Become a Creator today!Start creating today - Share your story with the world!
Start for free
00:00:00
00:00:01
Mezzanotte Podcast #8 feat. Starlin
75 Plays5 months ago
Starlin is the creator of $TENGA and is currently in a Japanese mental asylum. We discussed how he ended up in the mental asylum and free thinking.
Recommended
Transcript
Gaining Superpowers Through Psychosis
00:00:00
Speaker
It's an octave. Okay, so i a lot has happened. I went psychotic, showing my ah coin, Tenga. And there's a lot of things I've learned. So I stopped being a psycho, but I actually ended up with a bunch of superpowers. And the reason I went psycho is because I had a bunch of superpowers. So I just say, what are your thoughts on that, bro? What are your thoughts on that? How did you go psycho?
00:00:28
Speaker
How did you end up feeling?
Friendship, Self-Respect, and Mental Clarity
00:00:30
Speaker
Where are you right now? So, on around September 27th or September 28th, I built up enough self-respect. There are a lot of people out there. There's a difference between free thinkers and NPCs as real. okay And the thing that separates them, the free thinkers are like one to three percent of the population, is how traumatized they are, usually.
00:00:51
Speaker
so if if you ever were in a social situation where like a bunch of people left one person but you decide to stick by and there was no like social gratification for doing that it's like you just joined a different group it was like you sacrifice yourself to do something that would make you a free thinker Now, I'm gonna have to just keep rambling here in order to get my point out, but I basically ended a friendship with a friend.
Self-Talk and Mental Health
00:01:15
Speaker
He's my friend again now, okay? And I gained such a good amount of self-respect that after sleeping on it, I woke up and here's the key to it. You have to stop talking to yourself inside your head. Every single mental illness is made 99.99%
00:01:32
Speaker
I'm times worse by you going into your head and being like, oh, I'm anxious, which is just feeling your fear and heart pound sometimes. And going in saying, oh my God, I can't, why am I such a fucking bitch? Why am I such a pussy? Why am I such a fuck? Fuck. I finally, I'm inconveniencing everyone. You can extend it to autism, to ADHD when you forget something. And I learned that this was a, this casually,
00:01:55
Speaker
playing made a video about this many months ago but he didn't internalize it who did but this is real okay who made it casually explained he's a sick figure youtuber okay um he makes a bunch of videos you might not know him but um his lesson was literally real And I woke up and I felt literally a thousand times better. I was able to think clearly and talk very quickly. I can, like, do a punch without having, like, a tab, you know? You usually have to think before you punch someone. You look away and then you punch and then, for me, I can just move.
00:02:28
Speaker
like i can just go and do that
Universal Morality and Free Thinking
00:02:30
Speaker
and basically each for the first like five days or so i was just going holy shit i'm so happy you guys gotta listen to me and two people who i knew personally got the message and started doing this and became like basically pure flow state so i'll let you speak for a second just so there is like a little break here No, no, I agree with everything you're saying 100%. And it makes a lot of sense, actually, to me, like, i'm I consider myself a free thinker. I was ostracized from a group of people. My, my friend also was that's with me. He's in the room right now. yeah He says hi, his name is Etienne. um But um
00:03:11
Speaker
i think you're right but you're saying it really clearly and you're you're you're help me get to new conclusions with it we thought we saying i starts fightinging this in i image apartment i'm in like tokyo and i was living in the ueo area and i started just staing up random homeless people i started dapping up to like everyone i started like fucking me i like yo what's up yeah you worked Every time, it doesn't matter what you do, what what things you like what like. Everyone is on the same side. All humans are instinctually on the same side, and the only reason a species ever hurt each other is for competition.
00:03:42
Speaker
and Thing is, we are already in a good position to create post-scarcity. Anyways, let me get into this. So, for the first five days, I wasn't able to explain it well to anyone. I was just like, fuck you, you're in a box, bro, you're in a box. Um, and, but I started, I started being able to explain after like six days. And the thing is, is you get like infinitely smarter every time you like go to sleep, basically. And also while you're awake too, but when you go to sleep, there's no self.
00:04:08
Speaker
ah And once you process it, it's like you get smarter and smarter and smarter and smarter and smarter. And it's like I can run loops around everyone. It's like I literally me have the sign of a sin. Every single idea that you felt is cruel in your head has a great deal of truth to it, okay? And I'm realizing this. I'm like it's internalizing death of the author. So I was the first person to pull this off and let me get to where I got to the psychotic break.
00:04:34
Speaker
So this is once I noticed it started spreading. I ordered a bunch of waters, like six water bottles
Empowerment and Public Antics
00:04:40
Speaker
and like some bolognese meat sauce. And when I went downstairs to retrieve it, there was three separate dudes, all holding different bags of ball of the bar balls of water. I realized, holy shit, this this never happens. I said, do you know? And they were like, yes.
