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Navigating Insecurities and Embracing Purpose W/ Coletrain
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In this episode of "Create Your Own Story," host Terayle Garnett is back after a long hiatus, excited to reconnect with his audience. He welcomes special guest Coletrain, a seasoned YouTuber and podcaster with eight years of experience. Coletrain shares insights into his journey, discussing his current studies as a senior computer science major and his plans to pursue a master's degree in cybersecurity. He introduces his two YouTube channels: Coletrain, where he creates universe-mode content with a dedicated team, and Deshawn Train Productions, focused on video gaming content. Coletrain also highlights his Coletrain Interviews Podcast, where he interviews creators from various fields, with the latest episode set to premiere soon. Tune in for an engaging conversation filled with inspiration and knowledge about content creation and education!
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Introduction and Podcast Comeback
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You're listening to Create Your Own Story with Terrell Garnett.
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what is good y'all what is good y'all what is good i haven't had a podcast i haven't recorded a podcast in almost like a year it feels like it might be eight months maybe a year but i'm finally back um this is the create your own story podcast with torrell got with your host torrell garnett so i'm i'm happy to be back i have a special guest that i want him to just come on and introduce himself so here we go y'all All
Meet Coltrane: YouTuber and Student
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right. Hello, everybody. My name is Coltrane. This is oh me and all of my glory. I am a YouTuber. I've been a YouTuber for the last eight years, been doing podcasting myself for the last five years. I am currently a senior computer science major. um I will be graduating in the spring of 2025 with my BS in computer science.
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with a minor in communications and a minor in business. And then I will be forwarding my education by gaining a master's degree in computer science with a concentration in cybersecurity i with either the fall of 2025 or a spring of 2026.
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I have my own ah YouTube, as I stated earlier, I have two YouTube channels. ah Their names are Coltrane and Deshauntrane Productions. On Coltrane, we produce universe mode content and long form. We have editors, we have graphic designers, and we have match producers as well, and specific commentary for those episodes. ah We also host the Coltrane Interviews podcast, where I go around and interview different creators in different spaces from all around the world.
00:01:58
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ah We are 14 episodes into that series and we just have we did I just recorded the 15th episode Which will premiere within the next couple weeks um on the Sean train productions that where we handle all of our video video gaming from shooters narrative driven games Let me live stream on there as well different types of video games That's what the Sean train productions is all about is everything outside of professional wrestling um And the lastly, the last thing I do is I i am one of three hosts on the Against the Ghost podcast that is filmed every Sunday or Monday, the paint on the schedule, ah where we talk about everything professional wrestling related.
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um And I am also a part time editor i'm ah and video production designers as well. um And I am an aspiring software engineering business owner. So that is my spirit.
00:02:57
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He said, tell them I'll tell you about yourself. You are so funny. is it' so funny as and Every time I tell people, but like oh, tell you tell me tell them a little bit about yourself. They give like one or two things or whatever. This bro just ran off his resume. Yes, I literally just i ran off the entire resume. That's not even everything, either. I'm still mad i'm missing like three, four, things five things. off for That is funny. Well, it's great to have you.
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We just gonna get into some some dialogue, some questions or whatever. Again, I'm a little rusty. I ended this in like a year. So the first question I wanna ask you,
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ah So just for for first time listeners, this podcast is called Create Your Own Story.
Purpose of the Podcast
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And it's just about realizing that like we are more alike as individuals, no matter the skin color or whatever, than we are apart. And this podcast, I want people to come on and tell their story, their journey, learn something about themselves, or you guys learn something about them, or you guys listen and learn something about yourselves.
Coltrane's Realization and Growth
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so With these questions, I have lifestyle questions, personalized questions, and questions that are geared towards the gear, but I also want it to be thought-provoking and just an honest conversation. So with all that being said, my first question for you is, what's the last thing you've learned about yourself that surprised you? ah The last thing I learned about myself that surprised me was that I am a very, very great listener.
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oh i am able to listen to different types of people's problems and give solutions to their issues, or just be there for when someone is venting, because I pick up on like small details about people. For example, um one of the people that I got caught close to in college, um this was my second year of college, third semester of school, we were in a computer science class called discrete structures.
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now I remember this guy from 10 years ago, whenever we were in 5th grade, i so I remember watching him at a high school, it was a high school football game, I seen him in his friend group, I knew most of the people that he was friends with, still at stillil to this day, and I remember his face.
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now I never went to spoke up to him because back in elementary school, middle school days, I did not go talk to people. I was a deaf initiative, go home, go to school and go home, get on my game, and that's it. That was life. It was the simplest times. i was but That was before I did YouTube, podcasting, all that. Very, very simple things.
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So we reconnected after 10 years of not talking to each other straight. It was like I've seen a guy in 10 whole years hour and I remembered a lot of things about him from 10 years ago and whenever we we started reconnecting and talking I picked up on some things and There's still like certain gags and certain jokes that we have with it with each other that nobody else will understand um so that's things that I learned in the last year that I'm good at because I have that with everybody that I'm close to. There's certain acts, certain you know things that we understand that nobody else understands ah that are that's not close to us. um
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and i feel like that is a great trait to have because being a great listener not only for friendship wise is great but also in business also in your personal life and jobs that is very very key to have a great trait like that because you can pick up on things that certain people might miss and you can use that to your advantage or to or to possibly get like a pay raise or to possibly maybe switch companies or ready to leave your company to get more money out of the current company that you're at because of you because you're are paying attention to the small
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and gritty details. I learned know that I had a great listening in trait through the communications classes that i classes that I took in college. I wasn't supposed to take those classes, um but someone that I had met in this mentoring program that I was in my freshman year of college told me that I should be a communications minor. Never thought in a million years that I can be a communication music. I was like, what's communications? All you do is just talking in there. You're not going to gain anything out of that. I talk every day. But I was arrogant about it.
