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It was so frustrating. It was really, really frustrating. And it almost left you feeling, am I wrong? Am I seeing something that's not there? Is it me? um Am I being dramatic? But we're living it day in, day out. And then we'd go from that to her going back to a normal ways and a repetition and her asking the same questions every single hour and needing that constant reassurance and all the signs and symptoms that we were experiencing. I mean, we're living in that day in, day out. And then people are questioning what you're saying to them. it's it's ah It is a hard situation to be in. You do start to question yourself and then you blame yourself and you think, oh, you know, maybe we should leave this. This is how she is. It's just her. Let's just deal with it as it is. so and Yeah, it's it's not nice. How did it feel then, um Lindsay, when you got that final validation, you know, somebody finally listened and said, actually, Yes, you know, Rosie is is autistic. How does that feel for you? I just cried my eyes out. I cried my eyes out on the phone because right until the bitter end, even though you're getting the answers from the people that are sort of looking at her and you do feel like, oh, maybe maybe this person is seeing.