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doja_matt: All right. Okay.
logan36: Okay, there we go
doja_matt: Yeah. Um, all right well we can get started um But bitches. Uh...
logan36: Hey slots.
doja_matt: Hey sluts. um All right, so we're... We're getting started. Obviously, we're figuring this out as we go. at at some point I'm envisioning like a cute little intro for every episode that you guys will get it'll be like a cute little jingle
logan36: we We yes, we do need a good jingle
doja_matt: Mhm. So anybody. jingly um talented or uh creative like that hit us up if you want to help out with some big 5d energy tunes to get um
logan36: Yes.
doja_matt: people grooving for the the intro.
logan36: to get things going.
doja_matt: Torah. Mm hmm. But yeah, I mean, really are. Point of these is like we have Five hour, four hour. phone calls me and logan like just catching up so many times a week We're like, damn.
doja_matt: People need to hear this because it's funny. And. we just had these realizations we're like why don't we just make it silly And. Record what we can. um
logan36: yeah
doja_matt: Because like so much happens to us every week or every other week when we catch up. and all our realizations and and whatnot and so um We're figuring out a rhythm and a flow ah eventually. You guys will... will
logan36: We're like realizing things. What is the... um What did Kylie Jenner say that everyone thought was so funny? She was just like, oh, this is the year of realizing things or something. so
doja_matt: and Well...
logan36: It just made me think of that.
doja_matt: Kylie Jenner's right. um And. And comes right to, like... people don't want to work these days and She's right.
logan36: They don't.
doja_matt: I don't wanna work.
logan36: I don't.
doja_matt: I don't know.
logan36: Yeah, I i get it.
doja_matt: We're over this night. And and the 5D...
logan36: but
doja_matt: People don't work nine to five. That is like. Right. Tilly and overlord. Whatever. Shit, we won't even get into that. um Bye.
logan36: It's just a social construct so that people can... be a slave to the system, so to speak. so
doja_matt: Yeah, and just like... locks you from all these like limited beliefs of like oh you have to do this and this is the most you can do in life and then when you break free from it you're like whoa life is so much more fun and expansive and kind of really you know our goal of this podcast is one like in a way we want our friends just to catch up and hear what we're up to but also to kind of like Guys, no, life can be so fun. Like don't.
doja_matt: think life has to be so limiting. um You can do whatever. You just need to feel safe. And be delusional and... do what you want like be a little kid at all times um so that's like
logan36: Peace.
doja_matt: and if we can make one or two of our friends realize that or you know feel something after you're listening to us like That's really the goal here is like.
logan36: then
doja_matt: to wake you bitches up.
logan36: Mission accomplished.
doja_matt: Yeah.
logan36: So...
doja_matt: Because... Yeah, because, you know... we're moving to the 5d at some point and i don't want my friends and those listening to stay in the 3d were you feel anger and all those dense emotions like The 5D is going to be lit. Everyone's going to be happy.
doja_matt: Nobody's gonna have to work. and AI will do everything for us, but if you stay in the 3D, then like AI will kill you. So...
logan36: oh Apparently.
doja_matt: So. Yeah, so figure it out.
logan36: Thank God
doja_matt: Wait, I don't know about this another day, but apparently like...
logan36: still
doja_matt: There was this guy at. Gemini, no, Claude or something, and he is a... what's called a whistleblower and he's like AI is going to destroy the world in five years or something like that, which Logan is 2030.
logan36: We can only hope so.
doja_matt: Mm -hmm Yeah, so Logan will catch you up on like...
doja_matt: You know, our lives aren't perfect.
doja_matt: like yeah san diego is amazing but there are some weeks where i'm like going through it and you know like we are new people that have to new cities and sometimes we are lonely and i was talking to logan i was like logan stop talking and let's save this for when we catch up tonight because you know Um,
doja_matt: I guess Logan will share.
logan36: Yes.
doja_matt: share more about it but like you and it Yeah, I guess I'll kind of let... Logan talked more about it, but that's really... Where we were going to start is. um You know, just kind of like. catching everybody up on our moves and everything we've learned and just kind of ego deaths you know whatnot and and go from there Really?
logan36: yeah we Yeah, we were talking earlier and we were just like brainstorming really where to take this particular episode, we we knew that we wanted it to be.
logan36: more spiritually focused. We're going to be alternating between spiritual episodes and then pop culture based episodes. And.
logan36: I was saying something. along the lines of I almost feel... Disingenuous. making this particular episode tonight because I have just been so Like in such a rut the last couple weeks. And so I just.
logan36: thought it was almost kind of quote -unquote funny that We'd be speaking about spirituality while I'm like... have been so miserable but but um you know that is just a part of
doja_matt: Mm -hmm
logan36: life like not everything is going to be perfect all the time and i feel like my My personal brand is very much like...
logan36: rainbows and butterflies and Like, I'm a little i'm a little more... i try to be anyways a little more like Katy Perry than Lady Gaga but but that's
doja_matt: Wait.
logan36: it's Not how...
doja_matt: People hate Katy Perry.
logan36: that's i don't care i love katie and so i just love her her bubblegum pop aesthetic and i just feel like
doja_matt: It's good. Ugh.
