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Speaker: Can always be this way Am I doing this to my face?
Speaker: I just wanna feel better
Speaker: Damn, I'm getting really good at timing that out almost perfectly on Mondays. The sharing of the broadcast. Did you get over there? Did you just crap your pants, old man? Well, yeah. And I'm happy because now I know Nicky has to come clean it.
Speaker: I don't know about her, but I'm going to have a good time. but
Speaker: Well, happy Monday, everybody. Hopefully you guys had a good weekend. As always, it was not long enough. I'll say that it was, it wasn't a bad Monday today. It was just one of those Mondays. It's just like, yeah, it's another week. Screw it. I'm here. There's no time deal. No, no, no. The answer is always no. Um, what up Chris? What up?
Speaker: Uh, but anywho, welcome to men caring for men is your men's mental pocket men's men's mental vulnerable. I still have more time. Yeah. Right. I should try that one more time. What do you think? Welcome to men caring for men, your men's mental health podcast. It is mental health Monday. Um, brought to you by the nonsense school network. If you're not already good, check us out. We are everywhere. Words are fucking hard as hell. jeff yeah Check out the network. We we we are everywhere on all the socials, Facebook, Instagram, x and TikTok. We do shows live here on the network Monday through Sunday. um We can check them all out live on YouTube, Twitch, Facebook, and Rumble. We're going to wade the Rumble waters a little bit longer. um I'm kind of liking it. It's ah it's a cool little platform. ah
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Speaker: So we got a little bit of, you got a little bit of everything going on there right now. It's just from the main show and the network, but we'll get all the other shows with their own stuff as well. I'll figure something out. I'm not super down the line. Well, it is Monday. Welcome everybody. Hopefully you guys, as I said, you had a good, good weekend and a good start to your week. We got Connor in the building.
Speaker: and you guys know me, I'm good. And if you don't know us, we'll be better. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. i'm Sorry. Sorry. Tell that woman you're busy. I tried. I don't know if you heard me, but I tried. Yeah. I like that you you put the ah curtain up there behind you to kind of hide some of the glow. Yeah. Now the the only glow you're seeing now is from the light above my head.
Speaker: And that's that is quite the the bright little reflection there. and I thought I thought that was you should suck a fat cock. Just I thought that was I thought that was just your halo because you're an angel in my eyes. ah You don't know my intrusive thoughts. No, I do know your intrusive thoughts. That's a sad part.
Speaker: Sometimes you just keep putting skin on. These are inside voices.
Speaker: but So it looks just standing over in the corner. Who's skin? Who's skin? What are we doing with the skin? Why do you have someone's skin? Well, they gave it to me. Did they?
Speaker: today i found it and away there so i grabbed it You know, what with some of the things that you've said about your neighborhood, I could believe that there would just be skin laying around somewhere outside for you.
Speaker: I'm so sick of living downtown. I never wanted to live downtown, but the house was nice and Nikki was convincing. ah some thanks You know what I mean? Jeff said, broken halo just like his legs. You don't got me. I don't. wakaakca You're **** hilarious, Jeff. Oh, Eddie who it is Monday. Carter, how the hell have you been, man? What's what's going on in your world? I'm about to ask you that. Oh, you want me to go first? Oh, you can go first. Oh, you can. Okay. I don't. I don't well
Speaker: Last Monday, I can't what what are you going or am I going? Who's going to come first? Are you are you? yeah Can we do it at the same time? Unfortunately, not this time. there's another ah and We both come at the same time on this platform that people are going to be confused and I'm going to have to clean my camera off again. yeah What is going on?
Speaker: That's the first thing you said. No, it's not. I never say anything left. Stupid bitch.
Speaker: So anyway, welcome to Monday night, which is quickly devolving into the Saturday. Yeah, maybe you should come up on Saturdays more often so you can let your intrusive thoughts out. Honestly, I should. But this last these last few weeks have been I've had **** going on every **** weekend. Sissy's birthday party. Yeah. And then last week and we had Doc here and we were up for a little bit and the weekend before that, we went over to **** my my in -laws house and spent time with my mother in law. So anyway, I'm ready for a weekend of no **** people in my house other than me and my **** family. I've been there before. Like I'm I'm at the point
Speaker: right now. Don't get me wrong. I love my fucking kids to the end of the world and to the end of the earth. But God love me. I'm going to go get lost in the woods for a month just so that I can get a break.
Speaker: but I just there one send me away. I will find my own food. ah I'll make my own shelter, build my own fire. I'll drink my all the water that I can find.
Speaker: but just get me out of the house but not around other people.
Speaker: You know, I'm where I'm wearing it. Where am I at? No, no, I I totally I totally I totally understand that man because I know like holy broken. I totally I totally I totally I totally I totally I totally I totally understand. I think I had a shirt. Gross. Now, you know, the the last couple of the last couple of years,
Speaker: you know, I had the kids full time and it was just like, you know, they would go to their moms on the weekend, but it was like, man, I, some weeks I couldn't wait to get to Friday because I was just between work and podcasting and, and, and, and my kids aren't that bad. I mean, they're not, they're not, they don't, you know, they're good kids. They're not very stressful or anything like that. It's just sometimes sometimes I just, ah you know, I want some,
Speaker: meantime nobody else in the house you know what I mean? I just leave that peace and quiet. Um I want that with all the chores already done. Yeah. Cuz uh that's the other thing. I'm trying to maybe I won't talk about that actually. Never mind. Forget that. I I just have I had a lot of a lot of **** to get done around the house. Nikki Nikki works. So, when she gets home, she's **** and so if something gets done during the day while I'm at, while everybody's at work or school, then the kids come home and before Nikki gets done with work, they've fucking torn apart the house again. And I'm just ready to, I'm just ready to blow my fucking brains out. Let's, let's make sure it's you. Show us your winner. I mean, uh, we've told you the camera doesn't zoom that car.
Speaker: What's up boys? but up man Not much. Jesus Christ. how you can you Who did you pay for your haircut? Because you should get your money back. ah i actually I actually wanted to mention that someone fell off the wagon on Saturday because he didn't even remember we went a second tour.
Speaker: Oh, no, no, I yeah, I did once. once place Yeah, once boys brought it up. I was like, Oh, yeah, we did. i Yeah, I did totally forget about that. Because I had to work yesterday.
Speaker: i asked i had to work yesterday
Speaker: Yeah, no, I did. Because ah yeah dude, I mean, I've got so much on my mind from this from this past weekend as it is. um
Speaker: You know, Saturday in the handle of both ends a lot lately. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. I need to calm the fuck down. Even like Thursday. Time out.
Speaker: Well, you see, Jeff, I could take Monday off his plate if I could have a consistent co -host. but busy on Mondays. Yeah. So, if you get Doc to stop sitting on your lap and to sit in the. Oh, Doc goes, Doc goes to **** the academy on Sunday.
Speaker: oh man You to remember Doc can't do a show because his girlfriend has to get up for fourth grade in the morning. yeah After seeing his girl, I 100 % believe that. like tell me different my god My parents were here this weekend were here this weekend for my daughter's birthday and we're fucking talking. Oh, I saw Doc was over at your house last weekend. you know How's he doing? and ah you know Brought his girlfriend with him. You know, she's super nice. She's a little small. And my dad goes, what do you mean small? It's like she's four foot 11 and she's 22. He's like, is he sure that she's 22? Yeah. My mom said, did you see an ID? But I also didn't give her any alcohol. So you can't encourage me. Yes, I did survive the Taco Bell trauma.
Speaker: or whatever it was, I survived it, I'm back, I'm good. No, ah yeah, so you know like every other Thursday and Friday, well, every other Thursday, and then of course Fridays, I don't do a show no more. But somehow I got roped into doing another show on Thursdays. What show are you doing? I think that, I think your problem is you volunteer to do them way too often. You don't like saying - No, he doesn't like to say no.
Speaker: Yeah, it's, it's both of those. It's both of those things. He's always like, you know, I can, I can co -host for you if you need some help or I can, I can host for you if you need some help. and would i Would you mind hopping on with me? And you're like, yeah, for sure, dude.
Speaker: me so he's a big guy i's he focused it's true you need to You need to learn to say no, like yeah that's let's sit on my plate. It's 100 % true. And that's kind of what happened with the Thursday thing.
Speaker: Um, we all know, we all know DJ bill and, and, and Steve, they do their another shop podcast. Well, they they don't want to listen to me. I told him, I said, you're doing too much too soon. You yeah you know, you gotta, gotta to find your rhythm in your main show before you start adding a whole bunch of other shows. Um, while they added a sports show on Thursday,
Speaker: ah but yeah i like he puts it on himself. because exactly no he child system yeah yeah that's kind of where that's that's kind of where it is is they they need, they need help. They ask if I would be interested. I was like, I was actually talking to him before this. I said, look, I said, I may not be able to do every Thursday. I said, it's going to be contingent on, you know, Nikki's at work or whatever. And she's working Thursdays. I'll pop in.
Speaker: that the kids are here, you know, cash and I do his show on Thursdays. I said, but you know, I'll at least make sure I get my picks into you. Um, yeah, you know, but they asked, they asked if I can get on there and, and help out. And of course you guys, you guys hit the nail on the head. and I know, but I love you this. I will say this. It is a huge compliment on your part that everybody wants you to be on their show. It's also a good flaw to have. Wow, I got spanked. Darn tootin' and I'll do it again. No, I beat the dog shit out of me, boy. I just realized that. I took hells all across the board. It's not fair.
Speaker: He's he's a never mind. You mentioned. football and i'm like Oh, shit. I forgot. I have a fantasy football league in it. Yeah, no. We'll talk about that Wednesday. No. So yeah, i am I am. I am doing a lot. I do have a lot on my plate. And then, ah you know, I'm just going to go ahead and get into it because, you know, fuck it. Send it pussy. What?
Speaker: Start to start talking pussy. I hear. I would. Oh, you're God. I want the tea, Darla. Yeah. Glitch world no means maybe it may be. Pretty much.
Speaker: Well, you do this. Yeah. Yeah. Pretty much. Yeah. Yeah. You're not wrong. So, you know, and I've had a and well since Saturday, I've had a lot on my mind. um As most of you guys know, there's been an issue with myself and another broadcaster and not on my shit. I'm still I'm still telling you he was just fucking with you, but nonetheless, that's that the point. Nonetheless, I'm not telling anybody how they can or can't feel about anything.
