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Let's get even deeper and wilder into our divinely beautiful femininity. Everything from taking those sexy pics, to finally looking your pussy eye to eye, to a deep look into shadow work! And some other very interesting and unique ways to honor your divine feminine energy.
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Introduction to Awakened Big Podcast
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Welcome to Awakened Big, an educational, high vibrational, mystical, spiritual pot, I'm sorry, podcast, from two girls, one joint, and a journey to awaken what's inside all of us. In the words of the wise Wiz Khalifa, let's roll something and get the day started. Hello. Hey motherfuckers. Good morning.
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Good morrow.
Exploring the Divine Feminine Series
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Alright guys today's episode is another from the divine feminine series today We're gonna talk about things that are a little bit weird. Maybe a little taboo Oh, yeah, I'm definitely throwing in a taboo thing at the end. Holy fuck. Oh my god
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Something just came up guys writing it down right now, so I don't forget shit. I'm excited now So now you gotta keep listening. Yeah, I find out yeah, and you literally stay till the end and listen I've actually never done what I'm gonna tell you I'm just gonna tell you about I've never done it, but I'm gonna we're gonna talk about it So you're gonna want to stay till the end Kelsey
Moon Cycles and Shadow Work
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How you doing today, bitch? You feeling divine? You feeling divinely feminine? Kind of. Yeah. Kelsey's on her moon time right now. I'm on my moon cycle. I'm also just like, you're an emotional person right now. I think a lot of it is because I'm like working through the shadow work and stuff. So like a lot's coming out and we're gonna talk all about that stuff.
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But yeah, as far as my feminine goes, she's good, but she's baby. That makes sense. Well, when you're on your period, we tell everybody, treat yourself like baby because you are, you're literally bleeding and existing. Blood's coming out of you while you're just supposed to exist normally. How? How? I explained it to my husband last night as my organ is rejecting itself and shoving it out of
Honoring the Divine Feminine
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my body.
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Because that's what's happening people that is okay, so so today We're gonna talk about some ways to honor your divine feminine and it's gonna be things we didn't mention last time We're gonna go into a little bit kind of not even necessarily weird Well, it's gonna get freaky at the end But um a little bit of territory that you might not expect some advice you might not expect we're gonna take a Very quick ad and then we're gonna jump into it
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Alright, we're gonna start with the big one. I want you guys, I want all my bitches, and by bitches, I just mean people listening to this. Start taking nudes of yourself. You don't have to send them. You don't have to send them, but if you do, go ahead, bitch, I do it. Send them to your friends. I have a group chat with a couple of friends of mine on Snapchat that's called Nudes for Nudes, where we literally will just
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shoot a quick pic
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nudes in the first place but baby we live in a different time now like your nudes are safe like as long as you keep them safe you know what I mean right um and also nowadays like you can just like buy nudes online like only fans or like per person at the end of the day
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I don't usually love this or like I wouldn't usually use this person but like Bella Thorne I know like she talked about like how when her needs came out and like Miley Cyrus too I think something about like right like just being like well it's my body like I don't fucking like why is it such a big deal that like my body is even it's such a scandal that I took these pictures like who I have a relationship with a person where we were sexually romance like right you mean like why is that such a crazy thing and
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And I think it's important to build that up for yourself too Especially because a lot of us grew up hearing like you should not do that kind of thing And then if you're a woman who grew up or anyone who grew up with insecurities You're like, yeah, nobody would want to see me naked like no and I'm telling you guys So I recently read this like quote from this woman I saw it on Instagram and it was like this they interviewed this woman who she's an elderly woman I don't know how much time she has left that they asked her
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They asked her, like, what is your, you know, what's some advice you would give, like, to someone younger, like, who has, like, their whole life ahead of them? And she was like, take the nudes, oh my god. She was like, your body's gonna change so much and you're gonna wanna remember it, like, at every stage, like, how beautiful it was, like, and she, that was just, like, I've never heard anyone say that, especially not an old bitty, like, just out here talking about, like, take the nudes. But, like, they can help your confidence so much. And our friend, you all know, authentically, Ally, Ally Glott.
