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Partying Is Out, but I’m Still Hot- Episode 12
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Khalil and Ali unpack the ritual, chaos, and emotional math of partying when you’re queer, Palestinian, and tired. From pre-game anxiety and ADHD meds to lineups, Uber politics, and avoiding exes in the club, this episode delivers dry humor, sharp critique, and enough sass to power a disco ball. They discuss smoking as survival, guest list elitism, and why the pre-game often eats the main event. Also: Ali demands five compliments minimum, Khalil fights jacket check culture, and both agree—being hot doesn’t mean you have to show up.
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Transcript
Introduction and Recording Setup
00:00:07
Speaker
Hey, can you hear me? Yeah, just started recording. Okay, okay. Because I never started recording right at the beginning. Let's see if, is there a way to know if this is actually recording? No, I just saw that it said recording video and audio.
Reflections on Podcasting Medium
00:00:22
Speaker
Okay, we have proof that the current guest lights us. I think, I don't know what happened the last time, but I'm just going to, I believe it was me. It had to happen. But that podcast episode was so good.
00:00:35
Speaker
And the numbers don't lie. Like a lot of people are not necessarily watching the video as compared to like the stream. Honestly, when I listen to podcasts, I don't look at the video.
00:00:46
Speaker
Yeah, everyone's been saying that. The only utility about the podcast videos for the reels. Yeah. But it's not that big of a deal. It's not that serious. Wow, you're so slutty right now.
00:00:59
Speaker
ah literally put on the first thing I could see.
00:01:04
Speaker
And also, I was not paying attention. I, like, looked at your messages and I'm just, like, trying to read them. I'm not going to analyze a picture you
Humorous Social Media Interactions
00:01:12
Speaker
sent. No, but I just feel like it's a little, like... But it's lovely.
00:01:19
Speaker
You're just kind of, like... I just feel like you pretend to be the sweetheart. Not if Israel. Uh... If Israel stopped existing. ah No, but if for the picture.
00:01:32
Speaker
Wait, not ah no, but like, yeah. But for the as for the picture you sent me, I just feel like you.
00:01:42
Speaker
Pretort yourself as a sweetheart. And you're really like, you are kind of but like not really. i'm a sweetheart. You're like, oh, I like everybody's stories no matter what. Like I just click, click, click.
00:01:57
Speaker
i There are lots of stories of mine that you have not liked. Okay, let's calm down. No, no. i listen I'm not hurt by it, but I'm just saying like... i Literally, it's not an intentional thing.
00:02:09
Speaker
If I don't like some if i don like someone's story, it's just because I happen to skip to the next one before. why did you say But why did you say that before, though, is my point. Because it's an exaggeration.
00:02:21
Speaker
Oh. So you lie. No, I think it's like saying, i literally am so hungry, i can die. I'm not actually going to die.
00:02:32
Speaker
Or, I don't know, like, I just feel like avoiding liking that picture was just saying, like, like, I don't appreciate the effort you took to, like, show that I'm in the sun, you know? that is so funny.
00:02:49
Speaker
But okay, ah notesed and shatlah and so I I'm kidding. I know, I know you are. But this is the thing. I will say shit like this to people and they think I'm being serious. And it's like, are you regarded?
00:03:01
Speaker
Yeah, I know. I know.
Podcast Episode Introduction: Partying
00:03:03
Speaker
Because the humor is in like ridiculousness of because this is something that a crazy bitch might say. Absolutely.
00:03:12
Speaker
i To be like, I didn't appreciate how you did. It's like like high school girls would be like, worry you didn't like my story. Why? yeah But you like Jessica's story. i asked her. yeah And then they play it off as if that is normal thing to the side.
00:03:28
Speaker
But yeah, I totally like it used to be. Remember on Instagram, you could see activities. Yeah. Who you liked. Like what are your liking? That was dramatic.
00:03:39
Speaker
I mean, you can still see what people are liking. If you look at the post. Yeah, if you get the post. butpa look People can hide likes too. Oh, that's true. To turn off my volume. Yeah, please. Dude, have ADHD and I keep touching my phone even though I'm recording a podcast.
00:03:58
Speaker
Oh, I actually do need my phone though. That's why. And also I'll introduce, hi everyone, all of people, love you, miss you hope your week has been good. This week's episode is about partying, the ritual of it. Like, comment, subscribe. Yeah, like, comment, subscribe.
00:04:15
Speaker
part of this The topic for today is partying, the rituals of it, the red flags, the do's, the don'ts, things you've outgrown, etc. as So we will start off, actually before that, how was your week?
Weekly Catch-up and Social Activities
00:04:30
Speaker
My week's been pretty good, actually. yeah Honestly, i feel like um very ah light.
00:04:42
Speaker
I've been um I feel like I've been indulging, but not in a way that I have spent a bunch of money. oh and just I don't know. Wings are in real- What have you indulged in?
00:04:55
Speaker
I just like have honestly just not been working and I've just been like outside in the sun getting my dick sucked. swimming and then also i've just been like hanging out and eating foods with my friends one of my friends her roommate has a kitten oh so i love hanging out with her because then there's this like i don't know i just feel like i've been having a good time and like summer is just starting yeah yeah ah you know you're changing the energy you need to get a cat as soon as you move to wherever
Apartment Search and Moving Plans
00:05:31
Speaker
Wherever. Yeah. No, i am I think I am going to do that. That's easy. It's just like one step at a time. Like I have, i have financing done. i have money. I'm now rich. Olives come at me. If you have a business idea, i have some funds,
00:05:51
Speaker
but I have that done. and then now I just need to like find an apartment. Hmm. And that's kind of honestly it. But finding an apartment is kind of like a serious endeavor, I'm starting to realize.
00:06:03
Speaker
Today is actually my, because I'm going on, I have from Wednesday to Monday designated to a view apartments. That's all the time. But it's going to be Pride weekend where I'm going.
00:06:15
Speaker
wow. So like the weekend is going to be a wash. So I honestly only have Thursday, Friday. Yeah. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. So I have to email a bunch of like people today being like, hey, I want to come view.
Enjoyment of Simple Pleasures
00:06:28
Speaker
Yes. The timeline is a little fuzzy because I'm looking for August 1st and like it's a little early, but I ah have a whole strat. Yeah. No, no, no. It's never too early. I think July is good.
00:06:39
Speaker
July. It's not even June. i mean, it's May.
00:06:46
Speaker
So i I literally just woke up 10 minutes ago, but just so that people know, I'm not an idiot. I woke up 50 minutes ago and all I've had for breakfast was a joint and sunlight.
00:07:00
Speaker
Wow. Get on my level. Is weed on an empty stomach different than weed after eating? I feel amazing. Okay, okay, okay, okay. I literally like, yeah, I weak i love, i've I've said this before, I'll say it again, I love being in the sun and smoking a joint.
00:07:17
Speaker
It's my favorite thing in the world. Yeah, you're like a cold-blooded reptilian. You know how they love the sun? Oh, they do. They love the sun. Like, they love to sunbathe. They love to, because that's how they get their warmth.
00:07:31
Speaker
I really am lizard. Like, i I am very, like, troll under the bridge. Lizard, basking in the sun. It's like out on a fire. When I think of a lizard, I feel like if a lizard was a person, they would be a stoner.
00:07:46
Speaker
I don't know why. yeah I see like, like just vibing in the sun. yeah yeah ah If you ever watch an iguana, those fuckers move fast when they want, when they want to. Yes.
00:07:57
Speaker
Need to even. Yeah.
Managing Social Expectations and Personal Time
00:07:59
Speaker
Yeah. And I think they grow back their tail. ah You're weak, Ben. Am I weak? I realized I've been lying to you and everyone around me.
00:08:10
Speaker
Because everyone who's asked me, how are you doing? I've been saying, oh my God, horrible. I've been working like two weeks straight. And I realized I think that's what society's conditioned me to say when I'm working nonstop.
00:08:23
Speaker
Because it's how I'm able to then say I can't hang out. Because I think people are like, if I were to say, oh my God, I'm doing so well. They're going to be like, okay, do you want to grab dinner?