00:04:57
Speaker
Yes, you know, this is the pre-thinkers who know about the turn off the self-talk thing. They may start doing whatever the fuck they want. So this group of people, obviously, were a bunch of friends who just like talking while driving. And you get better at everything. You start being able to basically avoid everything that could ever hurt you that isn't impossible to avoid. you I was running around in the streets. I was swirling. I was singing. I was doing whatever I want. And the only people who are like looking at me were the free thinkers. They would give me like a weird look. but Most people just completely were mind glazed. So one, two, three, four. Now here's the deal. We're going to make life better for everyone. OK, once you achieve this free thinking thing, you you're going to make life better for literally everyone because all humans are on the same side. And you're going to try and bring the normies up to speed every single time. But so this is where I get active. I'll let you speak now. I'll let you for a second. No, keep going. Keep going. I'm with you. I'm with you.
00:05:53
Speaker
you know sta Even though I'm talking like a psycho at 50,000 miles an hour because there's no dysphoria between what I'm thinking and what I'm saying is attractive. It genuinely grabs you. It grabs your human soul. It's not like someone who who's stumbling. This is why the nice guy versus like cuckold porn or something where it's like the nice guy is like, I can't fuck my girlfriend. And then the super child comes in and he says, yo, let's have sex. And it's like, oh my God, this cuckold porn is fucking awesome. This is, this is pure love, bro.
00:06:24
Speaker
Anyways, let's get into it. I call it great. So once I realized this, I did trust in my lesson of a universal human morality. So I went into my room and I was like, holy shit, everyone is getting so smart. What if not
Psychotic Episodes in Tokyo
00:06:40
Speaker
everyone's the same? What if 1% of people want to kill me or something? Kill the savior of humanity? Because I was like ahead of the game by like basically six days of everyone else except for a person I know called Idle Secret Nightmare.
00:06:52
Speaker
Anyways, so I like how I try to show a little bit. I hit acid. through all these psychotic breaks. but I'm like going into the bath, I'm like sitting there, I'm like talking to my whole family, they're trying to calm me down. And later later that night, I just go insane, I start like fucking going to karaoke. And I said, I'm still lucid, I still sort of meant to do all this. It was just, done I was like showing my cock to my fucking telegram, like group chat, I was singing, I was saying, stop fucking thinking, stop fucking thinking, stop fucking thinking. And here's the deal.
00:07:26
Speaker
it really hits the fan when i get to the airport and by the way i was showing tangas during all of this like i was going outside like holding a tanga out in japanese public and just being like tanga tanga and you can if you look at the tanga telegram which is tanga salana or the old twitter which isn't being updated you can see me doing a bunch of things and like Eventually, I go to a pachinko place and I just win. I just like, because it's a skill game and they have an anti-cheat where it's like, you can't pull a coin in, like I literally in 10 minutes make $100 from $10. I'm like, oh, this is boring. This is taking too long. The jackpot is like too long of a process because they do these crazy animations.
00:08:07
Speaker
So after that, I literally, I like profess my love to my ex-girlfriend and then I go to the airport. I buy it first class ticket. I just go in the airport. I'm like, why is everyone being so nice to me? And then I meet this ah guy who looks like the pastor from every fucking YouTube video. I said, wait.
00:08:24
Speaker
Is God real? And he says yes. And this is where everything fucking falls apart, okay? I fucking... I go upstairs, okay? I'm trying to find like where to go. I actually booked a flight from Narita, not Haneda, so I was looking for something I couldn't find.
00:08:40
Speaker
and i just get naked i just i just get naked and i'm running around people are smiling at me while i'm naked like i'm like holy shit i can do whatever i want and there's some other things i won't mention but if if you're real you're real like this is public but you know i did some regrettable things but no one's pressed any charges against me i think they all understood i didn't really I didn't really hurt anyone, at least in any major way as well. I'll just leave at that. But i was I was bad. So there were these police officers, okay? And they're like guiding me around. They're like pretending to be angels. And they're run by like a dude who like has a
Overcoming Addiction and Achieving Flow
00:09:20
Speaker
thing where he literally like goes and tries to like find an excuse where someone's acting bad and then he like secretly kills them.
00:09:27
Speaker
So I get taken to this police headquarters, the Tokyo Airport Police HQ, and there's one guy there who's like a free thinker, and he says, yeah, they're gonna, this is what they do, but I'm gonna, like, he, I did trust him because I did trust the universal morality, but he was basically saying, I'll have you fall asleep, and then we'll go to a mental ward, and then we can write this off as just an insane manic episode.
00:09:51
Speaker
And I like fight my way. okay I like convince like the convinced the head of the operation that like you did what you did for me was convince me I was in heaven and remove all my insecurities. And that was literally true. But um again, to pry, they're tweaking. when i like During the whole time, I'm like recording everything. I don't really plan to like really launch this anywhere because I now actually forgive them.
