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6. Breaking Old Patterns & Cycles, Playing Victim, Childhood Trauma, Mental Health, Relationships!
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I really dive into this one talking about old patterns and cycles that were constantly happening in my life, but I didn't know why. We often play the victim, but in reality we're the creator of everything in our life. I speak about my own mental health journey and things that helped me in dark times.
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Recurring Relationship Patterns and Self-Awareness
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Speaker
Welcome back to another episode of Unlocking With Yours Truly, Adam Pike. Now, I want to go back in time and talk about the person that Adam Pike used to be. And there was so many patterns and cycles that were just happening for years in my life. And at the time, I didn't
00:00:29
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I didn't understand this. I didn't know this. And I was always asking myself, man, why is this happening? Like every relationship that I'm in, it always ends the same. It always starts the same. And, you know, halfway through the relationship, every, every single relationship that I was in was the same, right?
Impact of Parents' Marriage on Relationship Views
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It would start out amazing. And maybe like, I don't know,
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five, six months in, whenever, everything like, you know, start getting comfortable with each other, then the patterns would just happen, right? The communication just started to be shit. The arguing would start to happen and it would just become a disaster. And it was just relationship after relationship, just the same thing was happening. And I want to go back
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even more in the past. So growing up, my parents had me and my sister at a very, very young age. And I know a lot of people probably don't believe in this, but I do. I love my parents. They're both with the people now. They separated. They're very happy, and I respect them a lot.
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but I got to talk about this, right? So, you know, they struggled to keep their marriage together at a young age. Like they had my sister when they were, I think 16 and 15, 16 and 17 or 15 and 16, like really, really young. So they had us at a very young age. Like I can't even imagine, I can't imagine having kids at such a young age. Like your, your whole teenage years are just,
00:02:28
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They're not gone, but yeah, you're a parent now. Imagine becoming a parent at 16 years old. Mom, dad, I don't know how you done it, but you done it. So thanks, thanks for that. But yeah, they just struggled to keep the marriage together. And I did have a really good childhood, but I do remember a lot
00:02:57
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of times where they were arguing and fighting, right? And for the longest while, you know, I never thought that that had anything to do with my current life, but it had to be. It had to be, because every relationship that I would get in, there would be a lot of fighting and arguing, right? And that's what was happening in my childhood.
00:03:27
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I feel like that's the reason why, you know, I couldn't make a relationship work. And it's obviously not just me, the people that I were dating, right? They were probably going through this as well as a child, or they were in a relationship already before me, um, that just had a lot of fighting and arguing. And then, you know, we never healed. And,
00:03:55
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moved into a relationship together and then the pattern and the cycle just happened again, right? And this, it, this happens with so many people, so many people, they just jumped into a relationship pattern seemed to happen. Uh, like this, this is not working. It just gets to the point where you, you just can't deal with it anymore, right?
00:04:22
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And you're always pointing the finger. It's clearly never you, right? And I used to do that. I'd always think that it was them and not me. I was the one that never had to change.
Journey to Self-Awareness and Breaking Negative Cycles
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And I put in so much effort. But now that I am where I am in life and I look back on my life then,
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It's amazing to really think about how much work I had to do as a person back then. I had so much work to do with myself to make a relationship even last, right? And I'm sure they needed work on themselves too. But when you're in that moment, it doesn't matter how many people will tell you
00:05:22
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Okay, Adam, this is not the relationship. You need to move on because friends will see when you are broken. Friends will see when you need to do some work on yourself. They'll see when a relationship is not gonna work out. But the person that's in that moment, they will never take anybody's advice until they figure it out for themselves.
00:05:50
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I don't know how many times I was listening to friends, listening to podcasts, reading books. And no matter how much knowledge got brought in, didn't matter because you know what? I just kept, kept these cycles and these patterns going. I just kept letting it happen. And I never changed a damn thing until now.
Role of Microdosing in Personal Growth
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Speaker
Until now, I started the microgosing and it's just, it's just helped me discover so much about my life. It's helped me so much. It's helped me break the cycle. It's helped me look back on my past and realize that I was the person that was causing all of this shit that was happening in my life.
