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Speaker: Good. Good morning, man. Good morning. Good morning. it's Good to see you. Hopefully, hopefully you were pressed hard like Jesus in the garden of Gethsemane.
Speaker: and Hope you repressed and surrendered and pray there was a resurrection and all of that as well. And now you come back here. Not exhausted men, but raised ready.
Speaker: for a new week to be in service. What I know you guys were all listening to that video and taking notes inside of the the declaration statement.
Speaker: Give me one of the words who's going to go for all calling. I'm called. I am called. Good. Good. Called.
Speaker: Chosen. What's what ah what's the the next part? I am connected. Connected. Good. We know the next one.
Speaker: I am in covenant.
Speaker: Say it. Go ahead. He said it. I am in covenant. Yeah. Covenant. Good. What's the next one?
Speaker: Consecrated. Nice. Can you give me one deeper layer to any one of those? What is any one of those? I'm called or I'm connected? What's the deeper part of that?
Speaker: All it is a duty given to you by Heavenly Father.
Speaker: Yeah. Good. Good. well Anybody else want to say what about the next? Any of the others?
Speaker: Connected to what?
Speaker: spirit to each other. Yeah. Yeah. yep Good. So, yep. Yourself. it's um yep Gone. Yeah.
Speaker: Brotherhood. Yeah. Internal. Okay. What's the, what's the other, what's it pointing at with the, the in covenant in covenant to.
Speaker: It's a promise between you and Heavenly Father. Good. Yep. And covenant with God. Yep. Nice. And consecrated. What
Speaker: what do you got, Curtis? Oh, was going to say covenant. It's ah keeping up our end of the bargain. Yeah. Good. Good.
Speaker: Yeah, that like it's a the know, there for many years, it was always I would always see like instead of challenge, which I know we live in this world and everybody loves a challenge, which is which is great.
Speaker: But when I see challenge, I would rather it be, you know, a covenant. When I said it in that way, the covenant is a little more serious, right? So it's good, good, man. Good.
Speaker: So ah we'll get started. Everybody else, before we get into the other work of any of this, everybody like, ah are we good?
Speaker: Good, because we can do this. And then if there's something that you want to share here, just always know that you can share, but you can also just let me know like, hey, I need to I need to set you know something up.
Speaker: Like, let's set it up and and do do some deeper work. OK. How would you define the consecration? Is that more of just like being renewed, like burning away of the old to be more aligned?
Speaker: more connected. Well, less connected, but yep it's good. I like to use the part for me. I got a, you know, I'm a peanut brain. Nobody. I got to make it pretty simple for me. I like, I like um looking at it as just being set apart.
Speaker: Okay. But you're, mean, your, yours is the same, right? Yep. Yeah. It was, it was more of a question than yeah. Yeah. for how you For me, experientially, I stick with, for me, that that's my first one, to be set apart.
Speaker: And so when I go into that, to be set apart, what does that look like? what What vision is he giving me to be set apart? Like, what am i within my own spirit wrestling with and moving? What is what is it moving towards?
Speaker: So it's like this, the old, I know. and the flesh feel, i feel that. And then there's the vision inside of my spirit that he's given me to to do. And I'm like, okay, and I can feel that difference. And then to be set apart, if that is true,
Speaker: then whatever this next layer is outside of me should show that as well. So I'm going to be maybe when I when I step into some type of um chaos. Right. That's why warriors peace used to be what it was for so many years. It was I am the warrior warring with and bringing key to reality.
Speaker: So I always am trying to like bring that in. Right. So that's really how how that kind of affects. And if I'm doing that, then I see the results of myself. But then I also through that struggle, that war internal, I'm able to play that out in reality for myself, which I love that.
Speaker: um But I'm able to see the benefits in my family. or in my community or whoever I'm serving. Because there's probably, I mean, you probably step into it all the time, brother.
Speaker: Like you step into a chaotic situation and you got to bring peace into that. And then there's a lot of times you're like, do I end up just ripping this person from this deal or do I convert them? You know, it's like, right? Yeah.
Speaker: heaven It'd be so tough. Like sit down, shut up, get over there, get out of the way. You know, and you're like, the same time maybe there's other moments where you're navigating like hey i just need to to listen to this person so what do you think definitely situational ah there's there's a time to yank people up and there's a time to be nice i suppose yeah yeah Yep.
Speaker: Where I'm at in my life now, I know they trained us a certain way within military just to respond and do those things. yeah And it's pretty wild because i I know I was pretty good at that. It'd be in like brainwashed. I think they call it indoctrinated, you know, like did that. But the problem was when I still did that in reality, i mean, in the community, you know, I ended up in jail.
Speaker: So now it's kind of that same thing. If I could, in your situation, if you're able to have those experiences, but you navigate it quickly as you can inside the framework, what is this situation, you know, and be able to do it more so from, yes, I was trained to do it this way, but then actually slowing down.
Speaker: which that you you live in a fast paced reality when you're doing that, but being able to to navigate that by choice, right? Yeah. I'm usually pretty good at deescalating stuff on calls, but like my go-to is like, I'll be nice twice.
Speaker: but I'm nice twice. Then I'm not nice. Nice twice. I would say. I like it. What's interesting. I'm not I'm not saying this is your situation, but maybe others could relate.
Speaker: We can be very good at work and do that. But then when we come home, it's very difficult because then we're quick to you that thing. Maybe maybe your wife gets once not yours. But I'm just saying, like, you know, your wife gets one time and and that's where we're able to to do. If I'm doing it over in this one,
Speaker: doing so much work. That's where I try to tell my wife, like, or my kids, like, Hey, I'm going away. And when I come back, I'm better for you. That's, that's my practice. I'm better for you when I come back.
Speaker: That's what I want. Yeah. I think it's like, uh, you know, the conviction for me is that, it's easy to be, it's easy to get aggravated for me. Like it's easy to get disrupted with impatience and then see that in somebody else, seeing some frustration in somebody else.
