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ONLYFALCONS EPISODE 3
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We cover the recent upheaval and splinter groups that have developed, the latest on the stalker's escapades, and a quick trip to Hawaii and California through the Falcon's eyes
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Transcript
Introduction: Falcon Interrogation
00:00:00
Speaker
hello hello hello this is your falcon giving you a call your scheduled falcon interrogation session we started it we prepared the chamber i put on my white gloves with a little snap on both wrists snap snap the chair is ready for you but unfortunately you're not here
00:00:20
Speaker
Not much. I was trying to leave you a menacing message. You're an EE guy.
Automation and Power Management Jokes
00:00:29
Speaker
Haven't they pretty much automated most of that field away? When I was going to college in what? Oh my god, 2001. They told me not to do it because I'd be replaced by a computer within five years. And you know what? They were right. Ooh.
00:00:43
Speaker
So you're basically, you're going to figure out how to manage power in large, intricate centralized factories where a lot of very complicated chemical processes go down. That sounds fun. Is that right? Or something else? Ah, yeah. Power management is where all the electrical engineers are these days. At least you're not in a server farm in the middle of Colorado where they abandoned a hydroelectric plant. And you're basically in some place where human beings shouldn't really be working anymore.
00:01:08
Speaker
And you're setting things up so that a power grid can be created off of this derelict generator just to make some weird Korean foreign investor who partnered with Google a Bitcoin mining rig that can't be infiltrated by the authorities. So is that really what you want to end up doing?
00:01:27
Speaker
No, well, I don't know, man. It might be your thing. Although some of the people that they brought out to the projects like that, they're real fucking weird, like the people who build stuff out in the middle of nowhere like that. I mean, they definitely have the logistics skills to get things done, but what they accomplish can be a little
Stalker-Induced Social Isolation
00:01:42
Speaker
iffy. I've been sitting this morning. I've been dealing with a psychotic stalker that's been targeting the people around me to try to socially isolate me. Any normal person would have been destroyed by this.
00:01:54
Speaker
I just made more social connections than they could destroy. This is one of them, by the way. How's it going? They're going around trying to touch the personal lives of people that they imagine I might be interested in or people who they imagine might be, I don't know, fit a certain profile.
00:02:09
Speaker
And that the profile shifts, they go after different people. So that was my Thursday, which was a lot of that.
The Sandwich Coup
00:02:15
Speaker
And then and then there was like, I don't know what what I'm now learning through talking to people today can be called the sandwich coup, where I posted a list of all the Falcons so that people could follow each other. And some people looked at this and they're like, well, we got a Falcon network, but I don't like this Bernie asshole. Like I want to just have everything that he's made without the person himself involved. So.
00:02:36
Speaker
They went and created and are maintaining a parallel network of people. They've been approaching people. Anytime I step out of line or do something that might be unpopular, they're there to step in and do stuff, which is a lot more involved than I thought they were.
00:02:55
Speaker
I've been through this several times. They were Falcons. They were Falcons. The only problem was there's an unstable individual at the head of it. Yeah, I'm there. And so what must be done? I must be eliminated. So this person had thought about this for a while and been cultivating personal messages with people that they thought might be similarly aligned.
Stalker's Social Exploits
00:03:16
Speaker
And at the time that I backed away because my stalker was doing some crazy hang of shit to people that was really disturbing on a personal level.
00:03:24
Speaker
Nope, different ones. I got two weirdos now. So weirdo number two is traumatized, wants to get me out of the group and create their own. So this is the origin of the sandwich club. And decides this is the time to move. This is the time to dethrone Bernie.
00:03:41
Speaker
Um, so this is, this is what they did. Um, and then there's just another group of people who are like, Oh my God, I don't care the source of the drama. I'm out. And you know, these people, they're always around. You generally don't want them around at, you know, at the, at the end of the day, having them around was no real benefit and losing them was no real loss. I'm going to quote now here.