logan36: Even if you are... applying spiritual practices into your life it doesn't mean that your life is always going to be perfect but you can still Um, apply spiritual practices into your life and it will help steer the ship in the right direction, so to speak. But life is...
logan36: challenging and Things happen and that's totally okay. So Um, So i I think we'll probably just be utilizing this as like the launch pad for tonight's episode.
logan36: um And then I know. Matt was thinking about like...
doja_matt: Oh I have a lot that we can go over.
logan36: Ta - Talking about just all the things we've learned ah in our time since.
doja_matt: oh
logan36: uh since living since leaving dallas but also Just... you've moved like how many times already in your life so you've moved around a lot
doja_matt: Yeah, like... Yeah, like ah i I was in Air Force One. My dad was in the. in the Air Force who's a pilot, and so... Yeah, like I'll talk about how. you know it's so interesting the timing and we'll jump into ask partography and kind of introduce that and at some point we're gonna we'll have an episode about that but yeah like dude we have so many ideas We're like, where do we even find the time to go over all these? Like, we'd like to do one spiritual thing, like episode a week and then.
doja_matt: you know, the other episode be like pop culture updates and then we want to like also go over like do drag race um What's it called? like reviews and...
logan36: Like a recap.
doja_matt: Yeah, like a recap and housewives and. and stuff like that so we're figuring it out you know Uh. Nine to five kind of limits us in a lot of ways. you know My life's a little different. I've been like, woo, I'm so cool. i free from the nine to five. I have a story for that from. everybody else for the universe paid me out and manifesting is So real, you...
doja_matt: Bitches need to get on it.
doja_matt: um I don't hopefully like. so Obviously, we've had issues trying to upload to Spotify, hopefully. Apple and Whatever else isn't. we'll We'll get uploaded to YouTube and stuff too. um Hopefully when I...
doja_matt: call y 'all and whatnot it doesn't flag that um So...
logan36: We'll see. Yeah, I think it's okay.
doja_matt: Yeah, we'll we'll figure it out. um But yeah, like... So many things. and that's why we wanted to start you know recording our conversations because like we have these talks and end up being really deep and then It's like what comes out of my mouth is like this weird flow state where I'm like.
doja_matt: Is the Holy Spirit like coming through my mouth? Am I like...
doja_matt: Am I speaking like...
logan36: You're channeling.
doja_matt: yeah i'm channeling like just really good advice for these realizations um And then Logan just himself. literally has like the the voice and personality. built for He's so good at like talking to people to like just ask all the right questions where he can get so much from them. And I think anybody that's met Logan.
doja_matt: understands that like he's really enjoyable to speak with do you get this level of connection with them and then Kind of like my gift is. I like to make people feel cozy and comfortable and and
logan36: Yes. It's the cancer in you.
doja_matt: and be Yeah, I'm Cancer Moon, Cancer Sun. Virgo rising. Logan Iervos. Virgo rising. So like.
logan36: Yes.
doja_matt: very particular in a lot of ways. um But in in different ways, too. Like, poor Logan. We were supposed to start this podcast at 8, and I'm like, oh, we need do to do 9. We're just kidding, 9 .15.
doja_matt: Okay, now it's like 9 .45 and we're started, so.
logan36: And. I am the biggest. time freak like that is My like one of my number one things is just being very punctual
doja_matt: hey And. Yeah, and everybody that knows me.
logan36: and And Matt's the opposite.
doja_matt: Yeah, everybody everybody knows I like to be late. um ah So so it's it's funny, but we're we're figuring it out. Like, we are going to get in a rhythm. um making this more formalized but like this is yeah this is like how we're going about this. like
logan36: Yeah.
doja_matt: So. yeah like nothing really is as it seems i'm sure it seems like we're trying our hardest and it's so structured on the other side but it's like us figuring this out logan's talking to ai trying to get it to edit this and ai does it wrong he's like Getting in an argument with AI.
doja_matt: just to to make those little clips that we post.
logan36: i I... I... Absolutely. Yeah, I fight with the AI bot that makes the social media clips because I want it to have a specific aesthetic and when it doesn't give me the specific aesthetic that I want.
logan36: I get very upset. So um it's just, you know, it's part of learning how.
doja_matt: Yeah. and
logan36: to do this, which is
doja_matt: Yeah. and
logan36: totally fine so
doja_matt: And Logan, like... Kudos to Logan, he's been doing a lot of the the work when he initially... had this idea back in like Very beginning of May, I remember that my parents and... uh Prescott and he We're having ah another, like, five -hour talk, and he's like... Matt, like, would you actually be down to do this.
doja_matt: And I was like, i think so let me get back to you and then i was like honestly yeah let's let's do it but logan you're gonna have to do a lot of the work at first which he's been Honestly doing it.
doja_matt: Just. AI and him are not clicking. So like he.
doja_matt: He better get it together in the next few years before he's in the timeline where... They choose to kill him instead of help him. um
doja_matt: But yeah, that's like that's literally what's going on behind the scenes here. like We're not perfect. And... This is what you guys are getting.
