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Overwhelmed by Life's Challenges
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Speaker
Welcome back to another episode of Gather Them Podcast. I'm your host, Jerome, and welcome back. We're back with another week. I did not get to put out my media review this week, but I am planning to continue to work on it and put it out maybe next week or something. i This has been one of the most stressful moments in my life, but I'm also in a state where I'm like,
00:00:37
Speaker
if life is coming to get me, come and get me. Like, I'm really, like, packing them up. Because this shit is just, like, really fucking ridiculous. I just can't even... and i think part of it is this...
Managing Dialysis and a Renal Diet
00:00:51
Speaker
this dialysis thing, which is going fine, I think um something realized as I'm, you know, um just going through this process again um is realizing how hard it is to ah stick to this renal diet and maintain a level of a healthy weight under the guise of under the guise of um still being like, quote unquote healthy or like living a life that is just like, that continues to you know go on, but like it
00:01:37
Speaker
I don't know. It almost feels like sometimes it's like a half-life. i a I really have to describe it. It's like you get some stuff, but then it starts to feel like... It starts to feel like...
00:01:50
Speaker
like every single second of your life, you're just monitoring like everything because your kidneys normally do that. You really can't. You can't just eat everything. You can't just do everything like you got to be um demure and ladylike about the way you eat and the way you did it. is So like I came home, right? And I immediately asked my chat bot like, listen, so we want to get this shit like we want to to like get it we're going to get this shit together. like We're going to get this shit together. So I just was like, okay, well, what can I do um to start like maybe incorporating more potassium in? Because like I feel like even though I'm eat vegan, like primarily plant-based, it's literally rice and tofu sometimes. And I'm like, okay, it's like reminding myself I have to eat for fuel and like...
00:02:47
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this, that, and the third versus just eating like some snacks or whatever. And like, sometimes the snacks are good and then going those long periods of time, sometimes when I don't eat, it just like helps, but it's like, I'm really being forced to slow back down. And I think, um,
00:03:04
Speaker
Something that has been, you know, coming to mind as I i am going through this is the fact that I've been feeling a bit, I'll say I feel a bit stronger in this this time around. um It's not like the last time where last time I was just like, well, what the fuck? Like, don't you know, but like it.
00:03:28
Speaker
feels like this feels a lot more genuine um for me of like taking on this responsibility, being like, okay, this is something I'm really going
Adapting to Health-Related Lifestyle Changes
00:03:38
Speaker
to deal with. And I think that as I'm doing it, it's starting to make me realize like, okay, there's things I'm going to have to cut out of my life or not forever, but like things that I do that I'm not going to maybe do eat, like enjoy, um,
00:03:58
Speaker
as I'm doing this because I'm recognizing the severity of it a lot more. Like, again, when this first happened to me, I was like 23. So like now it feels a little like, okay, I'm thinking about it more. I'm like 10 years older, um you know, like I got to whatever. So like,
00:04:17
Speaker
Long story short, we will move on. But long story short, I think I'm and trying to have fun with the process, enjoy the process a little bit more, enjoy the fact that I have the ability to do it from home versus like going to a center. um I'm treating it kind of like science class because there's a lot, because i I have to know actually like what everything is and like what's going on and like whatnot. um Especially with like the fact that I'm that they didn't. And this is the thing they don't really explain. I i didn't felt feel like they really explained to me the dialysis like
00:05:02
Speaker
They didn't really explain a lot of certain processes to me, I feel like, enough as they're doing now. And I don't know. it can't be that I'm more checked in because I was checked in then. So it doesn't make sense to me that, like, there's things I'll look up or things that I'll, like...
