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Speaker: God's word is not guiding me. It's not guiding me. it's It's this place that I pray for and it's exposing me.
Speaker: The stillness hurts, the silence humbles, but this is where God rebuilds the man that trauma in my life has created.
Speaker: And brothers, like what I want to share is we went over Psalms 119 today. and His Word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.
Speaker: And for me right now, that light is not it's not comforting, it it's confronting. And God is slowing me down to reveal the parts of me that were formed in in in the darkness, right? And now He's like, got this light.
Speaker: and it's revealing the places I never had time, space, or safety to feel. I couldn't feel it. they were like I didn't know there was a sensation. And so this stillness is bringing, this light is bringing them to the surface.
Speaker: He's quieting enough
Speaker: to see what I've built my life on. The reflexes, the instincts, the emotional wiring that came from trauma, not from truth.
Speaker: Pieces of me that look strong on the outside, but were actually born from wounds. And this is the sacrifice He's calling for not my fire.
Speaker: He's calling not for my voice, not my passion, but the architecture underneath it all.
Speaker: The patterns that formed when i was a boy, trying to survive a world that never, never slowed down for me. And so God is putting his finger on that man that that I've become and saying like lay him down.
Speaker: It's this place where he's not rebuilding him. Like he says I'm rebuilding you. Not that version but I'm rebuilding you.
Speaker: And honestly, like this is the part, the hardest service right now is letting God go deeper into my soul. Going deeper into my soul, into rooms that I've never opened.
Speaker: Serving, serving truth over instinct. Serving presence over protection.
Speaker: Serving who I'm becoming, not who I had to be. And so it's this place, like I love the fruit God has produced in my life, but I know all of it is incomplete right now. He's rebuilding the parts of me trauma once constructed.
Speaker: And so today ah let his word be the lamp because the next step Next step, it's something i can't force or it's interesting because I can't even figure it out.
Speaker: And since I can't force it and I can't figure it out, I know this, it has to be Spirit. It's gotta be Spirit, it's gotta be Holy Spirit led. And that's where I'm at right now.
Speaker: Thanks. Today was Tuesday. sacred scripture and so this is my share. Thank you ah for listening.
Speaker: Always love and respect. Fly Sovereign Strike Savage.