00:08:36
Speaker
But then you could literally just say I'm actually working every day. No, exactly. but then But then they're still going to believe theyre they believe that. I know, I know. But I'm realizing actually working two weeks straight sucks because obviously I don't have enough free time to do the things I want to do.
00:08:52
Speaker
But i like I've told you this before. I like routine. I like ah structure and I like personal time. So I feel like working and not having time to do anything means I'm just spending time with myself.
00:09:06
Speaker
So it's not, it's horrible in the fact that I can't do fun things, but It's okay. but You can use your time work time as like you're doing self-reflecting.
00:09:21
Speaker
You're meditating. Meditating, listening to podcasts, all of people in particular. ah Like literally just chilling, listening to music, playing video games. I finished a video game actually.
00:09:34
Speaker
That'll be my medium
Party Boundaries and Social Dynamics
00:09:36
Speaker
moment later. sir but You finished a video game at work? No. When I come home from work, I have like four hours.
00:09:46
Speaker
So I've been able to like, but like lock in and then actually put a couple hours into a game. Not just three two weeks, more than that. But yeah yeah yeah, like it's been a nice reset, especially considering yesterday i ended up because yesterday was my first day off in two weeks.
00:10:04
Speaker
And i went out with some friends, super fun, super fun. I'm exhausted though. They ended up, so I went to this party, which is funny because it'll get into our topic.
00:10:15
Speaker
I went into this party at like 3 p.m. It's a day night party. it goes until 2 a.m. And I left by like 10 p.m. They went from 10 p.m. and then went to another party.
00:10:29
Speaker
And that I can't do. So that's in my no-goes. I will not party for more than six hours at a time. So they were they probably just went to bed? No, they went straight. So they joined me at this party and then at 10pm went to the next party, which goes on until the morning.
00:10:48
Speaker
You only partied till 10? Yeah. yeah And you're that dead? Because I got home by 11.30 and then I slept at midnight. Yeah. Okay, but so I went to, okay, literally we went to the bed at the same time. We did because I saw your last scene. in I don't know how where and what app it was, but I saw that. I think you read one of my messages at 1220 a.m.
00:11:11
Speaker
Or yeah, a.m. m So I was like, okay, we're going to bed together. and Oh my God, you're so so creepy for that. No, I'm just kidding. You don't check. Like if somebody, because I messaged you something at night, I was like, wake me up if something, and then I saw you read the message right before I slept.
00:11:29
Speaker
No, to be honest, if I might like I if if the thing is, OK, I'm good at answering messages normally because I'm normally not doing anything. But as soon as I'm doing anything else, I just stop.
00:11:43
Speaker
I just like I'm ah very much like on a need to know. Like I already knew I'm like me and Ali are meeting at this time tomorrow. Like he knows the routine. Like I already I don't really need to say anything.
00:11:54
Speaker
And I feel like if it's an emergency, people will call me and then I'll pay attention to that. Right. But like genuinely, like I just I'm a person where I'll get to it when I get to it. But most of the time I get to it because I'm not I'm like ah I have a lot of free time.
00:12:10
Speaker
But yesterday I was just like hanging out with a guy all day. So I was like sla doing that. Nice, nice, nice. Shall we get into the topic?
00:12:23
Speaker
Oui, oui, mon ami. Okay, perfect. So we're talking about partying, what we do before,
Pre-party Rituals and Challenges
00:12:30
Speaker
during, and after. so we're going to start the before. How do you select yourself?
00:12:35
Speaker
Like before a partying, the ritual. Oh, we're talking about partying. And you asked a question? i haven't yet asked a question. Oh, I'm so sorry. so you go ahead.
00:12:47
Speaker
We're talking about partying though. I feel like that wasn't made clear. I did say we're talking about partying the before, during and after. i but listen. ah So what what are some things you do to like psych yourself up before a party?
00:13:03
Speaker
Oh, I actually, okay, because I don't really like partying. I get anxious before parties because, God, went to, it actually, so I haven't partied in a long time. And then just this, on Saturday, i went to a party, which was an okay party, which I guess is good for this topic.
00:13:21
Speaker
But I get really anxious before parties. So what do I do? um I smoke weed and I internally panic and maybe I'll have I'm not a huge drinker. And when I am drinking alcohol because I don't like it, I'm very slow with it.
00:13:38
Speaker
So at the pregame, I probably only finished like one and a half drinks. Plus or minus like one to two shots max. Usually I don't even not even.
00:13:49
Speaker
Well, maybe sometimes I'll take like at least one shot. And then I'm kind of buzzed. And I also, i get very anxious beforehand about the lineup.
00:14:01
Speaker
Like partying honestly is so fucked up. Like I just hate everything surrounding it because of tickets and lineups and that like dysregulates my system. Wait, what do you mean by lineup?
00:14:14
Speaker
Am I going to have to line up outside? That's so funny that that's what... Because to me, when you said lineup, I thought you meant the DJ lineup. mean Oh, no. I don't give a fuck about who's playing. That's why I was like, that's so not you. Why would you be stressing about this?
00:14:30
Speaker
But no, you meant queuing or waiting in line. Queuing. As someone who went to an international school might say. Waiting. So the lineup, I get it.
00:14:41
Speaker
But... Are they really that long where you're going? Sometimes it's honestly, I've been in fucked up situations where I've literally had a ticket to something.
00:14:52
Speaker
And here's the thing. Most of the year is winter or cold. Oh, yeah. So it's like I'm in a club. out i First of all i hate I don't like checking a ah jacket sometimes because also if you're a smoker and you check a jacket, how am I supposed to go outside and smoke if I can't check in and out my jacket? Tell me.
00:15:11
Speaker
I'm supposed to pay five fucking dollars every time. Every time. I'm in a one-time thing. So it's it's a genuinely a real problem. It's like genuinely a real issue because it's like I don't enjoy partying if I can't smoke.
00:15:23
Speaker
And if I'm outside smoking shivering, I'm not going to enjoy it I actually didn't think about my smoking comrades who need to like, yeah, that that would be a struggle. That would be a struggle.
00:15:34
Speaker
you i feel feel very I feel very seen right now. Thank you. yeah Anyway, so that situation just stresses me out because then it's like, if I don't have a jacket, it's like I'm praying to God that I can like run from the Uber to the door.
00:15:46
Speaker
oh And, like, everything's quick because I'm, like, in a tank top or something. You know what I mean? right Right. I hate... Anyone who knows me and i in person knows that I, like, stay bundled because I like being warm.
00:16:00
Speaker
Hell yeah. See, I don't want to, like, be like, I'm that girl, but I don't have that problem because the parties i go to, arem usually guest listed because I barely go to parties. So if I'm going out, it's either supporting a friend or...
00:16:16
Speaker
going something I'm DJing. So I'm just going to go straight and cut the line. I also hate waiting in line. I hate that. There is a club in Brooklyn called Nowadays, which you... I think I've actually been there.
00:16:31
Speaker
Yeah. So you either... There's two options. You can either get tickets way in advance or you can like wait in line to get in like entering without a ticket. And you could wait for two hours.
00:16:42
Speaker
I've waited for two hours before. And I was like, I'm never doing this again. because In the summer? no it was... i would say, like, maybe fall. So it wasn't horrible. It wasn't horrible weather-wise.
00:16:55
Speaker
It was just... Waiting was annoying. I was like, I want to sleep. Like, I'm done. It was already, like, midnight by the time we entered. Or, like, 1 a.m. m or something. But I want to backtrack to, like, the pre-stuff first.
00:17:12
Speaker
I feel like I also... I need to nap before going out. I can't just go out cold turkey. Especially at work. I aim to nap before I go out. But then sometimes I'll let myself get distracted and then fuck it up.
00:17:27
Speaker
But then that actually happened to me on Saturday where i was like, fuck, I missed a nap. Because I actually ended up like having a busy entire day and then went straight to a pregame. and that Or I like literally came home, showered, and then had to go straight to a pregame.
