like, how did you start like finding the tools that you love so much? Yeah.
00:17:07
Speaker
Okay, I have really fun stories. I'll try and keep them short because they're very synchronistic. So I had my spiritual awakening and I knew I didn't want to work in recruitment.
Career Transition to Spiritual Practice
00:17:18
Speaker
I knew I didn't want to work for someone else, but my mind was so limited. I was like, what am I going to do? I have to work for someone else. I didn't believe I was worthy of working for myself and I didn't go to university.
00:17:31
Speaker
So I was like, if I didn't go to university, then I can't do hardly any jobs. I thought that the pool of jobs available to me was so small. So luckily I started branching out. I started going to like networking events in London all around like wellness, health. Oh, actually, sorry, that's one of the things. So
00:17:53
Speaker
I entered the ballot and I got into the London Marathon, which is like a very famous marathon. And it's very, very hard to get in through the ballot. So an old housemate had convinced me to sign up, which I never, ever wanted to do the marathon. And then I got in and I was like, oh my God, I'm going to have to do this. So I started training for the marathon. That's what helped me cut down on the alcohol because I was running so much.
00:18:19
Speaker
And then that got me into wellness. I was then I was like, oh my God, I'm not hungover on the weekends. What do I want to do? I want to like make food. And I was like, you know, experimenting with things and really enjoying it. So I was like, right, I want to work in the wellness space. I want to be a personal trainer or a Reiki practitioner or I want to be a nutritionist.
00:18:40
Speaker
So I was like going through all these different ideas, going to these networking events, really putting myself out there because I was very shy and I wasn't drinking at these events. So I was like very timid at first and then I started getting used to it and I would speak to different people.
00:18:56
Speaker
and then i signed up to this course to figure out what i wanted to do in wellness and that's when i realized i wanted to become a coach so i then studied coaching and then i was studying coaching and i was in my apartment one day and this voice literally said to me you're going to learn tarot and i was like
00:19:18
Speaker
What? Like, I'd never had the urge to learn Tarot before. I was intimidated by Tarot because there's so many cards to learn. And then me being me, like Taipei personality, I was like, OK, am I going to learn online? Who's going to teach me? Going to like literally Google it. And then the voice was like, no, the teacher will come to you in very soon. You don't need to worry about it. So I was like, OK.
00:19:44
Speaker
So then, fast forward like a week or two, a friend of mine who was a therapist, she was going to this event and she invited me. And it was really far away. It was raining that day. I didn't have hardly any money. I wasn't feeling well. There were so many things for me to be like, not to go. Even she was like, honestly, you don't have to go. It's a bit of a pain to get there. And I was like, something inside of me is just like, I'm going to come.
00:20:10
Speaker
So I went and when I was there, there was a woman who had a stall and she was like a witch. She had like, you know, crystals and sage and dream catchers. And I was like, oh my gosh. So I went up to her and I was like, do you teach Tarot? And she goes, yeah. And I was like, will you teach me how to read Tarot? And she goes, absolutely. You can start tomorrow.
00:20:34
Speaker
Oh my gosh. So that's how I learned Tare, right? And then fast forward. And then honestly, she said to me, I've never taught anyone who's just picked it up like you have. She was like, you've done this before in another lifetime. I was like, I don't know why, but I find it so easy. I enjoy it. I'm very, I get so much when I'm channeling, I get so much information that comes through. So I started reading for all these people that I'd met in these networks.
00:21:01
Speaker
and I was just busy and I was getting really amazing feedback, reviews, word of mouth and it just spread. I just started reading for so many people. Then, fast forward like a year or two, I had this urge to go to Bali and like in my head I was like, you can't go to Bali, you can't afford to go to Bali, you're never going to go to Bali, it's so far away.
00:21:22
Speaker
But something inside of me was like, no, no, no, no, no, we're going to go. I'm just going to ignore that voice. And I did. I booked my flight first. I was going to go to this retreat. But the woman who was running it turned out to be like what I like to call like a spiritual narcissist, where she was not sincere and genuine. And luckily, I found out just before
00:21:43
Speaker
So I'd already booked my flights to Bali and I decided I was still going to go, but I was just going to do my own thing. I was just going to travel alone and I was going to book the hotel for like the first three nights and then I was going to meet people there and I was just going to see what happens because Bali, like the places I was going to, like Ubud, it's like there's not really very, people don't really drink. People are like, there's not really nightlife. It's very spiritual. It's very wellness. It's very like healthy living. So I went there.
00:22:12
Speaker
and it was my birthday and the day before my birthday I did this course called Cosmic You and the last day of the course he did an Akashic Records meditation and when he said Akashic Records I went, what's that? I'd never heard the term Akashic Records before
00:22:32
Speaker
And he goes, oh, you know, it's just where everything that's ever happened to your soul is stored. And I was like, what? And like, that was my thing. Like, I always wanted the answers on things. And I was so unsure of myself that as soon as he said that, something in my head was like, oh, my God. And then it just aligned and honestly came back from Bali. I learned how to read the records and I just started reading. And since then, I've just been reading and reading and reading and reading. And I love it.
00:23:02
Speaker
and it's yeah it's just so it's like really cool synchronistic ways yeah.
00:23:08
Speaker
Oh my God, I love that so much. And I feel like what's like so beautiful and like important in your story is that you kept taking action. It's like you didn't just wait for things to happen to you. Yes. It's like you put yourself out there. You went to these networking events when you were uncomfortable from not drinking and it's like you were meeting people, you started reading for them. Like all of these things, it's like you actually took the aligned action, which I think a lot of people sometimes don't do. And so it's just crazy how it unfolded.
00:23:35
Speaker
Yeah, and something I'll say on that actually is that I really did. I threw myself into these, I like to call them networking events. It was before COVID when online communities and in-person communities were forming.
00:23:51
Speaker
And then Covid happened and loads of them were built. But this is just before then. And I was I happened to be one of the first members of this community because my mentor at the time just ran. I just randomly messaged her and I was like, I'm really bored this weekend. You know, do you know of any events? And she goes, yeah, I'm going to this one. I can bring a plus one.
00:24:11
Speaker
And I was like, great. So I went to it and I was introduced to these people who were like, in my eyes, way more advanced than me. They were so confident. They were coaches. Like one of them was doing kinesiology. One of them was like a mentor. One of them was like an author. They were like PTs with like huge followings on Instagram. I was like starstruck. You know, I was like, whoa, what am I doing here? I felt like such a fraud.