Speaker: Um, the easy knee jerk response is my flesh, but what happens is i always get humbled. It's like the father's like, eh, yeah, but, and, um,
Speaker: It's crazy because it seems exhaustive to, at first, like the first response and internally is, oh, this is too much, man. I don't have the patience. I don't have the time and whatever. But the truth is, is that whatever it is has been granted to me to show me me so that I can stay remain humble instead of being humbled.
Speaker: I can remain in that place and that sharpened edge of of always honing that and being able to, not always, right? Like I fail. I fail, but that is my heart is to be way more long suffering.
Speaker: I think I've like, there's a meme that went out the other day, or at least I saw it the other day. You guys may have seen it, but it was thanks to the friend that heard me out. Like I'm healed or whatever. It was like, I'm healed. And thanks to my friend that listened to me cry about 300 days in a row or something ridiculous, you know?
Speaker: It's like how how many other people, you know, I'm scared but about the like pride becoming a fall, right? Like if as soon as I'm getting aggravated at somebody, it's like, oh, man, you know, like what lesson do I got to learn here?
Speaker: You know, because I don't want to fall again. i don't need I don't need a continual fall. I don't want a shocking awareness that I was way off on that person or in my pride trying to get angry or you know, or finally this person can can handle my full emotional retort when it's never, ever, ever.
Speaker: My full emotional retort. I mean, I was never a drill instructor, but it's probably similar. so Yeah. Yeah, man. I'm trying to curb that. No doubt.
Speaker: Yeah. Yeah. Well, today will be the day to curb it. Cool. Today will be that one. Here we go. So let's curb it. Curb stomp. We're going to curb. So it's awesome the how things come together. It's like the Holy Spirit kind of knows what he's doing. It was very interesting to to open up that WhatsApp and looking over that. And Wesley had posted something yesterday.
Speaker: about um about the old man. And so today, this week, is the old man. So it's just it's is awesome. And that was all set up.
Speaker: at the beginning of last week. So awesome. Wesley already is in it. So um but really, ah brothers, like. Today.
Speaker: Is not about releasing pressure today is not about venting today is not about managing emotions today. Is is war today is war against identity.
Speaker: Today we confront the old man, the man we built without God, the man shaped by survival, the man built through pain, the man we cling to out of fear, the man we protect because we don't know who we are without him.
Speaker: That's a tough one, man, to really start to consider. So savage surrender means this. Today, the old man dies.
Speaker: So welcome to sovereign savage. This is chase and alignment. Monday is savage surrender. And today is it's not just about letting go. Today is about identity death, the death of the self you built in the absence of God.
Speaker: So
Speaker: Let's, um, you want to try it? You ready for it? Yeah, we can do that. Yep. Go do that one. And then we'll go into a breath and prayer. No, go ahead.
Speaker: It's perfect.
Speaker: Okay.
Speaker: Brothers, there is a version of you that God never built. A version shaped by pain, by fear, by survival. A version that learned to fake strength instead of surrendering to truth. That version the old man has been making decisions in your name for too long.
Speaker: Savage surrender is not emotional release. It is execution. Today is the day you stop negotiating with the man who has been killing your calling. Today is the day the false identity goes on the altar. to- Today's the day the lies lose their home.
Speaker: And declare this. The old man dies today. The new man resists today. I choose obedience over ego. Stillness exposes him. Silence confronts him. Sacrifice cuts him.
Speaker: Service replaces him. You are not who you were, you are who God is forming. Let the old man die brother. And let the real man breathe. Fly sovereign. Strike seven. Strike seven.
Speaker: I don't know what you got, but not emotional release. It's not emotional release. Okay. mean Just want to say, you know, it was awesome. I got to talk to Curtis um last week, right?
Speaker: So towards the end of last week, and I'm just saying too, we we had the conversation awesome about AI. These things, Curtis didn't kind of know, and you guys probably don't know.
Speaker: Even this can be difficult to make that deal there. And if you guys could imagine doing an audio every single day and trying to make it perfect for you men, it's a lot.
Speaker: And then to make a video and then try to mash audio up to it. And then knowing that there's only one man, because we always do it for the one man, there's only one man that listens to it.
Speaker: It's a lot. So someday when when all of it comes together and it's easy to do and I can put those out and it's super awesome. Or once one of you guys like volunteer and you're going to take care of all of that for me, that would be because it bothers you so much, then then it would be awesome. I wouldn't have to do it myself.
Speaker: So but um that's that's it's just where a lot of it everything's at right i know where i'm at i know where we're at within chasing alignment it takes a lot of effort a lot of time to put even those together and then once i start putting it you first started out i put my voice with those i put my voice with them you're talking like three hours for like a one minute deal you're like Dang.
Speaker: And then you don't even like it, right? Sean, when you do a video, you're like, this, what the, that's terrible. So just want to give you just a little bit of back on that. Well, thanks for letting it all hang out, dude. Leading from the front.
Speaker: But someday, this is the standard now. Someday we'll have a ah smidge higher standard. How about that? So just a little bit.
Speaker: So, but... Thank you for being here. You men are amazing to come off of a weekend and and be here and spend your mornings with all of us. Appreciate it. We'll do breath so that we can be present here this morning together.
Speaker: And then also just bring everything else into alignment. And we'll breathe in. In three, two, one. Okay. in
Speaker: body settle and
Speaker: release the body
Speaker: notice the sensations and release hold
Speaker: last one inhale
Speaker: release.
Speaker: Hold on the exhale.
Speaker: And breathe normal.
Speaker: Let's go into prayer. e Father,
Speaker: break the old man in us today. Break the lies we believed. Break the patterns we normalized.
Speaker: Break the identities we protected.
Speaker: Break the rebellion that disguised itself as strength.
Speaker: We surrender the old man We open to the new. In Jesus' name we pray. Amen.