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So she taught
Sacred Mirror Time and Self-Exploration
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me this and she said that your time in the mirror is sacred and anytime you're in the mirror since it's a lot of the time we spend our life I mean unless you're like a dancer obviously who you're in front of a mirror all day long like when in dance class in the studio most of us though we don't spend our whole life looking at ourselves right like all the time we're pretty much looking at other people and we only see ourselves through like photos or something
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Yeah, so when we're looking at ourself in the mirror, that's a time to be incredibly kind to yourself. That's a very spiritual time It's very ritualistic like you have to be so intentional with how you speak to yourself and treat yourself Yes, and something that's also like I don't know I don't know a lot of us don't maybe do it but something that can be incredibly powerful especially for like our feminine is um sit with a mirror and look at look at
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Look at your girl, look at your vagina, get to know her. I didn't do that until I was 25 years old. I think it was the first time I looked her eye to eye. That's hilarious, eye to eye, exactly. But I had to do it and it was a transformative moment. And now, I can't say it, I do it all the time, but at least once every six months, I try to genuinely make it a point where I romanticize the fuck out of it. I'll light some candles and I'll sit down with her and I'll be like, hey girl. Hey girl, how you doing? What's going on? How you feeling?
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That's awesome, I love that. Well, that kind of brings us to the next point though. I date my vagina. No, that's awesome because honestly, what I was gonna say after that is you gotta get to know your yoni. You have to, so what do I mean by this, right? I am telling you, even if you have a partner who really like pleasures you and gives you what you need, you do have to do that for yourself sometimes. I'm literally telling all of you guys to tickle your peach. I'm telling you to masturbate. Masturbate, normalize it too. Talk about it.
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Yeah, so look guys and i'm okay one thing that I want to talk about because we have thrown out like wow Your orgasm is so powerful masturbating with your like manifesting and masturbating is so powerful and it is But I want to get really clear on something you it is possible to be overdoing it That energy is super super strong and it will drain you when you do it So you really can't be doing it all the time because you'll notice It'll start to not feel as good. It won't feel as powerful. You'll feel like almost like
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really exhausted but not in the way afterward where you're like whoa I just did some shit but where you're like now I feel like a little bit like sad or empty or whatever um it's super possible to be doing it too much so here's like my tip for doing it I try to do it with my cycle my personal cycle Kelsey had a really good point too earlier though she was talking about you can do it to the moon cycle and like even if it's not your ovulation time because I like to do that during my ovulation because that's when my hormones are like heightened for that kind of thing right right
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I'll just say that's when I'm horny baby. Um yeah but I know like the new moon is all about like manifesting and stuff like that so that's also like a good time to like do that but you don't want to be right like Danny said it's not an everyday thing especially if you're masturbating and manifesting like if you're doing that every single day to manifest this one thing then what you're doing is it is hyper fixating and obsessing and you're trying to make this thing happen like right have it be a moment on your ovulation like again a special night during your ovulation
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where you do a nice romantic thing and you really give yourself a great fuck. I mean, right. We're not talking about, she said, give yourself a great fuck. That was everything. A great fuck. Like, right. I'm not talking about like a quick, like, right. Like really do it. Like just a lot of closure. I like really, really get into it. That's like the kind of like powerful orgasm that does this sort of thing. It's not like there's got to be so much intention behind it. You know, I totally agree. I totally agree.
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Um, so yeah, that's I think with the more comfortable you get with your yoni and with knowing her and honestly if you can make yourself orgasm it makes your confidence go off so much more and like it's like I used to think that I wasn't able to orgasm because my So weird, isn't it? I was about to be like yeah because my crazy abusive stalker x like really couldn't get me off But it's like well, I wonder why like wonder why like he sounds nuts. I had
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Exes that were not that crazy. And they still didn't get me off. I didn't have my first orgasm until I masturbated and I was probably 2021. Nice. I was older than like, I mean, I started having sex at 15. So I was having five years of sex before I even knew what sex was supposed to be. I wasted five years. But I also think like, for some people, like for me, like, there was so much like, mental block and stuff. And I had like, I did not have a relationship with my body. And so I use sex like sex to me was not any connection to my divine feminine or anything. It was just sex.