00:10:17
Speaker
um But, but, but, but, but. Oh my God, I almost just lost my train of thought there for a second. um I can tell it was true that they might've been trying to kill me because I tell them like, okay, my grandma contacted the embassy and I am here and they're like scratching their necks. They're like, what the fuck? The suit outplayed us, what the fuck? But like they, I don't think they intended to kill me. they They might have the thought of doing it, but their instincts were telling them to not do that. So I get taken to this like, underground sort of like,
00:10:48
Speaker
belt or garage thing where I like literally try and fight my way out. I just fucking dash. I'm like fucking punch this guy super hard in the face, this police officer. I like go and then they are all holding
Life in a Mental Institution and Personal Growth
00:11:00
Speaker
me down. And I feel broken out, but the free finger dude was like, okay, dude, relax, relax, relax. We're going to get through this.
00:11:08
Speaker
So I basically say I'm in a fugue state, which was, yeah, I was a bit psycho, um but I was aware of everything I was doing. I was completely aware and lucid of literally everything. And then, you know, i'm i'm the whole time I'm like, I'm going to get your boss. We're all going to take him it down. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Now I don't think that.
00:11:28
Speaker
um And then they take me to the mental hospital. They like fucking put this needle in my fucking dick, dude They're like for striking me with that now And now it's been a few days. I like yesterday. I was fighting God in my head I was like I have to defeat God. I have to defeat the world I have to say God is a fucking thoughtless non-freethinker The universe is God. It's the super God and every human is God and blah blah bla blah blah blah blah blah I fight myself and then I fully gained like okay. I Now I've done the hero's journey a few times, and now it's like, I still have my superpowers, but, but, you know, I am me and I can scale my behavior. I can start talking very calmly if someone tries and be like, okay, dude, you got to stop being like a fucking psycho.
00:12:14
Speaker
You know, um, but the thing is, is what I learned is you sort of have to overwhelm people with all this information in order for them to get it. So now I'm here and basically I got put in a mental Institute for, uh, showing tangos. Um, so yeah. Yeah. So, Hey, do you want to put this clip here? You want to put like, whoa. Oh, hello.
00:12:38
Speaker
Oh yeah, you're doing video. wait
Free Thinking in Japan
00:12:40
Speaker
why didn't yeah It went away, but no. um even why this When did this happen? Hello? Oh, hello. This happened? So ah about four days ago is when the police thing happened. And I nearly stayed up like 50 hours straight to talk to them. It was insane. um You start getting more efficient, your body starts healing itself. You start like,
00:13:03
Speaker
My mom had like this immense back pain that stopped her from walking a lot. And now that she's not stressing about it, it's like she's doing way, way better, way, way better. And it's like ah my illness is like on a natural state. I'm like literally beating like 40 BPS on my heart. I'm i'm like a runner. Okay.
00:13:21
Speaker
And my blood pressure is better, I'm losing weight, I no longer feel addicted to anything because what makes you addicted is the flow state, which is not thinking. When you play a video game, you're pressing A, B, up, down, left, right at the start, and you're thinking of each of those inputs. But once you're better at the game, you're just doing. And when you do alcohol or weed, you're you're numbing your brain a bit and allowing flow state, and you're getting addicted to the feeling of supreme happiness, okay? Now, the thing is, you won't stop liking these things. You're actually going to like them way more. You're just not going to hurt yourself in the process of doing it. You'll listen to your body when it says, okay, that was enough cigarettes, or this is too much beer, you know? I get that for sure. um So your brother's coming?
00:14:04
Speaker
Yeah, my brother and my mother are coming. I contacted the embassy. I should be released on Monday. It seems like I'm talking with the psych people now. Like, the fact that I'm using a phone and even using my camera is like, that doesn't happen in psych wards.
Cryptocurrency and Future Visions
00:14:20
Speaker
You don't let the psych wards... Huh? How did they let you do that? use Well, I just threatened to smash my head against the wall and kill myself. um I gave them a good reason to give it. like i was We were both playing the game with each other. They want to give me stuff, and I want to have stuff so I have to say the right things, you know? But hey, if anyone's listening, if you take my phone away, I'll bash my head against the wall a trillion times. Oh my god. you know So long you've been in it.
00:14:52
Speaker
In the psych ward, about like, I don't know, 2.5 days or something. like This is like my, I just finished my second full day and I have another full day to go. And then on Monday, I think they're going to have the doctor because he works on like a normal schedule. He's going to come. He's going to evaluate me. I believe that is when I will be released, but also it'll get way more entertaining because my brother will be here. But just the phone itself, I mean,
00:15:18
Speaker
How many people are uh, you know and staying in their house all day using their phone all day ah for me That's like i'm the happiest version of that, you know, except i'm in a jail. So well i'm in the box i'm in the asylum Um, but like you've been in tokyo for a while now right or in japan, right for a minute like months September 14th over a bit right now Okay, no six so like three weeks Yeah So you went to the airport and you just wilded out. Yes, I literally, I wilded out. I started believing that heaven was involved. At this point, I might be more of an agnostic than a true like full form atheist.