Speaker: So, who's ready? o Let's rock.
Speaker: So anybody got it in front of them, the declaration statement? Or do you know it?
Speaker: Just wondering what if I called on you right now to do it?
Speaker: And I'm going to call on. Just messing with you right now, just prepping your heart and your mind, and he's getting it. yeah
Speaker: You got it on there? but on Here we go, man. And three, two, one. I am called. I am connected. i am connected i am i am in covenant.
Speaker: i am caught I am consecrated. ah rise in predictable power. And I strike in sovereign obedience.
Speaker: Nice. yeah Nice job, man.
Speaker: Yeah, that's where like it's going to be difficult in some ways online because it's going to be like way too much with everybody being off and then the lack. and Like it's it's not going to be perfect because it's coming all the way from Nebraska. Like how the heck, you know, it can't be on the same time frame as me, you know. We're an hour behind over here. yeah Well, you know, that Montana thing, it might get here by, you know, 730. So, but, uh, so, but that's, what's amazing is the rest of the world is not in sync with you men when we do this. So we'll do the best that we can, but notice that little off piece, just stay with your same rhythm.
Speaker: Hopefully it's close within, as close as we can. Does that make sense?
Speaker: Good. Right on. We'll get better and better, more and more best we can. Okay. Nice work. But try to see that in so many other things. Like this is the identity. It is the identity of the new man, not the one that we're killing today.
Speaker: Okay. So, um, Before, Hey, good morning. Before we confront the old man, we confront the truth inside our internal world.
Speaker: So this is when we start stepping into the five internal fronts. Okay. So go ahead. Always encourage you to have a journal out and writing that.
Speaker: um Okay, because what the men say here and share here is super true. Catch it it is is awesome. It's what is either important to you or a chink in your own armor.
Speaker: But here with the five internal fronts, this gives us the opportunity to really start to to be honest and see who this guy is. Okay, so
Speaker: We're going to do body, mind, emotions, spiritual, relational, right?
Speaker: So as I, as I say these,
Speaker: let me see. Here
Speaker: we go.
Speaker: Okay, if you want them or you can just listen to me there are in the in the chat. Okay, but really the body like where is the question is like where is your physical state?
Speaker: And that's why it's so important, and you know, possibly coming into Monday. The weekend can be difficult sometimes. So where's your physical state? Are you weak, tight, strong?
Speaker: exhausted? Have you been drifting? Again, get used to the first stuff that comes up.
Speaker: That's really the training that we do here, man, that first initial voice, the first one. You know, all of a sudden I say,
Speaker: exhausted. And then you're like, Oh, yeah, I'm exhausted from all of this. And then you're like, No, no, no, no, actually, you know, you start saying something else. So just notice the first one.
Speaker: Not the story. Okay, the mind, where's the mental clarity? Like, are you sharp, fogged, overthinking, avoiding?
Speaker: Good.
Speaker: By the way, I'm just going to give you a hint. You know, I'm going kind of really start to expect some of this stuff. It's very intentional. We're showing up here. You know, it's going to be super awesome that you also like drop it in there, you know, in your video doing this or you send it through text message in chat or whatever. Like I love to look at those.
Speaker: to be able to see and then see where you came from and we'll be able to look back on that and be able to encourage you from that. So very intentionally checking in this way. Okay.
Speaker: So the emotions, the emotion again is, is like, um, am I doing this out of, out of fear, anger, apathy, desire, sadness,
Speaker: Being able mend to feel the sensation of what that is. Like if you are coming here angry today, it's not just telling me a word I'm angry. Okay, cool. What is that? Well, I mean, I'm angry and I don't like it. And my wife, you know, does all this stuff. Okay.
Speaker: I get it. But what's the sensation? What's the deeper sensation there? This men have such a difficult time.
Speaker: So that's that's one part we need to definitely work on. Because we definitely know the desire, what desire feels like. We definitely know, like, when that starts rising, we definitely know what rage feels like when we're sitting in a car and we want to hurt the person in front of us.
Speaker: One, that the the desire to like that overcomes us to do the things that we don't want to do, trying to have a man explain that to me, He doesn't even, he doesn't know it's been happening to him the whole time. He doesn't even know what it feels like.
Speaker: He just knows it's desire and he knows what he doesn't like doing, but he doesn't know the feeling and the sensation that's happening. That's making him taking him to that moment.
Speaker: Okay. So I want you to really start seeing the difference We're already led by our emotions, man. we We, I mean, we just are, we already are. So to say that you're not, and then you can't, we can't do this stuff here and really explain why we're not and how we're able to choose to get around this.
Speaker: Just letting know you're led by your emotions. Okay. And then our thoughts encourage our emotions. And then you're in this cycle of what you can't get out of. Okay. Thoughts, emotions, emotions, thoughts, thoughts, emotions, chemical imbalance. Okay.
Speaker: So then we get to the spirit. Where is my connection to God?
Speaker: Anchored, distant. Are you convicted? are you avoiding?
Speaker: and internal relationships. Really this place, what is my relationship with myself? It's like starting to consider like, am avoiding something?
Speaker: Is it harsh, conflicted? Can I be honest with myself?
Speaker: lot of these things I can clearly see and so many levels how many things I avoid.
Speaker: Okay. So these five fronts reveal exactly where the old man is hiding. And the better that you're able to do this, you're able to listen to the voice, the more you're able to be honest with yourself as that voice is speaking in there, it will reveal all of those lies.
Speaker: It's just, are we willing to face them? And until we're willing to face one or two or whatever, We'll just keep avoiding it. Okay. So here's a very huge opportunity to not avoid these things. I want you to see when we're talking this right here, this is the main part to what we do. And this is not adding to
Speaker: really anything.
Speaker: When I say I'm not adding to, I'm actually taking away It's literally what God is doing. The work that he's doing is not adding to your day.