00:04:00
Speaker
um and this is really just this is more than anybody ever wanted to know and i'm not even giving you the details i had to drill down into in order to figure out what was going on that made it so that random people were messaging me with confusion or random people would just message me with fuck you and then block me on thursday and friday just i had to figure out what story was going on what was getting invented
00:04:24
Speaker
And I was so it's kind of two split off groups have happened. It's the sandwich club, which is people replace their falcons in their name with sandwiches, which God bless them. Go for it. Make that the basis of your bullshit. And the other people are happy weirdo people. But those most of those guys switched over to the sandwich club. I'm pretty sure that happy weirdo kind of like I don't know.
00:04:47
Speaker
I think things did not turn out the way that they had planned. For starters, I'm still here. Yeah. And all of this is like so much bullshit that nobody has to deal wants to deal with.
Dynamics of Social Isolation
00:05:00
Speaker
So, I mean, if it weren't for the fact that I've got somebody who is I know a real life threat to people who will be drilling down into their lives and going for their personal information as they've done in the past.
00:05:15
Speaker
just to hurt them so that I have to watch it. That requires a little active engagement. But other than that, Jesus, I got to get out of that fucking hole. That's where I'm at, man. That's my day. It was like three or four different groups of people, all of whom saw and it's like it was very instructive to me in that like all I did was show weakness.
00:05:36
Speaker
And, uh, it caused, uh, it caused people who were kind of enjoying the benefits that I created the art and, and would find it more convenient to not have the artist, because after you make something that people appreciate, you become a little bit of a problem.
Group Dynamics and Betrayal
00:05:53
Speaker
You become a little bit of a threat to the continuation of that thing. So there were certain subset of people who had decided, ah, maybe, maybe.
00:06:00
Speaker
Maybe this is all better without the mind that created it what we have here this friendship that we have And then there was a there was another subset of people who just didn't like me at all That you know, and then there's like a couple people had like I'm pretty sure like legitimate
00:06:17
Speaker
mental breakdowns as a result of this. And then another person had been planning to do this for a while and had been like DMing a bunch of people and organizing it on their Discord. And they saw the opportunity to do something and did it. But at the end of the day, like this has happened before.
Managing Online Community Limits
00:06:41
Speaker
It'll happen again. It's the online universe. It doesn't mean anything.
00:06:44
Speaker
And all I have to do is just continue to vibrate because there's like a, I mean, okay, this sounds really evil, but when people walk away, it doesn't break my heart. It really can't or else you can't do the things that I do. And that, you know, and that is a one-way street often. And so to that person who I've decided I don't, you know, I've gone through the process of, okay, you don't like me, then go away.
00:07:12
Speaker
um to those a lot of people who have uh i don't know really intense feelings about approval from me or something like that these are all illusions that that people should be disabused of one way or another hopefully gently it's not a gentle act to rip the eyes off of a sleepwalker but i don't think banning like blocking people or deciding you don't want to have anything to do with them because you
00:07:39
Speaker
It's just time for that journey to not be with them, at least until they figure things out. I'm sure a lot of these people don't realize that I unblock everybody every six months or so. And then there's a let's say that's pretty much it. That's pretty much it. Like this will continue on.
00:08:02
Speaker
No, you know, it's over. I appreciate your thought that I might be stressed out by recounting it, but I'm going to be really honest. Like it was stressful at the time because I was also quitting Zoloft like cold turkey. And so I was like, and I'm actually really, I mean, a lot of people, I don't know if they want me to be ashamed of myself or if they want to use this as an example that I have been exposed as something that I said I was, which I am not.
00:08:31
Speaker
or if they want to use it as a catalyst to get their own thing, which I think was the motivation for a couple of people, whatever.
Threats and Identity Fabrication
00:08:39
Speaker
The truth is that I don't feel that I have much of anything to apologize for. I think certain things went wrong. I think that in an isolated analytical sense, there are certain individual acts that could have handled with more grace.
00:08:54
Speaker
The culmination of all of these things at once and the fact that it was weathered so neatly and that the expense that we seem to have paid has been people that, at the end of the day, a lot of these folks were people that were making folks uncomfortable. I'll give you the example of the Captain Cornflake guy. He came to my office and did some stuff that I didn't like.