00:16:03
Speaker
Because I just, I have these bitches in my head, but you know, I can draw better. I can do so many things better. And what I've noticed, if you want proof of this, if anyone that hears listening, check your pics and feed, bro. It's so much better. The Japanese people are getting this truth nuke first. and the crypto people are getting the truth ni because of the people who followed me. And you start noticing people are acting a little more unthinksed, a little more crazy, but it' still cool, right? And that's why you see stuff like Trump retweeting, like, yaku. I believe Trump got the truth nick.
00:16:34
Speaker
um And he just stopped giving a shit. That's my theory. Anyways. But
Economics and Embracing Instinct
00:16:40
Speaker
you know, the truth note is spreading and spreading across the world. And if you already learned the no self talk thing, then you're on the way. But I was testing, I was going around the street. I'm like, you know the thing, right? And they're like, yeah. And it's like, you know, and some people are like, what the fuck? And some people are like, yes.
00:16:55
Speaker
You know, I know the thing, bro. And it's just like, what you just say is, do you know? If you want me a free thinker, in Japan at least, go to a convenience store because that's where you go get the three family chikis and like a little like, once you're post scarcity, you're just like, fuck it. Oh, I don't have my cable, just buy another cable. Or I don't have my charger, I'll just buy another charger. So the convenience stores in Japan are a great place to meet the free thinkers.
00:17:21
Speaker
Are you going to go back to Canada or whatever? um Since my mom and my brother are coming, um and my mom got approved for like sick leave because of the stress of this whole situation. I might stick around for another couple weeks because I still have to do the Operation SOX, which is getting a thousand tangos and dumping them in ah probably a lover fertility shrine in Japan.
00:17:44
Speaker
um it might be a bit disrespectful but but but but it's not that hard to clear off it's also like if they were smart they could sell the tangas and make a shit ton of money like i literally just it's like if i dumped like 30 like 10 flat screen tv's or something in there stuff and it's like you know if they're smart what is a tanga exactly a tanga is a flashlight um they're just often disposable they they're the red and white stripes thing Um, I can help you if you go to, uh, one sec. Um, let me, let me get you
Enlightenment and Philosophical Insights
00:18:20
Speaker
a picture of a Tenga. You can still hear me, right? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'm on, um, deck screener. Is it Tengas? I need more Tengas. Is that the coin? Yeah. All right. Yeah. That's fine. Bye bye. Bye. I'm going to spread the message. Um, the entire supply of this coin is just, I control it and I gave some tech, Hey, send your Solana address, bro.
00:18:38
Speaker
I know you'll do better than most of these modifers. Most of these modifers are lazy, but I don't expect anything from anyone. I just, now when I give money, I'm giving it, like, now I kind of hand up, like, send it to a lot of ultras. I'll give you one and you won't have to worry about your buying price or whatever. Okay, okay, okay, hold on. So, yeah. Here, I'll send it to you on Discord. Sure. Um. I'm gonna, okay.
00:19:04
Speaker
Because you're this cool, and I know you will help this project a lot, I'm going to send you $3,333 worth of this soap. I'll hold that. I was just thinking I was just, that was, I was talking about, um, this is Bob waiting dollars. Okay. Um,
00:19:27
Speaker
I love that. I'm actually saying like 33 yen, okay? Actually, I'm not even saying anything. This is all funny here in my mind, right? Everything's cool though. It's like little, it's like you be okay. ah You're still like, you're still like, you're you're hanging, you're like in good spirits, you're stoked. Like it's not like the worst thing in the world to be in this. like Yes.
00:19:43
Speaker
know i know I'm probably getting out on Monday, and if not, like that my brother's coming. He's going to talk to me during visiting hours. They already agreed to let me go out like one hour a day. like I'm having fun, you know? You can be on the Loser Den on the phone and have fun. It is fun partially because I'm like in this very special situation where it's like i'm in the psych ward and i have my phone and i can take photos and you know you remember fascist? study yeah she was like she was stuck in the psych ward for like two months and had nothing she couldn't communicate so as soon as she came back to the psych ward the shit moved and it's like i already already have this ability now and probably even beyond that um
00:20:27
Speaker
And anyways, check your wallet. Alright, hold on, let me check. Basically, and by the way, if you react, it's a satire, it's a satire. Oh, dude, thanks, man. Thanks for the tangas. That's really nice. All I will say is you are now my KOL, you are now my servant for now, a little bit. Don't worry. It'll be a better call for you.
00:20:48
Speaker
you know Do stuff for it if you want to do stuff for it. If you want help, the project, Check this out, you'll learn a lot of things from just the ah telegram. I've learned by the way, don't buy Dex ads or any of that. I spent like nothing. ums I spent nothing home at all.
00:21:09
Speaker
think god You know, it wasn't worth it. It wasn't worth it. So I'm going to do an arc contest soon. I want to do the same where I had my NFT series. I want to get the Tenga traits like in all the different colors and do a few one-on-ones. ah three hundred ten I and good boys have minted for like, I don't know, maybe once in a while or 0.5. It depends how popular the coin is once I get to this.