Speaker: um and Saturday night after after I think you know he had a little liquid courage and which is fine because sometimes some sometimes some of the best discussions are had when you have liquid liquid courage and of me poking the bear and and and whatnot he came up on the show and and as I was telling Connor and I was talking to Nicky about this I said when he popped in like I was ready to jump first I was ready I was ready to to jump and start a fight and get into it. And i had to take ah I had to take a second to compose myself because I made a promise to you guys and I made a promise to the listeners after that last debacle with a few people that that was not gonna be our show. That's not what our show is. It can happen. It just can't happen on the air. Yeah, like that's not what our show is gonna be about. We're not gonna be about the
Speaker: Yelling and hollering and screaming and I had a couple people message me as it happened in real time going click You know what you said calm down. I'm like so I got that and I got this Nikki is Nikki was here Nikki and I were talking and whatnot. So I had to I had to I had to Let a cooler head prevail so to say um I Was there's a certain there's a certain level of respect Uh, on, on, on a different, um, one him coming up here and actually coming into the lines then. And one of the first things he said to me was, I, you know, I want to apologize and I would like to, you know, make bite. Uh, I'm busy. you probably You didn't take a shower again tonight. I know you took one last night, but you've been outside or on the way I'm playing. Um, yeah, it's not like poopy boy, but, um,
Speaker: You know, he he that was the other thing that had to cut me off guard. I didn't expect him to come in and be like, hey, I just want to apologize. And I want bygones to be bygones. Cool. I can respect that. So I had to i had to kind of take a step back. and and And I didn't want to go down that road where I was who I used to be on the on on this on this on these airwaves, on our on our platform.
Speaker: right. You know, Jeff can attest to how quick I was to cut somebody's **** head off and set fire in the world. Gotta be a little bit. Yeah, it's it took everything I had not to call people out last night too because um you know, and I'm not the first person to call people out because at the end of the day, 90 % of what people say when they're angry, I take it as hot air from a buffoon because I'm like, you're letting something this reveal, trigger you, you got bigger problems. Yeah, and we know that Jeff had a cool head the other night because everybody will walked away with not broken arms. Yeah. So, you know, by the way, my neighbor gets his past off next week.
Speaker: ah rich rich and i both said multiple times yeah nice i literally i burn the but Rich and I both said multiple times on that broadcast that there is a discussion that does need to be had behind the scenes. Agreed. It needs to take place behind the scenes where, you know, um something I've noticed and it's not something you do or I do or anybody, I'm not accusing anybody, but
Speaker: A lot of people when they're on the air tend to be different when they're just having a conversation not on the air. And yeah that's my fear of having a discussion like that on the air is shit's going to get made up. And it's like, yeah, you know what? I, I, I'm not about those games, you know, as my neighbor learned, you know, if you're going to talk shit, let's, let's be about it. Yeah. So.
Speaker: So, you know, I don't want our platform to be known like other platforms where it's all drama and yelling and hooting and hollering and and everything else. um um um I've discovered in the last couple of years, one thing about me in the last couple of years, ah Jeff, you know this about me from our younger days, I can hold a fucking grudge like nobody else.
Speaker: I still hold grass in the people. Yeah. I mean, I mean, I can hold a fucking grudge like nobody else. And as I've, as I've been going down this quote unquote road, this journey of healing and becoming a better version of myself, I've realized it's not worth it to hold the grudges. It's not worth it to hold on to things that are in the grand scheme of things. They're trivial. So what? Yeah. ah yeah And I, and I said this on the air Saturday night, the whole issue between fireman. many Uh, uh, the whole issue between fireman and rich and I, I said what I said. And I told him this Saturday night, what I said that night that I said it, when I was pissed off, it was meant to stay. It was meant to, it was, it was, it was meant to strike a nerve because I felt seriously disrespected that night. And, and I said, I said, I'm not, I'm not going to take back. I said it, you know, and, and, and I meant for it to sting, but.
Speaker: the last several months, we've both been taking shots. We've both been taking digs at one another. And, you know, i'm it's trivial at the end of the day. it's not It's not worth it at the end of the day. You know, you know what i I see it as it's, it's you know, when you when you take in, when you ah the hold a grudge, it's like swallowing a poison pill. And and you need to get rid of that poison because it's just gonna ruin everything else. you know it becomes It becomes toxic. And it's like, what's the fucking point? We're here for a short time, not a long time.
Speaker: more or it could make you super strong like the like the 007 villain from Skyfall. Well, this is true. But but but like me, I still have I still have those those I still have those poisons, those toxicities. I just you'll never know it. But I'll be the first to laugh at you when you ball afterwards. Yeah, so I mean,
Speaker: I, you know, I'm not saying Rich and I are going to be besties, but I, you know, it's, it's a bridge that can be mended. You know, Tony and I are working on mending a bridge. I should have said a million times. I've never had a personal problem with Tony. Some of the things that he does and some of the ways that he thinks I don't agree with, but.
Speaker: as human beings, we're not going to agree with everything. Yeah. You still, because Bill was a shitty back man. That just shows me. I mean, that's just a fact. ah Honestly, but if this were the old west, I'd have hung you by now. See? Two to one. I would have already, I would have already shot you. I would have already shot you like in this in in and left you laying the road like a dog. Listen here, Thomas. likecky and
Speaker: Just call me Wyatt Glick. It comes down to, I'm your Uncle Bird. Yeah, I'm Doc Glick. I was about to say, just wait till Doc comes around the corner behind me like, oh. I'm Doc Glick. You guys are like, you're so drunk, you're probably seeing two of them. That's why I got two guns. That's why I got two guns. No, but it's like, you can let that toxicity consume you, or you can just be like, fuck it.
Speaker: Yeah. and And I said several months ago, I was doing it just for sheer shits and grins factor. Yeah. It's it's a, it's a poke and a bear thing. Yeah. You know, I didn't care enough to actually, you know, be that fricking butt hurt about it. So no, you know, for me personally, and I'm not going to tell anybody what they should do in their personal life, but for me personally, it's just better to let things go. Yeah. And rather than to hold on to them,
Speaker: Um, speak to yourself. Yeah. You know, Hey buddy, you and I are in the same fucking boat. Throwing down that fucking stream. Trust me. Speak for yourself. see All the people on my shit list are going to die before I'm done. So we'll miss on their graves. scott da We'll, uh, we'll see, we'll see what the future has in store. But yeah, like I said, for, uh, you know, for, for, for us and the network,
Speaker: I don't want the yelling and screaming and the, the hooting and hollering and acting foolish and all that other shit, uh, on the air. Um, it's unnecessary. It disrupts everything. And with that being said, I'm going to go ahead and put it out and we'll, and we'll reiterate it more throughout the week. I gave Jeff a job for Saturdays and much like we have our canceled and good job dickhead and different things like that.
Speaker: If we're ever in a position where things are starting to get out of control, I'm going to say timeout. Jeff's going to pull it up on the screen, and I'm going to mute everybody's fucking mics, but mine. And it's no sign for you. But it's not a part of the mic. No, it's regardless, because basically what we're going to do, because Glick is main host on Saturday, Glick will get his chance to speak, and then he gets muted, and the person that he's discussing gets unmuted, and can say their piece. Because the problem when it comes to home quiet man arguments, yeah, exactly. It's, it's, if you everybody just starts talking over everybody, over everybody, what's the fucking point? Because nobody can hear a fucking thing. And it becomes this giant weird echo chamber of screaming and hollering. And I got bigger fish to fry than that shit. Yeah. Just gonna, I'm just gonna put everybody in a timeout.
Speaker: and collect yourselves. I'm not. Nobody has to leave. Nobody has to get mad, but everybody's going to shut the fuck up because it is my show and I don't and I don't want to, you know, well, it's our show, but it's it's my show. um I'm the guy on Monday nights. So don't take it personally. Everybody. It's everybody's going to get it. um because i have control thatlicking slut that that happens and happens throughout, it does happen from time to time and it, it happened again Saturday. So, you know, um, well, I think one of the new rules of the network is if you got beef, take it off fucking air because it's, it's, that's not what we're here for. Yeah. yeah
Speaker: You know, at the end of the day, we are a comedy -based network. Yes, we have serious points. We have certain things we talk about. This is a serious show. But 90 % of what we do is comedy -based. We're trying to have fun. with we're We're trying to escape the problems of our real lives.
Speaker: of yeah the drama and bullshit that we go through day to day. We don't need to spend six hours or four hours or however many hours online dealing with other bullshit. It doesn't fucking matter because it's the fucking internet. If I want a problem with something, I can look up about 400 fucking thousand things I have a problem. And yeah we're also not doing this shit so that we can have fucking debates with people.
Speaker: Unless you're on whose argument is in any way. Yeah, it's a debate show. That's a debate show where you have fun about stupid shit. And you debate over stupid shit that doesn't make any fucking difference. But if you have a serious political view that you want to come up here and fucking talk about, this is not the place. I'm not even political. Just your opinion. I don't want it. I don't need it. This is meant to be satire and funny. If you want to make a point through satire and being funny and silly, that's great.
Speaker: hunter Jeff does it all the time. And I think some of the shit he says is off the wall. Fucking ridiculous. But it sort of plays. Well, it makes you think. no but it But they make it funny and it doesn't turn into a yelling or screaming match or or this is my point. I'm going to be super serious about it when we're trying to have a Saturday night, which is just go out, have fun, relax, forget about your fucking problems Saturday night. And I understand. And I understand it's going to happen.
Speaker: It's going to happen. yeah's regard And that's why, and that's, and that's why the timeout thing is here. So we can, yeah we can collectively conversate and not yell and scream over each other because, um, that, that just derails. I mean, it, it, it derails everything so quick. And, and then it's just like, Oh,
Speaker: I don't even want to do this show anymore tonight. you know i you know and that's you know i these months and There was a point on Saturday that I was like, you know what? I'm ready to call it a night already. Yep. That's happened. That's happened a few times. And I definitely get to that point too. but you know i I think we were able to salvage it. I think it didn't go too far. A wire ah haywire, you know, but like I said, also, you know,
Speaker: what I do and the decisions I make for myself is nobody's business but me. ah This is is our decisions that I need to make for myself, for my, for my sanity, for my, my mental wellbeing. And you know, we, we each are allowed to do and say our own thing. And I'm not telling anybody what they can and can't do.