00:09:22
Speaker
I didn't see so he's so currently he's decided that I'm a Russian asset like the stalker has been changing narratives like at first I wanted to I wanted to find young women or well adult women who emulated young women because they were psychologically damaged and then
00:09:40
Speaker
strangle them was like the first thing. And now I'm a Russian agent and anti Zionist agent. It's just and they are now they are now a species of trans male turf, which is I mean, it's just it's quite obviously a shadow that is contorting to match whatever I might cast. And it doesn't fit together. It's real weird. The person is genuinely deranged. But yeah, so it seems like I've got like a Congress of the unwell.
Conflict as a Cleansing Mechanism
00:10:11
Speaker
watching my every move and that's you know even if even if I've done nothing wrong and even if like nobody is really paying attention to them there's still a segment of vulnerable people that are around me because those are my people the people who
00:10:29
Speaker
marginalized and vulnerable those are the only people I feel that my attention and good efforts are worth anything because everybody else is well taken care of and the fact that this person is targeting these people and even causing them like to just I don't know just hate me
00:10:50
Speaker
for any reason they can discover through extended discourses and hundreds of identities. I feel like this entire thing is a marvelous cleansing mechanism for the group because the people who were only along for the ride to get the benefits of being in a big group like this, they're out, man. They just left.
00:11:14
Speaker
Now I think they're using like sandwich emojis or something
Exposure by Falcon List Publication
00:11:20
Speaker
like that. You've seen that. Someone added you to the sandwich zone. Yeah.
00:11:29
Speaker
So that's so they're setting up. So what they did was they invited you to the sandwich zone. Recently I published a list of all of the Falcons so that they could follow each other. And I used to work with unions and I was like, oh, hey, they used to go crazy if you ever talked about their membership roles or whatever like that. Now I realize that publishing that list gave these people an opportunity to systematically target Falcons in a way that they could never do before.
00:11:55
Speaker
and do it on a wholesale. So what you've seen with sandwich chat, and I know this, you know, it's like it's cyber warfare. It's an asset, a resource online that I've created through years of effort and trust gaining and taking
00:12:17
Speaker
making judgments about what I vocally support and what I do. And this is like stroking a lump of iron and causing the molecules in it to align so that it gains a new property of magnetism.
Creative Losses and Expectations
00:12:32
Speaker
And this is work. And so what these people are doing in the sandwich zone is they are trying to take that work for themselves and they want to kill the artist behind it because they want what I've made, but they don't want me.
00:12:46
Speaker
I don't think it's going to work in the way that they think it will, but it's always a problem. And as a result, because in my life, I've made things over and over and over again, and in every circumstance has been taken away.
00:13:02
Speaker
You know, I just come to expect it. And so I don't expect anything. I don't expect to ever have anything. I don't expect to ever be rewarded. I don't expect any goddamn thing. And so to watch this happen again and again, it's just like the stroking I do of the iron, events stroke this group as well. And they set certain people aside or they reorient them.
00:13:28
Speaker
like people come to this group without knowledge of a lot of things and then gradually mysteriously without them even knowing it they suddenly become aware in tons of new ways that they never were before and it's part of this process to forget who did it for you because it was always that way so
00:13:45
Speaker
Yes, this is something that I've seen. People really dig me and then they suddenly turn on me and then they take the parts of what I did or what I said that they want and they throw the rest away. It's why I live in a cement shack. It's why I have nothing.
00:14:01
Speaker
So that's my fate. You're watching it, but don't despair because I restricted my activities and creating these things to stuff that I actually pretty much enjoy. So I think you also saw me pitch a few people over the side of the ship. It was because as I was working with more and more people was finding that I was having less and less enjoyment. I was having to put aside a lot more feelings of uneasiness over and over again until at one point I'm like, you know what?
00:14:29
Speaker
You know, this happened to coincide with when I stopped taking my antidepressants, but I went, you know what? Okay. That's it. I'm out. And everybody that that shook loose has been people that I haven't really wanted anyway, like people who value the joke more than the message. So that's, I really appreciate it. Go ahead.
00:14:51
Speaker
Right. So what I do, I kind of ad hoc it because I view my follow list as like a process. Like it is subjected to my moods. It's like Rumi's guest house. It's a place that I stock, I overfill, and then I brutally demolish, and then I go back and I rebuild it.