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But I got into like the introductory class, absolutely loved it, learned so much about myself. I took a theory class in it, and then I took another class called Interpersonal Communications last semester, which I learned so, so much. um And I'm forever grateful for every class that I took in communications, because every communications class, I learned a little bit about myself. And the last thing I did learn was that I am a great, great listener. Thanks.
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So get to to get a little deeper into your personal life, thank you which how you tit and how you tick, what makes what are what are things that make you insecure? Things that make me insecure? Ooh, man, that's thats that's a very, very good question. And that's why I asked it. Oh, I
Facing Insecurities
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got thick on this one. oh there is I would say like maybe whenever like I am insecure sometimes about my body, um so whenever I do go to the pool, I do wear a shirt. I never take my shirt off when I go to the pool or water parks. That's the rule of mine.
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um and Sometimes about my voice I'm insecure about so there's some times that I don't like speaking in front of people um I just depending on the pain on the person as I just sometimes just sit back and just listen write it and speak because I Don't like my voice. I hate my voice absolutely despise it ah Never did ah but some people think that they enjoy every you that somebody that you say that That's that's a cut you off. Uh-huh
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um But i i I hate my speaking voice too. And it wasn't until I actually did the podcast um that I got a lot of compliments on my speaking voice that it's I'm easy to listen to. so Well, the voice is your voice is fine. I just don't like how high pitch line is. I don't think so, but but i I say that to say just because you doesn't like it doesn't mean that other people don't like it.
00:09:35
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ah Yeah, yeah that I was just gonna get to that because ah one of the great um traits of doing podcasting and doing YouTube, a lot of people enjoy listening to me and they don't mind watching an hour or two hour video that I do. Even though I just post and never listen to the video ah again. Same. I don't come back to it. I literally just say, hey, this is the video. i i Whenever I watch the premiere back, I mute it.
00:10:06
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Unless, unless somebody said there's an audio issue and I make sure I pick up on that for the next time so that that mistake does not be made. But most of the time when I rewatch videos, they're muted. Cause I don't, I don't like hearing my own voice. I didn't even use like for, so this actually, I have done other video podcasts, but this video, this podcast that we're doing right now is the first one where it's going to be fully video and audio. um um Um, because I was like, yeah people don't need to see me.
00:10:35
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Um, I don't like to be heard, but, um, like I like to be heard, but I don't like my speaking voice. So other people, and every people told me that they liked the way that I sound. I just focused on that. Um, but now that I'm bringing this back, I'm like, okay, we need to step it up a notch. Um, and I feel that our, our, our wrestling podcast has helped me with doing the video thing. And it's actually helped me with bringing the podcast back. I was actually telling somebody this yesterday.
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that I hadn't really done with it so much, but I'm like, I'm actually excited. Like I got these cards made because before I used to use my cell phone. um But I said, you know, i know listen what what did what would Wendy Williams do? You know? that day There you go. Wendy Williams would make cards. Yes. And I just remember watching certain TV shows and they have their little cards on hand or whatever with the little topics and whatnot. So I'm just like, you know, let me go make these. There's eight of these. It cost me 50 something dollars.
00:11:30
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God dang. FedEx printing services. Fuck y'all for that. Because these are five by seven. I'm just being honest. I'm sorry for cutting. But it should not have cost that much. God damn, $50 for a five by seven. And because I didn't, so it was $50 with tax and everything. But because it was not $50 before tax, it was like 40 something. They charged me an extra $2.50 to print them. Yes. And they printed, they they to cut them.
00:11:59
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They charged me a fee to cut them. They charged fees for everything. And I was like, this is ridiculous. It was only $3 a card. But because of everything else that they added onto it, it cost extra. But they came out nice, as y'all can see. Yeah, they look really good. I like them. Yeah, so they came out really nice. So I can't even complain about that. No.
00:12:27
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$50 is insane. But you got to remember, guys, Terrell is in one of the, you know, highest taxed states in the country. So yes, I live in California, everything's expensive out here. Everything McDonald's be $20 for y'all. Yes, I remember. So yesterday, someone said on Twitter about how much is five guys? Have you read five guys? i' had i've I've had five guys down here and I spent about $12.
00:12:52
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Exactly down there. And that's for the full meal, correct? Correct, that's for the meal. You're spending like $12 just on the sound, just on the burger here. that is yes It's probably like $8 just for the burger and then you gotta end and you have to add all your other stuff on. So you're spending a good $25 to $30 just for a meal on five days. At that point, go to a restaurant.
00:13:14
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Um, that's so, so that's why people like, they say that people live in their cars down there. Like people like go, they, they have six figure jobs, but they live in cars. I don't know any of those people, but it's probably true.
00:13:27
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i I'm not this that's what I read on i don't know six figure jobs because if you have six figure jobs and you're living in your car That means that you have bad credit and you're not gonna get an apartment. yeah Yeah Yeah, I think that that's where it is. A lot of people they say they put out on a YouTube video in California It was like oh people are living their cars and like but you're making a hundred and ten thousand dollars a year with what? what and i be able to get an apartment Yeah,
00:13:55
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The math ain't math then, and I don't want the drama. I was like, I feel bad. I was like, is it really that bad? You can't get an apartment there and you're making six figures? Like what's going on? Either that, they lying about six figures. That's what I think. I think it was a lot. Definitely six figures. To get a little deeper, tell us about one of your toughest moments and how you overcame it.
