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Valerie Vazquez : Aloha and welcome to Sacred Self-Love. I'm your host and guide Valerie Vasquez. Thank you so much for joining me today. If you're new to the show, please hit subscribe.
Valerie Vazquez : If you've been following this podcast so far, thank you again for joining me. i really appreciate it Not just for the support of my journey, but also that you're most likely on your healing journey too.
Valerie Vazquez : And i just want to applaud you for that and send you so much love and compassion because this journey is, it's not easy at all to do healing work.
Valerie Vazquez : It is not easy to look at the parts of you that might not be showing up at their best and their fullest and what i what I've been doing on previous episodes as I was talking about how i really felt kind of a creative spark about trying new things around the farm especially when it comes to herbs and plants and and making things.
Valerie Vazquez : But this last week has been my winter season. So, you know, as women, we are we are cyclical. And each month, we ourselves go through a spring, summer fall and winter season and it's it's one of the things I believe that has been stripped from us as women is the sacredness of our own cycle and also just the cycle that we may be in wherever we are in our lives so you know
Valerie Vazquez : As we're younger, you know, we're in that spring and the summer, and then as we're starting to mature, we start going into the winter and the fall. And so we really do naturally slow down, you know, our hormones change, which changes our energy.
Valerie Vazquez : And so this last week, the message really for me has just been to honor this. You know, I am going through perimenopause right now. i am, you know, just really fully allowing my body to make the changes that it naturally wants to do.
Valerie Vazquez : Instead of fighting against it you know, um instead of the whole anti-aging movement, it's the pro-aging where we are coming back and honoring that this is the natural process of what we go through and that it is not scary, that it is not bad.
Valerie Vazquez : That it is not something to fear, but instead embrace. And so this last week, I've really allowed myself to rest and not worry about like trying to create something new that I know my energy is going to come back and and that I'm going to have that spark again.
Valerie Vazquez : um But to just stop putting pressure on myself. You know, but o that's just the deprogramming and the healing is um releasing the pressure from yourself, especially as a woman, to just allow the natural cycles of your body to to flow.
Valerie Vazquez : um It's been very sunny here. We're actually kind of in a drought right now. So having this constant sunshine gives you that feeling of like, I need to go out and do But really, you know, and the winter, and, know, we're about to turn into spring, but I feel like I've had this like long, long summer. So anyway, today, what I wanted to dive into was In a healing journey, you have probably heard this, you have to feel it to heal it, right?
Valerie Vazquez : Like it is something that if you are absolutely wanting to do the inner work and wanting to alchemize your pain and and turn it into purpose or just be lighter, you know, for yourself,
Valerie Vazquez : and and not just like others but yeah just being lighter and feeling more at ease during this human experience you're gonna have to release the pain out of your body and I just wanted to tell you all a little story about, you know, like how, how do you do this?
Valerie Vazquez : um I believe in the beginning of my journey, when I was really deep into my fields, and I was internalizing everything, and I didn't really, yeah didn't really have um the consciousness or awareness that
Valerie Vazquez : All of the feelings that were just trapped inside of me or they were just like sometimes, you know, just coming out way too much. But I didn't really understand
Valerie Vazquez : what I was... um what how it was affecting me, you know, being unregulated and being so, like, far into the internalization of all of my problems and, like, the victim consciousness. I didn't really, like, obviously see
Valerie Vazquez : where I was at that time. Like I couldn't see and that that was holding me back, having all of that pain inside of me. And I think that that's what the majority of people you know, we're missing out that, that pain holds us back from fully experiencing life.
Valerie Vazquez : We get trapped in it, you know, and it's no, it's, this is like part of the human experience. We have been taught to shut down our feelings and emotions. We have been taught that like, that's not safe to even express our feelings.