Speaker: This right here, if we do this work, it's not adding to this will be giving up things that I want to give up. They're wrecking my life. I want to give them up.
Speaker: Who, who can, who doesn't see what I'm talking about right there?
Speaker: you see it? Do you see how this is not do more? See how this is not body being balanced in business?
Speaker: You see why we do the five internal fronts before we do body being balanced in business. But you said body twice, we're doing body twice, you got body in this one and body in this one. you You see the difference?
Speaker: And if not, like as we step in a little bit more into the core four, there's a difference because what was the question for body before?
Speaker: For us. Just checking in with our body, seeing where we're at. ah Good. So what is explain what that is Um, Curtis, like what, what is like this morning? What do you see that now as you check in? What's an experience thing?
Speaker: So for me, when I checked in with my body, really what I was finding it was just my gut was telling me that the way I had been living was wrong.
Speaker: Like just that gut feeling when you know something is wrong and that's where I was at personally. Good. I hope you wrote and you wrote it down, right? Absolutely. Good for you bow for you. Always got the journal handy.
Speaker: Bro, I love it. Nice, nice work. Nice work. That's that's awesome. Very good. So it is, it's it's different. So as we step into the the core four, right?
Speaker: this This, as we are doing the five fronts, this is where alignment starts to come in. This is where the whole man comes into formation, okay?
Speaker: And so with the body, am I supporting my alignment or sabotaging it?
Speaker: And so if you've been with us the past year, this is where, um, um, um, fitness and fuel come in. So just even in that context, fitness and fuel, am I supporting my alignment or sabotaging it?
Speaker: Okay. It's simple. you're You already know. you We want to tell a story of why and why not and all that other stuff, but we don't ah like just be honest with yourself. Write it down. This is what's happening.
Speaker: I'm sabotaging it in these ways. This other stuff right here, I've really been in alignment. Awesome. Being, where is my spiritual integrity right now?
Speaker: Man, when you bring this one in,
Speaker: Everything else, everything else becomes more and more clear.
Speaker: Because if you can clearly see where is my spiritual integrity, where am i in alignment with the things that I know to be true and actually bringing them into reality.
Speaker: If I'm not doing them in reality, then I'm out of that spiritual integrity part.
Speaker: And then the balance. Notice it's like like, those two are very important. God gave you the body. That's the first thing that you're supposed to take care of. If you can't take care of that, we're in trouble.
Speaker: And that's what's tough to take somebody serious about even spiritually. very tough for me nowadays, not because I don't want to listen to them, not because they're not smart on the other side of it. When they're telling me how to fix my life, it's very difficult that they can't even take care of their own body or not at least trying right and moving in that direction.
Speaker: So, and then the same with the being, being able to take care of that, that's our responsibility. Then we're able to move in, not just internal, then into the balance. That first layer with our family, like where is my relationship?
Speaker: Where are my relationships and am I hiding or withdrawing or avoiding the truth? Through the past five years, men, so many wives call.
Speaker: The men truly think that they're doing awesome. I mean, in relationship, I know those men, I mean, i a lot of them and their wives on the next side would be like, he just doesn't, he doesn't get it.
Speaker: He's living a different reality.
Speaker: This stuff here, both of these start to expose that.
Speaker: So business where am I resisting responsibility or where am I drifting in my mission
Speaker: and then just check in again with your own self men check in with your own self like we can quickly go into this place of like judgment okay it's not what we're doing here this is a This is a place right here, here in reality, in this place.
Speaker: And both when you take this opportunity, it's just an honest assessment. It's not judgment. When you go and look at, I mean, if you were to go look over somebody's car that that you didn't know that you were wanting to help,
Speaker: You're not a attached to it. You don't care if it's a nice car or or whatever. You're just going to look over it. You're going to assess it. You're going to tell them what's wrong with it and try to help them. It's the same thing for you.
Speaker: Okay. And the tough part too is, is it's not intelligence.
Speaker: And so we try to do everything inside of our mind, this and make it about how, and how smart we are. And when we do that, we just get lost. It's very, it's even more difficult.
Speaker: That's where I joke around, but I don't joke around. I see the smartest men doing the stupidest things. And then I'm like, dang, I'm so glad. Like I'm a peanut brain. Like, thank you, Lord. You, you actually know what's going on.
Speaker: So it's just this place. If you don't know where this stuff is going on, A warrior without awareness, you're you're going into all of it blind.
Speaker: And so it would be like, how how often am I just going into everyday blind, every week blind, if I'm not willing to truly assess what this stuff is?
Speaker: And when we do that, things go out of alignment. you know, more and more and more very, very quickly. and And that's where we see men, they know even scripture, but they'll be heading in body way off.
Speaker: In being, they'll be totally off.
Speaker: Balance with their marriage. Oh yeah, I'm a good father. and I'm a good father. Like,
Speaker: maybe to compare to what we were, but where's where's your next level, man? Where's your next piece that he's calling you into? Okay? So I'm gonna just go into it just a little bit more like what is what is the old man? Okay? you You checked in, I hope in some ways it's just being able to see the truth, but here's like understanding what the old man is. And the old man is the identity You built, i built without God.
Speaker: He is made from trauma, survival, pride, false strength, numbing, addiction, performance, pain identity, childhood patterns, ego armor, sin habits,
Speaker: watching emotional reaction, even the depth of like that deep fear-driven decisions. Like he is the unformed self, like the the untrained self, right? The undisciplined self.
Speaker: The self that refuses in us, it refuses surrender, who refuses this this type of alignment.
Speaker: So just allow, like today, God to confront the identity that has been
Speaker: doing this, right?
Speaker: Be able to face this man, like see him.
Speaker: So how the old man stays, how the old man stays alive, the old man survives through avoidance and agreements.
Speaker: How does he survive?