logan36: Far from it. Yeah. but um i think let's talk a little bit about the astro cartography because i that really resonated. with me and so with the astro cartography Basically, I would liken it to... astrology but like on a map.
logan36: So whenever we are...
logan36: born, there are What is it called it's latted latitudinal long Longitudinal? Is that how you say it? ah The latitude and longitude.
logan36: What is it? Longitude?
doja_matt: Well, I...
logan36: Longitude lines.
doja_matt: I won't even. Say it like that. like Logan got C's and D's in in high school. But. Yeah.
doja_matt: but uh so essentially the way i would describe it and you guys can like look it up, but it's... so astrology it's like you know where you're born the time you're born like you know Um,
doja_matt: you know, location, the year, everything. so you know like your son is you know i'm a cancer so that's like june 21st through july 19th or something like that. so that would make that's my sun placement and then you have your moon which is also like where the moon was. And that's also, for me, a cancer. some double cancer sun and moon and then you're rising is where what time you were born, so where the sun was.
doja_matt: when you're rising and so that as a virgo and I honestly think the way it works is. Your true personal personality is your sun, so your cancer. Your moon is kind of like... your witchy side who you are when nobody's around kind of like who your soul kind of wants to be, little kid -wise, silliness -wise. And then your rising is like...
doja_matt: Obviously, people say that's how you're interpreted. But to me, it's actually the skill set you were given to... live life. So for me i analyze everything through vertical lenses which is like details whatever like I put things away at the same spot, like a very particular kind of OCD about certain things and organized. Kind of like how Logan is with time.
doja_matt: Like. But I... But I'm a Cancer, so I like to be cozy and silly and... comfortable and Time isn't my - thing but Essentially. To get back on topic with.
doja_matt: astro cartography, it takes in astrology. And. of essentially you know, like how I describe my sun, moon, and rising. it does that with the earth, so like where you are on earth.
doja_matt: Like. will be different for you. so There's different lines that go over the earth. And there's the Sun line, Moon line. the venus line mars line mercury saturn etc like all the planets so You know, when you go into uh what's it called logan the one that's like gay oriented app that everybody uses.
doja_matt: It'll tell you your birth chart.
logan36: Co -co -star?
doja_matt: Co -star. So everybody go on a co -star.
logan36: oh
doja_matt: It shows your birth chart there. um You can go into Gemini or whatever AI thing and say, hey. These are the details of my birth when I was born, etc. Can you tell me? Where are the best places for me to live? like what lines cross through what city, like which city should I live in if I want to find love, if I want to make money, if I want to find. career success, etc. Because Mercury lines, Venus lines, Sun lines, etc. go over the earth, but it's different for everybody.
doja_matt: so it takes in your astrology of like the time and place you're born So there's some places. that are really hard for you.
logan36: Yeah, the latitude and longitude line.
doja_matt: And... so What?
logan36: Yes.
doja_matt: But those lines don't go just straight. horizontal and vertical, they're like... Like. very weirdly shaped around. Because like. the earth orbits and so those other planets orbit so like the lines aren't just straight horizontal, vertical, they're like.
logan36: hang
doja_matt: all over the place. So... Um, So it's not as simple as like... Horizontal vertical. But people can look it up. We'll have a different episode to dive a lot more into it.
doja_matt: And. I'll explain kind of like how. my trajectory was and i had these realizations i've had the wildest two weeks like My mind is so expansive.
logan36: Same.
doja_matt: Yeah, Logan's been going through it. but um Like ice for my mind is on to so many things and i'll talk more about it but like i guess logan if you you know, what you've kind of been going through in Seattle and what you had noticed about. your astro cartography lines like which planet lines for going through it and kind of how it explains like whoa you know It is weird how in some cities.
doja_matt: You go through it. But you can learn a lot.
logan36: Yes. Yeah, so I moved from um From Salt Lake City.
doja_matt: Well...
logan36: Before i I came here.
doja_matt: I mean, Dallas and then. salt lake city i'd kind of almost explain like salt lake city too and then
logan36: Yeah.
logan36: and the the vibes in Utah were they were not vibing and I actually thought that I would have more and common with people from from there since i grew up mormon yeah but But that wasn't really the case.
doja_matt: Yeah, you grew up. You grew up Mormon. You thought you were going to, yeah.
logan36: And so I...
doja_matt: Mm -hmm
logan36: didn't even like do a full 12 months there i shortened like my lease just a little bit. um And so I was looking at the astro cartography lines. Like.
logan36: for my date of birth and
doja_matt: Well, you
logan36: Salt Lake City.
doja_matt: Did you do that before you moved to Seattle or after you moved to Seattle?
logan36: After I moved here. Because i haven't I haven't been really loving the Seattle vibes either.
doja_matt: Okay, yeah.
logan36: um and so through Utah, there is a... For me anyways, there was a... Mars line and having a Mars line.
doja_matt: mm -hmm
logan36: is like one of the most intense like growth, transitionary struggle. times and Um...
logan36: and so that definitely was very on point for me and in salt lake city um and then here in seattle there's a saturn line which is
doja_matt: But. but with a
logan36: not like amazing, but it's not. It's not terrible either.
doja_matt: Yeah, let me... See if I can.