00:05:19
Speaker
because I'm like researching this too, but like there's things I look up or things that they'll say that I'm like, I wonder why no one told me that the first time. That would have made me maybe think about this a little bit harder or like feel differently. But I also wonder if it's like going through that period of depression was like really hard for me to take in that idea that like of like what this means or like what this is um And I also think too, I have like actual things to, um that I care about. Like there's, you know, my friends, my family, my business. I don't know. I'm still gonna work on that. And also, is it just kind of feels different now. It feels like I feel more like energized or more
00:06:09
Speaker
thoughtful about it and the fact that i' like, I really don't want to have another surgery, like again, for real, but I'm going to have to have another surgery like again. So if I want another kidney or it's this forever, um which this isn't fun. um So I'd rather go back um to doing that. And so, yeah, we are going to be getting back on that. It's nice to get the validation that like I'm doing well because I'm always afraid of like messing up and I know that it's me versus like them taking care of me. So I have to be like...
00:06:50
Speaker
a little bit more delicate and slow down and like all of those things. And so it's making me think about a lot more now, I think when it comes to health and wellness and even like getting a kidney isn't like the goal or like the goal to be the final end goal, but to like maintain it and potentially find a cure or like an actual permanent fix because it doesn't make sense that we have like, one, it doesn't make sense to me that we have every organ where we have all these organs in our body and some of them can regenerate.
00:07:33
Speaker
I get that. Like some can, some can't, but the kidneys are like such a vital organ. I'm like, okay, that is pretty like, Evolution kind of fucked us up there. Well, not really. um The US you know did and you know agriculture and things like that, that fucked us up. But the you know fact that like we are not adjusting and more and more people are um going on dialysis. And this is another thing I wanted to say just really quickly is the fact that like um my nurse and I were talking about how people don't want to get their vaccinations and know, you know, recently they said something about measles right now is not, um there's not, you know, you don't have to get vaccinated for it or yeah whatever the hell. And I'm just like, okay, but I got sick because I had pneumonia and it was the fact that
00:08:27
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the pneumonia like turned into a virus or no, not turned into virus. I had a pneumonia and a virus and the virus attacked my heart, which attacked my kidneys. And the then the pneumonia didn't help because I wasn't able to get any rest to like recover. So the pneumonia just kept getting worse. So I wasn't able to sleep. I wasn't really able to eat. um i just felt like a zombie some days. And so I finally got in the hospital and they were like,
00:08:53
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what the hell are you even doing? um And I didn't have insurance. So it's like,
Struggles with Healthcare Access
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well what the hell do you do? You end up just spending like, you know, a million dollars and, you know, and um then you fake you get insurance um because you are poor and you don't know how to um do it yourself. So you have the hospital social worker help you, you know, and the or the financial, I forget what they call themselves, the financial...
00:09:22
Speaker
They weren't like account management or like business or I forget. But like, yeah, you either have them people apply for your Medicaid application or your mod application if you have mod in your state. um But yeah, that's, you know, how that went. And i again, i know more now than I did then. And the caveat too was that I was more stressed then than I am now.
00:09:49
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Because it was a fucking lot going on that that year. Like that year had a lot going on. I don't even know how I made it through that. um But yeah, I also wanted to just say um just really quickly that I saw a couple things that I just wanted to say, like bring up just briefly, like we don't have to stay here. I just wanted to have a minute. Let's see.
00:10:19
Speaker
I don't know what I did with one of the pictures. I took a screenshot of something that I was supposed to talk to y'all about. um Let me just say. Okay, so this is the top thing I did
Humorous Reactions to Nicki Minaj's Golden Card
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want to say. like First off, Nicki Minaj got a gold golden card from Trump.
00:10:37
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like I don't know how that happened. um Someone hilariously said, um What in the Willy Wonka? And I fucking died. That shit was fucking funny.
