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Sovereign Savage Path, Wednesday, 03 Dec 2025 #WednesdaySacredSacrifice
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Transcript
Welcoming New Participants
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Nice. Nice. So like I said, new people, we, we always cut them a lot of slack here. We let them hide in the shadows and we don't ask them questions.
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and Oh, no, that was some other group. Hey, Matt, that, uh, would you get man? What would you get out of that? Anything?
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Anything from the
Key Takeaways from Videos
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re mind? Anything from your heart? um, from those videos in particular. Yep. Yep. Uh, the big one, um, for me, and I'm trying to actually memorize it is, um the process in, in recognizing the, I am called, I am connected, i am in covenant and I am consecrated.
Focusing on the Present
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um before everything we say or do, um
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And I connect that with what we talked about a little bit yesterday with regards to scripture and the lamp um and the light. And it's like, I find myself less anxious and less depressed um because it brings me just to the day. it just brings me to the moment versus trying to forecast what next year's, look is good what that's going to look like, what next month is going to look like.
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um I can still plan for it, but my steps are guided. I think I take a lot of comfort in that. And that's what I got from those videos. Yeah.
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That's good. And that's that's a good truth. Good. You can go ahead and go back to sleep. Nice work. and so Very good. Very good.
Intentional Breathing to Stay Present
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What? um Hey, Wesley, did you get a chance you've watched those videos before?
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going to ask you a trick question. Besides talking, besides talking, what did I do in every one of those videos? Really? What'd you say? Breathing.
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Say it again. So everybody just make sure. Breathing. Intentional breathing. Very cool. Very cool. Very cool. Oh yeah. Glad you could see it. That is, if you don't get anything else here, if you only spend one day here or you leave here, like I want you to know truth But that that that breath, like for me, that is like the knowing in the present moment connected to truth, like one breath, one breath, your back.
00:02:40
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Yeah, go ahead and meditate. Spend 20 minutes. That's awesome. One breath, I'm able to know like, oh, I'm I'm actually not in my head right now. I can actually I know what the sensations of my body are right now. I can actually see and choose if I so choose to or I can go back into my the reality of my mind.
Resetting and Realigning Through Videos
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Okay. So good. Thanks, Wesley. Um, cool. That's, uh, where we begin. Anybody else got anything? did You see anything in there? Anything you want to share?
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No, I just, i really enjoy watching it every morning. It's just kind of helps you, like we always talk about, reset, realign, refocus on the process.
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You can figure stuff out without a framework, without a process, but this just guides it, makes it more efficient, more effective.
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So it just kind of prepares you for the week. for your study, for your meditation. Just but it's a process. It works. It's guided.
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It's intentional. It's not just showing up and talking about your feelings or whatever you want to do that day. It's very deliberate, purposeful, intentional. that's That's everything we've been doing.
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Nice. Yeah. Yep. I hear you.
Inviting Others to Join
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Yep. And then, you know, if you want somebody to suffer as well, when you invite them, you just say, show up at 610 and listen to this video. And, you know, it's ah it's a good it is a good way to start.
00:04:23
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So to set the tone for what we're doing. So awesome. Let's... Today is...
Theme of Sacrifice and Scripture
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sacrifice, man. Today is sacrifice. Can you pull up? We'll do. um It's been a lot of exploring this week.
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If you can pull up Mondays and Tuesdays, how many raise your hand have already listened to Monday? The sacred strike.
00:04:55
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Yep. Play. play Yes. but Yeah. The Monday one Monday and then Tuesday. Monday and Tuesday, Monday and Tuesday. We'll just look at those real quick because I want the this, what we're stepping into with the sacrifice, it becomes very, very, very important. So again, just listen to the, let it prep your heart Mondays. Just let it prep. What's that? What's that thing that you were supposed to surrender?
00:05:21
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and And so one, it's just one, just one thing, whatever it is, first one, don't trade it out for something else that you want to give up, just what you're called to give up. And then we'll step into the scripture. That'll just prompt your heart again of what we went through yesterday.
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And and then we'll then we'll do this part very intentionally and see what.
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What you're supposed to sacrifice. OK, and then we'll we'll really do that. Try that.
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gonna get a little more intense. Brothers, listen. Before this week begins, God is asking one thing of you.
Surrender as Spiritual Warfare
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Surrender what's killing your alignment.
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Not tomorrow. Not when it's convenient. Not when you feel spiritual. Now, you cannot walk in clarity while holding what God told you to drop.
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You cannot hear revelation while protecting the noise he asked you to silence. You cannot walk in power while carrying weights he never assigned you.
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So today, before the world pulls on you, before your emotions lead you, before your flesh negotiates with you,
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Ask this, Father, what am I still carrying that you did not give me? And when he shows you, don't argue, don't justify, don't delay.
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Drop it, because surrender is not weakness. of Surrender is warfare. is warfare Surrender is how the true man rises.
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Surrender is the first strike of alignment. Walk empty of the world. Walk full of God. Walk aligned.
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Fly sovereign. Strike savage.
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Good. Go to go to Tuesday. i hope you got something. Just leave in that question. What am I still carrying?
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Got Tuesdays? Moving. Cool.
Scripture as Guidance
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Rose, listen. Today is not about reading the Bible. Today is about receiving the verse that will govern your obedience. Because a man who cannot hear God cannot walk aligned. You can surrender on Monday. But if you don't receive revelation on Tuesday, your obedience has no direction.
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Scripture is the lamp. Scripture is the light. Scripture is the weapon. So here is the strike. Lord, what are you saying to me today? And what must I obey because of it? Not ten verses. Not chapters.
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Not commentary. One verse. One truth. One obedience. That's the pattern. Let the Word confront your emotions. Let the Word cut through confusion. Let the Word expose the lie.
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Let the Word call you higher. Today, slow down. Read slow. Listen deeper. Receive the revelation that belongs to you. Because revelation without obedience is deception. But revelation with obedience becomes transformation.
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Hear him. Obey him. Walk aligned. Fly sovereign. Strike savage. Go ahead and play Wednesdays.
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Just let it prompt your heart again as we step into this other.
Confronting Distractions
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Hear me. they already Wednesday is the day where revelation meets resistance. Yesterday, God spoke. Today, God tests what you heard. Sacrifice is not about pain.
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It is about alignment. This is a strike where you confront the one thing in your life that is louder than God's voice. The thing that survived Monday's surrender and resisted Tuesday's revelation.
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Now it must die because you cannot walk as a sovereign savage while protecting the very thing God is trying to crucify. Sacrifice is not loss. Sacrifice is precision.
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It exposes what still controls you. It reveals what the old identity still fights for oxygen. It shows you exactly what part of you cannot go into the next season.
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Today's question is simple. Lord, what must go on the altar so I can walk aligned? Not later, not eventually, not when life slows down. Now, sacrifice is the hinge of transformation.
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Sacrifice is the cost of alignment. Sacrifice is the death that leads to the rise. Lay it down. Release it. Kill what is killing your obedience. Walk into Thursday clean.
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Fly sovereign. Strike savage.
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Did you guys hear it?
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What'd you hear?
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No, there's one there's one piece in there. Oh, sacrifice got thrown off just a little bit. Yeah, it's something that's so odd how that works. does it It was like, oh, so yeah, it's like the subliminal stuff that they I didn't put in subliminal stuff and they're on purpose. And it's just the way it where did it.