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That's hard as for a lot of people though, and that's why it's really important for you to get to know your yoni and have a relationship with it, because let's be honest, we can't be relying on other people to make us cum. We can't. Because they might not do it. No, you can't rely on people for shit. And like I will say, if you have a partner who you can trust, that makes all the difference. Communicate with them, especially during your time, whenever you're the most horny. Again, typically for me, that's ovulation. But have protected sex so you don't get preggo, especially in these trying times. God damn.
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um way to make light of a situation um but yes okay anyway moving on um another thing that i really want to talk about is you guys this one might seem like simple but wear whatever the fuck you want to wear like stop saving it for a special occasion because the truth of the matter is a lot of times that special occasion when it finally comes i feel like it's overhyped and then you get disappointed and it's like what if it's a bust no one's there no one even saw you look cute
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Wear it for yourself, wear it around the house, take, like, okay, I feel like once you do yourself up in something you're confident in, it really makes you feel more productive and you're feeling yourself more, and then you might even be inspired to take some pics. You might be inspired to post those pics, and then those are usually days where people are like, holy fuck, bitch, you look good as hell. And then isn't that what you wanted when you buy that new outfit and you want to feel so good, you know this is gonna make me feel like the baddest motherfucking bitch. It's gonna make me feel like Michelle Obama status.
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And like, you're just gonna feel like the most respected woman. I love that. I love that. I love that your respected, most badass bitch is Michelle Obama. When I think of a powerful woman who everyone just respects, I think of Michelle Obama. Like a classy, but batty.
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Yes, right. Yes, except for idiots, but those are idiots exactly and we're not talking to idiots Yeah, so like it's it's like that type of thing where like often we wait and we save an outfit and for myself like I do this too I'll save an outfit and I'll be like I'm gonna wear it to this place and then the place ends up being hella lame and no one even Appreciates my fit and the people who I thought would see it like might where are my girls in my gaze? We're gonna comment my style like it's cuz our husbands are in the Navy and that's those are the
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That could be, that could be a nice problem. We pull up to the weirdest functions, you guys. But we pull up, stun. Every time we make a point to, we're like, look, if we gotta go, we gon' go. We will show out. And like, I feel like, so I used to follow someone on Instagram who, I do admire this person, to a point.
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And their whole thing was about not wearing makeup and embracing body hair. And I have no way shaming that. Do what you do. But oftentimes I felt like she would come across, and I've seen this in other ways that we talk about, like right being body positive, body neutral, where it kind of almost shames us or makes us
Self-Expression through Makeup and Clothing
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feel guilty. Sometimes if I put on a full face of makeup, sometimes I'm like,
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Maybe I'm be like am I really being me like you know in your oh am I insecure? I wanted to do my makeup exactly you're like You know I think we start to have like and it's like it's okay to do that and to have fun with it and explore with it and like yes Okay, I've been saying this for a long time bitches like when people are like yeah, but that's not how you like naturally look Do you cut your hair? Do you cut your toenails? Do you dye your hair? Do you get dressed bitch? You weren't born with that dress on you weren't born with those jeans like goddamn chill out right right and
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Now I'm not saying spend thousands of dollars and get plastic surgery and change your entire face, but I'm saying if you're someone who like loves wearing makeup or even someone who maybe wants to explore that avenue but you feel like, oh I can't do that because I don't do that or whatever, like you can, you can step out and do it. There's a really cool girl, Healthy by Hannah.
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who she recently started doing makeup like on herself and stuff. And I don't even think she does tutorials or anything like that. But she's got a cool podcast. She's a really cool girl. Follow her on Instagram. But she does like beautiful makeup. And she always makes like reels about how when she's doing I'm like, man, I never would have done this. And she'll do like clouds or something or like lightning, like something very bold and unique. And I always see it. I'm like, wow, you're rocking that. And the reason she rocks it is because she has so much confidence in it. And you can see that when she's doing it and when she's wearing it, like,
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she's so her like she's literally painting herself onto her face and it's beautiful and that's so like incredibly I just love right I love and like if there's anything I've learned living in a city it is that you can wear anything and rock it I have seen some of the most insane outfits on people that look
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hotter than I've ever seen people like it's crazy the things that people put together like in like the uniqueness and the color like you our wardrobe and what we can do to our physical being is a beautiful thing and like It's a form of art like and part of honoring your feminine, right? Is that creative side? So when you're taking the time and you don't have to wear a dress baby, you know where the
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Basketball shorts like if you're like damn, I'm really like in I know for a lot of women we've been like really appealing to the male gaze for years and A lot of us are fucking tired of it and a lot of people are like, you know what? I actually like am more comfortable in like a completely different energy. Maybe a more masculine energy Maybe a more masculine way of representing themselves right or presenting themselves like even like sexually and like that can I feel like The way you express yourself with your clothes if you and I will say this is a privilege to be able to do this Yes
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If you wear at a place though where you are privileged enough to be able to express with yourself with your clothes, do it. Like it will fulfill a part of you that is just, you just don't even know until you do it. And it makes you feel like even more yourself. I feel like you're getting to express and show parts of yourself through self-expression, through just like what you wear. And then it helps you embody and emanate that energy. And even if you're someone who has a very simple routine and if you don't want to wear makeup, you know, if you don't, if you're not, hell, if you don't even like to like you soap.