Speaker: I'm just asking for some sensibility when you come up on our shows. you know we we We try to have fun doing the open panel, over ah and door the open door challenge. We try to have fun with it. you know And it's not an open opportunity for people to come on and start yelling and screaming and fussing and fighting and everything else. you know If you want to do that, if you want to do that, I can i can give you a couple of apps that you can go do that to your heart's content.
Speaker: at the end of the day. some but and And I'm not talking, I'm not talking to anybody in general. I'm not talking about anybody specifically or anything like that. I'm just saying as a across the board statement. um exactly one yeah I'm sorry. I get excited. Okay. i'm just say but You won't get that time out.
Speaker: yeah ah Yeah. I'm just um wa statement yeah a broad statement across the board. Do you want to do the yelling and screaming and huffing and puffing and everything like that? so Other shows that allow that. Yeah, do it on your own time. Do it on your own. you know Like I said, my my initial gut reaction was, here we go. Game on. this was and And I'm not calling you out, but that was a wrong decision.
Speaker: No, and I'm glad that I didn't go down that road. um I'm really glad I didn't. It sounds like he completely disarmed you of that, though. Yes and no. Yes and no.
Speaker: yeah kind of like hold out his sand backstage but nice yeah Yes, Yes, yes and no. Like I said, there were there were people in real time that I couldn't believe how fast the text came through or the messages came through.
Speaker: i know i mean that many people yeah i i i guess this says two I just got a message from 45 people. Yeah, that came through in real time and a couple of people that that I truly, I have a lot of respect for it and whatnot. Um, so yeah, you know, I'm glad that, I'm glad that we were, that we were able to, to have a ah conversation like grownups, uh,
Speaker: um, even guys always get to talk things out. Appreciate that. Give me an opportunity to do so over the weekend. I do agree. better Cool heads always for fail. Yes, absolutely. um Yeah, I mean, Saturday's lineup. Yeah, you know, sometimes sometimes you do just got to let Karma do his things.
Speaker: um
Speaker: but Watching the bills and jags. My heart says go bills, but my picks say go, Jay. I don't fucking know. I'll talk about it Wednesday. um I don't even know if I'm going to be able to contain myself until Sunday. Oh my gosh.
Speaker: I ate a big old shit sandwich this week in fantasy football and picks. Right? I didn't realize how bad I didn't tell just like two minutes ago. Pissed. Yeah. I lost. Uh,
Speaker: ah yeah, I just, I had a big old shit buffet as far as football goes this week. Really? The only, I'll say this, the only shining moment of the, of, of, of football this weekend for me was Um, Michigan, almost losing to you. Almost losing to you. Let's see. Sorry. We couldn't play Marshall. they on The schedules blow my fucking mind. It absolutely blows my fucking vibe. You guys are playing all, all ranked teams for like the first four games of the season. And we're playing on unranked teams until the last four games. and and And we, and we have to play everybody that just joined the big 10 this year. But you guys play Oregon, I think.
Speaker: and should so mom yeah we play we play on like I was genuinely surprised when USC didn't didn't pull it out. You guys played the clock, right? But we won't talk about that. It's Monday night. and just I just felt like letting you know, I actually watched your shitty team play football this weekend. We got lucky. We'll we'll call a spade a spade. I'll call a spade a spade. They got lucky.
Speaker: They got like, it was a good, it was a good ass game though. It's a great fucking game. oh It was a great game. It was a great game. It was a classic matchup between those two. You know, they, they played in the past and stuff like that. It was, it was, it was a good game, but no, man, like I said, you know, I will say, you know, from anybody that picked the cowgirls is wrong.
Speaker: ah We'll talk about that Wednesday. And we'll talk about that Sunday as well. Oh, make sure you tune into unnecessary roughness on Sunday night or Sunday morning, Sunday afternoon, whatever time it's on this coming Sunday, because the guys are going to have a field day with my dumb ass. jeff i mean How mad did you lose? Oh, no, I'm not talking to fantasy football. I'm talking about my picks and my crazy predictions. Oh.
Speaker: i was yeah I love that you think I pay attention to that. No, you just just tune in so you can hear the guys serve me up a nice heaping. I will make sure I record it. Play it on play it on next Saturday. Every time you **** up, I'm like, yeah, remember that time. I'll be I'll be I will I will be disappointed in the guys if they don't give me **** on Sunday after my I I I blame I blame Saturday night for my my My head wasn't in the right right right frame yesterday to be making football games. You know what? It would have been it if you scored roughly about as many points as I did this week. Yeah. Yeah, it was bad. you see But nonetheless, no. We're looking to it going back to practice. And it's like a picture of radio doing it. The eyes. Yes.
Speaker: There's a. There was a ah reel that I seen and it said to ah every time he sees a 230 pound linebacker barreling down on him, it was like this big monster and there was he was like leading this army. It looked like some nerd game like Lord of the Rings and he had like this big blockhead and he just runs into the side of a wall and blows a hole on the wall but then the monster like falls over his lane on the ground.
Speaker: But anyways, like I said, you know, i' I'm glad that Saturday, you know, with them, with with some minor hiccups and whatnot, I'm glad one, one, you know, one issue in my life was, you know, not, bad and again, not even that major of an issue. But it was like, it was it's, it's, it's, it's, it's, uh,
Speaker: It's, it's taking a time out and we're going to, we're going to start moving past it. Like I said, you know, everybody has those moments, you know, I, there's been people in my life that I've had fights with and then, you know, some months will go by or a year or whatever we'll go by and we run into each other and we talk, we sit down, we talk about things, we have a beer, or whatever. We say what we need to say. And then we move on, you know, whether we, we, we, we say, refer and and I say this, and I've said this to to Bill a lot.
Speaker: in this broadcasting world sometimes it's sometimes it's easier to swallow your pride and save a friendship or save an acquaintance rather than lose a friendship over a broadcasting over broadcasting or streaming you know i said hell you know i had to do it with mike mike and i were starting to putt heads a lot and it had nothing to do with anything other than our personal lives getting in the way of our podcast and and and it came to a head on a show one night And then everybody freaked out, but nobody knew that behind the scenes that same night when the show was over, Mike and I reached out to each other and was talking to each other and we, and we settled things. And I told him, do you need to get your personal life in order? And he agreed. And, and I said, I got to work on some things I said, but this isn't saying you can never come back. Let's just get your, get your life in order. and And then we'll go from there. Yeah. Then we'll go from there.
Speaker: so
Speaker: wouldn't believe it was dimmed. So, you know, and and again, like I said, this is this is something that I've learned. Because three, four years ago, I would have jumped at the opportunity. Yeah, you'd have been firing fucking brimstone for six months. Yeah. ah Nice. ah So, you know, it's it's a sign of growth. It's a sign of maturity. I don't have growth. And it's just ah that's i've been that I've been that way in my whole fucking life. And it's like, what do I have to be angry about anymore these days, man? My kids are good, you know? You know, yeah, that's that's the one thing. the first for the For the first time in a long time, actually, maybe ever, I'm in an actual loving relationship with ah with an actual partner.
Speaker: i
Speaker: oh wow Where's number three at? She's in the house watching Mormon lives. She's watching chips in malls. And I'm happy with with what we're doing here on this on this little network, on our little our little blip on the internet. ah you know I'm happy for what we're doing with it. i think we're I think we're starting to make moves. We're starting to do things. Opportunities are opening up for me.
Speaker: ah Not just for me. I mean, I'm the one that's going to him because I'm here But there's opportunities are for all of us because I'm representing the network and I'm representing you yeah close face to the network And and and you know blaze isn't so far away that he's like man I'm down. I'll i'll make the drive up. I'll come up and do things with you, too so you know, I if I can alleviate other issues and and other, quote unquote, problems. Why let them linger? Why let them be there? Well, and that's the one thing you always got to remember is like. There are three things you need to worry about your health, your family's health, and can you survive? Yeah. On on on what you make, so to speak, or or you know what you're doing. If you got food on the table, you're healthy, your family's healthy. You ain't got no fucking problems. Let's be honest. What if I don't have any of that?
Speaker: Well, yeah, your special key. My health is terrible. My family's health is in danger because my health is terrible. well yeah but that's That's a different kind of health. You were in that same boat that I was in when I first got out.
Speaker: that I didn't give a fuck about anybody like my wife. And I'm just saying, I'm just saying, if if you hear something about a murder, suicide in Evansville, Indiana, and she's her on keep I've been there. I've been there. You know, there, there's those days where you're just looking for places to bury the body. Oh my God. why get it I got nine spots picked out just in case, you know, but does Jeff ever remind you of billing ball? Holy shit.
Speaker: yeah he's But like, way uglier. Yeah, but funny. um um He's like, he's here. You're like, no, but it comes down to it. It comes down to the one thing I, you know, dealing with your mental health issue that I know you're struggling with. I know exactly what you're going through, because I went through the same thing when I got out.
Speaker: um The one thing you need to remind yourself is that you have a loving, caring family, and everything else is bullshit. Yeah, see, and I think Glick and I discussed this, I think, in depth before the show. He's going to run for president in 2028. You're going to be his VP, and I'll be the Sec Def. And he's not going to touch anything that has to do with foreign policy.
Speaker: My foreign policy is going to be to kill everyone except us. ah Well, you and I have already discussed on the fact that we can take out a small country. I fucking told him we should start our own fucking country.
Speaker: You don't have to run for president if you own the fucking country. You're the dictator. Mr. mr President Glick. Mr. President Glick, what are we going to do with Iraqi relations. oh not my circus night sure they're gonna be all seat in class and about three i'm a sit honor and cheho there and they'll take care Go talk to Connor. That's his, that's his department. What do you mean you nuked everyone other than us? no I mean,
Speaker: My fingers. slipp we don't have We don't have any more foreign policy problems. That's all I'm saying. Problem solved. It's like those abortion t -shirts. Problem solved.
Speaker: thats that that's we'll We'll have merch when we get elected. Instead of tax. yeah No new taxes, but you will be forced to buy merch.
Speaker: Yeah. No. You're caught walking the streets without it on you. Straight to Jim. Right to Jim. No. um Jeff, here's Iraq, but his brain says ah goes to Iraq.
Speaker: It's a car joke, Jeff. Even I got that. I got it. I got it. I was doing something else. See? That was a car joke. Yeah, the Iraq C28.
Speaker: Camaro. Not tracking. Well. Imagine that. I just like watching things. The iRock was a piece of shit car. Out of ah out of all the Camaros, the iRock is the biggest piece of shit. Just like iRock is. Never mind. Yeah. Oh, no. It's the same ballpark. Let me get it. No, no, no.