00:06:46
Speaker
All these relationships that were just same thing that tend to happen and me pointing the finger at people. No, like I was the reason for all of that. Everything that I was putting out to the world, you know, maybe I would break up with one girl and you bring all that trauma and you get into the next relationship and you probably tell this new person, well,
00:07:12
Speaker
I've gone through this and I've gone through this and that and honestly like I got some trust issues and you know this happened so like you know I'm sorry if something comes up and then maybe this new person like you you bring up old ways about yourself of what happened in the last relationship and then you apologize and say oh like honestly I'm really sorry like this just how it used to be my last relationship and I'm working on it
00:07:42
Speaker
But you never do work on it because it just continues to happen in your new relationship and you continue to apologize time after time after time after time. Maybe you're really jealous and you have this jealous moment and it causes a fight in a relationship and you apologize about that and you
00:08:06
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You say that you're working on it, but then you find that you're getting jealous again, but you're trying to hold it in and it's just, man, it is just a fucking shitty cycle. And only you, only you gotta figure that out. You're never gonna listen to anybody. I never listened to anybody. All the advice that I had from people, never listened.
00:08:36
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Never listen, and now that I'm in the life that I am right now, I look back and I remember having conversations with certain people, and I'm like, man, what were you doing? But I just couldn't see it. I couldn't see it. I was just playing the victim. I was playing the victim card, pointing the finger at everybody, and always thought that I was great.
00:09:06
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You know, but I wasn't, I really wasn't. So yeah, like I said, microdosing just helped me evolve into this new person. It made me think new, think differently, see my past differently, realize things about my past, realize things about myself, and it's helped me change
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all of that in the process.
Enhancing Communication in Current Relationship
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So, you know, moving forward, I have a, I have a new relationship now and it's, it's beautiful. Like it's not perfect. Obviously it's not perfect. I still have a lot of things that I need to work on for sure. Um, one thing that I realized, um, that I do with Rebecca opt in is when she's telling me things, I will just say, yeah,
00:10:04
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Mm-hmm. Yeah. Am I really so like I have to stop doing that because Well, I'm probably not fully paying attention to her and I'm not giving her my 110% You know attention and That's why I'm saying mm-hmm. Yeah
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Yeah, so that can't feel good right when she's like open to me telling me something. I'm just like Yeah, so like my communication skills definitely Needs to improve they are getting better 100% they're always getting better and I but but yeah, like this relationship is is very very different and You know, I want to go back to my past before like in past relationships when
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maybe we would get into a fight. Um, I wouldn't know how to let things go. And you know, maybe they never knew how to let things go either. And we would hold onto things for like days. And then you just start building up resentment. And then you're like, it's like a week later and you're still fighting and like, you don't even know what you're fighting about at that point in time. So now like,
00:11:26
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you know, the relationship. I mean, now it's, it's like, I know how to let things go. And I know what I'm being stupid. And they're like, there's been a couple of times where I've definitely been an idiot. And I realized that right away. And I'm like, what are you doing? Like, no, you can't, can't, you can't be getting on like that. So I'm really working on being the driver of my emotions. Like I want to,
00:11:56
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I want to get to a point and I'm definitely working on that. I want to get to a point where the emotion comes in and I can just see it unfold and deal with it differently and just realize that that's just an emotion and you don't react on your emotions.
Emotional Control and Relationship Improvement
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Instead of being the passenger and just having the
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emotion being the driver, just letting that control your whole life, because that's exactly what I used to do before, you know, an emotion would come up, I get triggered from something. And then boom, my whole, my whole being would just change. And I was just such a different person in such a short time. And it was just because I was, I was the driver, I was the passenger.
00:12:47
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So I'm definitely working on being the driver of my emotions and getting in full control of that. And when you, when you get in full control of your emotions, um, you know, relationships become a lot easier because you can deal with things differently and you can communicate differently. You know, if you do tend to get upset or mad, you know, you can communicate that.
00:13:18
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You can tell this person instead of just getting mad and then like definitely I'm still working on these things. I'm definitely, there's definitely some times where, you know, I might get a little way with my current relationship and, but I always know that I'm being stupid, right? I like, I'm, I'm being aware of that. I even had a basketball, I got to, I got to talk about this as well. I had a basketball game the other day and, uh,
00:13:47
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I was just getting really, really frustrated in that game. And to me, I probably was yelling at the guys a couple times. And I was just in my head. I just wasn't a pleasure to be around. And that's not fun. I don't want to play with people like that. We're playing a team game, and then you got this guy here that's just
00:14:17
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Crumbling shaking his head and yelling at the guys and you know what I mean? Like like I and I realized that right away and I actually apologized to the boys because that was shit That is shit energy to bring into a sports game. So In the past I probably would have never apologized for that right because I always would have been like well I was doing everything right. It's just their fault. It's their fault, right? No
00:14:47
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no no it's a fucking team game and like everything that i'm fucking grumbling about probably i'm probably doing the exact same thing like 100 i'm doing the same thing that i'm grumbling about so instead of grumbling and being paced like talk about it just be like well okay like
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We are doing these things, you know, when you have the time early, we are doing these things. I'm even doing it. Like this is what we need to do to not do these things. So yeah, I just, I just find that if I do have a moment, I'm more aware of it now. And I realized really fast that it's wrong. And then I'm apologizing about it. And I actually truly mean it when I apologize because I, before it was like,
00:15:40
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Before I would apologize for just to apologize to, you know, just to move on. I would just say, oh, I'm really sorry. Like I actually didn't physically feel like I did anything wrong. So I was just apologizing for apologizing. You know what I mean? Well, now I'm just more aware of that. You know what I mean? So.