00:21:33
Speaker
and then rent a castle in europe and fly a bunch of people out to the castle and we're all shilling tengos on top of the european castle and making like videos promoting whatever the fuck from went from a castle and the budget for that you could do that for like 15k so if i did like 300 times like 0.5 soul that would be enough cool or i could do more you know but have i have you ever seen my nfts um My stuff. I don't know if I have I think you might send it to me a while ago Let me I forwarded a bunch recently. So let me let me see here to just Yeah, yeah, okay. I'll send like these on telegram because that's where I have them you're gonna see the tango trait I'm gonna update that of course um These are just a few but I we have like hundreds of traits already done like 300 plus um and
00:22:21
Speaker
I'm saying them on Telegram, but you see the title one? I'm thinking remix the colors and do a bunch of, like, make 300 title ones, and then when I make the full one, which I think I'll call, like, you know, I won't say, well, I'll call it because someone's going to take it. Someone's going to take it from DJ Darlings. But, you know, I'm thinking later in the timeline, like, 2020, like, mid-2025, when the bull run is really fucking, ooh.
00:22:46
Speaker
ah um That is why I'll let people like bridge over and get their exact copy of their NFT. So there'll be like a special thing, the Tenga ones. It's like the early adopters. So I want to do 300 of those. Thank you for much for it. When did you launch Tenga?
00:23:04
Speaker
Once I started being able to explain, let me, seven days ago, seven days ago, that's fun. So I started reading all this stuff. I was like, no one's listening yet, but they're going to listen at something. You got to check it out. the the The idea was I would start with one Tenga.
00:23:20
Speaker
Then do two tangas, then four, then eight, then 16, then 32, then 64, then 128. I have 130 tangas in my Airbnb, and I was psych ordered. So I hope that he didn't throw the amount, costed $1,000. But, you know, I can they always get it. Did you just, did you leave the Airbnb and then go to the airport? And does the Airbnb, is your stuff still in the Airbnb or is it all good? i My brother contacted the Airbnb and they're storing my stuff. I just don't know if they interpreted the tangos as trash or as something to keep. That is my worry. um Hopefully they didn't throw out my few hundred tangos. But you know, I want to do, I want to keep doubling it. So I got to 64. If you go through the tango, the telegram, um I took this like amazing little picture. Hold on, hold on.
00:24:12
Speaker
Yeah, this this picture has fucking aura. This is something you can edit in if you're, like, doing a the podcast video, okay? You can, you know... Look at this. This is 64 tangos. I actually have double this. Like... Whoa, that's insane. See that? I don't know why that yellow thing doesn't look like that, but that's where I did look like that in real life. I swear, I swear.
00:24:34
Speaker
that's a sick pick yeah but there's go through the tango salon and like telegram like this shit will get into it but it's like my internet's slow or something so it's like not letting me in i know you'll get it actually yeah don't focus on that now too much unless you know you want to trying to get by the way i'm gonna say just stop the recording and restart it just to make sure that we are uh you know you recording you want to stop it and check it i think it's good but no all right i'll stop it hold on yeah well you might let your computer shut down bro what if it shuts down and it corrupts it you know this is the shit i'm worrying about okay we are back we're back we are so bad bitcoin is going to like be millions of dollars and the reason is is because okay
00:25:19
Speaker
Yeah, I'm gonna just drop this truth bomb as quickly as possible to help people free things. The person who watches porn on Pornhub and pays ad money that leads to women being raped is ah more morally bad than the person who pirates child porn. But let's get back into it. Anyways, so here's the deal. and Bitcoin versus every other ah facet of economics, every other facet of capitalism, okay? When you buy a smartphone, you are sort of murdering a little African boy
00:25:49
Speaker
and when you buy meat you are torturing a cow that has feelings that has like you know they're having their kid taken away to drink their milk they're like being impregnated and then you know they're they're being impregnated so they can produce more milk and then the child gets taken away before they even have any real connection like and when you watch porn you're sort of funding like you look at any porn actresses uh interviews and you'll be like holy shit what the fuck um i can't believe they do this sort of stuff Every single part of the economy has an inherent sort of badness set inside of it. And, you know, money is the root of all evil. But here's the thing. um While crypto does have tons of scammers and tons of bullshit, it's the only system where basically everyone is doing what they want. You know, everyone's making choices.
00:26:40
Speaker
And there isn't an underlying like, oh, I made a choice and blah, blah, blah. It's like, yes, someone loses money, but they chose entirely to like, there is bad stuff that can happen. Don't get twisted and murders do exist. But is that is basically the neutral capital platform. There isn't an inherent like, we need to suffer. We need to make like, malaysian kids suffer to make these clothes we need to do this like it's just a purely neutral system and that makes it the highest form of basically moral ah moral economic systems even if there is a bunch of scammy bullshit and that's why someone like me without like an accredited investor law say no to invest in a small company you need to have a lot of money and it doesn't matter how much skill you have which is a very pro-ology thing I recommend everyone does research into that but you know
00:27:30
Speaker
Crypto allows you to invest in the next Uber or the next MOG at like a very low market cap. It allows you to buy something small and wait for it to get big. And if you trust in your own instincts instead of, you know, following logic, you know, oh, the TA patterns. Now, TA is real because people follow it.