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This can go for any level, but when you're doing those moments of caring for yourself, do it with the most divine intention of like, this is what my body wants, and this is how I want to look, and this is how I want to present myself. Absolutely. And don't give a fuck about anything else. That's all that matters. And am I comfortable?
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And letting go letting go of this expectation that like you have to be a certain way or else you'll be judged and a lot of times with that I think women especially we feel like oh like if I'm if I don't prove myself if I'm not living in my Masculine and I'm not talking about clothes and the way we present ourselves anymore.
Accepting Help for Mental Well-being
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I'm talking about energetically
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If we're like a lot of us live in this like I have to be I have to be able to fully take care of myself No help ever on anything and guys that's another way to really step into your divine feminine Be open to receiving help from others whether that is your family your parents your roommates your spouse Best friends a neighbor who wants to who has noticed like hey, you're going through something Can I like cook you some dinner or something? like be open to receiving help from people because it even though
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in a moment sometimes it feels like a shot at your ego and you're like oh i thought i could handle everything when you don't have to your mental health gets so much better it really really really does it like it takes such a toll on you to do this like
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I don't know. It's hard for me, especially financially. I feel like that's something that really I struggled with is accepting financial assistance. I also think it's one of those things that if you are in a position where you need help and someone's offering it, do not pass that up. Never ever, because not everyone has those people. Just be so grateful. Again, intention is everything.
00:16:20
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if you're feeling like oh my god i'm taking this money from them but like if you're having any sort of negative feeling then that's what this transaction will be but if you're going into this as like wow this incredible human is doing this for me someday in the future i'll be able to you know cook them another meal or walk their dog or like maybe i'll just get up and shovel their driveway for them then i won't even tell you know like there's so many ways that we can express and share energy and love and stuff that isn't
00:16:44
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transactional you know absolutely and I yeah I a lot of my bitches out there needed to hear it okay I'm adding you right now this is a sub tweet at you if you feel personally attacked with love it is about you
00:16:57
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Um, but then, you know, that might be something that you need to kind of look into as well. Like, okay, really observe your PMS. I mentioned this on our YouTube video. So you guys make sure you head over to our YouTube channel. Um, but really start observing your PMS if you are someone who gets a period. So something that I was so, okay.
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I fucking mean by this by observing because you're like, yeah, bitch. I don't have a choice to observe it I go through it every fucking month start taking note even in a journal and Logging like what were your symptoms? Are they more emotional? Are they more physical? Are they more, you know bringing up wounds from the past or is it more anxiety? Like what are you experiencing? And if it is if it's none of that and what if it's physical, right? Are you having extremely intense cramps like
00:17:40
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honestly that could be your body telling you like something is off, like something is off with your with your balance, with your hormone system, with your reproductive system, like maybe go ahead and make an appointment with a guy? No, I don't know. Take this message, whoever needs to hear it, however you need it. But like, seriously, you guys like don't
Shadow Work and Emotional Reflection
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Sorry, I'm high as fuck. Hey, that's what we do. That's what we do. But do some shadow work, basically, is what I'm saying. Like, really, like, really, like, do some self-assessment. Check in with yourself. Observe what your body needs. And if it's an emotional thing, that's when I like to do shadow work. If I'm noticing I'm having a really stressed out and emotional moon time.