Valerie Vazquez : But this is where things are shifting is understanding that your your feelings are very sacred. And the reason why is because we, you know, there's like two awakenings that we can have. We can have like a mind awakening, right? Where we are very aware in our minds of programs and patterns and we can be aware of of so many reasons why we act the way we do and others act the way they do because we can like understand things and understand trauma that's run through you know our ancestry we can understand all those things right that's like kind of a mind awakening we can like
Valerie Vazquez : see why we're butting heads in our relationship or why certain things keep repeating because we can see it we can name it you know the attachment styles we can we can just like look at the psychology of it but then like when we really really want to heal we got to go deeper into
Valerie Vazquez : having wanting to have a connection to the divine to god to source to the sacred we have to like allow and surrender ourselves over to that unknown and doing that is by releasing the trapped and stored energy that we have in our bodies in our energetic bodies
Valerie Vazquez : So obviously in this day and age, we really understand that we can't see everything, but we know that like the only way that you're even really listening to me right now is because there's these, you know, waves of energy that are bringing this transmission to you.
Valerie Vazquez : if you're listening to me on Spotify or wherever on your cell phone, like we know that there's cell towers, we know there's EMFs now, we know all of these things. But the thing that, you know, we haven't really been taught in a Western society is that we have these energy centers, these chakras, they hold energy, they store energy.
Valerie Vazquez : And when it is blocked, it's It causes us to have pain. It causes us to repeat patterns in our lives.
Valerie Vazquez : It causes us to not fully understand that we are literally a bridge between the earth and heaven. we are the bridge. We the bridge.
Valerie Vazquez : But when we have a whole bunch of, you know, so fear and judgment and guilt and grief and all of these, like, all of these energies that are stuck in our lower centers,
Valerie Vazquez : We aren't fully clear. our Our channel isn't open. ah So when we talk about like manifestation and all of these other things, you know, to truly be able to manifest, I believe, is that you have to have these channels open and you you have to clear out this stuck, dense energy Or are you're not going to like actually feel that you're worthy of receiving these things.
Valerie Vazquez : and And I mean just like creating a life where you do have happiness and joy. not necessarily getting like the house and the car and those kind of things that we think that we want to manifest because like that's our ego telling us that that whatever.
Valerie Vazquez : I don't want to go down that tangent right now. I'm trying to stay on this like um feeling and healing. So it's really important to allow yourself to when something comes up for you to not stuff it down, but to process it, to allow it to just come up and out. So I'm going to tell you a little story about this morning and what happened.
Valerie Vazquez : So it is the Pisces new moon today and it is like the last few days for whatever and don't try to figure it out anymore but I have been feeling a lot that is coming up and this morning when my husband and my son a lot of times when we go out and do farm work we meet together to do breath work And this morning, like I didn't, I like my ego was like, I don't want to do this.
Valerie Vazquez : Like, I really don't want to do this. But I've also know how to override my ego and tell it, hey, just sit down. You're okay. Trust me.
Valerie Vazquez : I got this. We're going to be fine if we do breath work. we're probably going to actually feel better. But I, as I was doing the breath work, oh, yep, the tears, they started coming up.
Valerie Vazquez : They were coming up, but I was able to kind of keep it quiet. And that was what my ego was telling me. Just keep it quiet. Don't make anyone else uncomfortable. Like, don't make your, yeah, Chad or Logan uncomfortable.
Valerie Vazquez : Just ah kind of like cry quietly and get through this breath work. Woo. But then...
Valerie Vazquez : the higher self, the higher version of me was like, ooh, no, yeah. You got to let it rip, sister. You got to let it out.
Valerie Vazquez : It doesn't matter who hears it. It just needs to come out. You're safe. Just let it come out. So I just let it come out. And it was not just crying that came out. It was like this sacred rage that started coming out, just like this deep, visceral pain that was just like,
Valerie Vazquez : flowing out of me and um neither of them were phased by it we've finished the breath work because they've been in situations where they've seen processing happen and they know but of course being my husband and my son when we got done they were kind of like you know what came up for you and I shared what came up for me and I also didn't fully know all of it.