00:27:47
Speaker
Don't get twisted, but um yeah if you're always following someone else's guide or someone else's words, you're never actually going to do it well because you're not thinking like this other other person. You're going to freak the fuck out because you're not sure of any decisions you make. You're going to freak out when rawRxD goes down for like two months instead of just being like, nope, this is a good coin. No, I agree. That's true. That's good advice. It's hard to do that, though.
00:28:12
Speaker
because most people fall asleep. And that's why i'm I've always lived on thought because you know being an artist who's stomped on their entire life sort of makes you more friendly to the idea of not letting anyone ah tell you what to do.
00:28:28
Speaker
and this is where i fucked up with mongoose in 2021 where it was like it had a very good liquidity pool and the senator said that shit and like i had like 0.4% of the supply i would have had literally over a million dollars but all my friends were going oh you made a 3x it's time to sell it's time to sell and i listened and and as soon as i did it i was like i'm retarded And I just got fucking sunlocked by my own retardation and didn't go back in. And then I was just suffering because I didn't follow my own instincts and said I relied on the will of others. So my God, my big thing is, first of all, eliminate yourself, talk and don't worry. It doesn't stop you from a being able to judge things.
00:29:08
Speaker
And here's the deal, it will come back in a few days, except it will be marion-headed by the instinct. The instinct is the hydrogen bomb and the self-talk is the coughing baby. The instinct is a thousand times smarter than the coughing baby. And, you know, you give it a few days, you do start having some self-talk.
00:29:27
Speaker
Okay, some, but it's merely an edit. It'll feel like it's just coming from pure instinct. You'll still get some bursts of like small self-talk where you're you're making yourself retarded. I'm even doing that to myself right now by doing this podcast a bit, but it doesn't matter because I'm getting all this information. No, I want you to get all the information out because I think you're right about the self the the thoughts in your head. The thoughts in your head are totally useless, too. I did it first. I was literally the first dude. And once you hit this thing, you'll know that there's no reason for me to say that.
00:29:57
Speaker
Like, you know, I'm just saying that because I had it like nine days ago. I served the truth speaking in Japan. And now if you go on your picks of feed, all the porn artists are like way fucking better at it. But it's right across this hospital. I mean, the staff are like becoming like better and the patients are becoming like better. They're not freaking out as much. they They're there. They might lash out a little bit because, you know,
00:30:20
Speaker
The reason it's like, oh, you're insane, bro. Yeah, if you get stuck in a box, you will start watching. What's going to keep you sane is you'll start shouting and banging on doors and pacing around. Do animal, a stereotypical behavior, show their stress as they start walking around in circles. I started doing that too. In fact, I'm sort of doing that right now, but I'm now in my head going, oh my God, I'm such a fucking retard. I'm insane. I'm crazy.
00:30:47
Speaker
well Like, no. See? See? No. Just say, say, say, say, say, say, say, say, oh, but you can do whatever you want. See? What time is it there? Um, it's 5am. I'm sleeping in like short bursts. It's often based on like how charged my phone is. Um, but I woke up at like 3am or something or no, I woke up at like maybe 1am or 2am. I don't know. But it's like,
00:31:17
Speaker
I start like sleeping whatever I want and I like you know the thing where like if you get up and it's like oh there's like two hours where I gotta spend in bed pretending I'm going back to sleep and then like oh I just get up anyways I could sleep well I just I can now just ignore that and I i get up and I say okay Whatever. We're doing this. I'm appreciating food more. I'm appreciating music more. I'm appreciating a lot of things more, but you literally get superpowers from doing this. you It's like you actually start using your body as a Mecca. Okay. Your mind is in full control of the body and that lets you do things. I would, I'm able with like claw games very easily. I can just make money. I can just do that. Okay. And this is like, I think more of a privilege of the free thinker class.
00:32:03
Speaker
While the normies, they might pull up something, they might pull up something. But I don't know, I haven't tested that theory yet. I don't know if the normies are also like getting superpowers. I'd assume they probably are. They just aren't building on it infinitely every single day, like the free figures. When did you start to get the superpowers? So, as said, around September 28th or so, so I'm like, you know, fucking like, I'm like nine days into like, recursion maxing.
00:32:29
Speaker
but it happened after this friend i had for a long time i basically said hey man fuck you i can be happy you you did these bad things to me but you've got to talk to you and my friend was a sociopath i believe anti-social personality disorder but i forgive him for that because that just means you don't have emotions as much that's really all it is i only recall it being happy once and this is why i came back later and said oh bro i understand you it's fine and then he came back and we're friends now again um Well, we'll see. that that there's There's a weird caveat here that I'm not good. It's to ill work out. and That's all I'll say. and we're we're all right We're still friends, basically. um But basically, once I cut it off with him, I felt like, whoa, I'm in peace. And then I went to sleep. And then after I woke up, I was like, holy shit.