Speaker: No, go ahead. Roll that out because it's the same. No, no, no, no. It was a big piece of shit. Seriously underpowered and and the handling of a mule cart. Oh, like if you tried to draw handling from memory. Mm hmm. No, no, I will say before before we before we go to break here, we're going to take a real quick. Happy birthday, young man.
Speaker: Happy birthday, Princess Poopy Pants. Happy birthday. You had pancakes, didn't you? Yes, you did, you liar. Happy birthday. Oh, you're getting chocolate on my shirt. You say, hi. Hi.
Speaker: I don't know. I've never owned an iRock. I, I refuse to buy one.
Speaker: Cause I knew they were. And I've never lived in a trailer park, so I wouldn't know. No, I will say, uh, you know, this, this, this weekend, um, uh, you know, kind of get back on subjects here. Um, it was, it was nice to to kind of.
Speaker: be at the beginning stages of getting something off of my chest that's been bothering me for a little while. Um, um you well, yeah, you, you and some other people I know have the same mindset of just, I just like to watch the world burn. I'm just saying, I mean, I do too, to a certain degree, as long as it's not my fucking world, ah like my, my, my bubble here.
Speaker: You know what I mean? The rest of the world can go to hell in a hand basket, but yeah I'm focused on my bubble. my is Like my bubble being Mickey and the kids and you guys in the network and like my job and stuff like that, you know, and then, you know, trying to fix and mend what I can fix along the way. Like I said, some things they deserve to be fixed, amended other things. I burnt that bridge for a reason and I'll never go back to rebuild it. Oh, I'm not saying that.
Speaker: i burn bridges but im but i've Yeah, but I'm fine with that because I burnt those bridges for a reason and there's a reason why there is no mending or there's no going back. Right. Well, it's not. Yeah, you're not doing it for for the sake of doing it. You're doing it because for reasons, you know, and and some reasons are valid and and and whether whether you think they're valid or or somebody else thinks they're valid are two different things. But at the end of the day, it's that whole cutting out the toxic people in your life that
Speaker: that make you feel miserable, make you feel like shit. There's I don't have time for shit like that in my life. Yeah, I consider myself a pretty happy guy. And if somebody wants to shit on me, go ahead because you just lost somebody that can be loyal as fuck. Mm hmm. And if anybody of my loyalty is you.
Speaker: He has no loyalty at all, people don't let him know. And I'll sell y 'all for a 50 cent piece, motherfucker. I don't give a shit. And he has. He sold me out one too many times and I stuck him in a crate and mailed him to Cancun. You guys won't. OK, OK. You need to go take the first thing. No, I've said it a million times over and I'll probably say it a million more times.
Speaker: Mama's going to give you my diploma. um mr johnsontown okay i said no but and time is it for improve okay i called her earlier to ask me if she could mention she got okay and that you're gonna we're go to be or and future good to get to yeah gots um No, what what I was gonna say is, you know, as far as our friendship goes, you know, you're the one guy that I've always been able to count on. And and it doesn't matter if we're next door neighbors or we're
Speaker: a million miles apart, or if we go a day without talking to each other, or if there's been, in our friendship, there's been years that have gone by. But, you know, life happens, but then, you know, 10 years could go by, and we start talking again, and it's like there was no 10 -year gap. Like it was yesterday. Well, you know, the funny thing is, is like the only reason you and I fell out is because school ended. And you know, I joined the Navy and and went all over the world. And we lost contact because of that. And then when I got on social media, you were on social media, I was like, Hey, what's up, buddy? And were we're off to the races. Buddy, little bitch, you didn't talk. five for years i don't you be I don't have to look for a place. I know where to put them.
Speaker: I can dispose of a body with the best of them, let me tell you. and like Oh, is that right? You he jeff know you to talk you can quote me.
Speaker: ah jezz i don't I don't work for any three -letter agencies if I work for an ME. but by I will categorically say I do not work for any three -letter agencies.
Speaker: and
Speaker: happily. but is What is that? I don't know what this is. gonna I was offered a lot. All three of you have fine votes. There we go. We've started the campaign, boys. Honestly, how much money do we need to raise? I don't know. 20 bucks. World president.
Speaker: What's your foreign policy? There is none. We're the world. You ever heard that song? We are the world. That's our theme song. As we skip into Congress. Y 'all are out. Get the fuck out. yeah the fuckcker We are now the dictators. I mean, the democratically appointed presidents. Yes. Jeff. I am the dictator and Jeff and Connor are the dictators. Wait, what?
Speaker: only actually ah but yeah I'm glad you got that day taken, I took Sundays. I don't go to church, I just go see Blake. We got the weekend covered, that's all that matters.
Speaker: um at the I'll take Saturdays, you think Sundays? We keep him happy, that's all we know. ah We're seeing Russia, Russia is threatening threatening us with war. All right. No more head for lick. Got him off. yeah ah No, and I do want to take a real quick break and try to get back ah now i'll get back on. her I don't know what song this is. So I guess I'm just going to surprise myself and everybody else. I don't have it. I don't have it properly labeled. So we'll be back here in just a few minutes and we'll
Speaker: I don't know where the conversation is going to go. i know I know Connor had an idea of something he wanted to talk about. So maybe we'll maybe we'll dive down that pigeonhole. That might wait until next time. We'll see.
Speaker: Found you when your heart was broke.
Speaker: name in the sky does it ever
Speaker: I heard you're coming to America.
Speaker: I'm glad that everything unfrews. The music froze up on me while we were playing. So I was like, well, nothing else is frozen because I can still see my head moving. Ah, welcome back to me, Karen, for me and everybody. ah We had a little conversation about weekend events and me growing as an individual and and and learning to let things go on and and and move on from from staff. Ah,
Speaker: And we're going to get back here on track. I don't know what we're going to talk about next. We'll see what happens, but welcome back to men cam from in. It is a part of the nonsensical network. Go ahead and check us out. We are everywhere on them. Socials, uh, shows live Monday through Sunday. And you can listen to us wherever you listen to podcasts that we are all there at the network, but nonsensical network.
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Speaker: That was me by the way He is a more popular known Rock country guy um He is somebody that I'm working on getting on Glick's house of music, but that was a cover I don't know who originally sang the song but he did a I think he did a better job me personally You're not biased
Speaker: Uh, no, I mean, I like the other band that did. I can't think of who they are right off the top of my head. Um, I just think that, uh, with his, with his voice and everything like that, he he did a better job with it. Uh, he's not on the show yet, so I don't have to be biased. No, you're supposed to wait till after the show to be me. If you do it before the show, then they're never going to come on your show.
Speaker: me I just, man, I keep it 100. I keep it 100. Chris, I've never really truly wanted to slap you, but just a second ago, I thought about it. Right? See, that's you keeping it 100. Give a couple of years. It goes away. You learned it. Anyways.
Speaker: but yeah um He's like a dog that pees on the carpet a little bit too often. And so there's just that one spot in your house where you just like, fuck it. Like you just accept it. well did it around theres turned house yeah Glick just keeps pissing on that one spot of carpet and doesn't matter how many times you rub his nose in it. He's just gonna keep going back there. Yeah.
Speaker: There's a there's a whole ass another podcast that want to knock me off my pig as the champ. Another podcast that if we do anything, if we do anything at all, we have to be like we cannot let click come into our backyard and beat us at our football. yeah I'll be honest, that's that's my way of thinking with everything.
Speaker: when it comes to you in any sort of competition is just to make yourself stop calling yourself the champ. Although the last time you stopped calling yourself your champ the champ, you called yourself the God. So, you know, hey give give and take. I'm ah i'm ah i'm a generous God. I'm a loving God.
Speaker: I'm not, I'm not, I'm not God. I'm a God. You're not my God. You might be my president, but you're not my God. but
Speaker: Uh, but anyways, uh, what are we, what are we going to talk about tonight? Daughter is going to Spania for 10 days. That's awesome. Tell him to go check out Toledo and Madrid. Madrid's pretty.
Speaker: to let us gorgeous. hey beautiful What are you what are you what are you going to do with it? What are you going to do with yourself for a whole 10 days with no adult supervision? Michael masturbate but needs to sleep in.
Speaker: ah but What's I want him to sleep in? yeah just That's rich. That's rich. Okay. He's retired and that man is still up at like 530 every morning. It's like bro. I'm like, it's like my fucking grandfather.
Speaker: I can't do that. I'll have more time. i go to sleep that he said He said I will be very happy. He'll be able to sit in silence for five minutes just saying, calling it now. We were talking about that at the beginning of the show, man. That that that that alone time, that silent time where, you know, as yeah as much as I love Nikki and I love the kids, I look forward to Sundays or, so you know, when, when I don't have, I don't have, well, I do have a punk. I know blaze. No, but you don't have their listeners have responsibilities to worry about. You don't have sponsor bill. well Yeah. um Yeah. You know, it's just, it's, it's just, I can sit around. I do. I'll do the football show, which is so, you know, I enjoy doing all these shows. I love doing all these shows and I do have a lot on my plate. I do put a lot on my plate, but that's also good for me. That's also good for me.
Speaker: Um But you know, I just do the show on sunday It's it's an hour long hour and a half whatever and then the rest of the day and it's early in the day So then I have the rest of the day. Nobody's here I can play video games. I can watch my shitty movies and nobody wants to watch with me You can know me another blowjob It's just It's never help That's happened a lot, but not with constant. Well, he has Sundays. That's not on me. That's on him. No, but like be that that alone time, it's like, you know, right now I'm going through the ringer here with the wife being stuck in Europe because I don't have any cash. But, you know, even even the little bit that I get in the in the mornings in afternoon when I go to the store is like, oh, yeah
Speaker: Five minutes where I don't have to listen to somebody arguing or asking questions or whatever the case may be, I could just zone the fuck out for that five minutes. Granted, I wish it was longer and I can't walk any slower than I do. But I mean, I can walk like Connor and brag myself there, but who wants to do that?
Speaker: but ah but Mike, mike after after after this week, Mike, I think i think you'll take those words back. ah I served myself a big old shit sandwich in my football pitch. Everybody's going to watch an E -Pro on Sunday. I'm just going to put this out there as of right now. And we're going to talk more about it on Wednesday on What the Fuck News. Going into the two games tonight on my picks, I was 1 in 12.