00:17:40
Speaker
But... ah My friend that I pregamed with gave me a medication for ADHD. Concerta. No. ah Whatever. ADHD medication.
00:17:54
Speaker
Something that he's like, well, at first he was like, oh, I have caffeine pills. And then he comes back and he's like, here's a fucking, like, ah not Adderall, but something like. Ritalin. Ritalin, I think.
00:18:05
Speaker
Yeah, maybe it was a Ritalin. like Here's a Ritalin. He's like, this will keep you wired, though. And I was like, I guess it's better than yawning right now. Yeah, have you tried it before? I'm done. Not Valumes.
00:18:19
Speaker
Viavan? ah no i and don't know now I don't is. Maybe that's like a Canadian generic term for something. But I've i've i flirted with that type of drug.
00:18:31
Speaker
And does it make you normal or does it actually make that? agree but but but Like, does it actually make you high and wired or does it just normalize you?
Mental Health and Substance Use at Parties
00:18:42
Speaker
Because I want to see if you have ADHD.
00:18:44
Speaker
i mean No, it doesn't normalize me. i just get like and more anxious. Okay, then it's probably, you probably don't have full-on ADHD. I think it's just, like, a mixture of, like, complex PTSD.
00:18:58
Speaker
Like, that's the pro- that's my problem. Like, I just don't have a fucking loving family. Like, what kind of person you think get raised? What do you think is the product? Like, what do you think happens? Yeah, like...
00:19:10
Speaker
yeah Yeah. I mean, I think I'm pretty decent, but I just mean I'm quirky. Yeah. You have some quirks. Some quirks. I'm built different. OK, so then we're napping. Honestly, when I say napping, I just mean closing my eyes. I just need to like sit in silence and close my eyes, pretend like I'm not going out and then open my eyes and get ready.
00:19:33
Speaker
When you get ready, do you pre like do you plan an outfit or do you just like put on whatever you want at the time? No, I i mean, i let I wait up until the moment of when I have to get ready to like decide.
00:19:45
Speaker
But I do ah ah like when I already have an idea in mind because I hate looking last minute for something to wear because I just feel like I don't have an outfit and then I'm just like always the person that's in a tank top, which I also don't mind being in a tank top because I have lovely
Fashion and Self-expression at Parties
00:20:01
Speaker
tattoos. So it's like I'm better than the other people in tank tops.
00:20:05
Speaker
Yeah. I mean, you get you spent money on it. You should show it. Of course. yeah I feel like it's is it's like piercings. it's like I feel like people who have... I'm so envious of people that have a ton of piercings in their face because it really is so cool.
00:20:21
Speaker
I know you have a couple. Oh, I only have two my ears pierced. Oh. That's it. Okay. And you wanted to get the tragus. I wanted to get it, but... i love you it I just have a feeling me and my body don't do well with piercings.
00:20:35
Speaker
And if I... We talked about this, but I don't want the tragus to get a keloid, like, behind my... Anywhere visible on my ear, because i just... I'm going to kill myself. under Yeah, yeah. If you get a killer, that's going to be very noticeable because your ears already point out. So it's just going to hang. And I don't have hair. Yeah, that's true. That's true. Yeah, agree. Don't risk it.
00:20:59
Speaker
ah I like to plan my outfits in the sense that let's say I bought a piece of clothing that I'm excited to wear. Sometimes I'll be eager to go out just so that I can wear that thing.
00:21:12
Speaker
But yeah, sometimes that's more exciting to me than the actual partying. and i agree. And I need at least five compliments. If I go out and no one notices or no one says, oh my God, nice outfits.
00:21:27
Speaker
I will kill myself as well. That's funny because I expect it and I actually get anxious about how many people are going to talk to me about whatever it is. You don't want to touch. Because also a regular thing. I don't like, well, because also people are weird. Like, I mean, I'm like, okay, the lot like, ah this is more basic, but the line tattoo is a big one.
00:21:47
Speaker
And some people will come up and touch it. Or, ah you know, I've rhinestone my head and some people will come up and touch it Or like, you know, i have some like cool jumpsuit.
00:21:58
Speaker
People just love to fucking touch shit. We've discussed the touching in the previous episode. Don't touch unless ah unless clearly indicates a that you can. And I've only grown more feral over the years.
00:22:11
Speaker
Like I'm starting to realize that that's the case that's the case with me.
00:22:17
Speaker
Feral elaborates. In terms of I have less patience. Mm-hmm. To offer people for the same mistakes, even though... For their silliness.
00:22:28
Speaker
This is the thing. A white person will come up and do something to you And maybe it's their first time they've someone's addressed them and being like, oh you can't do this kind of thing. Or like anybody.
00:22:40
Speaker
And then it's like, I think people have to realize when someone snaps at you for something small, like you have to have empathy for that person because it's like, think about their shoes. Think about every day how much they deal with that shit.
00:22:52
Speaker
ah A good example is like the the homeless guy sitting, like asking people for money. If you're the person that says no to him and he crashes out at you, It's like, imagine just being told no, five billion times a day.
00:23:05
Speaker
Yeah. It's not like, you know what I mean? Like, I'm not saying the whatever, but it's just like, you know, have some self-refunction time. Have some de-forum. But yeah, I get i i got anxious when I'm wearing something like extravagant.
00:23:23
Speaker
I get anxious a lot dealing with people. ah see that. I can see that.
Navigating Social Anxiety and Interactions
00:23:28
Speaker
Which I wouldn't have pinned you as an anxious person, but I can see how... I think I mask it pretty well. Because I'm also a good public speaker, but I'm nervous as fuck when I'm public speaking. Like, I almost black out. Oh, wow.
00:23:41
Speaker
And then people will... Like, I mean, I've done very well in public speaking. Like my credentials don't lie. But yeah, I like, I just like, it's very much like fake it. So you make it for me and it works.
00:23:53
Speaker
It works. It works. It works. It works. Because in your head, things are so much longer and worse than they actually are. Let me tell you. And also I think you maybe have unlocked because you know what?
00:24:04
Speaker
I'm going to analyze this. I think because you smoke weed, you've surpassed that stage of like self, uh, where you're like, Oh my God, are people noticing I'm high?
00:24:16
Speaker
You know what I mean? You know how like some people when they smoke weed, the whole time they're like, oh my God, everyone's looking at me. Everyone knows I'm high, but blah, blah, blah. You're probably so past that where you're just like, no, then no one's looking. You know what I mean?
00:24:32
Speaker
Yeah. Yeah, no, I definitely don't think that people are paying attention. Yeah. are and People are going to say. Fuck Israel. Fuck Israel. Yeah. That's just. There you go. Pick one.
00:24:44
Speaker
Yeah. Yeah. Um, anyway, partying.
00:24:51
Speaker
So we are finally at the pre. And what do you do? Honestly, sometimes i like the pregame a lot more than the actual partying. Agreed. I love when I'm going to the pregame and I'm the person being like, I'm actually not going out tonight.
00:25:06
Speaker
Oh, but that was almost me yesterday. But ah yeah, I love that. I love just talking to people, seeing friends. And yeah, sometimes I'm just like, it it'll be a lot of work to actually make my way down to a club in the middle of nowhere and just shake my ass for like hours and then Uber back home or whatever.
00:25:30
Speaker
But we're leaving the pre. Do you order the Uber or do you wait for somebody to order an Uber? Slash do you use public transportation? what's your like go to?
00:25:43
Speaker
um It depends on the situation. i think if it's a group of people i know, i'm more willing ah to like order the Uber because it's like, yeah, I like I fuck with these people.
00:25:54
Speaker
Or it's like if it's a big pregame situation, i grab the people that I want to go to the party with. And I'll be like, um I'll get the Uber. Let's go. Yeah. um If it's more of like, I'm only with one person or like, I'm just by myself kind of vibe or like a bigger group of people. I'll like kind of wait for someone else to organize the situation or just tell me what to do. Yeah.
00:26:16
Speaker
I'm the same. um It's, it's kind of more strategy in terms of like the social dynamic, I think. Cause Ubering, Ubering to the club is political.