Therapy and Self-Rediscovery
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Well, I think one of the biggest tough biggest moments that I had in life um is I have, ah it's like a top two. So the first one was whenever I went through my last relationship, which was of two years, um that put me in a very, very depressive state um once it was over. It even had drove me to therapy. i never went to therapy before this relationship, but I was so down upon life. And then combined with me struggling at the time in college, having one of the worst semesters I've ever had academically, um it was just boom, after boom, after boom. And
00:15:04
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like that was like one of the hardest moments of my life and it's because of like the timing and effort I put into the relationship and just to get that slap in the face in the return that we were we were it's still ridiculous the excuse that that she made for it but um it's still well it's funny but it's still ridiculous But like, well, she said that we were growing apart because I still had a year of school left and she was about to graduate and she didn't want to wait on me. That was the excuse. So I was like, did you, but did you feel, did you, so you felt like she used it as a cop out that you guys weren't necessarily growing apart. She just was like, okay, I don't want to date somebody that's still in school. I'm going to do my own thing. Basically, she didn't want to date somebody that was still in school, although she knew that that was the that was going to happen when we first got together. I warned her about that. And she was like, we'll make it work. So she kind of just lied in my face, basically. So it was and it was two years of us messing around. So it was really officially.
00:16:11
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Yeah, we we we we we we were dating officially. Yeah, we were dating like. I'll say mess around. but and not Sorry, I'm sorry, you know, whenever mess around down here means that we were together. So. Mess around down here means that you just fucking. Oh, no, no, no, no, no, we no we were not just doing that. I have to remember that too, because I said something to somebody the other day about, because I'm thinking about doing another podcast and I'm thinking about calling it um shoot the shits.
00:16:41
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And they're like, what? What does that mean? and eight And I don't know what you guys say. Shoot the shit. Shoot the shit just means talk, like just to have fun, light banter or whatever. Yeah. um But they thought it meant like shooting somebody, killing somebody. Because they're from Chicago. And I'm just like, oh, so like, I always have to think that like,
00:17:04
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especially when I'm on the podcast or whatever, when I'm talking to somebody that's like not from the same area that I'm in, I want to make it clear what I'm actually talking about. So that's why I wanted to wanted you to elaborate on what you were just saying, because...
00:17:16
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Yeah, yeah, yeah. That makes sense because certain things mean certain things like that in different places, in different, different places. Because like what you just said, that just means that we're just we we call that Joseph down here. we're We're just having fun talking and clowning. But ah that's why I don't say Joseph on ah YouTube or the podcast because people don't they'd be like, did they think Joseph means that we're just jumping around and exercising. No, that's not what that means. We're just we're we're having fun.
00:17:45
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Yeah, I got to watch my language sometimes. Yes. A lot of things are different down here than, you know, in like in New York or something. um But anyways, you're saying back to what you're saying and regarding the relationship and how she basically used to cop out. So how did you overcome it?
00:18:03
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So what I did was after it she broke up with me around Christmas time, so we were out of school. So I was back home for about a month. um I just I had to find myself. So I had ordered me some like books from Dave Ramsey, you know, finding yourself and Dave Ramsey goes good together.
00:18:21
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um and then i And then I actually like enlisted into more therapy sessions. I did therapy sessions over the winter break, and I did therapy sessions the following semester, and I'm still in therapy to this day, even for some things that I'm working out privately. Because I went to my family about it, but my family is, they're just like three different just gen generations, so they don't understand like the things. like I got their advice on what to do, but I just found my own way. um Like I always do in these situations with relationships because I handle things differently than how they handle things. But the the advice from them was pretty great too. I leaned on them i for the holidays.
00:19:10
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Basically to just that, hey, you know you need to just keep doing what you got to do and focus on getting through school like you're supposed to do. you know She don't want to be with you because you still going to be in school. Don't let that be a determining factor on you not finishing.
00:19:27
Speaker
oh That's basically one of the things that my dad warned me about because he had made the mistake of letting things in the relationship with my mother at the time, ruin him from not finishing school. ah Basically they had me. So they he he he didn't finish. He blamed you for not finishing school. he I wouldn't say he, no, he didn't blame me. He was like, well, you're one of the reasons why I didn't finish. So he blamed you.
00:19:55
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that So he so he shit don't he blamed you, but he put some sugar on it. He just me, don't have kids in college. I wasn't going to do that anyway. but um So it was very, very great advice that they gave, but I like to find my own way.
00:20:11
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i I ordered me some self-word books. I order me some order me even ordered me a love language book. Very great book. Still reading it by the way. um And I just found myself that entire winter break. Went back to school, reenergized ah for January and I had joined a mental health club that they just started on on my campus. We call it Project Hope.
00:20:35
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and we have They have meetings biweekly on Tuesdays and we just talked about mental health things and what what what the daily things that college students go through and young adults our age go through. It was very, very helpful. I met some new people in there. I got close to some people and I just relied on my friends really to get through that breakup. We hung out. We did stuff in college. I just lived life basically.
