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Speaker: Welcome to the Slut Next Door podcast, where we dive deep into desire, unravel kinks and fetishes, and explore the deliciously naughty side of self-discovery.
Speaker: I'm Beatrix Vale, an erotic audio creator, and your guide to all things kinky and curious. So let's begin.
Speaker: So recently I asked my good boys and my Discord server, what kind of podcast episode should I do next? And one particular one said, as someone who loves a i a mommy, I'd love to hear more about where she came from, how she became a part of your work, and I realized that's a story I've never really told.
Speaker: So if you've spent any time in the erotic audio world, you may have noticed that a lot of creators are faceless, and I'm one of them.
Speaker: My work is built around my voice and kind of like the atmosphere i create and the psychological experience of listening.
Speaker: But even in a voice-driven kind of medium, people still want something visual to attach to the experience.
Speaker: So that's where ai Mommy came from. If you've browsed my audio stores or seen the the covers for my audios, you have seen her.
Speaker: She's the woman looking back at you from the artwork. And over time, she's kind of become the visual stand-in for my persona.
Speaker: And now it's not literally me, but it's a representation of the energy behind the voice. And that's what I want to talk about today.
Speaker: I want to talk about where the idea started, how the image evolved over time, and why faceless creators use visual personas in the first place.
Speaker: and Because for me, AI Mommy really wasn't just about making cover art. She really ended up becoming a really useful tool for building the world around my voice and giving listeners something concrete they could imagine when they're inside the fantasy.
Speaker: So today we're going to pull back the curtain a little bit and talk about the story behind her. Now before I get into that, going I'm going to do my little segment where I talk about what's currently making me feel like a goddess.
Speaker: So it's actually something that happened last night and it's kind of just stuck with me. i was reading a line from the book, women who run with wolves and i am loving the book love it but I read something last night that really just stayed with me and so she says that the idea that a woman's light doesn't live behind her eyes it lives deeper and
Speaker: It lives in her ovaries and the part that and the part of her that creates, that feels, that knows before thinking. So she's kind of talking about just that kind of magical intuition and it lives in a woman's ovaries.
Speaker: And i've been I've been sitting with that. And when I first read it it, of course, tickled my brain. But it also made me think about my my audio work. And it made me think about sexuality, too. and it really kind of made me think about, you know, when have I ever worked from that energy?
Speaker: So that kind of energy that doesn't think, just feels. And I had to be reminded of, I think that's where I think that's where my voice finds its power is from the ovaries. So I'm able to tap into that mystical part of my female side when I'm recording because I do believe that there's a lot of times, now while I do write scripts, there's sometimes I'm i'm improv-ing. or I might make a sound or change the tone of my voice or add in a line.
Speaker: And I didn't plan for that. And so i do look at that as more of an intuitive action. and I love the concept that My feminine power comes from from that deep place.
Speaker: It's so, so powerful. And i can't remember if I've mentioned this in this segment before, but I'm really on this divine feminine energy kick lately it's just been like really sitting with me and won't go away but that's not when I say that that's not a bad thing of course but something I just can't shake and something I want to dig into more and I think that's why I started this book as well
Speaker: But what's so interesting is that, you know, we as women literally have this life portal between our legs, you know, this powerful, this powerful thing. And i I heard someone on social media say you know, woman did not come from man's rib.
Speaker: That man came from between her legs. um And that's the kind of power I'm most interested in right now, especially in this time in my life. So that is what's currently making me feel like a goddess, having intuitive light and within my ovaries.
Speaker: Now, let's go back to a i Mommy. And so I probably should say that AI Mommy the... the a i persona that I created with someone and we'll get into that. So when I say AI mommy, it just means the the character, the visual character that I use in my brand.
Speaker: So
Speaker: Here's why she was created. So first, we need to talk about, you know, just being an audio creator. It's not it's not rare for an audio creator to remain faceless.
Speaker: There's a variety of reasons, but, you know, the way I do audios, especially in the hypnosis space, it's a very heady thing. place where a lot of people, i would say like a lot of listeners don't even care about what I look like, the woman behind the mic. It's really not about that.
Speaker: They just love audio. They love their mind being stimulated so the visual is not even needed. but You know, I post in places like ah Clips for Sale and other clip stores, and those are very visual marketplaces. Usually people are selling videos and, you know, they've got very eye-catching covers. So it just made sense to me to have...
Speaker: have a persona for this reason and also really I remember thinking I just wanted someone to be my profile picture just kind of that stood for my brand and I think it's really important even if you're a faceless creator you still need some kind of visual branding and I think without that your work can kind of just disappear um When you're in somewhere like the clip stores, we also have the knowledge of how powerful logos are and things of that nature. you know You can think of a brand name and boom, the image of their font pops up in your head. So...