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um Gigi also saw something else, something about ah a guy that does numerology. And I found, oh, this is what it was. I was supposed to to tell y'all. So I found, I was like, I had a theory, right? About Azealia Banks because, um,
00:11:06
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What was it recently? I had this thought and I was like, it's so wild how she just completely was like, fuck it. I'm not making music no more. And so my thought was like, she, my thought has always been like, maybe she's like secretly a billionaire and she's, or like a millionaire or something. And she, or the ultra wealthy now. And she's like, just away. And I remember she said to me, this comment about,
00:11:32
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what was it? She made the comment that she was a media critic or something to that effect. And I was like, I ended up seeing this guy who's called, his um his name is GG33. He is the numerology guy. So I saw
Azealia Banks, Crypto Predictions, and Numerology
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another video. This is gonna, we're gonna wrap this up. But like, I saw another video on X, formerly known as Twitter and i saw that Azealia Banks was following him. I saw a video of him talking to a guy about the 2026 crypto crash and the be
00:12:20
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twenty twenty seven stock crash and how that's going to be the plan, the game plan for the next, um like, foreseeable future. And I was like, that's actually so fucking smart because and that's literally what I fucking said. um and that's look that's literally what I said. I said that I said it makes more sense for there to be more of a crypto rally around, what was it, the midterms because of, like Trump has to still appease like the crypto bros in order um to even try to get the, at this point, I mean, I think, but even try to get the conservatives to get the midterms. Now, I mean, that's a wild, like crazy theory. And that is a theory, like it's not true or anything. um
00:13:10
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I just had this thought, like, that would be so wild if that happened. But the fact that Azalea Banks is following this man that said this makes me think that, like, she's off somewhere and she's like...
00:13:25
Speaker
living the best life. i mean, she still talks about people or whatever, because like she doesn't see herself now as like the, like she sees herself as celebrity, but she's not that like celebrity or she's not trying to even be like that anymore. So it's like, she sees herself in a new light and and in a new way. and I'm like, I'll hear for it. Right. Cause like, you know, the reads are still fucking funny. Um,
00:13:54
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But I think it's just so funny that I had that thought and I was like, now if this man is fucking right, right? And I'm fucking right. And I'm like, then maybe I'm right about that too. That would be so fucking wild. Anyway, moving on. We're gonna talk briefly. as I keep seeing social media posts about this. So one post that I saw, oh my God, these are so fucking funny. i just wanna say that. um this person too raw too real posted this like how i slept with six straight men married men in one night i can't see it's backwards for me um and i know i just saw it and like but leave me alone
00:14:42
Speaker
But it's so funny, I keep seeing these posts where people are posting this so that people can click on it and that they are then taken to the page where, um or they'll take it to the the the person's post and then they will um have a carousel, a picture carousel of,
00:15:02
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what to do, like, what is ICE, like, what, like, to get people clued in, because honestly, like, social media is kind of like
Social Media Clickbait and ICE
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Speaker
that now. Like, you have to be like, okay, I have to appeal to, like, the aunties or of the unks in order to really, or, like, the checked-out millennials or whatever, because I feel like Gen Z, I don't know if they care about this, but, like,
00:15:25
Speaker
and maybe they do, I don't know. I don't really care about it too much. I cleared and cared enough to click just because I was like, okay, well, let's see how where this goes. But I'm also just kind of like, I'm not disappointed that I clicked it. Like I'm not mad. Like there would be people that's probably like mad that they clicked it. um And they don't know what I says or don't know what I says. And so I just wanted to say a study, it looks like on here.
00:15:54
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is included, where they talk about the number of people that were um sexually assaulted by ICE. twenty Oh, wow, 32 people died in ICE custody 32 people died in ISIS custody in 2025, and six have already died this year. That's fucking crazy. And then children are often separated from their families, forced to bear these conditions alone, which is in like really sad. It's like, I don't know what we're doing anymore. like I don't know.
00:16:26
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like how people can live with themselves like and do this. um Someone said that identifying ICE, um or this, sorry, this person said that identifying ICE, the next picture says that they are often in Fords, Chevrolets, Dodges, GMCs, like type of cars.
00:16:47
Speaker
And the cars are the the cars may be labeled on the door or near with ICE Homeland Security CBP or Immigration and Customs Engagement.