00:21:02
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and just refound my way back to the person I was before that depressive state. And that's what you really gotta do whenever you go through breakups or something happens in your life. You just gotta find yourself again. And you gotta do it your own way. Now see, the way I did it ain't gonna work for everybody else. not Everybody not gonna be able to you know order books and read books and go to therapy for it. you know or have the have friends that really be like okay you can really rely on because not everybody's like the same of course but if you go through it your way your path
00:21:45
Speaker
I believe that you can pretty much overcome anything that life throws at you, but do it at your own pace. Now, I didn't find myself until my birthday again. That's whenever I was perfectly fine with everything and content what what happened. So that was a whole two months. It took a finding myself. so You really kind of found yourself right when we started the podcast then.
00:22:09
Speaker
Basically, I just but pretty much whenever the podcast started, that's when I was fully like really getting back to my normal stuff. That's why whenever you introduced the idea of the podcast, I was like, oh yeah, let's do it. Because I was mentally ready for it that. If you were to introduce that in December, I would have been like, eh, no. Because I was not in a good mental state at that time.
00:22:32
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Everything happens for a reason. Well, I want to segue into a song right now. Everything we're talking about. There's this song by my good friend, Georgia Rain. It's called Do Me. And I'm going to play a little bit of it. So let's get into it. Again, this is Do Me by Georgia Rain.
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Can you hear it?
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I got a 2000 speed on that.
00:23:07
Speaker
What was that?
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Oh, but they got a kid.
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I'ma do me, do me. I can't, I ain't go away.
00:24:36
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And that is Georgia Rain. Do me. I love that record. Where can I find it? It's actually not on so it's not anywhere anymore, so I can send it to you, though. I have it. OK, great.
00:24:48
Speaker
Cause she starts saying it at the end too. Yes. Yes. want i every I want to listen to the full song now. Yes. Yes. Um, but yeah, that's the journey. And do, do me. Um, so just get back into some more dialogue. Um, what do you feel, um, or actually what is the, what is your biggest action? I'm always trying to think much. I question should I ask you, uh, so what is life teaching you right now? You just went through that breakup. You're back to being yourself. You have all these things going, but what is life teaching you?
00:25:19
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to run my own race, be patient because I have to, and I had to learn this the hard way. And this is where really 2024 is. Whenever I got into January is I called it the year of preparation because that that was, I always have a theme for my years.
00:25:40
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And what I meant by this is that this year is gonna set up me for the next two to three years. I'm gonna use this year to rebuild, grow, and do it at my own pace. Because the goals that I had written down five years ago where I wanted to be at at this age, 21, 22 years old, most of those goals, and I'm not even close to doing that. um and Most of them, the ship has sailed.
Lessons in Patience and Life's Timeline
00:26:09
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I had to like learn that life is really teaching me to just do it at my own pace, run my own race. And if you have that mindset in your life, certain things just won't bother you. Certain people won't get under your skin. You'll just be working at your pace because it's your life, it's not anybody else's life. So live it the way you wanna live,
00:26:39
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do what you want to do, chase your dreams, no matter how big or how small they are, and run your race. When you get there, it's going to be on God's timing and not man's timing.
00:26:53
Speaker
and i think Amen. That was the biggest thing I heard. And that was what my pastor said in the New Year's service that I went to the last day of 2023. And that really opened my eyes. That's crazy that you say that because that's like, you're my first guest right now. And it's crazy that you say that because that's literally the whole basis of the podcast. That's really the whole basis of my life coach business and my speaking business. It's about time-based management.
00:27:24
Speaker
um And it's about being on your own timeline. And we like to compare ourselves to other people that are either younger or even older um that have accomplished certain things or whatever, but that's there that's their that's their destiny. That's their path or whatever. That doesn't mean that you're not gonna accomplish anything. That doesn't mean that you're not gonna be great at whatever you're doing in your life. yeah just You're just on a different path. You're on a different lane. So I love that you said that.
00:27:52
Speaker
yep It's already written of what I'm going to do. it just I just got to follow with God's time. that's now you got And I would say, this is so biblical, but you got to see it before you see it. Exactly. It's going to be a vision. It can happen. Exactly. If you can envision it, it can happen. It's going to happen? You just don't know when. just You just got to work for it though. That's all. So this is a new question that I haven't really asked anybody. But if heaven was one moment to be relived over and over, what would your heaven be?
00:28:24
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and Oh, this this is this is a damn good one. oh Man, there are so many moments that I want to relive again. Honestly, man, I think if there is one thing that I want to do again is, and if I can go back and do it again, is being an orientation leader because that experience taught me so much about myself. and And if I can relive it again, and knowing what I know now, it'll be even better than what it was. but The reason why I say that is because college, and I always tell people this, was the best decision that I ever made. If I would have went straight to work, I would have not grew the way I grew because at 18,
00:29:12
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18-year-old me, oh i i sometimes I can't believe I acted like that when I was 18. I'm completely different than what I am they then what i was at at that time. and Whenever I signed up to be an orientation leader, I did not know it was going to change my life the way it did. If I can go back and just redo all that over again, that was one of the greatest year, one of the greatest years of my life, period. like I had so much fun doing that because it changed me so much as a person. I got so much out of it. That's one moment that I will replay if I could. That's awesome. That's awesome.
00:29:55
Speaker
Um, I don't know, like it's funny because I asked you, I like, I'm on the other side of things. I'm asking people the question and some of these questions that I asked, I, I don't think about. So I can, I don't know like if I can give an answer, but that specific question when I came up with it, and I wasn't personally thinking.