Speaker: You know, having any kind of visual to me was important. um You know, you can think about book covers and um album art for for music albums, film posters.
Speaker: ah I don't know enough... of the jargon and language behind like marketing ah whatever, but all these things, we know how important it is. So that really is why i decided to spend time birthing a i mommy. So let's talk about the origin story um So I remember, at least for me, this was around the time when AI generation of images were just like really big and it was new and exciting and everything.
Speaker: and i didn't quite know how how someone would create an AI character and have it be consistent each time because and I can't remember who I got this this info from, but I had understood that it was pretty impossible to generate an AI image and have it be the same image, like the same face, and it just be uniform any time you try to do.
Speaker: Tried to generate her more it would be similar but not not similar enough So I was kind of just on the hunt for I knew i wanted this persona, this this character to look realistic because I could look out into the audio world and I saw a lot of other audio creators using more animated visuals for their personas. And I really didn't want that.
Speaker: It seemed too cartoony and I don't feel cartoony. I liked the idea of AI because it looked realistic. And I remember liking how some AI looks realistic, but you can tell it's AI, if that makes sense. So, and I really can't remember how we started to having this conversation, but what I'm thinking is probably, i i was talking about it in my Discord server a a
Speaker: fan, if you will. It's weird to call him a fan at this point because I do feel like a friendship was formed. um We're going to, for the sake of him staying anonymous, we will call him, John. Okay. So John, ah we had worked together on some custom audios and we, it was very collaborative. So, you know, our, our connection was, was there from doing those custom audios and,
Speaker: I think he offered to me. I can't remember if I asked him or he offered, but he's like, pretty much like, let me try it out because he is very knowledgeable within anything techie.
Speaker: And so I'm like, cool. And I remember we got on the phone and he wanted to kind of know, well, what do you want this woman to look like? And It's a really weird question because I didn't know. i didn't know what I wanted her to look like.
Speaker: How do you describe that? So we kind of just walked through it. i knew i wanted her to have dark hair and darker features because I'm a little biased towards it I like women that have darker hair. I think they're more beautiful. And ah and just like the the that's just my preference with the...
Speaker: with the female form and I knew that I wanted her to look milfy like I wanted her to look like she could be thirty s or older because obviously I do a lot of a lot of mommy content so I didn't want her to look young didn't want her to look like she was in college And so for me, Milfie, if I'm thinking about, you know, i oh, I'm in the erotic game, so I need to exaggerate her body. So I knew I wanted her to have bigger breasts because, I mean, come on, mommy, who we're trying to pull in that and that direction. And I wanted her to be curvy,
Speaker: I definitely didn't want her to be super like a super skinny mommy. I wanted her to have an hourglass frame. I wanted her to have hips. I wanted her to have the breasts.
Speaker: I wanted her to be what people think about when they think of a hot milk, right? And so um I'm trying to remember. I don't think there were any other directions I gave him at that point.
Speaker: My memory is terrible. So I could be forgetting something, but I definitely remember telling him these things. Look milfy, dark hair. And so so he created some. And I remember at first, the first ones that came out, they they looked... She was looking rather Latina, which is fine, but that wasn't what I had in my mind. And so I was like, okay, we got to redo, we got to take away the Latina flavor a little bit. And so he did his a little magic with ai ai
Speaker: And yeah, he had created just amazing pictures, um a variety of different kinds of AI mommy. And I think we called her together. I can't remember if it's his idea or my idea of calling her AI mommy, but you were like, here's mommy. And we both fell in love with her.
Speaker: who loved her. So AI mommy was technically created by a fan. And, uh, and so to fast forward a little bit, I would start feeling really bad because I'd be like,
Speaker: you know, I need some more images of a i mommy and he would happily generate them. He would probably happi happily generate them to this day. But um with a little research, I did find this great ah program called Higgs field that is able to duplicate, I'm lacking the words, like create other versions of someone um basically it it it attacks the problem that I initially had and that it's impossible to generate the same the same person in AI. And so...
Speaker: I took over the generation of AI mommy. Um, it's, it's pretty, i highly recommend the program. It's really great. It's great for beginners like me, um, that don't know what they're doing. And, uh,
Speaker: So, yeah, so now I take that over and um that's that's AI mommy and she's just kind of stayed the same. She does. kind I've noticed she does kind of change just like like slightly, but it definitely looks like the same AI character, I think.
Speaker: And, you know, she's just kind of turned into the avatar of my fantasy space. And I'm super pleased with what she's turned into because I do think that she matches the energy of my voice. She looks maternal yet super sexy.
Speaker: and Oh, I remember telling John, the fan that helped generate her, I wanted her to have more like blue eyes with those dark features. I thought that was like so hypnotic.