00:26:28
Speaker
Yes, it is. Because then you're going to end up Uber. If you Uber somebody, i feel like it's very easily overlooked as like a good deed when an Uber ordered.
00:26:39
Speaker
Like, it's just like an expectation. Like, oh my God, the Uber is here. But I think people should more consciously think, who ordered the Uber? I would like to repay them in other ways in the future.
00:26:51
Speaker
You know, like buy them a drink when we get there or something. You know, it just shows that you actually give a shit and you're not just taking advantage of somebody just being nice. You know what am mean?
00:27:02
Speaker
Yeah, but it's also, i feel like with things like that, it's just like, it's just kind of like you put it out into the universe. Like, I'm a person, when i travel, is like, that's my moment where I'm like, okay, here's my time to give out say all the cigarettes that I've taken.
00:27:18
Speaker
ah oh my god, did I tell you I'm starting to like get a craving for cigarettes? That's bad. know. Every time, like yesterday at the party, I realized there was a point where I was just looking around for somebody who's smoking so I can be like, hey, can I bum a cigarette?
00:27:39
Speaker
But then I found no one. Just buy a pack of cigarettes. No, that's so dangerous. That's dangerous. Because then I'll actually smoke. I don't want to smoke. Like, i don't want to be a smoker.
00:27:51
Speaker
Honestly, smoking is so nice. I'm not going to lie. Like, I smoke weed and it just... It really is so nice. It could cure anything in the world. That's why I'm literally like, if like if if anything goes wrong, as long as I have sunlight and something to smoke, like I'm unbreakable.
00:28:09
Speaker
Yeah. Everyone at the party yesterday today just had vapes. was like, let me try. ah I took a puff and I was like, this is not the same. and I threw it back at the stranger. Because you actually?
00:28:20
Speaker
no it was my friend. It was my friend who had the vape. It was like watermelon flavored. And I was like, No. Oh, my God. Watermelon flared. I thought of that just now. Hell, yeah. well but Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. Is she drinking watermelon? Coke.
00:28:36
Speaker
Okay, Coke. But it says. That's so funny. yeah yeah Yeah. ah Did not age well. um what what Now, she's literally perfect.
Changing Attitudes Towards Partying
00:28:48
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Who's your ideal party crew? Or what is your ideal party crew? Um, to be honest, I like people who who kind of like being like, should we should we just not go? ah Um,
00:29:02
Speaker
but like, cause genuinely, like, honestly, I'm gonna, I'm for so for real. Like, I think partying is kind of lame. It's out. I think it's out for me for like 2025, 2020, whatever.
00:29:14
Speaker
I'm not saying never, but, like, seriously, I'm going to adopt the... I mean, if I was in s Toronto longer, i would say I would only go to parties if I get guest listed. But, like, that's what I'm doing from here on out for, like, by the rest of my time here.
00:29:29
Speaker
and then when i when I move, partying just will not be as big an event in my life. And, like, when there is a party, it'll be, like, more rare. So then it'll just be more of, like, a...
00:29:41
Speaker
A novelty. like a novel I just want it to be fun again. like ah I feel like every time i go out, at least in the city here, like for example, I went out yesterday. And just like annoying shit happens. Like this guy that I had went on a date with at one point in time where like, and you it didn't like, ah we it just like, it didn't go anywhere.
00:30:04
Speaker
And like, it's cool. Like where we ended on like fine terms or like not ended, like it was chill. um and But when i when he came up to me on the dance floor, it was really dark and I didn't know who the fuck was like saying my name. So I was like, who is that?
00:30:22
Speaker
And then I was like, oh, it's so-and-so. And they were, I feel like they thought I was pretending like I didn't know who I was like. So again, and I was just like, oh on God. And then I just felt like i was, I was like, then I started being like anxious in my head. And then it was just like a really like pointed interaction.
00:30:38
Speaker
Hmm. And then I could hear him talking about me to like this person he brought to the party. And i was like, oh my God, I was just trying so hard to just be like, I'm not going to look. I'm just going to be like chill even because like, whatever, this is none of my business. Honestly, I feel like it's not talked about enough how most of the time spent at parties is uncomfortable or like waiting or like standing or like dancing in place. But mind in your mind, you're like thinking about the next thing.
00:31:07
Speaker
and you Okay, the worst thing is seeing someone you like, ah ah a friend's friend, or like, let's say a friend's boyfriend who's like kind of a friend, on the dance floor, the music's loud, you're the only two people who kind of know each other around, but you don't really know each other, and then you have to like, either awkwardly dance beside them, or like, ignore them, or try to talk to them, but then it's too loud on the dance floor, so you can't have quick, easy communication like with someone you know. The awkward, you know what i mean? Absolutely. The awkward dancing around people.
00:31:39
Speaker
I'm still trying to crack the code there because it really is weird. Like, and I'm i'm somebody, I think I told you this, where I don't dirty dance with friends in the sense that I'm not like grinding and bumping. I'm for fun a little bit. like for like a couple seconds yeah maybe a few seconds same but then even like you said if you bump into like acquaintances or friends of friends or strangers or whatever where you start talking i don't know i feel like my social cue in like my autism is in the not knowing when is the appropriate time for me to just like walk away and how do i just like walk away like what do i Honestly, I just break away at any point. I just decide to walk away.
00:32:22
Speaker
i think it's helped me to be like, they're probably... Rift the bandaid off fast. yes Yeah, they're probably fucked up. They probably don't even know I'm there and just boom. Although sometimes when people do like come at me like in the sense of like, oh my God, hi, blah, blah, blah, blah. I know you from this or that or like whatever. We have a mutual friend.
00:32:42
Speaker
I also don't know if that's an invitation for me to stick around and i talk to them or if I should just like say hi and bye. Although recently a friend was telling me about an experience he had with a cute guy where the guy came up to him, said, I love your vibe, i love your energy, and walked away.
00:33:03
Speaker
The guy. Yeah, I think that's so good because you plant the seed of like, hey, by the way, I think you're interesting, but you don't linger enough to make it like a hostage situation.
00:33:15
Speaker
You know what I mean? You're like making it clear that I have interest. If you have interest to come find me, but no pressure. I love that vibe. Like, I think that's the best way to interact with people.
00:33:26
Speaker
i feel like that's how I am on Mali. I'll end up just like saying nice things to people. But then you don't mean those things. But you don't really mean that. ah That is true. But maybe in my Mali eyes, I'm able to like, you're the beauty.
00:33:40
Speaker
I'm seeing the beauty. So I might just like, oh my God, I love this top and move. Like, don't like stay. Don't make it a thing. Just spread joy. The thing is, um it depends it all depends on your like goals. you know what I mean?
00:33:56
Speaker
I feel like if my goal is to just give someone a compliment, then yeah, like that's one situation. But if i'm china what if I'm trying to hook up? No, but that's the thing. That's why you plant the seeds.
00:34:09
Speaker
And then if they have interest, they're going to have eyes on you. And like you'll luxurize and realize, oh, there is interest on both sides. have interest, they will look for you. But ah honest to God, I'm so bad with faces. Like I will just be like, I can't remember what that person even looked like.
00:34:23
Speaker
a That's what'll happen to me. I'm really, really so bad for that. like we i yeah Like, time has proven before. Like, we could have had sex and I'll forget who you are.
00:34:34
Speaker
Interesting. Yeah. ah Yeah, literally. Isn't it interesting, though? You know how people get beer goggles where, like, they if they're, like, inebriated or high or whatever, they see people as more attractive than they actually are. pause, actually, for one second? Yeah.
00:34:49
Speaker
I just want to get a freezy. I don't know that is. it's like a lot It's like a frozen treat. Go, go, go. Okay. Okay. This is a freezy, by the way. and Oh, I remember. that We used to have something similar.
00:35:05
Speaker
bet that's just like purely chemicals. Like it's ice and food coloring probably. And? Nothing. and what is what what is just what are they What do you mean by chemical?