logan36: but
doja_matt: yeah i'm gonna try and look up real quick like Uh... What are the. Mars and... Saturn.
logan36: The... One of the best lines is a sun line.
doja_matt: Saturn line.
logan36: So to have a sun line go through a particular city is is very ideal.
doja_matt: Mm hmm. Well.
logan36: And that's supposed to be one of the best locations for like finding. love and success in your career and things like that.
doja_matt: Well...
logan36: so
doja_matt: Well, ah I mean... So let me real quick say, so the Mars line represents drive, action and intensity. um Like. There's gonna be a lot for you to do but it's like it'll be hard like A lot can change for you, but it's not going to be easy. And then Saturn lines represent discipline, structure, and hard work. So they're kind of similar in that sense. um There's better explanations. You guys should totally look it up. and
doja_matt: I'll let Logan kind of explain what he's been going through in Seattle. And then we remembered, oh my God, wait. the astro cartography kind of like Said this, whatever.
doja_matt: But like... Like for me. In Dallas, my Sun line went through there. I had a Saturn line. and a Mars Lion and Gemini. when it looks at this it will kind of explain things for you and it's so accurate, like my time in Phoenix.
doja_matt: my time in Dallas, my time in Albuquerque, Tucson. Alabama, Montgomery, and then How? Peace. san diego's been for me it's like so Spot on. But I had my son thing.
doja_matt: My son and I go through Dallas where it's like, oh, like. you know, you'll really Be like who you are there um but you're also i also like my margin saturn might go through there and saturn's all about like It's a tough line to live there, and same with Mars. and basically it explained like you're gonna really become like who you are And you're going to. go through it essentially.
doja_matt: but and learn a lot of lessons. But. The lessons are worth it. It's like... taking ap calc in high school like It's fucking hard. But. It's...
doja_matt: That'll get. edit it out for whatever whenever we post on youtube i don't know for a lot of cuts but um
logan36: Oh, we can curse.
doja_matt: Eh.
logan36: It's fine.
doja_matt: Okay, cool. So. for me it was like an ego death and i was like oh my god so accurate i i'll talk more about my realizations of high chains from when i lived in alabama to new mexico to Arizona to...
doja_matt: Texas, but... It was like this version of who I thought I was at 23. changed so much. So when I was 29 or 30 when I moved and the ego death I had and becoming much more the version of who I actually am, like back to who I am. I was like, oh my God, that was so accurate for.
doja_matt: That and then moving to San Diego my Mercury line. and almost venus line and then sunlight so it's like oh you get to still really be yourself uh but your mercury line is all about communication and being seen and so like people really get me and understand like my words slap here like people get it what i'm saying um like there's not like a miscommunication And then...
logan36: yeah
doja_matt: I'm close to my Venus line. Um... So, you know, like romance and stuff like that it's kind of like But there's more to it. Venus is also about. Um, luxury and treating yourself and living how you want to be and if you guys could see my apartment the way I've decorated it it's so Fucking baby. Let's see if...
doja_matt: you guys can like get a little glimpse of it but it's like doing things that you want to do. for yourself. And when I lived in Phoenix, that's when I dated to Really great. partners and i was like wow like in phoenix really was and Tucson across through Tucson. It was like, whoa, like.
doja_matt: you know, two really important relationships and my venus line went through it and now san diego's kind of by the venus line but i'm like i totally see the mercury line aspects of people getting me and that's why logan and i were like oh I was like, let's do the podcast because I think people will hear me. and get it.
logan36: Yes. And i I would imagine it's also the way that you are. Like how you're wording things and... Um, Like having a certain cadence when you speak and things like that, like that's important as well. um So I'm sure everything is just like...
doja_matt: Yeah.
logan36: hitting for you right now, so.
doja_matt: and Well, and I think... and what Like I was saying how I went into Dallas. one version of myself. but left. a different version of myself which i think is a lot more Truly who I...
doja_matt: Came up. to be on earth and who i kind of naturally am so people in san diego get this version of me Whereas in Dallas, they got the like kind of you know i was confrontational i like i Did get in arguments. I...
doja_matt: you know, would stay angry at. that friends or whatever things bothered me so much more like the the principle of things has bothered me so much more. Now I'm like, Nothing matters. Nothing is serious.
doja_matt: Just have fun. Be a little kid. feel safe and Do whatever you want. Like. Do what? your soul your little precious soul tells you to do.
logan36: Yes.
doja_matt: but But Logan, what's your what's your soul telling you? and
logan36: my soul is telling me that
doja_matt: Well, you're Ugh.
logan36: It does not belong here, so I'm going to be moving again.
logan36: ah um yeah i'm still very much so like in my
logan36: nomad era and I'm very blessed to be able to... to have all these different experiences and everything but Um, I will just say...
logan36: As nice as... Everyone has been here in Seattle. I'm Just not a Pacific. northwesterner so um
doja_matt: uh -huh
logan36: And so. i'll be I'll be moving again. um When my lease is up. And...
doja_matt: do we Do we want to drop the location now, or do you want that to be a surprise?
logan36: Um... It can be a surprise.
doja_matt: Okay. Then we'll... For those that know...
logan36: Just...