00:17:00
Speaker
Enforcement. ICE agents, ICE agents often use heavily tinted windows to conceal their identities. You can find ice Vehicles license plates at www.stopice.net the sorry w w w dot w w w w dot stop ice dot And then call your senators at 202-242. Sorry, damn. I'm like so fucking tired. end
00:17:35
Speaker
I'm like, I'm going to get together. um Call your senators 202-224-3121. And then there's script here. not going to read that.
00:17:45
Speaker
and then there's a script here i'm not going to read that And then there's some additional materials of know your rights and things like that, um which I think is really important. i People don't, because i and something else that made me like really come back to this was the video about the woman that had ICE show up to our house with the DoorDash driver that ran in the house. um And whether or not that, I don't know if that's true. I feel like I can't trust anything anymore. So I feel like if I share something or if I see something and or if I say something, like even last week in the video when I was like,
00:18:16
Speaker
you know, ChadGBT, tell me like if the mayor wanted the National Guard to come to Philly. I ended up researching it afterwards just to fact check. And that's so funny because I left it in episode. But I went to fact check and she did actually want them here at one time that she wanted the National Guard here. But now she doesn't because I guess tensions are high and like things would be, you know, all you know the next was it. So I don't know. um But yeah, so it is like one of those things where I'm like, I can't really trust anything. So like I do somewhat, and this is like the thing too, where I'm like, I fact check on, I fact check usually with AI using like things like perplexity, if it's like super serious or I'll just like,
00:19:06
Speaker
use Gemini or Google when I'm like on searching Google. um And then if I need to specifically look, I'm already on Google and I can just click on the link and I can just go there if it if I need to.
Anime Viewing Habits and Content Struggles
00:19:18
Speaker
But like, I mean, this is kind of the shit we talked about in school, like not to get too off the rails, but like you can't really trust anything until you verify it. I did want to talk about Kat's two cat's album Kat Burns from The Traitors, but I'll wait on that one because i I did a listen and it's been a couple of
00:19:43
Speaker
And so I wanted to do a re-listen, but I haven't had the chance because again, i haven't had the capacity to take anything super new in. um I've been watching a lot of animes. I did it make an anime episode, but that joint is trash. And i'm it was supposed to come out Wednesday this week.
00:20:00
Speaker
That shit was, it was trash. um I don't, anime is a hard one for me because it's one of the ones where I know the characters and I know its names. It's though It's names mostly like its names. It's sometimes the like places they go to sometimes like the characters that they like, you know, the interactions or something comes up that like maybe a word that like, um I don't know, i just wouldn't know for some reason. And so.
00:20:32
Speaker
it can be like, it'll i come up when I'm like recording where I'm like, damn, I don't know that. Or damn, I don't know that. Or how do I pronounce it? Or what is that? And I'm like, well, remember what happened because like I watched the show, but it's like, I don't want to get the characters mixed up because oftentimes I'll refer to them like instead of, I'll refer to them as like the other character, how the other characters refer to them, which is not the correct way to refer to them because Essentially, i mean, that's you you're not going to fucking know if like I tell you that somebody calls someone sensei and there's like five senseis in the show. it's like, well, how do you describe that person without, you know? So I am working on it.
00:21:18
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We're working. I will say there have been some animes I've been very captivated and taken, you know, I'm a little
Anime Recommendation with Mysterious Dynamics
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Speaker
shocked by. Kaya Chung isn't scary. I saw the third episode that it's interesting. It's like not scary, but like it's scary a little bit.
00:21:35
Speaker
um yeah It's not scary, but it's scary. What else? um Oh, and then the fact that her mom is, well, she has this whole thing going on at her house where i guess her mom is,
00:21:48
Speaker
I don't know what's going with her house and her mom and her dad is like bewitched. It's the weirdest thing. um But I would highly recommend, like it's a very, very good anime. um The guy So here we go, because I'm working.
00:22:07
Speaker
My brain is trying to cook. um The guy that ends up, I guess, that seems to be stalking her does have a backstory. Like, it's not super creepy.