00:35:17
Speaker
Ice is a chemical. Red three. Red number three. We don't have that. It's banned in
Substance Use and Social Dynamics at Parties
00:35:22
Speaker
Canada. Oh. I was saying, um ah people get beer goggles where they like see somebody and they think that they're more attractive than they are.
00:35:31
Speaker
I get the opposite. The more high I am or the more inebriated, I fixate on people's... like Like, like I'll look at somebody and the longer I look at them, the more they in their face distorts.
00:35:46
Speaker
like I spent kind of like a bad trip where like you start seeing things like start turning wavy. I'm like, get away from me. Yeah.
00:35:57
Speaker
I don't get beer goggles. I don't think I've never really had this situation. i don't think either way, anything really happens to me.
00:36:07
Speaker
I'm like, i when I get fucked up, I still feel pretty sober. I can see that. I can see you being, you're like my friend where you the whole night you're exactly the same. it doesn't You can't tell that they're like high off their wagon.
00:36:21
Speaker
But I feel like people you can tell.
00:36:25
Speaker
Me. I feel like if I'm high, you can tell. I don't know. I feel like my favorite place to be is just usually wherever people are smoking. And i'm I was like get smoking and yapping. And it's nice if you can hear the music a little bit.
00:36:36
Speaker
When you go for a smoke, is that like social time or do you like stick to yourself? It also depends. Am I smoking because I'm running away from a situation? I need some air.
00:36:49
Speaker
Do I was I just like hot and sweaty and I need some air? Am I looking for people? ah i mean, it just depends. I got it. I got it. Is there anything in a party that's like a red flag where like you walk in and immediately you walk out?
00:37:06
Speaker
um If it's past midnight and it's empty. If you look at the lineup and everyone's ugly. line up q yeah You look at the queue and all the patrons have a displeasing face.
00:37:23
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ah
00:37:25
Speaker
Okay. And then you're like, nope. Yeah, that happens to me if I like go and I'm like, uh-oh, the crowd is very straight right now. And I don't mean like queer straight, where they're like artsy and fartsy. I like that. But if I go and they're like...
00:37:41
Speaker
gym like bros and like hoes I'm like no bros are scary to be this around when they're drinking it's like are like and violence is in the air they're aggressive I've been to a couple of like concerts for DJs I like and it's like very like the the crowd is meant to be straight I think we've talked about this before And I go and it's like all straight people.
00:38:04
Speaker
Their vibe is so whack. Like they'll be talking very loudly in the middle of a concert. They're the bitches with whistles. And it's like, what? How are you? Like you're you're at a concert. Just shut up and listen. Stop talking about Mandy from accounting or whatever.
00:38:21
Speaker
i don't know. Their conversations are so lame. But... um
00:38:26
Speaker
What's your personal boundary around like drinking drugs? Is there a limit? Do you give yourself a limit or do you just go with the flow?
00:38:36
Speaker
What's my boundary for? Like drinking drugs, all this stuff. Like, is do you stop yourself at some point or do you just go with the flow? Do you match someone else's energy?
00:38:47
Speaker
No, I can stop myself. Okay. Because I'm the same way. I'm very deliberate. Like, literally, people will offer me bumps all the time. Like, no, thank you. I'm good. And I can either the look in their eyes of like shock that I'm turning down free stuff.
00:39:02
Speaker
But I always do that. I'm always like, I will pace myself in the way that I know I will enjoy myself and I will never overdo it. I have very good discipline when it comes to that. I feel like John ah outing him as this.
00:39:14
Speaker
I feel like I, I like, I give away all his, like, like in the previous episode, I like outed his flaws. I can't remember what it was. They're not flaws. It's just differences.
00:39:26
Speaker
But he can't say no. Like if somebody offers him a drink, he'll be like, uh, sure. and nobody And it's not because maybe he doesn't want to, but because it was offered to him, he wants to be nice.
00:39:38
Speaker
You know what I mean? and I'm like, no, you can say no. Like you can say, I actually don't want You know what I mean? But he sometimes can't say no. Whereas I'm the other way around. I'll say no multiple times.
00:39:50
Speaker
i'm very I mean, I'm very needs-based. Like, if I want it, I'll take it. And if I feel like I don't want it, I won't take it. So, yeah, if I'm too fucked up or I feel like I'm at a good place, I'm like, nah.
00:40:01
Speaker
Yeah, yeah. Or if it's just a drug I don't want to do. like not If cocaine's offered to me, unless it's like at the pregame and I'm trying to stop yawning, I'm probably not going to do the bump of coke.
00:40:13
Speaker
Right. Ketamine, like, I'm likely to say yes because I also, I mean, I can do a decent amount of K and be fine. And honestly, being fucked up on a lot of K is kind of a lot of fun.
00:40:24
Speaker
It... it It is fun. Oh, shit. Hellumi just jumped next to the computer. she's She's feeling feisty right now. Yeah, she wanted to disrupt. um She's like, disrupt the system.
00:40:37
Speaker
She was resisting. In her little weird way. um She, what was I going to say? Oh, ketamine. I feel like ketamine for me is hits really hard. Like, I can do one bump and be good the whole night.
00:40:51
Speaker
Where, like, I feel that same, like... wo lose yeah I'm like, whoa. So I'm so shocked when I see people just doing it continuously. I'm like, good for you. I've been literally transported through space.
00:41:06
Speaker
That shit was crazy. i felt like i was I was standing in one place, but I was fucking zooming through the universe. ah I will also, can I say about partying, some of my best decisions, I've been so fucked up.
00:41:19
Speaker
And then I'm like, this is what I need to do. Like, I turned to my friend when I was living in Vancouver, but we were in Seattle. We were at like a euphoria party. And we i we were, I was like, we took something that was Molly that I don't know if it was actually Molly or ecstasy.
Spiritual Insights and Substance Experience
00:41:33
Speaker
Or crack. And then I looked at him and I was like, I'm going to quit my job or I'm going to find it no i'm going to find a way to like take the summer off, go to Europe for three months and move to Toronto.
00:41:50
Speaker
That is so funny. I think it's maybe because it strips back the like expectations of society and purely begs the question of what do you want as an ad? God told me to go to law school in Manitoba.
00:42:07
Speaker
In what way? How and what? was at a rave in Montreal, also fucked up. And it just came to me. And then I decided to take my LSAT and do it. Wow.
00:42:18
Speaker
Have I made important life decisions after like a high? No, during. During. On the dance floor and you're just like fucked up and then you have a realization. That always happens to me.
00:42:31
Speaker
I don't think that's actually happened to me often. I used to, when I was younger, be the person who, when I'm a high, start messaging people like, you mean so much to me. I love you so much. Like friends and family.
00:42:43
Speaker
Like so annoying. Yeah. I was about to say, that's kind of annoying. So annoying. Now though, i can control that. Like I'll get the urge of like, oh my God, I miss Fatima. I hope she's doing well.
00:42:55
Speaker
I'm like, it's okay. You can message her when you're sober. Yeah. Like that would mean a lot more. And then. Then a 3 a.m. random misspelled weird message. Exactly.
00:43:05
Speaker
Exactly. Yeah. Because God knows. I used to do that all the time. But not anymore. And then you get the babas and your phone confused.
00:43:17
Speaker
I'm surprised you haven't done one of those living night out. All crazy. Honestly, thank the Lord. Jesus, whoever you are. but here i' i He's really looking out for me.
00:43:31
Speaker
But um what was he going to say? I did one time. oh my God. One time I think I sent a whole voice note. This was like years ago. voice note and Grindr picture to my mom.
00:43:45
Speaker
were that I intended to send to my best friend because I'm an idiot. On WhatsApp, the chat's filtered by the most recent chat you had, and I had just replied to my mom earlier, and I didn't realize it, so then sent it to her because I was just talking to my other friend.
00:44:02
Speaker
And my mom fully didn't know what I was talking about, thank God, but I sent her like a guy who looked like a teddy bear and he was very hot. And I was just like, oh my God, but but but blah, blah, blah, blah. Like something like that. and uncle And what did she respond with? She probably knew. She's like, I don't want any business in knowing what the fuck that is. No, exactly. That was exactly it then she was just like, I don't know.