00:30:14
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of what my answer would be. But I don't know. I really don't know. I don't know. It was kind of hard for me to specify that because, you know, you can answer that thing completely differently. If I want to personal, I could be like, whenever my, my great uncle was alive. That was, I would go back to that immediately and do more things with him. I kind of wish I was not, you know,
00:30:38
Speaker
I kind of wish I was around him more before he transitioned on. So you can answer that one very, very different ways. I just wanted to like have an answer it with an impactful moment in my life, something that changed me in this decade.
Collaboration in Podcasting
00:30:55
Speaker
And doing that was the most impactful thing that I did this entire decade so far, besides like the the against the ropes wrestling pockets. I think that that's something that I really that really, really changed my outlook on things as well, so. But when I tell you, I wouldn't say that it it's changed my outlook on um things,
00:31:21
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but it made me see, it made me like, how do I put it? It made me, because already knew this thing, but it was just more confirmation that some people just say shit.
00:31:36
Speaker
Yeah, and I don't want to get into too many details because you know exactly what I'm talking about. I know exactly what you are talking about. right But um it just really made me like, you like it made me realize that you like, no matter if I feel that I can get along with anybody. Right. And some people can get along with just anybody. But it it but it also lets you know that you can't go into business with just anybody. No.
00:32:03
Speaker
Um, some people are not in the same, they're not in the same. What's the word I want to use. They're not on the, it's not pages that want to just mature maturity level. Doesn't matter what the age is and the, like your mature individual. Um, but like some things like when you get into certain situations, not everything needs to be a fight.
00:32:27
Speaker
you can have conversations and try to resolve certain situations, no matter who did what to whom. But some people just don't want, they just want to fight with you. Like, and that, that, and it it baffles me. um But I know this, you know, but it was just like, dang, like, you gonna sit here and complain about some shit and you ain't did nothing. Like,
00:32:49
Speaker
It pretty much just showed me that no matter how old you get, some people still are going to act like they're in elementary and middle school. Simple as that. That don't like conflict and that get offended on things, which I don't understand at your big age why you're offended over someone's opinion, but again- What about the other thing?
00:33:13
Speaker
I'm talking about that but that that too. That that was crazy cause i because at the end of the day, I didn't even give my opinion. I asked you a question. But again, some people still can't ask a simple question. Yes. and they They took that and ran away and I you I'm glad you've seen it in real time because how it how like could have read,
00:33:41
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could have been, you know but some people just are sensitive. and And I think that's the biggest thing that I've learned probably this year, even just not with that, with a family member, with social media. Some people don't have the mental bandwidth to be on social media. No, um not not everybody could do deal with it. Yeah, like sometimes things are not that deep. Sometimes we just post things or ask questions and it don't it really means nothing to us. But people get offended by it and it's just like, you're on my page.
00:34:10
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you coming in on my shit, why are you getting offended? Like, just block me if you don't wanna see it or don't respond. Like, so it's just like you, I don't know, people are just. yeah and And like you said, you know, you can't go into business or you can't go into anything with people like that because that's gonna ruin whatever you got going on because they're gonna get, you know, so be sensitive to somebody that says something about somebody they like and now you now you got a big argument on it.
00:34:41
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Yes, and I think- I can't deal with that. No, I'm sorry. No. And I think the biggest thing too is that like, I had this conversation with somebody yesterday, one of my friends or whatever, and I say whatever's on my mind. Me too. I really don't care. However, comma, I feel that like, if you know me, you know that I don't mean anything by anything I say. No.
00:35:08
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I never try to argue. I'm usually the one that's trying to resolve the situation or I'm trying to, you know. um So if you take offense by something that I said, just let me know that you're offended by something I said and then we can squash it and then I can explain to you what I meant. And then, you know, maybe maybe I didn't mean to offend you. Who knows?
00:35:28
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i but Get clarification. like And I feel that some a lot of times with people, they don't. They just run with their perspective of things, and we have to be more open-minded as just people in the world. Exactly. Because your perspective ain't always going to be the right one. Exactly. Perception is reality, but it's your reality. It's not the reality. Nope.
00:35:50
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um But to get into mar so another dialogue question is, so you do so much with podcasting and creating stuff with your YouTube channels and all this other stuff that you're doing.
Advice for Aspiring Creators
00:36:01
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For somebody that would want to get into the similar stuff that you are doing, what advice would you give that person? Well, I don't want to be a pun here, but it's to like create what you want to create. The biggest thing about doing YouTube, yeah doing youtube and podcasting is a lot of people go with trends that are going on is on social media and they run with those trends and eventually you get bored of what you're doing and you quit and don't want to do it anymore if you start off with doing things that you love to do
00:36:38
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and not go into what other people like to see from you, then you're going to enjoy YouTube and social media and interacting with people on YouTube better because you're going to have a passion for what you're doing. It's similar to like whenever people go to college or whatever and they want to major in something, don't major in something that you know that you're not going to like because you're going to be miserable for the next 20 years on a job.
00:37:04
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major in something that you're passionate about, that you can grow into so you can actually enjoy your job. Yes, I know not everybody like going to work, but ah but I know if I don't and i don't like work.
00:37:16
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but I enjoy what I'm doing and I'm getting paid for it, I'm gonna, you know, eventually it's gonna catch on and I get used to my little routine I have. It's the same thing with content creation. Content creation is, it's literally, it is a job. You know, i I get income from both YouTube and podcasting ah individually. um every Every two months, I get a podcast check.