doja_matt: No, but well.
logan36: Just in case it it changes, but I
doja_matt: Mmm.
logan36: you know You never know what what... might happen like literally i was talking to my mom today and she was like oh you should just Go back to Dallas. so um but we'll we'll see but yeah i'm absolutely gonna be moving again i will not be staying here
doja_matt: mm -hmm
logan36: And then I think also like. oh my gosh the lack of vitamin d was obviously i knew when i moved here like you know there's that stereotype that it it's not sunny and Seattle.
logan36: But oh my gosh vitamin D is
doja_matt: well stereotypes exist for a reason
logan36: Yeah, but vitamin D is so important, guys.
doja_matt: I'm just kidding
logan36: but So, um I'm... Now doubling up on my vitamin D capsules, I take... I was only taking one a day and I think What is it? I think it's the measurement is an IUD or something.
logan36: Whatever it's called. and
doja_matt: That's like what women put in there. their vaginas to not. That's like vert control. What an IUD is.
logan36: oh
doja_matt: It's about an ID.
logan36: Well, I don't... No, I... I don't know what it's called. It's like it's like the the measurement of vitamin D. there's it's It was like 5 ,000 something.
logan36: And. Now I'm doing 10 ,000 a day. so Um... So hopefully that starts helping me and then um
doja_matt: hu
logan36: Also, I'm doing like my red light therapy bed, which... is is helpful as well. so Um,
doja_matt: Thanks, Planet Fitness. ah
logan36: I know, so more more to come on that. um but This has been very eye -opening, very... um Just just a tough pill for me to swallow like This is the city that I was so excited to.
logan36: to move to and to live in. and i dreamt of living here literally for like a decade and now i'm here and i'm still not satisfied so that is the the pill that is hard to swallow but This is also showing me like what I...
logan36: do not want and what i do not like and that is equally as important as experiencing things that you do want and that you do like so um So it's all just part of the bigger journey.
doja_matt: Yeah, and I... um When I was like catching up with Logan about that Honestly, we've talked about this a couple of times. like Um... You know. I really like Regan Hillier. If you guys want to look her up, she's like this manifesting queen, like manifesting guru. and You know, there's this guy, Kevin Trudeau.
doja_matt: not Jason Trudeau, but Um, like these other manifesting kind of like spiritual people and you look at their lives and just the way they the things they've gone through, but like what they've.
doja_matt: kind of taught that resonates with me and i don't want to waste too much time on this because Again, another topic for another episode, but... one of the things you need to really feel is one like raising your level of minimum standards like what you will not settle for or put up for like that's part of manifesting and then also like disgust like you have to literally say like i like I can't do this anymore.
logan36: Yeah.
doja_matt: Like at some point your soul will literally, because there's your ego, your ego tells you like what you think you need to do, what you thought you were going to do in life. kind of like how you raise like what you i grew up thinking like
doja_matt: You're meant to be. And then you have. these realizations and it's it's your soul talking to you like reminding you like no Like. this is and it took in In a way, it's what you kind of need to go through in order to... really changed the life. you like pay attention to what your soul is telling you if you're not happy like listen to that and Take that data, figure out what you don't like and. use it to figure out like what you do want And.
doja_matt: you know, logan's part of his ego of like growing up like he really thought he wanted it's so funny he was he kept calling seattle the west coast i'm like dude it's he's like i thought i was gonna resonate with all the west coast people i'm like bitch it's The P and &W, it is not West Coast.
logan36: It is. This is. it's It's both in the same.
doja_matt: It's like moving to...
logan36: but
doja_matt: uh miami and being like oh i'm like i live on the east coast Um... but
logan36: You would be like in the Eastern time zone
doja_matt: Yeah.
doja_matt: this is this is true but um You know, it's it's one of those things where... I was telling him like dude, this is like I know you're going through it. And. All right. was reminded honestly of how I When I lived in Scottsdale, I was like the first one to graduate out of my um college friend group, graduated semester. early because i thought like oh i want to start working asap Like, I just want to start working now, like instead of using that. semester of fun to get fucked up with my friends and
doja_matt: and whatnot, I moved from Tucson to Scottsdale I luckily. dated somebody that I had a great relationship with them. um and that was fun but then he He moved to New York and I was still like...
doja_matt: So... My friends didn't graduate in four years. They graduated in like five or five and a half. So I was still up there alone, like for six months, like.
doja_matt: And. you know, ah just alone and so sad and I was drinking so I would take any chance I could to go out to the bar with some people I barely knew. i
logan36: how
doja_matt: i'll so I'll be vulnerable. I'll share more about this. I'm getting a DUI when I was like 23, having to pay for that all on my own. And. My parents won't listen to this. My dad knows, but like my ah my parents will never listen to this thing.
logan36: ah
doja_matt: um
logan36: Sorry, Mr.
doja_matt: And.
logan36: and Mrs. if you're listening.
doja_matt: Yeah, geez.
logan36: yeah
doja_matt: Whoops. ah But what are you going to do? ah um I was 23.
doja_matt: Really sad going through it. And. i remember drinking so much in the evenings and then like how to deal with the dy and and all that stuff. And like for six months I was depressed like I was so sad and then eventually Like, I was the saddest.