00:44:25
Speaker
So you don't get... Like, partying, for some reason, makes me closer to God, in a way. Good parties, i like, get spiritual. I do, too. I think there's a lot of spirituality in dancing and letting loose.
00:44:37
Speaker
And even being high, obviously, I mean, it's... throughout history people take substances and then hallucinate and imagine god i feel like that happens all the time yeah i love bro that's what i like and i'm telling you i feel like the best decisions are made that way like taking lsd i literally take lsd just to like think about stuff sometimes do you prepare like do you make a list like this is the objectives for this trip No, I'm mostly like what comes, what will, like the, what whatever I need will come to me. i don't need lists.
00:45:16
Speaker
I'm very anal. I need to have like, Plans. Yeah. But I'm planning a mushroom trip in a couple of weeks. Like that's how far in advance, like I'm thinking about Oh, I have mushrooms I want to use up but before moving. And I'm like, okay, what do we want to do? Park, museum or stay at home?
00:45:35
Speaker
Okay. If we do park. Park. want to do park.
Post-party Eating Habits and Lifestyle Choices
00:45:39
Speaker
Park. I agree. And John probably wants to do park. He loves nature. So food, what are we getting? What are we bringing? how How long are we going to be there? but bla bla what Like, I want to plan all of this before.
00:45:50
Speaker
oh you're so annoying because you're not going to follow that. you No, that's true. a lot of the times we will take liberties, but I feel like it makes me feel comforted to know that there is a plan.
00:46:04
Speaker
I'm thinking about the last time I had a big shroom strip in a park and I was in Amsterdam with my ex-bestie. They sell them there in stores, right? Oh, yeah. They sell them there. Like they're just like, yeah.
00:46:17
Speaker
ah Wow. I would love to go there just to try. They're insane because they're vacuum sealed and they're little truffle mushrooms. So it looks like brains. Yeah, that's cool. Hell yeah. But yeah, your ex-bestie. I hope I wish there I wish them well.
00:46:31
Speaker
I wish them well, too. I feel like we'll reconnect maybe when the time's right. Inshallah. Inshallah. But, you know, oh, my light went out. Good times were had.
00:46:44
Speaker
Wow, the light really does make a difference.
00:46:48
Speaker
Not you. Not you fucking bragging. No, it just really like was light. i The whole time I was like, you don't need that. There's sunlight coming in through the window. But no, but I've been in the light the whole time.
00:47:02
Speaker
I see the light.
00:47:06
Speaker
Let me see my a little list of questions. I also have questions, B2Dubs. Oh, good, good, good. I have reached the point of like the after the party. So if you have something for a party or before, you can go ahead and ask.
00:47:21
Speaker
um Well, i did out we did talk about spirituality and partying. Post-party food has to be a thing. I refuse to go so bed without eating.
00:47:36
Speaker
I one time hung out. I one time hung out. Okay. I'm not going to say who this is I'm not going to say who this is, but if you know me well, you will know who I'm talking about because we've discussed these people before.
00:47:47
Speaker
His partner, when we would go out, what eat we would come back home. We would not have eaten anything. It would have been like 10 hours of no food. And he'll be like, I guess we should all go to bed and like capitalize on the fact that we haven't eaten so that we like lose weight.
00:48:09
Speaker
Are you hearing how crazy that sounds? Go to bed to capitalize on facts. As in he's like, it's already bedtime. We shouldn't eat. Like, let's just go sleep.
00:48:21
Speaker
Yeah, I think that's honestly kind of logical. No, you should always feed yourself. Like, you shouldn't be like, I'm hungry, but it's already bedtime. I might as well benefit from, like, sleeping and not eating so that I, like...
00:48:38
Speaker
For the goal of like being snatched. I think that's... No. I mean, okay, you're literally as someone who... Stand up and show off how snatched you are, iie Look up my Instagram.
00:48:49
Speaker
Exactly, you little... Anyway. But I still eat whatever I want. As fucking if. You don't even know anything. I eat... You don't know so much.
00:49:00
Speaker
But... But I'm also not... You think...
00:49:05
Speaker
do Are you a bitch that eats freezies for breakfasts?
00:49:11
Speaker
Like, like you probably stevia. It's not even real sugar. So it's dont what it's not, it's not about that, but it's just like there, I feel like certain lifestyle choices you know, give certain results. And I'm not, it's not like one is worse than the other.
00:49:29
Speaker
But if you're someone who chooses to indulge, I mean, and that is a moment of indulgence. So it's like for people, it's like you have to have a balance of stuff. Except it's literally not indulgence. We're all hungry.
00:49:41
Speaker
and he's just saying, it's bedtime. We might as well just sleep on it. And that way it'll be another. Being hungry is not a bad thing, though. Just because you're hungry does not mean you should eat. But I think it's kind of absurd that you're choosing to not have more pleasure of like eating like a good peanut butter and jelly sandwich or something, you know, like right before bed, you've just had a full night of dancing.
00:50:06
Speaker
You earned it. And then there. But not that maybe it's not that deep to somebody because it's like you're going to wake up tomorrow and you can have that peanut butter. No, as that that was their point. They were like, OK, I guess it's almost bedtime. We shouldn't eat.
00:50:21
Speaker
Like he vocalized that. Like he said that out loud. These words. he was like I'm honestly on his side. Wow, that is wild. Or it's like, honestly, like I will eat sometimes after the club.
00:50:33
Speaker
But like, I don't know. I definitely do listen to my, like, I mean, ah let check out my Instagram. I'm a person who indulges. But I don't know, like sometimes I don't do that so I can indulge another time. Like it's I feel like it's give and take.
00:50:50
Speaker
It's like, oh, maybe i have only like eggs and water for breakfast because I plan on having like, you know, a whole lobster and mac and cheese and like I think it is a Pepsi for like dinner.
00:51:05
Speaker
Yum. But also I think it's just because of the absurdity of thinking you need to save those calories when we literally haven't eaten anything all day.
00:51:16
Speaker
Like that becomes an eating disorder. there well it's Not really though, but like you're not, I don't even think you have to eat every, like haven't, you can have one meal a day. Like you could eat, I don't know. I don't think you need to necessarily, I don't think people should be eating three square meals a day if that's not your vibe.
00:51:33
Speaker
I guess, I don't know. um I don't like that. I'm going to eat. But you just eat. But then you do you. Why is someone else saying something? Were they trying to get you to not eat? Is that why you feel like... Yeah, I mean, it was affecting me.
00:51:47
Speaker
Like, they were like, we're not going to eat. And because of that, like, you're not going eat because I was staying over their place. You should have just Ubered yourself something. That is true. I could have done that. You're an adult. it's The thing is, no one could, like, that's the thing. It's like, I guess nothing other people say bothers me because it's like, if you're not going to eat and I really want to eat, I will find a way to eat.
00:52:06
Speaker
That's true. I'm always eating.
00:52:11
Speaker
Khalil is eating out of a metaphorical bowl. Yeah. His tongue sticking out for listeners. Okay, fair. I can see that logic. when john When it happened to John and I, we talked about it for like weeks of how absurd and crazy that was.
00:52:28
Speaker
You guys are so lame. We're like, oh my God. Like they have, like, we we're like, I can't believe we did not audacity. The audacity. We were like, what?
00:52:39
Speaker
but so You didn't just order like a pizza on like fucking Uber or something, you morons. No, but I think we were stunned. I think we were too stunned to speak. Like at the shock of like coming home after a party and then everyone's saying, see, if I was in that cab with you guys and that was said, I'd be like, I don't give a fuck. I'm eating. And yeah I'd be like, Ali, let's order a pizza.
00:53:02
Speaker
Yeah, and that would have been very appreciated at the time. See, but that's when it's like, I don't know, like people love outspokenness, like when it benefits them.
Post-party Hygiene and Personal Routines
00:53:14
Speaker
But when it's something they don't like, you know mean? Like, I feel like if it's good in every situation, um we've I mean, we've had this debate. Yeah. And I think so sometimes we change the scope. Yeah. But this is a moment and when it's definitively good.