00:11:08
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So, okay, now that you've had just that time just to kind of like prep your heart, like this is it's sacrifice. This is the opportunity like the this is the obstacle to uh where this alignment it becomes real and so sacrifice is the day where yesterday's revelation is tested where what god showed you tuesday
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It must be obeyed. Okay. So it's that opportunity of what you've seen in scripture. Now, what was revealed now we have this opportunity
Sacrificing for Alignment
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to seriously just step into that and ob obey it.
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Like you see it and you're like, no. So but at the same time to to step into sacrifice and sacrifices where obedience really stops being eerie, like pie in the sky or just in a book or something that I heard It it has you have this opportunity for it to become your your fire. And as we talk about, like your own holy fire.
00:12:16
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So today is not about it's not about feeling better. Today is about becoming aligned.
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becoming aligned no matter the cost.
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Don't want to welcome you to sovereign savage. This is chasing alignment and Wednesday. The practice is sacred sacrifice. So Monday we surrender Tuesday. We received revelation through scripture. And today we step into that obedience. We respond with obedience, obedience to the spirit because the chasing alignment, like this whole engine this week works through surrender revelation, sacrifice,
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And then tomorrow we step into sanctification. This sacrifice part is the hinge. Every breakthrough in your life depends on one thing.
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yes That one thing, what are you willing to lay down so that God can lead you forward? This is the part, man. Like most men want clarity.
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They want clarity. Yes, absolutely. I'm good. I'm good. I love you, Sean. I love you, Sean. I'm doing good. I'm okay.
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I love watching or listening to Sean with his kids, man. Like it's such an awesome thing. He likes it's good.
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Thank you. Thank you for being that example. So most men though, they want clarity. They want it, man. Like we desire that even at the worst parts of who I was, there was a part I wanted clarity, but then ah wasn't, I wasn't willing to pay the cost and very few, very few want to pay that cost, but alignment always demands cost.
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So
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hopefully that settles just a little bit.
Being Present and Aligned
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Let's actually step into, into breath. Okay. Let's, um, it's, um, like just be here. It's opportunity.
00:14:56
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be here with all of us in reality which meant that you wake up and be here and just be in whatever the spirit of this is to align all of us and be ready for today and chasing after the character of christ like truly is a blessing and so may we also be here spiritually and just really see what is before us this spiritual warfare that is happening that we've been guilty i've been guilty of just being asleep to whatever thing is going on beneath the surface just a little bit.
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And so as we step into breath, be present here and then be present with your body and just feel the sensations. and Feel what it is for you. And if not, like at this like step in. Hopefully you have that opportunity to notice where you're at, but then also a little more step into some type of stillness or silence and just notice the sensation of just possibly peace for just a little bit.
Guided Breathing Exercises
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Notice the sensation of your bodies of your body. And here we going to step in to breath present here together. Reality spirituality in three, two, one in.
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Release all the way full exhale.
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and breathe in.
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Here's where you let the body settle
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notice and release.
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Let the spirit rise
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and breathe in.
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Let the body settle. don
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exhale. Let the spirit rise. Let's go into prayer.
Prayer for Alignment
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Father, today is sacred sacrifice.
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Reveal the cost.
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Reveal the sensation of resistance. Reveal the part of me that refuses structure, refuses sacrifice.
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This resistance that refuses to obey.
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Burn away what blocks alignment and make me ready in mind,
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emotions, spiritual, just in every part of my being.
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In Jesus' name we pray. Amen. Amen.
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So...
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Who's got it? Who's got it, Matt, you already got me fired up that we're getting ready to step into the declaration, man, you're already getting it. And we have to step into identity and this formation for us here.
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This is our war cry together. Okay. So be ready next week. I'm gonna call on somebody else next week. Okay.
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So I am called, I am connected. I am in covenant.
Identity, Mission, and Sacrifice
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I am consecrated. I rise in predictable power.
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I strike in sovereign obedience.
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This is who you are before sacrifice is made. This is who you are in that very beginning of the morning, in breath, in all of it. You ready or this, men.
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So here we go. Sacrifice is the third strike in the chasing alignment engine. It's this engine, this war machine, okay, of what we're doing all week.
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Monday emptied you. Tuesday rebuild truth. And today we confront the cost of obedience. And so, man, you just mentioned Romans as well. Like stepping into Romans 12.1.
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Kurt, I didn't send it to you. apologize, brother. Kurt, Curtis, can you, can you look that up? Are you there? Yeah, I'm here. I'm right. I set you up for failure, brother.
00:20:09
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That's, you know, I set myself up for failure. We had our company Christmas party last night and hanging out with my coworkers was, uh, i don't I don't drink or anything, but I was still ah still alive went to bed way too late.
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went bed at like 2 in the morning, so I'm running on running on fumes right now. but So I've got one pulled up real quick. I'm not sure if it's the right one.
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ah Therefore, i urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God's mercy, each to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God.
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then Please read it again. See what comes up for you, man. Listen. there Therefore, i urge you... oh dang. of course i but My screen clicked off. Therefore, i urge you, brothers and sisters... in view of God's mercy to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God.
00:21:20
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Good. I don't know who in this group that sister's part was for, but no, I'm just kidding. Just keep listening one more time, please. Therefore, I urge you brothers and sisters in view of God's mercy to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God.
00:21:43
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Good. Awesome. Thank you, brother. Like this Romans 12.1, he's obviously asking, he's commanding, he's commanding us to present ourselves as a living in sacrifice.
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It's that idea because the old self cannot enter the places God is taking you. You can't go there with the old self.
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Okay. So the old one must die. You can't walk aligned while still holding what God told you to lay down.
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And so this sacrifice exposes three alignment truths. And in those truths, what is still gripping your spirit?
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It's what we want to like ask. We want to get to the deeper stuff. Of course, there might be a habit that you see in reality that you need to give up. But what is still gripping your spirit?
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What is still louder than God's revelation that he gave you even yesterday? Like you'll watch this war inside. It's like, oh, I know I was supposed to give her up yesterday.
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And then today you're like, I don't know. There's a lot of stuff that's a lot louder that says I shouldn't, that I don't have to, that, that I can do these other things. It's actually probably something else that I need to sacrifice. So what is it that must die?
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it there's an identity that must die. There's something that must die. So the real you can rise in this part that you're getting put on there, whatever it is, feels like the real you.
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That's the part that makes this all very difficult. It feels real.
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And so the sacrifice is not about losing something. Just keep coming back. Like it's not about losing something. It's about removing what is blocking like your formation, your formation with us, whatever that formation within the deep parts of who you are, that you know that you're called to, but we keep falling to to just even comfort, right?
00:24:01
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So in the world, we've all experienced this, in the world, it feels like pain. But in the kingdom, bro it produces power. And this is a part of where we talk about this predictable power. It becomes predictable as you step into that more and more.
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And so... And the kingdom that's really like knowing. and And that's where I think, yeah, we'll get to heaven someday, but there's a blessing inside. I think that Jesus was really saying like the kingdom is here is now like, and we can experience special parts of that way more than I ever did before.
00:24:42
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And so sovereign savage, you as a sovereign savage are formed in the moments where obedience is inconvenient, but this alignment is necessary brothers. You will not stay aligned. If you keep negotiating with your flesh or comforting what God is trying to crucify.