Speaker: avoidance and agreements there we go here we go so avoiding truth agreeing with lies lies yeah so shit is that also that avoidance comes in avoiding conviction agreeing with emotions
Speaker: this one right here is a very good one man like Am I following my emotions and my desire and my want to's? Or am I sticking with my conviction of what God already shown me, the path that I'm on?
Speaker: It's simple, but it is very difficult.
Speaker: And inside of that, that conviction and emotion, am I avoiding obedience? Am I agreeing with old patterns?
Speaker: Man, ah like I would encourage you like write those things down, maybe on your arm. And as you go through your day, like what is that part that I'm wanting to get rid of that I said I was going to surrender, but then I'm like, oh, dang, like am I going with conviction or emotion right now? Am I being obedient or am I going with my old patterns?
Speaker: Clearly starts to expose. Then we understand why our habits are what they are and our destiny is what it is. So the old man does not die because because I dislike him.
Speaker: I hate that guy sometimes. Okay, like guys, because you stop feeding him.
Speaker: So Monday is where starvation begins, man. Today.
Speaker: So we're going to step into um look at just try to very rough, like do the fire frame. What's the fire frame
Speaker: frame or face or nice. Yep. Okay, so we're going step into that and just use that framework as I ask this question as I ask these questions.
Speaker: Okay, what part of my old identity am I still protecting.
Speaker: And then we're going step into feel.
Speaker: This is where, where, let's say it one more time. Where do I feel?
Speaker: Where do I feel the old man resisting inside my body or inside my emotions or resisting inside of that sensation?
Speaker: Where do I feel that resistance?
Speaker: If you can get even start noticing the resistance men, the resistance will give you the moment where it's coming on and you'll be able to step back.
Speaker: The resistance itself will start to give you awareness of what's happening.
Speaker: So where is that happening in your body? Most of mine are almost the same. Like they'll show up mostly even compressing on my chest or on, and my shoulders will be super heavy with weight or my face,
Speaker: my face, my forehead, like behind my eyes. Like I'll just tell this group here, like that right there is like my, like, It's just terrible because feeling my emotions, then it becomes super exposing. Okay, so know what yours are.
Speaker: You can start to master that. You start to know yourself. Okay, what as we step into face, what true is good?
Speaker: What you got?
Speaker: Okay. What truth about who I've been am I avoiding?
Speaker: So interesting, man. He'll show us who that man is.
Speaker: Like 0.001 seconds later, that dude is already almost literally in charge.
Speaker: Like, dang it. Like, doesn't seem like I'm avoiding that guy. I don't want it, but I, I got more concerned about the next level of my doing and things that I need to get done. And I forgot about who he just showed me in the mirror that I actually need to
Speaker: stay connected to here rather than go into the old one. No, but it'll only be for just a time. ah just, until I get my stuff done. Yeah, amen. And then here we are 40 some years later. And go, dang it.
Speaker: Bunch of burnt bridges. Yeah. Yep, it's true. See it my own. Especially with myself.
Speaker: That burnt bridge lean back to myself is.
Speaker: Hell on earth, man. Not trusting your own soul. Stuff for all those years, right? Yeah. Now I got to build that bridge. Yeah.
Speaker: Yep. So it's that place as we start to forge through that, where we're okay now with feeling and we're okay with facing this truth and these lies of exactly where we're at. That's the whole struggle of everything to be able to serve this, to honor this new place, to forge it out and sovereign obedience.
Speaker: What one act of obedience kills the old man today.
Speaker: yeah Like I want that man to die.
Speaker: like when I sit here and I know it, I want it. I want that version of me to die. That very subtle one that was created out of trauma.
Speaker: And I've turned, God has turned so much of that into strength, but there's still deep levels that those habits and that architecture yeah keeps trying to build and take over.
Speaker: Okay.
Speaker: So we'll rip through here the S framework.
Speaker: What's the S framework? Who knows it?
Speaker: illness Illness. Silence. Surrender. For this one, sacrifice. sacrifice service Sacrifice. Yep. It always feels like this huge sacrifice for us to...
Speaker: to be able to do it. So in silence, what lie about myself is finally exposed.
Speaker: Yeah.
Speaker: There can be a lot. The chatter of the mind. okay Yep. Yep.
Speaker: yep
Speaker: Okay, so being able,
Speaker: what is being exposed, then the side or the, sorry man, the stillness inside of that. In stillness, what truth, in stillness, what truth rises about the man that I've been pretending to be, okay?
Speaker: What truth rises about the man I've been pretending to be?
Speaker: And then in the silence and silence, what lie about myself is finally exposed. And that stillness part being still enough to like, let that, like, like you're saying, Sean, right. Being able to let those, all that chaos, I see it and then let it settle.
Speaker: And then having the silence, being silent enough to be able to hear. and in the stillness, I can hear his voice in the in this silence. I don't interrupt him. Okay.
Speaker: In the sacrifice,
Speaker: what identity behavior or pattern must die today?
Speaker: I want you to clearly see we are literally this right here is some deep, deep work, man. You can lay up your monster stuff. You know, you can lay up your, your, your caffeine stuff on the altar.
Speaker: You can like, there's so much of that other stuff, the Facebook scrolling, Whatever. That is endless of those things that we can and should and is still honorable to be able to lay those on the altar.
Speaker: The deeper work that we're exposing right here is identity.
Speaker: Deep, deep identity. You may identify that you love monster and that you can't live without it. But as you keep going deeper, like what does that, if you get rid of, if you sacrifice that monster, it's going to expose a deeper identity issue inside.
Speaker: These become very difficult because their behaviors and habits that you've been doing your whole life.
Speaker: So the S framework is surgical brothers.
Speaker: It's very, very intentional. This work here is very exposing.
Speaker: We knew those things that you don't want to say that are coming up the identity stuff that's very, very deep.
Speaker: It's rough, man. It's embarrassing. At least it is for me.
Speaker: It's tough. So those patterns, anything that you're doing. So there's service. What action proves the new dude is leading me today. What is that for you?