00:53:27
Speaker
ah hundred percent I think looking back, yeah, I feel like, hell yeah, more power to that action. I would have definitely been like, okay, I'm going to order. there That's fine. yeah Yeah, yeah. That's a good point. Go against the grain. so Sorry, sorry, sorry. You're home now. do you shower or do you just jump into bed right away?
00:53:48
Speaker
Oh, I like how we actually did this whole thing as like a whole art. Good job. Thanks. Me hasn't been paying attention the whole time. um' Okay, I'm home now. Do I shower? oh Last time I showered, normally I don't because honestly people might judge me for this, but I prefer morning showers.
00:54:08
Speaker
Oh, interesting. before I go out. Okay, that's very not Arab of you.
00:54:16
Speaker
they might feel like i feel like Arabs are before sleep. are more like shower before sleep My mom and dad were never... Okay, okay. Maybe... Well, I guess I do remember my and my sister would like that.
00:54:29
Speaker
i do remember my mom and my sister would be like that But I mean, also, my parents didn't really give a fuck, like, ah when I showered as long as I was showering. And I, like, didn't smell like shit, you know?
00:54:41
Speaker
Yeah. do you Do you have, gender and generally, do you have, like, strong body odor? Or are you... I do. I do. And that's the thing. It's like, when I smell... This is the thing.
00:54:51
Speaker
When I smell bad, it's because I'm, like, down bad. It's because it's, like, I feel like as someone who, like, lives alone in a very isolated circumstance... Yeah, you might not need to...
00:55:02
Speaker
yeah Well, it's not even not in need to. It's like sometimes feeling like you're almost at like, what's the point? Right. Kind of saying because it's like, it's just me. I'm just at home. Like you kind of like let shit slide because it's like, well, no one's checking on you. You don't really have to. Like if there's nothing to do it for, why are you doing it?
00:55:19
Speaker
It's where i just like you have to do it for yourself. Yes. so But I mean, whatever. Like. Life is what it is. But yeah, I'm a morning shower. So i you I love just like I come home, I open the door, strip naked.
00:55:35
Speaker
i leave my shit all right there. um Maybe I go outside on my balcony and like smoke some weed or like eat something or like eat the food that I brought. And then I just like brush my teeth, go to bed.
00:55:50
Speaker
i make sure I do brush my teeth because i like having... um i have a really nice, pretty natural teeth. I never had braces. um I never had a dentist too.
00:56:02
Speaker
Oh, good for us. Yeah. I feel like we I have good teeth as well. Alhamdulillah. I feel like you can't really tell in this lighting because my lighting is a bit yellow. But I feel like I have pretty white teeth.
00:56:13
Speaker
And I do whiten them. And then sometimes I'll like kind of like I have periods where I'm smoking more tobacco and less tobacco. So I really noticed like the difference. The difference.
00:56:23
Speaker
So I'm like, i I tried, especially after I've been smoking cigarettes and like I'm always smoking cigarettes at a party. I'm like, oh, I need to brush because I'm like, I mean, I hate them putting on a whitening strip. Kind of like I fucking it's like a whole task for me.
00:56:36
Speaker
Yeah. Also, I think I told you I don't like the taste or smell or anything of alcohol. So hell yeah. The second I'm home, I have to brush my teeth. i have to mouthwash.
00:56:47
Speaker
John has to brush his teeth. John has to mouthwash or else I'm not touching him. period. Mouthwash too? yeah I mean, if it's there. If it's there. If it's not there, then no.
00:56:59
Speaker
If it's not there, it's fine. but definite i like I agree. Brush your tongue. Brush your tongue for sure. yeah ah sos sorry no you're you're You're showering. You get home and you shower. In an ideal world, there have been moments where we've been naughty and just like, let's just go to bed.
00:57:15
Speaker
It's not even naughty though, it's fine. kind of Oh my God. It's kind of gross because you're ah sweaty and then also touching people outside, like people are bumping into you. ah that like you're taking your clothes off.
00:57:27
Speaker
Right, but a lot of times... You were in a whole barrier. But if I'm, like, wearing a tank top, for example, this whole thing is contaminated. So then if it touches the bedsheet, it's getting... Like, do you realize stuff is getting tracked in, like, in multiple different ways anyway? Right, but might as well try to to decrease the viral loads.
00:57:51
Speaker
As much as possible. whatever. I mean, people have said that to me. Like, oh, oh like you should just like wash the city off you or whatever. But I'm just like, nah, I can just do that in the morning. And I feel like a shower is such a great way to wake up.
00:58:04
Speaker
Oh, yeah. In the morning, you mean. Yeah. And also, it's like, don't you want to come home with John? And then, like, and instead of being like, wait, let's brush our teeth and mouthwash. Don't you want to, like, come home? be You don't know Be, like, making out. You know me. Rolling and I know, but like, it just ruins the vibe. As soon as we get home, I'm like, don't touch me. That that moment where you're like, you shed your clothes on the floor.
00:58:28
Speaker
If he does that, will be like, okay, pick that up, put it in the laundry hamper. i'm I'm starting to like unfold laundry that's in the dryer. I'm folding laundry. um Yeah, i i I need, that makes me feel like, okay, I'm like resetting.
00:58:44
Speaker
by making sure everything is put away because then I don't have to deal with it later. That would make me feel so uncomfortable and unrelaxed and it would just ruin my night. ah Jean hasn't complained, although I'm sure he doesn't like it. but does I know, he probably he maybe he just goes with the flow and he just makes you happy. yeah It's fine. But for me, it's just like, I guess I'm open to that, but it's just like...
00:59:11
Speaker
I don't know. It's not as go with the flow as I like to sometimes be. And it doesn't, to me, it doesn't even really have like pragmatism because it could all just be done later. It could be done later. Everything that's dirty can be cleaned.
00:59:25
Speaker
It could be done later, but I get a hit of extra dopamine. if By being a Nazi? By being productive. And I'm being like, John, do this. Go brush your teeth. And then you're, like, vigorously folding. And then I'm like, all okay. And then I can rest in bed with zero, like, dreads of the next day.
00:59:44
Speaker
You know what I mean But you're not hooking up with your man after a party? like ah Yeah, I mean, usually before. i know this is weird, but I feel like after the party is when we, like...
00:59:55
Speaker
are done. Like, after the party, I'm so tired. I also don't like inebriated sex as much as, like, sober sex. Okay. Which is a whole other conversation.
01:00:07
Speaker
Honestly, though, I mean, no, that kind of eats. That's like, okay, well... Good for you. i guess I mean, we talked like the whole sex episode. I feel like ah but I mean, we yeah we don't have time. We don't have time. It's already like an hour and 10 minutes. I want us to wrap up because I do have one more thing.
01:00:23
Speaker
um Do you get post party blues? Like, are you the type of person that when you're home from a party as you're coming down, do you get depressed?
Intuition and Timing at Parties
01:00:32
Speaker
Because that doesn't happen to me because I feel like.
01:00:35
Speaker
I acknowledge the beauty of the moments I had without trying to like keep it going. I feel like some people to- Oh, they like need to keep it going. No, I'm not like that at all. I'm always, i have post-party bliss. I'm like, oh, thank God home. Even if it was a good party, I'm just like so happy to be home.
01:00:54
Speaker
i i Also, I, okay, I have a, um my spiritual gift is I know when to leave a party. I leave just when it's like, oh, maybe there was like 10 minutes of good partying. But then it got bad.
01:01:07
Speaker
People always say like, oh, you left at the perfect time. And I'm like, I know. Yeah. I feel like I look around and I'm like, I see the vibes. I never overstay. i never like extend. I know that I'm the type of person in general in life.
01:01:21
Speaker
If let's say there's a TV show I really like. If they stop the show at a peak, at their best, I'm like, good for you. Whereas some people are like, no, keep churning out seasons. I want to keep watching this. Like, no, you should end it while it's hot.