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I'm in my journal all day long Even if I have like nothing super important to say I'm typically carrying it around with me because I'm just like I'm not weirdo Oh my god, not to sound like a pick-me-ass Kendall Jenner looking ass bitch like I'm that weirdo like I journaled that makes me a weird girl. I'm so quirky I like if I'm not feeling like journaling like in the mom or like right like I don't carry mine around with me But I'll leave mine open like I wish I didn't say that because it is true, but I hate how it sounded like no
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I carry it around with me. It really didn't sound that bad. It sounded great. I love that. I was just gonna say like instead of carrying it with me I like leave mine open on my kitchen table and then like I just like whenever I because I have a small apartment so I walk around my kitchen table a thousand times a day and I have to jot something like I'm always oh that's efficient as fuck too see. Then you're not holding something. Yeah thank you. My high ass.
00:19:04
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You can tell I'm high all the time. It's okay. I'll talk about shadow work for a minute. Thank you. All right. So obviously we have talked about in the past, we have on our Patreon a little, little subtle dig there. We'll drop there on our Patreon. I'm running a dark feminine rehab. So today I wanted to share a little like sample of that because it obviously applies to this. So this is like the kind of shadow work that we're talking about. I'm going to share
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Like an entire this is like the day five and I'm gonna share like so it's broken down We have like today's intention thoughts for today and then the journal prompts and I'm actually gonna share like my response to the journal you guys This is such a fucking treat. You have no idea how amazing this is like I I didn't do this for the first like week that she was running it because I was on my meantime and I was at an emotional place where I was not able to take in this kind of thing I wasn't
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Like I think that's why I say it's important to observe. I was the type of emotional I was getting really triggered about like PTSD shit. So I was not at a place to be doing this kind of shadow work. But then as soon as I was off, I was like, well, let me see. And I was so fucking into it. I did like three in one day. Like my brain was like, oh, this is a big treat, y'all. Listen up. Turn your ears on.
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Okay, so dark feminine rehab day five, today's intention. Today I trust that everything that is happening is happening in divine timing. Today I pause and allow source to take control. Thoughts for today. Yesterday on day four, we sat with our inner child. We thought of who and what feminine energy influences we felt as a child and how they shaped us. Reflecting on these times and influences allows us to draw connections and see patterns.
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Shadow work and healing rely heavily on identifying patterns in your past to help you break the cycle. Learn the lesson the universe is giving you and move forward to a higher vibrational being. If your biggest desire in this life is to find a partner who completes you, yet all of your romantic encounters and in poor outcomes reflect. What patterns can you find and analyze that you can see and learn and adapt in the next opportunity that comes your way?
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Now when I say analyze, I don't mean hyper fixate and spiral. I mean, sit back looking at the situation from an outside perspective. Try replacing the you in the situation with someone you love, like a friend. Replay the memory with this loved one in your place and what advice would you give to them?
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That's not always easy. Sometimes it's a real bitch. When I was 23 or 24 and deep in the online dating game, I kept having these incredible talks with guys through texts. We would really connect, have a couple of great dates, and then almost always something would happen along the lines of what I call like a gentle ghost.
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which is where they text you saying they might be busy for a while and then they kind of fall off the face of the earth but it's like a slow burn. I kept getting so upset and frustrated with myself. I must be doing something wrong to scare these guys off. And I was. But it wasn't what I thought. When I sat down and re-evaluated and looked at my dating history from the point of view of a friend, it all clicked.
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I was making a huge mistake. I was putting expectations on others as well as on myself. I was building these tiny things into huge things. In my head, the reality I created was that these guys were amazing and so kind, and I needed to impress them and be enough for them. Fuck, I was wrong.
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I realized that if I was my friend, I would tell them to fuck off. I deserve better. I realized that the expectation of dating leading to marriage, the expectation of dating leading, oh my God, I released the expectation of dating leading to marriage. Not in like an I hate love way, but this is just an experience way. Everything is an experience and an experience that goes poorly is still so valuable. The value is in the experience itself, not the outcome. Read that again.
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the values and the experience itself, not the outcome. When I changed my dating perspective, it all switched. The bad dates became my favorite because they taught me so much about who I am and what I want and what I will not accept. The same can be said for almost anything. Your worst jobs will teach you the very most, your worst days, your hardest friendships ending. All of these moments that surround us with pain are the most important parts of our life. They are the parts we survived from.