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And I hope this is really like that negotiation
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that we, we waver on these back and forth. it It really is that part makes it more and more difficult. Okay. So you can't he's he you have to leave those behind.
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The altar just by nature, like the altar isn't comfortable. It's not going to be comfortable. Know that.
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It's not comfortable, but it is always transformational. And so
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Let that experience encourage you. Let that transformation like actually take place. it's It's always worth it, right? Anytime that you can think that you've laid something on the altar and came out of that, it's always been worth it. And it ends up never being a sacrifice.
00:26:03
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So think of the little ones that it's happened in your life and stay with that. And then the next ones will be bigger wins and bigger. Okay. So we're going to step into the the fireframe, the framework, who knows the framework, who knows what the fireframe is?
00:26:23
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Brain field, Facebook. What is it? Brain field base forge. Nice. Yep. So that fireframe that is like battle, we're like stepping into battle formation, like the war.
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the war zone, the battle zone is it's me, it's my mind, it's my heart, it's for my emotions, it's every like whatever you want to start is for my neurological pathways. It's for it's for my central nervous system being out of whack or in alignment, you know, being settled. It's that it like every part of that is what we are waging war. there's a lot of it really your mind, your emotions, your heart and all of that. So as we step into the frames, um we'll... in there You guys kind of got it. Do you want me... don't use your finger i can go in here.
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um
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Here's the first one. If you want, you can look at... um
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What was.
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Oh, there we go. OK.
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Here's.
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Here's a frame, feel face, porch, OK.
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So hopefully you got your journal out. Um, what revelation from yesterday am I resisting because I know it will cost me something.
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Feel when I think about obeying God, where do I feel the resistance in my body?
00:28:33
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And when we talk about feel, we're trained now to like either stuff it down or tell people that we don't, you know, yeah, I feel it. you know, do i follow my feelings? No, I don't.
00:28:45
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it it's more and more, it's just finding that sensation. We know the sensation of what rage feels like. We know what anger feels like when we're sitting in the car, identify those ones. We know what, you know, sexual attraction to obviously only our wife, you know, like we know what that feels like.
00:29:06
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What are each one of these that keep? And then the ones that really hijack you notice how that rises inside of you.
00:29:16
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Okay. So that's what we're talking about. Feeling is that sensation. And then being able to utilize that as a superpower to know what's rising and then what to step in into. Okay.
00:29:28
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A lot of times it's just the opposite, like whatever it's telling me to do, i need to do opposite, at least for myself. And then the face face, what truth did God show me yesterday that I'm afraid to obey today?
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what lie do i keep eating what truth am i not willing to face
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you know the one right now men like laying down this old version of myself from that has been created in trauma this deep architecture of who i am and the way I interact with reality built off of trauma from a boy, like, you know, to lay that down, it's all I know. It's an ah identity from seriously, from when I was like five years old and my parents got divorced. Like, that's a lot of years, man.
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And so to lay that down is, it is, is i want to lay it down. I'll give it up. I'll tell him I'm doing it. But it is something like, maybe I'm just revealing where I'm at right now. Like this is, yours is along the same and you have that desire and that calling and you know what the identity piece on the deep architectural part of who it is, like awesome. But if he's telling you to lay down like,
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Mine at first was cussing, yeah you know, like, I mean, that's not that bad, but it cleaned up my heart and my mind, you know, then it was Copenhagen and then it, which I couldn't do it, but he did it, you know, alcohol, whatever it is for you, it doesn't matter. Like we're all on this separate, but together.
00:31:23
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The forge. What sacrificial action proves my alignment today? What is that? What is that thing like that you do today that you know you sacrifice from yesterday? like What is it? It'll make a difference. That is just the obedience for today.
00:31:42
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That's self-discipline for today. It turns into endurance over the amount of days. You're getting called all that.
00:31:55
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going put in there. Um, just keep kind of highlighting that on there. going to drop in um, the S framework.
00:32:21
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Okay. So here's a S framework, stillness, whatever part you're on, keep, keep going. It's, it's, you're doing good. Um, so here's where stillness, when I sit completely still before God, what rises in me beneath yesterday's revelation?
00:32:43
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Mine yesterday, really, when I sat and went over that it was the light was exposing these areas again that I've listened to all of November, exposing the deeper
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trauma, which then it's like the deeper architecture because it's like tagged to every part of who I am. And it's interesting because in reality, now I embrace it as some type of strength in some ways, but that, that strength that has now done, God has transformed that into a strength, but still there's these parts inside Nobody would know, but I know I can feel it.
00:33:26
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It's, it's holding me back. It's keeping me from deeper and deeper with him. It's, it's holding me back from more rooms being open. And I, it's just something that I can feel. Somebody like, yeah, bro, like I get it. It's about some other things, you know, when I say like, we, we all want to get rid of anger in our life. We all want to get rid of, you know, ah drama in our life. and And I'm at this place where Most of all of that is consistently not a thing for me because of the way God has transformed things over this life.
00:34:02
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And then to only realize I just spent, you know, nine years of sobriety going deeper and deeper to find out that I should have been just chasing this anyway, rather than trying to get rid of cussing and Copenhagen and drinking and all this. If I would have just, if, if this would have been revealed back then, then maybe I could have went after this with him and not had to like wage war against this stuff that is right in front of me.
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But, um, I'm, I have to learn that way first, you know, get rid of all this stuff.
00:34:41
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Maybe it's always both. I don't know. Maybe it's always both men. The silence when the noise goes silent, what truth is the spirit revealing about the fear under my resistance?
00:34:54
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Again, there's some type, like if I'm still, if I'm silent, I can feel the resistance. It's more of a sensation of just knowing the resistance. And when you know that resistance in yourself, like you can start feeling that with your kids or if your wife is a little resistant or in conversations, that resistance, like kind of like, okay, what why am I feeling that part? Where's that coming from? Okay. So where's the resistance within
00:35:25
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sacrifice what part of my old self identity habit emotions or pattern is god asking me to place on the altar next week one month from now no what's he asking for me to place on the altar today today this is for us for today today and then hopefully maybe tomorrow
00:35:55
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Okay, what's interesting is when you take those, you can have one, want it you can have the fire frame for reality, you can do the deeper listening, to which is very intentional for the spirit.
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And then there's this idea that had I've been doing where it's like now take the spirit part and you can press it into the fire frame and it brings your spirit into the fire frame for reality. And it sets me up for a consistent framework for direction, vision, understanding of what I just went through with reality and the depth of my spirit.
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And if I put that in, now i just now I just took it from my spirit. I pressed it in combined with the framework for reality. Just giving you the idea of what's happening right now so that later on or if you want, like like, let's get on a call and I'll help you kind of guide through that.
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okay
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So just take like another minute if you're working on this.
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So as you write this down, it's like, again, I have here, like name the sacrifice, name the obedience, name the cost. Like when you're identifying these with intention, it's much different than like, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I did that. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I've read scripture. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. yeah That's ah like, I know what that means.
00:37:43
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Like, what does it mean to you? Like name the sacrifice name, this obedience that you're being called into.
00:37:53
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Name the cost. Name the cost.
00:38:05
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This part of what you're developing by doing this very intention intentionality behind this with such an intensity is brings clarity and that clarity brings obedience.