Valerie Vazquez : Because here's the thing about when you're in the beginning of your process, again, a lot of it is is very much your pain. Like, because that's the only thing that you're really aware of. Like, I mean, obviously we are aware that in this day and age, in this world, it is a painful place. We see a lot of pain and a lot of hurt, especially if you're on social media, you're able to find just so many people that are in pain and so many people that are struggling right now for so many different reasons. I mean, it is, yeah,
Valerie Vazquez : yeah it's it's a painful, you know, the human experience is painful and this is a very interesting timeline that we are we are living in. This is a very interesting time that we came down, you know, our souls chose to come down during this time to see all of this and to experience it.
Valerie Vazquez : And so, I don't question it anymore. What's coming up. I know some of it's not even mine and I'm okay with that. But it's like, if you could just understand that it's like, we're, we are these vessels and some of us came down just to heal ourselves. And then some came to heal the collective.
Valerie Vazquez : Like it's this, we're not, even though it feels sometimes like this journey can be so lonely
Valerie Vazquez : We're all kind of, we're still in it together. our Our paths are different, but we're all like processing through these things in a different way. and once I really let out all of that, it was just like everything just cleared within me. It was like I felt my energy return again. And I felt clear.
Valerie Vazquez : And I just started getting all of these different downloads that were were coming through. and see, that's the thing about like the spiritual journey is that so many times it can be so like you know wanting to escape into this spiritual realm of like you know going up into your third eye and and having all of these different experiences that that are not so human but they're you know they're just like um
Valerie Vazquez : yeah, they're they're up there. i don't know. They're in the ether. You like want to escape to these places. But the problem with doing that is that we don't fully embrace, you know, our humanity either.
Valerie Vazquez : But the more that we can clear our channel, the more that we can... have these moments where we actually know we're being touched by the divine.
Valerie Vazquez : We're being touched by God. Like you can feel it because you are willing willing to it. heal it You're willing to let go of the anger that's coming through you. You're willing to let go of the pain. You're willing to let go of these things. And so you actually do have deeper experiences. you You feel more connected to the earth. You feel more connected to yourself and to others.
Valerie Vazquez : Whenever you just allow this energy to to break out and release out of you, when you no longer have to you know, listen to your ego saying, i don't want to do the breath work.
Valerie Vazquez : I don't want to do it. Well, yeah, there's a reason why your ego doesn't want to do it. But trust me, your higher self is encouraging you to release the pain because the more pain that you release out of you, i promise you the better relationships you're going to have with yourself and with others.
Valerie Vazquez : And you're going to see things so much more clear and you're going to give yourself so much more grace and and have so much more compassion and realize just how connected we truly, truly are you know, it's one thing to say, oh, we are all one.
Valerie Vazquez : But there's another thing to actually feel it. When you are will willing to go to the depths and clear out this stagnant energy and like you actually feel your heart chakra opening up, it's like then you feel are one.
Valerie Vazquez : that you are one You know that you are one. You are being held by this energy that is always around us and that is always there for for us.
Valerie Vazquez : buts It's how many times I personally have been able to get through the toughest times during my healing journey is when I can just breathe.
Valerie Vazquez : Be in this energy of love and light and allow it to hold me and show me that I'm not alone.
Valerie Vazquez : That it's like it's just there waiting for you to surrender to it.
Valerie Vazquez : Just surrender to the unknown. Your ego wants to hold on so tightly to everything that you know. And sometimes your ego wants to hold on to the pain because it doesn't know otherwise.
Valerie Vazquez : I just want to send so much love to you all again. If you haven't subscribed, please do so. Share, comment, rate the show a five, please.
Valerie Vazquez : and um And just thank you for being along this journey. I i was really... Like thinking back to when I first started this podcast and like how much evolution I felt like I've already gone through in this short amount of time.
Valerie Vazquez : and just like the the changes that I have felt within me. And the understanding of like that this is just such a beautiful journey that we are all on when we embrace the true healing journey and just like allow ourselves to be with what it is, to slow down, took she give ourselves the sacred love that maybe that we have never been shown that's okay.
Valerie Vazquez : But now it's like, it's a must during this journey. It's a must to slow down and take care of yourself. Okay, sending you so much love until next time, aloha.