Speaker: best Jeff, that's not good. yeah I got one right out of 13. I understand. However, one out twelve is shit how however, however, however, however, the other guys weren't that far ahead. they They weren't that far ahead of me. I think, I think, I think the winner as of this week has three as of right now, before the, the before these two games tonight have like three or four, right? So we all ate shit. I just made wild outlandish predictions. that
Speaker: But at the time, you you mildly believed them, right? Or you just kind of made shit up on the fly, like I would. My dolphin's prediction... You made You made educated guesses. Yeah, my my dolphin's prediction, I was just being a smart ass. Like, I didn't truly believe it, but... And I was being a wise ass. And it came back and bit me in the ass.
Speaker: But, um, but no, I mean, it was a wild weekend in football. I think, I think a lot of people's picks took, took hits this week. I think, I think a lot of people, uh, got, got shit sandwiches served to them on their picks and whatnot. But, um, but yeah, I mean, I don't know. Like I said, I do enjoy my Sundays and then I, you know, on Saturdays when the kids aren't here, usually Nikki goes into work in the morning and she works like 12 hours on on Saturdays.
Speaker: And, uh, you know, I have all the way up until showtime to just follow the fuck around the house. Yeah. Uh, the kids are here. Cash and I are usually catching up on wrestling or, or whatever. Um, so, um, but yeah, man, that, that, that peace and quiet, and and we've talked about it. We've talked about it on this show before about needing balance in your life oh a hundred percent and creating, uh,
Speaker: and I also think the other thing that's really kind of been good for me is going back to the gym. Really? Yeah. Cause I was starting to, I was starting to, I was slowly starting to, uh, just to fall into a depression over my week. I don't like what I see in the mirror when I, when I go get in the shower and stuff like that. So I was slowly starting to fall into a little bit of a funk.
Speaker: Plus the fact that, you know, I can laugh and joke about it. You guys can laugh and joke about it. But I mean, I, I got told you guys before I got on, I got on Nikki's parents' scale the last time we were down there. And all I said was, I turned the scale retarded. Yeah. I turned the scale retarded. Well, no, but I've said this a million times. I've said this a million times. You are not a fat guy.
Speaker: squa yeah and not i have i have a honor that guy you're You're tall as fuck. And yes, you you have a little bit more weight to you than I do, but it's spread out over a bigger area. You know, like if I weighed as much as you did, I would be, I would look like a big circle.
Speaker: because of great And I'm actually thinking of that. michael was Um, but the, the, the fact like you going to the gym, that does not, that actually stresses me out or believe it or not, what's bringing me peace lately is I'm learning. I'm teaching myself new programs on the computer here. Uh, the slicer programs for 3d printing, the the CAD programs. Uh, I'm learning more and more each day about editing, film editing.
Speaker: I'm learning more and more each day about spreadsheets and things like that, what you can do and how to work on them. That stuff, you want to talk of that, that complicated, over overly complicated shit that I don't need, it takes my mind off of everything else because it's it's a problem I can fix.
Speaker: I just got to figure it out. That's my that's it sounds weird, but that's my piece That's my my sanity because i'm like I don't have to focus on this problem that I can't fix Let's focus on something. I can That's that's my newest peacemaker But like the gym is not one of them I just don't like people And yeah, if I had a gym in my house, I wouldn't use it but the gym makes me the the gym is a good place for me to like get rid of a lot of my anger. like I'm always I'm always come back from the gym significantly you um more more tolerant. Yeah. Okay. I give my my family way more grace than I usually do because I get out all of my all of my anger and irritations and beer.
Speaker: but liquid death. Can you get me up some uh some black cherry and some watermelon propel? That'd be great. Thanks buddy. You're good looking out. When it comes to getting out frustration and anger. Water. You said you said you're you're you're are you both on that same thing where the gym gets out those frustrations and angers? and the gyms up so so yeah The gym's where I beat the shit out of the weights, dude. and That's where I just, I get, I get to be angry and I get to be mad and I get to get that anger out at the same time as I'm thinking about it. Yeah, I see. That's that. I'm the exact opposite. I am. I'm a giant bottle. So, so this, this will, this will make me sound. like now
Speaker: wait for it to explode and explode on the wrong person because somebody looks at me weird. Once it's too full, they'll die. And then end up with charges and having to pay for somebody broken an arm. Yeah. Yeah.
Speaker: um this all but neighborhood books me i stayin yeah the yeah The gym for me has always been that place where all the voices inside my head, you know, the self doubt, the self worry, the being my own worst enemy, you know, everything, those voices in my head are calm. I can zone out and it allows me some clarity and and and ah and time to get some peace of mind and kind of work through things where if I'm going through something,
Speaker: or something's bothering me. A lot of times I can't just process it because I've got all every other damn thing else going on in my head. I put my earbuds in, I listen to my music. You guys get a sample taste of the music that I like. You know what I'm into, you know, with with with the with the interviews I do on Glick's House of Music. You know where my head is as far as music goes. So I mean, I can, which is everywhere. But I can plug my earphones in or my earbuds in and I just work out and and and And it is also a way to release some frustration. You know, I'm not like, I'm not in the gym, like 900 pounds. I'm just doing my workout, but at the same time I'm releasing some of that. that was that pen out the motion he mad i'm clip yeah we like Yeah. Yeah. This is why I come to the gym right here. Yeah. I'm flipping that.
Speaker: ah who The only one getting clipped is you, Connor. No, so I mean, yeah, that's the, you know, that's, you know, back in the day, I used to, I used to, you know, go, um, I would box or whatever, you know, do, ah I did a little Muay Thai, you know, kickboxing. And that was a way that I can, cause I was, when I was younger, I was an angry ball of fucking fire, man. Uh, you know, I had a lot of anger issues and stuff like that. So I had to learn ways to.
Speaker: let my anger out and let my frustrations out and not hurt myself or somebody else. Well, see, that's, that's where I run into a problem with the gym. If I'm going through it and I go to the gym, I'm going to work out 10 times harder and end up hurting myself because it gives me, yeah, the gym gives me, I know. i'm Yeah. It allows me to, uh,
Speaker: When so yeah something's bothering me, like it gives me the opportunity, like I said, to have a clear head and look at it at different, different angles, and which is kind of what happens Saturday night. I had that moment, that brief moment of fire. And then it was like, hold on a second, let me pause and kind of look at it in a different way type deal. So, which is something I've gotten really good about too in the last couple of years. It's taken that time out inside my head and going, all right, dumbing.
Speaker: you can do it this way and you're going to look like an asshole. And you're going to make your guys look like an asshole or make your guys look like assholes too, because they're all in here with you or you can approach it a different way. So yeah like I'm not, I'm not quite like that at the gym. I'm, I don't, there's no calm or quietness that comes over me at the gym. No, no, while I'm at the gym, like,
Speaker: All I can hear is people fucking screaming and yelling and somebody's arguing with me inside of my fucking head. And I'm sitting there and I just take it out on, on the weights and like, like, I don't, I don't lift 900 pounds like I used to. Uh, but I will, I'll sit there and I just fucking go until I can't go anymore because I'm sitting there arguing with myself inside my head. Yes. I always hurt really bad afterward, but that's also not one but but yeah that's like how I got really strong, really fast while while I was in the army.
Speaker: Right. It's like, you know, i'm I'm very similar as in, yeah, I'm not doing crazy amounts of weight, but my reps will be through the fucking roof because I'm pissed off and I'm just working through it in my head. And next thing you know, I'm like, did I really do 40 reps of that? What an idiot. And then the next day I'm like, I can't lift my arm. yeah Somebody give me a glass of water. ah Or so you Navy dudes are such pussies. No, but it's like I don't.
Speaker: I've learned that the gym is not the place for me because of the simple fact I'm going to hurt myself because i you know I get in my head and I and i don't watch what I'm doing. I'm hitting the bench and 40 reps goes by. I'm like, why did I just do 40 reps?
Speaker: yeah or so i you got You get lost and you're working. Yeah. And I've learned the gym is not the place for me because then I, you know, after three weeks of that or or month, three months of that, I'm like, I don't have any shirts to fit anymore. Um, because yeah, and she you yeah it's like, why did I just gain 50 pounds? um My fucking weight fluctuation was crazy, dude. I went to Korea at one 85, one 90.
Speaker: And I came back at 205 because I just packed on a whole bunch of muscle. Yeah. And then I was home for like two months and I was up to 230. Yeah. Yeah. Because I'm up to 230 now that it's like, dude, what the fuck? I was, I was in medians. I wear a double XL now. Very small screwdriver to fix it. How small? Glick might be able to help you with it. He's got something small.
Speaker: But no, if I want to like calm my headspace and get I'll be I'll be right. I'll be right over Michael. I got I got your if I want that like calm headspace. I have to go out in the woods, dude. I have to go get lost, man. I that's I go here and nobody else is. I I try to do that, but I live in a city. It's like impossible.
Speaker: um But I will go for walks. I will go for walks. Like, obviously, I don't do it lately because, you know, I'm here alone with kids. But like, if the wife's home, like, yeah, I'm going for a walk, I'll be back sometime. You know, and she's learned to like, if he goes for a walk, just wait till he gets back. He'll eventually get stumbled back when he's hungry.
Speaker: You know, because he didn't take any cash with him. He didn't take any money with him. He left his wallet here. He's like, like, I've literally left the house to go on a, I'm pissed off at the world. I'm, you know, let's burn it all down and start over. And I didn't even take the fucking house keys. Well, I have to come back. and like you Hey, sweetheart. I'm sorry I left. I'm sorry. was angry. Not you.
Speaker: but yeah i' Not at you, I promise. like and no no I've come back and Cancun's being 10 ,000 degrees all the time. She's like, why are you dehydrated? I don't know. I just went for a 12 hour fucking walk in the 10 ,000 degree heat and I didn't take any cash with me because I'm an idiot.
Speaker: You know, I had to get out of my head. But it's it's a split second decision when I do it. that show it's It's from one second to the next. I'm like, you know what? I'm going out the door before I realize what I said. and see oh I wish I had the the freedom to do that sometimes, but I'm also kind of glad I don't. um Well, it's just've i've learned I've learned that my new thing is like I'll turn on the theater and start teaching myself a new program.
Speaker: ah Start teaching yourself Spanish. I speak Spanish. How fluent? How fluent? I'd say about 60%. That's not bad. That's not bad. Considering I don't talk to anybody except for the people at the store when I go buy cigarettes. And it's literally one word. See, every time I try and go for a walk around my block though or down my street, I end up just fucking paranoid.