00:16:03
Speaker
Microcybin has just helped me so fucking much in my life. It's, it's, it's amazing. It's amazing. It's fucking amazing. Yeah. Oh, I gotta take a breath for a minute. Just thinking about it. It's, it's, it's pretty wild. Um, okay. I w I want to talk about, let's change things up here for a second. I want to talk about the cost of microcybin. Okay.
00:16:33
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Now I don't know. I've got a lot, a lot of messages from many different people telling me that it's so expensive. The shipping is so high and so on and so forth. Okay. Right. You'll go out and get a tattoo for, you know, a thousand dollars, right?
00:16:56
Speaker
And it's very expensive because that tattoo is going to go with you for the rest of your life, correct? Correct. I'm after going out spending $2,000 on a tattoo because the artist is good, right? You can go out and spend $300 on not a good artist and it's gonna look like shit and then you're stuck with that shitty thing on your arm
00:17:25
Speaker
for the rest of your life, unless you get it covered up, which is gonna cost even more. So you spend the money for the good artist, and then you get that sick tattoo, and you're like, fuck yeah, look at my goddamn tattoo, right? So, with microdosing, there is definitely companies out there that will just slap a
00:17:54
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you know, a happy face on a bottle and the ingredients is like, I've looked into some, some companies and there's like 25 milligrams of psilocybin in there and they're telling you to take 10 a day. And it's just like, here's a happy bottle, like take this and you're going to feel better. Yay. Yay. First of all, nobody wants to be taking 10 pills a day.
00:18:24
Speaker
Right. There's actually, there's this, there's this one company. Um, I actually had a friend was with micro side and they tried this other company and it was like, take three in the morning, three in the afternoon and three at night. But you just take micro girls and pills all day. Like what? Anyways, she said that she never felt a thing from this company. So she went back to Microsoft. So like I was talking about,
00:18:52
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with the tattoo artist, right? You can spend shit, get shit, or spend a bit and get the results. Now, microcybin is very fucking different than any microcybin, any microdosing company out there. And that's just facts. Do your research.
00:19:17
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Check out their, check, just check out their websites, right? You go on some, some web, other website, a company, right? And you're just going to have like products just pushed into your face. Products, products feel better. Woo. But then with Microsoft, they have all this research that you can investigate for yourself.
00:19:45
Speaker
Okay, what is, what is micro dosing? Okay, big article about it. Pain tolerance for taking LSD, boom, big, big blog. Oh, the link between LSD and sports, boom, big blog. You know, depression, big blog. There's just so much you can read before even buying a product on Microsilence.
00:20:14
Speaker
Okay, they got all this information, right? That's fine today, that's great, but then the products. Well, I just took the product for six months and it's changed my life. Now, if you're gonna come to me and say that this stuff is too expensive, okay, well, I guess it's just too expensive. Then just go buy the other shit that's less expensive
00:20:43
Speaker
and get shit results, okay? Microcybin is an investment in yourself, okay? We spend a ton of money on bullshit, right? I bet the same people that are coming to me and telling me that this stuff is too expensive is probably the same people that will spend anywhere from $500 to $1,000 on alcohol a month.
00:21:14
Speaker
or they're spending, they're going and picking up three, four, five, $600 on skin care products, right? Maybe the same people are spending like 500 bucks on takeout a month, right? They're probably going on Amazon, spending thousands a month, okay? All those things are just things.
00:21:45
Speaker
You can go spend all the money you want, you can buy all the clothes you want that's gonna make you feel better when you're having a bad day. Okay, let's go shopping. Just doing some retail therapy, what they call it. And you're gonna spend a couple hundred dollars to just make you feel good for that short period of time. Okay, so jump back to Microsoft and end the cost, okay?