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Today's activity, live in this day with no expectations, just allow each moment to happen and adapt as they come, enjoy. And then today's journal prompt was to think back to an experience where you can't find any value, a time that was only bad, and then find a positive, find a lesson, what light can you find in your hardest memory? And so this is my like now journal entry to it.
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So many of my bad memories are so blurred by years of forcing myself to forget. Sometimes it amazes me how little I remember. I truly am quite skilled at erasing my mind. Whiskey helped a bit for sure. A time in my life where I felt very low, very bad. The morning I woke up next to a man who was not my partner.
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a man who I worked with, a man who had a partner of his own. This is a time where I was just bad. Thinking about this now, I want to curl up and disappear. I can't believe how I acted the night before. I was flirting with someone who I knew was in a committed relationship while I was committed to someone else, simply because the idea of passing up on this opportunity was something I couldn't do. And why is that? Because in my early years, I had a very fucked up sense of love and I did not love myself. I thought that fucking my coworker that
00:24:13
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I thought fucking my coworker that everyone thought was so hot would make me feel so, so good. Everyone wanted him and the fat girl was going to do it. And I did. And when I woke up, I felt nothing good, nothing at all. And at worst, he pretended like it never happened way too easily. And it felt even worse when I had to go home and see my partner at the time and act like I hadn't just done what I just did. Find a positive in that. OK, I didn't get caught kind of a positive, but in a true reflective positive moment,
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That moment that night I taught myself just how far I was away from myself. That I acted the way that I acted and at that time in my life I was so unaligned with my higher self. It taught me that I was so far from me. I was not this person that I am who is sitting here now. I was not a fraction of her and while it was not okay what I did and I could try to blame alcohol or weed, it was me. But it was also about me. I fucked him because that was the only way I could feel myself, feel good. Having a hot guy want to fuck me is what I thought was love.
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And that was what I thought gave me value. If I'm being honest, for a week I was on kind of a high. This high of living this chaotic, painful life and wanting to see how far I could push it. I'm grateful every single day that I did not lose myself in that life. I'm so grateful that I'm here now as this version of me with so much love for myself now and then. So yeah. That was really awesome.
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Um, so yeah, that's a little sample. That's a little sample. Um I feel like that speaks for itself Honestly, um, thank you so much for sharing that and being vulnerable with us. That was amazing And I felt like I felt like we all could kind of relate in some ways so that in one way or another Yeah, I mean just like feeling like you're you've like lost yourself. Um, okay, bitch, so I don't want to cry
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um because now my- does anyone else have that type of brain where someone says something and then you're like hmm that really applies to me because of this situation and then you're spiraling so no it's beautiful because i'm like i will go reflect on this and do some journaling after this episode
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Oh, God. Hey, always good to be real with yourself. Well, exactly. And like, right, like the whole thing, like, you know, right. I read that and it was it was emotional and I wanted to cry reading that there was I was tearing up. But like, again, like it is a positive. Like you have to when we reflect on those moments, you have to then be able to shut it off. You know, I can you like that's what the shadow work is about, is about like being there and allowing that moment and that feel. But then knowing that that is not now that is not real. Like you are just healing from that moment, which is important.
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You have to revisit exactly and that's you know, they say that when you go through something traumatizing it changes your brain chemistry And that is true. That's why we have PTSD. That's what that is But healing also changes your brain chemistry and there this is a practice This is not obviously as like we're not putting you under, you know, like a hypnotized
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situation or anything.
Healing and Personal Narrative
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No, no. But this is, you know, in a lot of ways, this is rewriting your story, but because you're able to go back and instead of seeing it in the darkness, however you saw in the past, you are seeing it now, like how Kelsey said, like, what did you learn from that? So when you do this, you kind of go back and you like tell your subconscious mind, like the next time you think about it, you think about this a little bit more fondly. It heals you every time you think about this. The pain is less and less and less because you're changing the story. Right. And I mean, yes, complete. I mean, this
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happened, um, I'm 27 right now, six years ago, seven years ago, um, so like, right, and this is the first time I've ever really spoken about, like, so like, right, it takes so much time to heal these things, it's not, and like, right, that's because throughout time I've been able to slowly look at this moment and have those, exactly like you said, like, heal from it a little bit so that now I can, right, I was in that moment two seconds ago, and now I feel like I'm like, hey, yeah, like, I'm, you know, like, you have to, you almost befriend your moments of your past that are hard, and
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Yeah, I don't know. Whoa, that's deep bitch.