Speaker: I ended up in a worse spot going for a walk down the street than I would if I would have just gone to the woods in the middle of the night and got lost. Yeah. That's because you live in the ghetto. bro was good I do live in the fucking ghetto dude. Holy fuck. I mean, I will have a blast. I mean, I would, I would go to the woods, but I spent most of my life living in the woods. So it's nice to be. I was going to say yeah you grew up there. So like, do you really want to go home?
Speaker: Well, and that's, that's the thing. It's like, you know, I grew up, my my parents had 50 acres and it was 90 % woods. And it was, you know, I can go out in the woods for four or five days. Nobody would even know um you know where I am. I can be standing next to you. You wouldn't know it. I can't eat my own food. Is that property still available? Actually, it's for sale right now. I think I gave it to us in the quarter.
Speaker: No. yeah I don't need the house. I don't need the house that's on it. I just need the light. That house house I actually helped build.
Speaker: Oh shit. I don't want that. Nevermind. Yeah. No, you keep it. That house originally started, that house was originally started built in, I think, uh, 62. And I actually, no, no, no, no, no. My grandfather built that house. And then, uh, when my parents bought it from my grandparents, uh, I actually, I've rebuilt the two car garage. I've rebuilt the barn. Uh, and.
Speaker: Dad and I added a three -car garage, the new enclosed porch in the backyard, and the wraparound porch on the front.
Speaker: And we refurbished the basement. Two and a quarter? Yeah, without the land. That's just the house. The last time I checked, it was 2 .25. Jesus Christ. See, I just need to hit the fucking megamillions.
Speaker: right? Well, I'm sure it's a lot more now. Um, because of the economy, but that's a hole in the ball game. Listen, I only, I figure I only need to win 50, $50 million dollars and I'll be set. That's all I need. Let the government, let, let the government take their 25. Oh, you're talking about before the government gets your, yeah, yeah. Before they fucking put their money in my pocket. Fair enough.
Speaker: but any Jew. No, but like I said lately, I'm, I, I watch a lot of tutorials on the stuff I'm doing that I actually do what I'm trying to figure out on these programs. Um, that way when I, you know, when I can afford the equipment I need to buy, I know how to use it day one and I can get some of the things built that I want to build. Yeah.
Speaker: I mean, for backstory, before we came up backstage, Glick and I were talking, and I was just like, dude, I'm fucking, I'm getting run ragged, I feel like, because I'm a stay -at -home dad. and I fucking hate, I hate being a stay -at -home dad. I love my kids.
Speaker: I so absolutely love my kids. Yeah, I've done it buddy, but but it's it's sucking the ever loving life out of me my whole every day all day. I have chores and kids.
Speaker: And then as soon as the kids get home, the chores that I just finished need done again because they ruined the fucking house. So I got to do chores again. My wife gets home and I'm not digging her or nothing, but she's tired. So she's not going to help out with this shit. She's just going to help out with the kids and I'm going to go get my fucking chores done. So the house doesn't look like a disaster. And when my, I'm a big,
Speaker: um'm not I'm not OCD, but when shit is super disorganized, or there's dirt all over the fucking floor, or I'm walking around my house, which has hardwood floors, and I'm stepping on food crumbs, I lose my fucking mind. I go ape shit. And so I have ah have to fucking do this shit. It makes me so fucking anxious.
Speaker: and it'll put myself into into this big fucking tizzy and end up having to go outside and chill out for a minute. And everyone's like, why is dad so upset? Well, dad's done the same chore four times today. yeah um i've cleaned Clean the same fucking thing four times a day. Dad doesn't go to work. Dad doesn't do this. And I told Lick before the show, I was like, dude, I just want to go get lost in the woods for like a week and not have to listen to anybody other than myself. Hey, I get it.
Speaker: You know, for 11 years. Yes. you You find yourself in a, in a, in a rut. And, and this is something that, you know, Nikki and I were, Nikki and I have been talking about lately because, you know, she doesn't do much. she and You know, she, she works on the weekends and then during the week she's here at the house and she didn't, she doesn't get out much. And, you know, I go to work and I come home and,
Speaker: and I do this most every day of the week. And, you know, it's like, man, I got to get out of this house. I want to go do something. And she does too, of course. And that's how it used to be in the past for me. It was like, you know, I would go to work and I would come home and I would go to work and then I would come home and then I would go to work and I would come home. And it was like, I got to get out of this freaking house because your house almost becomes a prison.
Speaker: Yes. look yeah there's i will mention it more it's like ah it's it's ah It's a prison. We got to be able to get out and get away for, and and I'm not saying like disappear for a week, but you got to be able to like. Even to go to, even to go to a restaurant.
Speaker: now No, and and i know I know what you're saying, but but what Glick's trying, and correct me if I'm wrong, but Glick's probably saying is like, even that that break of monotony of doing the same old rut every day, yeah that's a big deal. You know, it's like, you know, oh you guys pick on me all the time, because I don't leave my house. I don't want to leave my house. But after a while, I'm like, yeah, you know, what it's time to go do something.
Speaker: And, you know, we'll go, like, I took kids bowling and the other day just because I was like, fuck it, let's go bowling. Plus they just opened a bowling alley here. And I was like, I want to go bowling. ah But, kio bolo what but I'm at the point, like, I, okay, we did that. I'm good for another six months. I don't need to go nowhere. But like, usually like when the wife's here and and money's flowing in, um on the weekends, oh my God. dude We go to the mall, I've just lost 15, 20 grand right there, because I'll buy everything I see. I'm i'm terrible about it. Impulse buying is is this fun. Oh, oh the and and the malls here, you know, well, as we were we were, they were having the, it was like a, they call it bien fin, which is good weekend. It's basically Black Friday, I've been at last four days.
Speaker: And we went out all yeah and we we went out and I didn't realize as it was being hidden. And we got to the mall and everything was on sale, like 60 % off. I'm like, I'll take one of those, two of those and six of those. And then the next day we're going out to the car and I got 14 bags of shit. I'm like, what if we just buy? I blacked out. I don't remember. you yeah I don't know. but We just spent 15 grand. you know and that's me That's me at gun stores.
Speaker: Yeah. It's a good thing they don't. Nikki got mad at me because I brought home two 500 round boxes of 556 screen tip. She's like, do we have an AR -15? Do we have anything that's chambered in 556? Period. I was like, no, not yet.
Speaker: She's like, then why the, why the fuck do we have a thousand rounds of five, five, six green tips? I was like, because name god we're have it. That's why he's in Jeff. I want to be ready. When we, he's in Jeff from the slicer program before he bought a 3d printer. So he's prepared. No. And you know, uh, where, where I was saying like falling into the rut and whatnot, it's not necessarily getting that way. I was like,
Speaker: I did. It is nice to get out of the house with the family, but sometimes like, you just got to go do something by yourself that you enjoy. And Jeff, Jeff's a pain in the ass and apparently he hates every fucking thing. So this is a, this is, I might as well talk to the wall behind me before I. That's not true. That's not true. I can go to the, I can go to the, I can go to Home Depot and you want to talk about calm comb over you.
Speaker: oh um until somebody bumps into you. Yeah. Well, then then I burned down the store. Yeah, yeah. Another one, yeah. No, but like like i the new the the only well only the only time I'm allowed to go to Home Depot is when my wife takes my card. She's like, yeah, you're not going in there with a card because you'll just, okay I'm the asshole walks. I walk in there like, I'll take it all.
Speaker: love it You know, can you guys deliver, you know, you bought a $1 ,500 skill saw and it's a skill saw. You have three of them. Yeah, but this one. please just one This one's programmable for timing. Yeah, this one hasn't cut off yet. No, but it's like, um,
Speaker: I don't mind going out, like every once in a while when the wife's home and stuff, I'd be like, you know what? I'm going out to eat. And she's like, where are we going? I'm like, no, no, no, no, no. That's not what I said. I said, I'm going out to eat and I'll go to IHOP by myself.
Speaker: yeah that' That's a nice little, you know, because for me, being being the American that I am, I eat a lot of Mexican food, like a lot, dude.
Speaker: And so when you walk into an IHOP and you got pancakes and you got coffee and you know, it's like, ah. Happy just. And of course, you know, it's right across from the Walmart that all the tourists go to. So I'm like, look, Pat Americans, hi. I want to do, but I'm also not. Yeah, I talk to you, but you're people and I don't talk to people. it No soy blancum.
Speaker: but No, i like i I like going out. I just don't like dealing with people. Like, when we go to the mall, like, I don't go to the mall on a Sunday. Oh, God, God, God. 5 ,000 people in ah in a place that, well, 50 ,000 people in a place that's built for like 10 ,000? No, I'm out. I'm going anywhere where somebody get hurt. Yeah. So, like, if I go out, being that I work from home and I can kind of set my own schedule, I'm like, it's Wednesday. Let's go to the fucking mall.
Speaker: you know yeah you know I don't have to work till noon. tomorrow so so yeah see I think that going during the week, during the day is sometimes a little different, but my overwhelming hatred for being around other people that I don't know prevents me from even taking that step. I would rather just go out into my own backyard and just be outside for a minute,
Speaker: And and just oh, trust me, buddy. If there was a gun range here, I'd be there, Dave. Oh, my God. I mean, that's 15 grand that I spent on the weekend. Yeah. I can't I can't fucking handle the the people in being out now. I can't. It makes my stress and anxiety worse. You know what it is? You know what it is? Baby steps, buddy. Yeah, little by little, you know.
Speaker: um I'm telling you, 6 a .m. on a Monday, there's nobody in that mall. That's the time the mall opens at six. No, I'm just saying the mall waters around. I can mow down a fucking group of old people. I ain't worried. I'm all supposed to be. Jeff's been in here since 3 a .m. What? I have to leave. No, actually. ah on on During the week, the mall opens at like 10 o 'clock and nobody's there. and From 10 till noon, there's nobody there. yeah You know, everybody's at work and shit like that. So that's when I go because there's no people. you get If you see me there on a Saturday, it's because I really need whatever I'm there to buy. But I'm in and out in five minutes or less. So yeah, I'm thinking about getting one of those those jogger strollers.