00:24:34
Speaker
And, but I kept going and I kept going to these meetings and they really empowered me and inspired me. And I remember sitting at the meetings and thinking like, oh my God, like I don't have a purpose because I didn't, as in I do have a purpose, but I didn't know what my career purpose was. I knew I wanted to help people, but I didn't know how. And there was all these people speaking and sharing about how, who they are and what they've done. And I was like, I've done nothing.
00:25:04
Speaker
I don't have anything worthwhile to share with these people. And I literally fast forward a year, I was speaking on stage in front of hundreds of people with the same community talking about my story and how I'd gone from within a year from literally having no idea what I wanted to do and issues with alcohol to being self-employed, like successfully reading tarot and coaching people, having my own
00:25:30
Speaker
running moon ceremonies, sober circles, doing all of these things like crying on stage, talking to people about how it changed. And everyone was like crying as they were listening to me share my story. And like, that's what I want to say to people. Like you can be like in a dark night at the soul, you can be so confused and like, oh my God, who am I? What do I have to bring to the table? And I swear in one year I was on stage sharing and it was just like incredible.
00:25:57
Speaker
That's so crazy. Oh my God, it's such a good, it's such a great testimonial. How did you, okay, so like, how did you take the leap of leaving your corporate job then and to like working for yourself? Like, and how did you feel? Like, was that really scary? Did you create some sort of like plan? Like, how did you do it?
00:26:15
Speaker
Okay, so I hated almost all of my jobs where I'd been employed because I have the mind of ADHD. I cannot focus on things for long, especially if I'm not interested in the topic.
00:26:33
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so you know my emails would build up and they'd ask me to do things and it would be the most simple thing and I'd logically know how to do it but I couldn't bring my body to like actually do the task so I would get in trouble all the time with my employers they'd be like you're so gifted and you're you can do this and you can do that but you don't do it and I'd be like
00:26:52
Speaker
I know. I'm so sorry. I don't know what to do. And towards the end of being employed, I was so in the world of wellness. I was studying to be a coach. I was studying tarot. So as naughty as this is, I was at work practicing and studying those things.
00:27:13
Speaker
So I had no, my throat chakra was completely blocked. I could not speak up. I, there were things that were happening that weren't fair, but then at the same time, I was also not being like my best, the best employee. So because I wasn't being the best employee, I wasn't sticking up for myself in situations that were very unfair, that still, you know, I should have been sticking up for myself in. So I'd come home every day and I'd say to my boyfriend, I'd be like, I hate it.
00:27:41
Speaker
I don't want to work there anymore. I'm so miserable, but I can't leave because the thought of leaving a secure full-time job was terrifying because in my mind, how am I going to make enough money to pay my rent? How am I going to make that much money? I was on a decent salary.
00:27:59
Speaker
um so it was terrifying and I have so much empathy for people who are in the position of transitioning from a full-time job to being self-employed and a lot of people will say just jump and the universe will catch you and I don't believe in that because when I was actually made redundant it all happened to be fair in a very good way to me but my ego was very bruised so they let me go
00:28:23
Speaker
I'd wanted to be let go, but I didn't have the power to say that. So the universe did it for me. So I got made redundant, but they were so sweet. They offered me three months pay. They paid for all my holiday pay. They paid me back for like I'd got an annual train card to get in and out to the office. And they got me like they had like a leaving thing for me and got me a leaving gift. So it was like so sweet. And I was like, wow.
00:28:50
Speaker
So it was very good in that way. Then, pretty much as soon as I got let go, I went to Bali, so this trip that had to Bali, so that's when I got introduced to the Akashic Records. So when I went to Bali, I met another woman there as well, and we started a business together. We started an e-commerce spiritual business together.
00:29:10
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So pretty much going from being full-time employed to working for myself, I was just working on this business with her, I was doing my readings, and I was making enough money, apart from a couple of months when my boyfriend really had to chip in, so I was very blessed to have him there as well.
00:29:31
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But I knew, like, if it didn't work out, I could have gone home to my parents. I was lucky enough to have that position. But it did. It did work out. But I had to trust and I did have to work my arse off, which burnt me out being a projector, right? I was working. Oh my gosh.
00:29:49
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More hours than a generator would be working, you know, I was just working grinding because I thought that's what I had to do. So it was very tough for me and I was going through health issues at the time as well. So I was very stressed.
00:30:05
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And the stress of that time caught up with me and has really affected me mentally and physically. So I say to people just like, be careful. But at the same time, you do have to have an element of trust. So it's hard. It's like this balance between trusting and taking the leap. So yeah, I don't know. That's my take.
00:30:28
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Oh my god, I love it so much. Like I relate to everything so much that you're saying and I feel like where I'm at now is like your past self, where it's like I'm in the transitional period, you know, I'm still working corporate. I love the people I work with. It's the job is so easy for me. But like, I also like work on a lot of stuff like spiritual stuff while I'm working like, but I feel like it's like,
00:30:51
Speaker
I so resonate with like things come in and my body doesn't want to do it. And it's just like, I don't physically want to do this. It's so easy for me to do it. And like, I'll just like kind of block my time where I spend like two hours and just get things done because it's like, I just like don't want to do it. But anyways, I love that so much. I love having like the trust element. I love saying like, I think it is dangerous to tell people just leap and just like,
00:31:13
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quit your job and everything will work out. And like, it doesn't make sense. A lot of people go into credit card debt if they don't have some sort of like plan or like savings. So I love that so much. Yeah. I think that it would work out if we didn't get in our own way. Like for me, I thought that it had to be done a certain way. So I made it so much harder for myself. So like the universe did catch me, but I didn't, I didn't know that.
00:31:37
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So that's why it's difficult because everyone has their own different limiting beliefs and securities and fears. So like for some people they can jump and they're like, Oh my God, it's the best thing that ever happened. But they might have come from a been a childhood where they were really like nurtured and they didn't have like anxious attachment or like anything like that. Do you know what I mean? But for me, I was like,
00:32:01
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you know, losing my mind. And, but at the same time, you know, it's built me into who I am now. So yeah. Yes. Oh my God. Okay. So you did that. You found me Akashic Records. And then is that where you feel like every, like, okay. So you got to that place. Where did you get to the place where you ended up getting really sick or like, how does that go into the story? Yeah. So I,
00:32:31
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I've always sort of had digestive issues since I was little and I believe that's because I had such low self-esteem.