00:37:40
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I get a YouTube check every 60 days. So it's not consistent money, but i so I still treat it as work. I still treat it as business. So whenever you go into business, there has to be a certain way you present yourself. There has to be a certain way think where you do things. And if you want to make money from content creation and make money from YouTube and podcasting,
00:38:05
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you have to learn that you can't do certain things and you can't interact with certain people because certain people can get you to lose fan base, can get you to lose credibility and respect in whatever industry that you are doing and presenting with your YouTube channel and podcast. um So just I think The one person that told me I interviewed this guy, his name is Joshua Gresham. He's my mentor, I call him. He's my mentor for real. Because he put me on for a lot of stuff within our section of YouTube. um And I've been working for his media company for the last four years. so He said it best, stay in your lane. And I didn't know what that meant four years ago when I started working for him.
00:38:56
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But as I worked with him for the last four years and I seen what happened with him, and he he had a big social media mess because of something but something that happened on social media on Twitter that he um they they they people tried to cancel him for. But it didn't work because again, he stayed in his lane and minded his business. And eventually the lies started coming out that the person claimed to be on him.
00:39:22
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you're gonna have to learn to deal with those things whenever you're a content creator. People gonna say things about you every single day. now They're not gonna like your voice, they're not gonna like your personality, they're not gonna like how you look, they're not gonna like what you do. You just gotta, you got you gotta to really have tough skin in this business. Cause if you're sensitive,
00:39:42
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or if you can't take criticism, you're not going to last in this field. I'm going to be honest with you. You better go find you something that will work at somebody's job because content creating ain't going to be for you. Them comments going to flood and people going to say what's on their mind because, first of all, they're behind the screen. Secondly, nine times out of ten unless you're a computer science major, you can't track them. I could, but you can't track them because most people don't know what computer science is.
00:40:09
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And thirdly, they're going to be bold. They're going to express their opinion. So that's things that you're going to have to learn how to deal with in this space. Yep. Awesome. Well, let me get into another song. This is actually my favorite song right now. It's by Corinne Hawthorne.
00:40:32
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And the song is called Relationship and it features Tamala Mann. It's on the deluxe version of her album. If you guys have not gotten her album yet, please go do so. The album is called On God. And she though, sincerely. So let's get into this. The song is called Relationships.
00:41:05
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Then use it, give it directly for yourself.
00:41:17
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If there was never a step of the way If there was no building, church on the hill Still be connected, cause I know my God is real If there were no words written on a page, whatever age he sings it, then it still won't make away is a It's your relationship more than religion. Come on, Tamela.
00:42:14
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a did
00:42:20
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yeah
00:42:34
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That again is my favorite song right now. That's by Corin Hawthorne featuring Tamala Mann and the song is called Relationships. Cough that now. yes I'm adding to my playlist as well. yeah see You got me to add good songs. Yes. because That's what I'm here for. yeah um I wanted to do something with the podcast that's different than what other people do. So I mixed in something that ah right like it literally it's like a therapy session plus a talk show plus a radio show. you know like So I'm trying to give you everything. Beautiful right there. That's great.
00:43:09
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um You did say something earlier in the last question I asked you is that do what you're supposed to be doing, don't do what is trendy. And i i I want to elaborate because I literally, when I first started the podcast, I, what the heck is that? I'll figure it out in a minute. The podcast was called The Rundown with Terrell Garnett. It was completely different. um completely different it was more like ah the Wendy Williams um hot topics I would give stuff or whatever and at the end I'd have like some like coaching tips or whatever and I found that people were actually gravitating towards the life coaching tips more so than the other part which I thought was funny because I would make jokes and everything
00:43:57
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um But that's what they were gravitating towards. So I was like, okay, let me go take a break from this. Let me just rethink this. And then I took a couple months off, I rethought it, and I came back with the Create Your Own Story podcast. And this is what we see. This is what we have now. And I do interviews with people, specific strictly just interviews with people, which I wasn't doing before. And I was able to create a niche. I've created books off of this. I've created like, so it literally it really has taken on a life of its own.
00:44:27
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um And it's something that I enjoy doing um is talking to people. you go So I don't want it to make it feel like it's more than that is talking to people, listening to music. So yeah I remember I did a podcast. I'm sorry, I did a podcast with this artist, Crystal Tamar, like two years ago. And I was saying, yeah. um ah dream is to have my own talk show or something like that at the time. I'm to have my own talk show and um and I wanted to always like help people with music and stuff and she's like oh well then you're living your dream and I'm like what are you talking about and she's all like you have me on your podcast right now which is basically a talk show and we're promoting my music so you're helping me with my music and I'm like oh shit so it goes to show you that like if you
00:45:15
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If you don't take time out and just breathe for a second, you' you'll miss that the things that you want to do in life you're actually doing and you don't even realize it. Yep. Pretty much. That's literally what you're doing. And I'm doing everything that I. Aspired and wanted to do in high school, which was do interviews on people, which was have my own podcast and to talk about wrestling. I'm literally doing everything that I wanted to do as a 14 year old sitting here at 21 years old.