00:38:23
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Okay, man, there's a lot. What do you got?
00:38:34
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Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind.
00:38:40
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You renew your mind with the word of God, man. It makes perfect sense.
00:38:46
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You know, beat your head over, beat yourself over the head with it. any times At least if you're like me. I have to keep staying on it. Do I really believe him? Do I believe it? Do I believe it?
00:39:01
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Is he really faithful? Is he really going to provide? Does he really care about my sin? does he really care about my heartache? Yeah, he does.
00:39:15
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Yeah, he is making us better, more whole, more fit, more able to serve because that's really where we get our rocks off is by expressing the art of love through service.
00:39:29
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Amen, bro. Yeah, I hear you. How cool this is our truth. I've always shied away from Jesus like, oh man, Jesus, that stuff's powerful or it's fake. I'm not sure yet.
00:39:43
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Yeah. And look right here on screen. You have these men right here that are just as crazy about the calling and knowing there's something deeper.
00:39:55
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We're all just as crazy for the Lord for whatever. Right. It's amazing. It's amazing to see. I share kind of just piggybacking off what John said.
00:40:06
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Um, only because with a little bit of work I've been doing in last couple of days, um, it's something that's true. I, I, I've been speaking on kind of guilt and, um,
00:40:21
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uh, holding onto the past. I know I mentioned that. Um, but also not being able to accept praise sometimes. Um, but I'm come back and just say, God doesn't condemn us.
00:40:33
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He's not going to lead us through condemnation. He's going to at moments convict us because he, know, he's, I guess he knows the, the, the true, our true identity.
00:40:45
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Um, so even when those whispers start coming in, like, Oh, um, I messed up here, so obviously I can't do that again. and um He's not going to lead us through condemnation. and I don't know if you guys experience even what guilt, shame, or condemn I'm sure you have, but how it feels on the soul, like man, that's heavy.
00:41:09
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It hurts to carry that.
00:41:13
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so Just remembering that like pressure that feels on the heart
00:41:20
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That's not God moving. If it's a pressure that it's coming from that condemnation from that game, that guilt, that shame. Um, that's kind of where I'm at with that right now.
00:41:36
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Nice.
00:41:39
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Yeah, definitely have those experiences. We're, we pilot on us, man. Right. And so try to just identify that and then identifying that crack, that thing in the armor chasing after that he is doing the work he's writing the stuff down. He's exposing that.
00:41:56
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It's chasing after whatever that part is that God is trying to reveal that he's operating from. And as he does, and he can see it and embrace it and not be fearful of truth. Like, hold on, is this this mine that I've been holding on to? oh and I don't have to?
00:42:12
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This is what's causing problems? Okay, cool. that Understanding that truth sometimes is very scary. It is. Men don't want to do the work. I didn't want to do the work before.
00:42:24
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was fine. I get it. But now that you're here, let's do the work. Face the truth. How much truth can you carry, man? How much truth are you willing and able to face and carry?
00:42:38
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I think that also speaks to Romans 12.1. Sacrifice your whole body. like it the sacrifice is going to take the whole body because you're going to Again, I come outside of yourself just like and give it all away. Like it's going to be so difficult.
00:42:57
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It's going to take everything.
00:43:01
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And that's the scary part.
00:43:06
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After telling me I can't, let's just even put it this way, I can't enjoy this pastry ever again because of fear of not being okay with not having it again.
00:43:19
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But then I consider,
00:43:22
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oh so if that means I can't have it again, I'm going to have it more. What am I serving?
00:43:34
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Yeah. So it's kind of hitting me this morning. Like you and I touched on it while back, Raylan, when you and I were talking kind of one-on-one, you know, talking about giving up the body and whatnot.
00:43:48
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And one that keeps coming back to me is judgment, you know, listening to that small voice in the back of my mind where I'm judging myself and telling myself I'm good, not good enough.
00:44:01
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You know, so it's like, like we talked about things of the flesh, you know, like giving up drinking, giving up cussing, things like that. Like those are all things that are kind of tangible and in front of you.
00:44:17
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Whereas, Your mind, it's part of your body, but it doesn't feel like that. So it's like, how do you shut that off? How do you tune that out? How do you get into that silence? And like you said, turn the other ear so you can hear God's voice. And that's like, that's where I'm at right now is trying to shut off that voice inside me and that you know telling me I'm not good enough or passing judgment on myself.
00:44:49
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And I find that when I'm doing that, I end up projecting and treating others poorly because i inherently end up judging them.
00:45:01
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And it just it's like this whole vicious cycle. And that's it's the kind of kicking my ass. Yeah.
00:45:12
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Yeah. Yeah, have you experienced other places opposite of that experience? What's opposite of that for you? So opposite of that for me is like 90% of the day yesterday, like after we got done, like I was at a place of ah like peace, you know, like I had,
00:45:41
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like my mind was was silent. Like I was able to be present in the moment and, you know, was just
00:45:58
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everything, everything was positive. Like things were going in a great direction, you know, and it just, like it just takes like one little, one little thing can trigger that and bring all that back.
00:46:15
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and stuff. So it's like, to yeah, like to share my experience in a way because i think obviously men are able to feel what you're talking about, like that place, right? Like the deep part inside of there, we we entertain this part. We're not good enough, the doubt, all of that, right?
00:46:39
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Not worthy. And in for me, my experience was in church all the time, pray more versus do all of that. And when you're in trauma, when you're in that place or just even where you are right now, it's like, it's like, yeah, I, okay, I get it. But that is, I want you to see when you, when you throw that out, when somebody throws that out, it is true, but like what verse,
00:47:10
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Right. Sean's verse is going to be different than your verse. Like what verse and then understanding the depth of what that means to you. Like what is your verse? Not the one off of the coffee cup, but what's your verse that reaches to the depth of your spirit to be able to hold on to it's basically it is tangible as well.
00:47:30
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And it's tangible within my heart, my soul, like my spirit, my being, my mind, it's all of these things. So now it becomes the verse. If we're going to go with the verse, it becomes, it is my prayer.
00:47:43
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But what is my prayer inside of that to, to recite the the verse? Okay, cool. But it says, what, what, where am I at in my experience right now, where that verse is my prayer, but the depth of the understanding of that verse, what does that mean for me and how,
00:48:01
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Is it separating
00:48:04
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all of this that's going on from even the lies? And that's that is exposing this war. So I hear you, it is like, man, it feels great to have those sensations where it's just a moment of clarity and peace. And you're like, this is, but how did you get to that place where it was created?
00:48:23
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Was it by accident just by all the sudden you're just, you know, they're like, I want to know how it's created because there's a police where we're, we're creating the chaos. I created that by my choice.
00:48:34
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There's also this experience where I'm creating, he's allowing to transform inside of me where I'm creating it. Well, how well it's by a versus and it's by prayer. Okay, cool. But it's by ace particular verse for me and the depth of that verse and what it is for me. And it is my, now my sword that I fight.
00:48:53
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not with on a coffee cup to show somebody how cool I am. It's it's me when I'm not with you men. it's It's me embracing that. And then even deeper than the words of the verse, it's the meaning of the depth of what it actually is speaking to. like Like there's a part that within that verse, it talks about virtue.