00:15:08
Speaker
on a different theory and I rebuilt it this time well the time before this most recent time I was following around 10,000 people and it was because I operated on the theory that I would follow the people who showed me positive attention with regard without regard to the things that they post so that was the previous incarnation of my follow list this one which started at around 1400 and is now down to 1300
00:15:31
Speaker
was me following people and using my follow list entirely in service of this experiment I was creating to create an interconnected sphere of birds. In many ways, I've given up the privilege of having a normal Twitter account. I do all of these things in service of these experiments I've been conducting. This most recent one has been, okay, what if we centralize this list? What if I promulgated this list? What happens?
00:15:57
Speaker
We found out what happens. We immediately got we immediately were taken advantage of by the sandwich club. God bless them, man. They fucking love sandwiches. That's fine. But it's a collection of people that have decided that they do not like me and they will find various reasons for that. And the reason that they emerged at that time was because that's their fundamental thing that they all share. And to be honest, if you look at that mechanism, how can you do anything but thank God for it?
Authority and Power Balance
00:16:27
Speaker
Yeah, exactly. Well, you know, it's easy to dismiss people as mentally ill or delusional, but I don't think it's any of those things. I think that we go through life trying to create a model that we can bear and which also gives us some pleasure in executing. And so, yeah, I'm sure that these people have decided in their hearts that it does not give them pleasure to participate in a mass online thing where I have power or authority, even if they just perceive it.
00:16:53
Speaker
And in some of the cases, I do have power and authority because I represent their sole online social engagement. And so those people who are declaring me to be a tyrant from their perspective, they're correct. But other people just have, you know, certain mental states where they will perceive authority, you know, where it doesn't really exist, especially in this case, where it's like an open door club, you're free to join or leave.
00:17:17
Speaker
Except for the thought that I I preserve the personal privilege to exclude people who you know Make it personally too difficult to manage things as little as I do But you know you go back and you look at the people who have that problem They had the opportunity to peel off and they did
00:17:35
Speaker
Um, and they got a chance to make it make say the things that they needed to say during those times. And, you know, if I think about it, uh, if you just pay attention, you give them what they want, you know, that's, that's my position. They don't want me, they don't want me as a part of their experience online. I want to give that to them.
00:17:58
Speaker
And I don't really have any problem with these guys as compared to the other person who we were talking about before that's doing shit like tracking down personal information. This person reported somebody to the bar, to their bar and initiated an investigation that they had to respond to officially.
Real-life Stalker Interventions
00:18:15
Speaker
just because they were replying to me they just made up some shit and sent it to the dc bar like that's real life consequences that this is criminal criminal behavior this person has been emailing my mother non-stop emailing the chief of police at my hometown this person will find out where i'm at who i'm with they'll just imagine that i'm with certain people and then target them personally
00:18:38
Speaker
it's not it's it's it's uh this this is what represents the danger and this is the reason why i was stepping back or at least trying to find a solution because it created this like autonomous system of trust whose only verification method is like really laborious or indirect um and i've in creating this structure also created a vulnerability for these people
00:19:01
Speaker
And somebody has, and this would normally not be a big deal, but in this case, we have a very specific person whose interest is in exploiting it to hurt people, and that's all. And whatever they say will change, whatever they are will change in a cynical attempt to achieve that purpose. And good Lord, what do you do in the face of that? It's like a Dr. Frankenstein scenario. I mean, it's what I do over and over is I create these problems by bringing people together.
00:19:34
Speaker
It's an unusual, it's an amazing case. It looks like some kind of demonic possession, to be honest. I look at the Bible and I look for analogies because, I mean, I think that in a broken society, these sorts of just utter deranged freaks are wandering around everywhere, like lost ghosts looking to make sense of themselves in some way. And the only way that they have the intelligence to find is by inflicting
00:20:01
Speaker
and making people want an object of obsession until they can tear them apart. I'm not the first person this person has gone after. I've interacted with some of their old victims that they put me in touch with in the course of their harassment, like this online meeting thing.
00:20:16
Speaker
They put in the names and numbers of their previous victims and added details that would be salacious so that I would call them with the expectation of saying something terrible to them and I'd call them and then as soon as the strangeness of the call struck them, they would immediately, immediately know who did this and why and then we would commiserate. So, you know, this process of getting a restraining order or whatever, they know that it's never going to happen.