Health Challenges and Spiritual Rebirth
00:32:41
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So my solar plexus, my self-worth, my ego, everything like that. I was, you know, at the beginning of my healing journey, I would see these different psychics and healers and they'd tell me,
00:32:53
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wow you've got such low self-esteem you need to work on your self-esteem and i was like yeah but how like how like i i don't know how and no one would tell me really how nothing resonated with me um and i believe that that gave me a lot of digestive issues i would hold on to things because being a sensitive person i would like
00:33:16
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I would see the depth of things that people did to me, not realizing that they hadn't thought that deeply about it. They weren't going to that depth. It was me. I had a lot of self-hatred inside of me, a lot of self-hatred. That's why I drank and then the alcohol gave me even more self-hatred because of the stupid things I would do.
00:33:39
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So for me, when I was about 26, I started to realize like, something's not right. I also had an eating disorder from a sort of a young age. I kind of, I actually didn't even know I had an eating disorder until I was about
00:33:59
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30 maybe 31 um and I remember I told my mom and some friends from school and they were like yeah I kind of knew you had an eating disorder and I was like oh okay I didn't I genuinely didn't um so then that was really overwhelming and it was all related to food what could I control I could control my food so I would go from being like binge eating super unhealthy things
00:34:25
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to then very rigid strict orthorexia like very clean foods and I because I'm such a like I'm an intellectual person even though I'm very spiritual I'm very intellectual too so I would research you know diets the best ones to to have and and do
00:34:46
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So for a year, I did no alcohol, no gluten, no dairy, no sugar, no processed foods for a whole year. And my body looked great, but my mind was so miserable because I'd cut so many food groups out. And I didn't know what I could eat and what I couldn't. I couldn't eat and I was overworking and I was stressed. So it was just like,
00:35:09
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I was just bombarding my body with so much stress. So then, yeah, from, I started seeing people, I started seeing like Chinese medicine practitioners, acupuncture, naturopathic doctors, herbalists, actual Western medicine doctors, I'd have colonoscopies, MRI scans. They'd check me for SIBO and all these different things and it would come back
00:35:37
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It would just come back clear. And I was like, what is going on? Because I have all these symptoms. And then it wasn't until October this year that I had to go to A&E, or as you guys call it, the emergency room, because I was in so much pain.
00:35:53
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And they thought I had like picked up a deadly virus. They thought I had like salmonella or like maybe my appendix was going to burst or something because I was in so much pain. My body went into like septic shock. I was hyperventilating. They had to give me morphine. Like they, it was so intense.
00:36:09
Speaker
And then when they did the CT scan, it came back as colitis. And I was like, oh my God. So it was like, first of all, I was like, well, I wasn't making it up the whole time. I was obviously having flare ups, but then when they did the internal examinations, I just hadn't had a flare up at that time, right? Because I was probably eating really good.
00:36:30
Speaker
And when I did the research on what it means, it's connected to your family, it's connected to standing up for yourself, to your family, which I would never do, because they're all generators and I'm a projector. So it was like, just get on with it, just do that, just do this, don't be lazy, da da da, da da da, you know, like, don't be so sensitive. So it's so different to everyone in my family.
00:36:50
Speaker
I didn't know who I was so I you know I drank and I numbed it and I hid who I was and with colitis as well it's like not being able to let go of the past I just didn't know how to let go of things like I thought it was a logical thing but it's like a very energetic emotional thing so it just completely
00:37:13
Speaker
damaged my body to the way to the but it was such a gift because When I was in hospital, it was two days after my birthday. I was in hospital It was during the frickin eclipse you guys probably know how intense that was right like literal
00:37:29
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it was a comic it was destiny it was fate it was it was gonna happen i had an astrology reading afterwards with my astrologer and she told me that it was like a death chart that i need very nearly died like it was neptune represents poison scorpio represents the colon
00:37:47
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everything on my chart was saying literally she was like if you had died and I looked at your chart then I would have known how you died because this just tells me exactly yeah so so deep and I was like oh my god and you know what it all came from stress it all came from stress and I was like I'm killing myself like I'm not quite literally killing myself
00:38:12
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I now believe and I did believe this before but much stronger believer of it now that like all illness comes from stress and like self-hatred and you know being a doormat doing things that you don't want to do like resenting people, resenting yourself like it's such a low dense toxic vibration and that was just how I was living my life and I was just shielding it and masking it and
00:38:39
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putting a plaster on it, pretending everything was okay because I thought I was going there, but I wasn't. And then when I had this, I was in the hospital and I literally was like, you know, like when you're in so much pain or you've been in an accident or something really bad has happened, you literally pray to God, don't you?
00:38:55
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They say that like when people, when like an aeroplane is going down, what does everyone do? They're praying to God. Everyone's praying to God. So I was in the hospital and I was praying to God and I was like, God, please. I was like, oh my God, take this pain away because the pain just didn't, I had severe pain for 11 hours straight. Every breath I took, I was in severe pain. Yeah, it was unbearable, unbelievable.
00:39:17
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I'd look at the clock and two minutes had gone by and I'd be like, oh, I'd want to scream. And yeah, so when I was there, I was in so much pain and I was just praying to God. And then I literally just got this message and they were like, this is a death. This is a death and a rebirth for you. You have to make changes in your life right now, or this is going to happen again.
00:39:39
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And I truly believe this is probably going to sound pretty dark, but if I don't change, I will get cancer or something. Because I was such a worrier. I was so stressed. I was so concerned with what everyone else was doing. And I was always putting other people before myself. And I know now that that's what made me sick.
00:40:01
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And yeah, I've made such radical changes to my life since, like boundaries, speaking up for myself, you know, even just like being more vulnerable and open with my family about who I am, because none of them are into spirituality and I would hide it from them. So yeah, it's been a real like crazy,
00:40:25
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rollercoaster but at the same time I'm like I'm so glad that it happened because it woke me up again and I could see I wasn't even living my life properly I thought I was but I wasn't and now I'm like wow I can see now that was eating away at me
00:40:42
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Oh my God. I love it so much, especially how it's like you had already gone through such a huge transformation, you know, from like sobriety and then like having a huge spiritual awakening. And it's like, we can think that we are doing the work and that everything is like good. But then it's like, you had this huge awakening to like really call your attention towards the things that you still were, like you said, having issues with like people pleasing and all the boundaries and things. So I just think it's so crazy. It's so cool.
00:41:09
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Yeah. And I think like you have, I've had so many awakenings to the point where like, I'm like, was I even like, had I even had a spiritual awakening before? They're like very intense and extreme for me. I have a lot of planets in the eighth house and the 12th house. And it's like, sudden, boom, rebirth, boom, like tower moment, boom. And I'm like, whoa.