Speaker: And maybe that's a personal thing. I've always been jealous of women that have blue eyes and dark hair. um i just think that's so unique and and gorgeous. So maybe that's a little bit of me wishing um I had that. But Yeah, I think she, for me, just really captures my brand, my persona, and works as a perfect visual proxy for me. And I get to stay faceless and I get to have this perfect milfy looking AI mommy um represent my brand.
Speaker: And I think what's great about using a i as a persona is it's so easy to fit her into different themes or moods of different covers. You know, you're able to change things.
Speaker: The mood and the dominance level, what she's wearing, um you know, is it more nurturing mommy energy or is it goddess energy? And you're able to just, you know, push out all these images and have different ones to choose from.
Speaker: There are some roadblocks, though. For example, yesterday was working on or I had finished up recording a file where conditioned the listener to make a hey-gow face, which if you don't know what that is, it's a face you see it a lot in the Gooding community, like women will...
Speaker: stick their tongue out, roll their or cross their eyes, maybe even drool. And that's called an a hey gal face. And so I created this hypno where I'm conditioning the listener to need to make that face basically.
Speaker: And I was thinking how cool it it would it be to have ai mommy making and a hey gal face? Well, it just totally did not work out. um If you have experience with prop prompting a i It can be a little wonky sometimes. And going back to working with John, the the fan that helped me create AI Mommy, I remember us having so many like bloopers that we would laugh at. um he We played around with having like nudes of ai Mommy.
Speaker: So where we would have the nude version of her. And I remember he was doing like some Some like a batch of AI mommy and her bare ass and his AI model.
Speaker: it It got some great ones, but also you can kind of see how AI takes something and just does not understand. of what it should be doing. ah It created a very scary version of AI Mommy where she is very um short and stubby. And I believe her ass took up her whole, like basically the whole body, it felt like. But, you know, so there's a lot of like bloopers and that's fun. um it becomes, in my opinion, like fun to show... my fans, the bloopers of a a Mommy. But and generally, and I would say i haven't been, i probably should go back and look, but it's been at least a couple years since I started using visual image AI generation. and I would say that I do feel like it has improved immensely since I first started.
Speaker: And I'm not even the one generating them. I'm talking about looking at the batches that are created. it definitely has improved. It still struggles with hands sometimes. um But anyway, so that is the birth of a i Mommy. I always joke with John that...
Speaker: He is the dad. He's daddy of AI Bobby. He is her God. um You know, i i would imagine it was really fun for him to Probably a couple things because I know how sweet he is. He probably took a lot of joy in helping me as an artist. And I'm sure he had just ah the funnest time creating these sexy versions of AI Mommy 2.
Speaker: I would imagine that for some of my fans, they probably don't really care what I'm using for images on my audio covers, and that's totally fine.
Speaker: But I do think that some people have appreciated the addition of her. i think that they maybe even start to imagine the image of her when they hear me. And I think that's really awesome because like I said at the beginning, I i create fantasy.
Speaker: And so if I have... this quote unquote woman that i visualized in my brain, this milfy woman, and you're picturing her while you're hearing my voice. i think that's amazing. I really do. I i i love it.
Speaker: I think having this visual trigger for people that like it or are more drawn to visual aspects, I think it's a great thing. and for me as an artist, just overall adds my brand, adds some depth to it when when that visual trigger is needed or preferred.
Speaker: And I actually have a really, really amazing story related to a i Mommy that I had to to bring up in this episode. I have checked with this fan to make sure that he was okay with me mentioning it on this podcast episode, and he totally was. I'm going to keep him anonymous, of course. um But AI Mommy...
Speaker: the persona that I use for my brand, she lives in the flesh technically.
Speaker: So she is tattooed on a man's body. And so let me explain this to you because I think it's a really beautiful story as well.
Speaker: This particular fan, you guys know I hate that word. um I just hate using the word. It makes me feel corny. um But can I can never think of a better word and to replace it with. Anyway, this fan, um he's been with me almost from day one.
Speaker: i mean, so close to day one, it's not even funny. We have, you know, I know a lot about him. I would say he knows a lot about me, especially compared to to my other fans. um We have shared things with each other.
Speaker: He was around when I was doing phone sex sessions. So we've spoken on the phone. And I would say when you do phone, you get to know people. Well, obviously, because you're having conversations. And this particular fan just has always been very open.
Speaker: ultra supportive, ah just overall sweet. We've mentioned multiple times that we consider each other friends, you know, like we would be friends in real life. He's just the sweetest thing and I i just adore the hell out of him.