00:20:43
Speaker
Right? Because even if I get it, the upside's nothing, right? There are people who actually run around with guns and stuff that don't get them taken. This is some little fucked up twerp playing incredibly intricate mind games with the off chance one out of a hundred that they'll be able to get one person's detail and cause their life to be ruined just so that I have to watch it.
00:21:04
Speaker
just to show me, just show me what happens when I reject their advances. That's what this is about. It's all fucked up. And the thing that's even more fucked up is people won't listen to me when I give away this game. It's really obvious. I've seen it over and over. So what's somebody to do? Exactly. So when I talked to the previous victims of the stalker, their response was gratitude. And there was no embarrassment left, but they knew the situation.
00:21:31
Speaker
And, and, but all of them, also, I think we're not individuals of my sort of brightness I think that kind of this person is a serial stalker that engages with people and then racks them to their satisfaction, and when they stop getting
00:21:47
Speaker
stimulus and pleasure from it. They have to find something else in order to fill that. Here I'm like a fountain of stimulation that will never stop. They really found like the target of their life because I am somebody that attracts vulnerable people and this is exactly who they can go after like serially. So if so long as they keep hate for me and their heart
00:22:12
Speaker
And so long as I continue to do things that bring people forward in an attempt to help them, this person will have an unending fountain of victims to choose from, and they will tell them whatever story is needed in order to harm them, misdirect them, or cause hatred in their heart towards me. And, you know, in one sense, it's a testing mechanism, and in another sense, like,
00:22:35
Speaker
I just have to stop being who I am? How do you prevent this? So I can't do that. I can't stop being who I am. I can't put myself back in a corner. I can't let this person achieve their goal of isolating me socially, making it seem like I'm too much trouble to deal with by making that trouble, weakening me. And this person nearly killed me. I mean, they called hospitals around me while I was in medical crisis.
00:23:04
Speaker
and lied to them saying that I was violent and I would attack the staff just so that they would treat me as a mental patient instead of as somebody with a septic hip infection. I mean, I was dying and this person was inventing ways to increase my torment. There's nothing to be done except to endure it really and contemplate it and then see what happens next. I don't know, do you think my approach is right?
00:23:33
Speaker
Yeah, that's absolutely out of the like, for me, for me, the idea of a restraining order is is violence that is impermissible. It's like it would. And so I'm kind of bringing myself up to it because if you you can't put a name on something and then make it not be violence. And in this case, like what I am doing is I am using this power of the state, which I know to be unjust. I know that when people come to this person's house to enforce things, when they got in trouble in the past,
00:24:02
Speaker
They would get incarcerated and brutally, brutally treated, drugged. There would be violence upon them, and they are not well. I mean, the reason why I and a couple other people that I spoke to started talking to them is because by looking at them, they physically look very unwell. When I first started talking to them, they were 87 pounds, and I was trying to advise them to drink whole milk.
00:24:28
Speaker
They claimed that they had gastroparesis. And so I was like, okay, well, here's what we're going to do. I'm going to text you every 30 minutes to drink the milk. And so this is, this is basically the foundation of our relationship until this person turned it into something weird ended up.
00:24:46
Speaker
Ended up tracking down a woman at whose apartment I was staying in order to get medical treatment. The woman wasn't even there, but she got jealous and socially engineered the woman's number out of her online through DM, then called her and said that she was my psychiatric nurse. Hello, hello, hello. This is your Falcon speaking. How's it going? Hey.
00:25:10
Speaker
I'm doing well. Is the is the is the area code true? Are you are you in the sunny state, the sunshine, sunshine state of Hawaii? Are you drinking bottled water or can you still drink top water over there? Oh, my God, that's great.
00:25:26
Speaker
Um, are you on an eco farm? Because my friend used to live on a, on a, I think like an edible forest in Hawaii. He ended up sailing over there on a little boat and living there for a while. And, uh, he described it as the garden of Eden. How'd you find yourself, um, having rain catchment on lava rock? It sounds, uh, it sounds interesting. Do you grow things there? Do you just hang out and stare at the sea? You get to watch it, watch what happens on the beach, not at the beach, you know? Okay. So I have a familiar, I have a similar experience. I was, I spent, um, some time living in Manhattan going to NYU school a lot.