00:22:17
Speaker
and it's creepy, but it's not like super, it's not as creepy as we were thinking it is. um So I'm excited to see where how that continues to role play out. But it seems like he knows things about her or maybe is trying to get someone else to help because he doesn't know how or when or what. it like The occult journalist guy, what was his name? It was like Modo, mua Mondo or something like that. I can't really remember. See, this is the part where I'm like, y'all are gonna like beat my ass. um And I don't right now have the the capacity to just like sit on my phone and be like, pause doto on this for like that, like right now. um
00:23:06
Speaker
we are We are, we're worked. um But I have been playing video games too.
Video Game Experiences: Star Wars and Batman
00:23:13
Speaker
I've been playing, and that's what I've been doing instead of like watching other like TV. I was watching Salt Lake City. um The girls, you know, they're are wild. um But I've been watching that in passing.
00:23:27
Speaker
I haven't really watched a movie as of late. um That's been something I've been, I wanted to watch him, but I haven't watched that. But I'm playing video games. I've been still working my way through Digimon. I imagine that's just gonna take a long time. so I'm gonna continue with that.
00:23:42
Speaker
um What else? I'm also playing, i'm playing Outlaws. um Star Trek, no, Star Wars Outlaws. Y'all will, oh my gosh, if I said Star Trek.
00:23:54
Speaker
um Star Wars. They essentially have the gold version right now for... I think it's like, well, it was for when I brought it. I don't know if it is now. It was like last week, but they had it for, what was that, $39.99 or something like that or $29.99. I can't quite remember. But I saw that the regular standard version is $69.99 still, which is like, that's fucking ass. Because I've had that game on in my demo list since I want to say...
00:24:31
Speaker
maybe last year, beginning of last year, maybe end of, I don't know when the game exactly came out, but it's been out for a while. So the fact that it is like $70 still is wild. And then it was $30 for the goal. And then I think the highest one or the standard or platinum or whatever it is, was like $129.99. I was like, I don't like Star Wars that much to pay that price. But I was like, okay, let me give it a try. It's like pretty good. And then now I found out you don't play with lightsabers too. So I was also like, I'm not going to pay that price if I can't do that.
00:25:08
Speaker
um i I asked the internet and the internet says you can't. i was like, let me just play this game. Let me check it out. Let me see what, how it goes. um I do like it a lot. Like I was surprised that I'd like it as much as I do, but I like these kinds of games. I like the single player, like solo games. I think sometimes the, um,
00:25:32
Speaker
Shooting mechanics can be very annoying because you can't. I'm getting better at aiming. I think that's what it is. It's the aiming is getting better. um I'm trying to, I guess, get a better handle on the controls. I am working my way through three games, by the way. So like, you know, we have to keep switching the brain. But.
00:25:54
Speaker
Something that is really fun about it is I i love that we get to um have, i guess, the little like, i don't even know what the creature is called. Like, I didn't even really pay. guys This is what I mean. Like, I'm like just playing a game. It's like running along and like fighting with you or like stealing and like,
00:26:18
Speaker
pickpocketing the people. um I think it's like really, really ah fun and like interactive that like it's like a two, plant like a two, like you have an assistant or like a partner. And I liked it. Like I like games where you have a little partner that can like do extra things or distract and like um throw out like, you know, different things. um So yeah that's been, that's been fun.
00:26:46
Speaker
And to my surprise, like, pretty good. Like, I'm working my way. Working my way downtown. Next, I'm playing... I circle back to Batman, Arkham, Return to Arkham, which is okay. Like, it's like...
00:27:03
Speaker
That game gives me so much vertigo because of the running that it makes me just feel like I have to lay down. Like, I don't know why the controls are that way. My friend told me I need to switch them, um but I just feel like i shouldn't come that way. Like it shouldn't come where I have to like run with the joystick and, or walk with the joystick and then press the X button to run. Like that doesn't make sense to me.