00:41:33
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And I know it's going to keep happening. I'm definitely nowhere near my highest potential, so I'm going to have to keep letting things go. And the more I resist, the more difficult it is. Yes. Oh my gosh.
00:41:50
Speaker
Okay, can you talk to us about Akashic Records and exactly what are they and how can it help someone to have a reading? And then I know you're doing an Akashic Records training, right? So you train people. Yeah, so can you talk about that and the benefits that people can have from learning how to read for other people too?
00:42:09
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Yes. Okay. So the Akashic records are the field of potential. So like they hold the past, the present and the future potential. So it's very much believing in reincarnation. You do die, you lose your physical body, but you come back to creator and then you'll go on again to another life. And that much
00:42:37
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about that side of things. I don't know loads, but I do know what they've shown me and what I've gotten from my own readings and readings for other people. And what I've been told is that there's no beginning and there's no end. Energy just shifts and it shifts and it shifts. And we have death and rebirth in our lifetime right now and in previous lifetimes. And then we do actually, we'll lose our physical
Empowering Others Through Spiritual Teaching
00:43:02
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body. Like we're not our physical body.
00:43:03
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And I think that was really cool too. Actually, for me, a big download that I got recently was that we choose this avatar. I chose to look like this. I chose this body. I chose this name, even though my parents picked the name. It probably was me who picked the name. I chose my parents, my other people in my life and everything like that. I'm co-creating. So I was like, why am I hating?
00:43:29
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on my body and who I am and wanting to be someone else when I chose, like my soul chose this. Literally, like I chose this. So that was like a cool thing for me to realize and have a bit more fricking respect for my body and like who I am.
00:43:48
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So yeah, the Akashic Records, you can channel your higher self, God, your loved ones who've passed over, and what they call masters and teachers, so ascended masters like Jesus, Buddha, Kali, different gods and goddesses and deities and everything like that.
00:44:06
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and then your spirit guides. When you open your Akashic records, you use like a pathway prayer because it's very intentional and then you can extract information, receive healing, upgrades, energy cleanses, you can understand the root cause of problems if they come from your childhood or your ancestors or past lives.
00:44:32
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you can get little bits of your future potential. So if you want to know what your purpose is or what you should do with your business, it's so good at downloading business plans and everything like that. My favorite thing to help people with is entrepreneurial women who want to just gain more confidence and clarity on their career.
00:44:50
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And it can give you the action steps on what to do now to get to where you want to be. And that's just how I've worked my whole business. I've never worked with a business coach, no offense to business coaches. I think they're amazing, but all of my business has come through my downloads, through my intuition, through the Akashic Records. You know, I do speak to different people and I'll run my ideas past people and stuff, but ultimately I decide.
00:45:17
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And that's really fun because with the Akashic Records, it's opened me up to be like, I can live however the fuck I want. Sorry if you're not allowed to swear. Oh no, I swear all the time. It's opened me up to allow myself to be, and that's so important, right? With me being a mental projector, I can't operate like other people. I need to do things slower. But yeah, I'm very efficient. I can get things done in a small space of time.
00:45:46
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So, yeah, people benefit by working with their Akashic records, by getting to know who they are on a very deep and personal level, to get to know what's holding them back, how to let it go, if they have entities attached to them, if they need to cut cords, if they are exhausted or drained and they don't even realise it.
00:46:08
Speaker
What they want to do in the future how to get there I have so many women who like having issues with getting pregnant and I'll open their records and I just have this knowing I'm like I know they're gonna have a child and I'll say to them I can't tell you 100% because nothing is a hundred percent in the future because we co-create it and
00:46:27
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um but I'm like but I have a really good feeling and then there's women that I've seen and know who've gone on to have children and I'm just like oh my gosh you know so it's like it's this amazing reassuring love and truth and
00:46:43
Speaker
It's like, it's for men and women who want to go to big places. They're shooting for the stars, but they might not have the energy or the confidence to do it. So it's like figuring out how to do it your own unique way for you. And then I, the reason I teach people how to do it is because first of all, I want to give people the gift to do it themselves because it's so fucking cool.
00:47:08
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And then second of all, when you read for other people, it blows your mind because you actually get to realize like, oh, I am psychic. I have clairvoyance or clairsentient or claircogligance, whichever one it is. Like you'll see things, you'll know things, you'll feel things in your body. Like I'll feel things in my body and then I'll say something to that person and they're like, oh my God, I can't believe you just said that.
00:47:28
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And I'm like, yep. I don't know how, but that's just how. I think it's just because I'm an empath. I'm a highly, highly sensitive person. I live between the spiritual world and the physical world. I go into both realms.
00:47:43
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like a lot of people do and yeah so I help people do it for themselves so that they can if they want to like have a career in being like a spiritual entrepreneur or like they're already doing reiki or you know they're trained in tarot or something else or they're a coach or whatever it is
00:48:04
Speaker
and then they bring the Akashic Records in, it elevates massively their business, their confidence, and you can make really good money in it because it's such a skill and it's very sought after because it's very high vibrational. So it's, yeah, it's amazing. I love it.
00:48:22
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Oh my God. I feel like out of all of the different modalities, it's one of the most empowering because you're literally giving them the tools to find the answers themselves. They don't have to keep seeking guidance from other people or they can actually help their clients figure things out so that they don't have to keep also going and seeing so many different people. I've spent a year in a business coaching
00:48:45
Speaker
situation that honestly didn't help me at all because she was she had great intentions but she was literally just teaching me what worked for her business and as someone who's like into like like obsessed with human design I should have known that like it doesn't make sense to
00:49:01
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Like take full business advice from some, but the thing is too that I didn't know that she was going to be teaching us what worked for her. I thought she was just going to teach us like business principles, but I think it happens a lot. And so like people are just getting advice. Yeah. And it's happened to me. I think that's why I went down the route of the Akashic Records because they came to me.
00:49:20
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And if anyone wants to learn them, they'll feel it, they'll feel the pull. Most 90% of people have no interest, but the people who do, they'll feel it. And I had been burnt so many times with different coaches and mentors who shattered, I was worse off after I'd spent my money working with them. And I was like, what is going on? Why is none of this working for me? Is it me? Am I the problem? Am I the problem?