00:25:56
Speaker
and then I ended up working for Sullivan and Cromwell and immediately the first thing I did was move to Paula's Hook this like this locality in Jersey City and take the ferry in every day and you know it what really struck me was New York is a much better place to look at than to live in and I think that to the beach is the same way
00:26:18
Speaker
So the area, so why they called it the Garden State. Oh, so you're living in the Atlantic version of Crescent City. You grew up in the Atlantic version in Jersey City of what I'm living in right now in Crescent City up here, the northwestern coast that's kind of forgotten. And let's just say up for anything. It's so down.
00:26:39
Speaker
Oh, you know, I got to tell you, California has like a central valley that's full of large, large agricultural landowners that keep the people pretty much oppressed and own the police departments and such. They're busy taking all the water out of the ground and turning it into a desert while complaining about it.
00:26:56
Speaker
If you go a little up into the mountains, you can cook some meth or grow some weed, or join a white nationalist cult, or hang out with some people who have tried to escape up there on social security, maybe some ex-military veterans, maybe some motorcycle riders that are escaping some warrants or something. I'm calling Angel's Camp out right now in California.
00:27:18
Speaker
Or you can go even further up and go to nice places that are essentially just second house towns. They're not really places that exist except to have a second house for people who live in the miserable Central Valley or what's been made miserable by the labor relations that they have there. And it's like a history of blood.
00:27:39
Speaker
uh draining the draining the valley of water and filling it with blood or you can go to the west coast and um be a substrate in the machinations of the many billionaires who um believe this to be the most forward part of the nation being the westmost looking out over um i guess where manifest destiny ends in a land sense and enters the imaginary realm like you can play with those silicon valley weirdos or you can go up north and join uh
00:28:07
Speaker
another white nationalist organization up in the mountains or become the victim of one of many strange left-wing cults, these people who live out in the woods and are aging out. It's basically that the tide that slapped the northern part of the state as the grateful dead
00:28:29
Speaker
kind of disintegrated their fan base up here. It's a bunch of people who are aging and have often aged into irreconcilable views, given that they're property owners and businessmen and stuff like that themselves. Just kind of hiding out here, pretending to be hippie, like still wearing the stuff, but in actuality being really right wing. Or there's the permeation up here instead of the Central Valley, which is agricultural slave driving.
00:28:56
Speaker
in the mountains and the woods up here. It's more like cracker slave drivers ruthlessly writing kind of middle, elderly, badly aged men who are toothless and often paid in meth or recovering from being paid in meth or looking again to reenter the world of being paid in meth. Just kind of growing weed
00:29:23
Speaker
doing meth, doing odd jobs, looking after properties of people who are absentee landlords. We've got a couple of situations like that I've found here. But it's like, it's cracker slave driver country up here. Just a weird regressionist. It's going to be hopefully in the eyes of some people who are styling it, the Cascadia, they're thinking it'll be a new white homeland because ultimately the state of Oregon was founded
00:29:50
Speaker
as a sundown state where minorities were not allowed. It's kind of why Portland's the way it is. So we'll see. I think that in the coming strange balkanization and climate change things, this place will have a really nice climate, but it's going to have a lot of people who really want to, like, I don't know, do their own wretched thing. I don't think these guys that I've described are going to win.
00:30:14
Speaker
There's also a substrate of these people who are more aligned with the bioregion of this place, like I'd say that the the state of Jefferson people are interested in they're looking at county lines and stuff like that. The bioregional people, they even wrote a book about this, Ecotopia, you might have heard of it in the 70s.
00:30:32
Speaker
It postulates a breakaway country in the Pacific Northwest defined by the bioregion of this area that achieves autonomy. Of course, it's like utopian fiction. The state of this place is fun to look at, ecotopia.
00:30:53
Speaker
Check it out. Anyway, I believe in ecotopia, not not in not in Cascadia. But that's my that's that's my description of California for you. You got a lot of deranged people running around with bubble housing money doing God knows what with the properties here. Their primary purpose is to prevent any kind of collective use of property either by government or any entity that's large, that's not an existing landowner.