Speaker: What is, what would be the proof to yourself that
Speaker: What would be that proof to yourself that that man is dead and gone? And this one is the one that's leading. evening I can, it's funny, like for, for myself, uh, you know, I'll mess around a little bit, but ah it's, it's true. I, I embrace if you ever watch, um,
Speaker: Like if you watch a different levels, wherever I was, watch the videos. Like if if I was with operation Barnabas, what t-shirt and identity was I wearing?
Speaker: Barnabas. Barnabas. if If I was embracing the identity and changing of warriors peace, which shirt was I wearing? Yeah. Warriors peace for sure.
Speaker: But look at the videos. once those identities are gone for me,
Speaker: what will you probably never see me wear again? Yeah. Like, it's an identity. Like, now I got this holy white shirt thing going on.
Speaker: Like, praise the Lord. Like, it makes me so much holier. Like, who does that guy think he is? He reminds me.
Speaker: It reminds me of who I'm actually called to be.
Speaker: sure Okay, so the same like, but on the deeper inner side that that even the white shirt.
Speaker: And that's just one of them. He's given me several others to remind me the path that I'm on.
Speaker: And as I embrace those for the next one to four years. There's deeper inner work that is happening that will prove to myself, even the stillness or the silence.
Speaker: I know that for the next three to four years, I've been called the stillness, silence, sacrifice who that guy is and stepping in to the obedience and the service for that man to be gone.
Speaker: Yeah. And it it'll take me, it'll take me one, three four years.
Speaker: I know this about myself. Or not. You could just go to some summer camp and pray real hard and get excited at the altar and everything changes. but It's a weekend. it It literally only takes a weekend.
Speaker: Yeah. Yeah. One weekend when I was 13 changed everything for me. Everything. And the Lord is super amazing like that. Yeah, he he could. yeah He can.
Speaker: But at the same time, there's this beautiful placement that we try to pray away and be undisciplined about in choosing him and walking with him. And so that's where my supernatural, all of that has has come is in that relationship with him.
Speaker: So again, I really, as we've been walking through this, I really pray that you've been journaling, that you've been jotting all those things down, that you don't find it pressure to put the camera on you and just at least put that in there.
Speaker: Body, mind, emotion, spiritual, relational, body being balanced business. very You can very shorten it down. Okay.
Speaker: And then being able to do the framework and the S framework, if you're able to put it all in there. Awesome. If not, if you fill up the five minutes, like say what you want, it's fine.
Speaker: Practice it if you want for one to 50 times so that it's good inside your own soul. Okay. So
Speaker: Just being able to go over each and every one of those and then post it in there. Men, you've been doing a really good job. Like it's it's very encouraging to see you post. It's not pointless. I see you men growing. Okay?
Speaker: And it's awesome. So post it in there. Okay? Bless the other men with your post.
Speaker: And if you don't get any thumbs up, no, it's probably the best video that's out there. Okay.
Speaker: Good. Whatever you gotta do. It's not, it's not about that, but I know even inside ourselves, if you don't see it, it just. I've watched so many men post online and then if they don't get all this whole reaction thing, then we quickly, quickly step away from it.
Speaker: And so just make sure, just know that you're growing. Okay.
Speaker: What else? What else as we get ready to close close this out? What do you got? Adam, what do you got
Speaker: got? Just soaking it all in. Just trying to and figure out how to apply it all, you know? That's all. Yeah, I hear you. What else?
Speaker: Trying to figure out. I've been distracted. My my son turned 13 yesterday. And it's like, i don't know. I'm just, I feel like I'm racing the clock and I just trying to figure out what to do to get him to be the man that God called him to be before my time runs out. You know, that's all.
Speaker: Yeah.
Speaker: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Chase, chase that chase that down, like write that stuff out or put it in the video, navigate that stuff.
Speaker: Love to be able to expose that further and truly see where the spirit leads of of what, like even right now, why are you asking that question? Right? Like there's something that he's pointing you towards.
Speaker: I'm only a couple years ahead you, Adam. Mine's 15 to be 16. Yeah. well And I'm not sure where I heard it or found it or if it was in this group or not, but
Speaker: it's all by example. He will do exactly what you do, whether it's good or bad.
Speaker: ah say or everything He everything. My sons mirror me to the letter, and it kind of scares me. Well, Jeremy, all that pointing that we just did, you just gave it all the way.
Speaker: So, Adam, he just gave, Jeremy just gave you the whole answer. It is about living it out. Nice, Jeremy. It is, man. It is. It truly is. Wouldn't it be nice if you could just name it and claim it like that? Like, oh, just live it out.
Speaker: ah It's definitely ah it's i mean that's definitely a huge part, and i especially as he gets older and more conscious and more aware of his surroundings. It makes me more aware my actions, for sure. You know what i mean? And even how I respond to him.
Speaker: I look at how I respond to him, and some of it I'm like, oh, shit, that's how my dad responded to me. And I'm like, okay, this is where I trim the fat. Let me respond different so that when he... coaches his son, he has a head start because he skips all the bullshit. And like, you know, that's that's the hopes.
Speaker: So that stuff that's coming up right now, like those questions that we just went through and and did all that, those things, when that comes up, oh, I was my dad and that's the piece. And then, you know, doing that, like, how do we change that?
Speaker: You know, like that's the, that's the deeper piece of being able to change that. So he doesn't take, you know, at least in some of those things for myself would be, you know, generational curses that I learned over the years.
Speaker: So that's yeah that's the same thing too, right? Just because you have distaste for one action that you don't do, you don't mirror that part of your dad doesn't mean that whatever your new reactions are, are better.
Speaker: They're just different and they're more acceptable because they don't remind you of your dad. And I found myself doing the same thing. Like, ah this is how my dad would do it. I'm going to change it up and try to speak to my kids a little bit different.