00:49:50
Speaker
And then I realized like it was, yeah, I was just doing things that weren't aligned with me. So I think you've learned, you've gone through that to learn to empower you, you know, like, I always say that I would learn the wrong way. I would say I would always learn how not to do things and I'd be so frustrated. I'd be like, oh,
00:50:08
Speaker
I just want them to show me how to do it and it to work out and I'd learn what not to do and who not to trust and how what this means and what that means. So yeah, I think that we learn things quite brutally sometimes. Yes, no, 100%. And that's such an empowering way to like reframe it is that it's like I didn't waste 12 months. It's literally that I just learned how to really trust myself and like trust my intuition. Do you?
Navigating Spiritual Communities
00:50:34
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So I know you're also talking earlier about like,
00:50:36
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um a spiritual narcissist that you kind of like got introduced to in like Bali can you talk about any like specific story or experience you had because it's super prevalent and I don't know if a lot of people are like aware of it I think a lot of us get tricked by people
00:50:52
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Oh my gosh, okay so yes, I have experienced quite a few narcissists, mainly female friendships, happens to be my trait. So the reason that I think that it happens so much to like empaths and highly sensitive people is because we're so giving and we're all about the other person and a narcissist is all about themselves.
00:51:16
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So when they figure out that this person's going to do anything I want, they're going to drop their stuff and do my stuff. Yes, please. Of course, that's what they want. That's what they want. And for us, we're drawn to them because we're like, they're so confident. They've got such good boundaries. How do they not get burnt out all the time giving and giving and giving?
00:51:38
Speaker
So we kind of collide and we come together. I have been burnt many, many, many times in the spiritual space by spiritual women who are narcissists, who portray themselves as wanting to help people, but they don't. They just want to take their money or they want fame or they just enjoy being put on a pedestal and purposely having people put them on a pedestal.
00:52:07
Speaker
I've actually had friends, ex-friends, tell me that. I want people to put me on a pedestal. I keep them at arm's length. I make sure I'm the most important one. I'm the one at the top. And I'm like, right, okay. And they're so sneaky. They've turned
00:52:25
Speaker
friends and clients against me. They've told like one of my old best friends who is a narcissist told friends of mine that I have a, she's a therapist. She told people that I have a personality disorder. What kind of therapist goes around telling people that someone has a personality disorder, like that's not ethical. You don't do that. That's because she's not ethical.
00:52:51
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So yeah, I have been burnt and I've learned. That's what I put on my reel the other day. I was like, I've been burnt and I've learned. And it's harsh, harsh lessons. It kind of makes my take on it now.
00:53:06
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is that there are a lot of narcissistic people even where even if they're not a full-blown narcissist they've got like I mean even I think everyone has a little bit of a narcissist inside of them anyway not saying that we're all like angels but um there are a lot of narcissistic people in the spiritual space and they have this spiritual ego where they're like kind of like lying to themselves thinking that they're doing good when actually they're really harming people
00:53:32
Speaker
But they don't care. And then they'll just reinvent themselves and now change things. And I think people have to. I also think it's like we're little babies and we get dropped into this like spiritual net and then there's all these like predators and they come and snatch and grab us and we trust them because we give away our power so easily.
00:53:52
Speaker
So it's like, they actually, you know, ultimately, if I kept falling for them, then I'd be like, wow, this is my problem. But actually, what I learned was that I was so weak, like with my boundaries, I was a doormat, I was giving away my energy, I was allowing them to take over because I didn't feel like I could. So I would just let them take over. And they love that they want to take over, they want to be in control.
00:54:20
Speaker
And then when they start trying to tell you what to do and how to live and like, and that's when you're like, hang on a minute, this doesn't make sense. Like, why are they doing that? Hang on a minute. What? They're talking shit about me behind my back. Wait, I thought they were my friend. You know, that's when you realize like, oh, these people aren't actually really like decent people. And you just have to stay away from those kinds of people. Like you have to. And a lot of people keep them in their lives. And I'm like, no, you need to cut them out. You need to cut them out because they're literally leeches and they feed off of your energy.
00:54:50
Speaker
Um, so now I'm just like, I'm, I just don't really let many people too close to me because they do, they're charming. They, they mimic an empath, you know, they're, they're very good at it. That's why they get, you know, like anyone who's been.
00:55:06
Speaker
tricked by a narcissist should never feel bad about it like ever they should never feel bad about it whether it's your your parent i mean hello you can't help that if it's your partner if it's your a friend or a boss of course so many bosses are narcissists because they're in a position of control of course they're going to be it's going to attract a narcissist isn't it um but so many people i know so many of my clients so many of my friends have been
00:55:35
Speaker
attacked and abused by these narcissists and it's really really traumatic experience but at the same time it gives you that strength like it's like that cracking open and the tower moment where you're like
00:55:52
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so shocked that anyone could be like that. You're just like, I must be imagining this. This can't be real. You're just like gaslighting yourself. So one of my friends would say, she was like, I'm so sick of gaslighting myself. I knew that she was like this. And I was like, don't say that. And she was like, no, I was gaslighting myself for a year. And I was like,
00:56:17
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I didn't see it like you know but there's no point in holding on to the shame of like not seeing it and not realizing it you just got to go okay there's some different like breeds of humans I guess I kind of feel like I feel like we have different souls genuinely I don't think that we are the same we have a human body but I don't think we come from the same place I don't even really know where we all come from but like
00:56:43
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I feel like going down that road and dealing with these narcissists and actually going into my shadow and past lives and knowing what they did to me in past lives was shocking. And yeah, I just, yeah, it's a crazy thing.
00:57:00
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I do like it though because like I was such a shell of a person and now I'm like I'm freely talking about it and I'm like I'd call out that person if they wanted me to like she has done well I've had multiple narcissists in my life anyway but she is someone who has then you know
00:57:21
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unfortunately, like, twisted people who I was very close to against me. Because that's how good she is. That's how good she is at what she does. And you know what? I have to let that go. I can't save everyone, you know? It's like that savior complex as well. For people who I can see in her web right now, I'm like, it doesn't matter if I go up to them and say, look, she did this to me and this and this and this and she's this and this and this.
00:57:46
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because they've got to learn it for themselves. If someone had to come up to me like three years ago with this person and said that to me, I'd have been like crazy. Like go away. Like I don't believe you because I'm under that person's spell. They put like a spell on you.
00:58:02
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And that's the thing as well. You've got to be, oh, this is the other thing that I want to say too, actually. You have to be so careful in the spiritual space because there are people out there putting curses and hexes on people. And I don't want anyone doing that to me. I do believe that I'm very protected. I'm always doing protection rituals, and I'm always connecting with the Akashic records and God and everything. But I've been psychically attacked by people, and it's not nice.