00:45:48
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Yeah. and When I, when we started the wrestling podcast and I did the idea, I um and didn't know what it was going to turn out to be. I just had this idea because we talk up in this group um the chat that we had what we did. ah We talked about wrestling all the time and um we had good banter. um So I wanted to, I wanted to ah just take that off of there. And I'm like, Oh, we could do this in as a podcast. Like, it's a good idea. Like we talking about it. We're young black men. um And I feel like there's a
00:46:29
Speaker
and we're all all of us are different so there's someone there's another kids out there whether they're black or not black that can relate to either our point of view on things or just us as people watching wrestling and we and i feel like for the most part most of us didn't really have too many friends um outside of us that we actually talk to wrestling about. So it's therapeutic, in a sense. It's fun. It doesn't seem like work. we We're literally just shooting the shit. Josh and or whatever you called it. um And we have a good time. Like, you know, and it's not just about wrestling, like we really need to talk about other stuff, too. So it's it's, um, but it, um,
00:47:12
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it I don't know. I love it. So check out our the podcast as well. ah again We had like 20 minutes talking about music. Just this because this was just ran rambling about music and the different types of artists that came out yeah in the 90s and 2000s. It was great. Yes. Yeah. And um yeah, that wasn't even meant to. It was just impromptu and it just happened. That's not scheduled. That's what happens when you have a conversation with people. Exactly. And that's how it's supposed to be.
00:47:39
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Yeah, that happens a lot with me. So I just played a song right now about ah it's called relationships and it's about not, it's not about the church, it's about God. So I have this question that I usually ask most of my guests.
Coltrane's Question for God
00:47:52
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um If you could have 10 minutes with God, what is one question you would ask him?
00:48:00
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Just 10 minutes. Just one question. the the The question that I would ask him is like, What is my purpose?
00:48:13
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that What's so funny about that? Literally, I've had like 80 guests on my podcast or whatever. Out of the 80 guests, I'm pretty sure like 76 of them have said that. What is my purpose? Yeah. And it goes to show you that everybody wants to know what they're supposed to be doing on this world.
00:48:31
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Yeah, because in i again, I have dreams of what I want to do, but I don't know if that is my purpose. Is my purpose to just entertain people through YouTube videos and content creating, being a content creator and working in tech? Or is my purpose bigger than that? Is my purpose me owning my own business and ah creating a diverse work workforce in tech while doing content creating?
00:49:01
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ah So for me, i don't I don't know. So for me, um that's one. That's not my question. And I'll tell you why. I know my purpose. but I've always known my purpose. What I'm supposed to do. So my purpose is so vague. I know I'm supposed to be on the serve to help people. Right. I do that on a daily basis in different types of ways. What I don't know is which way am I supposed to lean in to more and focus on that to be able to help people?
00:49:31
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see that's See, that's it too, because I'm helping people in different ways as well. But which one is supposed to be the main? I don't know. um yeah I'm splitting my time with my help. So that's what I really wanted. If I could have 10 minutes with him, I would ask him, which one should I lean on the most? Or should I just continue doing what I'm doing? My question would be, why slavery?
Discussion on Racial Issues
00:49:56
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and I really just want to know why.
00:49:59
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See, why that's a good one too. Why segregation too? Yeah, yeah you know. So I just want like what we want to know. Because I want to know why those what why was it that that certain group of people just, and still today, they're still so biased and just don't like us. What did we do?
00:50:19
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I don't know. And I think, I think that, and it's not just those certain group of people, it's other races too. But right I could promise you this. I can promise you this. If the tables were turned, they, in they would not be able to overcome what we've overcome. You know, I think that's why we went through it because that's not a reason to go through it. yeah but but No, it's not a reason to go through it, but he knew that we could get, we could overcome it because I, and and I promise you nine times out of 10,
00:50:50
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If, and one one person I watched ah on YouTube and he's he talks about media and he easy media personality, he said this the other night on his live stream. He said, if all the black Americans just stopped working for one day, this country would not know what to do with itself. Exactly.
00:51:12
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We, they will be clueless if we just don't go into work for 24 hours. It don't even gotta be a week, just 24 hours. This country will flip on his head. That's how much power that we have. so um um I'm just being real with y'all. That's the truth. yeah it is why Why do you think that we're always the center of attention and the center of conversation? It's for a reason they can't leave us alone.
00:51:48
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I 100% agree with all of that that you just said. It is what it is. I can't really say much. I have you for a few more minutes. I'm going to play one more song and then ask you one or two more questions. This song, I want to play because I love it so much. It's by the Amores featuring T.A. Thomas.
00:52:09
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And the song is called pick me up. I don't, I just, when I tell you I love this record, I don't know. It's just, I don't know. I love the Amores. If you haven't heard of them, please go get their album. It came out this past, I believe April or May. But again, this one is called pick me up. Let's get into it.
00:52:31
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Pick me up. All right.
00:52:55
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It's actually letting go.
00:53:05
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Do you want from me what I want from you?
00:54:12
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Again, that is the Moors and TA pick me up. And I actually and don't usually do this, but... um I'm going to read some of the lyrics from this song because I was looking at them right now and I'm like, oh, so one of the part of the songs, um, she, or they say, um, or the hardest part of letting go is actually letting go. You got to say something to unblur these lines. And I believe that's so true. Sometimes like you could be over a situation. I feel like people do this all the time. You may not want to be with somebody anymore.
00:54:46
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or they may have hurt you or whatever, but the hardest part is letting go. Like actually letting go. you may like I feel like I see so many people that are in certain relationships, they know that it's not gonna work out, but they still stay in that relationship. Because they can't let go. Because they can't let it go, like they get comfortable. and So this is about how they've let the relationship go. And she goes on to say, I know that sometimes it's uncomfortable. Do you want for me what I want from you? you were set where you sell it Were you celebrated? Was it complicated? Were you devastated when we didn't make it? And she's just asking questions like, when we ended this relationship, like how how did you really feel? And I was going through a tough time in my life, and God sent you to pick me up.