Speaker: And what I find is that that's not enough. Just because I have an emotional response to what my dad used to do and a desire to be different doesn't mean that I'm doing what God's will is over my kids.
Speaker: It's a different thing. It takes more poise, more resolve, resolution to serving them and serving others, serving myself by doing what's right, sleeping better, feeling better. And that takes... That's where it gets hard too, because it's yeah situational. Kind of like Wesley was talking earlier, like sometimes you, you know, nice twice, you know, like Wesley said, but there are those times where you got to get a little gruff with them. and
Speaker: quote unquote put a foot up their ass and get them motivated that's that's where it gets hard for sure yeah like we we have those feelings about how our dads did things and but looking back on it it's like okay was he really wrong or did i just take offense to it you know like yeah yeah that too Yeah, I would ask in those cases, you know, it's, you know, my parents raised me the way that they did. But, you know, still inside of that, I check my heart.
Speaker: If I if all of a sudden I react to my kids in such a way that they are reacting and they react out of fear because they can see that I've lost control.
Speaker: Right. That's that's not acceptable. It's not relationship. feel that. They feel that. They know that. They will be affected by that.
Speaker: Well, it's transactional, man. That's the scary part is they go, oh, if I just behave this certain way, then I get treated a certain way. And they live life transactional. And then it's all about, you know, check marks in the boxes just to make sure that people approve.
Speaker: And they're chasing approval because you never actually loved them. You never loved them correctly. You may have had a heartfelt warming in your own heart, but you didn't you didn't know how to share that. How do I actually make them feel heartfelt, warm, loved, adored?
Speaker: Encouraged. Chaos. Well, that's part of the feeling. I don't want behavioral modification. I want kids that are led by the spirit. you know and like I have to modify their behavior to an extent, right? like Don't put your hand in the fire. Don't stick that in the light socket. Put the knife down. Get away from your brother. like Sure, I got do that. But um I'm really working on – I don't know. He just – Yeah, it's everything you guys are saying. Yeah, it's just it's all that.
Speaker: yeah Well, and it's the why behind the what too, right? Like the reason why we do this is because we have a why. i i see the Lord as my Savior. I don't yet see him as my Lord, right?
Speaker: So how do i make him the Lord? Do you see that in results? Same with my kids, man. I see who the Lord wants to make them. They may behave a certain way, but I see who the Lord is in them.
Speaker: And they may not see it because they're young. i mean, they're probably more in tune with their identity than we think. but they are young. And so it's not, hey, don't do that. It's, hey, the reason why you don't do that it's because the end result, if you unfurl that all the way out, you're not going to be liked. No friends or whatever.
Speaker: You're pushing yourself away from people that you enjoy because you're treating yourself and others like that or whatever that thing is. Then it's like, oh, well, yeah, I do want friends. Yeah, i do want candy tonight at movie time. So I better do the things that I need to do. I better...
Speaker: You know, I mean, I'm no like super parent, but that's what I wanted. I never got any of that. I just got smacked, told to shut up. No reason why. Just oh right now is not a good time to talk.
Speaker: OK. And.
Speaker: You know, crushes you. And then sometimes even our words can crush our kids. And I'm sure you guys see it, too. Just saying the wrong thing at the right time can crush them. And.
Speaker: and That's the opposite of what we want to with each other. And we're using kids right now, but it's with ourselves. We don't want to talk to ourselves negatively. You already have a ton of reoccurring negative thoughts that are already floating through your mind. there's no sense in taking the narrative when you do have control of your thoughts and speaking ill about yourself, others, or the group, or whatever.
Speaker: No negativity is allowed. And I mean, that's a huge one for me, man. I allow a lot of negativity. i allow a lot of judgment. I allow a lot of of separation. I allow a lot of it to be righteous indignation. Well, because I want to be better, because I don't have time for their BS, because of X, Y, and Z, I'm going to go ahead and be, going guard my heart and just cut them off. And really it's just, hey, this is transactional for me. i don't feel like coming up to the plate and being compassionate. I don't want to spend the time
Speaker: So I'm just going to go ahead and know just cut you off. ah Pardon be me being an a-hole for a little bit. That's what we really want. At least that's me. My internal dialogue is I don't feel like I can actually muster it all together. And I just feel like reacting and and not being poised and so listening to the spirit and then moving from that, evolving from that. It's, you know, um man, what a cost, right? Like who knows what that gold trail could have led to.
Speaker: there's that They say that there's seven degrees of separation and only three conversations away from all your dreams. Like, you have the ability, like, who knows who you could be talking to that could could be related to whatever that you're actually supposed to go and fulfill.
Speaker: But because of my negativity and my guarded heart and my laziness, I forfeit that opportunity. that What did you post, Wesley? It was like... You clicked off.
Speaker: Oh, well, it was like, a you know, the regret of a soul, right? Like, Ray, you saw that, right? like That one, it's on the old man. and here Yeah, dude. You know, dying to the old man.
Speaker: Yeah. And then we still want to blame the old man for all the stupid, goofy stuff we do. It's like, well well, where do we agree? Where do we align? Am I still blaming the old man for not taking care of my paperwork?
Speaker: Or is it the new man's responsibility to act accordingly, man up, take care of paperwork, file it, be appropriate, read through the dotted lines, check all the fine print, right?
Speaker: What's a good man do? He makes sure his house is in order, including paperwork.
Speaker: Anyway, it's big. It's easy to say, man. Yeah. And that's where we'll see it is in the paperwork in our life. It's, it's where we'll see it in the, in our habits, you know? Yeah.
Speaker: But when we see that, if we're doing the work, it's actually, man, it's, it's the deeper parts. It's literally the deeper parts. If we can get to those quickly.
Speaker: then we can create these new habits by choice and our destiny is different instead of just continually chasing after productivity and this other stuff that you men are talking about, you know, with our, with, with, with the kids, you know, reaction, right? like i mean, we're starved for efficiency, right? As men, we want to be efficient, get in, get off, get out.