doja_matt: ever been and then you know like i was like things have got to change whatever and i remember you know kind of connect with my friend who was moving he was in my fraternity and he moved up Um...
doja_matt: It was like my soul was speaking to me of like, you can't fucking do this anymore.
logan36: big significant
doja_matt: Like find a way to make a change. And then I. sort of do my friends and Life really changed. I just had so much fun. and again that's kind of like where my venus line was and
logan36: he
doja_matt: Uh, I don't... My son, mine might have gone through. i Again, we'll... save another episode to go through. that it is really cool to look at it and just ask gemini like these things about it um but You know, then I.
doja_matt: moved to Dallas for a company that treated me like shit to start. a new office there and then i ended up like quitting like Five months later. after being in Dallas and then completely kind of pivoting and doing um Other jobs.
doja_matt: in fintech. But. i was reminded i was like holy shit like logan i totally get what you're going through, but like, listen to your soul. That's your little soul saying like. you can't do this anymore make a change and now logan is like oh i figured out where i want to move I'm already making moves on when I want it to happen, figure it out, etc.
logan36: I'm like, I'll cut my leash short again.
doja_matt: Ha ha. Um, yeah And I'm like, damn, that's three moves in three years.
logan36: I know. What's... is It's fine and literally like this is something my mom told me earlier today. She was like Yeah, you wouldn't have known any other way unless...
logan36: you move to these places and and gave things a shot so it's It's absolutely not. time lost and it's it's This is certainly a...
logan36: like fortifying ground for me like i'm absolutely being fortified by this And...
doja_matt: fortified and In what sense?
logan36: It's...
logan36: Just like... like There's no way you can... move that many times and just not be a stronger, wiser person out of it.
doja_matt: Oh, yeah.
logan36: And so just a lot of.
doja_matt: Well, are you wiser? It's...
logan36: I am yeah. um And so just like... It's just very it's just been very eye -opening and um Yeah, I'm definitely looking forward to go to the next.
logan36: place.
doja_matt: Yeah, and I...
logan36: And I... Feel like. like sometimes you have to have these experiences just so you can
doja_matt: And...
logan36: Couldn't just learn from it.
doja_matt: Yeah, you literally. I have to try to know. And. you know you going to seattle made you realize where you want to go next and you know you could have lived your whole life in dallas wanting to go to Seattle.
doja_matt: thinking that's where you want to end up. and then you finally move there and you're you're learning what is it your saturn line or whatever like What I said, like... Yeah, you're learning.
logan36: Comes right through here.
doja_matt: You're going through it, but you're learning tough lessons, but like there is a benefit of learning lessons like Again, it's like I said, like you take AP Calc, it's fucking hard. but you know well actually who who uses apk these days it's like learning
logan36: I would never. Take AP math classes.
doja_matt: Let's say... let's say ap spanish um but like you get it pays off you get to learn spanish and and all that stuff, and it was hard, but like... you there's a reason you did it and like there's a reason your soul took you there because like otherwise you'd just be staying in Dallas thinking oh I should move to Seattle but now you're coming out of Salt Lake City and Seattle.
doja_matt: a much closer version to like who you truly came on this planet. to be.
logan36: Yes. And it's... um it's one step closer to the the finish line. and In that sense, anyway, so.
doja_matt: going there's going to be some hot corn fed boys and it
logan36: but Yes, my favorite.
doja_matt: Uh huh.
logan36: We can't wait.
doja_matt: Yeah. But...
logan36: And it snows, and I love the snow.
doja_matt: He's going to Kansas City. Ugh.
logan36: Missouri. Here we go. Yes.
doja_matt: Um, But yeah, and I just kind of like... Again, remember, you know, my time in Scott still during that six months where I'm like, oh, I literally went through disgust and true. I remember I'd pray all the time.
logan36: That's...
doja_matt: Like. like crying Yeah, like crying to God, like, please.
logan36: Me now. Yeah.
doja_matt: like there's got to be some change and then life The universe will listen to you if you. are truly coming from a place of like love and intense emotion. the unit like you better be careful what you wish for because the universe will give it to you And.
doja_matt: Oh.
logan36: And it will also give it to you when you're ready to have it in it. we'll give it to you by removing something. out out of your life so that there's room for you to receive Exactly.
doja_matt: Yeah, it has to make space. Yeah, and and it can be hard.
logan36: so
doja_matt: Like sometimes when it removes whatever out of your life, it's kind of like, it can feel like the... carpets getting ripped. The rug's getting ripped out under you. um You know, so. the universe will do to you in an easy way or a hard way.
doja_matt: So that's why it's really good. to pay attention. To like. Talk to the universe. Pray. ask for what you want but like also like
doja_matt: be Be careful, because sometimes... if you really think you want something and sometimes and You can manifest. Anything. But a lot of times when you manifest. It might not actually be what your soul wants.
doja_matt: It is what your ego wants. But. It doesn't always necessarily work out. so like You're manifesting at all times. So... just
logan36: Yes.
doja_matt: Be cautious about that, people. Like. Pay attention to what your soul wants. Not what you... your ego wants. But you think.