00:55:29
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so Now that I'm up standing straight, do you still want to be here kind of thing? Right. And I think that a lot of people's relationships are like that, where, like you said, i they don't know how to let go. And I struggled with that in the past too, exactly what she's talking about. I found somebody when I was at my lowest, and knew and and when and when I picked myself up, do they still want to be with me?
00:55:57
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And I had got that question what they wanted a kid with me after I picked myself up and I had to say no. And that's why she had left me. So, you know, I completely understand and I not completely get that. um Sometimes you got to make hard choices and hard decisions. I didn't want to leave that girl, but she wanted to have a baby with me and I was not ready for a child. I didn't i didn't have no income. my my my but my My bank account literally said $70.
00:56:25
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when she wanted a baby. i can I couldn't support no baby at that time period. So I had to be a grown man and say no, and she left me for that. You know, at the end of the day, I had to let go. And I did. I let go. um I was like, just not my time to have that. um'm I'm not ready for that. So she can go have it with somebody else. And she did. She had two of them with somebody anybody else. So, okay you know. and Yeah, already.
00:56:53
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oh That's just that just her that just what her life wanted to be. She wanted to have to have kids and I just wasn't ready for that. She wanted to have kids. She wanted to be a baby mama. She is a baby mama because the ah apparently the person that she had the kid with they had to get it.
00:57:08
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so yeah
00:57:11
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um so as we i Sometimes I just want more for people than they want for themselves. Yeah. And that's, a that's, I feel like that's one of my biggest struggles is that when I get close to people, I can see so much potential in them and I want so much more for them or like, oh, do this more and do that more, but I'm not God. I can't help you do go on your journey and and beside you, but I can't walk you through everything that you're supposed to go through.
00:57:36
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And and i think that's the I think that's the biggest trait that all of my friends love about me is that I want more from them. And I don i don't want them to just be mediocre. that that that We always have the conversation. and I don't what want all of us to be mediocre. ah i I expect greater from everybody that's in my circle. And that's why we still remain friends because they know I'm not going to just let them go through like is and be content. No. And they're not going to do the same thing with me. They're going to expect better from me like I'm going to expect better from them. And that's why I'm so close to the people that I'm close with. And the people that that I'm not close with, they just wasn't ready for that.
00:58:19
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simple as that and what do you say What do you say? Be phenomenal or be forgotten? Yes. and That means a lot more than what I i stated ah like on my outro. is That really means that you got to go through every day and put your best foot forward. Or if not, the day is going to go around and you're going to look back and say that you didn't put in the effort to get where you want to go.
00:58:44
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And now what? You're looking at the days passed by, you're just skimming on. It's not how you're supposed to do things. Be phenomenal, be forgotten is you go through, you put everything in the day. You make sure that whatever you want to accomplish that day, you do it no by any means so you can have a better tomorrow.
00:59:05
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well So I just want to thank you so much for joining my podcast. You have me on yours. Um, I need to actually finish listening to the episode cause I listened to half of it and need to post about it. But, um, thank you so much for joining my podcast and being my first guest that welcomed me back. But before I let you go, I have this last thing that I want um all my guests to do. I want you to take this time out right now, talk to yourself right now and tell yourself why you're proud of yourself.
00:59:35
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I'm proud of myself for not giving up, for keep chasing my dreams, for knowing that I have a purpose in everything that I'm doing, and for still doing what you love. Because the old day that you get, sometimes you forget the things that you love. They just skim by because of what you're going through.
01:00:02
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I'm proud that I still do what I love every single day. No matter if it's for an hour, two hours, three hours, I am doing something that I love to do. That is why I am proud of myself today. I love you so much. So tell the people where they can find you.
01:00:22
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You guys can find me, I am on a couple of social media platforms. This might be a while, y'all. This might be a while. So you guys can find me on Twitter at CTP underscore 2025. That is my brand new Twitter account because i some I had legal issues last year that I had to sort out behind the scenes. I had to give you a new Twitter account.
01:00:42
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um Instagram at Coltrane2018, that is my IG, Snapchat, Coltrane2017. You can find me on Discord as well. um I have my own Discord channel and I have my own Discord server, Coltrane Productions, that is where we get all the information on the YouTube channels, social media updates, et cetera. We talk about wrestling in there, we talk about personal life, talk about kind of stuff in there, video games, movies, et cetera, on a on the Coltrane Discord.
01:01:12
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You can find me on my podcast Train Talks. That is where we talk about, we have a podcast. We do a lot of things on that podcast, including interviews. I've interviewed Terrell himself. I've interviewed plenty of other content creators in our Coltrane interview series. As I talked about earlier, you can find me on my YouTube channels Coltrane and the Sean Train Productions. I already explained how those channels are earlier on in the intro. That's where I am all at on all my social media platforms.
01:01:41
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Thank you so much, Terrell. It has been a great conversation. I enjoyed this. Thank you as well. And you can find me, Terrell Garnett, that is T-E-R-A-Y-L-E Garnett, that's G-A-R-N-E-T-T on Instagram. And if you want to be a guest on my podcast, or if you have questions and you want us to just do a blind question reading or anything like that, and we give you the advice, please send those questions in at info at TerrellGarnett.com. And if you want to catch me on Twitter,
01:02:11
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It's underscore at Terrell. That's again, T E R A Y L E. It was nice to be back y'all and we will catch you again next time. Much love. So.