00:49:15
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And there's a deep part in my verse that is virtue right there at the very beginning. And I connect with that. I know, like, I don't have to depend on this. I know that he placed it in there. It's integrity, it's character, it's this calling, it's everything that he created me to be that isn't.
00:49:31
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It isn't anything. It's not a white shirt. It's not, it's not a, a, a, necklace that reminds me of identity. It's not the verse itself. It's the knowing of the virtue that he's placed inside of me. And that's my experience, man. Like,
00:49:48
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It becomes very it becomes very real in the word that's coming up. Maybe like it's Sean usually yesterday is like visceral for me. This is the war of the exposing of the depth of what I'm connecting to. And that allows me by that struggle. Then it allows me to create this other place.
00:50:04
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Over and over, once I wage that war, then there's a place that's created that I know like I'm with him, like we won that battle. And that's that that can be created over and over because something else is going to rise.
00:50:18
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And when that rises in that resistance is known inside of my flesh, I can go to that place again, wage that war intentionally, see what's happening in my mind, my heart, my emotions, and then utilize that to do it over. And you can recreate if if you stay within the structure and the discipline of what we're learning here, but your verse and your moment and your struggle and your sacrifice, and you do that, you create this structure that happens that you can do over and over for whatever you're in.
00:50:53
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over time it creates this place, man, where like now now I see it. It's like, it's it's way more difficult for the devil to get me, for me to be super engaged.
00:51:09
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So it's deeper. It is the verse. It is the scripture. It is the truth. But it is we're here to experience and embrace this. And I hope i hope you you get something out of that because there's a depth that can be created if we're willing to sacrifice this.
00:51:27
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Yeah.
00:51:30
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This is why ah practicing stillness is so important, so powerful. It's basically, it's it's stoicism. It's being aware of your thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and then controlling your reaction, controlling your response towards them.
00:51:51
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It teaches you that these internal feelings and emotions don't control you, but you become aware of them. You can choose how to respond.
00:52:04
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Like what whatever issue it is, if it's an insecurity, if it's a ah sense of guilt, just in stillness and silence, you can think on it. You can look deeper and try to understand the meaning of that feeling, you know?
00:52:22
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Why am I feeling this way? What caused me to feel this way? and And eventually, what am I going to do because of this feeling? And if you slow it down, if you're silent, if you're still, you can
00:52:41
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understand and build that internal awareness and strength. And that's when you become in control. Like your your mind is your most powerful tool.
00:52:54
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But most people, is there most is there it's it's the adversary, it's the weapon, right? It's such a ah huge tool, so powerful, but most people never learn how to use it.
00:53:07
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Everyone's slave to their mind. But we we don't just have a mind. We have a mind, of body, and a spirit. That's where the whole untethered soul comes in, is you can separate in stillness,
00:53:21
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You can become aware of the conversation within you and then you choose in reality how to respond to that. Because being in control of your response, of your action, that's that's alignment.
00:53:39
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That's becoming aligned and being more Christ-like. Right? These thoughts are going to happen anyway because our mind is all over the place.
00:53:50
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Yeah. But if we sit in stillness, identify those feelings, where they come from, what they mean, and then think, is this in alignment?
00:54:03
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Is this the blue flame? Is this pure and complete? Right? And if it's not pure and complete, it's not obedience. And if it's not obedience, it's not in alignment.
00:54:16
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So it's obviously a distraction. That's what, you know, that that's what this is all about. Becoming an alignment, you know, seeking truth, becoming that blue flame. And just once you are, everything about you is pure and complete.
00:54:40
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It's,
00:54:43
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I mean, everyone, everyone is a ah ah dirty fire. Everyone complete. Everyone isn't pure, but it's it's the process. It's the daily intentional moving towards becoming pure and complete obedience, pure and complete alignment, pure and complete surrender.
00:55:05
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But we can't see that, can't hear that without the whole stillness part.
00:55:12
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its It's like, have you heard, you know, that verse, it changed where he's like... ah Consider it joy, my brothers, when you face all sorts of trials and tribulation for the testing of your faith produces patience. Patience basically but it has its final complete work, leaves you perfect and complete, lacking nothing.
00:55:31
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well then But you're not like you're not frantic in your impatient. You're not frantic in patience. You're not worried when you're patient. You're not itching for the next thing. When you're patient, you're cool with right where you're at, waiting on the delivery of whatever it is that should be coming.
00:55:49
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Yeah. So it's okay if you're not perfect, but it's not okay if you're not patient in that process. It's not okay to be frantic and hyper, even hyper aware. You can become hyper fixated on this religious journey and miss the whole point.
00:56:07
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This is the path and the roses. This is having your cake and eating it too. If you do it right, this is the whole thing. Abundance giving from overflowing Being perfect, complete, lacking nothing.
00:56:21
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Yeah. yes Yeah. It's so good. And that's that. That's that ahs a part that really... ah pick on the church, man, because i love the church. I love what Christ has actually put before us and created. And then plus, it's really the church is the one that where we go, right? and And we claim that we're wanting to do this stuff.
00:56:42
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So... my experience in there obviously there's some amazing parts but what they're not doing what we're really trying to scratch on and see what's in there is you can know all of it you can beat people down with the verse you can have your response and all of these things and try to defend your position
00:57:06
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but when you sit there and you question like Those people when, when they're doing that, they're right, man, they can beat me intelligent wise, but I can see and feel the experience and all they're doing is stepping in resistance and disobedience.
00:57:26
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So they have all the right words, but there there's no real actual truth that they're embracing. So for myself watching warriors like yourself, it's very hard to take them serious.
00:57:44
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because The church is supposed to be doing what this group is doing and it's failing. Yeah, and we're not the only ones. I know there's others out there. Like, really. I mean, not as cool as all of us, but they're out there, right?
00:57:58
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But that's the part. And so I encourage you. We expose. I expose myself to myself. I want you to see, like, how much are you resisting this resistance?
00:58:10
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How much are you, like Sean says, willfully disobeying and then comforting yourself with the reality that you think is real inside your mind and you do that to others so that you feel good rather than just dealing with the resistance that is literally you can see it expose itself in
00:58:36
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In the core for body, being balanced in business. You can see it exposed and they're the ones being exposed. I'm not being a jerk. You can see it in that.
00:58:47
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it It's the deeper stuff. Same as Jeremy was pointing out yesterday, like that, that, that video, like they were talking about some deep stuff, deep faith, deep morality, deep, so deep that they put that huge structure out there for everybody else.
00:59:04
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It's like gives me ideas right now. I should put like a huge structure out in front of my house. This is what I stand for. I don't know. What else? What else we got man? Getting getting close. We're in the bonus bonus hour bonus bonus bonus hour.
00:59:18
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What do we got? what's done ah I was just gonna say like ah you're saying the core four like that that helps you identify.
00:59:27
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You know that identifies the fruit and you'll know them by their fruit. Right. And um it it points out who talks about it, who knows about it.
00:59:42
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And who actually acts on it, because knowing about it and being about it is very different. Knowing about it's important. That's number one. Talking about it's very important. But until you're being about it, walking in the path that you know, that you talk about, like the action is the only thing that will cause the fruit.
01:00:04
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And I want you to see you're saying exactly the stuff, but brother. I hear you, but I want men to see why this is different than, than what I've experienced in other places. We, we, we do to expose and go deeper than,
01:00:22
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Just the core for we have the the five fronts, right? my throat yeah like That's first if you can't master the God given stuff or the five fronts.