00:58:32
Speaker
How can you tell when you're being psychically or attacked like that? Yeah. So the first time I knew I'd been psychically attacked was actually like I did a reading for someone in person and they didn't mean to. They had an entity attached to them and it attached to me. When I got home, I looked in the mirror and I didn't recognize my eyes. I was like, it wasn't me. I looked in the mirror and it wasn't me. And I was like, oh my God. And I was like,
00:58:58
Speaker
Like, what do I do? And I thought I was going to freak out way more than I did, but what I did was I kept praying and praying and praying for this entity to be removed. And I was like, saging. I put all these, I cleansed these crystals. I did a crystal grid around my bed and I just, somehow it left me in the night. Thank God.
00:59:20
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Um, but that was one that was really scary. And then, but that was actually, no, that wasn't a, sorry. Okay. So I'll take that back. That was an entity attached to me. So a psychic attack, um, is when someone more psychically, either knowingly or unknowingly send you, you know, bad, bad things. So I've known that I have been, because it's complete, like my mind has been like so messed up. And I'm like, what?
00:59:45
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What are these thoughts? Where are they coming from? Very extreme jealousy, anger, hatred. And I'm like, whoa, I had a really good day yesterday. Nothing bad is happening in my life right now. Where did this come from? And I know that someone is sending me something.
01:00:02
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And I must have just had my guard down and it managed to come in. They can affect like your money, your relationship, your self worth. If you are someone who I've been someone who suffered with very bad depression, anxiety, OCD, ADHD, like I said, eating disorder.
01:00:22
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Like when they trigger into those parts, like will they get your weakness? They know, especially if they know you and they know what your weaknesses are, then they'll hit you in those areas. So you'll just have like bad luck in your job or you'll just like have signed some clients and then all of a sudden it will turn sour or like something will happen and you're like, oh my God, like, and then your intuition is like, okay, something's happened. Do you think has ever happened to you?
01:00:52
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I feel like that.
Spiritual Protection and Social Media Influence
01:00:53
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I feel like I've had times where I'm having a really good day and then all of a sudden I'll start feeling hatred, like you said, jealousy, kind of questioning myself and then I'll have a person that I know pop into my mind and then I'm like, am I feeling this about me or are they sending this to me? It's just a very weird experience. I have had that where I'm just like,
01:01:18
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this is weird or like I'll just think of them and then I'll just think of like feeling worse about myself like feeling like like everything that I'm doing isn't good enough and just like feeling bad and I'm like this is weird so I feel like that could be like maybe them not even consciously thinking or talking shit about me in their mind yeah
01:01:38
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Yeah, because a lot of the time they're not even doing it on purpose. So that's when I feel, because I have very strong psychic gifts to the point where I'm like, I don't want to have these psychic gifts. I can sense when someone has turned sour and they don't like me or something I've said's really triggered them, not something I've said literally to them, maybe even maybe something on my social media, whatever it is.
01:02:05
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And I can feel that energy change. And I can feel it instantly. And then I can sense it. And I'm like, ah, okay. And that's when I have to be careful with my boundaries.
01:02:17
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I don't want anyone, if I think anyone is sending me knowingly or unknowingly like bad vibes, then since being in hospital and being so unwell, I'm like, no. I don't need to tell you, we don't need to have a chat about it because you're probably gonna lie to me anyway.
01:02:36
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I'm not going to, you're not going to tell me like, yeah, to be honest, I have been thinking this and this and this and this about you. And like, when I see you on social media, I've been like thinking really nasty thoughts. Like they're not, they're never going to tell you that.
01:02:49
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You know, so like for me now, I'm like, shut it down. I just shut, I just shut it down. Yes. Oh my God. I really tell it so much. Yeah. It's not worth it. And the more spiritual you become, like, as in like the more spiritual awareness you have, the more you see the light and the dark. Cause it's like, there's both sides. Not that the dark is always bad, but like you see the ugliness as well as the beauty.
01:03:16
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you get exposed to both sides of it. And even if your intentions are good, you can still have people be threatened, triggered, or whatever by you. You've got a good relationship, or you've got your works going well, or you're confident you're doing something that they wanna do, but they don't have the confidence to do it, then they can just project it onto you.
01:03:45
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100%. I feel like too with us like putting ourselves out there on social media, you know, it's like, and standing in our truth, maybe like speaking our opinions on things and like showing up as our brightest, authentic selves. I feel like that's where a lot of the projections can come from because people see it and they're like, they like unconsciously wish that they were their fully expressed selves. But since they're not, it's just kind of like resentment and like bitterness that's like projected onto us. So yeah, I totally feel that.
01:04:11
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Yeah. And I can say, honestly, like I felt like that in the past. I looked at these women who were like on social media, so free. And I'm like, who does she think she is? Oh, my gosh. Like, what are you doing? You're you're so up yourself. I've had I've had those thoughts. You know, so I think that it happens to to everyone. I think we all have them. But then once you're aware of it, you need to really catch yourself and be like, well, why am I thinking that? Because it's not about them. It's about me.
01:04:39
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100%. Yes. Because I've also experienced that too. So I'm like, yeah, I'm like, why am I feeling so triggered by this person? And it was always because there was a part of me that wanted to do what they're doing, or I wish that I was doing that and I wasn't. So it was like, this like bitterness feeling of just like yuckiness. And then I'm sure that was probably like unconsciously being projected onto them, which is like, not good.
01:05:00
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Yeah and then you know who knows maybe like it just happens to everyone and we all go through and it's all a part of learning like that we can't please everyone like we just can't and we have to step in our power whether it and it's almost like it has to happen because we have to trigger people to want to make a change so that tends to come from like a negative feeling
01:05:25
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So like a person's like, Oh my God, like this person really triggered me. And then they realized like, Oh my gosh, they triggered me because I want what they have, but I don't think I can have it. Why do I think like that? And then that starts like the healing for them, you know? Yes.
01:05:41
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because we tend to make changes like from feeling our worst like more than it's easier to make a change like that than when we're feeling good or like in our comfort zone it's like we don't really have a need to make a change so it is when we're feeling those deep like wow why do I feel so bad when I'm seeing this you know and it's like showing us things but then it's up to us to have like the introspective work to like look into it
01:06:01
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Yeah, it's our responsibility to do something about it. And also, if you really don't like someone, just unfollow them. Exactly! Yes, if someone is not making you feel good, why would you even want them in your area? Mute them, unfollow them. You have that ability, you have that option, it's your choice.