00:22:13
Speaker
When you invest into microcybin, right? I'm pretty sure that you can go on and you can choose a six month supply of microcybin and they'll give you 15% off of those six bottles. And you could also use my code Adam Pike Fitness to save 10%.
00:22:40
Speaker
So you're actually saving 25% off your order. And I think six months is like $398. That's like with the percentage taken off. So let's just say $400, okay? Yeah, sure. That's a lot of money upfront. Okay. That's a lot of money upfront for most people.
00:23:11
Speaker
But if you're really thinking about it, six bottles of this stuff, right? You're only taking it. You're only taking the Genesis five days a week. Some people are only taking it four days a week, okay? So do the math on that. It's actually gonna last you like, I don't know the math off top of my head. But if you're only taking one pill for four days or five days a week, those six bottles are probably gonna last you like seven,
00:23:41
Speaker
No, maybe even more. I would say like nine months that that's going to last you. Now, if you were to take nine months, it only took me six months. It only took me six months. So let's just say you buy the six month supply and you invest six months or nine months into Microsoft and you really crack down, follow the protocols,
00:24:09
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and start using this medicine correctly in your life. Because there's ways that you can make this medicine and make the practices last a lifetime. So invest that time, do the work. If you do everything correctly like I did, I am now able to walk away
00:24:39
Speaker
from microcybin and microdosing a completely different person. I'm a new man. I think different, everything about me is different. And I just, I only did it for six months, right? So to me, there ain't no, there ain't, like that's price, that's fucking priceless. That's priceless. If you really think about all the money
00:25:06
Speaker
that you waste on nonsense that doesn't make you feel anything. Temporary highs, junk food that you fucking end up feeling like shit causes cancer or whatever the fuck that you got it going on now with sugar and everything. You spend a lot of money on bullshit, right? This is an investment in yourself.
Microcybin and its Value
00:25:32
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This is something that's going to bring your mind
00:25:36
Speaker
Two. Levels you didn't even think was possible. And then, then then what? Okay, you're, you're a much happier person now. The relationships that you are in are now flourishing. You're nicer to your kids, you're nicer to your friends, you're nicer to your family, you're, you're more motivated in life, you're a better worker, you're a better coworker. It just, everything that you learn about yourself while
00:26:05
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doing these plant medicines, you're now gonna bring out into the world and it's just gonna radiate off you. You're a new person, your energy's just gonna be way different. There ain't no price on that. So again, for those of you who think that the microcybin products are too expensive, then I guess they're just too expensive and you can walk on your way.
00:26:36
Speaker
So just think about what I just said. That pushes me over to start talking about fitness, okay? Now, again, I'm doing coaching.
Fitness and Mental Health Connection
00:26:50
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I'm doing coaching programs. It's not just a fitness program that you're gonna work on and get muscles. That's not what fitness is about. A lot of people tend to think that
00:27:04
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They tend to think that, well, I don't like my body, so I gotta work out and look better. There's way more to it than that. Fitness helps my mental health. It helps my mental state. It gives me something to look forward to. It pushes me. It gives me discipline. It gives me respect. I respect people that get up
00:27:33
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and go do these tough, hard ass workouts when they don't want to do it. I respect people that are outside running when it's minus 20 and as cold as fuck. You see this person out running. When you start doing things that you don't want to do, it makes everything else very easy, right? It calms your mind. I woke up this morning
00:28:00
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The snow was blown sideways. My house is freezing. I had to turn off the heat. And as soon as I got out of bed, I went and jumped into the cold plunge outside. I didn't want to fucking do that. I must be psycho. But I did it. Because I know when I add this into my life, there's going to be a lot of benefits that comes with it. That there in itself, for me getting in that cold plunge,
00:28:30
Speaker
Five minutes is gonna help my mental state for the rest of the day. You know what I mean? And then I'm gonna go do this hard ass workout, right? That's gonna make me feel good. There's a lot of times where I don't want to do things. Even last night, I had a basketball game at nine o'clock. I was laying there, Rebecca was rubbing my hair, I was like, oh my God,
00:28:58
Speaker
Whoa, it's so cold out, it's raining. And most people would stay there. But you know what? I went to my basketball game and I had a fucking fantastic time. It was a great game. Loved it. Came home. I was amped. Felt way better about myself. Or I could have stayed on that couch and just fell asleep. Got up.