01:00:36
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No wonder we're being exposed in the body being balanced in business.
01:00:48
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What else we got? ah feel like ah I feel like ah Curtis and Wesley are are talking about two sides of the same coin is how I think it. Because you know ah when when Wesley talks about slowing down and that that moment of peace and that moment of silence or whatever, the verse that comes to mind on that one is ah you know take every captiv take every thought into captivity. That's a warfare type terminology where like that's a war that's a warfare type terminology where
01:01:21
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you know, the thought is an intrusive thing, right? ah ah An an ah unidentified person that's in your midst or in your camp or whatever. And to lay hold of it is to grab it. Like, don't let it go. Grab it, wrestle with it, see what it is, see who it is and figure out what's the biblical and true way to deal with it.
01:01:43
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So like with Curtis, you know, man, we all struggle with the same, um, you know, the the guilt and the the sometimes, you know, the the God is a still small voice. The devil, the devil yells, you know, right it's easier to i get to. dot And I think that um like if we put those two points together, like when we all go through like what Curtis goes through and you start hearing that stuff, if if instead of resisting it, maybe we grab it, you know, grab it and hold it and go, OK, what what is this? Like, where is this thought?
01:02:18
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coming from is this biblical if not okay and then you make a decision you know is is is jesus a liar is is god's word not true or is like this thought not true you know like what which one's true which one's not true now what do i what do i do how do i deal with it you know so i think that's really cool how they got like to me it's like two two sides of the same coin you know i think that's pretty cool yeah i see it yep
01:02:47
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yeah i I noticed something that is is way out, like ah from way up, um is that, you know, like my kids go to a charter school, like, and it's St. John's Classical Academy.
01:03:07
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They have to wear uniforms, their structure, there's, you know, certain times, there's today's formal day on Wednesdays, they have to wear formal days. And and so if my kids have structure, You know, how about us dads? How about us moms? You know, those, we need just as much structure as our kids, you know, and we throughout our whole life, most of us had structure, you know, through grade school and, you know, high school and into college. And, you know, you even have structure in your, in your job, but it's a lot, you know, less, you know, they they, you know, it's common that parents have different privileges than kids. Maybe parents can stay up or whatever, but this, this really helps, you
01:03:46
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pacing alignment and the process of what you're talking about. um And yeah even just being on Zoom the second day, I see how much it's i the value of it and how much is needed and how without it, um it's it's just leads a more compromise. You're not even checking your compromises, you know, you're not even gauging anything. You're just, sometimes people in life are just surviving. so but what like, what, what Andy touched on and then what Curtis touched on too, I think is, is a deeper level. So like we all have the Holy spirit and he's our helper.
01:04:25
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but we all have a past. We all have something that we have come away from. Like Andy, you know, you used to be overweight and now you're not, you know, pastries call your name, you know, ah Curtis, you know, judgment,
01:04:39
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And in the past calls your name. Like for me, I used to steal a lot. You know, I've been radically changed from that. And so stealing doesn't call my name, but lust does, porn does, you know.
01:04:53
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And so everybody has something in their life that's like they're it and it calls their name. And so not only do we have to be present to move forward in life in a systematic way, but we're also,
01:05:05
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the Holy Spirit wants to always help us on the very things that causes us to backtrack and go back to the pit that God has brought us out of. Yeah. Yeah. It sounds, that sounds, that's so good. It's full of a bunch of good stuff and it sounds complicated, but it's not. And what I struggle with myself is the single mindedness.
01:05:28
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Like, I call it getting off the track because if I'm, when I walk, when I find myself walking with Lord, it's funny because I find myself in that after trying to do it. Right. So you're, trying I'm in the process of, okay, Lord's trying to spend time with you. And then wham, I'm like, Whoa, you've been here this whole time while I've been looking for you. And then that like, ah is the single track, right? Like you're in that,
01:05:58
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bewilderment of your coexistence with a creator, him creating you, and then you get to be a part of his thing. And then you go right back into whatever you called it, Rob, the it.
01:06:10
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Right? And then it's like, a that's the double-mindedness. Unstable in all your ways. Can't be poured into because you don't know how to hold it And then we're wondering why we have these struggles and anxieties. It's you know self-induced. And then we pray to God, please help me with this stress and anxiety.
01:06:31
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And the whole time, it's like he's been on a different program, trying to get you on a different program. and we're still in this loop. with the devil where he goes, yep, you're good enough. I'll just play around a little bit. Then bam, you're right back into shame and guilt and condemnation. Then bam, you're like, I don't have any trust and hope.
01:06:45
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Where's he at? Then God's, oh, God's truth is better. Bam, bam, bam, bam, bam. And it's like, wow, dude. I mean, how many of those do we got to slam our head against the ceiling and the floor to be like, I'm done.
01:06:58
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I'm done. I'm done, man. And I just want to lay it down. Do I still stumble? Yeah. But is it? It's surrender. Falling forward, man. Like, yes. OK, boom. Pick up immediately. when I'm blown away when David can do what he did. Some of the things he did were pretty heiny hideous, heinous.
01:07:18
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And he wrote Rays in the middle of the Repentant Psalms. I'm not saying being bipolar, but like, what is my truth? It is actually more true than what I am. Like more true than what I do, more true than who I think I am or believe any of those things. The facts are always the facts and the the the grace of God is actually real, whether I'm wrestling with it or not.
01:07:44
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Yeah. That's that single mindedness is what I, where I find power. You good now? I love you, baby. Well, that's like, What was crazy about yesterday is actually what triggered all those thoughts going on for me with the know the judgment was we had our yearly company meeting.
01:08:04
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And as we're going through our meeting, um I'd say like 65, 70% of my coworkers, when they were given their yearly report of what they've done throughout the year,
01:08:19
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like 70% of my coworkers were giving me praise about how I helped them or what I did good for them. And then like, I'm feeling on top of the world at great. And then just that little voice, you know, starts as a whisper and then it gets louder of, oh, well, you know, it's like a fear of success.
01:08:42
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you know And then once I get that little thought of the fear of success, then bam, all that self-judgment and reflection and ah why am I not good enough? And it's like trying, like you said, capture every thought. And it's like when I get that fear of success...
01:09:01
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then I begin to doubt myself and I don't hold on to that thought. And I let that thought control me instead of wrestling with it and addressing that trigger.
01:09:13
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And that's where it gets hard for me trying to shut off my mind and just, you know, shut off the mind, surrender, give up control and be able to wrestle with it.
01:09:25
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So yeah. Are you a man of worry or are you a man of purpose? I worry on purpose. we all I worry on purpose. oh man but Like Jovi was saying, I liked his analogy, man. We have those worries, but worry isn't purpose. Worry is not alignment.
01:09:47
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Worry isn't for you. It's not just not Christ. It's not Heavenly Father. That's the adversary. He sees your progress. He sees your growth. And I guess someone, you know, that mentioned it to Sean on Facebook or whatever it was, you know, hey, but remember, remember, remember that little voice.
01:10:08
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But it's like Joby said, you take that, throw it. It's not yours. well that's all on I like what Sean said. i think it was yesterday. He's talking about, oh, God has given me all this, all this abundance and I'm going to spend it Were you?