01:06:25
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Okay, so the last thing I want to ask you is like, what are your, okay, if you could give the audience like a tip on spiritual hygiene, like maybe something that they can do themselves. First of all, like, what is spiritual hygiene? And what is something that they could do to like protect themselves?
01:06:42
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Yes. Okay. So spiritual hygiene, like there's so many things coming out now. So there's this, um, I went to this talk, it was like a visualization talk and the woman who was running it, her name's, um, Maya. And, um, she has this, like this, she had colitis, right? So she had what I have. She was in hospital. She was so sick. She was going to have to have like,
01:07:08
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her parts of her organs removed maybe even uh you know the the is it i never know how to say it but it's like the bag that comes outside of you because you've had certain things removed she was it was extreme and um she used visualization to like completely get better and now she's like speaking on stages she's like
01:07:31
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super inspirational and she talks about like mental fitness she's like if you don't work your like brain like it's like your body you need to work your brain like your body and then it's the same kind of thing with like spiritual hygiene like we wash our body like it's like it's all about our body it's like we came here and we're this body and then that's it and it's just like no we're so much more than that
01:07:54
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So, like, for me, spiritual hygiene is really, you know, checking myself, like, what thoughts am I sending to other people, first of all? If I feel like other people are sending me bad energy, then, like, it's my responsibility to remove myself from that, unless I want to keep getting sick, because I'm so sensitive.
01:08:19
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I often ground myself because we can get so caught up in the upper chakras of channeling and all these seeing things and stuff. And yet we are having a human experience, so grounding, bare feet on the floor, spending time in nature, that's very cleansing.
01:08:38
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um, being off your phone. Um, you know, like Sage and Palo Santo, like cleansing your, um, energy field and your, uh, your, your clothes and your things, like cleansing them with this sacred smoke. I like to burn a lot of like frankincense, um, and my, they're very cleansing and uplifting. Um, I like to just like clear out things that I don't feel aligned to anymore because I just feel like everything is connected.
01:09:08
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So, um, also I do a lot of like energy cleanses as in like guided meditations where I'll like connect with Archangel Michael, my guides, and I'll ask them to remove any entities. If I'm feeling like super fatigued all the time and I'm like, why am I tired? I'm sleeping like 10 hours and I'm still tired. Why am I tired? That can be like energy that's attached to us. That's draining us. So I will do.
01:09:35
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guided meditations, visualizations, where I'm removing any entity or any energy or cutting cords to people that I know from this lifetime or past lifetimes, asking my guides, are there any contracts that I'm bound to that are really like disempowering that I can end and they'll let me know and I'll end these contracts. So for me, it's like much on a spiritual, well, I mean, it's spiritual hygiene, so it makes sense, isn't it?
01:10:00
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So it's like energetically like visualizing going to these like places and meditations focusing on my heart and like focusing on love and like trying to like elevate myself so that I'm not in that frequency of like very low frequency so that not as much can get to me.
01:10:21
Speaker
So I think when you're focused on yourself, not in a selfish way, but you're focused on what are the things that bring me joy? What do I like doing? What lights me up? And then focusing more on that, being around people that make you feel good, that expand you, that care about you, and just literally not being with anyone who doesn't, that's spiritual hygiene.
01:10:45
Speaker
And just focused on what you want to do and who you want to help and how you want to heal. That's very like spiritually hygienic in my opinion because you're not stuck on the disempowering things, the things that are super negative. Yeah.
01:11:03
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That is so good. That's literally so many tips that people can use. That is like a thousand tips, so that is so good. Another thing is Epson salt baths. They're so cleansing. There's something super spiritual and just like...
01:11:21
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comforting about being in water. It's like when you're in the womb, like when you're in a bath, your body feels very safe and it can regulate your nervous system. So like nervous system regulation too, because when you're super stressed, you're going to attract other people who are super stressed. They're like, why do I keep repeating these patterns? And it's like, because you're super stressed and then you're around other people who are super stressed, but nobody knows they're super stressed.
01:11:47
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So it's just like everyone is just triggering each other. Right? We're all just triggering. Yeah, it's just like unhealed projecting onto other people, pretty much.
01:12:00
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I love that.
Human Design and Energy Dynamics
01:12:01
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I feel like I could talk to you for like a million hours. So like, yeah, I definitely want to have you. Yeah. Can I ask you a question? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. So like from everything I've said, no, not everything, but like, like when I've said certain things that you're like, oh, mental projector or mental projector. Like, do you know what I mean?
01:12:20
Speaker
Yes also okay so also what I see too is how open you are in your design. So all of the open centers that you have like it makes so much sense as to why you're so sensitive and to like all of the things that you take in even when you're saying how you tend to hold on to things like a little bit too long especially in the past. I see that as like your undefined spleen because when people have the undefined splenic center like that's all about like
01:12:45
Speaker
That's all about like security, like feel good wellness and people with it undefined tend to hold onto things just like too long. And it's, that's what can make us sick and unhealthy. So I really see that too. And I think it's so good that you have so many practices that you're learning to just like, let things go. That's like super healthy. And then, um,
01:13:03
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I also thought was super interesting about your chart. I don't have it in front of me, but I think that your heart space and your emotional solar plexus is totally open. So you don't even have any defined gates on there. And so that just means that you're like so empathic, like for the emotional solar plexus, you take on everyone's feelings. So even as a child, you probably didn't understand like, why am I literally feeling how other people are feeling? And that's probably also what led you to drink a lot.
01:13:30
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you know, because you're like, I don't want to feel these feelings. And then also the people pleasing tendencies we pick up because like, we want to harmonize and make sure that everyone feels good. And so it's hard to set strict boundaries because we don't like the feeling of other people feeling upset, even though it's not our responsibility, you know?
01:13:46
Speaker
Yeah. And you're like, no, I don't want other people to not like me. So I'm just going to do what they want and just forget about me. Exactly. Exactly. And then that literally makes us sick because we're putting ourselves on the back burner and like opening ourselves up to like what everyone else wants to do. And then also the
01:14:05
Speaker
the totally open heart space of just feeling like you need to do things to be worthy. It's like, oh, I'm only worthy if I'm being productive. So that forces you to work so many more hours and feel like you have to hustle and you feel like you're not able to rest because you have to get things done. And if you don't, you're not a good business owner. And so that can just lead to so many
01:14:28
Speaker
bad feelings as well and like lead to unhealth. So it's really good that you're like having those boundaries to be like, Oh, I am worthy. Literally, even if I just rest today and don't do anything, like I don't have to do anything to prove to anyone that I am worthy. I can just be myself.