00:29:28
Speaker
And that's what most people do. And then same with working out. You know, maybe you get home from work. I'll go back to myself again. I don't know how many times I would get off from a long 15 hour day, sit on the couch for a second, you know, just take a break, pet the cat, look at my phone, and then I'm like fall asleep. I'm like, oh, fuck, I don't want to go to the gym. And most people would stay there and just go to sleep, right?
00:29:58
Speaker
But no, I drag my ass to the fucking gym. And as soon as I start, like the hardest part is just going. But as soon as I would start working out, boom, I would feel 10 times better of myself. 10 times better. So, investing into a coach is an investment in yourself, right? But you gotta want to do the work.
00:30:27
Speaker
Right, there's a lot of people that'll get a coach, and then, you know, their motivation is high, and they're just so excited about it starting up, and then two or three weeks later, boom. They just crash. This is not for me. I don't want to do this. And that's what happens. There's a very high percentage of people that'll want to start fitness,
00:30:56
Speaker
start doing it, like go crazy with it, and then they stop after a couple of weeks. So that's why I started this program that I'm doing now, like this coaching program. There's three phases to it. And I believe in this because I've seen the people that have come to me super motivated, and then in two weeks they're not doing anything, right?
00:31:24
Speaker
So the way that I have this three phase program set up, it's just kind of, I believe that it's gonna work for people if they just trust me and do it, right? And also, new people that are coming in and doing fitness and trying to change their lifestyle, it's all about how you look at it.
00:31:53
Speaker
Right. If, if, if your own, if you just like hate your body and that's the only reason why you're working out, you're probably not, it's probably not just going to be sustainable for you. Right. Like you had, you have to know that like, this is, this is going to help you in your life. It's going to help your mental state. It's going to help your health. It's not just about looking good. It's going to help your health and your health.
00:32:22
Speaker
to me, that should be the number one thing that anybody cares about. Because if you don't have your health, you have fuck all. And I don't give a fuck what you say. I've heard my great grandparents and like his brothers, I don't know how many times I've heard them say, I would give up everything I have right now just to have my full health back again.
00:32:53
Speaker
Well, just let that sink in for a minute. They would give up everything they own. It would give up everything to get their full health back again. So when I hear that, I'm like, shit, I'm going to do everything I could possibly do to be healthy, to live long and in the process feel fucking good doing it.
00:33:21
Speaker
I want to be 50. I want to be 60. Still running up and down that basketball court enjoying life. I used to play basketball in Melford. There was this guy, I swear to God, he must have been 65 going on 70. And he would keep up with us playing basketball. And he'd be banging up against us, and I'm like, shit. That's the 60-year-old that I want to be, right?
00:33:49
Speaker
I don't want to get older and just let my body get away from me and gain weight. My muscles are not strong and my bones are starting to get frail. That's when injuries start happening. When people start getting older and they're not working out and they're sitting around all day, their bones are starting to get frail because there's no muscles around their bones.
00:34:17
Speaker
You know, they might fall down and break their hip and you don't want that. You don't want that. My great grandfather, my grandfather, um, um, pot pedal, he passed away with cancer. God love him. But this, this fucking dude, this guy wouldn't go out and he was, how old was he? I think he was 90.
00:34:45
Speaker
Don't quote me, I should know this guys. I should know this, but I'm really, that's one thing about me. I'm really bad with ages and birthdays. I mix up my mom's birthdays. Sometimes I got a question like how old my sister is and we got the same birthday. Like I'm really bad with people's age. Anyways, pop, we love you. But this guy, for as long as I know him, would go for walks every single night.
00:35:15
Speaker
And every single night, he would just get up and go for a walk. He had a garden out in the back. There was always stuff in the garden, planting potatoes and carrots and cabbage, you name it. Like he was an active old man. And, you know, if it wasn't for the cancer, I do believe that, you know, he would still be going strong. And I believe that. I feel like he'd go well past 100.
00:35:46
Speaker
So anyways, like I was saying, getting into fitness, getting a coach, that is also an investment in yourself, right?
Importance of Coaching and Personal Development
00:35:57
Speaker
I even need a coach. And I do have mentors in my life. Like I get on a Zoom every single week and I'm learning from this one guy every single week. And I'm just learning things about myself and things that I didn't even know was happening.