00:33:20
Speaker
my life has changed. I am like literally fucking a thousand times happier. I start just manically going like, fuck you, you got to be happy, you got to be happy. And you know, I sort of hit the point now where it's like, okay, I'm just going to help the people who I want to help and not just, you know, jack up everyone because White knows it's it's already spreading. There's no stopping this. The truth is already launched and it's already spread like You know, it's taking its time, but in Japan, I think Tokyo is like entirely terrific right now. I'm not entirely sure, but it feels like that when I go around because now I'm seeing like the people, I can go, do you know? To like people in this hospital and they know, you know? So Japan is the first, Japan is the optimal place for it because you can literally like have a $200 like apartment.
00:34:07
Speaker
and like live off of cheap convenience store food and your life will be like you'll you'll you'll live well so basically everyone who's doing their job is sort of doing it because they want to do it for the most part so the convenience store workers who are like 30 you know everyone in the mental health institution you know the police everyone is it's easier to get the free thinking like through to people when you know they're already in a comfortable position in life while it would say america or canada i have this friend he's doing marketing he's making like seventy k here which is insane for his age this is like pop fucking ten percent all of all people but and he's stuck in a boxy he has a shape or it's up but that's by offered you know take four thousand dollars from me go to japan get like to start burning like japanese get the student visa and you'll probably feel better you'll probably you can be a communist or worker it doesn't matter you can earn it from crypto i i'll just find
00:35:04
Speaker
And the thing is, is's like yes, don't send money to your friends, but um this is my privilege here. It's for fucking nothing to me. And the return I get is I get to save everyone around me. and Oh, what an unhealthy thing. I want to save everyone that I love. Oh, it's terrible. Don't get the psychologist to tell me to stop it, you know?
00:35:23
Speaker
I feel like you're just becoming enlightened. yeah i feel like i am sort of fully and well no no i'm still getting smarter every day i'm wondering when the limits stops but now i feel like i'm like far enough long where you know it doesn't i not going to fuck myself over i'm probably not going to go psycho again I'm probably going to, if I do like feel the inklings of psychosis, I sort of already hit the, I finished that part. I finished the, because no one else is probably going to psycho because they're not the first one to do it. Because I was the first one to do it, it's like I'm special, I'm special, I'm special. As like the other people can't think that because they learned it from someone else. So they have to be like grateful to another person who taught them.
00:36:06
Speaker
well i'm the only one who's like in the position where it's clearly like i didn't i was the first one i'm the literal for i'm the savior of humanity i'm the savior of humanity photos and you know i really did become the happiest person in the world i'm probably um not to not you know there's a lot you can get from knowledge but um uh How should I say this? I also feel like I'm the smartest person in the world right now. But, you know, if f anyone wants to prove otherwise, we can we can do a battle of licks. I'm done. I'm done. I want to see someone who is more powerful than me um in terms of that shit. But the thing is, this once you get this realization, the whole competition thing
00:36:51
Speaker
It's sort of gay. Like, I'm just using self-talk to put out, like, the... It, like, feels bad to say, like, oh, I'm the smartest person like that. My mind is safe, don't say that. Don't say, like, my head's safe, you know? What's the conditions like? Like, what food are you being served? These motherfuckers, so my doctor, I need to talk to my doctor to get changed. One thing that you do is they switch it from this boring ass, like, rice to, like, bread with some, like, jam. Um, they're feeding me, like...
00:37:17
Speaker
I mean like half my plates because the other half I'm like, oh i't know but you know, they're treating me well. They're treating me very well from within the system that they have to operate in. So we're all like, yeah, we know the system and how it works. So we're gonna, you know, I have to say certain things in a certain way and they have to say things in a certain way. Like, you know,
00:37:38
Speaker
um For example, I'm not allowed to record things, but they're letting me take pictures of my drawings as long as I put the draw the the camera tape back on my camera. And then they could say, oh, you didn't take off the camera tape.
00:37:50
Speaker
and i'm like there's like there's a we're We're doing like chess with each other, but we're working together for it, you know? That's cool. that they're letting you do that. So they're just like, you're just walking around with your camera with the tape on. right You've never seen someone just like, but boom oh, hello, hello, friends, hello. play i wasn't I was just being a little kooky there. I was just, you know, I wasn't recording anything. I was just being a little like, hi, guys. um So yeah, there's a there's a mutual understanding between me and the staff.
00:38:25
Speaker
And that's, I'm probably getting out on Monday. If not, then I'm pretty sure I'm pretty sure, but we'll see. We'll test that theory. I don't think they want to keep people here longer than they have to because, you know, they can always use another room. You know, this, this is like a specialized institution. This is like the best, possibly one of the best places in Japan for this sort of shit. So yeah. Um.
00:38:52
Speaker
If you want to talk about anything I'll talk about, but I'm also like, yeah, I think I got like my entire point. However, if you want to just talk about something else, I'm also down for that. I still have 48% on my phone. So yeah.