00:27:29
Speaker
Um, so we're not, I'm, I'm working my way, but it gives me like wild vertigo and I have to remember I can switch that. So when I go back in, I'll, I'll, ah I'll adapt. Um, cause I think the controls were just really wonky all over that game, but it's a really fun game. I do want to say it is really fun. Um, and I haven't really needed to look online to like figure things out. Like, so it's been a game where I feel like I can play it and it's not,
00:27:55
Speaker
anything that's too, and that's been Star Wars too right now. Like it's been very straightforward. Like I don't have to do too much or like, you know, try too much or whatever. Like it just feels like it's as long as I am like playing the game and I'm doing what they need me to do. Cause sometimes in Star Wars, I literally would just be like, okay, I'm just gonna, you know,
00:28:21
Speaker
not do the right thing and then these things are going to run out at me and then i'm just going to keep fighting um instead of just sneaking around because i it's just for fun like i just feel like the sneaking around part is like what you would do in real life so i'm like in a video game like what else would you do you would just i don't know you would just i guess you would try to be smart but i and guns blazing never really works it never works ever every time so I yeah I don't know I've been trying though I've been trying to be more in alignment with maybe what they're trying to get me to do but sometimes they'll ask me to do stuff like oh do you see the camera right there or oh do you see that like um I don't know that like guard over there or whatever and they're like looking maybe and I'm or the you know like whoever it is and I'm just like okay but like
00:29:18
Speaker
I didn't really see it, you know, so I need a better quality TV. I do need that. But yeah, I've been having a fun with Star Wars. um Despite the, you know, TV problems, I guess.
00:29:35
Speaker
That was actually a really good media corner. Like we didn't really do. um We did better than thought on that.
Embracing Self-Care and Adulthood
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Speaker
um And lastly, the only thing I just wanted to focus on, I guess kind of my final thought um is how I'm maintaining right now, which this isn't going to be a final, like a really long final thought is going to maybe just be ah from the dome.
00:30:01
Speaker
I guess. um But I've been thinking about more the ways I've been taking care of myself and how I've made it through surviving a lot of the things I've gone through. And i think one of the things that I've really focused or began to focus more so on was like eating healthier,
00:30:28
Speaker
trying to take myself more seriously because I don't know if I've always have. I always felt like other people took me super serious, but I've always come as this person that's been focus on like enjoying life, having fun, things being good all the time or things being, you know, well all the time and not embracing the parts that are difficult or uncomfortable. And in that, I think that I am feeling a little bit more adult as I do it. I don't feel as
00:31:13
Speaker
I remember I told someone like I could never identify as like an adult. Like that denver that never really felt good for me because I felt, I see so much magic or like wonder or like I have so much hope and optimism and like things like that in the world that like to me, it made it feel like the sad parts were like,
00:31:41
Speaker
like temporary or that they could just go away or that they, we would just, you know, move past it or get over it. And I think that I just be stressed. Like people be like, I'd be stressed. Like my blood pressure be high as hell sometimes. So it would just be like, well, I can't have salt if I'm going to be like stressed. So I can't be, yeah, I got to reduce my stress. um So yeah, I need to get back out.
00:32:07
Speaker
That's it.
Conclusion and Social Media Handles
00:32:09
Speaker
I thank everyone for listening this week to Gather Them Podcast. You can follow me on the socials at Gather Them Pod on IG, Instagram, X, formerly known as Twitter.
00:32:22
Speaker
And I guess not TikTok, but like, I don't know. Like, we're going to see. I don't know. We'll see. Because I feel like with TikTok right now, my thing is, my issue with TikTok is that I feel like y'all are going to go back and y'all are going to like start sending me TikTok links and y'all going to be like, you know, da, da, da, X, Y, Z, see this, do this and da, da, da, da. And I've been like observing the app to see if the algorithm is broke, which I think it was at first, but it seems to be right now after. And this was like, after all in one swipe, I just kept had to keep going down to see how broke it was.
00:33:00
Speaker
And you can send me emails at gather them pod at gmail.com. And that's it. After this, I am going to eat something really great. I don't know what I'm going to eat yet, but it's going to be really, really amazing.
00:33:17
Speaker
And I cannot wait. Bye.