00:36:15
Speaker
but I'm learning from this guy, right? I believe that everybody needs coach. Everybody needs some sort of mentor or coach or personal trainer in their life to help them get better. If that's what you're looking to do to get better, everybody needs a coach in their life. So yeah, the microdosing,
00:36:41
Speaker
Getting into fitness, it's an investment in yourself and there's no price tags on that because when you do it correctly, it's things that you can take with you for the rest of your life, right? Like for me, I don't wanna have one client for the rest of my life that's just gonna continue to come back. Like sure, if you wanna keep coming back, by all means, but I believe that
00:37:12
Speaker
Somebody that comes to me and I set them up properly and get them going in their life and with fitness They should be able to go it on their own now and just get the shit done without anybody telling them what to do You know what I mean?
Mental Health Management and Self-Care
00:37:30
Speaker
I Want to talk about to mental health because Fitness has helped me a lot with my mental health and
00:37:42
Speaker
There's definitely been times in my life where my mental state was definitely not the best, but I would go around, you know, maybe I go to work and people would ask me, how are you doing? And like everybody else, Oh, good, good. Doing good. But like, really, I wasn't doing good. There's times I didn't even want to get out of bed. I just wanted to stay in there.
00:38:09
Speaker
And I just would have something come over me. And I just didn't want to leave the bed. I didn't want to leave the house. And when these times happen, you can easily go down this rabbit hole and stay there for days, for weeks, for months. If you don't do something,
00:38:36
Speaker
If you don't do something to make yourself feel better when these times are happening, right? It's very easy to get down that road. So for me, when I would getting this state and I would not want to leave my bed, not want to do things, I knew that I had to get out of the house.
00:38:59
Speaker
I just had to because the longer that I stay in the house, the longer I'm going to feel like this and the longer, the more I'm going to go down that rabbit hole. So for me, I like something that comes to mind right now. I last most feeling this way. I went to single Hill. I went down the path. I kind of went off the path a bit, found this rock. I sat there was kind of meditated for a bit, something that,
00:39:26
Speaker
When I am under a lot of stress or something like that, meditation is great for that. It just calms the mind. It just lowers the heart rate, and you just feel more calm. I would bring my journal. I'd write in the journal about how I'm currently feeling, why I'm probably feeling this way, and what I'm gonna do to not feel this way. So I'd journal. And maybe I'll bring a book.
00:39:55
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And I was probably spending like an hour to two hours just there by myself next to the ocean in my thoughts. And that's what would help me. So maybe then I would leave there, okay? Then I would get a bite to eat, go to the gym, crush that workout out, boom. I'm feeling fucking wicked. Just cured my day. Now obviously, people,
00:40:25
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Their mental health can be a lot worse than what I was dealing with, but everybody deals with things differently, and everybody goes through things differently. I'm just speaking on my personal experiences, and I know that I've had days where my mental health was not great, and those were the things that would get me out of that rabbit hole.
00:40:50
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Just little things like getting out of the house, going, doing things, going for a drive, maybe hanging out with a friend. When my mental health would just keep declining is when I would just do nothing and stay there and not talk to anybody and keep putting on these masks acting like I'm okay and just stuck in that world.
00:41:20
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Guys, it's okay to not be okay. It's okay. If you have something wrong going on in your head, man, just fucking talk about it. Write it down in your journal. Write it down. Research about it. Maybe talk to somebody that's gone through things that you're going through. Talk to a friend. Maybe they're going through the same thing. You don't know, but if you just go around all the time acting like everything's fine, but really you're not
00:41:49
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fine whatsoever. That's not going to help you. It's only going to make things worse. So anyways, guys, I feel like I just covered a lot. Um, we're 42 minutes in and, uh, I feel good doing these podcasts because honestly it feels like I get things off my chest.
00:42:16
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Like even just, even just talking about that mental health thing, it just made me like, oh, like, whoa, like shit. Like, cause I, cause I definitely don't talk about it. I just, I just deal with things on my own and I know what's going to make me feel better, but like, I don't go in depth and like tell people like that was probably the first time that I've really went in depth about, you know, my mental health and how,
00:42:46
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things would help me get past that and move forward in life. Whoa. This is why I love podcasting because, you know, I kind of have an idea of what I'm going to talk about, but then like I might change shifts and then, you know, just an hour in and I'm still ranting about something. But I just hope that, you know, I can reach people when I do these podcasts and somebody listens to it. Maybe they can relate.
00:43:16
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Just know that you know, you're not the only one that's going through things Or you're not the only one that thinks these ways Or you're not the only ones that been going through these patterns and cycles in your life You don't know how to break it, right? so I hope you enjoyed this podcast and I'll see you next time. Peace