01:01:35
Speaker
Like, that's how I felt with Rose Creek. People were like... It's contextual for me. okay Okay. I want shows to keep going for on and on and on and on and on. Drag that shit out. If I love that show. Avatar The Last Airbender.
01:01:48
Speaker
I wish there was 50 seasons of that. See, it was perfect. Like, the amount of it is perfect. Like, if they made more, maybe it would have sucked. Who cares? I would have watched it anyway.
01:01:59
Speaker
i don't know. I like the fact that it's so good. Like, it's so perfect the way it is. It doesn't need more. But like Game of Thrones. that also hey That's an example of overdoing it. Season 7 and 8 were shit.
01:02:12
Speaker
Yeah. And like they just ruined it. But like I still think on the whole it's an amazing show. On the whole but then it's so tarnished. Imagine if it had the perfect ending. Not to me.
01:02:23
Speaker
I'm also a very, like, I don't know. I feel like i i'm I'm problematic. I don't know. i like i I'm a garbage fire. Like, I really am a car co-star. Described Sagittarius in an Instagram post as as a garbage fire. And it made me really, like... Also, previous to that, I had a conversation ah had a conversation with a friend about, like, kind of just, like...
01:02:48
Speaker
Not like it's not this isn't I don't mean to like say this to disparage myself for anything, but like really like lean into who you are. Yeah. You know what I mean? People have certain natures about them.
01:03:00
Speaker
And I'm not saying I can't change. I can't evolve. I can't learn. I'm open to that idea. But I think what is part of my nature is like.
01:03:12
Speaker
I don't know how to quite put it, but it's very garbage fire-esque. There's a warm glow. It's fire. It's a tool. you know It does give off noxious fumes, depending on what's in it at the time. Yeah, and it does we know what feed ah nocturnal animals.
01:03:31
Speaker
but It's a part of a habitat. Yeah, it's an it's part of an ecosystem. Yeah, there's an ecosystem. One time, oh my God, one time i went to throw but the apartment I used to live at, the
Unexpected Urban Encounters
01:03:43
Speaker
dumpster. We had to like take the trash to the dumpster.
01:03:46
Speaker
And yes it was like 6 a.m. I was on my way to work. I'm like half asleep. I throw my giant bag into the dumpster. And the loud bang of it on the in the dumpster floor woke up a homeless person that I didn't know was there that was sleeping right next to the dumpster. And suddenly I just see a man like hunched over walking out.
01:04:10
Speaker
And I'm like, I literally scream like i scream. And he just looks at me like, ah like, OK, we're done. We're done here.
01:04:21
Speaker
ah ah Did you that was that was you had no more? No, that's it. He literally just, like, I was just, i i like i think i i screamed and then I laughed because of how absurd that scene was. Like, what?
01:04:37
Speaker
There's a homeless man just sleeping in the dumpster next to my apartment and I threw a trash on him. Like, it's horrible. Horrible. But at the same time, like... He is sleeping in a dumpster.
01:04:50
Speaker
Yeah. I didn't know. oh um it has There has been people dumpster diving behind my building and it's like kind of scary to see them pop out. Yeah. It's scary. It's scary because they're like...
01:05:04
Speaker
Okay, so this was party, party, party, party episodes. um We're done.
Memorable Party Experiences and Regrets
01:05:10
Speaker
I feel like that was so there were so much good questions. I like the story arc. There is a lot. Do you want to keep going or should we just end it?
01:05:18
Speaker
No, we haven't. Yeah, why not? Let's keep going because we're going have to, I'm going to cut shit out maybe. but you we have it We'll shave off a couple of minutes. Okay, okay. Tell me more. Oh, no, I thought you had something. Oh, I had. Let's see. Let's see.
01:05:32
Speaker
Favorite party memory of all time. ah Oh, there is one type. I have a video of this. Should I find it? Do it. To show you? Yeah. In the meantime, I'll think of my favorite part. It was Halloween. Halloween was like a Wednesday or something stupid.
01:05:50
Speaker
And um everyone, i guess at that time, i didn't i didn't take the hint. Everyone was doing the weekend before. i did I did the weekend after. So you fully did the legally blonde thing where you were the only one dressed up in costume.
01:06:07
Speaker
And I dressed as a cat in a whole furry, like, onesie costume. but And I think the video speaks for itself. If I can find it, I really hope it's here.
01:06:18
Speaker
It's essentially just like, and oh, God. So the you can see I'm kind of in the cat. Oh, I should just send you the video. under to i yeah from and I'll insert it. i yeah i'll Maybe I'll insert it for the olives.
01:06:30
Speaker
But this is the house lights on at, like, I don't know, three in the morning. And you can see I'm in a cat costume and no one else is in costume. Okay, I'm seeing two people making out. Is that you? oh my God, cheers.
01:06:51
Speaker
That is so funny. You're the only one in costume. And that is so... Can you see the tail and the ears? That is so funny.
01:07:03
Speaker
Do you want to know how that happened, too? How? The guy in the video, I turned around I saw that guy. And I was like, holy shit, that guy is so hot. And my friend literally was just like, pushing me right into him.
01:07:16
Speaker
And then he was like, cute ears. And we just started making out. And no questions. Nothing like you're wearing a bear costume.
01:07:28
Speaker
That is so funny. It was... um That's hilarious. It was pretty iconic. You have to insert that. It is iconic. um
01:07:39
Speaker
ah Do you have one? Oh, shit. I blanked. I should have thought of one. Let me think. but My most memorable party moment. Oh, I have one. Easy.
01:07:52
Speaker
It's not even my moment. It's John's moment. We were in P-Town. And this is honestly, it's more for the story, not the person. I do think he's hot. Are you familiar with Gus Kenworthy?
01:08:04
Speaker
Yes. He's the Olympic snowboarder, whatever. We were at a party and he happened to be there. I don't, I'm not, I'm actually, i I think people are intimidated in the sense of that, Sahar,
01:08:19
Speaker
I don't go, I'm not friend, like I'm not, even though I am friendly, i don't actively like go up to people and talk to them. But John is the other way around where he's like can socialize very easily.
01:08:31
Speaker
ah So I was like doing my own thing somewhere else. And then i come back and I noticed John is talking to Gus Kenworthy and they're having a full blown conversation. And then Gus was just like, I think John was like, oh my God, like you look so good. and And then Gus was like, you can touch.
01:08:51
Speaker
As in his chest. He was like, you can. Okay. I think it's because he had a hairy chest and he was like, yeah, I like your hairy chest. He's like, you can touch. So John puts his hand on Gus Kinworthy's chest. And then Gus takes his hand and puts it on his crotch.
01:09:06
Speaker
bag Yeah, and I think Gus's boyfriend at the time was, like, right next to him. So John could have easily... open and it could be... a No, it is I'm sure they're definitely open. Like, i heard, from what I heard, is, like, a huge slut.
01:09:20
Speaker
No, from what I heard, he's, like, very open and promiscuous. But the and the funny story is just that John basically almost hooked up with Gus Kenworthy.
01:09:31
Speaker
He ended up not doing anything because he... was like looking for me or something. But I was like, you idiot, you should have went with him. You could have all went together. Why didn't you join in on that?
01:09:42
Speaker
ah I don't know. Honestly, if it was now, we would have. This was early in our relationship. I think we just didn't establish the boundaries or like rules of what our situation was. Yeah.
01:09:55
Speaker
Oh man, that's such a fumbled bag. So you guys should I should have just told you, you'd be like, let's go find But also, I mean, like a slutty gay guy is very much like, ah a penny.
01:10:07
Speaker
Yeah, like you'll find them everywhere. It's cool that it's Gus Kensworthy. like That is clout. But it's like, there are guys that look like that on Sniffies that will do crazy things. Right, right.
Conclusion and Listener Engagement
01:10:18
Speaker
Facts.
01:10:20
Speaker
Facts. Okay, let's wrap this up so you can make your man breakfast. yeah Yes, yes. Love you guys. Thank you for tuning in. Like, share, subscribe. ah And that, ta-ta for now.
01:10:34
Speaker
See you next time.