logan36: And it's... it's nice when they're and in alignment and in harmony but that's that's not always the case and so um yeah and i feel like oh and just for anyone who has been watching this thinking Why on earth does he have these big sunglasses on?
logan36: It's because I was like crying earlier. I didn't want anyone to see my puffy face.
doja_matt: Mm -hmm
logan36: but
doja_matt: Yeah, he...
logan36: but
doja_matt: He was literally like, I was on the phone with him earlier. Initially, you we're supposed to... I was like, oh, yeah, Logan, let's catch up at eight. And I was like. just kidding nine and then
logan36: Uh huh.
doja_matt: 9 30. um but he was like yeah dude i was on the phone with my mom and like And I never cried to her, but just like bawling my eyes out, like catching up with her. I was like, oh, like. i'm sorry logan and You know, like he never.
doja_matt: does that with his mom i'm like save that shit for the podcast cry here people want to see People want to see that.
doja_matt: ah
logan36: I'm sure. Yeah, I don't think she... I think I've literally, she's Only seen me. Cry twice.
logan36: And like... life, so... Yeah, so we just had a very Nice.
doja_matt: Haha.
logan36: conversation earlier so I'm happy about that
doja_matt: Me.
logan36: Ha ha.
doja_matt: Meanwhile, I like. People that don't know me don't know this but the ones that do know me know this like I cry all the time I try not to do it in front of people like I'm the type.
logan36: I cry all the time now. Ha ha!
doja_matt: a Uh huh. um Yeah, so I like... I'm very sensitive. like so i I do tear up. I do cry. I get frustrated. I get overwhelmed.
doja_matt: um i generally try and go and do it alone but like you know i will have conversations with people where i'm like expressing how i feel about stuff and you know, Logan doesn't necessarily Do that. that often. and i I definitely don't necessarily cry in front of my parents, except our family dog died, which we'll talk about later.
logan36: I'm more of an angry person.
doja_matt: but Oh, yeah, Logan. hu Your Mars line also goes through... Does your Mars line go through every city? because that's like Mars is about like anger and aggression and Also sex.
logan36: I don't know. no.
doja_matt: Like every city you've lived through just like has the Mars line. That's why you throw shit.
logan36: it's It's... It's mostly like the... the The West. the west coast and i do mean like California.
doja_matt: PNW.
logan36: uh and like the like all the western like Like the mountain cities. I have a marsh line in Um...
doja_matt: And that's where the city all the cities you thought. you wanted to live.
logan36: That I would love, yeah.
doja_matt: Mm hmm.
logan36: and I think it's I'm realizing Well, I'm not like just now realizing but absolutely my desire to live like in the westernmost part of the US is was really driven by nature.
logan36: Um, it it It would seem I'm perhaps not like a cultural fit. for this part of the country but um But that's fine.
doja_matt: Hmm. It's... it's uh logan and i saw the same psychic and she gave him ah like a past life reading and she said in a past life he was a samurai and he was vicious and i'm like oh logan it's your it's your inner samurai that wants to live on those mars lines
logan36: Yes. yeah Oh. I know. Oh my gosh. and Yeah, and she she said that...
logan36: um i haven't had a lot of lifetimes here on earth which i totally believe uh i would
doja_matt: Yeah, because Logan's an alien. If you've ever met Logan... like
doja_matt: He's lived many lives, just not on Earth.
logan36: It's just not here, yeah. And so... and she said that i oh and also like i'm very recently into reincarnation, I would say the last.
logan36: the last couple years i was like oh my god it it totally makes sense whereas like i
doja_matt: Yeah, our our souls are eternal. like No doubt about it.
logan36: Yeah. um And and the the psychic said that I chose to... reincarnate after Hiroshima because the Like the the bomb, like the...
logan36: the the trauma of the bomb or something.
doja_matt: you you did' You didn't get to live there when the bomb got dropped.
doja_matt: You get to live there after. ah
logan36: Yeah. And just like, like, but and I knew like. my soul decided to come and reincarnate after that
doja_matt: Uh.
logan36: moment in history to like raise the vibration of the earth which i totally Do you believe that? um that that makes sense to me so But I'm not coming back here again.
doja_matt: yeah I've
logan36: This is my last life.
doja_matt: oh Um, Yeah, he... but man we've also like experienced so much death with like Dolly Parton and then Logan and I both had like some family dogs die and then my neighbor's cats we'll jump with that but logan's like man i wish i could switch lives with one of those Dogs.
doja_matt: But but.
logan36: Uh -huh! Yeah.
doja_matt: um That same psychic also, like she said, that we came on her... together like to help each other out. and it was just so true like logan and i lived together and it was so messy
logan36: Yes.
doja_matt: But it was. Like literally we were at. with living together at the right time, the right place in Dallas helped us realize we wanted to move where we wanted to move. I mean... I moved to San Diego, so it's kind of like a...
doja_matt: good move but i already i'd already moved and gone through all these lessons and dallas was mine and logan had to go through the same like mars and saturn in this line so i lived in dallas he had to go do that
logan36: Yeah.
doja_matt: in Salt Lake City and Seattle. Um... But...