Speaker: because Kennedy's about to be home with me again. Think about getting one of those jogger strollers so I can take it to the fucking park out in like a half hour away, almost 45 minutes away. Just so that I can go be out in quiet. You know what you do? You know what would be a good thing? It's it's it's not. You should run those bicycles. Oh, shit. Hey, i mean let me tell you, I got one picked out.
Speaker: um I'm down here. Vichy. No, but but don't talk about it. Be about it. All right. Don't worry. I will. ah If i were I ever get there, I won't say a fucking word. But you know, it's something you might look into. Have you ever seen those those trailers that that hook up to a back to a bicycle for your kids in the back and go for a pedal? Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. I know what you're talking about. Won't do it in my neighborhood, but yeah.
Speaker: Well, yeah, you'd load it up in the car, truck or whatever. Take it to a good... You see me riding around on a bicycle with... Unload that shit. All three of my kids in the back. You give the kids MP5s and be like, okay, walk, I'm on a pedal. All right, the boys get the nine millimeters, Kennedy gets the 380, and I'm riding around with an AR -10 on my chest. Oh, it's such a nice day.
Speaker: I wonder why everyone's staring at me. Say something. Say something. Look at us funny. I dare you. The youngest one's trigger happy. I'm just saying. She just got strong enough to pull the hammer back. Try it. Where the hell do you live? Pakistan? in the Ukraine? yeah like In the ghetto. He live in the ghetto. It's the normal.
Speaker: We've had shots fired on our street. Four times in the last month and a half. You know the way to fix that. Start shooting back. for yeah and or why yeah but The words right out of my mouth. Listen, that'd be me. There's a reason I've taken Nikki to the range a few times.
Speaker: You shoot, I shoot, you shoot, I shoot, you shoot, we shoot at the same time. It's a new Dr. Seuss book called, I shoot, you shoot, we shoot, you shoot. Also known as Fuck Around and Find Out. Author by Ted Cruz. The couple that shoots together stays together. Illustrated by Dick Cheney. I'd like to take your quick talk for Wednesday. I sent you a video.
Speaker: Uh, you talked about that girl that stole her mom's car and drove to Starbucks. Yeah, it's been released. Nice. I say the dash cam video. I thought that was funny. She's literally all over the road, man. She can't keep that thing straight for fucking nothing. She changes like this.
Speaker: What's up, Robinson? I didn't. Uh. Oh, i nothing, nothing to make you nervous. Let it continue to drive.
Speaker: Well, Hey, we got another topic for the end of the night. no i think i' done ah you good bed did not even You don't even go here in the first place. He doesn't usually live here, but he saw me and he was like, I can't say no. honor Oh my god. i't fred here I feel bad for him with his leg. The Bluetooth device is connected. all definitely You know, the good news. Oh, I guess the bad news for you, Jeff, is you don't get to lift anybody's legs in the air when we're doing that. I know.
Speaker: was one oh if only. its Just nubs. Just nubs.
Speaker: That reminds me, you and I off air, we need to talk. I found a couple of things you might like me. Yeah, I got I got something that wrong ah in in for for your business. Nothing you gotta to buy from me and or anything. I don't like things or people. I'm telling you this is something you're going to want.
Speaker: That's not true. I actually love that. I think that is, I think that is something that both of you guys need to really start to consider working on. And is and we're not going to, we're not going to call it a hatred towards people. We're going to call a spade a spade here because it is Monday night. and And I say this as somebody who has dealt with it and still continues to deal with it. so my decade hiring people that that talk That you guys have.
Speaker: No, you guys have, and and this is just an educational guess because I'm not a doctor. You guys have severe, like severe social anxiety. And that's why you say, oh yeah, a mask it. I hate, I hate people. I hate people. No, you have social anxiety. And I totally get that because listen here to plot where it's because of what we've done for a living in the past.
Speaker: It ask Connor. Hold on. I'm gonna ask Connor. We did not rehearse this Connor. When you go out, you got your head on a swivel. Yes, 24 seven every day all day. Yeah, so do I. You know what we've all done and yeah, but things you know, I've probably done. Just as bad if not worse things than you guys did in the military in the streets. So you did. I'll never I'll never have a pissing. I do the same thing. I do the same thing. I'm with you guys. I'm with you guys. I'm not going to, I'm not going to go down this road with you guys. This is one of the biggest problem I have with military guys. And I'm not saying you guys, I'm saying in general is they think that they're the only ones who have gone through anything or seen anything or have, because they were in the military, you're not. There's police officers. There's first responders who've never been in the military who have probably
Speaker: You know, a good number of people who have probably seen, you know, a fireman rich. I know he was a fireman in the air force, but he was a fireman in a civilian life too. I'm sure he'd seen some pretty terrible things. I know my uncle, both of my uncles, my one uncle, never in the military. Uh, he was a, he was a firefighter slash EMT for like two decades, but maybe a little bit longer. And I know he has been a part of some terrible, terrible things.
Speaker: He's seen in witness. So, you know, yes, there is that trauma there. Everybody has a story. Everybody has, you know, a backstory. You know, I don't think being in the military makes it makes it worse or than anybody else. But and I say this about the social anxiety because I've dealt with it most of my life and I do the same thing. I'm constantly my heads on a swivel. When we go out to restaurants and stuff like that, um I say,
Speaker: I set in a particular spot. i I know my exits, I know my surroundings, you know what I mean? Like when I walk into an environment that I'm not familiar with, I get i get uneasy. right But that's a part of anxiety in general, not just, ah not just you know, it is it is a side effect of trauma, we'll call it that, but it's it's it's more of the social anxiety level.
Speaker: or an anxiety and it's baby steps, man. I used to be, I've told you guys before, I hated going into like a restaurant or something like that. There was one time when I was, uh, when I was, um, when I was living down in Charleston and my ex wife and the kids came back home to visit, I literally drove around in my car for three hours trying to figure out what I wanted to do for dinner because I did not want to go where any, I didn't want to go to a restaurant.
Speaker: because people were going to be inside. I didn't want to go through a drive through because I would have to talk to people or there might be people in the drive through. And I just wound up going home and eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches because my anxiety was so ridiculous.
Speaker: ah and So, I mean, I think that's something that you guys should definitely start to so to work on. I mean, I understand the crutch. I hate people. I used to be the same way. I was the exact same way. I hate everybody.
Speaker: I'm not going out in public. This is a mess that I put on. So people weren't like, oh, pussy. Not that you guys are pussies, but that's how I felt people would look at me. If I said, no, I don't want to go outside because I don't want to go, I don't want to go to a restaurant because I'm ah ah terrified of having ah an anxiety attack and looking like a fool. you know she never traced you to like a fool i um You know, it was just so much easier for me to go, no, I don't like people. I'm not going out in public.
Speaker: and and And baby steps, like we told John Connor, baby steps. You're not going to you're not going to wake up tomorrow and be like, oh, I'm going to go to Lollapalooza this weekend. not going ah But in the hell. But yeah, the the the I've been there, man, I've been there a lot. I was there for many years with that with that.
Speaker: I'm all surly and shit you However, you want up it. I don't ah let me rephrase. I don't hate people I Have a genuine love for people Genuinely of my fellow man My fellow man is is is that which I wish that I could protect and assist to move forward But I know that I don't know everybody And that makes me uncomfortable on so many levels. You can call it social anxiety. You can call it PTSD. You can call it just being fucked up. I don't care. I'm not liking people. I have a disdain for being around people that I don't know because I understand, like most people, I understand the evil that they can do. And for some reason that consumes me. And I've kind of given up on trying to ah tough it out.
Speaker: you know, at this point, I just i I avoid the situations that I know put me in, put me in a different headspace. yeah And if I if I'm there and I don't want to be I have medication that can help me when if and when I have an anxiety attack because it just it happens. I've tried the therapy. I've taken the meds. I am I've been sitting here for the last six fucking years or however long I've been, four years rather. And i just I'm over putting in the extra effort to try and show people that I love them. If you want to get to know me, let's get to know each other and then and then we can be buddies. But I'm not going to go out and intentionally put myself in situations that make me uncomfortable. And I know that it ends poorly for me on the back end every single time. And then my family deals with the consequences.
Speaker: yeah that's Not saying yeah, not saying put yourself in situations That's why I said the baby steps, you know Like there's a part of me that I'm very hesitant and weary with with with people as well when I'm out in public You know, I totally understand that Yeah, and and i think most I think most people do Because and that's and that's and that's part of because of the society that we live in today the people's and and People's crazy. And I'm going to use this term as loosely as I possibly can with what I'm about to say here. People's crazy is literally on display. Like it's a badge of honor. If somebody, you know, like, like, you know, a few years back, you know, and I think it still happens in New York. Um, I think it was New York, the the knockout game.
Speaker: Like people will blatantly do things to hurt others and have no care in the world about it. Um, or with his bold and brazen as criminals, criminals are today. I totally understand that fear of people, but kind of like you can't let, very recently yeah, you can't let fear and anxiety control your life and, and, and, and,
Speaker: I guess that's one of the things I had to learn. And it took me a while to to figure that out. Like I can't, I can't let my anxiety or my fear of the outside world dictate my life. I have to rein it in and I have, I can only control what I can control at the end of the day. If something bad has, I mean, somebody could walk up on me right now here on my porch, but I'm not going to sit here on my porch and worry about it. You know, I'll, I'll cross that too many unknown sort of speak.
Speaker: Yeah.
Speaker: yeah yeah i mean mean you know but don't it ah yeah and i want i want to I'll keep it completely truthful and honest. I don't think that I'm the only person in the fucking world and I'm not too ignorant to believe that I'm the only person in the world who who deals with this on a constant basis. And I think that there are plenty of people who have just pushed through it or they got to therapy and they did all the things and and you know they followed the the list and the education by the to the T and over time they baby stepped their way into it. And i just I don't have the fucking energy for that shit anymore. I try not to complain too much about it.
Speaker: I really, I really try not to. My wife says, Hey, we're we're going here. We're going to the grocery store. I'm just like, all right. Like I assume that we have shit to get done. The only thing I asked is like, you know, we've got a list. We go in, we get the fucking list and we leave. We don't sit there and fucking look for a thousand different things that aren't in the fucking reap list. Like we go in with a plan and we fucking leave. And yeah I'll take my minutes before we even go in.