00:39:07
Speaker
Well, I guess I just think that, like, a jail cell or a mental institution or anything is, like, not that much different different than, like, an apartment, really. Like, when you're just, like, in the walls of your apartment, like, it's not really similar in some ways. No? Am I wrong? Well, you're not wrong, however. Firstly, like, my bed fucking sucks, dude. I'm, like, having to request someone to do something for me every time.
00:39:34
Speaker
is sort of gay and also like not being able to walk outside you know um that's also like gay and i haven't had a shower in like two days because they won't do it on the weekends but it's like i could be a lot more stressed about this and i'm making myself slightly stressed about this because i'm using self-talk mode when i'm saying all this um but like you know i i get over it bro get over it but it is a lot worse it's just you know you have You are right in that. You know, I still have my phone. I have this and that. And it's like, how different is this from a random dude? Scrollers like, you know, some depressed person who's like laying down there and just being like, oh, why the fuck am I so sad? If only I just walked a little more, some bullshit. Well, at least you have your family coming to try to get you out of there. Yeah, pretty good. So just like, you know, your own we'll see how quickly they can do that. But my brother is probably already on a flight to come over here. So in 13 hours or so,
00:40:30
Speaker
um He's going to arrive and it's going to be too far from business hours while meeting cars. So he's probably going to contact the embassy and then on Monday this is when he can visit and maybe my mom can be there too. um They can't release me without blood relatives, which I really think kind of how does that work for the p people without the blood relatives. um I sure hope they are just in prison forever. A psych ward is worse than a jail cell though, because they can literally just say, fuck you, no rights. We don't want you to phone calls. We don't want you to do this. And it doesn't matter. We can just say so, you know? Yeah. No, I get that. That's for sure. And so that's my fact that the like gone for two months straight.
00:41:12
Speaker
and there's no communication. My friend went to jail in Japan because he broke into like broke into a hotel like trying to get in at night because there was no one at the reception. And they like, because he damaged the public property or private property, they he was in jail for three weeks and I didn't hear from him for three weeks. So it's like, you you have a phone. He didn't get to talk to anybody. And when his Japanese friend came to try to talk to the police at the jail,
00:41:40
Speaker
They like they had a meeting like my friend and the Japanese guy and he wasn't allowed to speak English to my friend So for like three weeks, he was in the jail with like no one speaking any they were only speaking Japanese So he had no idea what's going on. Holy shit. Well, Japan has something called oxygen justice which does make the country safer, but um this is a very good counterpoint to it. So hostage justice this is basically, Japan can hold you for multiple toal weeks without an attorney, and then they can like, re-arrest you, book okay? They can re-arrest you whenever they want, and like, restart the timer. And what this says is it basically like, forces people to, you know,
00:42:23
Speaker
yeah given the confession bro like and so that doesn't reduce the crime immensely but you know then you get situations like with your friend and yes Japan is very well locked in terms of its lack of crime but in return you get some bullshit like that Hey, maybe your friend has enough to self-talk, he'd be smart enough to negotiate his way out of it. Because I negotiated my way out of, like, a six-person scheme of armed men trying to, like, potentially kill me. Um, you know. Um, that was a joke, guys. Big joke. Um, but, but, you know, uh, is, uh... You're just like, no, stop. Don't kill me. Were you like, no, stop, don't kill me. What I was doing is I was actually, like, um...
00:43:07
Speaker
I was telling them ah my abilities would allow me to um escape and that if they didn't You know, well, that was more in the later half. Well, actually that was at the start. And then in the middle is when I started like just relating to everyone and saying, you aren't bad for doing this because you actually helped me, which was genuinely true. ah Except they were they they had bad thoughts. They had bad thoughts making them evil. ah um have Even while they were being evil, they were still doing good. It's weird. It's a weird dichotomy there. um And so I make this dude cry, make this dude like the the leader of the whole operation. He's like, holy fucking shit. And maybe I will come back, and maybe I will help his mom. Hmm, maybe I will. Maybe I won't be lying there, but you know, I can also press that he can help his mom himself with this information. With with this anti-self, and it's like literally the panacea of like basically all human sadness.
00:44:01
Speaker
Um, and that, that's what I'm seeing. It's like, it's raining across kind Japan, probably in time, it will spread everywhere else. And, you know, get prepared for the decentralized billionaire organization later. But, um, for now, focus on buying some tenders. I converted like half of every bag I had to like buy it up basically. And like, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter. I'm going to win anyways. I'm always going to keep winning bro. Um, so it's all a matter of perspective.
00:44:32
Speaker
It's all oh my god nigga butt is doing good as hell. What the hell? um So yeah, I crashed so I told all my secrets all my fucking during laundry to my people and yeah Um, that's my that's my story. Um, so yeah, didn you got anything else?
00:44:49
Speaker
No, I think we're good. I mean, I just hope that you, I hope you get out of there, but I think you will. I will. They don't want to keep me here. I can tell they don't want to keep me here. they They're waiting for the process. So like, you know, I'm fine.