01:10:24
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Yeah. okay Yeah, Gigi's house. Yeah,
01:10:30
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yeah he hasn't filmed yet. It's like we're waiting for that. deed yeah It's going to happen. um but like It's weird, man. cause like Externally,
01:10:45
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I'm so much different than internally. like Externally, It's just natural instinctive to be that. Raylan used it, I think a couple weeks ago, he used the term violent surrender.
01:11:00
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Like instinctively you think surrender is like passive and and weakness, and but all of our internal stuff can be like the external stuff. It's outwardly, I can be aggressive and violent and intentional for a purpose.
01:11:17
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You know, at work, you sometimes have to be aggressive and violent towards something. But usually on all of my internal stuff, like I'm not aggressive and violent and intentional. I'm more submissive. It's the same thing. Like, oh, man, maybe I'm not. All the insecurities, is all the weird feelings.
01:11:37
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But once you take that feeling, if it's that feeling of guilt or insecurity and you act on that, violently like violent surrender. So violent sounds bad, but you're aggressive and intentional towards that feeling.
01:11:54
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Like you face that feeling with intention and aggression. Like it, it makes you feel different. It makes that, that feeling of weakness, that feeling of insecurity go away.
01:12:09
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It's just weird how outwardly I can do it naturally, but internally I'm like, Oh no, I'm just kind of, you know, Kind of hide from the the problem. Outwardly problems, I attack it. Inwardly problems, it took a while to stop submitting to it and actually do what we were taught. We need to confront that problem and just say, you know, internally, you don't control me.
01:12:35
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Yeah. You know, that's I said we're not a writer like admitting it was admitting it was kicking my ass. And I'm like, I'm tired of getting my ass. Like I need to get in there and what my mind's ass. Yeah.
01:12:49
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It prevents anything internal that stops me. It keeps me from being that pure, complete blue flame. It's just you're not purpose, you're distraction.
01:12:59
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And then aggressively just just eat it. Stove it away. yeah i love that was cast away those stones stones in the river yeah yeah it's crazy how much of a physical choice your mind actually is we think it's some sort of ethereal ghost that's that we can you know we partake in throughout our life but it's so much more physical. There's so many things that you do say, perceive, believe because of your mind. Everything is in your mind. Your mentality is actually your reality.
01:13:38
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And if I've spent the last 40 something years chasing my mind, then of course it's got its own MO. It's got its own roadmap now.
01:13:51
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but I love what Wes is saying that it's still an obvious choice now because of, because of the Bible, because of the Bible's clarity and the spirit of God moving and confirming.
01:14:04
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It's like, Whoa, dude, that is clearly not served me ever, ever. Not one time.
01:14:14
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is tempting and as easy as that may be, Man, oh man, am I ready for something new?
01:14:25
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I'm really ready for the salvation that I tout. Well, and so like earlier when Raylan mentions it, you know, that like like yesterday, we're talking about our standard operating procedure and finding your scripture and finding what works. And I think that's part of what has been so frustrating with trying to deal with my mind is I didn't have that SOP. I didn't know what to bring into it.
01:14:47
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And so thank you. um Adam for pointing out the one of take every thought into captivity. Just do the next one. And then Wesley, you know, going in aggressively and fighting that. And that's really what I need to do. I need to take those thoughts into captivity and take control of them. Yeah.
01:15:12
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So thank you for those nuggets today, fellas. That's have a good day right there, Curtis. That's a good day of like pockets full of gold right there, man. You know, and that's like I said earlier when you had me reading and i was setting myself up for failure because, you know, stayed up late, couldn't get to sleep. I was up to like two in the morning and here in Montana, like I'm getting up at four to come on this. So I had two hours of sleep and it took everything I had. Like I'm dragging. I'm like,
01:15:41
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all right, get the, get, get it going. Like, and no coffee in my room. I'm just sitting here drinking water. So it's like, that's going to be tough. Yeah. so Let it be, let it be fuel for you all day long. And I promise you this, you were disciplined to wake up. You were obedient to wake up.
01:15:59
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Let it be fire in your soul all day. And when you lay down tonight, it will be like, it would be awesome. going to be heaven on earth. I'm going to crash. yeah That's the best. That's the best.
01:16:12
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The other side where he tries to get us off is, you know, oh, I stayed up late. Let me sleep in, not be here. Then you end up staying up late tonight and then everything gets thrown out of whack. So, but no, love your, love your discipline right there today. It's good.
01:16:29
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Adam, you got anything else? Drop in there, Matt. We're coming to you real quick. Like, We're just soaking it all up.
01:16:39
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Nice. Nice. Matt?
01:16:45
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Got anything?
01:16:48
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feel like I smacked my phone four five or six times before I get the unmute button right. um No, I've just been breathing breathing all of this in um I've just been sitting here racking my brain, like thinking about what it is that I'm holding on to.
01:17:03
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Um, and a lot of it, I think, I mean, I mean, for me is just ego and pride thinking that I have it mapped out successfully on what I want and what I think is good and what I think is right.
01:17:16
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um and relinquishing that to God and giving that to him. um because everything up to this point has just been, it's been a dog fight and it's like, why am I doing this to myself?
01:17:31
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um And that's just kind of what I've been wrestling with right now.
01:17:36
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It's good. It's good. I just want to maybe that it's it's that place of like how he's talking about scripture. I won't go into the depth of remember how he was just was talking about, you know, like that blanket scripture thing.
01:17:49
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or the prayer thing, just do that. Like that pride stuff or any of those, if that's a hint of that, okay, awesome. Now chase that down to what that is in your personality or your personal reality. What is that for you?
01:18:06
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deeper and deeper normal that's that's where you gotta like pride okay cool that's the word of it what's the sensation where do I feel that sensation nope it needs to be closer to each other yeah it yep good but but do that do that with the Lord ask him ask him the questions and have him expose that and then you know we can easily get on a call and just kind of um navigate that as well just know that yeah definitely cool is Rob still here Yeah, yeah, Rob. Rob, what you got? Anything?
01:18:40
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Oh, Jeremy, I think, clipped off. Probably had to go. Rob, anything else? I was just going to say, it's super cool to see Rob in Princeton. I always read his stuff, watch his videos, but actually seen it. Hey, man. Uh-oh. Can you hear me? Uh-oh.
01:18:56
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Yeah, we hear you. Yep, I'm still here. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Now, i was just going to say before I got to go into shift, super cool see Rob here, or seeing Rob here. Always watch your stuff, read your stuff, man. but yeah Actually seeing you, man.
01:19:08
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Super cool, man. Thank you. yeah Yeah. Good to be here. Thanks for having me. Super deep stuff all the time, man. Very helpful. You got anything else, Rob? Rob, what you got? No, man.
01:19:23
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I respect you guys. I support this. I see the tools and the tool belt you're giving men it's good not double real ways. and to connect with God, disconnect from the world, and also hear the lies between the enemy. You're really, um the enemy as incognitoly, like just been so integrated in our lives.
01:19:51
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And and you you are on his map of a general of his most wanted. this is This is good stuff. So keep going. I support you guys 100%.
01:20:03
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And we are here like we want like every part of you here as well. like this is This is good. we need We need men like this. Weird men, crazy men willing to step into all of this.