Speaker: Make it happen. Let's make some motion happen. And what we what we I ended up being plagued with is anxiety, depression, losing everything, stacking a big-ass house of cards. Sorry, girls.
Speaker: And letting it all tumble because it was all forcefully man-made. But what we're doing, what Ray has at least shown me over the last few years is that, dude, what a...
Speaker: Great. Great stories. lot of cool stories I got. I can tell you guys all sorts of cool stories. But the end result of those stories is not a great ending. And the anxieties and depression that came from that lifestyle, that old man of not knowing that I need to kill this old man, just brought a bunch of confusion.
Speaker: Like, who is the target? Not knowing that it's me. Thinking that all the external things in my life are the reasons for my life being in shambles. believing all those lies.
Speaker: And the work here is, well, God actually gave us a roadmap. And it's easy to say, just pray more and read your Bible more. But the work is the roadmap. And internally, you have a compass, which is telling me, this is the difficult thing, dude.
Speaker: You don't like paperwork? Guess what you're doing Monday morning? Paperwork. First thing, get that done. It's cleared off the docket. You've got it all categorized, labeled in its own deal. It's all perfectly ordered at least well enough to get it off of my mind.
Speaker: Right? i mean, it goes for everything. But that struggle is no longer the struggle. It's actually what I'm tuning into you to go, man, that's my attunement. That's where I need to be.
Speaker: That's the thing that I suck at. That's what's going to keep catching me time and time again if I don't get this thing in order. I can't just, you can't just blame on your past man. Oh, PTSD, TBI. This is where it's interesting. Cause I hear you.
Speaker: Right. I hear you. bring it Like I hear him.
Speaker: Do the paperwork. It's awesome. yeah Do it. But inside underneath that paperwork and noticing
Speaker: not wanting to do the paperwork. There's a deeper thing. Is there something deeper that I can chase after that God will actually flip inside of me?
Speaker: is it is it is it possible to flip that Once Sean becomes just say absolutely super structured, everything's laid out, paperwork's amazing.
Speaker: His life is just like, everything's just kind of in this production place where structure is his purpose. His business structure is amazing. He benefits from the fruits and he actually sees how fast things function and operate when they're structure.
Speaker: Do you think all of a sudden, instead of not wanting to do it on Monday, could possibly have a love for doing it on Monday? are we going to spend our whole lives hating going to the gym because we just want to have the body? Hating eating healthy and eating the whole time, but we desire out of, you know, some kind of wanting. You out here?
Speaker: Right. We hate, you know, spending time with our family because we're actually not doing, you know, our cool hobby, you know, yet we're spending time with them and say we love them, but we really don't want to spend any time with them.
Speaker: Yeah, but take heart, you know, like there's that other part, too, or like ah second Peter one, five through seven, man, you start practicing righteousness, you know. It's putting on the mind of Christ. It doesn't necessarily feel natural and loving yet, but it is your new norm, new wine, new wine skin. But do you see how the deeper parts, like, do you see how that changes everything rather than just trying to fight to do paperwork every month? oh hundred percent. hundred percent.
Speaker: So like, if that is our focus, that it's the same as fasting for me, if that's my focus, The fast is not about me not eating. It's not about me trying to, you know, do all these things so that I can get to a certain day.
Speaker: It's this experience of through the days. Okay, I see it. I could focus on the negative. Where is the purpose?
Speaker: And so stuck on the purpose of it that it fires me up, that there's no level of like, ah
Speaker: It's a difference between what looks like discipline to have to do these things to stepping into, it is Jesus. It is truth.
Speaker: It is relationship.
Speaker: It's finally realizing it's literally my purpose.
Speaker: there's There's so much purpose and passion that comes from what actually I didn't want. that it it literally is the fire. And that's the piece. I don't like, I don't brush off these things. Like this is the part that I'm gonna continually wage war in this next year.
Speaker: Like literally waging war men.
Speaker: Because we do have to push into them. And I pray and hope that Sean does the paperwork, but inside of there, if it's supernaturally flips and he just- You need to inside.
Speaker: What that will do for him. it turns into It turns into straight power, man. Power.
Speaker: I've told you that when I started up with Samuel five years ago, I wouldn't even do any work. I wasn't going to do any paperwork. Now my whole life is filled with structure and paperwork, and I love it.
Speaker: Okay. Andy's got to shut us down. if you love If you love paperwork, Ray, I am hiring. So, um just kidding. The bad part is the paperwork that he has for me.
Speaker: yeah You seem tough, man. You can handle more. uh you started handing me some kind of don't know in a go east restaurant but here we go here we go man like let's let's close it out uh sean can you can you pray us are you stop there can you breathe and pray yeah yeah yeah love to love to two two seconds i got oh you're so cute She is stinking cute.
Speaker: love that Ella girl. know, I know. I know. I have to go. I will. She just reminded me, man. Hey, I had a realization. I was before shutting down before 7.30. I was shutting down at 7.15. I love you, man. And last week was amazing, but I can't.
Speaker: That girl, like I get to spend time with her at 7.30 in the morning to about 7.50. And so... You won't. Yeah. Again. Okay. I love you.
Speaker: Yeah. We might knock it out. Let's breathe. Let's do it. All right, guys. Great meeting. Let's breathe. Take a deep breath in
Speaker: Hold that at the top.
Speaker: Release it.
Speaker: Hold it.
Speaker: One more. In.
Speaker: Breathe normal. Holy King, thank you for honoring us by calling us to serve.
Speaker: Thank you, Jesus, for dying for our old man.
Speaker: Thank you for coming as a humble baby, king of all creation, to show us what true life really is. It's to serve. Thank you for the honor ah being yours.
Speaker: May we carry your name with delight.
Speaker: you think we froze? Or did he freeze?
Speaker: Hmm?