01:14:43
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It's taken me a long time to get there. It's definitely not been like, even though like what I said earlier, where I was sitting with this community thinking like, who am I? And then fast forward a year, I was on the stage. But there's still so many things that has happened in that time.
01:15:03
Speaker
And I'm still learning and like, because my self-worth was so low, it's taken me a lot longer than potentially other people, especially narcissists who are just like, boom, like, you know, you look at these people and you're like, how do they have this energy and the self-worth and everything? They've either done the work to get there or they just have been brought up in a place where they've been like nurtured really well. And I think, I don't think that's many people, to be honest.
01:15:31
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Yeah, I don't think it is either. And also, I love what you said too about being a projector growing up in a generator family because you're so right. I'm a generator, so it's like we have the energy when we're lit up to just keep going. Work is easy for us. We love doing it. We can literally have a battery that goes on forever.
01:15:52
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like we're so conditioned by our parents so it's like if your parents believe that and then like I can see where they can tell you like oh like why are you being lazy why are you being sensitive like suck it up and it's like you literally don't have the energy to do it and so it's like completely dishonoring who you are and they like just don't understand you and so um I think it's so cool to learn more about ourselves to see why like
01:16:14
Speaker
our parents just like don't understand it's like why would we expect it's cool for us like if we ever have kids or for people who are having kids in the future to see like our kids are not going to be exactly like us and so if we can understand how they're different and like honor their different energy you know styles it will make it so much better.
01:16:31
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100%. Yeah. And that's why I think it's so amazing when people learn about their relationships and their children and their parents designs, because it makes, it makes so much sense when you understand different people, right? It makes so much sense. It's so cool.
01:16:48
Speaker
Yeah, I love like looking at like, I have like all my family's like my brother, my dad, my mom, like everyone, I'm just always looking at him like, Oh, that's why you're like that. Like that makes so much sense. It's funny, actually, because all of us are generators, my dad, my mom and me, my dad's a manifesting generator. But my brother's a projector. And so he had the same experience as you, you know, and he also would he has his emotional solar plexus defined. So he has the emotional wave, and he'll go through like waves, you know,
01:17:16
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And so we always gave him a hard time for that of like, why are you being like so moody? Because we just like didn't understand. And so I can see how even like I would we, when we were younger, we were really mean to each other. I think I don't know. I think that might be like a sibling thing, but now we're like best friends as adults.
01:17:32
Speaker
But it's just like, wow, I did not honor who he was energetically. And it's really sad. And now that I know him, I'm always giving him advice. Like he works like for his job and stuff. I'm always giving him advice of like, oh, this is why you're feeling like resentful and bitter because you don't have boundaries like, you know, with your teammates. So they're not like respecting you. And then like, I just help him like that. Yeah. Oh my God. That's so nice that he has that day. Mm hmm.
01:17:57
Speaker
Oh, is he younger or older? He's two years younger. Okay. Oh, that's nice. Yeah. Amazing. Yeah. Oh my gosh. This is so fun. So what are, okay. So what do you have going on right now? Like where can people find you? How can they work with you? Like what's going on?
Akashic Records Training and Services
01:18:15
Speaker
So I am doing reading so someone can book in a one-on-one reading. When will this go out? Do you know? Probably in two weeks. Okay. So like next, probably next Saturday. So that's only one week actually. Oh, okay.
01:18:31
Speaker
So I have an offer on at the moment on my readings. So they're like a third off. So Akashic Records readings. Hopefully that will still be going on. If not, you can still book a read again. I do one hour sessions and I also do mini energy cleansing sessions. So they're like a half an hour. And then I teach people how to read the records themselves one on one.
01:18:58
Speaker
And then I have a group training starting in January 2024, which is teaching people how to read the records for others. And that's going to be so much fun. I've done this maybe like six times before. I do it like once or twice a year.
01:19:16
Speaker
People will be learning how to read past lives, future potentials, how to clear energy, cut chords, take people into deep meditations, how to do mediumship. It's like it's there's so many layers to it. And in every single session,
01:19:32
Speaker
they'll be practicing reading on other people but then they'll also have the practice on them so they'll be receiving so much healing and so many answers so it's like elevates people it's pretty intense but like intense in a way of like on a deep soul level
01:19:50
Speaker
So people come to the sessions and they're like, oh my gosh, this happened today. What are the chances that we're all here today? And I'm like, you're here today because that happened. It all happens with divine time.
01:20:05
Speaker
So yeah, after the training, you'll be able to read the Akashic Records for other people, you know, make money through reading the Akashic Records for other people, you know, bring it into your business. If you already have other things going on, like protect yourself more, know what's going on with your energy, more understand why you're feeling certain ways. Like it's, I always call it the gift that keeps on giving. Cause it's like, you'll be doing it for other people, but every time you read for other people, you learn more about yourself.
01:20:36
Speaker
Yeah, so that's starting in January. So that's very exciting. Yeah, that's it really. I also do like moon ceremonies and a lot of like death and rebirth ceremonies and stuff like that too. So sort of like lower ticket things are like the group events and then they can book a one-to-one with me or you can do the training with me, which is like fully, yeah, you'll never be the same. You'll be so different.
01:21:04
Speaker
Oh my god, that sounds so frickin juicy.
Impact and Inspiration from Akashic Readings
01:21:08
Speaker
And I also just want to say that I have done a couple of your ceremonies which have been amazing and I've also had an Akashic Records reading with you and I don't think I ever told you this but you're honestly what from that reading you're one of the people that gave me like the confidence and the
01:21:24
Speaker
I guess just like the validation to step into my power and start this podcast because like the things that you saw and that like you told me in that of like me just like being like it was like I was like among a circle of like women and like leading them and I was like using my voice and it just confirmed so many things that I had in past lives like into this life and so for everyone who is curious about Akashic Records absolutely get a reading like it will change your life and then if anyone feels the pull to take the training it sounds freaking incredible.
01:21:54
Speaker
That is crazy. Yeah, it's gonna be it's like so bougie spiritually bougie and fun and like and and people just share like they're like I've never told anyone this or like I've never even realized they have these profound like Awakenings and like revelations and and it's just yeah, it's it's really incredible. I love it. I love it so much
01:22:18
Speaker
I love that so much. And what is your Instagram handle so people can find you? So it's rebecca.amari.lions. Okay, awesome. Yay. Well, thank you so much for doing this. It was such an honor to have you on here. You are so full of wisdom. So freaking incredible. It was so fun. Yay. And thank you everyone for listening. I hope you have a great week and we'll see you next week.