When I attempted to take my own life a few years ago, i didn't realize at the time, but I didn't actually want to be dead. I thought I did.

All I wanted was for the pain to stop.

I need to give you an understanding of who I am in this conversation. i am a suicide survivor. I am a carer for a direct loved one who has survived a suicide attempt.

I've lived with suicidal ideation myself, and I've also lost people, particularly one person that we're going to speak about today.

I didn't understand when I attempted to take my life that the pain that I was feeling was not going to end with my end.

It would linger on in the people around me.

I want to talk about that today. It's a hard discussion and it's a difficult discussion.

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The pain of suicide lingers after you're gone | Mark MI Words #mentalillness #PTSD

Mental illness doesn't just destroy your todays, doesn't just destroy your tomorrows. It also destroys your memories, your past.It's something that a lot of people don't understand or comprehend when they're dealing with their trauma. You have to identify that:mental illness that is lying to you about your todays, saying you don't have a today, you only have pain.Mental illness is lying to you about your future. You don't have a future. All you have is pain.Mental illness also distorts your past.If this episode had a theme song - it's this one by ICON FOR HIRE. The song is 'Only a memory' and it's a powerful reminder that our yesterdays are not who we are. We decide what our future will be. Only A MemorySUPPORT US NOW. See below for how.Check the website ⁠markmiwords.com.au⁠Buy the Shirts ⁠markmishirts.com⁠Buy the book ⁠https://www.amazon.com.au/dp/B09BC229P1/ref=sr_1_14?dchild=1&keywords=shattered+the+book&qid=1627454085&sr=8-14⁠ #ShatteredThePodcast #Podcast #STP #PTSD #PTSDsymptoms #CPTSD #cptsdrecovery #domesticviolence #suicide #depression #mentalhealth #anxiety #sad #suicideprevention #love #mentalhealthawareness #depressed #mentalillness #suicidalSpotify ⁠https://open.spotify.com/show/3BVQmO16Isxhu8ra2DTwPQ⁠ ⁠https://podcasts.apple.com/au/podcast/shattered-the-podcast/id1551737334⁠


PREVIEW- My memories are killing me | Mark MI Words #mentalillness #PTSD

Mental illness doesn't just destroy your todays, doesn't just destroy your tomorrows. It also destroys your memories, your past.

It's something that a lot of people don't understand or comprehend when they're dealing with their trauma. You have to identify that:

 * mental illness that is lying to you about your todays, saying you don't have a today, you only have pain.

 * Mental illness is lying to you about your future. You don't have a future. All you have is pain.

Mental illness also distorts your past.

If this episode had a theme song - it's this one by ICON FOR HIRE. The song is 'Only a memory' and it's a powerful reminder that our yesterdays are not who we are. We decide what our future will be. Only A Memory [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lUJrf2ccvzY]



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My memories are killing me | Mark MI Words #mentalillness #PTSD

Mental illness doesn't just destroy your todays, doesn't just destroy your tomorrows. It also destroys your memories, your past.

It's something that a lot of people don't understand or comprehend when they're dealing with their trauma. You have to identify that:

 * mental illness that is lying to you about your todays, saying you don't have a today, you only have pain.

 * Mental illness is lying to you about your future. You don't have a future. All you have is pain.

Mental illness also distorts your past.

If this episode had a theme song - it's this one by ICON FOR HIRE. The song is 'Only a memory' and it's a powerful reminder that our yesterdays are not who we are. We decide what our future will be. Only A Memory [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lUJrf2ccvzY]



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Driving around Canberra the last couple of weeks, I've been really impressed with how many stickers I've seen in the back of utes and trucks and stuff saying 'IT'S NOT WEAK TO SPEAK'.

I'm so pleased that I'm starting to see this around and i want to dive in because I just want to give you my two cents worth on why I believe that speaking about your pain, about your hurt, about your depression, about your anxiety is one of the bravest things that you can do.

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It's not weakness to ask for help | Mark MI Words #mentalillness #PTSD

Driving around Canberra the last couple of weeks, I've been really impressed with how many stickers I've seen in the back of utes and trucks and stuff saying 'IT'S NOT WEAK TO SPEAK'.

I'm so pleased that I'm starting to see this around and i want to dive in because I just want to give you my two cents worth on why I believe that speaking about your pain, about your hurt, about your depression, about your anxiety is one of the bravest things that you can do.

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Falling down... failing... backsliding... whatever you want to call it does not make you weak.

Falling down is a natural part of the learning process.

So, it is with mental illness. The journey is not going to be in a neat line. There will be downs. There will be falls.

but this does not make you weak. You ARE only weak if you DON'T get back up.

Look how far you've come. You have fallen but you are still going.

THIS IS A VICTORY! it may not feel like it, but it is.

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It's not the fall that makes you weak.... it's the not getting back up | Mark MI Words #PTSD

It's not the fall that makes you weak.... it's the not getting back up | Mark MI Words #mentalillness #PTSD

You know, when you talk to people about mental health, you’ll hear all kinds of takes about psychologists. Some folks absolutely swear by therapy and counselling, while others are more hesitant or even sceptical, maybe because of a bad experience or just different beliefs. It’s only natural—everyone’s got their own story and background that shape how they see mental health support.

Let me share where I’m coming from. I hear people say psychologists get it wrong, that they misdiagnose, or just don’t get what you’re going through. I really do get those concerns. But at the end of the day, what matters to me is what actually works—the real-life evidence, you know?

From my own experience, going to see a psychologist was the best step I could have taken. Honestly, I owe so much to two incredible psychologists who helped me turn things around. Without them, I’m not sure where I’d be today.

Funny enough, the people who helped me in the end weren’t the ones I was sent to first. When I got injured, I got referred to psychologists who’d spent decades working with veterans. Because my case was labelled PTSD, I guess they figured I’d fit right in. But since I wasn’t a veteran, it just didn’t click—they didn’t really relate to what I was dealing with. That experience taught me something important: finding the right mental health professional, someone who really gets you, makes all the difference.

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Why Psychologists are awful... but necessary | Mark MI Words #mentalillness #PTSD

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