01:20:18
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Yep. Yeah, cool. Are you able, Rob, are you able just to breathe breathe us and pray us out as you walk and move? It doesn't matter. Either or. Yeah. Yeah.
01:20:28
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Good. Yeah. i ah ah I just pulled it into my mother-in-law's driveway and I'm in the middle of the road because my car ran out of gas for some reason, even though the gauge says it works. So Father God, I thank you, Lord God, for you are. Perfect time for breath first. Perfect time for breath first.
01:20:48
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Yeah. Wow. this is This is awesome, Rob. This is, I mean, not awesome for you. It's awesome for us. So we we love you. Breathe, sit all here and do that. Are you able?
01:21:01
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Yep. Okay. ah Father God, I thank you, Lord, for this group. I thank you, Lord, for who you are in our lives. Thank you, Lord God, that you made us, Lord God. And ever since the beginning, you've been trying to bring us back into your presence and your fellowship. And um ah you even sacrificed yourself so that we could um be back with you, Lord God. And so we honor you with that. and We honor you with anything that we need to give back up, Lord God, to come back into alignment.
01:21:32
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And so I pray, Lord, for each man here, that they would know that those things, that they would allow you to have control over their life, that they would utilize the Holy Spirit as their helper and um just be in alignment with you, Lord God, walking in. ah ah our Lord God, the same power that raised Christ from the dead lives in their veins, Lord God. So thank you for showing us how to utilize that.
01:22:00
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And I pray a blessing and protection over each man. i pray against anything that the enemy wants to steal back, kill and destroy. And I pray, Lord, that you would seal in us ah Fill us with your Holy Spirit, Lord God, so that we can, any ground we gain on the enemy, he does not have the ability to take back. In Jesus' name, amen. In Jesus' name, amen, amen.
01:22:25
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Rob, thank you thank you, thank you. That was absolutely, that's perfect, man. So we're with you in your struggle right there. um All good. I'll get out of the road eventually. That's good. And one one other thing. this is This is just an observation. It's beautiful. Andy, now you have competition for that, like, Catholic spot right there of, like, long, beautiful, you know, prayers, like touching on all those things. It's awesome.
01:22:52
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Well, Robs don't tend to be repetitive. So, you know, I still got to be there. Good. It's good. I love it. I love you, man. you Thank you for this.
01:23:04
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Thank you for this. When we get to heaven, you guys are going to have all the crowns because you'll be like, look, like how much you helped Raylan become a better man. so Much love, much respect. Later, guys. thank clear
01:23:21
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Anything and everything. Yeah, anything and everything. Sorry, I was muted. Yeah, and bless. Sorry, guys. You're so tough, man. I got my kids, dude. It's hard to stay perfectly in sync with you guys, man. It's perfect.
01:23:36
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It's perfect. It's absolutely perfect. Love you guys, man. Yep. he The other option, Sean, is you just to be totally off and ah to spend time with your girls. Hey, if that's the choice to spend time with the girls. But then, you know, the way I look, I just love them seeing that I'm dedicated to this. Yeah. love them za yeah Yeah. That's the better. influence than I can be just by cutting it up and joking and farting with them.
01:24:00
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Yep. Yep. That's how, you know, and I know my, my daughters have been able to see me do this for the past five years, you know, and I know that resonates with them. So it's, it's good. ah It's good.
01:24:13
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I know you spend other intentional time with them. It's beautiful. So gosh, say yours again. No, yours is almost too, too long, Kurt, but it's so, it's so good too long for me, not you.
01:24:25
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god bless words God bless. Take care and God bless. There it is. Take care. Take care first. Take care and God bless. I got the God bless. yeah thank well that's i I usually don't throw mine in at the end of the meeting because I don't want it to be like, damn you better come waving swords and shields and battle ready, brother. Like well and that's like like we were talking, like i i was it was a true struggle to come on today and like just being able to have that little bit of truth hit and it's like god judgment keeps coming back at me why does it keep coming back at me i can't shut my effing mind off and i let it out there and getting those nuggets of truth of like hey like you got to if you're tired of kicking your ass you need to kick its ass like that's the only way you're gonna do it you need to take those thoughts captive and so i looked it up you know the one that adam was talking about and it's corinthians 10 5
01:25:23
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ten five Control your thoughts by testing them against God's truth and make them obedient to Christ. Make them. Make them. i have to make them. It takes effort and choice and consistency. Yep. yeah Make them. Yep.
01:25:39
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And in that, in even those little repetitive things that seem so, like you're honoring God in that way, like you're fighting like in that fight, like for truth to see his face, to come out on the other side. So, yeah, I think I fought with like some like disingenuine feeling. Like it wasn't real at first to make these decisions for Jesus. Like, Oh, I'm just trying to be religious and, and, you know, forget that.
01:26:05
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But it's wild, dude, just by seeing, being with, being with Ray and seeing him your life, um, not by osmosis, but it's kind of proof in the pudding. So my faith became more evidentiary by your life. So it doesn't seem as difficult now. It's like, oh, now I just want to catch up. Now I just want to do or whatever or not in order to catch up to where I could be, you know? Well, not place today. like I truly felt like I had everybody standing shoulder shoulder with me, throwing up their shields.
01:26:42
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Kurt, This is what you got to go fight. Get off your ass and go fight it. We're here with you. And it's like, yep yeahp yeah, like I needed that today.
01:26:53
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Thank you. It's good. It's good. This year's going to be sick. Make sure to take care and God bless.
01:27:01
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Yeah. Brother. Love you guys. I'm going to check out. So that is the thing. Kurt, I want to plant that seed. Like, I want it to be so crazy that he's throwing, I'm saying fly, sovereign, strike, savage. He's like anything and everything. Like, take care and God bless. Like, it's like,
01:27:18
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everybody's like as we step off is just owning their own and the people that are here are like dang it i want like i want my i want my mantra like where where do i get that yeah first squad sound off second squad sound off yeah i can put in second to none rock rock rock oh dang oh man oh yeah some memories Oh, too good. We got, we got the Kilo Sierra going here. We got the killer squad. So yeah. Yeah. I'm looking forward to more, dude. This is amazing. And what a blessing, but it's ah something we can't take for granted. I thought that's another thing.
01:28:04
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Like how many good things have I had in my life? Like, Oh, of course, man, I'm the chosen. So of course I'm just going to have this showering of abundance. And that's no way to wield a sword, you know? That's what 100% the thought that made me log on today is yeah the whole conversation yesterday. Like, oh, I didn't invest in myself. I bought a dirt bike. Like I took things for granted. And I was like, like, I'm struggling to get out of bed this morning. I'm like, you got a good thing going. Don't take it for granted.
01:28:36
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Like, don't be that asshole. like Yeah. Being lazy. Get in there. Don't cheat yourself. You know, like the days are numbered, man. And I'm making up for 40 something years of lost time.
01:28:47
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You know, thank God we got a supernatural God. Yeah. Amen, bro. One day. Yeah. One moment. He can shift everything. Yep. It's in all of that. It's beautiful. Yeah. Yeah.
01:29:01
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Good. Love you guys. Post your videos. Later. Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye Bye. Bye. Bye. Bye Bye. Bye. Bye Bye. Bye Bye. Bye Bye. Bye. Bye Bye. Bye Bye. Bye Bye. Bye Bye. Bye Bye.
01:29:12
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Bye