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I got some demons. I got a makeup with I guess Okay, and tell us about the your thing cuz I've just read it and now I'm oh my god So you guys know so we're gonna end this with a little crazy little tip So this is for all my people who get periods, right?
Unconventional Uses of Period Blood
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I've recently seen Going on the social media that the witches these days are using their period blood to like water their plants Yeah, or to also use as a mask on their face
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And let me tell you ladies, I'm loving this for you. Go off bitches, go off witches, go off anyone that gets a period. However, I gotta be honest, my moon time is... Yes, it is a beautiful thing. I agree. I get it. It's traumatizing though for me, you guys. Physically, okay? Physically, and I literally mean not just like, oh, how does it feel? How does it look? It physically is traumatizing, okay? Y'all aren't the ones that have to wake up to a crime scene like I do.
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I am not at a place where me manhandling my period blood is going to do me any good. No, unfortunately, I'm with you on that. I respect the fuck out of it. And I hope maybe at some point in my life, I will find quite that piece. Hey, maybe one day, maybe one day they will water our plants with my period. Right. That could happen. That could happen. But right now, no, I'm going to applaud it. I'm going to watch from the sideline, guys, and I'm going to love it.
00:29:34
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You know who you guys should follow though, on Instagram. Sucks I can't remember her name. Well, cause she does this. She does, Liz, Liz Godavish. Ooh.
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Liza Godavish, Liza Godavish. I don't know y'all, try to look that up. I thought you were gonna say Bethany C. Myers, she's the creator of the Pecan Project and she does, she's the one I saw watering her plants with her period blood. Okay, yes, that as well. Liza Godavish or whatever the fuck I'm trying to say, if you can just try to type this in in your search bar, it's a blonde manifestation coach, right? That's who I'm talking about, that's the account. She does the period blood. Just type in Liza and look for the blonde.
00:30:16
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yes it's just like a strawberry blonde you guys this poor queen out there I'm like trying to give her a shout out and I'm like I don't know who you are but I know who you are we're gonna find you and we're gonna tag you and give you the best shout out yeah we will um but she does the period blood on her face and I think that's very cool if you want to follow someone who does that follow her what don't follow me for that purpose though follow me but don't expect me to be putting it on my face or my plants yet have you heard about vapping
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I have
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I'm already married. I already got him. I literally, when I heard about it, I was like, ooh, I don't feel like I need to do this right now. Yeah, I'm good. But if I was still in my single days, I'm like, ooh. I would try it. I would put perfume with it. You think?
00:31:16
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Yeah, I think it'd be a lot. I don't know. I don't know. It depends on how smelly your coochie is. And by smelly, I don't mean bad smelly. I mean how potent is the scent. And it changes by day. And it changes by day, by the time, by the week. You know what I'm saying? By the time of day. Exactly. But that's why I'm like, I don't know. I don't know. Right. I'm not trying to say I have a smelly coo coo. I'm just trying to... I'm literally just... How throughout this episode we've used maybe 50 different words for vagina. We had like... Yoni coo coo. Something else. Coochie.
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Thanks for watching
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that's what uh that's what uh they say in broad city she's like um she hides her weed and her pussy like she'll like pussy weed yeah alana will put it in a little bag when she has to like go to abby's house and she doesn't want like to get caught with it she would like put it in a plastic bag roll it up and put it in her pussy and then when she got to abby's house she just took it out and abby was like i know you didn't just fucking pull weed out of your vagina and she was iconic she was like i don't understand the vayanya is self-cleansing
00:32:18
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Hilarious. Y'all should watch Broad City. Wow, we've given you guys a lot of homework this episode. A lot of people to check out. I hope you guys enjoyed this feminine as fuck, divine as fuck episode. I loved this. I loved this episode too, you guys. And you know what we're gonna do today? We're gonna go have a sexy beach photo shoot. You probably already saw the pics by now. Enjoy. Enjoy. We love you guys. Stay high. Bye.