Speaker: before we even go in, I'll take the meds and knowing that, you know, it's going to keep me a little bit more calm. Things aren't going to be as big of a deal to me when they happen. But when I don't take that or when I'm pushed into a situation that I'm not ready for, or I'm not comfortable with, it's just something that's out of my control. So I just avoid it. And, yeah you know, and you and I've had enough therapists tell me that, you know, avoiding the problem never helps, but I don't have problems when I'm not in those situations. So I think it's doing fucking great. she shehi here well i'm go tell problems and you're home alone yeah it could It can absolutely 100 % wear you down and you're still young Connor. That's the thing. You're what? 25, 26. He's got a lot of life left, man.
Speaker: You got a lot of life left. and and like and you know much like and I've mentioned to Connor in the past, you know, Connor sent me a couple of videos, messages, and he's like, dude, I'm going through it. I'm like, give it time. Because, you know, I was in his same boat when I first got out. And like the things he says, he'll message me. And I'm like, I know exactly where his head is right now. And it's taken me years to get to the point where I am.
Speaker: And you're pretty fucking terrible now. Yeah. And I'm not saying I'm better or anything, but no, no, no, no, no. No, but I'm saying there's times where, and I don't hate people. I just don't like crowds. Yeah. Jeff's also quick to shut down and just change the subject. This one thing I know about Jeff more than anything is he'll shut you down and change the subject real quick. And in a hurry, you don't like to open up and be, you know, it took me it took me a while.
Speaker: You know, and much like we've talked about before, we, we talked about it with John, we talked about it with Jarvis. You know, it's, it's nothing that's going to happen overnight, but you have. Also, I'm not the next Jarvis, just because I'm a little low on this. Fuck you. No, no, no, no, no. I can hear it already. I know it's coming. Listen to it. And I'm talking to, jeff I'm talking to Jeff. I know I'm talking to Jeff too. You know, I'm saying like we had this, you like,
Speaker: you you have to make the conscious decision to go, okay, I want to start working on these things. And I think you both know that. I mean, like I said, I had to have a, I i was down and out and and I was below rock bottom and I had to have that conversation with myself. I was absolutely miserable. I hated who I was. I hated everything about me. I hated my life. I hated where I was. And ah it was, it was a drunken stupor one night and I sat down and and I literally,
Speaker: had this conversation with myself. If anybody else would have been in the house with me, they probably would have thought I was stark, raving, mad lunatic because I was literally talking out loud. I was crying. I was yelling. I was screaming. Like i I was at the lowest I'd ever been in my life. And I had to have this conversation. Like nobody can fix you, but you buddy, like, you know, you've been knocked down time and time and time again, but you always get back up. This is not going to be,
Speaker: that time where you don't get back up. And I mean, it was a literal audio conversation with myself. Um, and that's when I started and it was baby steps and I'm still not, I'm still not perfect by no means I've still got a long way to go. But, but I mean, and you're fucking 50.
Speaker: hu No, it's, but yeah. Well, it was, it was that, it was that decision on my own. And, and, and, you know, I don't think Jeff's had that moment yet, obviously. And kind of like I said, man, you're, you're so young. I would hate for you to spend the next 40 years, 50 years, whatever it is, dealing with this crap. You know, you probably got a good 50 years in you, I think at least I'll give you till 75 ish. Oh, good call. I got you.
Speaker: Well, it's good to see people are still out there playing their stupid games all that. I saw that one coming. Yeah, but. Oh, what a what the fuck? I'm confused. People must be. Now I I find that that's something of course, right after we see that thing, Glick shows his former crack. Yeah. Yeah, well, I will. i will How low do you have to be to steal somebody else's image just to show your model? I mean, it's funny, you know, it's funny that hasn't happened in a while. And I, ah you know, it's, it's funny that hasn't happened in quite some time. And I mentioned somebody's name Saturday night and look what happens again. No, it's funny how that works. Fucking wild dude on Monday night too. so funny out You know,
Speaker: That is the perfect example of why I don't like people. Because people like that, ah you're in the same room with me and that happens. um i don't I don't know why. I'm just getting really fucking mad. Right? I'm assuming right now. i' Like my neighbors need to go lock their doors kind of mad.
Speaker: Like that made me very upset. and I don't know why that that fucking I I don't either It's one of those things that do I come onto your shit? Whatever show and do that to you. No because I have a fucking life You low down piece of shit I will I will will know I never mind don't worry about it How ah You know what, we're coming up on two hours. What a, what a great way to end this fucking show. Yeah. No, but like I, like I said, you know, by the way, wipe your end I think try to get back up. Yeah, I was a period photo. Yeah. Yeah. Like I said, it's, it's, it's, it's funny how I bring up somebody's name on Saturday and then look what happens.
Speaker: I'm, I'm sure. Oh, bullwick jack what they're doing
Speaker: I'll check that out. I got there. Yeah. Like I said, like I said, you know, I think ultimately, and, and, and I, and and, and I'll continue to say that, you know, as we have these conversations and stuff,
Speaker: Ultimately the the decision to get better and be better Find a better version of you. However, you want to look at it ultimately comes down to you. It doesn't matter ah How many doctors you go to how many Prescriptions you have how many friends you have or anything like that? Ultimately it comes down to and that's what I said. That was one of those things where Also made me and started pushing me in the direction of I don't want toxic people around me I don't want the toxicity you know i don't want the drama i don't want the crap i don't want all the bs like i keep surrounding myself with as much good as i possibly can and if that means that i have to swallow my pride every once in a while whether people like it or not um i don't know jeff oh no read it gives instructions
Speaker: Oh, yeah. That's my new toy. I can track i yeah addresses now and track people down. if i want blank whoever you are you Yeah. You know, if that means that I have to swallow my pride and, and, and move on from a situation, then so be it, you know, nobody gets to decide whether I'm in the right or wrong.
Speaker: only I can decide that. And if, and if I make a decision to swallow my pride and it comes back and kicks me in the ass, well, then that's something that I got to deal with, you know, again, but, um, and it was, and and I'm telling you since I made those decisions and I started making those moves, I have far less bad days now than I used to have. Uh, even, even, even like,
Speaker: Even when even like when like so like like say something at work would happen. I would dwell on that shit for weeks Now it's like yeah, I leave work when I clock out. I don't even think about it I'm like yeah that that suck that fucking happened or that person drove me crazy But I've clocked out and I'm leaving it behind and then I come in the next morning and it's a new day Right it's a new day and time for another new adventure
Speaker: what can we get into today? yeah It's like, you know, I, I, I got to take the trash dumpsters out at work. And last week there was this homeless guy who started going through our dumpsters as I'm bringing them out. And I came around in the forklift and he got freaked out and I'm like, Hey man, you're good. I don't care what you're doing or why you're doing it. All I ask is please don't make a mess and close my lids. So for real, for real, like you're you're not going to call the cops or anything. I'm like,
Speaker: And when it looks like you've got enough problems in your life. Yeah. It was like, you've got enough problems in your life. Why the hell am I going to add more to your, you know, add more? I did today. We actually, uh,
Speaker: we're actually getting ready to wrap up Noel. So, uh, you might have to hit us up on Saturday, but, uh, then today we actually had like a little, uh, little five minute, uh, uh, we'll conversation, chit chat it with the guy a little bit, you know? So.
Speaker: I mean, he's just shooting the shit. Nothing serious or anything like that. I didn't even catch his name. Just took time. I had to bullshit with him a little bit. you know But um yes, like I know you clearly have a lot going on in your life, brother. I'm not going to add anything more to your life that's going to cause you headaches.
Speaker: God. ah Yeah, no, it's I just man. I just truly want to be a better person. and I want to be a better version that i than my that I've ever been. I think you guys do too. It's just pulling through the struggle at the end of the day. Not that you guys are bad people, obviously, not that you're bad people. but I mean, har if our pre -show was recorded, then people might think otherwise.
Speaker: but but that No, I don't think so. I think for fact I appreciate our conversation. I think our backstage conversation, I think most people would agree with us 100 % justification and justified. and i that I mean, outside of France for no apparent reason. but Why would you do that?
Speaker: that's italian that's that's italy That's Italian with a French accent. No, um we are going to get ready and wrap up here. We're at that two hour mark. I do want to say thanks everybody for listening. Thanks everybody for hanging out. ah I don't know what's going on tomorrow night on Glick's House of Music or if there will be a Glick's House of Music.
Speaker: Unfortunately, Jay Valor had to reschedule. He'll be on next Tuesday. He's literally getting on a plane tomorrow, flying to Vegas, getting off the plane and hitting the stage. So he had to reschedule. um I don't know what I'm going to do. Maybe I'll just get on there and, you know, play a little bit of music or, you know, something. I don't know what I'll do. Or I just won't do anything. We'll see what happens. We'll have to wait and see what happens at eight o 'clock tomorrow night. But, uh,
Speaker: I don't even know if I want to put together. Yeah, I don't want to even. Yeah, that's a lot of work. I don't have time for that. I can try to put together like a, I can try to put together like a best of and clip it all together and mash it together. But yeah, that's a lot of work.
Speaker: ah
Speaker: but but It's just like, me it's just like Vegas. street guys course ah Have a good one, Rich. Appreciate you being here, man. Appreciate everybody being here. Everybody in the chatters box. Thank you guys for hanging out with us. We will be back next Monday with a brand new episode. But in the meantime, check out the rest of the network. As you know, Mondays is Men Care for Men. Tuesdays is Glick's House of Music. I'm hanging out doing interviews with up and coming local artists. Wednesdays is what the fuck news. If it's in the news and it makes us say what the fuck, Jeff and I are going to talk about it.
Speaker: Thursdays this Thursday, we will actually have a brand new episode of Cassius corner. Uh, my son and I will be sitting down, talking a little wrestling. Cause that's what we do. Um, I thought there was something else I was going to do. Oh yeah. Uh, also possibly Thursday night. I'll have to wait and see. I will be on another shop podcast. We'll be talking football, college football, NFL.
Speaker: You guys can go check those guys out. Another shop podcast. Those are our boys, uh, doing their thing over there. Will and, and Steve. Uh, but outside of that cash is corner Fridays is nonsense and chill. Is that what you guys are calling it? Do you guys have yeah part you coming up this Friday, Joe? Yeah, we got it. Part two. Uh, we need to edit, uh, on Thursday and then it'll be posted on Friday.
Speaker: Okay. So it'll be a prerecorded show guys. You can chat. It'll go up. We're going to have, we're going to have a couple of live ones as well. Yeah. okay on Well, if you, if you want to drop some, go ahead, man. guy like Anarchy at his house you can hear the