Speaker: So i know through our conversations that I have i have done a lot for him on a personal level, as in helped him explore sides of himself, helped him accept parts of himself, help him reflect and and be able to look inside and and be okay with what he sees. You know, we've just, we've done some really deep work together.
Speaker: And so... Eventually, he has an idea of, I actually don't really know the story, but he gets, I'm assuming he's like, I'm going to get a tattoo. And so he decides to get a tattoo of AI mommy. And really, it's not, I wouldn't say it's like, I'm going to get AI mommy because I love Beatrix that much. I don't think that's really the point of it.
Speaker: What I think his tattoo is about is, and he he did explain this, it is a visual representation of the growth that he has made in this stage of his life where you know that some of that acceptance has happened. And yes, it's it's the persona that I use for my brand But it's not all about me because he couldn't have made that growth without himself, you know, without his own inner work.
Speaker: And, you know, I'm not not giving my myself credit in saying that I didn't have a hand in that. But, you know, the tattoo isn't like, oh, my God, I'm Beatrix's number one fan. So I'm going to get a tattoo of her. um It's definitely not that. Yeah.
Speaker: But I think, and let me tell you, the tattoo is fucking gorgeous. The guy, whoever did his tattoo should win an award. And it is the most gorgeous tattoo. It just looks like, it just looks like a gorgeous woman on his body. And yeah it's amazing.
Speaker: Um, And so yeah, I had to bring that up on an episode about AI mommy because that it it still blows me away. I love being able to say that AI mommy lives in flesh somewhere. And if i could just if I could just touch that tattoo, take a picture with it, oh my God, Because um i just think it's amazing. it it It still blows me away. And it still makes me feel so warm and fuzzy inside.
Speaker: You know, for many reasons, but to know that yeah I have made a difference in someone's life at such a such a deep level.
Speaker: honestly, it could almost bring me to tears just talking about it, but I'm not going to cry. ah and again, the tattoo is amazing. i wish I could show you guys. It's so pretty. i mean, but you see if you look at my avatar, you see how gorgeous AI mommy is. Just imagine that in flesh. It's It's gorgeous. So yes, that is one of my fun facts about AI Mommy, one that I will never, ever, ever forget that I just think is super cool.
Speaker: um So I wanted to bring up in this in this episode that there actually are some like AI ethics, like debates out there, especially within other worlds of erotic audio and i was going to really touch on that and really unpack it but I decided to just say to just say this I've always marched to the beat of my own drum I've always done that and you know I have my own personal opinions about it and that's all that matters
Speaker: That's all I'm going to say about that. um I really don't understand what what the overall issue is, but you know i use what I use and i i stand on that ground ah proudly.
Speaker: So the future of a i Mommy You know, where could AI Mommy evolve? I really,
Speaker: I think she evolves all the time. i think that she becomes more and more refined every time she's created. i have animated her a little bit.
Speaker: And those have always been super fun um So maybe there's more animation in the future. i don't know. i can't take on any more knowledge learning on how to do something like that. But maybe it'll happen one day.
Speaker: um you know, maybe there is some... more visual storytelling around her. Like I would love for her to, so I would love for an audio to really make her come alive. I don't know how that would be.
Speaker: i don't know what that audio is, but I've always thought that would be really, really, really cool. um Maybe she becomes, AI mommy becomes like,
Speaker: What mythology of Beatrix Vale? I don't know. i don't know what her future is, but it is, of course, exciting to think about. She definitely is not going anywhere. I love her.
Speaker: And that's all that matters. So that is the story behind mommy. And, you know, she wasn't, she wasn't created to replace anything. And she definitely wasn't created to trick anyone into thinking that that is me. Absolutely not. She was created to solve a very simple problem, which is that, you know, audio lives inside the ears and inside the brain, I think. But sometimes the Internet calls for some visual ah things. You know, people scroll, people see images, and sometimes an image can become a doorway,
Speaker: into something they need to experience, like my voice. And so for me, AI Mommy became that doorway. AI Mommy is like the visual mask that my voice wears and symbol of Beatrix Vale.
Speaker: And I always hope that it that she has become something that my listeners can anchor to and fantasy when they when they hear me speaking.
Speaker: Building experiences that feel immersive and and intentional and personal. That is what this whole craft is about for me.
Speaker: An AI mommy became something that I thought was needed for my brand. So AI mommy is just one small piece of of my brand she I like to think of it as she's the face that people see at the entrance and the voice is what happens once they step inside.
Speaker: So thank you so much for listening to this little lore about who AI Mommy is. If you have no idea who she is, if I'm new to you check out this the um link and the description of this episode and that'll take you right to all the places that you need to go And again, thank you for listening. And until next time.
Speaker: And that's a wrap for this episode of The Slut Next Door, where we dive deep into the raw, unapologetic truths of human desire.
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