logan36: yeah
doja_matt: But yeah, like we were literally at the right, Logan got me. into spirituality in a different realm. Like I used to, I grew up Roman Catholic and believed in God for so long and then I kind of stopped. when I was 23, 24, 25.
doja_matt: and then you know just logan got me open to the idea of you know, different ways of looking at spirituality in some books. And we talked about the law of attraction in the first episode and we barely even got through it. So watch it.
doja_matt: Redo that. But. she literally said we came on her to do a lot of the stuff together and i've had So many. like just influence to say like oh you're like a way show or like you're an awaken or you kind of like help people realize like you know, Yeah.
doja_matt: raise vibrations and essentially and help people realize like you don't have to live life in this limited way that you're like life is meant to be fun life is meant to be this way life is meant to feel good you're meant to feel happiness and joy and love and...
doja_matt: you know I personally was dealing with self -shame, like all these cycles of like You know, I would drink a lot during the evenings or the week or or things like that and go on these like moments of kind of like just really punishing myself for like one. drinking too much in the evenings and then feeling like shit the next day and then not going to the gym and not eating enough and um
doja_matt: like just forcing myself to get through it. and not seeing anybody on the weekend because they felt so lonely and Or because I felt disgusting and I was also like... Whenever I see somebody in they' like, hey, what's up?
doja_matt: i'm not the type to be like oh i'm doing good i'm like the type to just word vomit everything
logan36: You actually tell them.
doja_matt: And so i don't want and I didn't want to tell people that I was going through it. And I had moved to San san Diego and I was like, going through it. and You know, everybody I remember I visited Dallas once and I had some of the people's like...
doja_matt: you know kind of treat me a certain way of like oh you think you're too good to be in dallas like that's why you moved i'm like No, I just have been there for six years. And I knew I didn't want to buy a house and stay in Dallas. like And also...
doja_matt: The winners are called. Like. Every time I was there, I was pissed.
logan36: Not called enough.
doja_matt: and Yeah, well, to me
logan36: For me.
doja_matt: it was I mean, it was cool when it would snow, but like... When going out to like. Roundup and stuff. and the wind blowing and it's ice cold and All you have to do is like kind of get fucked up in a way.
doja_matt: um I was like... Okay, I know my soul. My soul was like, all right. Time for something new. the good thing is i had such amazing friends so that was really hard to be like oh i am really happy and content here but like I know I want to do something else. and go on the next journey and now here i am You know, free from the 9 to 5, got... paid out and like i just have so much Like...
doja_matt: Spend time on so many stories.
logan36: hey
doja_matt: that i'm sure i'll share you know like i'll go live on instagram or something one day and
logan36: yeah
doja_matt: and and be vulnerable until it's like Juicy gossip. um But, you know, like... Life is so different for me now. I feel like I'm literally... on that other side of when people are like surrender to the universe. like just talk to the universe, be happy, etc.
doja_matt: and trust. Don't have fear. i'm finally free from that fear it feels like and i got rid of all that self -shame i would go through of like you know if i Didn't go to the gym. or And I haven't been to the gym in like two weeks. My body's like holding through pretty well.
doja_matt: And I'm like. you know I'm going to get back on that. better routine and whatnot, but. getting rid of self -shame and all those lower vibration like emotions of you know It doesn't mean you're a bad person.
doja_matt: But... it's on that top of of like 5d 3d the earth has moved to the fifth dimension at some point anyways so like learn how to handle self -shame learn how to handle not judging people like all these things that necessarily aren't hatred and...
logan36: hu
doja_matt: you know, other more obvious lower vibrational things but like you know punishing yourself and stuff is not a higher vibrational thing Um, so logan and i came on the earth
logan36: What?
doja_matt: we came't We came on Earth. um But no, it's it's like...
logan36: Oh, we did
doja_matt: what And we came on this earth over and over again.
logan36: Yeah we did.
doja_matt: No. I'm saying... Like not to like. act like oh i'm this high vibrational person because no like i make mistakes i have anger i learning as I go. But it's nice to know that I've, like...
doja_matt: help people see things differently. And. people treat me so kindly i think because i have just truly become myself and I don't. act differently to try and make somebody like me like if they meet me they are getting a hundred percent who I am.
doja_matt: And I think after doing that a couple of years now. I'm just truly surrounded by people that have my back. Don't judge me. Or like, Matt, you're crazy, but I... you know you say you're gonna do something and you end up doing it like or it happens and i'm just So lucky now to be surrounded by like.
doja_matt: people like that.
logan36: Yes, well, I'm I'm next. so
doja_matt: hu
logan36: ah
doja_matt: You have to finish learning your lessons.
logan36: I know. I'm...
doja_matt: From Saturn.
logan36: I'm so close.
doja_matt: Ugh.
logan36: My my. said uh what is it Saturnian time is coming to an end it'll be here before we know it but um With that said, let's...
logan36: Also... look into i will we'll take this offline but let's look into um when we can do our housewives and...
logan36: drag race recap and all that good stuff so our next episode will be More. pop culture focused
doja_matt: Mhm.
logan36: Um... And then we hope that Everyone enjoyed listening to my. Misery story today.
doja_matt: Yeah, well, I think...
